01x03 - To Speak or to Die

[bunniefuu]

[clock ticking]

[Heidi] Show me your ways, Lord.

Teach me your paths.

Guide me in your truth and teach me,

for you are God, my saviour.

My hope is in you all day long.

Remember, Lord, your great mercy

and love, for they are from the old.

Do not remember the sins

of my youth and my rebellious ways.

According to your love, remember me,

for you, Lord, are good.

["Cosmic Dancer" playing]

I was dancing when I was 12 ♪

I was dancing when I was 12 ♪

[glass clatters, shatters]

[crying]

I was dancing when I was aaah ♪

I danced myself right out the womb ♪

I danced myself right out the womb ♪

Is it strange to dance so soon? ♪

[sighs]

I danced myself right out the womb ♪

[panting]

[crying]

[Linn] If you wanna give the

breakfast present, do it now.

- What if he's still angry?

- [Linn] No, it's

[Alfred] 'Cause he just left.

You know what? Go and knock.

He'll be super happy.

[Lukas fussing]

- [seatbelt unfastens]

- [door opens]

I'll wait here.

[doorbell rings]

[MJ barking]

MJ's at home!

[knocking on door]

I think he's already left for his job,

Alfred. We've got to go.

Come on!

Alfred. Alfred!

[tense music playing]

[Lukas fussing]

- [door closes]

- It was a nice gesture, Alfred.

He's not angry. He's at work.

Nah, he's dead in the back garden.

What did you say?

- What did you say?

- He's dead in the back garden.

Tore!

No, Tore! No! Hello? Hello? Tore?

[Tore breathes raspily]

Hey! Hey, it's Linn. Hey!

- Can you see me?

- Yeah.

- Can you hear me?

- Yeah.

Yes?

Hey, can you breathe?

- There. Do you know where you are?

- Sure.

Hey, Alfred!

- So

- Let's get up. Yeah, let's get up.

Okay, let's [grunts]get up now. Okay?

[grunting]

Take it easy.

[Linn] I've got you.

[Tore winces]

[echoing pounding]

Hey.

[Ulla] Tore, wait. What happened?

It was bizarre. I just

I fell asleep on the sofa last night.

And then I was going to bed,

and I was, uh, so tired

I fell and hit my head

on the coffee table.

Hey.

But it's worse than it looks. So

Er, sorry. That's not it.

It looks worse than it is, yeah.

So, the other way.

[Per] We have to go

and get you checked out. I'll drive you.

Oh, yeah, but it's not necessary, Per.

It barely hurts. It's fine.

Now, I just have to

[Ulla] Thank you.

This lost-and-found box needs sorting,

so I'm gonna

- What are you gonna do with

- Yeah, what do you do with it?

You return everything

that was lost and found.

[woman] Mum, you know Mona,

who works

at this really nice nursing home,

the one with the garden?

She said that we're very welcome

to come over and just have a look.

- If we want.

- [laughing] No. No.

Can you tell us what happened, eh?

You were getting a glass of water,

and then you just tumbled over?

Yeah, what were the wedding glasses for?

- [phone ringing]

- Ah.

Heidi Lidgren.

Hi, Heidi! This is Tore

from Årsta Funeral Home.

- Is this a bad time?

- Um Hey, Tore! Just one second.

[Tore] Uh-huh.

It's from the funeral home,

so you're welcome to show yourselves out.

[door closes]

Okay, then! Yes?

There was a long, black jacket left

in the cloakroom after Bertil's ceremony.

So I was just calling to

Okay. Well, no one's asked about it.

Okay, because it's a cleaning day here,

so if anyone wants to pick it up,

they can just come by our office.

[Heidi] Oh, that's great. Good to know.

[inhales] I also wanted

to thank you for the funeral.

Very well planned.

A lovely goodbye.

Glad it turned out okay.

They can be really special, funeral days.

Mmm.

And thank you for the sunflowers.

