02x04 - Menettämisen pelko

[bunniefuu]

Part 26: Fear of losing
In September 1991

So, this is... this is
what she sent you.

Yeah, isn't it nice?

Yeah, doesn't look like much will be
left of that in the end.

So, did that little
snorter stay here then?

Yeah, it looks like it.

Yeah, we've gotten quite
attached to it already.

Yeah, it’d feel pretty empty if Jaana
came to take it away now.

So, was it a class reunion
Liisa went to in Tampere?

Yeah.

It's good for Liisa to get
out and unwind for a bit.

It'd be good for you too.

Yeah, there was an article again in
the paper about nostalgic hometown trips.

Look at this.

Let's go with a
group to Sakkola again!

You can already pre-register.

I'm not going anywhere.

What's with this sudden travel fever?

Isn’t it enough that Liisa
is out there "unwinding"?

So, I wonder how Osmo is
managing with the cows over there?

Osmo is managing, mom.

Don’t you worry about that.

Yeah, Osmo will be fine.

He's an educated man, after all.

Oh...

Help.

Good morning.

Good morning.

Well?

I've got such a terrible
headache, I’m gonna die.

No, you're not.

Heal, heal, heal.

Jaana, hey.

Call Eeva now, would you?

I can't.

Believe now.

I'll start crying, anyway.

I don't dare to.

Oh, sorry.

Stig doesn't need assistance there?

No no. We agreed that he'll
shout, in case he needs help.

It's better if Stig manages himself as
much as possible. It gives confidence.

Next summer, let's put a table and couple chairs on
the yard, and we can drink morning coffee there.

Yeah.

And there we sit as
a neighbor's joy then.

Well, let's plant a
few bushes for cover.

Right.

You can do that.

I've been thinking other
things for next summer.

Thank you.

I was on the other side of
the Urja to look at the slopes.

You mean, on the Kaukovaara's side?

Yeah.

Where Kari initially planned on
building the ski resort.

Yeah, when he tried to steal
the whole idea from you.

Yeah.

But didn't succeed.

But Kari was right about the fact,
that there are damn good slopes there.

Nothing would stop us
from expanding there now,

that you're owning the slopes.

Why on earth would
you start expanding now?

- Hey, look...

The resort of ours...

It's too small now.

It has too few slopes.

Skiers don't have enough to choose from.

It's not competitive against
resorts in Lapland.

But now...

Few resort and few..., or
I mean few slopes more

and it would give a whole
new profile for our company.

And the operational capacity of
the hotel would increade too.

I quess so, but is
it really relevant right now?

No.

We can start constructions
next summer, the earliest.

There is paperwork, and funding needs
to be thought and everything else.

But...

But of course, the logging
could already begin next winter.

On those slopes.

I wonder what Kari will say to that.

They're your lands.

Kari has no word on that.

Well, he has a word on everything.

I wonder, if it's so wise.

I think yes.

Besides, the money from logging
would be very needed.

A big problem right now is...

...that we don't have cash.

What do you think?

This one...

This one takes away even big hangover.

You still want something else?

Soda or something?

I don't understand how
something like this happens.

I don't understand myself.

So what?

Both of us were quite drunk.

It wasn't because of that.

I do like Osmo a lot...

But it has never been such wild.

I quess he became too soon after Stigu.

Since I didn't know how to be alone.

I told about Stigu yesterday, didn't I?

Terrible to talk these things.

Does this sound completely terrible?

No.

I understand you.

I don't know how I can go
back, and look Osmo into the eyes.

Don't go.

Stay here.

You told yesterday, that you
miss being in a city.

Sometimes I miss, and sometimes not.

What I do here then?

Live with me.

I can't, I can't.

You don't like me?

I don't even know you.

Help me, I wanna go home.

You really got some flowers here.

How many poinsettias (Christmas
flower) are there?

Try to quess.

Well I have no clue.

9000.

Listen, dad.

We should set up a computer
to control the greenhouse operations.

You'd save in labour costs too.

So, these computers would take care of
all temperature, lighting, ventilation, and humidity controls.

It would turn on
watering, when it's needed.

It'd probably be quite handy system.

It'd make things a lot easier.

And...

I've already planned it a bit.

I see.

Why not.

You just plan.

Then let's see how
much can be implemented.

Would dad be upset about my idea?

He's a bit conservative by nature.

I don’t know.

Joppe!

Just let Joppe go.

He can run around here.

