13x13 - Worlds.Apart

[bunniefuu]

[dramatic music]

[Ziga] This is what I'm eating
from this moose hide.

I like this experience,
but I wouldn't like it

to go forever and ever.

♪

[bow thwacks]

[Aaron]
What the [bleep]?

Flinging arrows
at [bleep] squirrels.

What the [bleep] is happening
to me here?

My mind is breaking down.

Hands are tattered.

Body's broken.

Might be fighting
a losing battle no matter what.

[Nero] No, no, no.
Come on.

Yeah!

This is the perfect example

of how much of a mental game
this thing is.

Yes!

I'm realising that I'm winding
myself down mentally,

and that's affecting me
physically.

It's not over
until it's actually over, dude.

Yes!

♪

It's day 80!

Whoop, whoop, whoop, whoop!

[upbeat funky music]

Let's take it back to the '80s.

We got the sprinkler.

[imitates water sprinkler
whirring]

♪

Lawn mower.

♪

[imitates lawn mower engine
rumbling]

♪

The bus driver.

♪

Hey-yo, hey-yo.

And the cowboy.

♪

Day 80!

Yeah.

♪

And...

♪ Oonse-oonse-oonse-oonse

Rocking my Kie hat.

Kie's wolf hat.

Yeah, I know she'll be thinking
about today.

Good vibes going around.

Ah.

Let's see if I can land some
fish out of the gillnet.

♪

Whoop, whoop!

♪

Kie as support
has just been incredible,

one of my best friends,
basically family to me.

And to join her at 80 days

and to kind of get
some sort of glimpse

into what her experience
actually means,

I feel really, really honoured.

♪

It's always optimistic when
I come out and have a look,

and you can see with the gillnet,

and you can see there's, like,
that dark patch there

where there's no ice
that's formed.

Kind of tells me
that there might be

some movement... about.

♪

Going through this journey,
it's really cemented in myself

like, this is
what I want to do...

All right.

Got to break away... the ice.

Finding ways to be able
to help facilitate people

with the land and being
an outdoor advocate

and finding that balance
between the natural world

and the modern world.

Come on.

Stop, stop, stop,
stop, stop, stop, stop.

Chill.

Jeez, jeez.

Hold up, hold up, hold up.

Come on.

Come on, come on,
come on, come on.

Yeah.

Inconnu.

Phew.

♪

Yes.

And it's not
about people coming out

and doing 80 days solo
in the wilderness.

It's just about people
having that same relationship

that I do with the land.

Dispatch it.

♪

Day 80, inconnu.

Whoo-hoo!

Mwah!

Thank you.

Thank you!

Hoo, hoo, yeah!

♪

Inconnu for dinner.

So it's, like, sort of coming
down a little bit,

you know, coming down
off the high

of the 80.

And...

you know, it's those, like...

it's those times where you
kind of come down

where you need to sort of
be able to regroup

and refocus and think about,

all right,
what's next to move forward?

♪

Like, celebrate, absolutely,
but just also just know, like,

I'm eating one fish a day.

So it's not going
to sustain me much longer.

And so just not getting
wrapped up in that too much

and just focusing on...

you know, the next thing.

♪

You know, not quit
because I'm tired.

♪

Like, none of it's...

♪

Individually, none of it's
really difficult, but...

♪

The cumulative, it's...

♪

It builds up.
It's tough.

♪

[Ziga] I want to show you
something.

I don't know if you can see

this mist cloud.

There are mountains.

And they have some sun.

And that's pretty much it.

I won't see sun again...

as long as I'm here.

Quite soon, there will be

complete darkness all the time.

Quite sad moment again.

[sighs]

Okay, I'm going to check snares.

♪

I know that days

where I will be still able
to see sun

are very, very few now.

[grunts]

[laughs]

It's getting worse
and worse here down.

In couple of days,
sun won't rise anymore.

So I'm very close
to the polar night.

I see a lot of new footprints.

♪

I was preparing before,
but to be honest,

I don't know how it will feel
to be without sun

for I don't know how long.

♪

I imagine that to be
in complete darkness,

that might be very depressing.

Damn.

It was the fox walking here.

Crazy.

