01x03 - This Is Forever

[bunniefuu]

[moody music playing]

[Kristi] The night of December 29th,
I went to bed.

I was bawling.

I told Steve, I'll never forget,
standing on the side of the bed,

I said, "I don't know
how much more I could take."

"I don't know how much more…"

"I don't know how much longer
I could go not knowing who did this."

[phone vibrates]

[Kristi] And then later that night,
I got a phone call.

He said, "Kristi, they made an arrest."

And I was like, "What?"

Breaking news in the murders
of four University of Idaho students.

[news anchor 1] Bryan Christopher
Kohberger, who is in his 20s,

is being held in jail right now
as he awaits extradition back to Idaho.

[man] Mr. Kohberger
was taken into custody without incident.

The scene was turned over
to the FBI for processing.

[Kristi] I asked the detectives
three times if this was the right person.

They told me three times,
"100%, 100%, 100%."

So much going through our minds
of who is this individual?

Now we have a name.
We know what the person looks like.

It was a very emotional day.

[Alivea] I felt so much relief
with the arrest.

[tense music playing]

There was a feeling like Kaylee
and Maddie and Xana and Ethan had,

you know, come together
to make something happen.

There was a feeling of something
outside of the world having a play there.

[news anchor 2] According to his public
defender for the extradition hearing,

Bryan Kohberger was shocked by his arrest

and says he's eager to be exonerated.

I don't know how to describe how I felt.

I mean, it's not over. It's what's next.

[music fades]

[tense music playing]

[Anthony] After Kohberger's arrest,

we held a news conference
that very next morning.

To be able to come to the world and say,

"We got a suspect and they're in custody,"

it was a wave of relief.

At the news conference,
prosecutor Bill Thompson said,

"The investigation
doesn't end with an arrest."

In fact, this is a new beginning.

You all now know the name of the person
who has been charged with these offenses.

Please get that information out there.

Please ask the public,

anyone who knows about this individual,
to come forward.

[Anthony] As far as law enforcement goes,

it's our job to build a very solid case
that would be successful in a conviction.

We owed it to the victims.
We owed it to their families.

This is what we're here to do.

We started diving very deeply into
who he was and his history,

and in doing so, we learned that he was

a PhD student and TA
at Washington State University.

[ethereal music playing]

[Jazzmin] When I found out that
the suspect was from Washington State,

it was just an uneasy feeling to know that

I live closer to this person
than my sister did,

and I'm going
to the same school as this person.

It's just a hard detail to learn.

[Jeff] When I found out
that he lived a little ways away

from Jazzmin on the WSU campus,

I was flipped out and, um,

wished that Jazzmin wouldn't have been
still staying there at that school.

But at least they got him.

That's what I was happy about.
The only thing.

[siren blaring]

[Anthony] When Pennsylvania State Police
and the FBI arrested Kohberger

in his parents' residence,

they also seized the Elantra.

[intriguing music playing]

The Elantra was found
in the garage of the home

and was taken from the scene

and handed over to the FBI in Pennsylvania

for them to process.

The FBI did a complete deep dive
into the vehicle,

almost basically disassembling it

and looking for any kind of evidence
that they could find within,

like traces of blood, any other DNA,

anything that could potentially have come
from the crime scene.

But that vehicle was spotless.
There was nothing to be found.

But then, of course,
at the same time, someone who knows

that they're committing a horrendous crime

and then taking steps in order to cover
any kind of evidence speaks volumes.

We had the circumstantial evidence
of a white Elantra being in that area,

plus his phone records showing
that he had made several trips

to that area before.

But we never found
any other DNA in the house

that connected back to Bryan Kohberger
other than the knife sheath.

In working with Amazon, we found out
that Kohberger had an Amazon account

and that he had, in March,
purchased a KA-BAR knife and sheath,

but we never recovered the m*rder weapon.

Those footprints in the snow,

which we thought could be
part of the evidence…

Ultimately, we found that those
were not a part of the crime.

