01x06 - f*ck the Fake sh*t

[bunniefuu]

MAN: Careful, I'll f*ck you up.

HARMONISING

If anybody in here wants
to give testimony, come forward,

let us pray for you.

# What's good, trouble?

# I'm not calling for help

# I'm just working things out
for myself

# I'm so f*cking tired

# I noticed you don't follow
nice girls around

# And you've followed me
all of my life

# I wish you would stop now

# I'm begging you, stop now

# Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

# What do you want from me?

# Everywhere I go

# Trouble, you're right there
Trouble, trouble, trouble

# What do you want from me?

# Trouble, trouble, trouble

# What do you want from me?
Ooh-ooh

# What's good, trouble?

# It's me again
Me again

# Bet you're enjoying the mess
I've made

# I admit it, I don't know
how to ask for help

# So I make things hard for myself

# Yeah, I noticed you don't follow
nice girl around

# And you've followed me
all of my life

# I wish you would stop now

# I'm begging you, stop now

# Oh-oh, oh-oh

# Oh-oh

# What do you want from me?

# Trouble, trouble, trouble
Everywhere I go

# Trouble, you're right there

# Trouble, trouble, trouble

# What do you want from me?

# Trouble, trouble

# What do you want from me?

# Can I be honest?

# Do I remember how?

# Don't want to be broken

# Just give up now

# What do you want from me?

# Everywhere I go

# Trouble, you're right there

# Trouble, trouble, trouble

# What do you want from me?

# Tell me what you want from me

# Oh-oh

# What do you want from me?

# Trouble, trouble, trouble

# What do you want from me?

# Trouble, trouble, trouble

# What do you want from me?

# Trouble, trouble

# Ooh-ooh-ooh

# Ooh-ooh. #

No! No!

SHE SCREAMS

SHE EXHALES

DISTANT, MUFFLED MUSIC

PHONE VIBRATES

SHE SIGHS

MUSIC PLAYS LOUDLY

Wagwan? What?

I said what go on?

Got a job through Juliana.

She wants to know if you can do it.

Can't tonight.

Why you all dressed up?

You off to see your boyfriend?

Kasper's paying you,
I'm not stupid.

And what if he is?

Rent isn't free, you know?

Yeah, well, you haven't paid me
all the money from the trip.

Guess we're even.

You didn't count the money, either.

DOOR CLOSES

I've been thinking - I'm not going
to do the escorting thing any more.

Keep it all online.

What does that mean for us?

It's not what I want to do.
I want to be a singer.

I am a singer. You are,

and yet you still came to see me.

Don't flatter yourself.

HE CHUCKLES
Wouldn't dream of it.

Tell me your real name.

It's Lexi.

Sasha.

I'm...

I'm on my period, sorry.

I should have said.

No, it's fine.

It's fine.

Tea - that helps, doesn't it?

Yeah.

Thanks.

PHONE VIBRATES

Mm, what time is it?

Nearly nine.

sh*t, I'd better get going.

Woman like you, no doubt
you've got a busy day.

I'm going to go to the studio. Fun.

Do you need some money?

HE CHUCKLES
That's not a trick question.

Uh, yeah, if you want to
give me some, I'll take it.

Sure. Um...

I've got to rush
so you can let yourself out.

INTERCOM TRILLS

PHONE VIBRATES

DOOR BUZZES

Yeah, he's through here.

Hi. All right, let's go again, bro.
Go for another take.

Yeah, yeah.
We'll get it on this one.

All right, here it comes.

MUSIC STARTS

# Troubled soul, stunted growth

# There's a thin line between life
and death when you run alone

# All your closest
just come and go

# Cos most times when you was
lashing out, it was unprovoked

# Why does drama seem to love to
hold you tight by the neck

# And leave you gasping
for your breath?

# Now you don't trust a soul

# Is that why
there's a ton of blokes?

# Is that why they just touch and
go and why there's no love involved?

# Sometimes we're forced
into corners to make decisions

# Sometimes we fall to our knees
in places we've risen

# Sometimes additions to families
create division

# Now you're seeking validation
in all the places you've been in

# Some take advantage
of dispositions

# Smoking mirrors change
your reflection and most decisions

# That's the simple complexity
of your mission

# Internally, there's a battle

# You're fighting
to see the vision. #

Jeez! That was cold, bro.

Come on! Come on.
Bro, let me get XLR, please.