So I really hope

I will have enough of activities

in my shelter
to keep my mind busy

and not to go
in this depressive mode.

Wait.

♪

Where is the snare?

Where is this [bleep]?

This animal managed to
get away with a snare.

How is this possible?

[bleep] damn it.

I could have the predator,

probably the fox.

But...

obviously it got snared

and managed to get away.

♪

There's a sign of the wire.
The wire was with it.

♪

Damn it.

I could have a fox now...

if I would tie it more strong.

♪

But now I don't see
the signs of wire anymore.

♪

♪

Go back...

because my toes... they feel cold.

♪

This is probably the coldest day

I have ever had,

and my toe feels numb,

which is a bad sign.

[bleep].

My toes are numb.

I keep on moving them,

but I can still feel
a bit of numbness.

I'm starting to get a bit
afraid to get frostnip.

Frostnip is actually
the first stage

towards frostbite.

If it goes
in very severe condition,

you can actually lose toes.

This will lead to tap-out
in the end.

♪

Really, I think

that in survival aspect now,

it's the best to stay warm,
mostly in the shelter,

and mentally, I mean,
staying sane...

which is sad.

♪

It's, for me, a bit difficult
to comprehend

that this is really happening.

I don't know how this
will impact me mentally.

I don't like this strategy.

I would like to be outside

and do, like, tons
of different things.

♪

But maybe today's day
was a nice warning

that especially
with this toe now...

that, Ziga, mm,
if you want to stay long...

♪

[sighs] You have to take care
of yourself.

[dramatic music]

♪

What's up, guys?

Just got back from the trap line.

It is damn cold.

Oh, my hands are
going to freeze off.

We got one bunny, but, like,
the bunnies I've been getting,

I've had to just take
the snare off the tree,

because my hands are too cold
to get it off its neck.

Sometimes you have to fight
with it a bit.

And, yeah, so it was a struggle
this morning.

We're burning through
the firewood like crazy,

so I have to, like...

I have to get two trees
done today no matter what.

And that's just gonna be rinse
and repeat, rinse and repeat.

♪

The cold temperatures
are here to stay now,

and this is unbearable almost.

♪

I have to warm up
my toes after this.

I can get the fire
going quite easy,

but the mud's starting to crack.

I'm starting to see
pinholes everywhere.

I feel a breeze coming through.

♪

Took me a couple hours
to do two trees.

I have an issue
with my fireplace.

♪

Put a big hole right here.

I'm going to stack...

These big timbers like so.

I'm just going to pack snow
and ice in there.

So my plan is, I'll boil water,

put snow in my pot
to make a slush pit,

and then I'm going to patch
all my holes with ice.

So this will be the glue.

It'll close all the holes,

and I'm just going to make
this thing an icebox.

So the bricks
and mortar... it's...

snow and timbers.

♪

It is any day now
that somebody can win.

It could be tomorrow,
the next day,

or it could be a month from now.

Like, there might be
five people left,

so I got to prepare.

No rest for the wicked.

♪

Once that freezes...

♪

She ain't going nowheres.

No more hole.

♪

I put a lot into this.

My body's pretty beat up.

The feeling's not
the same anymore

in my feet or hands.

Don't want to risk frostbite
or anything, so I came inside.

[grunts]

Try to get these feet warm.

♪

It's going to get colder.

I'm going to b*tch and complain.

♪

Ripping the heat in here now.

It's working.

But I don't want
to get it too warm

and melt all the ice chunks.

But guess what.

We're not quitting yet.

♪

It's, like, I hate the wind.
Now I hate the cold.

Like, what does
this guy even want?

♪

I want to go home.
That's what I want.

♪

This has been an adventure,
a hard one, mentally,

physically, and emotionally,

and I'm about ready
for it to be done.

♪

But only if it's for a W.

♪

Okay.

So down there...

bed.

And then I rotate up,
a little bit on top,

and it's just ice.

Ice, ice, ice.

There's a little of what
my shelter looks like.

And from the inside...

just completely iced up.

Need more heat fire.

[chuckles]

It's like, no, you need to think

of the weather window now.

So I'm going to the gillnet now

whilst there's
still light outside

and do all that
sort of stuff, so...

