08x01 - A Night at the Selfie Museum

[bunniefuu]

[Griffen] Go for it, girl.

-Go for it!
-[Jazz screams]

[water splash]

Ah. Ah! I already love it.

-[Jazz] Hello.
-Well, hello.

Sparkles has made an entrance.

Last season on I Am Jazz...

I really want to find love

and you really want
to find love.

-Finding love...
-We both will one day.

But, like,
I still have so much to
explore

when it comes to my sexuality

and getting sexual
with a partner,

and I'm excited
to explore that.

It's been draining.

She's gone through
a really rough time.

For like a whole year,
she wasn't herself.

I need you to get up.
Take your meds.

This isn't gonna cut it
in Harvard.

I'm not gonna be here
to get you up.

I was actually
struggling severely

with mental health issues.

[Jeanette] What is this?

-What?
-Ten nuggets with fries.

I started binge eating
and I gained weight

and more weight.

I'm now almost
a hundred pounds heavier.

Here I am today.

Oh, wow.

That's the most
I've ever seen.

That's really got to go.
Oh, my God.

[Jeanette] Oh, no, no, no.

-This dress is special to me.
-No, no, no.

Jazz, it has holes in it.

You can't dictate my life.

You can't tell me
what I can and can't wear.

I'm ready to be on my own.

However, my mom is still
all over my case.

I love you,
but I need to get away.

Good news!

-[Jeanette] What does it say?
-"Hi, Jazz.

I know you're waiting
for the message,

so I wanna let you know
as soon as I did.

You are approved to return.
Welcome to Harvard again."

Yes, I am readmitted
to Harvard.

I got this in the bag.

Harvard here we come.

-Whoo!
-[Griffen] Yeah.

[singer] ♪ I'm running wild,
Love my styles ♪

♪ Go hot, I'm on fire... ♪

[singer] ♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪

[singer] ♪ So hot, so hot ♪

♪ I'm running wild
Flash a smile ♪

♪ Yeah,
I'm living my life... ♪

[singer] ♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪

[singer]
♪ I'm running wild... ♪

[Jazz] Since last year, my
life has completely changed.

I just completed
my first year of college

and it was such
a liberating experience.

I'm gonna hang this up
in the bathroom.

Shower caddy.

I'm a little sweaty

for helping Jazz
get this moving in.

I'm really happy
to be in this magical place

that we call Harvard.

There's the library.

At school, I was finally
independent for the first time

and I was able
to put myself in situations

that were fun and new for me.

[singing] ♪ The [indistinct] ♪

[audience cheering
and applauding]

I did a singing workshop
and I took courses

that were really cool,
and I joined Club Lacrosse

and made friends there.

So I'm at Harvard
by the river.

And I'm here
with my friend, Amina.

-Say hi, Amina.
-Hi.

Isn't she so beautiful?

Aw.

My friends at Harvard
are very different

from my friends back at home.

My friends at school
wanna be president

of the United States
and likes, or in Congress,

or like journalist, or just
these big crazy things.

Sometimes I have to pinch
myself and be like,

"Oh, my God, Jazz,
you're at, like,

the best institution
in the whole world."

And it's just exciting because
I have this opportunity

to build whatever life
I want for myself.

And that's magical.

Hello.

-[Eli] Hello.
-[Jazz] Hi, Princess.

[Eli] Hello. Hello.
How are you doing, beautiful?

-[Jazz] Good to see you.
-[Eli] So good to see you.

-[Jazz] Hey, everyone.
-[all] Hi.

[Jazz] All right,
what are we doing? Stretching?

[Eli] Yeah, we're stretching.

It's my last day of rugby
practice before the summer

and honestly,
I'm sad about it.

I'm gonna miss my friends.

I'm gonna miss being active.

But I'm also looking forward
to the summer

with my parents
and being back home.

[Eli] Whoa, feel it
in the back.

[Jazz] Okay. Oh, my God. Oh.

My favorite
is sumo wrestler already.

[Eli] Really?

It feels so good.

-[Jazz] Oh, yeah.
-My shorts are too tight.

I like having a vag*na
so I could do this.

-[Eli] Yeah?
-[Jazz] Yeah.

-Is that TMI?
-Oh, not at all.

[Jazz] Oh, it feels so great.

Mmm-hmm.

[Eli] Ooh. So you're excited
to go home?

I'm excited. I'm excited to be
with my cats, my parents.

They're awesome.
You've met my mom.

[Eli] Oh, yeah, she's great.
I had lunch with her.

She's so amazing.

But at home, I don't have
as much freedom, you know.

It's hard going
from, like, Harvard

where you're, like, free...

[Jazz] I know, yeah.
all the time.

Do whatever you want to.

But I'll be back, you know.

I'm gonna go home this summer,
and then...

I don't know. I'm really proud
of this past semester.

I've socialized more.

I put myself out there more
in social situations.

Yeah.

I do suffer with some severe
mental health issues.

You know, socializing
is hard for me,

but it's gotten a lot better

and being at Harvard
has helped me tremendously.

Are you scared about dating
in Florida versus Boston,

when people are generally
more accepting?

I have downloaded a dating app

and my profile
does say I'm transgender.

[Eli] Okay.

And I wouldn't go on a date
with someone

unless they knew I was trans.

Yeah. How do you think
your mom will feel

about your dating?

Uh, I know she probably
is not the biggest fan.

Mmm-hmm.