Sure, man. Thank you.

That was sick, by the way.

Sasha's a singer.

Ah, don't lie, sick man, looking
forward to hear your stuff, then.

I didn't know if you'd reply
on my text.

Why? Cos you were rude?

I never judged you
for having a Daily Fans,

so for you to come at me like that -

I don't even know
who this person is.

I was only trying to help you
with your music.

I'm sorry.

I wasn't mad at you. I was...

I just want to get back
to working on my music.

Come to a Soulflex gig, then.

I'm not ready to sing my own songs
in front of loads of people.

You're never going to be ready
if you don't believe in yourself,

and I can't do that for you.

PHONE VIBRATES

Hello?

What do you mean
she's in the hospital?

Where's my mum? She's in there.

It's fine, it's fine -
just a scare.

Hey! I said not to worry her.

Well, are you all right? Yes.

They're just checking me over.

It's pre-eclampsia... What's that?

Hopefully not, you know,
they're extra cautious cos of my age

and geriatric pregnancy, you know...

All right, Megan.
She's a bit upset. I'm not.

I just think it's stupid
how you're prepared to die

over a baby that you don't even know
when you already have two babies...

Children. Whatever!

Megan...

What's up with Megan?

Do you want a nurse? Are you OK?

I'm fine. Stop mithering.

I'm bloody hungry, actually,
I could m*rder a steak bake. Sorry.

Sure, I'll go get you something.

IRRITATED: Just get me that.
Thank you.

Uh, do you want a steak bake?

No, I'm cool.

Kevin wants to call him Timothy.

It's a bit sh*t, isn't it?

Mm.

Are you OK?

Yeah, I'm just...

I'm good.

What is it?

You know when I used to
bunk off school?

There was a time when...

..I bunked off...

..and I come home and...

..I was upset.

Yeah, I think I remember, yeah.
It's a long time ago.

You never asked me where I went.

Because you locked yourself
in your bedroom

and didn't speak to me for a week.

You were in such a mood.

You were a stroppy, teenager.
I weren't always like that.

What?

You mad at me for that now, are you?

You were a teenager.

Sasha, you're doing so well.

I'm...

I'm really proud, I'm proud
of everything you're doing.

We've had our silly issues,
whatever...

..but let's not go over the past.

OK?

Smasher?

I should check on Megan.

Yeah.

Embarrassing -
having a baby in her 40s.

I used to love looking after you
when you were a baby.

You had no hair and you were
really fat and wrinkled. Urgh.

No, I wasn't!

You were
a tiny, tiny, tiny bit cute.

You and Carly looked so nice
on holiday.

Why are people saying
that she's a prost*tute?

Who's saying that?

They're saying she's on
some website.

What's happening, people?

You're tuned in to another edition
of Manz In The Cut.

Today on the show, we are talking
about a website

called Tiger The Simp that Yapz
kindly brought to our attention.

That's a site that... Catches hoes.

Nah! Guess who I've seen posted
on the website today. Go on.

Carly Visions.

No!

I've seen bare screenshots of her
agreeing to do golden showers

and all sorts, man.

Getting flown out for fun
and posting jet set life.

Now, who else is on that?

And say if you knew...

She's not, is she? No. No, she's...

These are the same girls
who love bare teasing

and when it's time to f*ck,
they're not on it

and if they do, they cry r*pe after.

Uh... You know me -
I say what people won't.

Nah, he's mad! Head gone!

Come here.
I'm sorry for storming off, Mum.

Oh, darling, don't worry.

I'm going to go. Yeah.

You off?

I'm glad you came.

Thank you.

Sorry, bit weird.

Oh...

Yeah.

Ah.

LOUD MUSIC PLAYS
Carly?

Carly?

I don't care how much it costs,
just get it taken down!

It's ill*gal! They can't post that
about me!

Sort it!

I called ya.

What the f*ck are you going to do?
MUSIC STOPS

You seen the podcast, then?

f*cking joke.
What are you going to do?

FEIGNS CHEERINESS: Nothing.
It's fine.

It's fine.

People will forget about it
tomorrow.

That podcast has been watched
by thousands of people.

My little sister's seen it.

You talk about being discreet

and then you go and message
loads of random guys.

Don't you think I know that?

It's my name online, my brand,

everything I've worked for.

I'm going to sort it.

You think you can fix everything.
You're not invincible.