My home that I love
is changing a little bit now

with the relationship,
and it's doing its job.

As soon as you're up
out of the bag, you know,

there's, like, a race to go
back into the sleeping bag.

I can't help but think,
like, at this stage,

we're getting to the end.

And as each day goes by,

like, the possibility
of actually winning this,

yeah, starts to become
more and more real.

♪

And it's hard, because
looking historically

at the other seasons,

I could have actually won by now.

And, yeah, you start
to fantasise about that

and think about, like,
what does that mean?

And the idea of having
an Australian to come

to the Arctic and to win
the world championship

is just...
like, what a statement.

♪

That gets me really excited
and gives me

a lot of motivation to continue.

And every day that ticks by...

♪

That possibility
becomes more and more real.

But, also, I try not to get
too carried away with it,

because there's still
a lot of work to be done

and it really can still be
a really long season.

So it's exciting,

but not getting
too carried away with it.

♪

Oh, we got a fish.

Let's see if we can get her out.

Whoa!

That is huge.

Holy crap.

[laughs]

Look at the size of this guy.

That is the biggest fish
I've ever caught.

[laughs]

Huge pike.

Big, full belly.

It's already frozen.

How am I going to do this?

♪

I'm going to break a hole again.

I definitely have food up to 91.

Jeez, that is so cold.

♪

But it's so much different

when you don't have,
like, a sanctuary,

a place to retreat to
when it's really cold

and you're just out
in the elements.

♪

Trying to scale a fish
when the fish is freezing

and trying to manage
your hands...

[grunts]

Just makes things
really difficult.

Yes, we got roe.

Oh, hard on the hands.

Hard on the hands.

♪

She's done.

I just got to get back
and warm up.

♪

You know, I was thinking
about this before.

Out of a 24-hour period,

I spend about 16 hours of that

lying down in my sleeping bag,
pretty much warm.

So that leaves 8 hours
I'm vertical.

My moving around
is getting water,

getting firewood at the point,
putting food in my pot.

I'm eating three full pots a day,

along with the liquid,

so I'm hydrated as well.

♪

Yet at the end of the day...

♪

I'm exhausted.

♪

Now, I'm not a doctor...

♪

But that doesn't add up.

Pay attention to that,
because that can become...

♪

A big red flag.

♪

And, like, if you collapse
out here,

particularly when it's cold...

even when it's not super cold...
if you collapse out here...

♪

It can be fatal.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

[dynamic music]

Hello, everybody.

We will have an interview
with Mr. Moose.

So let's see how this guy
is doing here.

Hello, Mr. Moose.

[imitates moose bellow]

How are you dealing
with all this cold up here?

Oh, come on, it's just
the beginning of December.

Wait for January.

"January"?

Oh, yeah, then it's cold.

For me, it's totally fine.

This is why I have the fur,
you know, to protect me

from all this cold weather.

Okay.

Thank you, Mr. Moose.

♪

Stupid moose.

♪

With this long night,

I think I entered
the third phase of survival.

♪

Look at this guy.

♪

This bird is just, like,
a few centimetres

from my finger...

feeding on my fat.

I think you had enough, buddy.

Okay, guys, I will
just do everything

that is needed outside
and go back to the shelter.

Just survive...

a couple of more days

or weeks, hopefully.

[chuckles]
Damn.

After day 40 and snow and ice,
things calmed down a bit,

but still there was
a lot of things to do.

But now the third phase
of survival

is pretty much staying alive...

especially with this frostnip.

And, also, I have
a lot of time to think,

and I'm thinking a lot
about my life,

about who I am,
and what is important for me.

And I think that this phase

is actually
the most important one

for my personal growth.

♪

[sighs]

So this is a dog.

I mean, it won't look
like this one.

[clears throat]
This is the first one

that I tried to make.

Um...

It's more like prototype.

And now I know how to make it,

and, of course,
I'll just make another one.

So...

it's going to be for my son.

♪

I'm glad I entered this
third phase relatively late,

because otherwise
I would get insane.

I was thinking, oh, I don't
want to be a guy like that,

you know, staying
in the shelter, but...

pretty much almost everybody
did it in the end.

I know that this guy
in Patagonia,

he was carving
a lot in the shelter.