[jazz] I haven't told my
parents about the dating app

because I don't want them
to freak out.

I'm getting older now
and I don't feel like

I'm obligated to tell them
everything I do,

everything going on
in my mind.

You're ready to go play
some rugby?

-I'm ready.
-[Eli] Let's do it.

All right. Let's hit it.

[Eli] Circle up for rugby!

[all] Whoo!

[upbeat music playing]

[Greg] There's a...knocked
right there.

-No. No.
-[laughs]

It's not so easy

to just make a just make
rights in this town.

Nope, and the streets
are skinny.

[Greg] Are you excited
to see Jazz?

[Jeanette] Yes.

Then, I get her
for the summer.

I am happy for Jazz.

I'm glad that she's doing
this rugby.

That's another activity
just to get out,

and get about, and socialize.

Mmm-hmm.

When Jazz was first leaving

or we were dropping her off
for school,

I have to admit
that I was nervous.

I wasn't sure
if she was ready.

Jazz really did a nice job
of getting acclimated,

getting through classes,

getting social
and doing the things

that she wanted to accomplish
her freshman year.

Oh, my God, Mom.

My classes today
were on another level.

I feel so stressed, but
I'm glad I made it through.

Now, I just have to do
the work,

which I will do for sure.

Don't worry about me. Okay?
Don't worry about me.

I was nervous before, feeling
a little bit better now.

A lot better, actually.
I'm feeling a lot better now.

[rugby player] Hey!

[rugby player]
Wait, I should do it again.

Oh, there she is, over there.

[Greg] She's having fun.

[Jeanette]
I guess we'll sit and wait.

[Greg]
Do you wanna play rugby?

-[Jeanette] Definitely not.
-Ready, Jazz?

Run!

[Greg]
Oh, Jazz has the ball. Look.

-[rugby player] Oh, no.
-[rugby player] Shutdown.

[rugby player] There you go.

[Jeanette]
She's such a good athlete.

Every sport she did
with the exception...

Maybe tennis
wasn't her strongest,

but she was so good
at lacrosse.

-[Greg] Well, tennis was...
-And soccer and football.

[woman] Good, go. Explode.

-[Jeanette] Wow.
-[Greg laughs]

Whoo!

[Jazz] My mom's here. Hi.

[Jeanette] Yeah, she got
the ball. Look at her.

Go, Jazz! Whoo!

Go, go, go, go, go,
go, go, go, go, go.

Nice, bringing back memories.

I'm so sad that I don't get
to go to the games anymore.

Do you miss that?

-I do miss it.
-I miss it.

Yeah. I mean, I used
to coach quite a bit.

-That was a lot of my time.
-That was such good time...

-[Greg] It was fun.
-it was so nice.

I feel like I had no purpose
in life

until I became a mother.

You know, I carried
these babies in my belly.

They were connected to me.

And only other mothers
can understand that.

You and that person have a
special bond that nobody has.

When Jasmine went off
to college,

I wasn't like grabbing her
like, "Don't go."

It was just like,
"I'm gonna miss you.

I'm really gonna miss you."

My baby's gone
and you're just...

See, I'm getting
all emotional. I miss it.

Sorry.

Just, um, they're all grown
up now

and I just miss them
when they were little.

See?

This is what, like, people
would be, like,

"Okay, she's just too
attached who cries

because they're not
the soccer mom anymore."

I'm like crying because
I miss being the soccer mom,

but they were such good times

and I just loved
every moment of that.

And I would just make sides
for them and just...

You know, they play
at every sport,

like I'd already sang
every weekend,

like I went to everything.

[Eli] One, two, three.

[all] All for one!

[clapping]

Whoo!

That was really nice.

[rugby player]
I think [indistinct]

[rugby player] That was great.

[rugby players chattering]

Hey, Eli. Come here.

Come say hi to my parents.

[Eli] Hi.

[Jeanette] Hello.

Oh, my God,
it's so good to see you.

-La-la-la-la.
-[Jazz] I miss you so much.

-[Greg] Hello.
-Hello. I'm Eli.

-Very nice to meet you.
-Nice to meet you.

I heard so much about you.

Oh, your daughter's wonderful.

-Eli!
-Dad, I miss you.

[Greg] What's up, kiddo?

What a run, what a run.

-It was a good run?
-Yeah.

[Eli] Yes, Jazz
is fantastic at rugby.

It's a new career for her.

-[Jeanette] Oh, really?
-Yeah, superstars of the team.

[Jeanette] You look great
out there, Jazz.

You still got your mojo.

Yeah, I was able to cut
and swerve a little bit.

As I'm losing weight,

I'm finding that these things

are becoming easier
again, so...

[Jeanette]
Yeah, you look great.

Thank you. You haven't see
me in a while, so it's like...

[Jeanette]
You're slimming down, girl.

Just a little bit.
I still have...

I have much more to go.

[Jeanette] Oh, you're losing
some of this.

[Jazz speaking]

I've struggled
with binge eating disorder

for a couple of years now.

I'm doing so much better.
I binged so much less.

I have a bad habit of ordering
a [bleep] ton of food

and just stuffing my face.

And I haven't been doing that.

And I've lost about 25 pounds
by being active

and incorporating
more healthy foods.

I'm so happy that
I've come so, so far.

-Mmm-hmm.
-I'm really proud of you.

-[Jazz] Thanks.
-That's great.

-It's great that you're...
-[Jazz] Am I sweaty?

[Greg] Yes, but it's okay.
It's hot.

