02x03 - Boa Pessoa

[bunniefuu]

Listen, why don't you
just come to São Paulo?

ON PREVIOUS EPISODES

I think I would even be sadder while
you're at the ceremony

-and I couldn't go.
-You can come with me.

[Bia] Paula wouldn't want me to be there.

[Paula] I met someone online.

He's not weird.
He's not a bad person at all.

Just a really sweet guy named David.

-[yelps]
-[mother] This is Silvia, Bianca.

I love your mother very much.

SILVIA HAS PROPOSED!

-Wow, that's so wonderful.
-[chuckles]

Almost Something is a series
about what it means to be young today.

-Ready to start casting, Glauce?
-All ready.

They absolutely loved my series.

-[chuckles, yelps]
-Ulisses is out… I mean of the studio.

Ratings weren't good. They changed
everything and lots of people were fired.

I'm really desperate.
My savings aren't looking so good now.

I have a job for you.

I have an order for a drama. Just an
inspiring movie about, you know, family.

Dad, I'm going to go on a retreat.

I just rented a cabin
in the middle of absolute nowhere.

Hi, Dad.

Well, I don't understand how a person
turns into a monster like you did to her.

Do you want me to tell your daughters?

[grunts]

You are not going to ruin my life,
do you hear?

You're addicted to your own self.

'Cause all you think about is you.

[phone chimes]

PAULA: CALL ME ASAP.
VICTOR IS IN THE HOSPITAL.

[groans]

[groans]

I've already… [clears throat]

I've texted her
and gave her my address and all.

Bia's on her way.

Thanks for letting me recover here.

-I swear I'll be gone by this evening.
-No.

You're staying here
till you're fully recovered.

What if it gets worse?

You're being such a great friend.

I really should have appreciated you more
when you--

Don't finish that sentence.

Don't go there.

[♪ theme song playing]

BENEFITS WITH FRIENDS

EPISODE 3
A GOOD PERSON

[sighs]

Where is he?

He's resting.

Water?

[grunts] I'll take some. Thanks.

[sighs]

Paula, I wanted to thank you
for taking care of Victor.

He's my business partner.
It's more convenient if he's alive.

[chuckles]

Thanks.

You should take better care of him,
be more present.

I think that's
the least a decent person can do.

You know,
I'm already feeling guilty as hell.

You don't have to make it any worse.

And it's not like you wanted me there
at the opening either.

-So…
-[scoffs]

If I were you, I would've just
shown up anyway. Screw it.

What matters is being there
for the people we love.

Last room down the hall.

-[grunts]
-Hi.

No, don't move. Don't get up.

Hi. Hi.

I'm sorry. How are you holding up?

No. You don't have to answer that.

Just forgive me, okay?

I completely lost signal and there was
no Wi-Fi at the retreat out there.

Your messages didn't come through

-until I left the center.
-It's okay.

[breathes shakily]
You're not too upset with me, are you?

Can I… Can I just smile
and fix everything?

I'm not upset at all.

You couldn't have known.
It's all good now.

But do you still love me?

I always will.

Why are you asking me that?

Everything okay?

Something happen at the retreat?

Don't you think I'm a…

selfish jerk who doesn't…

who doesn't think
about anybody but herself?

Who-who never puts you first?

[grunts]

[chuckles]
You're a little self-centered sometimes,

-but I love you the way you are.
-[groans]

-It's part of your charm.
-[groans]

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for being so distant,

for not… [groans]

…not being there for you.

I wasn't at the… at the opening in Rio.

And now
I missed the opening in São Paulo too.

[sniffles]

You could've died that day.
I wouldn't even have known because…

because I was…

I was looking for inspiration
for some stupid movie

that may never even happen. [sniffles]

Forget about it.

How did the writing go?

Did the place inspire you?

[Bia] This is me now,

trying to write the story of my parents.

I spent weeks working on it,

writing nonstop,

reliving my past.

A marriage falling apart.

Constant fighting.

My father’s yelling
provided the soundtrack

for most of my childhood memories.

A truly toxic relationship.

A truly toxic person.

[father]
'Cause all you think about is you.

[Bia] That's not who I am.

[father] You're addicted to your own self.
Do you hear me?