Sam and Juan Pablo... they were
pretty much in the shelter

as much as possible.

That's a bit more easy
to start now.

♪

It's really hard
keeping my mind occupied.

If I stop now, I can go back,
have my job,

and be back with my family.

If I decide not to stop
no matter what,

this can easily go

over day 120 and more.

Normally, these things last
around 80 days,

but maybe there
is another guy who says,

no matter what,
I'm not giving up.

♪

If I tap out now, I would be
still proud of myself.

If I continue,
I would be missing Bor

for a very long time and
missing important milestones.

So, yeah, I'm risking a lot.

♪

Okay.

♪

A bit better version.

Won't be perfect, but...

it might look a bit more
like a dog

than the previous one...

Hopefully.

Okay, I'm ready
to go to sleep now.

♪

I've had quite bad dreams

getting out of this competition

because of this toe numbness.

Can be frostbite or frostnip.

♪

But still,
because of the numbness,

I believe it's frostnip.

♪

Damn it.

The problem is that these
things usually just get worse.

♪

So I have to be extremely
careful what I'm doing.

♪

Otherwise, I am [bleep].

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

[Aaron]
What's up, guys?

It's amazing how soft we get

because of, like,
our accessibility

to food and stuff.

When you don't have it, man,
you want it,

and you'll eat every...

I'm eating ribs, back, bone...

eating the whole bunny now.

I need the nutrients, man.
I need to win this.

If you would gave me this


I'd have told you
to go eff yourself.

Damn, man.

My hands...

there's a cut or burn
on each and every finger.

I've put my body on the line.

I've ran this meat wagon
damn near to the ground.

I've only eaten bunnies
for about 50 days.

And we're ready
to pack it in, but...

only for the win, man.

Throw the jacket on,

get in my sleeping bag, warm up.

♪

I think I'm hard on myself
when I don't win.

And in a game like this
with such high stakes,

the pressure I put on myself
might have affected me

in the early days big-time.

♪

Oh, [bleep].

This morning my zipper broke
on my sleeping bag,

and my boot fell off the...

off the woodpile

into my water dish...
my boot liner.

So it is...

a block of ice.

Out here in the darkness,

I can't escape from my mind.

The rushing with the shelter...

I didn't step back
and look at the design.

With the moose,
I might have rushed the shot.

There's so many things
I could have done

to give myself a better chance.

Oh, man, my feet are numb.

♪

But we're going to battle.

♪

I believe David Booth is left,

and he said he only wants
to make it till 84.

So if he makes it to 84
and I make it to 85,

I'm the winner.

Oh, I hope he quits.

I'm in trouble.

My zipper broke
on my sleeping bag.

Like, I'm screwed.

I might not...

I need that boot to...

dry out
so I can even cut firewood.

Everything's breaking.

We're trying not to break,
though, but...

she's getting hard.

♪

Can't complain about it.

Nobody's here to complain to.

♪

And it's like, I'm not out,

so it's not like I'm, like,
crying because I'm done.

But it's like, come on,
why are you fighting me?

You're so close.

Like, I can see
the finish line, man.

♪

And then everything
starts collapsing.

♪

It's like, I got food.

I got water.
I got a shelter.

I just need my equipment
to hold up.

I'll do the work.

♪

What I did to deserve this?

Why are you testing me so hard?

Oh, damn.

♪

[voice breaking] I'm going
to [bleep] show you, though.

I didn't do all this for so long

to go home without a win.

Like, people will say, oh,
it's not that big of a deal.

It's just a TV show.

You know, it's just 500 grand.

It's not like...
Who cares? Life goes on.

It's like, yeah, for you.

♪

This is... I want this.

This is a goal of mine.

This is something
I want to achieve.

It's what I do.

I create the problem,

and then I somehow usually try
to fix it.

♪

To 12 weeks.

Cheers, everyone.

And cheers,
whoever's still out here.

Solid effort.

Ahh.

Good work.

Hope you guys are having fun...

and enjoying it...

soaking it in.

Not long now.

Definitely closing stages.

Could be, yeah...

final episode.

Hope you've enjoyed this season

of "Alone" U.S.,

season 13,
Arctic World Championships.

