02x04 - Conexão

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I found this letter the other
day in the pocket of an old jacket.

I wrote it soon after
Léo was born, and I...

I had no idea I was going
through postpartum depression.

Reading this was like reliving
the worst time of my life.

Of your life as well, ours.

And yet we overcame it together. Sure.

It is that every time I think
that I caused you suffering

by my choices, and by my
incapacity, I feel immense pain.

I'm sorry.

You remember our deal, right?
There is no one to blame here.

I know. But I can't stop
thinking that if I had managed

to get pregnant you wouldn't
be going through any of this.

You have no way of knowing
that, do you? It is out of our hands.

We can't know if it would be
any different. It happened the way

it was meant to happen, with the
maturity that we had at the time.

Sometimes I wish I could get it out of us.

"We are what we experience,
the remnants of what we

go through, and the
consequences of what we choose.

We are ourselves, mutable and undefined."

We have today now, Valentina. And today,
I'm discovering a new way to be happy.

For us to be happy.

EPISODE 04: CONNECTION

I wish I could have a
brother. I'm going to have one!

Will I ever get one too? Hey
kids, what are you playing at?

Mom, this is my sister
Laura. She's so cute, my son.

Can I hold her for a little
bit? Yes, of course, you can.

She is so cute!
She is, isn't she?

Attention! Attention, everybody!

Pay attention to your
Mom! Attention! Thank you!

Good Afternoon! I'd
like to propose a toast.

It's so good to experience
this wonderful moment...

Thank you for your kindness.
Now let's eat. I'm starving!

Shall we go for a walk? Please.

Excuse us.

Thank you for getting me out of
there, It was really hard for me.

I know. I don't want it to look
like I'm not happy, you know,

even more so for Igor.
Nor that I'm not happy

with the birth of my
nephew, but my mother...

Your brother would never think such a thing
of you. He knows you are happy, but...

...he also understands
your pain. Of course, I do!

I'm sorry for my selfishness,
Chip. I'm sorry for the triggers.

I love you, and your pain is mine
too. It has always been this way.

If I could take this pain away
from you and feel it myself, I would.

I'm sure you would, Chip. I'm
with you, Dale! Ouch! What's this?

Guys...damn! Can we talk, my daughter?

Yes, you can. I'll leave you alone
then. No! No need, you're family.

Daughter, I know that I'm not
as good a mother as I should be,

and that you deserve.

But in my way, I always
tried to do my best. Even

with Igor, even with
him, I couldn't be perfect.

But what I want you to know, is that even
though I'm not this caring, loving mother,

ever since I brought you into the world,
I have always wished you good things.

I'll always be here for whatever you need.
Even with my awkward way of showing things.

My daughter.

Well, well...everyone
decided to get some air outside.

Look what I found.

Hey, girls! Hey!

What are those faces for? We
have news to tell you! Firsthand!

Uh! Firsthand news...

Hold on..is it what I think
it is? We are...pregnant!

My darlings!

I remember that day like it was yesterday.

And I...was the first to know!

How come you were the
first to know? Mmm! So,

that means that I was
not the first to know?

No. No? But to buy ice cream at 4:30 in the
morning almost weekly, then I'm reminded.

Um! Is that right? Is
that right? Hold on, what do

you mean by ice cream?
Cupuaçu flavored ice cream.

Cupuaçu? In the morning! In the morning!
Oh my, my feet are k*lling me, you know.

I'll tell you what, I'm tired, OK?
Of course, with all the dancing

you've done today.

But, is my massage helping?
Just a tiny bit. Just a tiny bit?

OK, I'm going to do more then.
What about Duda? Huh? Duda?

Which Duda? She passed out
as soon as she lay in the bed.

As I will do as well because I'm
dead. You're getting old, huh, my

brother-in-law? Eh... Says the
young girl with the k*lling feet,

lying on the couch. Eh! Huh? She is
pregnant, she tends to get tired more.

The foot...look at this foot.
It gets a little swollen, right?

Guys, are you smelling Cupuaçu?

Smell of Cupuaçu? Mmm!
Does Cupuaçu have a smell?

I think I'm getting a craving for
Cupuaçu ice cream. Tell you what,

tomorrow I will take you to this new
ice cream parlor that Duda loves.

Then you can eat as much
as you want. Just eat it all.

All right! I'm going in search
of this Cupuaçu ice cream.

My son won't be born looking like a
Cupuaçu. Come on, Chip! Chip, what?

You must be kidding me, right? Where
are we finding this ice cream at this

time in the morning? I have no idea,
Chip! But, come on now! Stop being lazy.

No way! Take this young
girl with you instead.

She's dying to walk. Please!
What? Are you serious?

Mmm! Stop being lazy!
Come on! I love you guys, OK?

Me and my little Cupuaçu! Oh, God!
This child needs to be really beautiful.

Ouch!

It was always in the morning.
Always in the morning.

It's not funny, guys. Luiza
always ate a lot of crap.

Then she would get sick, and I
would tell her, "Watch your food."

Do you know what's funny though? Huh?
I'd eat a Cupuaçu ice cream right now!

Whoa! If you want, we can
go get it for you. Don't even!

Don't even! At least, my son
doesn't look like a Cupuaçu.

That's true! Isn't that right? Well done,
Chip! There are many good memories!

Yes, there are many!
This picture here is the

first time that Léo wriggled on your belly.

Really? Mmm! Do you
want it to be a boy or a girl?

I've always dreamt of having a
baby girl, but I'm 100% sure it's a boy.