Joppe, run, yeah!

Besides, I feel like you've always
gotten everything you've ever wanted.

Yeah, right.

Look, I’m an only child.
A wonderful only child.

Oh yeah, wonderful. You know, it would have done you good to
be the fifth porridge eater in a small farming family in Kainuu.

Imagine how fun it was to
always get Jaana’s old clothes.

We never really experienced
any shortage, though, surprisingly.

And you’ve missed out too—you never
had a sister or brother.

I've got you. See, you’re my wife,
my sister, and my private doctor.

Good thing you didn’t say “mother.”

Mom, is this mine too? - Yes.

Oh, listen, I packed some of your stuff in
that box. There's all sorts of things in there.

- I see. - So make
sure you take it with you.

Yeah, I will. Here, I’ll
give this to you.

Oh, thanks.

Will this do still? - Risto...

Of course. It has sentimental value.

Oh dear, there’s so much stuff.

I'm running out of boxes soon.

Should’ve held back a little on
a ski track—less to pack.

I think I held back quite enough.

Hey, Risto. You could move into my room.

It's much better to sleep there
than in that paint-smelling atelier.

Yes. You should come live
here with Father and me.

Not me. I like it there.

Wait, Erkki.

Do you remember?

Well, that seems to be
your very first one.

Not the very first one. This
was when I fell down.

Oh, I see. Yes, yes. This
is the fourth prize, isn't it?

Yes.

What was your very first one like?
Is it that one? Show me.

No, that's not the first one.

Oh,iIt smells wonderful in here.

Pollo alla diavola.

Oh.

Devil’s chicken roast.

Sounds devilishly good.

Do you need help?

No, no. Grazie.

And for dessert, raspberry pie.

*Swedish* That's the best I know.

You're truly a miracle
of culinary skill.

Our father wouldn’t know the
difference between macaroni and semolina.

Well, of course. Always when
we're eating. I'll go.

Yes, go ahead and start.

Really good. - This is really good.

By the way. Do you know how
to make this kind of pie?

I haven't had the chance to show
you my cooking skills. You'll see. Someday.

Eeva!

That’s your sister from Tampere.

Jaana. I wonder what she wants?

Please, take more pie.

You take too.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Absolutely.

It's good.

Yeah, let’s hope so.

It’s good.

Do you have more of this?

Yes, of course! I haven't forgotten
how much you like it.

We need to put the rest into freezer.

It's good here. Cheers!

Nice to have you home. It
feels good to be home.

It's nice to be home.

Thank you.

Tell me honestly, would this have happened
if I had had a child?

Yeah, yeah. Well, one
magazine wrote about it.

Listen, Jaana, you shouldn't believe
everything that's written or said.

Well, I do know of several cases where a
woman who gave birth had a breast cancer.

Yes.

Well, they will probably take
a fine needle biopsy.

Of course, it's serious if
it recurs this quickly.

I wish you were here.

No, no, I didn’t mean that.
You don’t have to come here.

No.

I'll manage.

I’ll try.

I'll book an appointment
first thing tomorrow.

Yeah.

Say hello to Stigu too.

Bye, bye. Bye then.

Do you remember, Antti, when this picture was taken?
All the kids were still at home then.

Yeah. The world changes, as Esko
the shoemaker used to say.

It wasn’t Esko, it was Esko’s father.

The wooden shoemaker?

Not the wooden shoemaker. The leather
shoemaker. He was a leather shoemaker.

Oh yeah, that’s right.

Yeah. This cottage was full of life
when all the kids were home.

Which cottage?

Although, we managed just fine.

And now they’re all out in the world.

And there aren’t even any cows anymore.

Well, we do have Tassu. And Risto.

Yeah. Except we hardly ever see Risto.

He’s always off doing his own thing.

What’s that box?

What?

That one. My goodness.

That’s Erkki’s box, the one he
was supposed to take with him.

I almost saw this coming. I’ll
take it to the veranda.

Well, at least he’ll have
to come back for it.

At least we still have the television.

Jaakko.

I want a creamation.

Yeah.

I want to be cremated, I can’t stand the thought
of being put in the cold ground and buried there.

Dear God, what are you talking about.

It’s good to talk about these things.

Well, I don’t want to talk about them.

Call the Forest Union and ask
about the price per cubic meter.

First prize.

Would this do?

Yeah, just put it there.

Hey, what do you think if we kept the hotel
restaurant open on some evenings before the skiing season starts?

