01x09 - Give/Take

[bunniefuu]

[gentle rock music]

♪

- It's a new day,
and I'm a new man.

Well, not exactly new.

I got winded walking
to the bathroom,

so there's obviously
progress to be made.

And speaking of progress,

Mia and I are on
speaking terms again.

- It really doesn't
look that bad.

- Yeah.

[sighs]

What are you doing here?

Go to your party.

- I really wish you'd come
join us before your surgery.

- I promise I'll stop by
as soon as I get done,

but I'm not trying
to have more than one

Meier kid worried about me
on their birthday.

And by the way,
my present's definitely

kicking your present's a*s.

- Not a chance.

Okay, I better get
this stuff over there

before the natives
get restless.

- Well, you give my amigo
a big hug for me, all right?

And mum's the word.
You promised.

[gentle rock music]

♪

- I'll see you
when you get out.

♪

Okay.

♪

- Hey, you two have a happy
birthday, kid, all right?

- Thanks, Cam.

♪

And, uh...

♪

Your head, I know you
shaved it for surgery,

but some girls could be
into it, and I am.

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It looks good.

[gentle rock music]

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[gentle guitar music]

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♪ Walk on the water

♪ Eyes up before you drown

[beeping]

♪ Walk on the waves

♪ And we lay in
the graves we make ♪

♪

[deep breathing]

♪

all: ♪ Happy birthday
to you ♪

♪ Happy birthday
to you ♪

♪ Happy birthday,
dear--both of you ♪

♪ Happy birthday to you

- Whoo.
- Presents, presents, presents.

Open it.

- Go for it.

- I'm nervous.
- Oh, don't be.

- Is it from you
or from the whole g*ng?

♪

Dad, this is a key
to your old car.

- Yeah, man, we fixed
it up for you.

- Wait, y'all really did this
for me, together?

♪

- Yeah.
- We'll park it downstairs

until you get out of here.

- Dude, no way.
Thank you.

- So where is mine?

- I paid for your college
for your birthday.

- [high pitched voice]
Helga, why didn't you tell me

it was your birthday today?

Promise me we'll celebrate
later and save me some cake.

- You're welcome.

[beeping]

♪

- Are you ready?

- Yeah.

♪

[deep breathing]

♪

[laughter]

[door closes]

- What are you doing here?

- Well, your doctor called me,
and I wanted to see you.

- Yeah, what, did
your credit card get declined?

- Hi, I'm Rachel Adams,

the in-house psychiatrist
here at St. Theresa's.

- Psychiatrist.
Does my insurance cover that?

Because if it doesn't,
I'm not sure--

- Mom, relax.
Rachel's my friend, okay.

- With all due respect,
we're here to talk about

Mia's progress
with chemotherapy.

- Yes.

♪

- The tumor isn't responding
to treatment.

In fact, it's grown
surprisingly larger.

♪

I propose our best option now
is to undergo surgery.

If we operate soon,
you will gain full mobility

within a matter of weeks.

- Prom is in three weeks.

♪

- I'm sorry?

- The surgery will
have to wait.

- We run the risk of the tumor
spreading beyond control.

- It doesn't matter.
- Mia.

- I'm not doing it before prom.

♪

- [sighs]

- Krista, if you ever need
my help or any--

♪

- How soon can I
schedule the surgery?

- I have an O.R.
on hold for tomorrow.

- We'll be there.

[gentle rock music]

♪

- Yo, check this out, man.

I got you some scratchers
now that you're 18.

By the way...
[mumbles]

- Oh, my gosh!

♪

- [mumbles]

♪

- Dude, that's awesome.

I've literally never won
any of these.

- I guess I'm the lucky charm,
you know, my bald head.

I'm like a Buddha.
- Your bald head

You're like a Buddha.

We just won $2.

Oh, don't be that upset.

I can get you some
lottery tickets if you want.

♪

- Bec, what's up?

- It's Cam.

♪

- His surgery was this morning.

♪

- What do you mean?
No one told me.

- He didn't want it
to ruin your birthday.

- Okay.
Is he all right?

♪

Vinny.

- He didn't make it.

♪

- No, no, no, no, no.

Not Cam, no.
This is all my fault.

- He made me promise not
to tell you about the surgery.

All he was thinking about

if it went wrong
is how you'd blame yourself.

♪

- No.

- ♪ I can hear
a jagged heartbeat ♪

♪ A nightly silhouette
that's taunting me ♪

- I'm so sorry.

- ♪ A whisper
from a darker side ♪

- [sobbing]

- ♪ I know he haunts me

♪ By night

♪

[engine revs]

♪ His eyes burn

♪ Into mine, ooh

♪ I'm waiting

♪ For the morning skies

♪ He haunts me, he haunts me

♪

There's literally a million
different ways to deal.

- Dun, da, da, da!

I smuggled in your favorite.

♪

You know, please don't
rat me out to Vinny.

He scares me.

- You have to eat something.
Make sure he eats something.

- My way to deal?

Let depression
wash over me like a wave,

shut family out,
really marinate in it.

I know it's not the healthiest
way to deal, but screw it.

♪

- You look really nice, Bec.
- Thanks.

Look, I know you really want
to go to Cam's memorial today,

and I want you there too.

- I've been in protective
isolation for 97 days, Bec.

I'm fine, and I want to go.