It's really hot.

[Greg] It's hotter in Florida.

Yeah, more humid there, too.

Well, I guess that's the
weather I'm going back to.

To be totally honest,
I'm a little worried

about going home because
I feel like I've established

a good routine here at school

and I just feel like
I'm in a good space mentally.

And I'm worried that
going home is gonna bring out

some old bad habits
like binge eating

and my social anxiety.

I really just don't wanna
have to face those issues.

I want it to be
a successful amazing summer.

-[Eli] Have a wonderful time.
-Bye, Eli.

I'll see you in a few months.

-[Eli] Bye, guys.
-[Greg] Bye.

Keep in touch
this summer, okay?

Keep in touch.

[upbeat music playing]

That's pretty.

I want one of these.

Oh, where did Mom go?

I thought she was cooking
with me?

-I don't wanna cook with you.
-What were you guys doing?

Pitcher of water? Lemon water?

[Griffen] I think so.

Unless you guys want me to
make some alcoholic beverage.

You can make
alcoholic beverage.

[Griffen] Since you're 21 now,
you know.

-I mean, I don't...
-[Griffen] Well, let's see...

really drink that much.

But if everyone's drinking
tonight, I'll drink.

It's summer break and Griffen
is down from Tampa.

He has a summer law job.

And Sander is still living
at home, which is great.

And unfortunately, Ari's
in Arkansas getting her PhD.

She's gonna be Dr. Ari.
So, she's working very hard.

But Jazz is home,
so it's really nice.

I've got three out of
my four babies, or chickadees,

or whatever you wanna call
them, adult children.

Don't forget Jack and Jacky.

[Jazz] Mom, what are you
making for dinner?

One of your very favorites.

-Chicken francaise?
-No, salad.

They made the most oily pasta
out there, you know.

-You'll love that.
-It's not that oily.

Oh, it is that oily.

-[Jacky] Hello.
-[Jack] Hi, guys.

-[Jacky] Hello.
-[Griffen] Grandmother.

[Jack] Hello.

-[shouts]
-[Jacky] Oh.

Oh, no, you scared her.

-Oh.
-I'm sorry.

[Jazz] Hi, grandpa.

-No, it's all right.
-I'm just... I'm just joking.

It's all fun and games,
all fun and games.

I'm very excited to see Jazz.

I'm delighted that she's going
to be with us this summer.

We wanna engage with her

and find out what her
reflections are in the school

that I could never have
gotten into.

Really?

She thinks
I'm smarter than I do.

I don't wanna go off on you.

You've got things
to take care of here.

Oh, did you guys know what
I've been studying this week?

No, go ahead and tell me.

For the law review
this past week,

I had to learn
about p*rn*graphy law.

[Jack] Oh, really?

Yeah. Sander knows
a lot about that.

[Jazz] Oh.

[laughs]

[Griffen] That was a good one.

So rumor has it that you guys
are going to some beach party?

So, Jaclyn's, kind of,
planning the party

and throwing it.

Just as like a nice
welcome home to me

after my first year
at college.

I want you to tell me details.
I want all the little details.

How many people do you know?
Are there strangers?

Greg and I are both excited
to see Jazz go out.

I want her to have
a good time.

There's always
that level of concern

because Jazz at times

has had some severe
social anxiety.

It hasn't gone away
completely,

and that's what has me
concerned the most, I think.

I do know that there should be
some people there.

Probably some people we know,
probably some strangers,

and we're gonna have
a good time.

What about security?

It's not that crazy.

She's being
a little too much.

She has to lay off
my case a little.

It's gonna be a fun party.
It's nothing big.

At Harvard,
I had my own freedom,

but at home,
my mom interrogates me

over every little thing
I wanna go out and do.

So it's definitely a reminder

of what it feels like
to be back at the house.

[Jacky] We're here
to welcome Jazz.

-One down, three to go?
-One year down, three to go.

-Yes.
-[Greg] Yeah.

Let's applaud me.
I'll applaud myself.

Um, yeah, it was
a really great experience.

I would have imagined
you must have met some great,

great classmates.

Some really smart people.

I did Club Lacrosse

and I made some friends
on my lacrosse team.

[Griffen] Did you go
on any dates this past year?

I did not... I have not dated
since, like, 2018.

-No online dating or anything?
-No online dating.

Yeah, but tell him
what you did.

-[Jazz] I mean...
-[Griffen] Oh-uh.

Sounds like
you're... Sounds like
you're in trouble.

-What did you do?
-Okay. Okay.

I did download a dating app
but mom was like,

"You have to take
that down right now."

[Griffen] What?

Yeah, she was not
supportive of it.

[Griffen] I have dating apps.
We use dating apps.

I downloaded a dating app.

I'm looking
right at you, girl.

[Jeanette] And who thought
this was a good idea?

-Breathe mama.
-I did.

-Breathe mama.
-Yeah.

I just want you to support me
in this endeavor, you know?

[Jeanette]
Can you just delete it?

This opens the door
for people to be like,

"Oh, it's Jazz Jennings.

I've heard of her.
I don't like that.

Oh, you know, I don't like
transgender people.

I'm gonna ask her
out on a date...

I do not believe
it's a good idea for Jazz

to be on your typical
dating app

because she's transgender.

It just makes it harder.

There are a lot of fish
in the sea,

and every now and then,
you're gonna catch a shark.

It's a dangerous world
for trans women

and I totally understand
and respect that.