Well, we could always try.

I also figured out a way
to boost restaurant sales today.

Oh?

Karaoke.

What? What's that? Is that some
kind of Japanese self-defence course?

You never keep up with
what’s happening in the world.

Apparently, there are already two karaoke places
in Oulu, and they’re really popular.

Yeah, but what is it?

People sing into a microphone while the
lyrics run on the TV screen.

You can get pre-recorded
backing tracks for it.

Huh? Who in their right mind would sing
in front of others on a restaurant stage?

They do. In Oulu, they even have queues.

Finns have always liked to sing.

And if they don’t dare to sing
alone, they can sing in a choir.

Once they’re a little drunk, they will.

Oh dear, I have to go to work.

I really don’t feel like doing night shifts, but I guess
I have to since a couple of nurses have the flu.

Bye then.

Bye-bye.

Be good.

Beer sales could add up too.

*Swedish* Handball,
handball, handball...

Well, come here then, if it's so
rough sleeping alone there in the dark.

Well, he didn't even whimper.

Well, he did.

Jaana has taught him that way.

Well, then we’ll all sleep
here, the three of us.

Helena, hey.

Helena.

Hey, do I have any clean socks anywhere?

Well, if they’re not on the
shelf, then there aren’t any.

The washing machine is free to use.

Don’t make noice. I’ve
been up all night.

Well, what now?

I have to go.

Where?

Take these. They’re brand new.

Dad has plenty of them. Last Christmas alone, he
got at least one pair from each of you.

Thanks.

I’ll wash these then.

Jaana, I’m leaving now. See
you in the evening.

By the way, what time
is your doctor’s appointment today?

One o’clock.

Remember to call me right away at
the bank and don’t stress about it.

Easy for you to say,
you men don’t understand anything.

Well, if there’s something, they’ll just cut it out, and
that’s that. Everything will be okay, just like last time.

Do you love me?

Of course.

More and more every day.

Even if I only had one breast?

Goodness, Jaana.

I really have to go now.

See you tonight.

Good day.

Good day.

How can I get to Kajaani from here?

The next connection is
at 12:05 via Pieksämäki.

Aha.

What about to Helsinki?

The Helsinki departure is in
just a couple of minutes.

You had some symptoms
here in your breasts.

Yeah, well, it's been aching
for a long time already.

Well, that pain isn't actually
a symptom of breast cancer.

But I did find a lump there.

On the right side?

Yes. It's very sore.

Here, I can feel
some slightly firmer area.

Just to be sure, we'll do
a mammogram and an ultrasound.

If you could get up from
here, let's go to the machine.

You haven’t, by any chance, been raking
leaves, lifting weights, or bodybuilding lately?

Well, okay.

So it was a false alarm.

I can't believe this.

So it was just something with the gland?

Yeah. Or something harmless anyway.

So the pain was more in the muscle?

Like from overtraining?

Or at least that's
what the doctor suspected.

But I didn’t hear half of what they
said. I was so overwhelmed with relief.

And even now, I almost feel like
crying when I should be laughing.

Go now and buy yourself something small.

Yeah.

Jaana, I said something small.

I’m not buying anything big.

Just something small.

I have to pamper myself a little now.

Yeah.

See you tonight.

Bye.

Kisses, Jaakko.

Bye-bye.

I'll take this.

Aha.

Welcome.

Hello.

Hello..

Hi.

Have a seat.

Thank you.

Thank you for the weekend
trip. It was really well-organized.

Helicopter transfers and everything.

The pleasure was ours.

Yes.

Glad you enjoyed it.

Of course, of course.

By the way...

I know why you're here.

And I have to, unfortunately...

Or I mean, I have
reviewed your loan application.

And I have to
unfortunately say no, because...

The loan in question...

The collateral offered for
the loan is insufficient.

Perhaps it's worth reconsidering
this matter carefully.

But unfortunately, that doesn’t help at all because the industrial
property you are offering as collateral is simply not enough.

Maybe these documents will
change your mind.

Not interested.

Certain newspapers might be interested.

If I had ever seen any love
between you two, maybe I’d be different.

I would know what true love is.

I don’t understand how a person can do
something like this if she loves other one.

Isn't there nothing permanent
in this world?

Well, that first statement
is definitely not true.

We’ve had good moments with Risto.

We have truly loved each other.

So what happened?

Everything just changes, in
good and in bad.

