04x08 - Let It Go

[bunniefuu]

[SOFT MUSIC]

[KNOCKING ON DOOR]

- Hey.
- How was it at the cabin?

Yeah, it was fine.

- Coffee?
- Sure.

Is Maggie still asleep?

She's on a run.

So...

How long are you planning
on sleeping on the couch for?

Don't know.

I know you're hurt, but...

Do you think you may be
overreacting a little bit?

Hey.

I thought you should
understand more than anybody,

considering what you're going through.

It was one kiss.

It's not just about the kiss, Sedona.

Maggie hasn't been honest
with me since Liam got here.

I mean, some things are just

too difficult for people to talk about.

But I mean, have you told
her everything about your life

with Lynne?

It's completely different.

[PHONE VIBRATES]

Uh, it's Ben's attorney.

Hey Sam, what's going on?

I'm afraid I got bad news.

The judge denied bail.

Why?

He said he considers Ben a flight risk.

I need to see him.

Then you better come now,
before they decide to transfer

Ben to the detention facility.

On my way.

Hey, why don't I come with you

and see if maybe I can
help talk him through this?

- That's a good idea, thank you.
- Yeah.

[SOFT TENSE MUSIC]

[SYDNEY]: You look
like you had a good run.

Sorry I didn't make it
to your dinner last night.

Don't even worry about it.

Did you and Cal clear things up?

He didn't want to talk about it.

I'm sure he'll understand.

You two will work this out. [SIGHS]

You always do.

I hate that I hurt him.

I just wish things weren't so confusing.

[THEME MUSIC]

♪ Is this as good as it's gonna get ♪

♪ I've given all I can give ♪

♪ But the rivers still get wider wider ♪

♪ We've been here all along ♪

♪ Through the valleys we carry on ♪

♪ The journey takes us higher higher ♪

♪ This could be a home
if we try to build it ♪

♪ This could be a life
that's one in a million ♪

♪ All the hard times,
yeah, they were worth it ♪

♪ Time and time and time again ♪

♪ Ooh whoa whoa ooh ♪

♪ Whoa whoa ooh, whoa whoa ooh ♪

♪ Time and time and time again ♪

[BIRDS CHIRPING]

[PHONE RINGING TONE]

Hey, it's me.

[JACK]: Hey! I was wondering
when you were finally

going to get back to me.

Yeah, listen. Um...

I think I'm going to have
to pass on that job offer.

I don't understand,
why would you do that?

I just really need to stay here

and see things through with Maggie.

It's your decision,

but for the record, I think
you're making a big mistake.

Well, I won't know unless I try.

Okay. Let me know how it goes.

Take care, mate.

[LIAM]: Thanks.

[SOMBRE MUSIC]

Cal, I know that you
care about Ben, but...

I think you might be getting
too emotionally involved.

He's a good kid, Sedona.

And so is his sister.

It's not their fault their
mother abandoned them.

I realize that, but...

it's also not your responsibility.

Ben's got nobody looking out for him.

What about his lawyer?

It's not the same, you know,

I can't just turn my back on him.

You sure this is about Ben?

What do you mean?

I mean, maybe this situation

is opening up some old wounds for you.

I'm just trying to help Ben
keep his family together.

That's all.

Helping Ben isn't gonna change
what we went through, Cal.

[SOFT MUSIC]

Cal?

Cal?

[SIGHS]

[CELL PHONE BUZZING]

- You want me to answer it?
- Let it go to voicemail.

You're going to have to
talk to Maggie sometime.

[CAL]: You've reached Cal
Jones, please leave a message.

[BEEP]

Hey, it's me.

I feel terrible about how
we left things last night.

Can you please call me
back so I can explain?

I love you.

[BIRDS CHIRPING]

[WHISKING]

Did table six like their quiches?

Yeah, I think so.

Well, I thought maybe I
could add some lemon thyme

to the recipe. What do you think?

Yeah, sure. Whatever you want.

That was a joke.

Oh. Right.

You okay?

Yeah, just busy.

