01x07 - Jealous Yearning, A Heart Pulled Away

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Whither do you think to flee?

-What?
-I had a nightmare.

Tonight, might you share my bed?

Why is my heart beating faster
than it did in the nightmare?

You…

Is it for me?

It's so sweet.

Palm wine.

Fermented with palm sugar.

Its effect is quite mild,

ensuring that one
will not suffer a headache.

Strange.

You're usually

pretty against me
drinking alcohol.

You have been troubled.

Here with me,

no harm shall come to you.

Drink just enough,

so that you may rest without dreams.

The reason Klao…

I mean,

the reason I started drinking heavily

might be because

I wanted to sleep without dreaming.

You must have been very troubled.

Was the nightmare you were having,

related to your father again?

Yeah, kind of.

I…

I saw Cherd in my dream.

I saw him

trying to hurt me.

When you fell ill before,

I saw you plagued by a nightmare
in your sleep.

I know this is painful for you,

but the more you dwell on
the truth about your father,

the greater the toll it takes
on your mind and body.

I worry for you greatly.

Leave the past behind,

and let me be the one to fill your present

with joy without end.

Come on!

You freaking microwave.

No,

in this era, he's more like

a charcoal stove.

Stop it!

Don't get too invested now.

The one he cares about is Klao,
not you, Nakun.

May I…

ask you something, Phop?

Are you…

more worried about me

or

Klao, the one you knew?

What is it you are implying?

I mean…

I'm not the real Klao.

This is your chance, Nakun.

It's time to tell him the truth.

You are Klao,
the one I once knew, are you not?

Though you speak strangely

and act somewhat recklessly,

unlike your former self,

and though
I sometimes see you smile and laugh,

my concern for you remains unchanged.

I believe you know in your heart
well enough

how I feel about you.

Hold it.

Are you drunk?

Gosh, you're such a green flag,

a very bright green at that.

He even asked for consent
before kissing me.

Wait.

A kiss!

Dawn is fast approaching, you see.

I think…

I should hit the hay now,

or I'll be too tired

for tomorrow's festivities.

Klao,

are you displeased with me?

No.

I'm pleased with you,

I really am,

but…

I'm getting really sleepy.

I'd better go to sleep.

Goodnight and no dreams, Phop.

That was close.

Too close.

Things almost escalated.

Fortunately,

nobody saw us.

Or I would've been flustered
even into my next life.

But why just a kiss on the cheek?

Is it because he still loves
the real Klao?

No.

It's like that famous period drama
that just came out.

Mom says Thais usually
didn't kiss on the lips.

That's what Westerners do.

This means…

he actually loves me?

His gaze…

His voice…

A kiss.

And tomorrow, we're going on a date.

So people in the past can be
this romantic?

This place isn't that bad
after all, is it?

You fool!

Nakun!

You can't stay here because of him.

You have classes to attend.

Thee is waiting for you.

So is Pun.

And…

Mom.

This many dishes?

You want me to be full
until next semester?

So extra.

You've been away from home
for this long,

so it's only fair I make it up to you, no?

Go ahead and dig in.

This is enough for me.

Hey! Wait!

What are you doing?

There!

Have some more.

Mom…

Eat a lot of rice, okay?

You only eat the main dishes.
Look at you.

You're all skin and bones.

Eat up, okay?

I'm not that skinny, Mom.

Come on, try this one.

Tasty.

You cooked this much food for me…

You miss me, don't you?

Me being away…

makes you feel lonely, doesn't it?

What do you mean?

I have a lot of friends, all right?

When I get bored,
I just hang out at my friends' places.

It's fine.

But…

I can't thank you enough

for allowing me to study in Bangkok

after raising me all by yourself.

You've been both
a father and a mother to me,

yet you've never left me feeling lonely.

Honestly,

if you want to be with someone else,

I won't mind at all.

Gosh!

I won't.

That only gives me a headache.

Having you is all I need.

But…

I'm not always

by your side, you know?

You see,

after being here for about a month,

I'll have to leave next month.

If I'm busy during
any of my school breaks,

I won't be able to come home to see you.