But at the same time,
you can't live life in fear,

though, especially
when it comes to love.

I don't agree with her
decision to delete the app.

This is to find love.
And I really, really do

wanna meet
that special someone.

And a dating app
is a great way to do that.

And I'm not gonna
let the fear stop me.

[Griffin]
When was the last time

you met a girl
that I brought home?

And I've hang out with,
you know, girls

-in the past couple of years.
-Double standards.

-Rose is double standard.
-[Jazz] Double standard.

I don't like you guys
on dating apps either.

I think it's dangerous
all around.

You ain't gonna stop me.

-Nobody.
-It's really not.

I am thrilled that Jazz
is looking for love.

I would love her
to meet somebody

in a more traditional way

than through the app surfaces.

I don't have a finger
in the air saying

you must do this
and you must do that.

It's... That's really
between Jeanette Mama.

Have you spoken to Jeanette
about her dating?

No, I just said...
It's between Mama Jeanette...

No, I'm asking
you if you've spoken

to Jeanette
about Jazz's dating...

-No. My answer is no.
-Oh.

Anyone you meet
can have ill intentions.

If anything,
a dating app sets the bar

to get to know someone first.

It's actually safer
than going to a bar

and meeting a random person.

That's more dangerous
that I would say a dating app.

I really have something
to say.

[Jack] I disagree with that.

I'm 21
and I deserve the freedom

to choose for myself
what I want.

I haven't even finished
my first meal

and my parents
are already all over me.

Ugh, I just think this is
gonna be a very long summer.

[music playing]

-Where's any smiling pictures?
-Let's swipe through it.

Let me swipe through.
I wanna swipe.

As much as I love my mom,

she does not need to know
all about my dating life.

Oh, wait, this guy is cute.

Slay all day.

-Perfect. Thank you so much.
-Thank you so much.

[Greg] He's not
at the beach anymore.

[Jeanette] I have no idea
where this location is.

Let's go weave our way around.
Meet new people.

I am definitely
worried knowing

that she's out there
and I'm gonna find her.

[upbeat music playing]

[Jazz] What's up?

Doing work.

Scalp massage.

Not doing work.

Not doing work. [laughs]

Except the Wi-Fi
in this house is terrible.

I have a hard question
for you.

Do you think I look
just as beautiful now

as I did when I was thinner?

Of course.

This is all really big for me

because I am dating

and I'm trying to figure out

like how I could
attract someone.

And obviously, I want someone

who would appreciate me
every shape and size.

No matter what size,
shape you are,

there's always gonna be
those people that say like,

you are not fitting ideals

-perfections but...
-Yeah.

like we all look good
in our own different shapes,

size, and form.
But like it comes...

it comes down to health,

and how you feel,
and with your progress.

I just wanna find a companion

who's gonna challenge me,

and love me, and help me grow,

and help me learn
more about myself,

and about them,
and just really uniting.

And ugh, I want it so bad.

I've never been
in love before.

I've had an interesting
dating history.

I've gone on plenty of dates,

but I've only been
in one serious relationship

and that was with Amir.

And we don't really
talk anymore.

You love when I call you
your girl.

When you say
that you're my girl, yeah.

You're my boy.

I also dated Victoria,

but nothing ever really
sprouted from that.

I don't plan
on having like kids.

-You never want kids?
-I don't know,

like I just don't see myself
with children.

I feel like I have a lot
of love to give,

-I wanna give that to kids.
-That's sweet.

I'm just hoping

that I could find someone
pretty soon,

someone I can confide in
about all of my worries,

fears, and doubts, or just
anything I'm thinking about.

Like, I'm ready
to have that partner

who I can connect with
and just, like,

spill it all on top of them.

-[sighs]
-It'll starts

to putting yourself out there.

Well, I think I need
some help with my dating app.

I've been told my profiles

on dating apps
are pretty good,

so I think I could do
a great job

helping you
and I think that'll be fun.

But I don't want mom
hearing about any of this.

-All right.
-We need to close this door,

so she doesn't
overhear us at all.

I might scream it out
and tell her.

[laughs]

Okay. Right now,
I just have one profile.

Wait, I have 850 people
who likes me.

-Is that a lot?
-[Sander] Let me see.

-Are you sure?
-I don't even know...

-Let's just start swiping.
-No, no. Stop.

-Yes.
-This is my profile.

Oh, you got a match.

-Oh, my.
-You got another match.

-Stop. Stop swiping.
-Oh, you got another match.

I don't want these people.

You just got
three matches in a row.

[Jazz] Wait,
I don't want these people.

You are three for three.

-I love getting matches.
-I didn't...

But I didn't even get to look.

I sometimes
don't even get match a day.

-But I don't even know...
-[Sander] You just got three.

What if I don't like them?

[Sander] You don't have
to do anything.

You just match with them.

That's the beauty
of social media

versus meeting someone in...
On... In person.

Oh, Alex 19.

He's interesting.

You know, it does say
that I'm transgender

in my dating app profile

and I'm still getting
all of these likes.

So, either
a lot of people are okay

with dating a trans person

or they're not
seeing it in my profile.

You shouldn't just be
on one app.

You need to be on multiple,

if you're trying to find
that special someone.

All right. I'll download
another dating app right now.

What if you
see me on the dating app?

That's gonna be weird.

Yucka. That's not happening.

-Yeah, no, I don't...
-All right.

So, I download the app,

it just ask me some questions.

