01x09 - Jikaku

[bunniefuu]

[Minato] I'm, uh, gonna go buy a drink.

[Koyuki] Wait, Amamiya. I'm coming too.

Without a word…

[Minato] We've arrived.

[groans, sighs]

[grunts]

Hey, hey. When they come back to
the classroom from getting their drinks,

what do you think they'd do
if we suddenly weren't here?

-[chuckles] Should we?
-[chuckles]

THESE TWO HAVE
COMPLETELY GONE OFF TRACK

[wind whistling]

-[Koyuki] So cold…
-[Minato] So hot…

THUMP THUMP

-[student] Minato!
-[Minato] Hmm?

Oh, hey. How's it going, Kenta?

You studying the past exams I gave you?

[Koyuki] It's a senior.

-Scurry, scurry, scurry.
-I was studying them

but I just took a break.

Is that really true?

[student 1] An underclassman?

[Kenta] Yeah. Ain't he cute?

[student 2] Is Kenta being
a good senior to you?

He's always acting like he's hot stuff,
but he's mostly just trouble.

[Kenta] What are you saying? [chuckles]

FADE

-See ya.
-Later, bye.

Later.

POKE OUT

-Are you done talking?
-Hikawa?

You know, you didn't have
to lie low just because of them.

Oh, it's more like…

I was kind of just hiding because
they were upperclassmen I didn't know.

Were you afraid?

{\an8}MEMORIES OF MIDDLE SCHOOL

{\an8}[sighs] Kinda.

[Minato] Shy around new people…

[gasps]

-Hey, Hikawa.
-Uh-huh?

Then are you afraid of me?

[Koyuki] Huh?

Mm-mmm.

Not anymore.

No, absolutely not.

[sighs]

Man, I'm so glad.

[Koyuki stutters]

Huh?

That's right.
Amamiya's human just like me,

and gets hurt
and worries about things too.

I mean, that should be obvious, but…

How had I been acting
toward him this whole time?

Hey, Amamiya?

[Minato] What do I do?
I can't look her in the eye.

-[grunts]
-[stutters]

Huh?

-[insect chittering]
-[screaming, whimpering]

-A co-co-co--
-[Minato] Co?

-c*ck! There's a c*ck!
-Whoa!

[Koyuki] See! There! There!

[Minato] Huh? Wait, what?

[insect chitters]

[Koyuki stutters]

[Minato stutters]

[both sigh]

{\an8}HEH - HAH

[chuckling]

[Minato] I can't…

You were losing your mind.

I was. Sorry.

[Minato] I don't want to get close to her
by forcing my way through the door.

I want to do it the right way.

And be friends.

And see her smile.

That's all.

-[Koyuki chuckling]
-[Minato] That's all I want.

And yet…

[theme music playing]

EPISODE 9
SELF-AWARENESS

Well, those two aren't coming back.

[Yota chuckles]

Don't you think they're taking
way too long of a break?

Do they even plan to study?

We have exams.

-That doesn't sound like you at all.
-[chuckles] So rude!

{\an8}OPERATION "SURPRISE THEM
WHEN THEY COME BACK"

Just wondering, Yota.

Do you like anyone?

[Yota stutters] Why do you wanna know?

[Miki] Well,
I never hear stuff like that about you

so I couldn't help but be curious.

[Yota sighs]

Miki.

Uh?

-[Yota] Koyun.
-Huh?

Hayato, Daichi, and Gin.

Dad, Mom, Haruto, Sakura.

Wait, wait, wait. You're missing someone.

Why aren't you mentioning Minato?

[both chuckling]

Well, Yota.

If you ever do find someone you like,

I just want you to know
that you have my full support.

After all, you've done so much for me.

[chuckles]

[sighs]

-You're such a good friend.
-Yay!

-Oh, they're back. [breathes shakily]
-[Yota breathes shakily]

Huh? They're gone?

Their bags are still here. Bathroom break?

-Well, they'll be back eventually. [sighs]
-[Koyuki] I guess you're right.

[Minato] The way Yota hides
his feelings for her

while trying to stay friends
with her and pretending it's fine…

You can tell he's working hard
to shove it down.

On that note,
if Hikawa were to fall for Yota,

then her feelings
wouldn't be reciprocated.

She shouldn't go there…

Or that's what I thought.

But easier said than done.

That's not something you can
just turn on and off at will.

[groans, sighs]

I wish I hadn't noticed. [inhales deeply]

I feel like she finally opened her heart
up to me a little, but now…

-I have to be more careful moving forward.
-[Koyuki] Amamiya?