When we were away, some really
f*cked up stuff happened,

and you just keep on pretending...
Here we go.

I can't get these images
out of my head

and it is f*cking driving me mad
and I know you're feeling the same.

I'm not doing this.

You can't even talk about it!

There's no way we could've left
that villa, right?

If there was, you wouldn't have
put me, all of us girls, in danger.

Obviously not. Stop lying.

You had the passports!

I saw you.

I f*cking saw you.

We could have left.

With zero money.

You would have done the same thing.

I know you. I would have left.

I wouldn't have stayed

and ended up being forced to do
what you had to do.

Having sex with a teenager.

Oh, and you're living
in your little fantasy world

where a customer's going to come
and rescue you

and make you a f*cking princess?

Oh, wait, maybe it's Anton.

You're full-on deluded.

You're a pimp.

You used me.

You made me make the worst decisions
I've ever made in my f*cking life,

and I went along with it
because I was desperate. Exactly.

I met you and your life was sh*t.

Nobody even knew who you were!

Singing songs in your bedroom -
it don't make you a f*cking singer.

I don't care if people know
who I am - I don't want it.

Keep it. Yeah, right!

You love the attention.

If people find out about me
cos of you...

CARLY LAUGHS

What?

What you going to do, Sasha?

Are you going to hit me?

Me and you, we ain't the same.

You've forgotten what you told me.

You were a f*cking sl*t
long before you met me.

Sleeping with Anton's brother.

Just move from me, Sasha.

You're f*cked up.

You need me, Sasha.

DOOR CLOSES

Doors opening.

Hi.

I didn't know where else to go.

Yes, of course.

SIRENS WAIL IN DISTANCE

Afternoon.

Afternoon. I thought
I'd make you brunch.

There's more coffee in the cupboard.

I'm sorry, I have a meeting.

OK, when you're back.

Sasha?

We've had a really fun time,
last few months.

I do care for you in a way
that's unexpected for me.

I've been thinking...
But I want to make sure

that I haven't given you
the wrong idea.

What do you mean?

Sasha, I don't want a girlfriend,

but I want to help you. Oh, right.

We could have some sort
of arrangement.

I would financially support you
and we could still hang out.

I'd be your employee.

No, you'd be my friend

and I would respect you.

Sasha, wait, let's talk.

I knew you could never be with
someone like me.

Come on.

Hymn book, miss?

Sasha?

I didn't expect to see you.

You remember Dionn? I...
Anton's brother.

Hi.

Melrose, come on.

Call me when you're settled
in your new place.

Take a seat.

I hoped I'd bump into you again
cos I wanted you to know

that I'm not angry
that you told Anton.

I've changed a lot.

I found God and I'm sorry...

..if I caused you pain in any way.

Anton said you two were
good together.

f*cking touch me.

If anybody in here wants
to give testimony, come forward,

let us pray for you.

Sasha. What's happened?

SASHA WHIMPERS

It's OK, it's OK.
Come with me. Let's go home.

You know what your grandma
would say?

"What come bad a morning
can't come good a evening."

What's happened?

Whatever it is, we can sort it.

Is it about Anton?

Break-ups are hard,
and they take time.

I know it's...
Why were you with Dionn?

Sorry?

Why were you with him?

Sasha, Dionn got Anton to drop
the charges.

He's trying to help you. No.

No, he hasn't.

You need to move on for yourself.
I can't. I can't...

What's happened?

I did something...

..really bad.

That's why Anton doesn't want to
be with me.

Oh...

You can tell me.

Whatever it is, I'm sure Anton
knows you didn't mean it.

I didn't know
it was going to be that.

I didn't know.

Going to be what?

I'm here.

Tell me.

I slept with Dionn.

Dionn?

What do you mean?

When?

Dionn's only just come out.

I'd had a row with my mum.

And then I bunked off school.

I met him in the park.

MUSIC PLAYS

I don't tell that b*tch anything.

Right, is that how you talk
about your mum, yeah?

Yeah. I don't care.

I can tell you like trouble.

Turn it up.

You like that one, yeah?

HE LAUGHS

# Zum, zum, zum

# Zum-zum-zum-zum-zum-zum-zum... #

I didn't know he would have
a friend there.

Sasha, how old were you?

13.

He would have been 19, 20.

Did you tell anyone?

Dionn went to prison, and I just...