[Bia] I don't want to be like that.
I can't be like that.

[toilet flushing]

It's complete sh*t, for f*ck's sake.

Script's done.

My last chance.

This is me now.

Back in the real world.

-Back in my little home.
-There you go.

-Thanks.
-My plants.

My Fausto.

ONE MONTH LATER

[moaning]

[moans, chuckles]

[grunting, chuckling]

[Victor grunts]

[sighs]

sh*t.

-The condom broke.
-What?

-sh*t.
-[groans]

I'll go get you
a morning-after pill, okay?

[sighs] God, this sucks.

That-That stupid pill
always messes me up for an entire week.

Would you rather risk having a baby?

-[groans]
-Come with me.

We can grab some food on the way.

[sighs] Maybe I do prefer that.

Wait, what?

Maybe I prefer to take the risk.

Of having a baby?

Yeah. Fate decides for us
whether the timing is right.

-Let's just roll the dice.
-Oh, yeah.

I'm dying to tell our kid the story
of how they came into existence.

"So, one day your mom suddenly
got addicted to gambling.

-And then…"
-[chuckles, grunts]

Okay. All right.

You want a rational decision?

Okay.

What do you want the most in life?

To have a family.

With whom?

-With you.
-Ta-da!

-[chuckles]
-But how about you?

[groans]

I guess maybe that's just… I don't know.

Maybe that's exactly what's
been missing for both of us.

I really want to make you happy.

And I really want to find something
that makes me happy too.

Um, I just…

I just can't keep living with all the
sadness that comes with what I do.

I know maybe
that's not the right reason to get married

and have a baby.

But is there really
a right reason or a wrong reason?

I keep thinking that…

a baby of ours,

our… [chuckles] …little girl…

God, she'd be the cutest little thing.

And I'd love her so much.

And maybe I'd…
maybe I'd feel a little less empty.

[chuckles]

"Sweetheart, your mom was depressed…

and instead of therapy and medication,

-we had you."
-[groans]

[sniffles] I thought you would be happier.

There's this emptiness inside of me.

I feel like it gets stronger
when my mind is not focused on work,

or when I'm not f*cking up
another relationship.

But I need to find another way
to fill this hole inside of me.

[groans]

-Hi, Mom! How was the trip?
-Oh, sweetheart, come here.

-I missed you so much!
-[Bia] Good to see you.

Since I was unemployed,

I organized a beautiful wedding
for my mom and Silvia.

-Thank you.
-[Bia] Hi, Silvia.

They were both born in Rio,

so they wanted to get married here.

-What a stunning house.
-Hi.

-Bianca!
-You like it?

-How are you?
-Look at this.

-It's so much bigger than mine.
-Hey, Mom. I got it.

-Was it sent back?
-Yeah, after one bite.

This thing tastes spoiled.

I fought hard to keep
"Delizious" on the menu.

You know that, right?

One day I'll have my own shop
and I'll only sell good stuff.

Do you think that
if I put a ring inside a cream puff,

there's a risk Bia will swallow it?

Huh?

I'm sorry. I've just been asking AI
for some… I don't know…

ideas on how I should propose to her.

But it just gave me corny ideas.

You're more creative, you can help me out.

Don't you waste too much time
thinking about that woman?

What else can I think of?

There's nothing else on my mind.

They don't even accept my ideas
for my own restaurant anymore.

f*ck that. Open another restaurant then.

Just don't pour everything you've got
into one person.

That'll end badly.

Yeah, that happened before.

[sighs] Victor.

I'm the kind of person
who keeps making the same damn mistake.

And I'll tell you what I've learned.

Hmm. What have you learned?

You have to avoid
always making the same mistakes.

Are you serious?
That's all you've got for me?

Yeah. Try to make different mistakes,
you know?

[phone ringing]

I gotta take this. It's Paula.

Trading an obsession with one woman
for another

is still the same mistake, okay?

It doesn't count as two.

[Paula] What do regular people even do?

I mean, how do they behave
at these events?

[Victor chuckles]

Well, definitely not by suddenly asking
questions like that out of nowhere.

[sighs] David wants to introduce me
to the rest of his family.

-Thanks.
-His family is

full of engineers and doctors.