I wanted to let you know

I had a really nice time yesterday,

and I thought maybe later,

you could show me around a bit more.

Look, Amir, you're a really nice guy,

but I just got out of a relationship

that didn't end well,

not really looking for anything.

I need to focus on myself right now.

Uh, yeah. Sure.

- I get it.
- Okay.

[SIGHS]

I know how difficult this situation is,

but I'm sure things are
going to get easier, Ben.

- How?
- Well, we still have time

to convince the Crown to see
things our way before the trial.

This is all my fault.

Taking care of your sister is a big job.

You know, your mom

never should've put that
kind of responsibility on you.

No, it's not my mom's fault.

It's mine.

What do you mean?

I was supposed to hang
out with my friends.

My mom was tired,

said I had to watch Tracy.

[SOFT TENSE MUSIC]

I got upset and said that
she was a terrible mom

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

And that I hated her.

Kids get angry at their
parents all the time.

You don't understand,
she was really depressed.

She even started taking pills for it.

[SHAKY BREATH]

If I didn't say anything,
she wouldn't have left.

And I'd still be with Tracy.

[SOMBRE MUSIC]

[KNOCKING ON DOOR]

Uh, just a second.

Hey.

What are you doing here?

I came to apologize.

I didn't mean for Cal
to find out that way.

I really need you to go,
I don't want Cal to see you here.

Can we just talk?

There is nothing to talk about, Liam.

I can't walk away again, Maggie.

Liam, please.

I'm still in love with you, Red.

And I think if you're
honest with yourself,

you'll realize that you're
still in love with me, too.

What's this?

I signed the divorce papers.

So now it's up to you to
decide how our story ends.

[BIRDS CHIRPING]

[SOFT MUSIC]

You know, I understand,
people get depressed, I do.

But abandoning your children...

Well, no one tells you
how hard being a mother is.

You just feel guilty
because you're being pulled

in so many different
directions all the time.

[SOMBRE MUSIC]

[SIGHS]

[TELEPHONE RINGS]

Hello, Sullivan's Crossing.

Oh, hi, Edna.

Carol. Um, I'm not interrupting, am I?

Not at all! It was really
nice to see you yesterday.

Listen, I'm wondering if
I can ask you a favour.

- Sure.
- I volunteered to make

some pies for the
shelter, but forgot I have

a doctor's appointment, so
I was hoping you could help?

If it wouldn't be too much trouble.

Of course. I'll just get Frank
to watch the store for me.

When should I come by?

Well, I'm just heading
off to the clinic now,

so I could call you when I get back.

- Okay, see you then.
- Thanks.

Bye.

[SOFT MUSIC]

[LIAM]: I'm really glad you called.

Still can't believe I
grabbed the wrong bag.

Yeah, no, I mean, honest mistake,

what are the odds we have the same one?

Yeah. [CHUCKLING]

So, are you here for holiday too?

Oh, actually, I'm here for work.

What do you do?

w*r correspondent.

That's gotta be an exciting job.

Yeah, it can be.

You must have some crazy stories.

One or two.

Uh...

Well, it was nice to meet you.

Can I buy you dinner?

As a thank you?

I mean, unless you already
have plans with someone.

I'd love that.

[LIGHT MUSIC]

Oh, hey, you're here!
Just want to let you know,

Dr. Rabney called and
Tracey's fever is gone.

She's doing so much better.

They're going to release her tomorrow.

That's great news.

You want Grace to mail that for you?

Uh, actually, I have to drop
this off at the courthouse.

Is that about Ben?

No, it's personal.

If you need someone to talk to,

I'm told I'm a pretty good listener.

I'm good, but thank you.

Okay.

Who's my first patient?

- Mr. Arcieri. Exam room two.
- Alright, thank you.

[BIRDS CHIRPING]

Did you remember to check
how many steaks we have left,

so I can put the order
in with the butcher?

Not yet.

Never mind, I'll just do it myself.

What is all this?

A delivery came and I signed for it.

This is fish, it can't
just sit out here all day.

I was in the middle of
dealing with that big party

when it came in,
didn't read the invoice.