- You are not leaving
this room

until your 100 days
of isolation

are up, end of discussion.

You cannot get sick again, Zac.

- Mom much?

- When are you
getting dressed, mister?

- I'm just gonna chill here
for a while,

and then I'll meet you there.

- Okay.

- Drive safe, Mom.

[soft music]

♪

[knocking]

[door opens]

- Your mom called, again.

- What did you tell her?

- That I hadn't seen you,
again.

♪

- I know I keep saying this,

but thank you
for letting me crash

in your guest room, Kayla.

- She said you need some sort
of medical attention.

- Yeah, only loads of therapy,

thanks to having her as my mom.

I'm really sorry to involve you
in all of our drama.

- So tell me again, why do you
need a place to hide out?

- Because my mom caught me
hooking up with Rhys

and went insane.

- You know, there's rumors that
you weren't even in New York.

Some people say
you have cancer.

- Do I look like someone
that has cancer?

♪

- Look, I say this as a friend,

but Rhys and Chloe have been
together for a while now,

and everybody knows.

Just thought, you know,

you might want to stop
embarrassing yourself

with that lie about
getting caught with Rhys.

Just trying
to be a good friend.

♪

[door closes]

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- Evan, do girls always take
forever to text back?

- We don't text girls.
They text us.

- [chuckles]

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- Yeah.

[beep]

[beep]

- Evan, you know what sounds
really good right now,

and it might even
make me hungry?

- Hmm?
- An edible.

- Ooh, check this out, dude.
I think I have some, like,

special gummy worms in my--

- Dang it.
You don't have any brownies?

A brownie sounds really good.

- That's a perfect idea,

and I need to replenish
my stash anyways.

Here, take it--don't die.
I'll be right back.

[door opens]

- Helga.
- Mia, what are you doing here?

- We've got a funeral to catch.

As long as you promise me
this time you won't get sick.

♪

- I promise I won't.

- Okay, let's go.

♪

- Slap my a*s
and call me Nancy,

the mother lode.
Zac?

[upbeat music]

♪

[waves crashing]

♪

- I forgot how amazing
fresh air smells.

♪

- Come on.

♪

Smile.
Or don't.

You look kind of cute
when you pout.

♪

[click]

♪

- How are things
at home for you?

- I wouldn't know.

I left.

- What do you mean?
You, like, ran away?

- No, a bratty child runs away.

I just left.

♪

My mom was gonna force me
to get surgery on my leg.

- What?
Why?

- Because apparently my chemo

was a monumental waste of time,

and Dr. Lydell thinks it's
the next thing I should try.

- Okay, Mia, this is serious.

If Dr. Lydell thinks you should
get surgery, you should get...

♪

You probably shouldn't
listen to the person

who's about to attend
the funeral of the last person

he talked into surgery.

♪

- Ow.
- You okay?

- Yeah.
No, I'm fine.

No, I'm fine.

- Okay.

Where you been staying since,
you know, you went all AWOL?

- With Kayla.

I don't know, she's kind
of my friend but not really.

She was legit excited
to tell me

what I pretty much
knew already,

and that's my ex and my ex-best
friend have been hooking up.

- Well, you know,
you deserve way,

way better than--
how did you say it?

That piece of sh*t.

- The other night,
Kayla had some friends over,

and I don't know, I guess
they're "my friends too."

And I was listening
to the stuff

that they were gossiping about,

like who's got bacne and
who's maybe a hermaphrodite,

and I was like,

"Is this seriously the stuff
that I used to care about?"

And I don't know,
and what's weird is,

I remember when I used to say
that stuff all the time,

and it would just
come out naturally.

♪

I don't know.

It feels like it
wasn't even me.

It feels like it was me
but in a dream or a movie

or an alternate universe
or something.

♪

I'm totally not making
any sense, am I?

- No, you are, you are.

You know, we grow
when we're in pain,

or we continue to stay small.

- Okay, so you're
saying I'm big, cool.

- No, I'm--I guess

I'm saying your friends
are still small.

♪

Don't you think your mom's
terrified, you know,

not knowing where you are?

You think she looks
at you as a thing

that ruined her life, right?

- No, I don't think that.
I know it.

- No, no, no.
Okay, well, what if--

and please just
hear me out, okay?

- Okay.
- What if, instead your mom

thinks by having you so young,

and before she was ready
to be a good mom,

instead of you
ruining her life,

maybe she feels
she ruined yours.

♪

- We should probably get going.
- Yeah.

♪

- Here.

♪

It turned out nicely.

♪

Come on.

♪

- ♪ They say
you've got to be dark ♪

♪ Just to get through
the night ♪

♪ They could block out
the sun ♪

♪ But I still have
your light ♪

♪ I wanna scream
from mountaintops ♪

♪ Until the world will be
all right ♪

♪ 'Cause I'd fight
through hell and back ♪

♪ To make you mine

♪ I'm not giving up

♪ Whoa

♪ Never giving up

♪ Ooh

♪ I'm not giving up

♪ Whoa

♪ Never giving up

♪ Ooh, ooh

♪

♪ And people come
and they go ♪

♪ But I'd be
right by your side ♪

♪ Holding on, letting go

♪ Won't change
this heart of mine ♪

♪ Oh, the road's
been so long ♪

♪ Seems like there's
no end in sight ♪

♪ But even with
all the wrong ♪

♪ You make it right

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