I mean, pretty normal people.

Okay. So, what's the problem?

The problem
is that I don't get normal people.

You know, I'm kinda weird.

You must've dealt with tons
of people like that on the website.

Doctors, lawyers…

Do you want me to strip

-in front of my boyfriend's family?
-[Victor chuckles]

You'll adjust. Everything's okay.

You're a different person now.

And you've already won over

-his two little girls.
-One is a baby.

-All it took was some baby food.
-[chuckles]

How can I help you?

Just listen to me. I don't know.

You're the one who said
you wanted to be my friend.

Isn't that what friends do?
They call each other to vent when…

they start to feel anxious.

I guess. I've never had a friend.
[chuckles]

Tell me it's gonna be okay.

Everything will be.

Thanks a lot.

People say that for the sake of it.
But when you say it, I believe you.

[chuckles]

-Bia?
-[Bia] Hmm?

Bia, are you busy right now?
I need to talk to you.

Come here, please.

I need you to help me
with something, honey.

Sure, no problem.

You know, the vows. The thing
I'm supposed to say at the wedding,

-the speech I have to read to Silvia…
-Mm-hmm.

…in front of everyone?

I wanted to ask
if you could write it for me, please.

What do you mean?

It's personal. You're the one
who needs to write it.

But Bia, I don't…

I can't write about the stuff I'm feeling.

I just…

I really struggle with that.

-You're the one who's good at it, huh?
-[scoffs]

I could maybe come up with
something beautiful for you.

It's just, uh…

it wouldn't compare to…

your experience, what you feel,
your truth, you know?

-Just the honesty of it all…
-Sweetheart, listen. I'm your mother.

Don't you know me by now?

Come on, Bia.

I'm…

I'm a pretty practical,
down-to-earth person.

I'm not at all a romantic kind of person.

If I wrote something,
it would probably sound like this.

"Silvia, I like you.
Let's stay together." That's it.

-Come on, that's terrible.
-No, it's great. I love it.

I can't believe this.

-You're messing with me, right?
-[chuckles]

This is terrible. Come on.

Oh, Bianca. Stop being so selfish
and help me out here.

Come on. No, that's not selfishness, Mom.

Why's that selfish?

Why does everyone just suddenly hate me
and think I'm self-centered and selfish?

Ah.

Hmm. Is everything all right?

[sighs] Yeah, everything's fine.

Uh… I'll do it.

I'll write it for you.
Don't worry about it.

[father]
'Cause all you think about is you.

You're addicted to your own self.
Do you hear me?

[gasps]

[breathing heavily]

Are you okay?

Wanna talk about it?

Do you feel like I'm letting you down?

What do you mean?

We used to talk all the time
about a magical life.

I'm not feeling magical,
I'm feeling plain and boring.

Do you miss going on adventures?

Silvio, do I look like someone
who likes going on adventures?

[chuckles]

Come here.

[sighs]

But, yeah, we could think of something.

You wanna travel?
Where would you like to go?

Europe, Asia, United States?

I've never been abroad.

It would be cool, right?

But I can't afford it right now.

Oh, I'll take care of that.

No, I don't wanna depend on your money.

See? I'm such a buzzkill.

No, you're never a buzzkill.

-Tell me I'm not a drag.
-You're not.

♪ Girl, come into my arms tonight… ♪

[Victor] Who are these people?

Some are my mom's childhood
and teenage friends from Rio.

The others came from Brasília by bus,
for the free food and booze.

And some extras
from a commercial I directed,

to make it look like a huge party.

-Did you invite Marcelo?
-No. Never crossed my mind.

'Cause if you invited him, that's okay.

Just wanted to tell you.

But let me know,
so I can be ready and all.

He's your friend. I've accepted that.

I love you so much, I could even end up
being friends with him myself.

-Shall we?
-Hey! Come back here now!

[chuckles]

Paula, we have to go now,
or we'll be late.

-[knocks on door]
-Paula?

I'm not going anymore.

What? What's going on?

Paula?

Open up, I need to let the babysitter in.

What's wrong? What's going on?

[crying]

This is what.
I just saw a story your cousin posted.

-[scoffs] What?
-And I lost it.