How can you be so sure? Maternal
intuition! Is that what you call it?

That's right, Princess, maternal intuition.

Now...I think I could get a
kiss. I feel so needy right now!

Awe! What a stupid wife I
am, leaving you with longing.

Needy for kisses. My stupid wife.

And the best woman in the world!

I love you, my moon! I love you, my sun!

Oh! What's it?

Feel it. It kicked! Here!

Did you feel it? Yes!

Speak more! Speak more, baby!
Hey, my little star! Are you happy

in your mom's womb?

Wow, that was one of the most exciting
moments of my life. I will never forget it!

Although it was uncomfortable,
at least it was for me. It

really is very exciting when
they move for the first time.

Yes...for me, it was
very exciting too. The chat

is good, but shall we
go inside for dessert?

I made a Cupuaçu pie that
you're going to love. Really?

No! Of course, no, woman.
Oh, Igor, this is not funny!

How can you be so beautiful?

...jerk, and stupid.

Good morning.

Good morning, Princess.
Did you sleep well?

Wow, I need some water after
that glance. You're married to me.

You should be used to me staring at you.

First my butt, now my
breasts... I am not... You're not?

I love your stares, especially
the ones you can't resist.

Why? Does it amuse you? How so?

Moms, I found Peixoto!

Is that so? Oops! Cuddles!

Mmm! Do you know what
I'm in the mood for? What's it?

Guess! Pancakes! Let's eat, Pancakes!

Pancakes! Pancakes. Who
wants pancakes for breakfast? Me!

Eh, grandma is
calling. Hey, mama!

Yes, we are making pancakes!
Léo? Do you want to talk to him?

Hold on! Your Grandma
wants to speak with you.

Hey, Grandma! I'm going
to play! I'm going to play!

Kisses! Kisses! Go
ahead, my love! I'm going

to bring my nuggets
with me. There, go ahead.

Hi, Mom! Yes. No... Mom, I'm not
going to exaggerate about the sugar.

Fine! Fine! Tell her to send
kisses to dad. And tell her that

I send kisses too. Carol is
sending kisses to you and to dad.

We miss you guys! Oh, let me go
ahead and say it to her. Kisses, Mom!

Bye, Mom! I love you! Oh,
for God's sake, girls! Let's cut

the umbilical cord, shall we?
Good morning my wonderful family!

Good Morning! Good Morning
my perfect sisters-in-law.

Eh, I'm not seeing any
perfect sister-in-law in here.

It's because I haven't presented
you to your new sister-in-law yet,

you know. Valentina, watch out,
okay? You'll lose your position.

Eh! What...what about it my
dear sister-in-law? You haven't

told me about it! Guys, for
God's sake, huh? I'm just kidding!

No love, no heart, I'm just
for the fun! Gosh, what's this?

What's this? Hey! Good morning,
my amazing wife. You both

can't see that, OK? Come on,
I'm going to close my eyes too.

You're very horny today, huh? But when
I talk about sex, there's all this cliché.

Sarah, that's enough! Eh,
she's learning from the best, huh?

Isn't that right, though?
My God in heaven!

Do you want coffee?
Yes, give me some coffee.

I already talked to my mother, okay?
The baby shower will be at her house.

My son's baby
shower? Our son!

May I know why? Because she is
excited, and her house is bigger, and has

more space...I really need more
space, don't I, Igor? But in my life!

Damn, this woman gets into
everything and you do nothing! Duda,

you always had a problem with
her. I had? Yes, you always have!

Igor, for God's sake, I'm
pregnant. It always has to be your

way! I just wanted to choose the
place... Oh, you want to choose?

Damn, I had enough of it!
I'm the one that had enough

here! I had enough of you,
Duda! I had enough of you, Igor!

Stop! Igor...I had enough of
you!...look how you are going

to continue this conversation.
We'd better stop now, right?

Sure. We'd better stop
now! We'd better. We'd better

continue this conversation
when you're calmer.

When you are thinking clearly.

I'm off to the office.
Don't forget that you're

taking Aninha to the
playground later. I won't, Duda.

Psst!

Hey! You have that dumb face,
you know. Face? Which face?

The one from when you fell in
love with Valentina for the first time.

What about you, Sarah? Have
you fallen in love for real? That

word doesn't even exist in my
vocabulary, to begin with, okay.

What's the point, people?
Out of the blue, huh!

What's the problem? It's
just a question. Answer it.

No! And I also don't want to! I
have a very busy life, okay? I

don't have time to play affective
responsibility with someone.

It's different! I used to think
like that too. But, you know what?

I confess that falling in love was the
best thing that ever happened to me.

Although I don't remember
much of things, and that

it all seems new. It still
feels familiar, you know?

So, how are you dealing with it
all? Well, therapy every day, right?

That's right! Look at
the new top model in the

family, he's calling
me to see his pictures.

I'll be right back, okay?
Kisses, sis! Kisses!

You know what, Luh, I admire
your courage, I really do. But,

look, I'm not going to flatter
you. Don't get too used to it.

Oh, so I'm your favorite
sister, huh? Don't push it too

far! I love you a lot, but my
favorite sister is too much.

Come again, Sarah?
Oh, you continue to be this

sentimentalist. Is your zodiac sign Cancer?

Wow! Wow, check out this
look here. Awe! You k*ll it!

Let me take a picture of
you two together. Come

on! Those glasses are
very stylish. Go ahead!

Hmm, orange juice!
Can I have some, Luh?

Luiza? What is it?

I had a memory, Valentina!
How so? What did you remember?