How would that make you feel?

Listen. I'll be fine.

Just call me if you can't make it.

Video calling is a thing, you know?

It's been around for ages.

Just video call me.

Nakun.

Honestly,

I'll be fine. Don't worry about me.

You're all grown up now.

Soon, you'll find yourself a partner.

Wait… don't tell me you already have one.

-Do you have one?
-Gosh, I don't!

That only gives me a headache.

Having you is all I need.

Sure.

Nakun.

I'm serious, though.

I want you to go out and spread
your wings.

Young adulthood

doesn't last as long as you think.

If you come across something good in life,
seize it, okay?

Even if Mom said so…

If that's the case,

I guess I'll have to stay here

without her.

If I want to complete my mission,

I'll have to go home

and leave Phop behind.

Even though I love him,

it's simply impossible, isn't it?

I regret that I have let
so much time slip away like this.

I ought not to have fallen for you…

I regret having been so harsh toward Kaew.

Come on, Nakun! You shouldn't have let
your feelings get involved.

-Did Kaew send you to speak with me?
-I seek only your advice.

-What advice--
-Do you still not speak to him?

What advice are you seeking?

Is there anyone who is unwell?

No.

I simply wonder

how people

go about courting another.

Klao, the one from our childhood?

Phop!

Are you drawn to men?

Is it that odd?

Are you not the same, or am I mistaken?

It is simply impossible. Phop.

The whole capital would be abuzz
with gossip.

Then so be it.

I have made my choice.
My heart belonged to Klao

from the very beginning.

I will pursue him until he is with me.

Pray tell me, my good physician,

what am I to do?

If that is your unwavering resolve,

it is not my place to interfere.

Listen to me carefully, my friend.

Before you pursue anyone's affection,

you must be certain their heart is free.

Acting in haste to pursue
someone already taken

will only hinder your prospects.

What is it you are writing there?

Why have you not yet changed
for the temple festival?

I…

What would give it away?

If he blushes or smiles
when you are near or when you speak,

his heart inclines toward you.

I'm simply…

going over the Khmer and Pali
I've learned.

But since I have amnesia,

I haven't translated anything yet.

Once certain of their affection,

inquire after their well-being
and offer your help.

"Vihara is

a temple

or an ordination hall."

"Punnotok is

a well-supplied

or abundant body of water,

such as

a pool or a pond."

The second period,

a pond,

and a temple.
Maybe it's…

Your heart betrays you.

Does my presence stir such feelings?

No.

Oh, Phop.

The temple we're visiting…

is there a pond close to it?

There may be no pond at that temple,

but the temples in the capital

all stand by the water.

Let us go.

I shall change my attire first.

Go on ahead
and wait for me by the dock.

Jom's advice proves most effective.

Klao has expressed a wish to accompany me.

Maybe…

the body of water by the temple
in the second period

was Klao's rendezvous point.

And he was m*rder*d there.

Though there's a pier,

there isn't a pond
or any other body of water.

If it were just an ordinary canal,

Klao wouldn't have noted it down
in other languages, would he?

Sai, would you like to try that?

Kong, why do you care so much
about my wife?

Sai.

Kong! Keep away from my wife.

Chuay.

You may wander wherever you wish.

We shall meet again
before the ordination hall.

-Thanks, my Lord.
-Yes, my Lord.

Sai.

Come, let us build a sand pagoda yonder,

that in the next life

we may be united again
as husband and wife.

You need only build half the pagoda, Sai.

Leave the rest for me in the next life.

How does that sound?

Kong! She is my wife.

-I shall go with her.
-Sai, wait for me.

Klao.

What is the matter?

Have you a fever again?

No.

It's a bit hot here.

Let me go and look around real quick.

You.

I heard you had disappeared,
and yet here you are returned?

Oh, yes.

I'm now living together with Phop.

Klao…

Only say that you are living with me.

Living together means something else.

I'll take one of these.

Understood.

Here it is.

Thank you kindly.

Come, come.

Come here.

You come here as well.

Goodness!

Look yonder. That man is with another.

This is a belt

of genuine silver.

Do come again.