Love isn’t some kind of ready-made package that you can put on the
top shelf of the closet and then just think, "There it is."

Now and forever and ever, amen.

Does that mean you have to separate?

Of course not.

And not everyone separates, even if
their life together is pure hell.

Guess what?

What?

I’m sure Dad still loves you.

Oh, come on.

Seriously.

He hasn’t been with
anyone else since you.

How do you know that?

I can see it.

I know him better than you do.

Aha.

Right.

Does he still paint?

He does.

He has some really good pieces.

I’ve tried talking to him about having an
exhibition, but he doesn’t believe in it.

He always needs someone kicking
him in the a*s.

Yeah.

I do understand that it hasn’t always
been easy for you with him.

You should come visit and see his work.

Well, we’ll see.

And it would be nice to see Osmo too.

Yeah.

He's wonderful.

Listen, the thing is, you just have
to go to Osmo and explain this.

What the hell are you guys doing?

What do you mean, doing?

Well, I get a call from the Forest Union asking
for permission to store some logs on my fields.

What the hell logs?

Are you clearing all the
slopes of the Urja.

Well, that’s not the case.

A small area is being logged there.

And it doesn’t concern you.

Those forests are mine, and I’ll
do whatever I want there.

Did Erkki force you into this?

No one has forced me into anything.

Are things really so bad that
you have to resort to this?

Don’t you dare start ruining
the inheritance for his sake.

Listen, Kari, I know very
well what I’m doing.

We’re now executing what
you once planned.

We’re going to build a
few more slopes there.

Oh, really?

Yes. The Urja ski resort will become
the leading ski resort in Kainuu.

It will be able to
compete with northern resorts.

Oh, is that so.

And you think you can
pull this off by yourselves?

It’s not going to work that way.

Cool it down, sister.

In any case, no storage will
take place on my land.

And no vehicles will drive across
my lands, just so you know.

You’re being petty.

It won’t harm you;
it’s just temporary storage.

It’s out of the question,
I already said so.

You can store them on the logging clearings or
hire a helicopter to pick them up from there.

Goodbye.

Where is the yellow dot,
I mean, where on people?

Oh, really difficult questions.

In the eye.

Correct. I was sure I was
the only one knowing this question.

Green, green, green.

Alright.

Look Joppe, I’ve already
learned got two.

Alright.

What color hair does
Kathleen Hepburn have?

How would I know?

Well, probably gray.

I would’ve known that.

Listen, if I went to bed now...

I have an early start tomorrow.

Good night.

Good night.

Traitor.

*Swedish* Good night, good night.

*Swedish* Good night, good night.

Red.

Red.

By the way, hey, I
was thinking about something.

We should get a car.

Yeah, like a car that I could drive.

What do you think?

What would we say?

If you need to get a car,
then you probably have to get one.

You’ll get something for it, like
some tax reduction or something.

Yeah, or we’ll get some partial benefit.

The government gives a tax refund of about 30% of
the new car’s price, but no more than 29 000.

So, I’ve been thinking it might be
better to get a used car.

Shouldn’t you take driving school again?

No, I need to complete a driving test.

They’ll check if I can
control these new driving devices.

But if it’s an automatic car, then you’d think
of it just as a handbrake and gas.

I don’t know much about those systems, but I do
know you’ve had memory loss and everything related to it.

You’ll need a neurologist’s statement.

Really?

You can’t get away that easily.

What we're doing now?

Is the whole project gonna fail?

No, it won't.

Kari can't prevent us transporting
logs across Kaukavaara’s lands.

But I’m not going to
start an argument with him.

You can’t pile those logs
on our parking lot either.

No, no, no. But they can be
put on the fields in Leppävaara.

It’s just a bit farther
from the cutting area.

Well, we just have to remember to
talk to mom and dad about it.

Well! Tassu! How's Annikki's Tassu?

Your practice session
lasted long tonight.

Well, it didn’t last
any longer than usual.

Well, it just felt like it.

So, Tassu. Let's get in the car. There.

How did you spend your time?

Well, I met a couple of friends.

That merchant, by the way, is planning to
go on the Sakkola trip with his mother.

Where did you meet that merchant?

And you didn’t go to the pub
to eat something unhealthy, didn't you?

Me?

Yes, you, you.

Of course not, not me.

Well, bye-bye!

Hey, Osmo.

What?

Hold on to me.

What’s going on now?

Nothing.

Just hold on to me.