It's been quite a show.
[chuckles]

I'm thinking it might be nice

to actually go for a walk
on Lake Learning.

Might be a good way to
celebrate 12 weeks, I think.

♪

It's been
a really long time out here,

and I was hopeful that
the person I was at the start

compared to who I would grow
into at the end of this

would be something
that would continue

through the rest of my life.

This lake is so special.

I want to go out and greet her
and walk on her surface

and just...

take it all in.

♪

Now that I've been out here,

I'll be forever changed
for the better

because of this experience.

I've received
exactly what I want and more.

Magical.

♪

♪

Through my whole entire journey,

it's never crossed my mind
to tap out.

But just the everyday effort
of getting up,

walking around,
eating, getting water...

I'm doing very minimal
physical work,

and I'm eating quite a lot,
yet I'm absolutely exhausted.

I don't need more fish.

I don't need more snowshoe hare.

I need other things
that I can't get out here,

and my body is starting
to give me the signs that,

hey, Nero,
you're still in a safe area,

but you're coming to the end.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

[Nero] Oof, another cold start...

to the day.

Yeah, I can still be safe
within this area, this zone,

but that zone's slowly
been shrinking over time.

♪

Now that I'm really close
to the end,

I know that there's a possibility

that I could win this.

Also there's a possibility
that I could just be

up against someone who's just...

they got, like, 120 days set
in mind,

and they're not going anywhere.

I don't want
to red line physically.

I don't want to push
past the limit where...

♪

Something breaks...

whether that's physically,
mentally, or emotionally.

I'm not going to go that far.

It's really important

that I leave on my own terms.

♪

Hmm.

♪

What's kept me here
for a long time now

has been to be able to share

my learnings from this experience

to my son.

And I've done that.

I've shared it all...

All right.

In a beautiful,
wholesome, complete way.

♪

And, yeah, absolutely.

I'd love for my wife
to come to the Arctic.

But I also know, like,
she just wants me to be okay,

to follow my intuition...

Gillnet era done.

And me being here

doesn't serve anyone anymore

other than a title and winning.

♪

I just... I'm ready
to see my family.

Life is a communal thing, and...

♪

Yeah, it's meant to be spent...

♪

With each other.

♪

So happy with the whole
entire journey.

♪

Honestly, I wouldn't change
any of it.

♪

When you know, you know.

♪

[walkie-talkie beeping]

♪

Hey, this is Nero.

I'm officially tapping out.

♪

[helicopter blades thrumming]

[sighs]

It is day 85,

and it's the first day

of the next chapter of my life.

I'm ready.

[helicopter blades thrumming]

♪

Hey, hey.

Big thing for me being out here
has been...

being guided by fulfilment
rather than achievement.

And...

I've received so much
from this land,

so much love,
guidance, and healing.

The only thing left
is a title and money,

and I'm not motivated
by either of them.

I've still got
some more food there,

but I could just tell
with my body,

my mind, my emotions,

like, I was starting to get
towards the limit.

I didn't want to hit that limit.

I wanted to be able to end
things positively,

not leaving this place...

broken or weak.

I wanted to end it on my
own terms and end it right.

I've been as raw...

and as open as I can,

and I've given everything,

and it's time to take
all of the amazing lessons

and experience that I've had
from this place

and combine it
with the beautiful life

that I have waiting
for me back home.

And...

it's time to go, my friend,
time to go.

♪

I feel like this is the right way

to conclude my journey.

It's been the perfect experience.

♪

And, man, I can't wait
to see my family,

make sure they're okay,

and share with them
all the incredible things

that have happened out here

and then just create
more amazing memories

and moments together.

I wanted to come out here
and work internally

to become a better father
for my son.

And for me to do that,

I really needed to reconcile
my relationship with my dad,

because that's what's connecting

the lack of self-love,
the lack of self-worth.

Now I've come to a place

where I have
that internal self-worth

and value and love.

It's something that
I could only have discovered

by being out here.

♪

For Lucky, for my boy,
it's not about him seeing

these hard survival
bush craft skills

and thinking him to maybe
get inspired by that.

It's about him
seeing his dad walk the path

of loving and being themselves

that is really important to me.

I'm really proud to represent
my country up here.