Pray, look around as you wish.

What more is there to be done?

I have shown my care

and offered my assistance.

What is left?

In the courtship of a lady,

one gives flowers or ornaments.

With Klao, it is no different.

Learn what he likes
and simply buy it for him.

Do you like it?

Of course.

But I think it's very expensive.

I can't afford it.

Might he try this on?

Yes, of course.

It's beautiful.

It's more gorgeous than Cartier's.

If it pleases you, I shall buy it for you.

I'll save up some money
and come back for it later.

Thank you very much, kind merchant.

One day, I shall place this ring

upon your finger, Klao.

It is true.

I saw it with my own eyes.

Last night,
he came out of Lord Phop's room.

This morning,
I saw them embracing by the dock.

And by afternoon,

Lord Phop went again to
Master Klao's room.

So what of it?

They have long been childhood friends.

Sai, this is something
beyond mere friendship.

Are you suggesting that

my master and yours
are in a romantic affair,

-Chuay?
-Goodness.

How could you say such a thing, Kong?

Alas.

Kong, are you so hungry that

you would eat dirt and sand?

I would have prepared something for you,
had you said so.

Maybe there's a pond outside
the temple's vicinity.

What do I do?

How do I go out to look for one?

Klao!

Klao.

How peculiar.

Last night, you were so eager
to come to the festival.

Now that we are here,
why do you seem so indifferent?

What is it that you seek?

Nothing, actually.

My body's just k*lling me.

If so,

shall we go and watch
the poetry and Choi chanting first?

Since we are here,

it is best we amuse ourselves

so that you may sleep soundly.

Songkran, it is

The festival of joy

Gather around, a most auspicious sign

This family is of great charm

My Lord, this way.

With a beautiful daughter

I wish to be your son-in-law and court her

You are the fairest of them all

Like the moon and stars, I stand in awe

So many lovely souls
Yet I am made to fall

We're here.

Can you now let go of my hand?

Lastly, tease him a little and see

if he shows any sign of shyness or blush.

Forgive me.

Your hand is soft.

I forgot I was holding it.

I do not wish to let it go.

I broke my back
Preparing dishes in the morning

And I shall taste them
Then call you to the meal

I shall find a woman for my son to wed

For he is burdened with sins
That cannot be saved

Mother!

Cannot be saved

We are fair and virtuous

We are virtuous and fair

In your eyes, I find myself undone

I am captivated by your grace and charm

Your great charm I long to behold

And I wish to be close, held in your arms

Held in your arms

Here you stand, a lonely loner

Here you stand, a lonely loner…

Why are you without your lover, I wonder?

Goodness.

I wonder if his wife…

I wonder if his wife is so charming

That she is all worth keeping

Or are you afraid
That she will be claimed by the dogs?

I am a person.

She will be claimed by the dogs

If you are taken
Then your lady should also be here

Your lady should also be here

But she is not here
So why not have me, my dear?

If you are taken
Then your lady should also be here

I need to use the privy.

I'll be right back.

No need to follow me.

It'd be nice if this were the modern day,

but this is Ayutthaya we're talking about.

Even if we were lovers,

would it be socially acceptable?

I'll let go of this love.

It's the right thing to do.

Focus on the mission.

Find that pond.

Phop.

Cherd!

You need not crowd me so.

I am not interested
in being your lover, Klao.

What the hell are you on about?

Are you pretending not to know,
or haven't you heard the rumors?

There are rumors everywhere that you

and Lord Phop are
engaged in an illicit affair.

Truly shameless.

Why must you be so angry, Klao?

Or are you agitated because
the rumor is true?

It's one thing for you
to be involved with Lord Phop,

but why must you
meddle with my Pim as well?

There!

Hold it right there, Cherd.

I don't see Phop in that light.

Begone from my sight!

Going about drawing your sword
upon the common folk,

is this not an abuse of your authority?

Anyone can tell who started this.

If you wish for no trouble,
begone from my sight.

This is my final warning to you.

Are you well?

Do not meddle with me.

Phop.

I didn't mean to say that.

I know.

Let it be so.

It is a relief to see you safe.