Here you go.

I only had two of them left.
So I want you to have one. [chuckles]

[Minato stutters] Thanks.

[groans, sighs]

I really hate this.

POPPING OUT

-You weren't gonna share the candy?
-[Koyuki] You were there?

[Yota sighs]

[school bell ringing]

{\an8}ART ROOM

{\an8}Hey, Tsukiko.
Have you always eaten in the Art Room?

{\an8}[Shimojima] Yeah.
This way, I can eat quickly and

{\an8}then continue working
during my lunch break.

How practical.

{\an8}APPEARED IN EP 6
GRADE 1 CLASS 2 - LIBRARY REP

{\an8}-Remember me? Tsukiko Shimojima.
-From episode 6.

So towards the beginning, I started out
by eating with everyone in the classroom.

{\an8}But our group was pretty big.

{\an8}That being said,
it wasn't like everyone was super close.

GROUP THAT CAME TO BE
SAME MIDDLE SCHOOL - FRIENDS

CLUB - SIT TOGETHER
ALWAYS CHATTING

But there was this kind of unspoken rule

that no one would start eating
till everyone was there.

I started to think,
"Wait, hold on. This isn't right.

This doesn't mean being close."

And I just started
to slowly distance myself,

and broke away from them. [chuckles]

HAHA

[exclaims]

Oh, but just to be clear,
I'm not on bad terms with anyone.

I hang out with them separately,
even now, um…

Oh, no! I just told her something
that reveals how terrible I am.

-[Koyuki] I get it.
-Huh?

In fact, I get it so much I feel sick.

Empathy.

Um, are you okay?

[Koyuki] You see,
I'm not good in group settings either.

[Shimojima] To be honest,
I can totally tell.

{\an8}LOOKING

[groans, grunts]

Oh, man.

You know, I really wish you
and I had started talking way sooner.

[Koyuki sighs]

YAY

Oh, strawberries today.

Would you like to have some?

What? Are you sure?

GRADE 1 CLASS 6

AFTER SCHOOL STUDY SESSION

[Miki] Hey, are you in the mood…

for some curry?

-Huh?
-Huh?

Do you ever not want curry? Come on.

[Miki] Oh, you're going
along with this. Good.

Apparently there's a famous curry place
in the new mall that opened up recently.

MAKE A LITTLE PIT STOP

-Can we try it?
-Why not?

COVERED BY THEIR COMMUTER PASS

Oh, sorry, but you guys will have
to get on the train with us too.

-[Minato] I don't mind.
-[Yota] Me neither.

What about your family dinner?

Koyun. You always seem to be
worried about that. It's all right.

"Always"?

Yes! All right! Let's go!

{\an8}STATION - SCHOOL
TROT TROT TROT

[all] Trot, trot, trot, trot, trot, trot.

[Koyuki] Wow.

Yota,

-you're able to hold on to that part?
-What?

-That's so nice.
-Is it?

SPARKLE SPARKLE

I can stand without holding anything.

Core! Strength!

Why is it a competition?

-[chuckles]
-[train doors beep]

[Yota] You're heavy.

[Miki] Hold yourself up.

[Minato] I'm not using my hands,
so it counts.

[Miki] That's so cheating!

[Yota, Miki chuckling]

[no audible dialogue]

[Koyuki] It wasn't all that long ago,
but things were so different.

In junior high,
it's like I was living in a fish tank,

despite not being able
to breathe underwater.

Being different from everyone else was
total agony for me.

I decided it wasn't where I belonged.

But then I found out,
I didn't belong anywhere.

I was ashamed I couldn't seem
to figure out how to adapt.

It hurt. A lot.

But…

Once I was able
to get out of the fish tank,

I realized that none of it
actually had to be that painful.

I just needed to break free from
that small world I had been living in.

Everything just seemed so trivial then.

STUDENT COUNCIL NEWSLETTER

DEAR STUDENTS, CONGRATULATIONS
ON ENTERING HIGH SCHOOL

Club activities, school events,
and even friendships…

If I could get
through high school in peace,

I felt like nothing else mattered.

The world around me has changed, but…

Wow, the area around here
has become so nice, hasn't it?

[Koyuki] …can I say
that I myself have really changed?

[Minato] So much has changed
since they built the mall.

[Miki] I bet the rent
around here has gone up like crazy.

[Yota] Why do you care? [chuckles]

[Koyuki] Yeah. It'll be okay.