Mr. Kohberger's alibi was he wasn't there
that night at the crime scene,

he was out stargazing.

But he said he was alone,
so no one could corroborate it.

[intriguing music continues]

Trials are not slam dunk.
When talking about a death penalty case,

it has to be a unanimous jury
in order to get a guilty,

so that not only is the standard
beyond a reasonable doubt,

it has to be unanimous,

which is not something
to be taken lightly.

In a case like this, everything matters.

DNA on a knife sheath in the crime scene

isn't going to get you
to a conviction alone.

A jury want this thing we call "motive."

Why somebody would do something.

We wanted to know
what led up to this event.

What was the story behind this individual?

How did we end up where we were?

[mysterious music playing]

[Alivea] We get the name.
Obviously, I look it up.

There wasn't a large online presence.

I couldn't find much
in the ways of Facebook or TikTok.

But I did find this profile for him
on this older forum

where he posted about a condition
called visual snow.

Through my research, I found out that
visual snow is a neurological condition.

The vision is kind of tainted
with bright snow flashing.

He complained he couldn't see people well,

couldn't feel what it was like
to be in the real world.

And just sort of had
this disconnect from society.

[Brian] When reporting on the case,

I learned Bryan came from
a relatively normal working-class family.

We heard very early on
that he used to be overweight,

became obsessed with his weight.

He became obsessed
with what he was eating.

He became vegan,
obsessed with staying away from meat,

obsessed with cleanliness.

Wiping things down constantly.

He had sort of, like, OCD tendencies.

We were able
to get in touch with some friends,

but no one was really close to him.

Like, we never found a best friend.

Everyone would start out by saying,

"I didn't really know him that well."

[dramatic music playing]

But there were some friends that spoke
about him having a heroin addiction.

[Ed] We went through as much information
as available in Bryan's past.

For the FBI,
that's part of a standard investigation.

We knew he had an arrest record

where his father actually turned him in
for stealing his sister's cell phone

to, you know, sell it for drugs.

[Brian] In 2013 to 2014,
Bryan went to rehab.

And then after he cleaned himself up,

he apparently got into
the Criminology field.

He went to DeSales University
in Pennsylvania,

getting his master's there in Criminology.

I first saw Bryan Kohberger
in my Minds of a Serial k*ller class.

I sat next to him.
I smiled and said good morning.

The first day of class,
like, I just remember him

asking a question about
every single topic in that class.

Everyone would roll their eyes
and be like,

"Oh, he's asking another question."

Our professor of Forensic Psychology
at DeSales was Professor Ramsland.

She was very well known
in the Forensic Psychology world.

She wrote a book with the BTK k*ller.

We studied in Dr. Ramsland's class

every… big k*ller,

every little k*ller,
K*llers people have never heard of.

We did have group projects
with mock crime scenes

to figure out
how a crime scene took place,

what kind of k*ller
would do a crime scene like this.

Bryan adored Professor Ramsland.

It was like a switch
went off in his head in that class.

It was like a different person
when you'd see him sitting by himself,

not talking to anybody,
to when she started class,

he was actively taking notes
on everything,

actively looking at her.

You could tell he was thinking about
everything that she was saying.

I remember him
being in a group project with me

and it seemed like he had his notebook
of his ideas and his thoughts

and that's what he was going with.

It was very much, like,
a his way or the highway.

I never saw him socialize.

I never saw him at any party,
any sporting event, any homecoming.

He was in his own world.

So at this point,
I was looking online for anything.

On Reddit, I found a questionnaire
he had posted

asking people if you had been incarcerated
at some point or you currently were,

you can click the link, go into,
you know, this questionnaire.

And interestingly enough,

a lot of the questions
seemed to be centered around

the psychological process
of what a crime would feel like.

Some of the questions listed were…

Why did you choose that victim?

How did you approach the victim?
And how did you leave the scene?

The survey was posted multiple times
in multiple different places.

Looking at the questions now,

it almost seemed like preparation
for the perfect crime.

