02x06 - Episode 6

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[CRICKETS CHIRP]

[TENSE MUSIC]

- Emergency! Wake up.

- Oh my God. The boys. The boys.
- Get out. It's an emergency.

- It's an emergency.
Get the first-aid kid.

Get it. Get the...
- No— No.

No, no, guys. No.

Johnny — he didn't come
home last night.

- What?!
- What, so the boys are OK?

- I don't know, probably.
But Johnny's missing.

- Oh God. Lily, OK—
You can't— you can't do that.

That was so scary. You cannot, like,
scream at us like that. Oh.

- Wait. So where's Johnny?

- I don't know! That's why
I had to yell 'Emergency'!

He didn't come home — not even
for a good-night kiss.

- Well, maybe he fell asleep
on the couch, and then just
left for work early.

- Or maybe he's had a car accident,
and he can't get hold of us.

Or worse, maybe he's seeing
another woman.

- STAMMERS: I'm sure it is not that.

Well, let's just go
and have some Rescue Remedy,
and we will figure it out.

- OK. Yeah. OK.
Sorry for yelling.

- It's OK. It's OK.

Cup of tea, extra sugar,

and open up.

- Ah.

Same again.

- Have you checked his location?
- What? Like, tracked him?

- Well, tracking is
a pretty strong word.

It's just a casual, informal update
about his specific whereabouts.

- Should we be calling the police?

- No, no. I think we just
give it a bit longer.

- He hasn't been kidnapped.
- What? Have you talked to him?

- No, he's at Rosie's.
- What is he doing there?

- Well, apparently he went there
straight after the hospital.

- What did he say?
- I don't know. She wouldn't
let me talk to him.

She said she's acting as
his emotional guardian.

- What does that mean?
- I don't know.

Sounds like something she picked up
from one of her white-lady mum
spiritual retreat things.

- Right, well, come on, let's go.

- I feel like we need to respect—
- Absolutely not. Who's coming?

- OK, well, maybe...

you should go, and I'll
stay here with the boys.

- Come on.

- I'm sorry. I can't let you in.
- Mum, come on!

- No. I'm acting as a representative
for Johnny, who's expressed
a need for some personal space.

- This is stupid. I'm just—
- Hold the line!

Don't underestimate me, Nat.

I didn't back down in '81
during Springbok, and I certainly
won't stand down now.

- Come on, Rosie. I just
want to know he's OK.

- Look, darling, I get it.
But this is not about you, OK?

- How is it not about me?
- He just needs some space.

Don't you worry. He's in good hands.

I've put him on the pottery wheel
to help him process.

- See, this is the thing —
with l*sbian relationships,
you guys talk about everything.

When you date a straight man,
it's like you have got no idea
what's going on for him.

Unless, of course,
he's got a podcast.

- Hm. I do wonder...

- What?

- Oh, just— Maybe...

Steph and I said something
yesterday that wasn't, you know,
particularly kind, maybe.

- What did you say?

- Well, you know, like, everyone was
stressed because Jai had a rash,

and I should have called Steph, but
I didn't, and Johnny was just there,

so I —
- What did you say?
- Lily?

Johnny does want to talk to you.

- You absolutely should
have told me about this.

- [GROANS SOFTLY]

Oh—

- Not you.

[DOOR CLOSES]

[WIND CHIMES TINKLE]

- Hey.

- Hey.

- Wow.

Is this a vase?

- Uh, that's a mug.

For coffee.

- So tall.

You make all of these?

- Oh, those are
my earlier works, but...

think I've really discovered
my style now.

- Johnny, if this is a break-up,
can you just do it now?

- I don't want to break up.

- So what— you don't reply to my
texts, you haven't called me back.

- Yeah, um—

Yeah, I just— just can't
do it anymore.

You know, with the boys, and having
to be OK with not being—

- Hang on — what did they say to you?
Do you want me to talk to them?

- No. I don't want anything
to do with them anymore.
- Johnny...

- And, you know, it's
just not fair to you.

- What? What do you— What do you
mean, not fair to me? I don't
understand any of this.

- I'm just going on acting as if I'm
OK with how everything's gonna be,

you know, with the boys, and, like,
my feelings towards the boys,

and, like— because
I never meant to—

But, you know, Nat and Steph,
they just don't—

[STAMMERS] I'm just in the way,
you know. I'm in the way.

And you, and the way that you feel,

and it's just messy,
so I just can't go back.

- Hang on— is this about me
not wanting kids?