What's wrong with that?

I've never been to a family party
in all my life.

This would be the first one.

My family was just me and my grandma.

She worked all the time,
so I raised myself.

And the rest of the family hated us.

Calm down, Paula.

Deep down, my whole family
kind of hates each other too.

That's pretty much
the Brazilian family standard, right?

-It's okay.
-I forced myself to be different,

to be weird on purpose
to keep this wall up.

Because if life was gonna be hard on me,

I had to fight back all the time.

But I'm tired.

What if your uncle used the site,
recognizes me,

and tells the rest of the family?

They won't allow us to stay together.

-They won't allow us to stay together?
-No.

Paula, what are you talking about?

It's me, okay?

I'm an engineer, a widower,
a father of two girls.

I do whatever I want to do with my life.

That doesn't change
the fact that I'm weird

and different from everybody else, David.

-[sniffles]
-[chuckles]

-Different and weird.
-God.

Can I show you something?

[♪ R & B music playing over speakers]

So tell me, how have you been?

[laughs]

-Wow, it's beautiful.
-Yeah?

-Hi! Ooh!
-[chuckles]

-Hi!
-Hi.

[chuckles]

Fausto, this is Thais, my favorite cousin.

-Hi!
-Ah.

This is the cousin who was
in love with her best friend too.

Worst thing I've ever done.

I should've never crossed that line.

We had some fun for a while,
but then it got stale.

You know what I mean? Yeah.

I spent almost a month
without having sex, yeah.

But it's all right. What can you do?
Thank God it's over.

-That's life, right, I guess? Right?
-Yeah.

Yeah, you're pretty old,
you know? So that's fine.

You don't need it that much. I still have
my whole life ahead of me. [chuckles]

Oh, champagne.

Excuse me. [chuckles]

-[chuckles] Hi…
-Hi! How are things with you?

-Wow, everything looks gorgeous!
-Good to see you. Having a good time?

[David] This one here is Aunt Jussara,
it's her birthday.

She owns the house we're going to today.

And these here are her children,
with my Uncle Walter.

Look, here we have Camila, Sérgio,

this one is Ludmila,

Fábio.

I don't understand.

So, my aunt found out she
couldn't have children of her own.

So she started adopting
stuffed animals with my uncle.

And they treat them
as if they were people.

They take them for walks, feed them.

Even baptize them.

Everyone is weird.

And that's okay.

[sighs]

[David] Yeah.

Uh, my wife thought I was a piece of sh*t.

Yeah.

She really hated me.

And then, just before she passed,
she told me Flora wasn't my daughter.

We didn't have enough time to
find out if it was true or if she…

just wanted to mess with my head.

[Paula] Jesus Christ!

[David] Yeah.

And obviously, I'll…

I'll never run any tests to confirm.

[Paula] Oh.

[David] That's life, right?

It's tragic,

complex, weird.

And do you know why I like you?

Do you know?

'Cause you are tragic… [chuckles]

…complex, weird.

[chuckles]

So, Flora started this thing
since her mom died, she…

she grabs a crayon and starts
drawing ghosts on the bedroom wall.

And I think that's weird as hell.

And I wanna be with someone who gets that.

So if you…

if you think you're weird,

then be weird.

And gorgeous.

Can I be weird?

-You can. You're almost there now.
-I am. I'm with you.

Oh!

[♪ "My Pillow Tonight" playing]

Hey, Silvia.
Everything here looks gorgeous.

[chuckles] Yeah, I love it.
It's beautiful.

Anywhere you guys wanna
see while you're in Rio?

Any kinky little love motels around?

-[guest] Hi, Silvia!
-[Silvia] Hi!

Or is it okay if we do it
in your place tonight?

Uh, uh, actually, I can recommend a few.

I'll follow up with you later.

Thank you, sweetheart.

"Love is finding comfort
inside another person.

Sharing the silence.

Having someone there to
share the weight of life…"

No!

What is this? This is too depressing.

I don't know what's going on.
I swear I really tried.

I think I only know how to
write about love when I'm in love.

Do you wanna talk about this?

Feelings aren't really your thing, though.

No, they're really not! I was actually
gonna suggest you talk to Silvia.