Just try to be a little
more careful next time.

Come on, Sydney, why
are you being like this?

I don't know what you're talking about,

I just need to get
these into the fridge.

Okay, you've been acting up all day.

I'm not letting you go
anywhere until you tell me

what's going on.

Just please get out of my way.

So you're seriously
not going to talk to me?

[SOFT TENSE MUSIC]

Great. It's stuck.

Here, let me try.

It won't budge.

[KNOCKING]

Hello, can someone let us out?!

You can save your breath,
that's not going to work.

Why not?

Because I gave the
staff the afternoon off.

Why would you do that?

They worked late last night.

You know what, I'll
just call the Outpost.

There's no service.

Great. We'll just have to
wait for someone to come back.

What are you doing?

Looking for something to
help get the door open.

Thanks for coming with
me to talk to Ben today.

Yeah, I hope it helped.

Yeah, me too.

Hey, listen. There is something

that I actually need to tell you.

Okay.

I didn't really know how
to say this before, but...

Um...

Chris isn't the one that cheated.

[SCOFFS]

How could you do that?

Things with Chris just
got so comfortable.

I thought that's what you wanted.

Life just became so predictable,

and I got scared.

I just need some fresh air.

Looks like the blood pressure
medication Dr. Carlson gave you

- is doing a nice job.
- Is Dr. Carlson available?

Uh, he's with another patient right now.

- Something I can help you with?
- Never mind.

Are you sure?

Um, maybe I should just
wait for Dr. Carlson.

It's a little embarrassing.

Changes in libido can happen

with some blood pressure medications.

How about we prescribe
you a different option?

Thanks, Doc. Really appreciate it.

Of course, happy to help.

Your next patient is here.

Thanks.

- Mrs. Miller?
- Yes, that's me.

Uh, I'm Dr. Sullivan, I'll
be working with Dr. Carlson

for the next couple of months.

Oh, well, it's really nice to meet you.

So, what brings you in?

Oh, my wrists. They've been acting up.

- May I?
- [HUMS IN AGREEMENT]

Have you seen a rheumatologist?

Not yet.

I can see if Dr. Carlson
can refer you to one,

and in the meantime,
we can prescribe you

an anti-inflammatory,
see if that helps.

- Oh, yes, thank you.
- Yeah.

I love to cook, but yeah, this pain

is slowing me down.

I mean, you'd never know it now,
but I used to be pretty active.

My late husband and I,
we travelled the world.

I would've done anything for that man.

Can I give you a little advice?

Sure.

Make sure you live life to the fullest.

You get to be my age and
all you have are, well,

your memories.

And regrets.

I'll keep that in mind.

Well, I'll get Dr. Carlson

to call in that prescription for you.

Okay, thank you.

[SOFT MUSIC]

[LOON CALLS]

[♪ LOST WITHOUT YOU ♪ BY LUCA FOGALE]

♪ I can't picture the world outside ♪

♪ I lose my shape in
the artificial light ♪

♪ And the anger takes
hold of my body and soul ♪

♪ It's then that I know I
never learned to let go ♪

[MAGGIE]: I promise
you know everything now.

No more secrets.

Thank you.

♪ But I think I'd be lost without you ♪

♪ Without you ♪

- Hey, Frank.
- Hey.

Could I get some quarters
for the washing machine?

Sure.

You, uh, you on your own today?

Yeah. Edna's helping a friend.

Do you have time for a coffee?

It's pretty slow around here today.

Yeah. Yeah, that'd be nice actually.

- Thanks.
- Yeah.

How do you take it?

Uh, black.

Got used to having it
that way while overseas.

It's a little tough to find
fresh milk in a warzone.

Edna tells me you
were over the other day

to help her fix a
cabinet. I appreciate that.

Yeah, frankly, it was nice to
feel useful around here, so...

Hey, can I ask you something?

Sure.

What made Maggie leave
her career and move here?

Well, you'd have to ask her for sure,

but I think she just realized

that this place is where she belongs.

Why do you ask?