[Erik] Delivery from Gunvor's Flowers.

- I'm Erik.

- [Ulla] Thank you!

- Thank you. Take care, Heidi. Bye bye.

- [Heidi] You take care too. Bye.

- [Erik] Bye!

- [door closes]

He's ever so nice, the new guy.

Erik.

["Stockholmsvy"

by Hannes ft. waterbaby playing]

I'll be honest ♪

I'll be honest for you, yeah ♪

Yeah ♪

And if we're talking

I'm gonna tell you the truth ♪

Yeah ♪

You and me ♪

- Boo!

- [Erik] Hi.

Hey!

Oh! What happened there?

Yeah, it's worse than it looks, so it's

Or it's the opposite. How

- You delivered some flowers?

- Yeah, that's right.

- Ah, nice.

- But

- Did it go well?

- [horn beeps]

- [Erik] I have to get going.

- sh*t!

But I [spluttering]

Uh [sighs]

I didn't mean to hop in here on your

Nah, nah. It's, uh, all good.

But you're not going

Or are you going somewhere?

- Or are you

- Uh, where are you

[splutters] Are you Where are you going?

- Just to my job.

- Okay, yeah.

Uh, so don't drive away with me. [laughs]

- Nah, nah. Not gonna drive

- So I'll just hop back.

Uh, sorry! The beeping flustered me.

You can just pull over here somewhere.

[laughs]

[inhales]

Um, how are you keeping?

[chuckles] Yeah, I Not bad.

This guy just jumped in my car.

I was a bit shocked.

Anyway, but otherwise, I'm good.

You and me made a lover of an enemy ♪

Yeah ♪

Yeah ♪

- [Tore] Thanks for the ride.

- [Erik] You're welcome.

- Take care!

- It was a pleasure.

Hey, hey.

[Ulla] Okay,

had this actually been the case,

I think we would have known.

Hello, Tore.

- Hello!

- Hi.

Absolutely. That's not what I meant.

[Ulla] Yes. Well, I don't know

what else to say.

This is very unfortunate.

[woman] Well, if you haven't received

any information about it,

I understand that

Can't I just talk to Bosse

and try to clear things up if he's in?

Uh, he won't be coming in again,

I'm afraid.

[woman] Oh?

Sadly, Bosse passed away.

That's how it is.

[woman] Oh! Right.

I'm so terribly sorry.

Tore, Maja here says

that Bosse hired her as an assistant.

Or at least, apparently, that's how it is.

Okay, but we already have an assistant.

Yeah, but someone was quitting, right?

Uh, no. No one's, um

No. No, we're still in the process

of trying to locate the password

for Bosse's work email.

And I think once we get in there,

it will be clearer.

Uh, sorry. How did you hear

about, um, this role, this job?

A friend of mine saw a post on Facebook.

We worked in care homes together.

Her name's Linn Sjölund.

I don't know if you know her.

[Per] Oh, yes.

That's a good friend of Tore.

[Maja] We go way back,

and she thought

I might be a good fit here,

so that's why I applied.

Oh, really? And this was a post

on Facebook, huh?

[Maja] He got in touch

and told me to come in today to sign

- [Per] Tore?

- Yeah. I'm just checking something.

WHO'S MAJA?

DID YOU GIVE SOMEONE A TIP

ABOUT AN ASSISTANT JOB?

YEAH, BOSSE ASKED FOR SOME TIPS.

BUT THAT'S MY JOB!

WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY SOMETHING?

WE HAVEN'T EXACTLY TALKED LATELY!!

DID HE SAY I WAS QUITTING?

LINN IS TYPING

I WOULDN'T KNOW

HOW DID YOU FALL FROM THE BALCONY?

DID YOU JUMP???

HEY, VIGGO! MEET UP TONIGHT?

[MJ barking]

NOTICE OF TERMINATION

EMPLOYEE: TORE HOLMBERG

SUPERVISOR: BO HOLMBERG

[MJ running]

No! No!