[chuckles]

Sweetheart,
are you not in love with Victor?

Very much!
Of course, he means everything to me.

It's just that I think we're past

that stage of butterflies
in your stomach, you know?

The mystery, the adventure.

And that's okay too, because… I mean,

life with someone isn't
really about that, right?

It's-It's about comfort. It's about
finding comfort in the silence…

Bianca.

Listen, with all due respect and love
I have for you, you know I love you,

but you're completely wrong.

Oh, come on, Mom.

Everybody knows that passion and love
are two completely different things.

And I can't possibly risk doing anything
that might hurt my relationship.

It's incredibly healthy, you know?

Yeah, you're right.
Having good company is essential.

But there's gotta be passion too, Bianca.

[sighs, stammers]

I love Victor.

He's my person. We're just different.

And that's okay, because
I'm gonna change who I am.

I'll make everyone proud.
I'll show everyone I'm a good person too.

-I know, but I just think you are--
-[♪ harp music playing]

[gasps]

-It's time.
-Oh, Bianca. It's time.

-Go on! Trust my speech. It will be fine.
-[pants] Okay.

It's what everyone will wanna hear.

-It's a grown-up, modern message…
-Okay.

…about comfort and stability.

-I'm nervous.
-You'll nail it.

-I better…
-Break a leg.

-[chuckles] Wish me luck.
-Uh-huh. You got this.

[sighs]

Well, everyone, I… I had this whole
speech prepared for today.

But then I realized it…

it didn't feel very honest.

So I decided I'm just gonna wing it.

There's this… this video online
that we watch every single day.

You might think that's crazy,
but we watch it every single day.

And this TV appearance by Fábio Júnior.

He went on that show
to sing that beautiful song,

"If I Didn't Love You So Much,"
by the amazing Ivete Sangalo.

But before he actually sang the song,
he decided to recite a poem.

And Silvia always cries
whenever she hears that poem.

This is for you, my love.

[sighs]

It's the woe, and the glow.

It's all the mistrust.

[both] And the hope inside.

It's the sorrow. It's the hush.

It's the frozen ice.

[both] Melting in the glow.

It's you and I, face to face,
always having to face who I am.

It's facing all my faults
and all my reasons.

-The truth I parade, and my illusions.
-And all my illusions…

-And all of my strength.
-And all my weakness.

-And all of the freedom I have.
-And all the limits too.

[chuckles] When I'm standing
in front of you, I can feel all…

[both] All of the pain I've got.

Yet only when I stand
before you does love rise.

-Vast and unending. All my love.
-All of my love.

All of my love. I love you so much.

[crowd cheering, whistling]

[clears throat] That's it. It's done,
it's done, it's done.

I love you.

-Let's stay together forever.
-Forever.

I love you.

Will you marry me?

I don't mean to freak you out.

I know this is a big step,
but it just came out.

I want to live this with you.

Just came out? Are you sure?

To say it. To do it. To feel it…

We're kinda married already, right?
We already live together.

Yeah, but I feel like
throwing a big party.

To invite everyone we know,
to invite my family, your family.

I want to watch you walking down
the aisle, gorgeous in a wedding dress.

After that, to use the money I'm making

to buy a house for us
and for our children,

with a big old backyard.

-I'd look super hot as a bride.
-You would.

So, is this a yes?

Yes, it's a yes. Of course.

Victor! [laughs]

I was gonna use a cream puff,
but it looked kinda gross.

[laughs]

Victor…

My God…

Here, take it. Just put it on.

-[laughs]
-[shushes]

Wow.

There's one more thing.

[Bia] Oh, my God!

I booked us a flight to go abroad
together for the first time too.

-Oh. Oh.
-It'll be our adventure.

Come on, Victor…

I don't wanna be dependent on
your money, I said that to you, didn't I?

-I know, but I got carried away.
-I told you to wait for--

-Forgive me, okay.
-[sighs]

Of course I forgive you.

Let's just get married, Victor.

We're gonna be so happy one day.

-I love you so much.
-[Bia] Love you.

See, Dad?

You were wrong, you know.

I'm not anything like you.
I'm a good person now.

[phone buzzes]

Hi.

Hi, gimme-- gimme just a sec. Thank you.