I was just curious.

[SOFT MUSIC]

[KNOCKING ON DOOR]

- You got a minute?
- Sure.

Uh, Mr. Arcieri's
experiencing some side effects

from the blood pressure medication,

so I thought we'd switch prescriptions.

And Mrs. Miller needs a referral

for a rheumatologist, I think
she might have arthritis.

Okay, thanks for letting me know.

- Of course.
- Hey, I...

I just want to tell you
I'm really impressed.

I can see how much you
care about the patients.

You're going to make a great GP.

Thanks, that means a lot.

Maggie, I know it's none of my business.

I don't want to overstep.
But earlier today,

I could tell something
was really bothering you.

I'm fine.

Remember back at the Outpost,

when I told you that my
watch had sentimental value?

- Yeah.
- I never told you why.

This was the last gift
that I got from my wife

before she left me.

I'm sorry.

I got so wrapped up in
my patients' problems,

I never took the time
to deal with my own.

Just, don't make the
same mistake I did, okay?

Thanks.

[DOOR RATTLING]

[GRUNTING]

This is not working at all.

[WHIRRING]

[SYDNEY]: Oh, that's just great.

[SIGHS]

Why didn't I wear a long-sleeved shirt?

They say in situations like these,

you're supposed to huddle.

You know, to keep warm.

I don't want you to
freeze to death, may I?

Yeah.

So, since we're going to be
stuck in here for a while,

do you want to finally tell
me what's been bothering you?

Fine.

When I spoke to Rob last night,

he pretty much said you're a player.

I see.

Is that what you think I'm doing?

Playing you?

Maybe.

Look,

when I told you I spent years

focused on my restaurant,

well that meant that I
didn't have a lot of time

for serious relationships.

So, you've never had a
long-term relationship.

Mm-mm. Not yet, anyway.

[SOFT MUSIC]

But I realize what a mistake that was.

What my ambition cost me.

I just wish I'd figured out

how important it is
to have someone special

on that journey with you.

[RUSTLE AT DOOR]

Uh, sorry, I didn't realize
you two were in here.

The handle got stuck, so
we couldn't open the door.

We should get that fixed,
have someone check it out.

Good idea. I'll go do that.

Uh, I'd better get ready
for the dinner rush.

Yeah.

[SOFT MUSIC]

Hello? It's me, Edna.

Carol, are you in here?

You still need help with the pies?

[GROANING IN PAIN]

Carol?

Are you okay?

[GASPS]

Oh! Oh, no, Carol!

[TENSE MUSIC]

What happened?

[BIRDS CHIRPING]

Liam.

Listen, Cal. I don't
want any trouble, okay?

I think it's a bit late
for that, don't you?

Look, I respect what
you've been through,

but that doesn't mean you can come here

and tear apart Maggie's life.

I can't help the way I feel.

Why did you really come here?

Like I said,

I needed those papers for my visa,

but I also needed closure, okay,

which means I had to tell
her why I never came back.

Well, you've done that now.

Seeing her again made me realize...

that I'm still in love with her.

And I think she's still
in love with me, too.

[SOFT TENSE MUSIC]

Maggie's been through a lot.

She's finally in a good place.

If you love her as
much as you say you do,

you think you'd want her to be happy.

And what if she could
be happier with me?

It's not up to you, is it?

No, it isn't.

Which is why I gave her
the signed divorce papers

this morning.

Looks like it's up to Maggie to decide.

[DOOR CLOSES]

[TENSE]

- [MAGGIE]: Edna?
- Oh, Maggie,

I am so glad to see you.

I didn't know what to do.

Uh, you didn't move her, did you?

Uh, well, we sat her up.

Okay. Do you remember what happened?

I was headed into the kitchen,
to start prepping the pies,

and then the next thing I
knew, I was flat on the floor.

I don't know if I caught
my foot in the carpet...

- Did you hit your head?
- Uh, no, I fell on my side.

Okay. Anything specific hurt?

- My arm.
- May I?

Oh, yes.

I think that might be broken.

We'll need to get you to
the hospital, do an X-ray.