[Ed] I guess the question would be,

do you want to go out
and experience that yourself?

Are you continuing your research

because you've got this fascination
and draw to commit these crimes?

But that is just a theory.

Everything's gotta be,
"What can I prove in court?"

-[woman] Bryan Kohberger.
-[applause]

[Ed] After DeSales University,

Bryan applied to come to the PhD program

for criminal justice
at Washington State University,

where he was a TA
during the time of the Moscow homicides.

[Anthony] We had many interviews
with staff, students and faculty from WSU

and learned that
he was not particularly well-liked

by his fellow TAs and students.

There had been incidents
with Bryan with faculty.

There had been incidents
with Bryan with, uh, female students.

Uh, very demeaning behavior, mansplaining.

[Anthony] He had made
a lot of them feel uncomfortable.

He had this aptitude
for talking down to females

and being curt and argumentative.

And there were just some strange instances
and strange behavior.

[Gary] There was one situation
where Bryan Kohberger

did walk out to the car
with a female student.

and the female student felt like
she was being cornered

and that he was being aggressive with her,

perhaps asking her out.

Inappropriate behavior
for the position he had.

[Anthony] We learned
that after the homicides,

Kohberger continued going to school
until December 19th

when he was terminated
from his TA position at WSU.

[Gary] At the time, nothing was reported
to the Police Department

because nothing that occurred,
uh, rose to the level of a crime.

[Lilly] Putting pieces that I learned from
my Forensic Psychology classes together,

I think Bryan Kohberger
has a thing against women

based on the description
of what he did to those poor three girls.

People who brutalize women
the way Kohberger did

dislike them, find them threatening.

They take that anger out on them.

[dramatic music playing]

[Ed] Violent actions against women

have been tied to people
who have beliefs of incel movement.

The incel,
meaning "involuntary celibate," group

is a group of usually younger males
who believe that

there's a world conspiracy

that women out there will only have sex
with a very minority amount of men,

and that they don't fall into that group.

They believe that women
are the cause of all of their suffering,

pain in their lives.

So, they lash out and they become violent.

But when it comes to using this in court,

we never saw evidence that shows

Kohberger is part of the incel movement,

that he was in chat rooms
or in any part of the incel.

But Bryan Kohberger was very good
at hiding his online activity.

[distant siren blaring]

Part of what we were able to seize

at Bryan's parents' residence
in Pennsylvania

and Bryan's apartment in Pullman

were some computers,
cell phones that Bryan used.

All that evidence
had to be reviewed and processed

to try to find ties
between Bryan and this crime.

What we found was
that Bryan was very careful.

He would clear the phone memory
and wipe the phone

and very little information
was actually left on his digital devices.

[contemplative music playing]

Cellebrite was enlisted to do a deep dive
on the cell phone

beyond just a standard phone extraction.

[Jared] In the world we live in today,

every case has the potential
for digital evidence.

Victims, witnesses, suspects.

Everybody has a phone.

And all day, every day,

your phone is painting the picture
of what you're doing,

who you're talking to, how you behave.

Who you really are.

[Heather] In March 2023,
I got a call from the FBI saying,

"Hey, we have this investigation."

"Could you help us prepare
this case for trial?"

And that's when I volunteered
Jared and I to go in and assist the FBI.

The FBI gave us forensic copies
of Bryan's cell phone and his laptop.

They hoped that we could somehow
find a connection to the victims,

a motive, and just filling in any pieces
around that November 13th date.

[Jared] We looked at all the basic things.

If you think of your calendar,
your messages, your calls,

your web search,
all those types of things.

But his phone was quiet
compared to normal.

He didn't really have any applications.
He didn't do a lot of chatting.

[Jared] Bryan's phone had


It is so abnormal to have someone

that communicates
with that few people in life.

[intriguing music playing]

Bryan's behavior was
to use incognito browsing,

which anonymizes you.

It's supposed to be private.

Completely disappears
when you close your browser.