Those bad memories?
I can act like they never happened.

{\an8}GRAND OPENING SALE

Okay. We're right here,
and the food court is here, so…

FOOD COURT

-This way.
-[grunts, pants]

POWER WALKING - GAH

Yeah, I had a feeling that was gonna
happen. It's the opposite direction.

JEEZ

Here. This way.

[Koyuki] Really? This isn't a trick?

[Yota] I promise you.

[Minato] What was
that whole "I know you so well" thing?

[Miki] I ship this so hard!

FLASH
POWERED BY FAN LOVE

[sighs]

-[shoppers laughing]
-[grunts]

-[shopper 1] Seriously?
-[shopper 2] Yes.

Huh?

-Miki.
-What? What do you want?

-Igarashi is here.
-Huh?

We're actually not on very good terms.

He and Hikawa
really shouldn't see each other, right?

[Miki gasps]

I'm assuming Koyun told you?

That they dated.

Yeah. She told me a little.

Like they're on bad terms.

If they ran into each other,
would they fight?

[Miki] No, I don't think it would go
that far, but…

[Minato] Well,
if it's going to upset Hikawa,

then we don't want them seeing each other.

-[Miki] Mm-hmm. Agreed.
-[grunts]

[grunts]

What's wrong, Koyun?

-[exclaims] I can't let him see.
-Huh?

-Yota, look! A dog over there.
-Huh?

-Let's go see it.
-Huh? Wait, what?

I mean, who knows.
Maybe nothing will happen either.

It's possible he may have
just moved past it by now anyway.

Oh, that's possible.

Hikawa?

Nah, there was no one
by that name in our junior high.

[Minato] But still, I don't know
how you could forget someone's existence…

Well, there shouldn't be an issue

if things are going well
with his new girlfriend, right?

[Minato] Huh?

Oh, never mind. Thinking out loud here.

I don't know anything about his love life
after starting high school.

Maybe he doesn't even have one?

But it seems like he would, right?

-I have no idea…
-[Minato] Girlfriend?

Huh?

-Thank you for the meal.
-[all] Thank you for the meal.

{\an8}Hey, hey, hey! Get outta my way!

{\an8}So loud.

{\an8}[sighs]

{\an8}-I'll be damned if I allow…
-Oh, man. Someone's using it right now.

{\an8}-Can you hear me?
-We'll go somewhere else.

MATSURI - ONDO NO MASTER

[exclaims] Wha… Oh.

[Yota] Ugh!

-Oh, gosh. I'm so sorry.
-[chuckling]

UPPI PURI

-We're here, so we may as well just do it.
-Uh, are you sure I can go in here?

[Miki chuckles] Why can't you?

[Yota] I get nervous.

[automated voice] Let's go!
Three, two, one…

-[Miki] Yay!
-[camera shutter clicks]

I ended up having
a really good time in spite of myself.

Goofing off before exams feels incredible.

I could get used to this.

Well, don't make a habit of it.

We'll study some more tomorrow.

-[chuckles]
-Yota!

See ya!

-[Minato] See you later.
-[Yota] Later.

WE ARE
ADORBS

-Nicely done.
-Huh? For what?

GRINNING - PRICKLY

[Minato chuckles]

There shouldn't be an issue if things are
going well with his new girlfriend, right?

[Minato] I mean, of course she's had
past romantic relationships.

But it still took me by surprise.
And with Igarashi?

I mean, when I look at it objectively,
it at least kind of makes sense

how she might have feelings for Yota, but…

No. Don't think about that.

[grunts]

BONK

-Oh, man.
-Whoa, what's going on?

[Minato] I just don't get it.

[elevator bell dings]

Yep. 'Vators are the best.

The only person who'd call
an elevator a "'vator" would be you, Miki.

Huh?

In junior high,

I hated Tsubasa Igarashi.

-Huh.
-[Koyuki] Mismatched personalities.

-A one-sided affection.
-I'm serious.

-Come on. You've got Igarashi, right?
-[Koyuki] Even those on the sidelines,

-involving themselves in my life.
-[student 2] Don't make Igarashi wait.

[Koyuki] I hated it. I hated everything.

But none of that's why I've been
avoiding him, or even discussing him.

This is a problem within myself.

Oh, it's you.

[Koyuki gasps]

[Igarashi] What's with that hair?

WHOA

Huh? What about my hair?

It was weird the last time I saw you too.

MATCH HIS VIBES FOR NOW
FIDGET FIDGET

It doesn't matter either way. I look good
in anything no matter the color.