..tried to forget about.

Then you introduced me to Anton
in church.

He said he'd just moved to London,

I should be nice to him.

We really liked each other.

When I found out he was Dionn's
little brother, I just...

SHE SIGHS

..I lied.

I didn't want him to think
I was dirty.

And when Dionn was coming out
of prison, I...

That's it, I had to tell him.

You're lying.

I'm not.

I'm sorry.

Just move from me, Sasha.

I said f*cking move from me.

He called me a f*cking hoe.

Sasha, you were a child.

You hear me?

A child.

# Mi wan party hard

# Yes, we ah party hard.... #

Can tell you're a real bad girl
in school.

Yeah, you're very mature
for your age.

Oh, that's pretty.

You should take your jacket off,
it's bare hot.

# Donae'o

# When I touch mic the crowd will
get hype if I say so

# I don't play bro

# I'm here to entertain yo'

# No games bro

# Hype ting inna dis ting
an' know you must party hard

# And to my ladies dem, mi love you
still, you're my babies

# No ifs, no buts and no maybes

# Show no face you know you
must party hard

# And just wile out. #

Listen to me.

Listen to me.

What Dionn and that boy
did to you was not right.

Big men grooming young girls.

I could...

I believe you.

I believe you.

We're going to sort this out.

I promise.

SHE SNIFFS
Let me pray for you.

Then let me sit with you.

DOG BARKS IN DISTANCE

PLANE PASSES OVERHEAD

KNOCK AT DOOR

DOOR OPENS

Only me.

Perry's dying to see you.

How'd you sleep?

Like I could have slept
for a thousand days.

You can stay here as long
as you want.

Perry's fine on the sofa.

And when you're ready, we can decide
what to do about it all.

What you told me.

When you're ready.

# I'm numb, lonely

# Thought I was the only one

# It's hard to find the right words

# Knowing that they'll all hurt

# In sync with the sunset

# Down and I am
out for the night... #

KNOCK ON DOOR

Yeah? Food for you.

# And it fluctuates

# I'm infatuated with my fate

# In the depth of my sadness,
I can't wait to reach that high

# I'm fine

# This is the last time... #

KNOCK ON DOOR

Food for you. Thank you.

# Cos I should be happy
on my own... #

KNOCK ON DOOR

I got you chicken nuggets.

# Cos I know that when I'm lonely,
you'll be by my side

# But it's only when I'm lonely that
you seem to make me cry. #

KNOCK ON DOOR

Maybe it's time you went
and got your things from Carly.

We've all done things we regret.

Forgiveness plus patience.

That's what you must give yourself.

That's what you must give to her,
too.

KEYS JANGLE

Can I come in?

Yeah.

Come for your stuff, Lexi Garima?

Living with Mr Big Shot now,
are you?

Whatever, Carly.

SHE SIGHS

I'm done.

So we're not mates any more?

How can we be?

I...don't even know the word
for what we are.

So, are you going to do DailyFans
by yourself?

How are you going to make money?

Look, I'll be honest with you
from now on. No more taking a cut.

All your money is yours.

Proper...business partners.

I need you,

and you need me.

I don't.

I deleted all of my accounts.

Every single account I had online.

You should see the things that these
f*cking trolls are saying about me.

They told me to k*ll myself.

Don't f*cking listen to what people
say online, do you hear me?

I'm serious.

Don't read that sh*t.

Why? Would you miss me?

Then just stay.

I can't.

Do you want me to beg?

Sasha, I'm f*cking sorry.

OK?

Is that what you want to hear?

I'll k*ll myself without you.

Just get up. Please, get up.

Don't you love me?

I do. I do.

Don't you think I've missed you
and...?

Mummy...

You said Courtney was your brother.

I never lied.

BABBLING

Drink your juice.

DOOR CLOSES

He's better off with his dad.

I'm not a bad person.

I know, Carly.

We're worth...so much...

..but you've let people f*ck you up.

And you've really
got to just love yourself.

And I wish I knew that before...

..when I would look in the mirror.

You need to start seeing that,
Carly.

CARLY SNIFFLES

SHE HUMS

# I can't eat...and

# ..for a thousand days...

# I slept for...

# I slept for a thousand days

# One-two, one-two, one... #

BEEP
Hey, it's Sasha.

Uh, call me back when you get this.

INDISTINCT CHATTER

Can you just give me a minute?
Sure. Yeah.