What's your sexuality?

I guess
I'll just put pansexual.

Do they have a pansexual
option on there?

Yeah, I'm writing transgender.

[woman voice] Transgender.

Trans woman.

There.

All right,
I need to find pictures...

Let me help
you find the pictures.

-We need a little more...
-Okay.

Wait, I think
this is a really good one.

[Sander] I like people def...
People...

Like, I like
the full body one...

This one's
really good 'cause...

That one's a good one
for a selfie

but your last profile
had too many selfies on it.

You need to have a little bit
more dynamic to it.

Well, this is my main picture.

I think you can do
better than that...

-No.
-Here's one other thing,

besides the one with me,

where's any smiling pictures?

And also, like,
I do think this is a beautiful

picture of you, but like...

It's very like...

Um, it got me 850 swipes,

so, hold on, let me swipe
through people.

-[Sander] You're not wrong.
-Wait, let's swipe through.

Let me swipe through.

I feel good about this.

I'm 21.

I wanna find that
special partner

and build that connection.

And I feel like
I'm ready for it

and I feel like I want it more
than I've ever wanted it.

Oh, wait, this guy's cute.

This is my life.

I'm doing what I wanna do.

He's really handsome,
this guy.

So, what's gonna happen
at this beach party?

I know you're inviting
some people, right?

There was a lot
of tension last night.

I don't wanna have to deal
with this bull [bleep]

so I'm really excited
to just eat with a friend.

Hopefully,
there's, like, a cute guy

-or something there for you.
-[Jazz] What?

-Make yourself pretty.
-Mmm-hmm.

Jazz did do better
with her mental health

at college,
but it's not something

you can take a magic wand

and wave away like poof.

You know, anybody
can go to this, really.

You're out on a beach

and I just worry
about the haters.

Something could go wrong.

[upbeat music playing]

Hi.

I love you.

You're such a good boy.

You shed so much.

-Hi, princess.
-Oh my goodness.

-Hi, pretty.
-Hi.

-How are you?
-Good.

-How are you?
-I'm good.

It's been so long.

-[Jaclyn] Oh, my God.
-I cannot believe it.

You look so good.

-You look amazing as always.
-Thank you, baby.

-Are you ready to go shopping?
-Let's go shopping.

Okay. Let's have fun.

There was a lot
of tension last night

because my parents
were kind of

over inserting themselves
on the decisions

that I'm making
about my dating life,

and I don't wanna have to deal
with this bull [bleep]

so I'm really excited
to just hang out

with Jaclyn
and be with a friend.

We're here.

[Jaclyn] I haven't seen you
in like how many years,

-like...
-Too many years.

It's been a long time.

And it's been
a few crazy years.

Last time you saw me,
I was a slim...

No, physically.
Now, I'm a big nugget.

I've been friends
with Jazz since I was 13.

Hi, my name is Jojo.

What do I look for
in a friend?

Well, loyalty and someone
who can enjoy my true laugh

because when I truly laugh
I sound like a banshee

with a sinus infection.

[laughter]

I used to go by the name Jojo,

and then I kind of started

to associate that
with some dysphoria,

so I was like drop that name,

like let's get a new one.

So, me and my mom decided
to brainstorm

and she came with Jaclyn.

I feel like you have grown
and changed a lot

since I've last seen you,
like you are an adult woman.

I'm an adult woman.

And I feel so much more
comfortable,

like, in my skin as Jaclyn.

-[Jazz] Yes.
-Like I just... I feel like

so much more better
about, like, myself.

You're not Jojo anymore.

-[Jaclyn] No, ma'am.
-You are Jaclyn.

She's a new b*tch.

Turning 18,

I feel like really allowed me

to blossom and start a lot
of the big goals that I have.

I am a trans influencer,
but I used to, like,

make myself look smaller
and I would cross my legs

all the time, and just, like,
hide and like...

none of that.

Like exude confidence.
Like, exude that energy

because when
you look confident,

people think you're confident.

So, what's gonna happen
at this beach party?

I know you're inviting
some people, right?

[Jaclyn] I'm inviting
my friend Tyler and...

-Okay.
-you are going to love her.

She is so gorgeous.

And then, I'm gonna have
some food, some music.

-[Jazz] You know I love food.
-Hmm. Me too, girl.

I like food more
than I like people.

-[Jaclyn] Same.
-No, that's not true.

It's gonna be a lot of fun.

We're all gonna converse
and, like,

hopefully there's, like,
a cute guy

-or something there for you.
-[Jazz] What?

Guy, or girl,
or non-binary person.

We gotta get you booed up.

I know.

I'm kind of lacking
in the dating department.

I'm gonna park
over here in the shade.

And parked.

-All right. Fine. We're here.
-We're here.

-Let's shop till we drop.
-Till we drop.

Jazz wears a lot of very
baggy, loose fitting clothing,

but I'm like bestie,
like we need to, like,

show off the figure
a little bit, okay?

Like push the girls up,

like do something.
Let's do it.

Let's get out of the moo moos,
Ms. Pam.

I need to get out
the moo moos.

Let's do it.

Ooh.

[upbeat music playing]




Really guys?

[laughs]

[producer speaking]

Well, this used to be
in the boys' room up

until like a year ago and I...

[producer speaking]

[Jeanette] No,
they're everywhere.

Wait, are you talking
about condoms?

[Jeanette] Yeah.
Every drawer I open.

Condoms and packages, what?