After so many years
of my whole entire life

of just trying to find
who I am as a person,

to now have that
just lock into place,

I have my identity.

I know who I am.

I am and always will be,
moving forward,

an outdoor advocate.

And everything I do,
say, and feel

will be with that
as my guiding light.

[helicopter blades thrumming]

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

[Ziga]
I have very cold feet.

I want to do something
about my boots.

My front part...
I mean, toes are still exposed.

So I'm not sure

there's any good way...

I mean, with what
I could protect them,

but I was thinking about this.

[grunts]

Yeah, really going to become
like a caveman.

But if it's going to help...

I would be glad
to have it on my boots.

♪

I'm not sure if this frostnip
goes away

that easily and that quick.

I'm afraid not.

I mean, it's really
not much of it,

but it's my big toe.

Of course, I would like
to keep it as it is.

The fitting...
it's, like, perfect.

Look at this.

So I have to be careful

and keep it warm.

But...

that's not always easy.

♪

Okay, insulation is done,

and I think this will help a lot.

Okay, I have to get water.

♪

This is actually one
of the toughest competitions

in the world,

considering how many days it takes,

how much of your knowledge
it requires...

♪

How many mental battles
you have to face.

I'm glad I'm here,
but on the other hand,

I just can't wait
for it to be finished.

♪

It is a hardcore thing.

♪

[shovel clangs]

You're [bleep] kidding me.

♪

[groans]

Broken shovel.

♪

[sighs]

♪

It's quite a big thing
in this environment.

♪

This hinders my game a lot.

I cannot do
any ice fishing anymore.

I cannot get water for drinking,

so I will have to melt snow.

This is a very bad situation.

[sighs]

That's all.

I have to keep on going.

♪

[Aaron] Holy [bleep], I think
we got a zipper, guys.

♪

Man, when that zipper broke,
I was in tears.

It's like, why?

I'm so close.
Why are you doing this to me?

Let me see
if I can try to show you.

Yes.

So this is a two-zipper system.

This zipper was down here
and just held those together,

and then the other one
that broke would zip up.

Well, I've cut the top,
took the bottom zipper off,

flipped it now
so that it just zips.

But I have to tie this together,

because this
will just separate now.

Now, how do we tie that together?

Hmm.

♪

I'd like to use
the inside of paracord

so I can tie knots.

Fishhook for my needle

or if I can use snare wire
would be...

♪

Snare wire is thinner, right?

♪

Here's a little piece here.

I expected some ups and downs,

but I didn't expect it
to go this long,

and I didn't expect us
to be this deep

into the weather

and get this cold
and dark this quick.

♪

Here's my thread and needle.

You will not defeat us,
and I will not defeat me.

♪

I'm a seamstress now.

I'm so close to the end.

I need to just keep
pushing my body,

and it's going to end any day.

If I quit, I would be failing

the promises I made
to my family...

my dad, my brothers,
my friend Travis,

but, most importantly, myself.

Oh, if this works,
I'll be the man.

I've tapped in mixed
martial arts fights before.

Like, that's quitting.

That's going to be hard.

♪

I wonder
if I should pull it down,

do a bunch, pull it through,
then tighten it.

I believe quitting is a habit.

There's lots of things I've quit

and failed in my life,

and I had some regrets.

If you continue to do it,
you'll do it more easily.

So I'm going to keep
pushing my body

until they either
pull me or I win.

♪

So...

right down here it's, like,
a really hard plastic.

So I used a fishhook,
punched the holes through.

Before I had the needle just
in there and then pinched,

and it was getting caught
on threads,

so this actually works better.

Ah, you [bleep], I knew
that was going to happen.

Oh, it's good enough for now.
I'm gonna warm up.

♪

[Ziga]
Good days here are over.

I'm so far away...

from the place I belong to...

♪

And from the people I belong to.

It is really getting hard,
really hard.

♪

[sighs]
I should keep on pushing.

♪

So let's keep on pushing.

♪

[saw scraping]

[Aaron] Somebody's obviously
got a big-game animal.

Somebody's done better than me,

because nobody possibly pushed
as hard as I can

without the food.

♪

[Ziga] Can you imagine staying
so long, risking so much,

and go home empty-handed?