I'm at… at a place
where I can't hear you well.

This is great!

This is great, Bia!
It's really f*cking good!

You wrote a mature, grown-up story,
but it still has your voice.

Hard to believe.

I honestly thought it was terrible.

[Lucas] Hey, my wife
and my mother-in-law loved it.

Pack your bags,
we're going to Porto Alegre.

God, I'm so excited.
Can I book your flight for tomorrow?

Well… [sighs]

It's just I'd already moved on in my head.

I wasn't even thinking
about the script anymore.

You know, I'm trying to-to slow down now,
I wanna settle down. I mean…

I wanna get married, have kids, you know…

Bia, I'm offering to
finance your movie right now.

Why would you walk away from that?

For some normal little life?

You didn't even tell me you had
finished the script. What is it about?

It's… It's a movie about the relationship
between my mom and my dad.

Like, about how violent and a*usive
he was with her. And so I…

[sighs]

I went… I went to see my father
while you were in São Paulo.

I went to the commune where he lives to…
to talk to him,

to try to understand him,
confront him, I guess.

But why didn't you share
any of that with me, Bia?

Because I didn't think it was
gonna work out. Because it never does.

It's already frustrating enough for me.

And then it's even worse having
to disappoint you too in the process.

And so, it's one less person to tell,
"Hmm, you know that project? Yeah, well,

hmm, it didn't happen, so."

This one did, though.

If I decide to go through with this movie…

then it means we'd have
to put off our wedding plans

and the trip and even the baby
just for a little while longer.

Of course.

It's your dream.

There's no hurry.

We just got carried away
with this Fábio Junior.

[chuckles]

I'm gonna have to spend
some time down south

because of all the meetings.

And then we're gonna sh**t
the whole movie there.

But I do wanna marry you.

I just wanted to bring this up now
because, uh…

I don't want you
getting your hopes up that…

that it's still gonna happen soon.

I know I was the one who
wanted to do it fast, but…

I think it's okay
if we get married next year.

It's okay.

Good thing I got my period yesterday.
[laughing]

Can you imagine
if I was pregnant? Total train wreck.

-[chuckles]
-Yeah.

Don't be like that.

I mean…

If you want a smaller wedding,
maybe we can make it work. Right?

We can fit it in somewhere, on a day off.
During a break in the schedule.

We can get married any day you want to.
We can just go down to city hall.

No, it's all right.
Don't worry, we'll take our time.

Enjoy your mom's wedding today
and your good news.

I'm happy for you.

Did you really want to marry me?

Or was it just a plan B while
the rest of your life was a mess?

[Bia] This is me now.

And the only thing worse than doubting
whether you're a good person or not…

is watching the best person I know…

start wondering the very same thing.

[♪ crowd singing in Portuguese]

Look, Bia, you're 29 years old.

Next month, you'll be 30.

[Bia] This is me now.

And this is the first time I've
ever felt angry at Victor in my life.

It's not annoyance. It's not hurt. Anger.

I couldn't imagine ever
feeling that way about him.

I know you're supposed to
care about other people.

But what am I supposed to do
if what I feel

after a personal win is so much bigger?

Is there something wrong with me?

Or is it possible that I still can,
that it's not too late,

to be a little selfish?

What if, deep down,
Victor is holding me back?

I love him more than anything, but…

[sighs] No.

God, that's such an awful thought.

I'm awful. I'm…
I'm disgusting. I'm pathetic.

Did you invite Marcelo? [echoes]

I love you so much, I would even
consider being friends with him too.

[Bia] But that's my curse.

Victor is such a good person
that, by comparison,

I'm always gonna feel like
a bad person whenever I'm around him.

This is me now,

getting asked an important question
at exactly the wrong time.

I wish he'd done something
a little more special.

My mind was on my mom,
on Silvia, not on us.

And he bought the ticket
even though I asked him not to.

I wanted to handle it on my own.

This is me now.

-[children laughing]
-[Bia] And I hate kids.

And I hate half of these cousins.

And I hate Fábio Júnior.

[laugh echoes]

[Bia] This is me now.

Running from the wedding.

Running from Victor.

And trying to run from
everything bad that's inside my head.