Traces will be left behind, though,
and that did help in the long run.

[Jared] In the days
leading up to his arrest,

he hadn't done anything
to get rid that browser history,

so we were able to get a good look.

[Heather] The searches that he had
just show his state of mind.

Browser searches for "serial K*llers,"

"federal wiretapping,"
"psychopath paranoia."

Those were exact keywords that we found.

The lack of data on his device
helped us prove intention.

He wanted to minimize
his digital footprint.

He did not want to be detected.

He wanted to remain completely anonymous.

[Jared] Remember,
Bryan was studying Criminology,

so he was studying serial K*llers.

That could explain why he thought
he had created this perfect crime.

[Ed] Based upon all the information
we had collected at that point,

we finally had a pretty good theory
on the progression of the crime.

[Anthony] This was not just
some random act of violence.

This was planned, this was premeditated.

That's what the evidence showed.

On the night of the murders,

Kohberger's phone was on,
and as it left his apartment…

[quiet dramatic music playing]

…it was shut off.

[Jared] Data was extracted
from his physical device.

We know he turned his phone off
while it was 100% powered.

It was fully charged
and he had cell service.

He physically pressed the button
on the side to turn it off,

to not record anything during that time.

This digital evidence meant
that he premeditated, that he planned,

and that he chose
to turn his phone off in this moment…

"'Cause I'm leaving to k*ll people."

[Ed] Then Bryan arrived
in the area of King Road

at approximately 3:30 a.m.

[music becomes tense]

Bryan arrived at the house.

He went upstairs

to the room that Kaylee and Maddie
were in bed together.

Maddie, being on the outside
of the bed, was stabbed first.

It appears that Kaylee might've woken up

during the time
that Maddie was being stabbed,

and then she gets stabbed multiple times.

We believe that after,
the comforter was put back over them.

Meanwhile, Xana had heard
something going on.

Whether she went all the way upstairs

or ran into Bryan on the stairs,
we don't know,

but we do know
that he chased Xana into her room.

Ethan is lying in the bed at the time.

Bryan stabs Ethan,

and then back to a fight with Xana.

She had defensive wounds all over.
She had over 50 stab wounds on her.

She put up a fight.

[Anthony] At approximately 4:48,
Kohberger's phone was turned on

and is seen connecting
to a cell phone tower.

[contemplative music playing]

[Heather] At 10:31,

Bryan Kohberger stood in what we believe
is his bathroom of his apartment

and gave a thumbs up selfie.

Seeming to go on proudly with his life.

I believe he thought he would get away
with these murders.

[music fades]

[news anchor] It's been more than a year
since Ethan Chapin, Xana Kernodle,

Madison Mogen,
and Kaylee Goncalves were k*lled here.

[moody dramatic music playing]

Both the prosecution and defense teams say

they have the crime scene details
they need to build their cases.

A spokesperson for the University of Idaho
says many students wanted the house gone.

My apartment was probably ten yards
from the front door of their house.

Everything's just right there.

That was hard and painful.

[Kacy] I always pictured King Street

as one of the safest places
to live on campus,

but this completely changed
my perspective.

[Jeff] That whole house was evidence.

Far as I'm concerned, there was still
stains and things in the house

that should have been left there
till the end of the trial,

But they… they did it anyway.

[Kristy] People don't understand.

They're like, "Why wouldn't you want
that house torn down?"

Here's the thing. It wasn't
that I didn't want the house torn down.

Nobody could ever live
in that house again,

but my daughter
didn't just die in that house.

My daughter lived in that house,
where she took her last breath.

And Maddie, and all four of those kids.

-Did it have to go right then and there?
-Course not.

What was the point of
not keeping it up till after trial?

[intriguing music playing]

[Brian] I was at
every single court hearing.

We were getting ready for a trial,

but things were moving so slowly.

The defense was claiming that
they couldn't get a fair jury in Moscow,

that too many people
knew about the crimes,

that the jury pool was tainted.