Cos you can't just put that on me,
Johnny. That's not fair.

It's like, what — have kids
or break up?

- It's not just that, it—

I just can't come back.

Sorry.

- Maybe I should text him and
just explain things from our end.

- I just don't think a text or some
cute little emojis are gonna
fix anything right now.

- It's just such a stressful
situation, you know?

I'm so— so worried about the boys.

Did he— did he seem upset to you?

- I mean, he left.

He left.
- Did he say anything as he left?

- What did he say?

- He wants out.

- He wants to break up with you?

- No,

with all of us.

[BABY FUSSES]

I think you guys should move out.

- What?
- Yeah.

Sooner would be better.

- The f*ck is Lily going on about,
moving out? How can we move out?

What does she expect us to do,
just... stay in an Airbnb, raise our
kids in some boomer's garage?

It's some Oliver Twist sh*t.
It's not happening.

What— How come you're not freaking
out? You're, like, incredibly serene
about all this.

- I'm not feeling serene.
I'm just trying to figure this out.

Maybe we could get a serviced
apartment for a while.

They come up online sometimes.

- Hang on. What, that's it?
You're just— you're just giving up?

- I'm not— I'm not giving up,
but... Lily was pretty clear,

and, I don't know, maybe this is
actually best for everyone.

We let Lily and Johnny
be a couple, and...

we can be a proper family.

Johnny will be OK.

I know this sucks right now, but...

he will.

And realistically,
how long was living all together
really gonna work?

- See how the slurry smooths it?

- Mm.

- Almost like a balm.

Cracks are nothing to
be afraid of, Johnny.

I actually like them.

They're like...

little signs of...

where we could do a bit more work.

- OK. OK, yeah, no, you can
step away from the wheel, Rosie.

- Oh, come on, Johnny, hear me out.

- Rosie, I love your pottery
lessons, I do, but I just don't want
to talk about the other stuff.

- But I let you use
all my best glazes.

- I know, and I
appreciate that. I do.

[SPLAT!]

- What's that?

[SPLAT!]

Hm.

You stay here. I'll sort this.
[SPLAT!]

Yah! Get out of it, you lazy—
- Oh!

Mum! What the hell?

- Your father just cleaned
all the windows last week.

- Look, I just need
to talk to Johnny.

- Will you stop dumping all your
drama on to him? It's not fair.

- If I could just talk
to him, then I—
- And then what?

Offload all your worries and concerns
on to that poor boy and make
him accommodate you?

No, I won't have it.

- You're supposed to be on my side.
- This is me being on your side.

I'm trying to look after the
well-being of the biological father

[HIGH-PITCHED] of your
two little boys.

- What about me? What if I want
a bloody pottery wheel, and a cup
of tea and a bit of a lie down, and—

- No, Natalie. No.
No pottery wheel for you.

You need to work out your role
in all of this.

Oh, come here. You're allowed
a quick squeeze.

- OK, OK, fine, Mum.

- You want a baby smoosh?
- Oh, I have to ask for permission,
now, do I? [SCOFFS]

What about your silly mummy, eh?
Trying to keep us apart, she is,
but she does— hey!

Natalie, you leave that boy alone.

[POTTERY WHEEL RUMBLES]

- Sorry if I'm...

breaking your flow.

I'm also sorry for talking to you
when you explicitly said you
didn't want to talk to me.

But I have to talk to you,
because you're my friend,
and I need to know.

- So what do you want to say, Nat?

- I'm sorry for...

what we've said,

or done,

or not said,

or not done.

You know?

I know it's been hard with me and
Steph, OK? I know it's been hard.

You know, I have found it hard.

She's got all these, like, mum rules
and invisible tricks, and I'm
just tripping up all the time.

And I feel scared, sometimes...
- OK, stop.

Stop, Nat. Stop.
- ...I feel scared.

I feel scared to, like, make—
- Stop, Nat.

- Whoa.
- OK—

I'm over it, OK? I'm over it.

It's always about you and Steph,
and you and Steph, and it
feels like such a battle.

It feels like it takes all of us
just to keep you guys together,
and I'm... I'm done.

- You can't be done, Johnny.
We are family. It's not—

- You never ask about
any of us, or me.

It's like that deal
that Shelley made me sign —
it's always been about you.

And I just feel like, you know,
the only reason we put up
with any of this sh*t

is just because we just always have,

and it's just out of loyalty
and habit, and it's just
not enough anymore.