Hey. Hi.

It's proper. Don't be nervous.
Just do what you do best.

Sing and ignore the music people.

Cool. Come on, let's sound check.

# I think my momma was a gangsta

# I think my daddy was
a Rolling Stone

# I was looking
for some answers... #

CHEERING

Hey! Um, thank you for coming down
tonight to Soulflex.

Um, the artists performing are...
MICROPHONE FEEDBACK

Oh, sorry. The mic, um...!

..um, some of the rawest

undiscovered talent
from East London.

CHEERING
Let's show some love!

MUSIC PLAYS SOFTLY

# I sat outside my body for a while

# So I could really feel alive

# From time to time,
a place or smell... #

Don't you dare!

Hi.

Hi.

I see you dressed up for me.

Don't start!
I had an interview for my pupillage.

Did it go well?

Obviously it did. Yeah.

Look at us -
big 25-year-old grown-ups, you know!

You know you got this, right?

I've missed you.

Better not ruin your make-up.

CHEERING

Hey!

I'm here with Sasha Clay,

and, uh, we're going to do
a little song.

WHOOPING

Hi, I'm Sasha Clay.

This is my first time performing.

Uh, I don't know if
I'm any good, but I don't care.

I just hope you like it.

# I slept for a thousand days

# When I woke up,
my soul had changed

# f*ck the fake sh*t, gave up on me

# Lost myself, spent time searching

# Ain't for the Gram
It's not pretend

# Sun in my window, back in the ends

# Out in the street, faces I see

# Found the melody
The person I used to be

# The child left behind

# I could set free

# But is she proud of me?

# Is she proud of me?

# Hope she's proud of
the woman that I've become

# The woman that I was

# The woman that I've become

# The woman that I was

# The woman that I...

# Up from the mud
Had to hit restart

# Needed self-love
Didn't trust my heart

# Bonfire for the monsters
under my bed

# Ignore the dark sh*t
inside of my head

# Yeah, I'm a baby girl

# But I'm not your little girl

# I got big dreams
and I deserve the world

# Done being smaller
Yeah, I grew taller

# Done with opinions

# Sorry, next caller

# The child left behind

# I could set free

# But is she proud of me?

# Is she proud of me?

# Hope she's proud of
the woman that I've become

# The woman that I was

# The woman that I've become

# The woman that I was

# The woman that I... #

CHEERING

# Yes, I'm moving on
Trying to find my sound

# The woman I've become
Trying to find myself

# Yes, I'm moving on
Trying to find my sound

# The woman I've become
Trying to find myself

# Ohh-ohh

# The woman that I've become

# The woman that I was

# The woman that I've become

# The woman that I was

# The woman that I

# Oh, ooh-ooh

# The woman that I've

# Become. #

APPLAUSE AND CHEERING

CHUCKLING

That was sick!

So good! They love you.

f*cking hell! Was it all right?

Aw...! It was all right.
k*lled it! k*lled it!

Yeah, you were all right, too!
Thanks!

Hey, there's a music guy that looks
like Lenny Kravitz at the bar.

He gave me his card.

Uh...

I guess I'll talk to him.

There's a bottle of rose
with our name on it.

What?!

Um...

Thanks for being,

well, really annoying and

a tiny, little bit encouraging.

No, but seriously. Um...

..for not giving up on me.

I appreciate it.

It's cool.

Sasha?

Nothing. Go. Do your thing.

OK.

Hey! Hey. Great show.

FOOTSTEPS APPROACH

Superhero breakfast?

Something like that.

KNOCK AT DOOR

You sit down. It's my house, lady.

DOOR OPENS, INDISTINCT CHATTER

It's Anton. I'm sorry, I forgot
I needed to give him his keys.

Do you want me to tell him
you're here?

No, I'm good.

Thanks. How have you been?

PHONE VIBRATES

All right, I'll see you later.

FOOTSTEPS APPROACH

PHONE VIBRATES

# Ready to go

# Ready to blow
Ready to risk all

# Yeah, yeah, yeah
Ready to be wrong

# Ready to be right
Ready to risk it all

# Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

# I know I'm alone and nobody knows

# What I got to do for my survival

# In an expensive f*cking city

# Opinions don't pay my bills

# I know that me hustling will

# I can do this
Never gonna quit

# I can make it
I'm going to be rich... #