-In the drawer.
-What drawer?

They belonged
to your brothers.

Oh, okay. Sander and Griffin.

-Yeah. That's...
-Yeah. Yeah.

No, like why would
you have condoms?

-I don't know.
-You have no need for condoms.

Oh, I love putting
warm water in a condom

and just, like, playing with
it as like a stress ball.

Okay, now,
you're sharing too much.

It's warm, and then sometimes

you could like suck on it,
too.

-What?
-[laughs]

It actually feels
really great.

Never mind.
Let's not talk about this.

[producer speaking]

-Uh, probably Sander.
-[laughs]

I'm just looking
to see how old it is.

Where...
Don't these things expire?

Isn't that how people
get pregnant

-'cause they don't have...
-Yeah, they expire.

Oh, wait, wait, wait.
What's this?

Itty-bitty.

No, it's like weird numbers.
Not expiration.

[producer speaking]

Itty-bitty.

Itty-bitty,
teeny-weeny writing.

[Jeanette speaking]

[makes sound]

-Hello.
-Hi.

[Jeanette] Why is there
a random contact lens

-just here on the...
-That's me.

I tend to just throw
them places.

[Jeanette] That's really nice.

I think they just
like evaporate.

-[laughs]
-[Jeanette] They don't.

-I know.
-[Jeanette] They don't.

I treat them like they do.

Is my hair good?

-Making yourself pretty?
-Mmm-hmm.

Jazz did do better with
her mental health at college,

but it's not something
you can take a magic wand

and wave away like poof.

It's still there.

And now, she's rushing
into a summer beach party

and I don't know

if that's good or not.
I'm not sure.

With Jazz,
the most predictable thing

about her
is that she's unpredictable.

So, you know,
something could go wrong.

So keep your phone next to you

in case we need
to reach either of you.

-Okay.
-Um, you know,

we just might check in

because this is a situation
you haven't been in before.

-Yeah.
-And you don't know a lot

of the people going there.

Mom, just don't worry
about it.

I don't wanna say
anything too negative,

but I as a parent,

your dad and I, we both worry.

-I know.
-We both worry about

-who's gonna be there.
-Yeah.

Are they... You know,

anybody can go to this,
really.

You're out on a beach

and I just worry
about the haters

because the hate has been
very, very real as they say.

Mmm-hmm. It's gonna be fine.

I know my mom
is coming from a good place,

but seriously,
I'm 21-years-old now,

like I could handle
my own business.

And as much
as I love you, mom,

it's getting to that point

where you can't make all
the decisions for me anymore.

[Jazz] There's definitely
some anxiety.

I'm having this, like,
out-of-body experience.

You have really cool hair,

but I'm sure
you heard that like...

I mean, uh.

[Jazz speaking]

There was a lot
going on at once.

[Jazz speaking]

[upbeat music playing]

Girl, watch your hands.

Sandra, all white?

-All white.
-Cool.

-It's a beach party.
-Beach party.

Jaclyn planned this nice.

And I see
some of my friends are here.

-Hello.
-[Sander] What's up, everyone?

-Hi, beautiful.
-Hi.

-So good to see you.
-So good to see you, too.

-You look so good.
-Oh, my God.

-You always look good.
-Hi, Sander. Come here.

-Aw.
-Good to see you.

-It's been a long time.
-Good to see you, too.

Wait, wait, wait.

Sander and I
drove to the beach party

with our friends.

And as we arrived,
immediately my stomach drops

and I'm like, oh, my God,

there's all these people here
for me

and I have to hug everyone
and meet new people.

And it can be
very intimidating.

In situations like this,
it's just easy for me

to get in my head

and think certain things
that aren't true.

So, I'm gonna try
not to do that

and I will try to have
the best time possible.

-Oh, this is Tyler.
-Hi, I'm Tyler.

-Hi, Tyler.
-Nice to meet you.

-You're so beautiful.
-And so are you.

Thank you. Thank you.

[Sander] So we have things
to celebrate today.

-[Jazz] Yes.
-Yes.

The return
of this beautiful lady.

To Jazz
coming home for the summer!

[cheers]

[Sander] I love
when my sister's in town.

-I love you.
-Cheers to both.

Okay, you're 20, right?

I just started 20
and you're 21.

-Okay, I'm 21.
-Yeah.

-Were you born in 2001?
-2002.


You're so beautiful.

-Thank you. So are you.
-Those eyes, girl.

-And you too, those eyes.
-Stop.

[Jaclyn]
Isn't she so stunning?

I have poopy brown,
and she has beautiful blue,

and you got that green.

[Jaclyn] Okay.
Now, your eyes are like--

Okay. I have a nice shape
to my eyes.

Beautiful Hudson River brown.

-Yeah.
-Like they're just gorgeous.

I know they're gorgeous.

As beautiful as Tyler is,

I'm not attracted to her
that way.

I think she's straight anyway,
so she could do her own thing.

I'm definitely
not thinking that.

[Jaclyn] I feel
like I should be giving

a speech to everybody.

Share with everyone.

I have some
really exciting news

that I wanna tell all of you.

I am getting
breast augmentation.

-[Jazz] Oh, my God.
-[cheering]

Hey, congrats.

I'm so happy for her
because I know

she's been talking
about this for years.

But she's having some
conflicts with her grandma.

I just feel
that she's too young.

-[Jazz] You want her to wait?
-It's...

I-I do, I do. I just feel...