[grunting]

f*ck's sake!

- [MJ howls]

- MJ!

[dog food clattering on floor]

[MJ whimpers]

[Tore panting]

[MJ whimpers]

MY ADS: LABRADOR - FEMALE

PRICE

LABRADOR - FEMALE

NEW LOWER PRICE

[MJ whimpers]

[upbeat dance music playing]

Hey!

[music stops]

Hello?

Hello, the music?

[Lo] Hello, hello.

You're just about to have some fun.

[bar employee] Introduction!

Ignite the room!

Ignite the room? No one's here!

[man] Can you put

the music back on please?

[bar employee] Whatever.

Just go! Go, go, go, go!

Ladies and gays, Shady Meat!

[dramatic music playing]

[Viggo] What is this?

Hey! Hello? Really?

Just put the music back. Come on!

Don't k*ll the party.

[Lo] Shut up!

I hate the world today ♪

You're so good to me, I know

But I can't change ♪

Tried to tell you, but you look at me ♪

Like maybe I'm an angel underneath ♪

Innocent and sweet ♪

I'm a b*tch, I'm a lover

I'm a child, I'm a mother ♪

I'm a sinner, I'm a saint ♪

I do not feel ashamed ♪

Wanna go to the bathroom

and take some stuff?

- Hang on a sec. Wait there.

- Come on.

Yesterday, I cried ♪

[Viggo] Hello?

You want some or what?

- Yeah.

- So, come on!

[inaudible]

Now I understand

How you'd be so confused ♪

I don't envy you ♪

I'm a little bit of everything ♪

All rolled into one ♪

I'm a b*tch, I'm a lover

I'm a child, I'm a mother ♪

I'm a sinner, I'm a saint

I do not feel ashamed ♪

I'm your hell, I'm your dream

I'm nothing in between ♪

You know you wouldn't want it

Any other way ♪

I'm your b*tch, I'm your tease

I'm your goddess on my knees ♪

When you hurt, when you suffer ♪

- [shouts]

- Cut it out!

♪undercover ♪

I feel numb, I'm revived

Can't say I'm not alive ♪

I know I wouldn't want it

Any other way ♪

Oh ♪

[music distorts, stops]

I hate the world today ♪

[rumbling]

[creaking]

[rattling]

[echoing breaths]

[creaking and rattling]

[grunting]

Help! [screams]

[grunts]

[water trickling]

- Tore, have you walked MJ?

- [MJ whimpering]

[thudding]

- Darling

- [Tore] Mum!

Go to your room, Tore! Get out of here!

[muffled screaming]

[gasping and panting]

- [coughs]

- [Bosse] Aw.

[shushing]

Shh, Tore.

[sobbing]

I love you, love you, love you, love you.

- [Tore sobbing]

- [shushing]

Hello! What the hell are you doing?

- Stop! Please!

- Calm down!

Dad!

- I can handle this! Okay!

- [Tore] Dad!

- [Viggo] Tore!

- [Tore] Daddy!

Dad! No! No!

- [man] Easy.

- [Tore screaming]

[Tore] Daddy!

[screaming] No!

[Tore] Dad!

[discordant ringing crescendoing]

[gentle music playing]

[inhales]

[exhales sharply]

[sighs]

Are you bringing a photo

to put on the casket, do you think?

Yeah, and please can you bring

a standing picture frame?

Do you know what I mean?

Yeah, you can always lean it

against a Bible or something,

but a stand would be preferable.

It'll be fine. Okay. Thank you.

Just give me a call

if there's any problems.

Okay. Thank you.

- Good morning!

- Good morning!

So shiny.

- When did you get here?

- Uh, not long ago.

It makes a big difference.

[door opens]

[Ulla] Thanks.

[door closes]

Tore, I must say, it's so nice

to see you stepping up like this.

Per and I agreed.

But you're working way too much.

- No.

- I've checked.