So they moved the entire case
from Moscow to Boise.

[Tami] It's exhausting for a family
not to know what happened.

You think you're gonna get answers.
It's coming. Then we kept getting delays.

And now it's been two-and-a-half years.

We need to be holding him accountable
to the utmost of the law.

It's really simple.

[interviewer] How would you feel
if it doesn't go to trial?

Totally pissed.

[intriguing music continues]

[Brian] But then finally
the trial date was set.

[news anchor]
The trial is expected to get underway

with opening statements on August 18th.

The state of Idaho is seeking
the death penalty for Bryan Kohberger.

[mysterious music playing]

Me not going to trial wasn't an option.

I had to be there for my sister, Kristi.
I had to be there for Steve.

I had to be there for myself.

I was just planning on quitting my job

and then just move to Boise.

I wanted him to be held accountable
in front of the world.

[interviewer] What does justice look like?

[sighs] To me,
it's, uh, him being taken from this earth.

I… I get so angry sometimes to think

he wakes up every morning
and he takes a breath.

And our babies are gone and can't do that

because of him.

The death penalty is part of the equation
because you played God that night.

You decided when somebody died.

And if you play God,
then we're gonna hold you accountable.

[Kristi] We scream,
"We want justice, we want justice."

What I want is I want for him to die.

And I will not say his name. Never, ever.

No, absolutely not.

Justice would only be
if the kids came back.

Doesn't work that way. The kids are gone.
They're never coming back.

But I want him to die.

[intriguing music playing]

[Anthony] At the Police Department,

we were having
our weekly meeting about the case.

We were weeks away from a trial.

We had worked with the Idaho State Police
to secure a house for rent in Boise

because it was going to be
a very long trial and we were ready to go.

And Mr. Thompson advised us

that he had gotten a call from the defense

asking him to think about a plea deal.

When Bill said that to the room,
it was kind of a… "Huh?"

Breaking news
that I want to bring you out of Idaho.

[Alexandra] We have learned
that the accused k*ller, Bryan Kohberger,

has agreed to plead guilty to all charges
in connection to the murders

of these four
University of Idaho students.

By doing this,
Kohberger gives up the right to a trial

and accepts the consequences
determined by the court.

Four consecutive life sentences,


meaning he avoids the death penalty

and that we may never know
the exact motives behind this.

Defense had filed to exclude every bit
of hard evidence that we had obtained.

But once the judge ruled
that nothing was going to be excluded,

that is when they reached out
to begin plea negotiations.

[moody music playing]

I just don't wanna be
f*cking bombarded over there.

[Anthony] When the families learned
that they were not going to have a trial

and that Bryan Kohberger
could not get the death penalty,

some of the families got very upset.

How about you guys let me go first
and how about I tell them?

It's okay. Where's Dad, though?

[sobbing]

[Steve] It wasn't our deal.

[reporter 1] You don't think
four life sentences is justice?

No, of course not. It's daycare.
Prison is daycare, people.

-[reporter 2] Is this justice?
-No.

-No, it's not.
-No.

We're going.

[reporter 2] Are you guys
gonna be in the courtroom?

[Alivia] I've been fighting for justice
for Kaylee and Maddie

for almost three years,

and the plea deal was something
that really, really hurt me.

This entire process has not been right.

So, Kaylee paid the price,
Maddie paid the price,

Xana paid the price, Ethan paid the price,

and all of their friends
and family paid the price.

[moody music continues]

The prosecutors gave him power,

they gave him control.

It was up to him
if he was going to accept the plea deal.

In my opinion,

monsters like that should never,
ever, ever have options ever again.

[music fades]

[Jazzmin] I think that all the families
had different opinions on it.

I think the plea deal
did save us a lot of,

just, emotional trauma that we would have
dealt with going through a trial.

And it could have been years long,
who knows?

I am grateful to get it over with
and slowly, like, start to heal.

[melancholic music playing]

[Jeff] I was surprised
that they gave him a plea.