Why is he…

so nice to me?

Your lips are bloodied.

Have you injured your hand?

Ow!

Ouch!

Ow!

Ouch!

Ouch!

-Who are you looking for?
-No one.

Oh, you.

They say you have changed,
as though you were another person,

yet you still get into fights
as you did before.

Don't change the topic.

Kaew isn't coming.

Many thanks to you.

You must be well used to courting others.

No.

I simply…

Ever inquiring after their well-being.

Have there been many patients this day?

Are you weary, Jom?

Alas.

Blood…

Offering your assistance.

Learn what he likes
and simply buy it for him.

I prepared your favorite meal,
hoping we might move past this…

Tease him a little and see

if he shows any sign of shyness or blush.

I merely went by what I have seen.

Is it because
Kaew has done likewise to you?

That is why you know so well
that it works.

Speak not of such things again.
I bear no feelings for him whatsoever.

I know you're worried about him.

You two had a fight yesterday, didn't you?

We're childhood friends, all right?

Say whatever's on your mind.

So we can work out

a solution for Kaew.

It is of no consequence.

I merely rebuked him

for behaving so effeminately,
unbefitting a man.

Kaew was so furious with me
that he cursed me,

vowing never to see me again,
even in the next life.

Do you believe in multiple lifetimes, Pun?

I guess I do.

Perhaps our paths
might have crossed in past lives.

Then I don't believe in it.

This lifetime is more than enough.

But it is for the best.

He will no longer come to trouble me.

Are you sure?

If you really didn't want him
to bother you,

you wouldn't be looking for him like this.

Letting this go on for a day
is already bad.

Don't let this go unresolved

into the next life.

Apply the ointment twice daily
after bathing, Kaew.

Klao.

See?

You miss him, don't you?

Don't deny what your heart tells you.

I know that

you…

You're afraid of being judged by others.

But those who gossip

don't share your sorrow.

Our loved ones

are the most important thing.

If Kaew were heartbroken

and ended his life right now,
what would you do?

Master Klao,

I will prepare
jasmine-scented water for you.

Phop.

I would like to apologize to you again

for saying those things
while I was fighting with Cherd.

I just don't want anyone
to gossip about you.

I know.

But you yourself said that

those who gossip
do not share in our sorrow.

If you care for no one,

would you tell me

how you feel about me?

Master Klao!

Master!

Master Klao.

His Excellency has summoned you.

Does he summon only Dear Klao?

What of me?

You have something
to discuss with me, Lord Phop.

High Lord Soontrapinit came here to see me

to discuss Phop and Lady Varna.

Is it concerning marriage,
Your Excellency?

Yes.

Harn serves in
the same patrol department as Phop.

The High Lord holds a high rank,

which may open the way for you
to enter royal service.

As for Lady Varna,

she is flawless in every way.

Do you not agree?

Yes.

Yet Phop continues to evade the matter,

never allowing me to formally ask her.

You are close to Phop.

Do you know

if he has set his sights upon anyone else?

I…

It seems he does not.

Good.

To let her frequent this house so often

will only lead to gossip and scandal.

Even High Lord Soontrapinit

is far from being at ease with this.

I pray you speak with Phop on my behalf.

I wish to see my son settled

before I no longer have the chance.

Yes, Your Excellency.

The soldiers captured the smugglers

who carried opium
from the capital to sell in Sam Khok.

My father conducted
the interrogation himself,

yet none of them would confess.

The market district under your supervision

also has many opium smokers?

Yes.

And Klao shall return there
once more.

Lord Phop,

did you know that
just before the New Year,

Klao went to visit
a prost*tute by the name of Pim?

He ended up in a brawl with Cherd.

The locals are abuzz with rumors
that they are fighting over her.

It would seem your brother

has truly fallen in love with
the young lady,

beyond mere physical desire, Lord Phop.

My Lord!

My Lord! My Lord.

Master Klao is missing.

How so?

When did he go missing?

I am not certain, my Lord.

He was speaking with
His Excellency one moment,

and the next,

Master Klao was gone.

I knew it.

I am certain he has gone to seek out Pim.