You're working

more than twice as much as a month ago.

- What?

- Yeah.

- But hey, I mean, slow down.

- It's fine. I'm almost done.

You know what I think?

Stay home the rest of the week.

And then we'll see you on Monday.

But, Ulla, it's better

that I'm being useful than

No, Tore. Sit down. Sit down. Come. Sit.

- I'm fine standing. I have to

- No. Sit down for a little while. Please.

Sit down.

I was thinking,

instead of sitting at home

[shushes]

- How are you, really?

- [sighs]

- Huh?

- I'm good. How about you?

- I'll take these off.

- I want them on.

- No. Stop.

- They're for children.

- Wait, you look a little

- Don't touch.

No, sorry.

I miss him too.

[sighs deeply]

- Good morning!

- [Tore] Well, good morning!

- Apologies for not calling.

- Oh my God, no problem.

But my cousin's grandchild

must have left their coat in the chapel.

- Okay, the black one, right?

- Yes.

[Tore] Do you want

something to drink? Coffee or

- [Heidi] Tea, please.

- [Tore] We have tea.

- Here.

- Thank you.

- What happened to your eye?

- [chuckles] I tripped over myself.

And you?

Oh, it's It looks worse than it is. So

- But, uh, how did you trip, then?

- It doesn't matter. [grunts]

But my, um

My daughters have launched

the Send Mother to a Care Home project.

And what do you want?

Well

Well, I feel it's my life here. So there.

Well, I also tripped, so

It doesn't only happen to old people.

Anyone can trip and fall.

[inhales deeply] Hmm.

I had a most interesting experience.

I'll tell you. Since Bertil passed,

I've had to take some decisions, and

[inhales, sighs]

Well, now I feel better.

How does it get better?

I know that Bertil and I

will be with each other again.

[gentle music playing]

You're not sleeping well, huh?

[chuckles] Yeah.

[Heidi chuckles]

Nights are the worst.

When your thoughts

and worries invade, full gallop!

I suppose

you have to do things to keep busy.

Yeah. [sighs]

But then what?

- [bouncer] Two people? Welcome.

- [woman] Yeah, two. Thank you.

- What's up?

- [bouncer] No, no, no.

- Listen

- What happened in there was very serious.

- Okay, but I got drugged.

- No. No.

Wait. Let me explain. I'm the victim here!

I'm the one who got drugged.

- Do what you want, then!

- What the hell?

- Do what you want then!

- Lo! It's about a pantsuit!

- [Lo] f*ck you!

- [Shady Meat] f*ck you, f*cking as*h*le!

- f*ck off! f*cking waste of space.

- [Lo] b*tch!

[lighter clicks]

Are you back already?

Yeah, well, take care of yourself.

Could you help me get in?

The guy you went to the toilet with,

was he your boyfriend?

No.

Oh God.

Tore?

We don't approach the toilet

with hook-ups, you know?

Okay?

Never.

[sighs]

[glasses clink]

[liquid pouring]

[Shady Meat] Are you seeing anyone?

No.

Uh

Or No. [chuckles softly]

[chuckles] What do you mean "or"?

I mean, it's just I don't know him, so

Well, rather than waiting

for Shawn Mendes to come out

Are you worried that he's straight?

He hasn't got a watch.

Hmm.

And he's a nurse

who also works in a flower shop.

Ooh! Girl!

- Right?

- Uh-huh.

- Cheers and welcome.

- Thanks!

[sighs]

Nah, but Oprah said it!

You must expose yourself to opportunities

with the right mentality.

"Preparation meeting opportunity."

But Erik already thinks I'm crazy.

You have to come up

with something concrete.

- But I Yeah, I don't actually understand.

- Oh, but

When you say

[sighs]

Need help? You know,

like, lifting heavy stuff.

Nah.

I'm gonna dampen the blue there.

- What?

- Hey, hey, easy.

It's not like

your p*nis is gonna fall off.