He shouldn't have got one.

He should have to tell them why he did it.

Tell all of us parents why he did it
if he was gonna get the plea.

With the plea deal,
he got off, in a sense, in our eyes, easy.

All he had to do was just sit there,
and the judge asked him,

"Did you, on November 13th, 2022,

k*ll and m*rder Madison Mogen,

Kaylee Goncalves, Xana Kernodle,

and Ethan Chapin?"

Yes.

All he had to say was, "Yes."

He didn't even say their names.
That's not enough.

The biggest answers I want is, "Why?"

"Why would you choose

these kids in this house?"

We have to know.

This case hit
our sense of safety and security.

You don't want to sit there and think
that something like this could happen

to my kids that are off to college
and all this, and not have a reason.

You want answers,
like somebody did it for money,

somebody did it for love,
somebody did it for hate.

But truth is, a lot of these things,
we'll never know the reason.

[Anthony] Ultimately, we never have
been able to answer that question

that everybody wants answered is, "Why?"

We don't know why.
We don't know why these four.

We don't know why this house.
I don't think we'll ever know.

But I do believe
that he still did get the death penalty.

He is sentenced to die in prison.

And that's the bottom line.

[solemn music playing]

[reporter] Today, family members
of the victims have their day in court,

getting the chance to confront the man
who robbed them of a lifetime of memories.

How ya feeling, babe?

Little nervous?

A little nervous, yeah.

I'm expecting us to get up and talk.

I don't know
how many families are talking.

Um… I just want this day over with.

[Steve] Two-and-a-half years

and it's all gonna come up
in the next 24 hours.

[dramatic music playing]

[Brian] Sentencing was so intense.

It was just a weird feeling
that this was actually the end.

The families,
they all came together in that moment.

And you could feel it,
like they were all supporting each other.

That was a beautiful thing.

The Chapins made the decision
not to go to the sentencing.

They were out on the lake,
remembering Ethan in their own way.

[judge] This is the time set
for sentencing in this case.

Let's start with impact statements.

[Brian] One of the two surviving
roommates, Dylan Mortensen, spoke,

and it was really emotional.

[sobbing quietly]

Dylan, just take your time, all right?

[breathing deeply]

-[Brian] The strength it took for her…
-Sorry.

[Brian] …to get up there,
just feet away from Bryan Kohberger,

the person who took away her best friends
and tried to ruin her life.

I could see her shaking.

I don't know how someone
has the strength to do that.

What happened that night
changed everything.

He may have shattered parts of me,

but I'm still
putting myself back together.

Piece by piece, I'm learning
how to live in this new version of life.

[melancholic music playing]

He will never erase the love we shared,

the laughs we had, or the way
they made me feel seen and whole.

Those things are mine.

They are sacred,

and he will never touch them.

Dylan, thank you so much
for your courage. I appreciate it.

[Scott] Karen and I are ordinary people,

but we lived extraordinary lives
because we had Maddie.

For Maddie,
we will not let our grief consume us.

We are done being victims.

We will turn our time,
talents and attention

to hope, healing
and helping others and to the future.

[Jazzmin] Stepping up to that podium
was really scary,

but ultimately,
I'm, like, proud that I did that.

It was…

I don't know, one last thing
that I think we needed to do for ourselves

to just be kind of done with this person.

Xana deserved more. They all did.

But I come here to say this.

I am strong. I am brave.

I'm a fighter, just like Xana.

You don't get to control
how I move forward or what I believe.

I walk with the comfort of knowing
I will see my sister again.

[music fades]

[Brian] When Steve stood up
and moved the podium

to face Bryan Kohberger head on…

They weren't supposed to.

When I saw him, I was like, "Oh my gosh!"

Today, we are here
to finish what you started.

Today we are here to prove to the world
that you picked the wrong families,

the wrong state,
the wrong police officers,

the wrong community.

[intriguing music playing]

Today, you have no name.

The world's watching
because of the kids, not because of you.