Who knows
what the reality will be?

I guess none of us is
going home for Christmas.

[Aaron] I'm trying to fight
the urge to quit,

but I've pushed my body, my mind,

my emotions
to the absolute limit.

I want to win this.
I'm trying to win this.

I'm doing what I can.

[Ziga]
Losing...

that would be like, oh, [bleep].

What did I do with my life?

[Aaron] I feel like
at any day, it can end,

but any day can end me, too.

So I need whoever's
out here to quit.

♪

[Ziga] In life, people
often say, never give up.

But that's not necessarily true.

Sometimes you have to give up.

If I called it in,
man, I would hate myself.

♪

♪

[helicopter blades thrumming]

[walkie-talkie beeping]

[dramatic music]

♪

Sorry, guys.

[somber music]

♪

[cries softly]

♪

[crying]
My body's just broken.

♪

My mind's shot,
my mental, everything.

♪

I'm frozen to the core.

My back's buggered up.

My feet hurt.
My hands hurt.

My balance is shot.

I have a hard time walking.

I'm, like, falling over.

♪

And I can't...

I can't get food if I can't walk.

♪

Then last night I was so cold,
I couldn't warm up.

And my mind and everything
is just breaking.

Like, I've broke.

I've tried.

Like, I'm just like,
next med check,

I just got to make it
through this med check...

and it's just... it's bad.

Like, I can't even take
the camera with me,

but it's just like, keep going.

Any day, any day.

And it's just like,
finally I broke.

Oh, it's tough, man.
It's a tough decision.

I'm going to regret it forever.

That's what drives me nuts.

It's different if you get
pulled, like, medically pulled.

It's like, okay, I didn't quit.

I quit.

I bitched out.

[cries] And I literally
just gave up on my dreams.

[sighs, sniffles]

♪

I pushed to the absolute limit,

and my body finally said,
this is enough.

We're done.

And I didn't have a choice.

My mind wouldn't let me continue.

♪

But I came out here
and grew so much

as a person,

as an outdoorsman, as a trapper.

Might have went a little
backwards in the hunting,

but I feel like I grew

a substantial amount out here.

♪

87 days has given me
a lot of time to reflect.

I feel I need to take my time
with things,

especially decisions
that hold a lot of weight,

like friendship with Travis,

the separation with Melissa.

I feel we need to slow down,

step back, take a look.

Everything else is a distraction.

Not going to go
back to work right away.

I'm going to sit down
with Melissa.

We'll figure out our stuff.

That's what
we're going to focus on

with the same
but better mental strength.

87 days has given me
a fresh start.

♪

I don't like losing,

but it might be the best thing
that's ever happened to me.

This isn't my destiny.

There's something else
waiting for me.

♪

I'm ready to find out
what that is.

[helicopter blades thrumming]

[dramatic music]

♪

I am alone, cold to the bone.

I'm eating moose meat
and missing home.

My friends are small bird

and the fat coney.

You can talk to the camera
if you feel lonely.

I'll stay in the shelter
and do some pottery,

because catching a fish now,
it's like winning the lottery.

♪

For pain and to suffer...

hiding stupidity...

by saying I'm tougher.

♪

Risking job, family,
Christmas in solitude.

♪

If you'll be second,
you won't feel any gratitude.

♪

Sad, huh?

But true.

It's getting hard here.

♪

If I would know, like,
it's 100, that's it.

That would be easy peasy.

But it can be tomorrow.
It can be in February.

♪

And, yeah, I know
that today in the evening,

I will be very sad,

because I know
that Miha won't be here,

and then I'll be like, [bleep].

♪

How much longer?

♪

One of the reasons
I keep on pushing is,

I want to see Miha coming
to this place

and see my location.

Until I die.

♪

Hiding stupidity by saying,
I'm tougher.

♪

Yeah.

It's not that nice
as it was before.

I have to be much more
in the shelter,

but I'm still kind of living.

I'm not there
where I have to struggle,

and I want to reach this point.

[device beeping]

♪

I have a media swap.

Let's put on everything I have.

♪

[helicopter blades thrumming]

♪

♪

[Ziga]
Hey, guys.

♪

-GoPros?
-Yes, GoPros.