- Wait. Johnny, we can't do
this without you. We're not—

- See, this is what I'm talking
about, Nat. This is what
I'm talking about.

It's just — you need me,
you don't need me. It's bullshit,
Nat. It is. It's bullshit.

You can do it alone. You can.
But I think that you're just scared.

You're scared that if
you do go it alone,

that you have to just face
the truth that actually,

you might just not want to do
it with each other anymore.

OK, so I'm done. I'm out.

I don't want to feel like
I'm being used anymore.

[DOOR SHUTS]

- [EXHALES]

- [SIGHS]

[GROANS SOFTLY]

[WISTFUL MUSIC]

[BABY FUSSES]
- Shh, shh.

It's OK. It's OK.
- Hi.

- Hi.

- Oh wow.

- Oh yeah, your mum texted and said
we could stay for a few nights,
so I packed up some things.

- Oh wow.

OK. Thanks for...

doing that.

So...

that's what's happening.

You know, I actually don't think
that this is too bad.

I do kind of feel like the roof is
caving in, like I'm in one of those
hydraulic crushing machines,

but apart from that,

it's pretty good.

Do you want to tell me
what happened with Johnny?

- SOFTLY: I don't really want
to talk about it, Steph.

- He'll— He'll be OK, Nat.

He'll just need a bit of time.

- [SNIFFLES]

This isn't really... about Johnny.

WHISPERS: I just... I just don't
recognise my life anymore.

- OK.

- TEARFULLY: How did we
even get here?

- Because... it's hard.

Because this is a hard thing
that we are doing, and we—

- TEARFULLY: Yeah. I just feel
like I keep f*cking up with you.

[SNIFFLES] Like,
everything's my fault.

At what point do I just...
accept that, you know,

I'm the liability, you know?

- What are you saying?

- What you said at the stadium.

SOFTLY: All the things you said...

They were true.

And we need to—

we need to stop pretending
this isn't broken.

- Well—
- Nat, don't.

Just...

It's OK.

Just...

let's just sleep.

[SOFT MUSIC]

[GRUNTS SOFTLY]

- [EXHALES SOFTLY]

- There you go.
- Thanks.

- That might help you sleep.

- And thank you for taking us in on
such short notice. I appreciate it.

- Well, you were always going to
outgrow your little baby-sitters'
club playhouse at some stage.

This might be just what
your family needs.

Anyway, I can do my meditation
in here for the time being.

- Mum, um...

how did you know...

that it was over with dad?

- We both just fell out
of ways with each other.

What we had when we were young
and stupid, it was— [CHUCKLES]

well, you barely would have
recognised us back then.

But time and having
a family changed us.

We got worn down.

I didn't like the type of person
I was turning into when
we were together.

Perhaps I was a little tough on him
back then, but I was unhappy.

We both lost that feeling of hope
that we could try and make it work,
and then I just...

gave up trying to find it.

- Um...

Do you think...

that Nat and I are
right for each other?

- Oh God, Stephanie, don't ask me
that. It's a pointless question.

It's never about finding
the right person

and then letting love
do all the work.

No— it's up to you to keep
working at it.

You've got to be all in.

Or be brave enough to know when
it's the right time to walk away.

Night.
- Night.

- I did it for you
as much as I did it for me.

[GENTLE MUSIC]

♪ You gave it all just
to take it back.

[KNOCK ON DOOR]

♪ Took the risk, and it didn't land.

♪ And the breaking point

♪ is closer than it's
ever been before.

- Hi.
- Hi.

- Sorry for running away.

- It's OK.

- [CLICKS TONGUE]

Made you this.

I know they're terrible, by the way.

Can I stay?

♪ So I'll cry to feel lighter.

♪ Then my chest gets quieter.

♪ And I know change will come

♪ more easily.

♪ Mm-mm.

♪ Eventually.

♪ Gave me hope,
you gave me answers...

- You want to stay at mine tonight?

- If that's OK.

I don't have a bed any more, so...

- Yeah, I know.

It's tricky, isn't it?

You've just got no other option,
really, apart from this... hard...

floor.

- [SIGHS]

I'd love to stay with you.

- I can be here with
you first, though.

♪ Then my chest gets quieter.

♪ And I know change
will come more easily.

- Where did you go?

♪ Eventually.

- WHISPERS: Just needed
some fresh air.

I think we should talk.

- [EXHALES]

♪ So I'll cry to feel lighter.

♪ Then my chest gets quieter,

♪ And I know change will
come more easily.

♪ Mm-mm.

♪ Eventually. ♪