Do you remember if you
felt dizzy before you fell?

Uh, no. Why?

Just want to rule out
any possibility of a TIA.

- What's that?
- A transient ischemic attack.

It's a temporary blockage
of blood to the brain.

I'm so sorry. I've gone and ruined

a perfectly lovely afternoon.

Don't be silly.

All that matters is that
you're going to be okay.

Hi, yeah, I'm going to need an ambulance

to 125 Shiller Lane. Thank you.

[SOFT MUSIC]

Where were you? I was worried.

Just needed some time to think.

Okay, look. I know I
screwed up my marriage,

but you are my big
brother, and you said that

you would be there
for me, no matter what.

I know. I know, I know.

You're right and I'm sorry.

[SIGHS]

I just, this whole Liam
thing has got me all

twisted up inside, you know?

Yeah, I know.

What you said before,

about your life with Chris
getting too comfortable.

Is that how you think
Maggie feels about me?

Why would you say that?

I, just, I'm nothing
like Liam, you know?

I'm not a w*r correspondent

looking for an adrenaline
rush all the time, I just,

I came here, to the Crossing, you know?

I'm just trying to build
a stable life for myself,

- one without drama.
- Cal...

Maggie loves you.

I know. I know she does, just...

What if that's not enough?

[SOFT MUSIC]

[LOON CALLS]

[INSECTS CHIRP]

Here, let me take that
for you, these look heavy.

Thanks.

Listen, Sydney. About before...

It's just, it's been a really long day.

I'm kind of tired. Are you
okay closing up without me?

Yeah, sure.

Thanks.

[PHONE RINGING TONE]

[CELL PHONE BUZZING]

- Hey.
- Hey, man, just checking in.

So, I'm guessing Sydney
talked to you about my offer.

What offer is that?

Uh, to stay and work
at the lodge full-time.

She hasn't mentioned it.

Well, I've decided to
let Finn stay in Toronto,

so that means we're going
to need somebody to help out

at the lodge long-term.

So what do you say?

Oh. That's an interesting offer.

I'm going to need a
day to think about it.

Okay, sure, yeah. Take your time.

No rush.

Actually, Rob, I wanted to
talk to you about something.

Okay. Go ahead, what's up?

We're friends, right?

Of course we are.

Then, why did you
bad-mouth me to Sydney?

Hey, look, man.

I... I wasn't trying to bad-mouth you.

I just thought she should know.

But I'm not that guy anymore, Rob.

Look, she's my sister, Amir.

So if you plan on taking
me up on this offer,

Sydney has to be off-limits, okay?

Yeah, understood.

Good.

Let me know what you decide.

[SOFT MUSIC]

[INSECTS CHIRPING]

You okay?

Yeah, but Carol's not.

Her arm is definitely broken.

Ah, that poor woman.

She's all alone in that house.

She's got no one to help.

She'll be fine. You'll
get the meal train

going and we'll look in on her.

Why don't we go home
and I'll heat up dinner?

That would be really nice.

Hey. Just heard from the hospital.

Carol's MRI came back,
no signs of any TIA.

Oh, that's good news.

Shame she broke her arm.

It's going to be tough to
navigate for someone her age.

Well, at least it wasn't a hip.

Yeah, I guess so.

Maggie.

Maybe you should just go home,

use the time to focus on

what's really been bothering you.

Yeah, maybe.

[SOFT TENSE MUSIC]

[LIAM]: So now it's up to you
to decide how our story ends.

[KNOCKING ON DOOR]

Amir. What're you doing here?

I want to talk to you about something.

Okay.

So, what's going on?

Rob offered me a permanent
position at the restaurant.

What did you say?

[♪ BREATHE ♪ BY
FLEURIE AND TOMMEE PROFITT]

I want to know what you're
thinking I should do.

It's not up to me.

Do you want me to stay?

Because if I do,

we have to keep this professional.

Not a problem.

Good.

Because you and me,

it's a bad idea.

You're just getting out
of a relationship, and...

I'm trying to figure
out what's next for me.