I am greatly concerned
for your brother, Lord Phop.

Kaew.

I pray you, come out.

The servants said
you have yet to eat anything all day.

I…

I have brought your favorites.

Pray, just go.

If you hold no affection for me,

then come not near me again.

I pray you,
come out and speak with me, Kaew.

I am worried for you.

No.

Pray, leave.

We have nothing further
to say to each other.

I shall wait

until your anger abates.

Why is it that whenever I'm not at ease,

my heart tells me to come here?

The more I pretend to be Klao,

the more I feel like I'm actually him.

I knew you would be here.

You've been gone until nightfall.

People believed you had gone to
the House of Pleasure again.

Lord Harn told you that?

The last time,

he met me while I was with Cherd.

I am certain you will not return there.

I believe I know you, my Klao,
well enough.

Is something troubling you?

Chuay told me that
you went to speak with my father.

I did.

I did speak with him.

He wants you to get married.

He's already pretty old.

As for you, Phop,

you've come of age.

If there's nothing that troubles you,

then go ahead and tell him.

Klao,

if I am to be wed,

it shall certainly not be to Lady Varna.

I could never share my life with anyone

but you.

I cannot even say when it began,

but right now,
all I know is that I wish to be with you,

to care for you,
and to stay by your side forever.

There is neither liquor

nor fermented palm sugar drink here.

Everything I am about to say to you

comes purely from the depths of my heart.

I no longer look upon you
as my younger brother,

but as the man

with whom
I wish to spend the rest of my life.

Is that clear enough for you, Klao?

This kiss is meant to convey
the love I hold for you.

Let me assure you once again…

I love you

with all my heart.

What do you say, Dear Klao?

How do you feel about me?

Phop.

That was a kiss?

Let me show you how it's done.

What is the matter?

Why are you in tears?

You also love me, do you not?

I do.

Phop.

I do love you,

but

love alone isn't enough.

You're a lord.

You're in the patrol unit.

Just today alone,

everyone was already staring at us.

I care not.

You said that--

You should care.

If this were the place I came from,

I would've feared nothing.

But here, it's different.

How would you live your life like this?

Let us go

to a place where we may express our love.

Phop.

How would that be possible, Phop?

What about your father?

What about your mother?

Regardless,

you'll end up marrying Lady Varna.

It's the best option.

You…

Do you truly wish for me
to be wed so badly?

Yes.

Your parents

and I

really wish for you to get married.

Once you have settled down,

I'd be extremely delighted.

My Phop.

I'm terribly sorry.

I pray you, let go of this love.

It's best we're brothers.

I beg you to understand me.

I understand.

Your lantern has gone out.

Come with me,

I shall guide you.

He's being nice again.

Just walking away from me
shouldn't hurt me this deeply.

If there is a next life,

I hope we'll meet again

in a world where men
can fall in love freely.

Yeah.

You did the right thing, Nakun.

Even if he didn't get married
to Lady Varna…

If he found out I wasn't the real Klao,

he'd be in deep sorrow.

I wonder

how heartbroken he feels.

Make haste.

I…

I offer this prayer…

There.

That's what Rattikan,
the fortune teller, said.

"Rattikan"

isn't just her name.

The name means nighttime.

Cold.

He was suffocating
because he was weighed down underwater.

Cherd stabbed me in a hut

and threw me into the water.

So this writing refers to
the incident at the hut?

What about the temple?

What does it mean?

The point of reference.

Do I enter the woods by the temple
to find the hut?

Which temple is it?

Is it the same one I visited today?

That's why Cherd and his men were
waiting for me.

Oh, Jom!

You spent all night
waiting in front of his room.

I hear that Kaew is moving
to another city.

The reason I had to get close to Cherd
was that…

You are suspicious of him?

Pray tell me,

Cherd has involved
in the opium trade.

My Lord!

The patrol seized enough opium
to fill a cart.

Lord Harn, there is a chance
we may trace this back to those behind it.

I beg of you.

If Lord Phop discovers
we've been trailing him,

I shall surely lose my head.

You may scold or chastise me as you will.

I'm relieved you made it out alive.