I have to wake up every day
feeling awful about my body.

And it's making me feel
really upset.

Now that she's 18
and she's old enough,

I feel like it's the perfect
time to move forward

with this operation that she's
always dreamed of having.

I'm abandoning
the itty bitty titty committee

for once and for all.

Yeah, woo-hoo.

-I'm so happy for you.
-Thank you, babe.

I think having this surgery
is going to make me

feel like
a entirely new person.

It's going to give me
so much confidence.

It's gonna
really fix everything.

It may not fix,
like, my credit card loans

but, like,
it'll fix like a lot.

You know, I turned 18,
like, eight months ago.

You already know
I was quick to sign up

-on the dating apps and...
-[Jazz] Mmm-hmm.

Girl, this stays
between us dollies

but, like,
I matched with Sander.

-Oh, my god.
-[Jaclyn] Oh, but...

[Jazz] You wanna
get matched with Sander?

-[Jaclyn] Not so loud.
-Oh, sorry, sorry, sorry.

Sander is single.

But, like, I can't imagine
my friend dating my brother.

-I don't know.
-I've dated three guys.

I have been
sexually active with my exes.

Um, safe, of course.

We don't do the unsafe,
unprotected sex here.

No, ma'am.

Being sexually active
without bottom surgery

is a little confusing

and it's kind
of uncomfortable.

I don't really like

the mental experience
that is brings.

Um, so I think for the future,

I'm just gonna wait
until I have my bottom surgery

and I'm ready
to venture into that world.

Have you tried
dating apps at all?

Um, I kind of have, yeah.

On the app,
do you say that you're trans?

-Yup. I have it in my bio.
-[Jazz] That's so awesome.

-Knuckle touch for that.
-You too?

-Because I just...
-Knuckle touch for that.

Honestly,
if girls wanna go stealth,

that's okay. That's on them.

-But it just so dangerous...
-Dangerous.

The thing is just like
I would just rather, like,

tell someone and let them
know first because I would...

I don't wanna, like, have,
like, a conversation or, like,

start a connection
with someone...

-[Jazz] Get into it and then--
-and then they find out

and then they're like,
"Ew, gross," whatever.

Like, I'm like...

I wouldn't wanna put myself
through that, so...

And this-this weeds
out all the bad ones anyway.

Exactly.

You know, if say you're trans,

then the people who would say,

"Ew, gross, whatever"
are gone.

And you find people
who are attracted to you

-for you, you know?
-[Tyler] Yeah.

I mean, it's definitely
not the easiest thing ever,

-but I'd rather...
-It's not.

just wait
until I find someone that's,

you know,
actually a good person.

I think it's really...

Well, let's hope
that all three of us

-do find someone special.
-We will.

-I know you will one day.
-Sooner rather than later.

I mean, I really
wanna get in the dating pool.

Do you think
anyone here is cute?

-Like...
-Um, to be honest, no,

I don't think I really vibed
with anyone here.

-She said no.
-[Jazz] No, no.

-Absolutely not.
-Like, everyone's beautiful,

they're attractive
and whatever, but, like,

I don't see any,
like, dating prospects, no.

At this party,
most of the people

are already coupled up.

I don't see
anyone who's really single

and looking for someone.

How do you like Boston?

Because you go
to Harvard, right?

I like it.
Yeah, I'm at Harvard.

-Okay.
-I've made some friends there

and I'm just kind of vibing
with it,

-just going with the flow.
-[Tyler] Yeah.

So birdie in my ear,
AKA me and the friends

have been talking
about having an after party,

-like, at the Selfie Museum.
-I can do an after party.

Oh, Jazz is a social...
wizard.

I know. We gotta get
that social battery

and we just gotta...
charge it up.

Sander's all hyped up
about doing an after party

and I feel
like my social battery

is already kind of dying,

but I'm gonna try
to hang in there

and, you know,
conjure as much energy

as possible to have fun
later in the night.

I did win the dance award
in high school, people.

[singer] ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ Oh, it's nothing in ♪

[upbeat music playing]

[Jazz] Oh, my God. Wait.

-Hello.
-[Jay] Hey.

-I'm Jay.
-Hey, what's up?

[Sander] We got a couple
new additions to the party.

Okay, let's go.

[Jaclyn] Oh, swag.

Oh, come on, everyone.
Chivalry's not dead.

We just finished
this beach party

and I'm feeling good.

But arriving
to the Selfie Museum,

I'm feeling
a little out of it.

[upbeat music playing]

[Jazz] There's definitely
some anxiety.

There's a lot
of new people here,

a lot of cool-looking people,
and sometimes when I approach

social situations,
I get nervous,

so I'm having this,
like, out-of-body experience.

[Jay] Hold on.
I'm gonna ask somebody

to take it for us, okay?

Jay is one of my girls.
I love her so much.

She's basically
like a sister to me,

and she's so nurturing,
and loving, and empathetic.

And it helps
a lot that she's here.

I'm really, really glad
Sander invited her

to the after party.

-Charming. Thank you so much.
-Thank you so much.

Oh, thank you for inviting me.

Of course.

Sorry you couldn't make it
to the preamble, but...

I'm so happy I got to make it
to this, though,

because I was at work all day.

It was cool, right?

What's your name?
I didn't get it, I'm so sorry.

-Tyler. Nice to meet you.
-Tyler?

-Nice to meet you. I'm Jay.
-I'm Jazz. Nice to meet you.