Yes.

[Ziga]
Okay.

♪

I mean, I'm staying outside
less because of this frostnip.

I didn't expect that the cold

will start to become
a limiting factor for me,

but it's happening.

Mentally, it's getting
more difficult, I must admit.

Pretty much staying alive.

And you do
the most necessary stuff

and go back in the shelter.

Oh, man, that's for sure.

I really miss home.

♪

I mean, I love this place,

but it would be nice to be back.

-I don't know.
-He would say, like, go, Ziga.

I know you have it.

You have been preparing
for this all your life,

because we spent all these
years in forest learning...

[whistles]

[dramatic music]

[Ziga] He would say,
like, go, Ziga.

I know you have it,
because we spent

all these years
in forest learning...

[whistles]

No [bleep] way!

-No [bleep] way!
-[laughs]

I cannot do it anymore!

[yelling]

[laughter]

You did it!

You won "Alone," season...

Oh, man, I heard this sound.

I said, no, that's only Miha.

[laughter]

I'm so ready to go home.

But I would also love to show you

how I lived here for so long.

You know, three days in the
wild is like a week at home,

so you have stories
for a year now.

Oh, man.

-You did it!
-Oh, I just can't believe it.

[laughter]

Seeing Miha, it feels
a bit like a dream.

It's impossible.

It's the end of the game.
It feels amazing.

You said you're going
to build a small shelter.

What is this, a house?
[laughter]

Let's start with the shelter,
and then I can show you

place where I shot the moo...

-Wow.
-What?

[laughing]

-Now look at this there.
-Where, where, where?

-Do you see that?
-No way!

[laughs]
You did it!

-Wow.
-Let's have a look.

Dude.

This is the arrow?

[Ziga] Yeah, that was the arrow.

Tried it on day 17, but it took
me 2 days to get it there...



[Miha]
Dude, you're amazing.

[laughing]

♪

Well, go in.

-Whoa.
-It gets bigger.

Yeah, it's dug in.

[Miha]
No way.

It's so warm.

[Ziga] Yeah, of course it's warm,

because look at this chimney.

[Miha] You found good clay?
[Ziga] Yeah.

[Miha]
I cannot believe it.

♪

I'm very glad
that I can show Miha

how I lived for 90 days.

It's like, you know, candies
in a way.

It felt a bit like being
a kid again,

doing crazy stuff and exploring.

And nice mountain view.

That's also important...
you know, to feel well.

-You're not just surviving.
-You're living here, man.

[laughs]
You're living it.

♪

[Ziga]
Miha, without you,

I definitely wouldn't develop
this passion

for survival and push that far.

This victory
is also your victory.

Yes.

[Ziga] I'm so glad for you...
for everything.

-You feel taller.
-You're a bigger man now.

[laughter]

Oh, guys, you have
to do a bow drill.

-Yeah?
-[Ziga] Oh, yeah.

Amazing.

♪

[Ziga] We were doing this
together for so many years,

and he can really feel how I feel

and understand how it is
to be out there.

I'm very happy to share this
with my brother.

♪

I'm very proud
of what I did out here...

that I'm capable to go that far.

I have something in me

that people maybe did not expect.

♪

Out there, being alone
has definitely changed me.

I really missed my family.

At home, I was really aiming
too much for my career.

Joy should be shared.

I definitely want to spend
more time with them

and watch them and listen to them

and be happy with them.

♪

It feels amazing

that I'm representing
one very small country...

Slovenia.

No matter where
you're coming from,

if you really live for something,

go for your passion,

and not be scared
of doing things different

and keep on living it
no matter what.

$500,000 gives my family freedom,

money independence,
less stressful life.

Would definitely put part
of it to our survival school

to increase the things
we can share

with other people.

♪

It feels very good
to be the first scientist

to win "Alone."

I was able to test my skills,
my knowledge

but, at the same time,
also learn a lot.

Leaving this place,
it's a bit bittersweet.

In these 90 days,

I found some kind of harmony
with nature.

I really felt not so much
like surviving

but rather
like living out in nature.

♪

Nature... there are
infinitive possibilities

and new ways and techniques
to discover,

and we should try to
understand it,

try to respect it,
and try to live with it.

♪