Yeah, that makes total sense.

Good.

So that's settled then.

If I stay,

we're just friends, right?

Just friends.

♪ Breathe ♪

♪ Breathe ♪

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

♪ And I feel the pages turning ♪

♪ I see the candle burning down ♪

♪ Before my eyes ♪

♪ Before my wild eyes ♪

♪ I feel you holding me ♪

♪ Tighter, I cannot see ♪

Wait.

We probably shouldn't do this.

Yeah. You're right.

[SIGHS]

♪ Breathe ♪

[DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES]

♪ Breathe ♪

There you go. Let me
know if it's hot enough.

Mm. It's perfect.

Where's yours?

I'll get mine in a minute.

I've been doing a lot of
thinking about Glenn's land.

And?

I wonder if there are other

options we should be considering.

Like what?

I have some ideas,

but I want to talk
them through with Sully,

see what he thinks.

Sully put you in charge of
that land for a reason, Frank.

He trusts you, and so do I.

Don't second-guess yourself.

Go with your gut, it
hasn't failed you yet.

You think so?

Yeah, I do.

[PHONE RINGING TONE]

[OPERATOR]: The person
you are trying to reach

is not available. Please
leave a message after the tone.

- [BEEP]
- Uh...

Hi.

Um...

Look, I know I hurt you,

and I've jeopardized our marriage.

I'm so sorry, Chris,

and I will do whatever it
takes to make things right.

Hey.

How're you holding up?

I'm hanging in there, considering...

Uh, I called Cal, earlier, he
didn't pick up. Is he inside?

Uh...

Yeah, I think he's
still pretty upset about

your kiss with Liam.

I can only imagine what you think of me.

Hey, I'm not here to judge you.

[CHUCKLING]

Besides, you're not the
only one who screwed up.

What do you mean?

Chris wasn't the one who cheated.

I was.

I told Cal earlier today.

How'd he take it?

Not great.

He's always had such
a strong moral compass,

even when we were little.

I think it comes from
having so much responsibility

at such a young age.

That must've been hard to live up to.

It was.

Hey, Sedona. Call go okay?

[SOFT TENSE MUSIC]

Uh, I'm going to head back to my cabin.

- See you in the morning?
- Okay.

Think we need to talk.

We do.

I should have told you
about the kiss right the way.

Ben had just been arrested,

you were so upset.

You promised me,

no more secrets, remember?

I was scared.

Of what?

That you wouldn't forgive me.

We could've at least talked it out.

You didn't need to hide it from me.

I'm so sorry, Cal.

I love you.

You still care about Liam?

He was my first love, I...

I think a part of me always will.

I saw Liam today.

Told me he's still in love with you.

Did you know that?

[♪ AGAIN ♪ BY TRISTAN BUSHMAN]

Yeah.

He also told me he gave you
the signed divorce papers.

Did you file them?

Not yet.

[INHALES DEEPLY]

Why not?

I didn't have time.

Is that the only reason?

[SIGHS]

Liam walking back into my life, and...

hearing that he didn't
abandon me, I don't know, Cal,

it's, it's been a lot,

it's been so confusing.

[SNIFFS]

Are you still in love with Liam?

I wish I could tell you that I wasn't,

but the truth is, I don't, I don't know.

- Yeah, I can't do this.
- Cal...

I can't be with someone
who's always holding

a part of themselves back.

I've given all I have
into this relationship.

I asked you to give me a chance,

to give us a chance.

You can't do that if you're
still in love with someone else!

[SOBS]

Cal, I'm sorry.

I can't be the only one
committed to this relationship,

Maggie. I can't!

I love you, Cal, please,
just don't do this. Just...

Just give me another
chance. [MAGGIE SOBS]

I'm sorry,

but it's just not enough.

It's over.

[GASPING]

[SOBBING HEAVILY]

♪ Again ♪

[CONTINUES SOBBING HEAVILY]

♪ They say to let live ♪

♪ And let go ♪

♪ It'll never look the same way ♪

♪ We'll never be the way we were again ♪