God!

- Concrete. Think.

- Like, driving lessons?

- Girl. Ooh, girl! You

- No. No. No. Just forget that I

I'm telling you! Driving lessons.

No, that's not a joke. That was great.

Say to Erik you've got to learn the basics

ahead of starting them.

And then ask him

if he'll take you out for a spin.

Let's do some glow here.

I mean, it would be so weird to ask him.

We don't know each other. I'd be like,

"Hey! Oh! Wanna driving-instruct me?"

Darling, you faked a dizzy spell

to touch him and then jumped in his car.

We're way past weird.

So

Mmm, voilà!

Sorry. For me, it feels too risky.

I mean it.

Tore.

[quietly] Tore.

If you find someone you like,

you go for it,

or else you might as well die.

"To speak or to die."

- So do it, hey?

- Nah, to die.

- No. I wanna see a photo of him.

- No way.

Show me. Instagram.

I've tried.

But I don't know his full name, just Erik.

[laughing] Yeah, but please!

He works in Årsta.

How old?

- Tore, tell me.

- I don't know.

Between 30 and 37.

f*ck!

- Yeah, it's cool. Let me

- No, but it's just because he's private.

FOLLOW

- Should I send a follow request?

- Stop.

- What? No!

- It's not funny! It's not funny!

- I'll rip this thing off.

- [gasps]

- I'll rip it off.

- You did not!

Easy!

Follow now.

I'm trying to pep you up.

Follow! Follow now, Tore. Please!

Good! Yes! Follow now, or I'll press it.

- Oh! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it!

- Yes! Yes, girl!

- Bravo, Tore! Bravo, Tore!

- No! Ew, terrible! Damn it!

You're gonna thank me.

b*tch, I'm telling you.

- Stop! Stop!

- "To speak or to die!"

- To die, please!

- Nah. To speak!

- It's so late too. It's past midnight!

- It doesn't matter. Whatever.

- Nighttime.

- He will follow back.

- [phone ringing and vibrating]

- [gasps] Hey!

You have to take it.

Maybe the number's his.

- Stop it.

- Maybe he's out and saw that you followed.

Answer him! Pick it up!

Hi. It's Tore.

- Hello?

- [Heidi] Is this Tore?

Yes. Who is it?

It's Heidi.

Yeah, we met I am sorry

for calling at this time of night.

- Oh, it's fine. It's okay.

- Who is it?

- [Tore] Hey!

- [Heidi] I

I don't know if I can go through with it.

[Tore] Okay, what

Go through go through with what?

They'll be so angry.

Okay, sorry. I don't follow.

But, but Uh, but who'll get angry?

Bertil and our Lord.

Though mostly Bertil.

Promise me, not a word

to Ann and Lisen. Promise!

Wh Where are you?

[suspenseful music playing]

Heidi!

f*ck!

[panting]

Okay, come down. Come on.

I've got your hand here.

Oh!

Are you okay?

[Heidi groans]

I won't do this again, I promise.

Are you okay?

Yeah.

[Tore] What's this?

Oh, just get rid of them. Throw them away!

[sighs] Oh!

[inhales sharply]

Our Father who art in heaven,

hallowed be Thy name, Thy kingdom come,

Thy will be done

on earth as it is in heaven.

So Okay.

[sighs]

Oh, these godforsaken nights!

["Broken" by Isak Danielson playing]

You're fine.

It's gonna be fine.

You are lovely.

Are you scared of what's to come? ♪

Your mother must be so proud, Tore.

Will he do the same

Or will he let you see? ♪

My father.

You don't have to hurt

You don't have to hurt any more ♪

With a little time, take a look

And find what you're searching for ♪

You are broken on the floor ♪

And you're crying, crying ♪

He has done this all before ♪

But you're lying, lying ♪

To yourself, that he'll find help ♪

That he will change to someone else ♪

But you're broken on the floor ♪

Still asking him for more ♪