-You're so weird, you know that?
-[Miki grunts]

[Koyuki] I'm being treated
as if I'm not even here.

After jumping out of the fish tank,

the more I get to know myself,
the more I hate it.

I…

I never, ever had any feelings for you.

I avoided him because I was scared
to face the person I hurt so maliciously.

That's all.

I'm just a coward.

Well, see you.

[Koyuki] Igarashi.

What do you want?

Uh… [breathes shakily]

Has high school been fun?

Huh? What are you?
My weird, old aunt or something?

GONG

-[grunts]
-[Miki] Wait, what do I do?

Igarashi's response was super funny.

[Koyuki] As expected,
the conversation doesn't flow.

-[Igarashi] It's going fine.
-Huh?

I mean,
not like I need your concern or anything.

You know, when you stopped Igarashi
back there, man, I was totally surprised.

EPISODE: TALKING A BIT MORE
BEFORE WE GO HOME

Oh, thank you.

I don't know.

Maybe it's because hanging
out with you guys was so much fun.

That could be why

I acted so out of the norm.

Koyun.

[sighs]

[level crossing beeping]

[friend] Here. Thanks for this.

Huh? What's with the lame bag?

[friend] What?
Who cares what it looks like?

You're just going home.

It's not like you're gonna meet
anyone on the way.

[grunts]

But I did meet someone. And of all people…

Has high school been fun?

That's rich coming from you.

Pain in the a*s.

[Miki] Hey, so…

It's my fault
that you dated Igarashi, isn't it?

Sorry. It's because I wasn't considered
of your feelings

and said things I shouldn't have.

[Koyuki] Huh?

Huh?

Huh? What shouldn't you have said?

Hold on. Wait.

Don't you remember what I told you
when we chatted here a while back?

How you should be glad
to be liked and not be greedy?

[Koyuki] Now that you mention it,
I guess you might've…

[Miki] What? Wait, that's it?

[Koyuki] Sorry to disappoint.
My memory's a bit fuzzy.

CONFUSED

What? Wait.
Then why did you date Igarashi?

[Koyuki sighs]

-That's secret.
-What?

SHOCK

Because if I told you,
you'd think less of me.

-[Miki] Wait a minute…
-Huh?

I'm not just gonna let that comment slide.

[Koyuki] Scary…

[sighs]

Well, I…

I thought I'd feel better about myself
if maybe I could fall for someone.

Someone who loves me back.

{\an8}But instead of feeling better,
I was just in pain the whole time.

{\an8}And I ended up hurting Igarashi.

Or I went out of my way to.

My actions weren't lining up
with my heart,

and I was really only thinking of myself.

You can't stand people like that.
Isn't that right?

I can't say anything.

Um, because no matter
which path you chose,

Igarashi would have gotten hurt
either way, right?

So, really,
I don't think that's your fault, is it?

And also, I couldn't possibly
start hating you out of the blue

after all these years of friendship.

Besides, that's a dumb reason
to hate someone.

BASHFUL

OH?

All right! Let's erase the past
by having awesome love lives now.

What? That's okay. I don't really…

You can go date for both of us.

-I wonder what kind of guy he'll be.
-Huh?

[IGNORING]
WHAT SORT OF PERSON…

Okay, let's see.
Obviously, you should be with someone

who's the complete opposite of Igarashi.

Someone who's kind,
but maybe scatterbrained in a cute way.

You should be with someone who embraces
everything you are the way you are.

Someone who's extremely accepting
and kind to other people.

{\an8}[both] Hold on, this is about you, not me.

{\an8}JINX

[both chuckling]

Well, romantic relationships aren't
everything, right?

And I'm having fun right now,

but if we had boyfriends,
it would add more color to our lives.

Like the tomatoes in a bento box.

[chuckles] What kind of metaphor is that?

[Miki chuckles] Yeah, I don't know.

[Koyuki] Romance.

Tell me the truth, Koyuki.
Are you really into Igarashi?

It's not like that.

They're all just repeating the rumor.

What?

So, you know?

Atagawa's been coming
on to me super strong lately.

Although, I'm not into anyone
but the girl I like.

She's barking up the wrong tree.

[Koyuki sighs]

You know, Miki.

The harsh truth is, I just don't have
a pure heart like you do.

-See ya.
-I'll be waiting for your tomato report.

If I'm honest, I really don't think…

Ha, tomato report!

[Koyuki] I should inflict myself
on anyone.

And so…

I hope you go find happiness, Miki.