-Nice to meet you.
-You have really cool hair

but I'm sure
you hear that like a...

-Uh... All the time?
-Yes.

-All the time.
-[laughter]

[Jazz] Nice.

All right let's go,
let's go weave our way around.

Meet new people.

[Jazz speaking]

[sighs]

I was like nervous from him
but from everything.

There was a lot
going on at once.

I feel like I was doing
really well at school,

especially the last semester.

I was really
putting myself out there

and my social anxiety
was getting better,

and I was starting to feel
more like Jazz again.

But I'm back at home
and I just feel

like I am already returning
to some bad habits

and getting in my head again.

[upbeat music playing]

[Jeanette]
Do you know where Jazz is?

He's not at the beach anymore.

We're trying to keep an eye
on the kids from a distance,

trying not to be
too intrusive,

but we can't figure out
where they are.

We tried to call Sander.
He doesn't pick up the phone.

And Jazz has her bubble
or GPS on

and we're able to see her,

but it's not
where we thought she was.

I have no idea
where this location is.

I am definitely worried.

I'm not gonna be able
to go to bed

and feel comfortable
knowing that she's out there.

-So we're concerned.
-I'm gonna...

I'm gonna find her.

-See you later.
-Okey-doke.

And stay in touch with me.

Of course. I'm good
about staying in touch

with people
unlike other people.

-All right. I love you.
-I love you, too.

Don't worry too much.

-I'm sure they're okay.
-Bye.

I don't really
wanna go looking for Jazz

and I don't
wanna embarrass her.

But when I feel that somebody
could be in danger

or in a situation that
could be unhealthy for them,

uh, you know,
mama bear was gonna come out

and that's just the way it is.

[tense music playing]

I'm feeling kind of nervous
but also like,

"Am I doing the right thing?"

[producer speaking]

I may regret it later,

but I wanna make sure
she's okay.

Bang, bang.

I just wanna let you know
that your mom's outside.

-[Jazz] My mom?
-Yeah.

What the heck
is my mom doing here?

[upbeat music playing]

[Jeanette] This is very unlike

Sander and Jazz
not to respond.

Um, I've never gone, like,
this long trying to reach

both of them at the same time

without getting a response.

[producer speaking]

[producer speaking]

[Jeanette speaking]

I'm feeling
kind of like nervous

but also like
am I doing the right thing?

But, you know what?

I'm the mom,
I'm the mama bear,

I worry
and I may regret it later,

but I wanna make sure
she's okay.

[upbeat music playing]

Mya, come here.

I have someone
to introduce you to.

-Hi.
-This is my friend Jay.

-You probably have.
-I've seen you.

-You have seen her around.
-[Sander] Hello.

Yo, if anybody slays all day,

we're taking
a selfie in front of it.

Take selfies, right?

That's what this is.

Although I don't...

Well, I don't have my phone.

-[Sander] Yeah.
-Okay. Use your phone,

use your phone.

Jazz and I are both charging

our phones in the car
and I'm borrowing

other people's phones
to take selfies at the museum.

Slay all day.

One... Wait, one vertical.

Oh, wait, it squeaks?
There's squeaky toys.

-[Jay] Yeah.
-[Jazz] Wait.

All right.
I don't know where to go.

For a few minutes,
I was really, really lost,

really, like, okay,
this is so weird,

I'm spacing out.

And my girl Jay,

she is my guardian angel
of the night.

She tells me,
"Jazz, I could tell

you're not
with it right now."

And she kinda gave me
a tour of the whole place,

she's like, "Oh,
look how cool this is,

look how cool that is."

And then,
she helped ground me

and get me back in the moment.

[indistinct chatters]

My favorite wall
is probably the cloud one.

I like the clouds, too.
I thought they were ethereal,

and colorful, and everything.

-Hello?
-I just wanna let you know

-that your mom's outside.
-[Jazz] My mom?

-Yeah.
-Why is she here?

I don't know but she looks
a little worried,

so I just wanna let you know.

I'll go outside and check.

What the heck
is my mom doing here?

What are you doing here?

[Jeanette]
What are you doing here?

-You're supposed to be...
-I'm hanging out with people.

You were at the beach,
I thought.

I know, and then we decided
to come here to Selfie Museum.

[tense music playing]

Seriously,
I'm 21-years-old now.

If I go out late,
like, I'm going out late

and I reiterated that to them
multiple times,

so I don't know what to do.

Look at your phone.

Do you ever look
at your phone?

-My phone's dead.
-[Jeanette] Ringers are off?

I didn't even know
you tried to call me.

That's the problem.
Just stay in touch.

Like, dad and I worry.

You can't be worried every
single time I'm not with you.

How did you even find me?

Uh, your tracker's on.

When will the day come

where you no longer
track me on my phone?

Are you gonna always track me?

Hmm, I do not feel

that I'll ever completely
let Jazz go.

Um, it's not
like a codependent thing.

It just...
I've been so worried about her

for so long and she's been
through so much,

that that just doesn't go away

not matter how old she is.

I'm always gonna worry.

Did you drink?

I'm an adult now. I'm 21.
[sighs]

There's just a lot of people
out there

that don't have respect
for transgender people.

-And that's why...
-I'm gonna go...

I'm gonna go back inside
to have fun.

Okay.

-Okay.
-Bye-bye.

[tense music playing]

[producer speaking]

I trust Jazz
in certain situations

and other ones
I do not trust her at all.

I'm ready
for you to take a step back.