[Brian] I think that Steve
kinda set the scene,

and then Alivea got up there
and basically just, like, shredded him.

[Alivea] Sit up straight
when I talk to you.

I won't stand here
and give you what you want.

I won't offer you tears.
I won't offer you trembling.

Disappointments like you thrive on pain,

on fear, and on the illusion of power,

and I won't feed your beast.

You didn't win, you just exposed yourself
as the coward you are.

You're a delusional, pathetic loser

who thought you were so much smarter
than everybody else.

Lurking in the shadows
made you feel powerful

because no one ever paid you
any attention in the light.

If you hadn't attacked them in their sleep

in the middle of the night,
like a pedophile,

Kaylee would have kicked your f*cking a*s.

[in voiceover] I'm proud of what I did.

I wish I had done more, but…

I'm proud of the decisions that I made

to not show vulnerability
in the traditional sense,

because for me, it was about
reclaiming power and reclaiming control.

It's important to me to,

I guess we could say diminish him,

to kind of break down
and expose who he really is.

He's really just a coward.

So to be able to, like,

even just a little bit,
put him back in that place,

was such an amazing feeling.

[Anthony] This case has been a part of,
literally, my daily life

for the last almost three years.

It affected me…

[melancholic music playing]

…very, very strongly,
personally, emotionally. Um…

Caused me a lot of trauma, uh, in…

I didn't realize how bad it was.

Um…

To the point where I ended up having
to get help and talk to a professional,

which for law enforcement officers
is a very difficult thing to do.

This is not a scar on Moscow.

It is… certainly a wound,

and I don't believe it'll ever fully heal,

but it's more just going to be
a part of our history

we will not forget.

[Xana laughs]

[Jeff] I know Xana would want me to go on
and make something more of life.

If you ever saw
Xana's high school graduation cap.

"The lives that I will change."

I just look at that.

It… She did make the difference.

Xana would be so pissed at us
if she saw this right now

and we were all crying
and really sad together.

Xana would hate that.

[upbeat electronic music playing]

You think of her, you think of life.

Just like the love of life.

So we had to party. For her. And we did.

[Cooper] I think that Ethan
would laugh at a lot of this

because he's like, "Why do I get
so much attention?" [chuckles]

I think he would want
to be remembered as goofy, funny,

and would just, you know,
bring the light to the room.

You get little spurts where you get
a wave of sadness,

or you'll hear a song that you…

Like, "Fall in Love" by Bailey Zimmerman.

That was, at the time,

mine and Ethan's song
that we would, like, hysterically sing,

like, scream when it came on, you know?

♪ 'Cause love's a smoke ring
Wrapped around your finger ♪

♪ One second it's a blessing
And the next it's already gone ♪

[Peter] When I hear that
on the radio, it's kinda like,

"I think that's Ethan right here, dude."

It kind of brings back
a little bit of your sadness,

but it's also happy too,
because you had such happy memories

you associated with that song, so…

It's important to have happy things
when celebrating our friends,

having fun in their name, and being able
to talk about and share memories,

and come together and be close to people
that they were close with.

[Kacy] We always
all considered each other sisters.

Shortly after everything had happened,
I sent Jazzmin a text.

Once we saw each other,

looked back on some of the memories,
we talked, we cried.

It was nice to talk to each other.

Anything I could do to take off her plate

and let her know
she has people in her corner.

[heartfelt music playing]

[Jazzmin] One of the biggest things
I want to do

is just keep Xana alive in my life.

I always talk about her.

We'll be out with friends and I'll…
Something will remind me of her.

There'll be a memory.
I'm like, "Oh my gosh!"

"One time Xana did this,
and it was so funny."

Family and friends are, like,
everything we have in this life.

That's who gets us through it all,
you know?

One, two, three!

[Alivea] At the end of it,
all of these kids had people

that they really loved and cared about,

remember them for exactly what
they should be remembered for.

You know, this… this is forever.

[heartfelt music swelling]

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[ethereal music playing]

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