02x04 - SMDK

[bunniefuu]

What's your favorite memory of Sam

outside of covering up
her a*s at the club

when she peed on herself?

sh*t, she used to like n*gg*s.

That's a crazy a*s memory.

At one point in time,
she liked n*gg*s.

We rented a movie called Crack.

Oh, sh*t.

Did you see it too?

- And we clowned...
- She took guys to my apartment.

We clowned this movie.

Was it Sam's idea
to rent this f*cking movie?

Yes!

It sounds like some sh*t
she would do.

- Hey!
- Yeah!

What's up? Whaddup, man?

- Hey, that's a nice jean jacket.
- Thank you.

I remember this so vividly.

'Cause I remember going to
your house. It was very religious.

- Absolutely.
- And I said

"Yo, you can't be f*cking b*tches
under pictures of Jesus."

And you was like, "I can."

No, but... but, surprisingly I was!

Like, that was the thing! I'm like...

Come on, girl. Let them t*tties out.
They out there now.

- Right.
- The f*ck?

- Wassup? Wassup?
- Yeah, she has. Work it.

He was walking around our hallways
with a ten-year-old son. Like

"Hey man, I'm just trying to get
out here and take care of my family."

And they're like, "All right."

When I was in ninth grade,
I had a ninth grader with me.

We was going together. I was like,
"Yeah n*gga, you got the same classes

you doing the same sh*t."

You a vibe too, b*tch.

I wish my t*tties
were allowed to become twins.

I'm so jealous.

Before... No, no. It's definitely...
Let me tell the story.

Before I came

there was this nice a*s teacher
that everybody talks about.

- There's two teachers. Dreamer...
- Aunt Crane?

No, no f*ck Aunt Crane.

That white b*tch.
I ain't talking about her.

Y'all made this one nice a*s lady

be turned a f*cked up lady
and y'all f*cked her life up.

And she had a white boyfriend.

- Chris?
- No, not Chris. Not Chris.

It wasn't Alizé 'cause
you wasn't there for Alizé.

No, it wasn't. I heard about it.

You was there for Alizé, n*gga.
We put a bottle of Alizé on her desk

- after we got drunk.
- Stacey.

- Stacey!
- I mean, it's LJ for real.

- No.
- No, Chris's name is Chris.

- But we called her Alexander.
- Alexander.

Stacey!

That's a simple a*s way to put it.

It's been weird, like being home

'cause I've been thinking
a lot about that just like

what kinda kids we were

and how that translate into like...

- Dickheads. Dickheads.
- What kind of adults

- we became.
- Dickheads. Dickheads for sure.

Like, we all went
to high school together

you know what I'm saying?

And I was really thinking
about me as a high school n*gga

and I was such an oppositional kid.

Like a really defiant...

I was... I never liked n*gg*s
tell me what to do.

- You also wore skirts then.
- I did.

- You wore a skirt or two.
- But I had the same attitude.

Same attitude in a skirt.

And especially in high school,
it was like outta control.

Like, I was definitely one of those,
like, suck-my-d*ck kids.

- Like a disruptive...
- Yeah, you was. I think it is.

"Kiss my a*s, I will blow up
this whole classroom."

That was a good lesson for me though
'cause I was the exact opposite.

She used to literally
give me these talks like

"Listen stupid.
This sh*t ain't gonna work.

Stop being so f*cking nice."

I'm like, "Why?"

Shonda was a moral oral a*s n*gga.

- She would... she would walk...
- Mora...

I'm sorry.
Say that sh*t one more time?

Shonda was a moral oral a*s n*gga.

- She would walk around...
- That sh*t will knock...

- Thank you.
- She would walk around

on some crazy sh*t.

Moral oral a*s n*gga...

But I was like...

I was like thinking about, like
"What was that sh*t in me though?"

'Cause, like
I can remember very clearly

like going to school with the goal
to, like break a teacher.

You know what I mean? Like,
that was the sh*t I wanted to do

was see this m*therf*cker
like, act outta pocket.

Like, remember
I pissed Susie off at the time

and she tried to fight me
in the closet?

Remember that sh*t?

You understand what you had to do?

Susie...
You didn't go to school with them.

You understand, to someone say

- "I wanna piss off Susie?"
- The nicest lady on the planet.

She was the nicest teacher we had.

Like she was nice on nice.

- Like you f*cked up...
- I made that a goal to, like

"Nah, b*tch, I will destroy you."

And then I remember very clearly,
she pulled me in the closet

and she was like, "Let's get it on."

And not in, like, a sexy way,
but in a like "You broke me."

- Like I will whip your little a*s.
- You-broke-me kinda way.

Like, I'm a little Asian lady
from Seattle

and you have broke my spirit.

But at that time,
it was like, "f*ck yeah!"

And I took that sh*t
as a badge of honor.

I remember that day n*gga.
I felt like

- Ferris f*cking Bueller, n*gga.
- Like you won.

I was this... I won n*gga.
I was the sauciest king of Chicago

and she was a stupid b*tch.
f*ck yeah!

I would pray for a teacher to hit me.

Like, only because I'm like,
"If you hit me, I broke-broke you."

- Word.
- Please put your hands on me.

No, no, that's the broke-broke.

- That's broke-broke.
- Because then I really won.

There was other kids
that wanted to learn.

- I was f*cking up classrooms.
- No there was mad n*gg*s that had...

- I was f*cking up classrooms.
- This is what I said...

Remember there's Asians in it?

- It wasn't our place to be there.
- What was the Asian n*gga

that yelled at me? And he was like

Oh, you wasn't there yet?
What was the Asian n*gga?

Nico.

No, the one that was in Susie's class

and he came up to me and all,
and he was like

"You made Susie cry,
you black b*tch."

You made...

You were in an incident yourself
with a student

that got violent.

I guess tell us what happened first.

Okay. Well

on this
particular day

I was
substituting

for a
teacher.

It was a third-grade class.

- Third graders?
- Yeah, third graders.

I did all elementary
for the eight years. So...

That morning they came in,
it was two boys.

They were arguing back and forth

about either a game
or some Nintendo they were playing.

About a hour later, one of the
students comes up to me. He said

"Mr. Sho, can you please
tell this little n*gga to shut up?"

I said, "Little n*gga, we not
gonna do any of that.

Can you... do you need to be switched
from your chair?"

"No, I don't need
to be switched from my chair.

Just tell him to shut up."

"I'm not gonna tell him to shut up

just go sit back down
and ignore him."

Without warning,
he goes back to the chair

and just slaps the other student.

So they're over there tussling

I get up around the desk
to go break 'em up.

Is this hard? I mean they're eight,
is it hard to break them up?

No. You can grab him
by the waist side...

- Just like... right?
- Yeah, you all cut that out.

So when I grabbed the little n*gga,
he's the taller one.

I separated him first and
that little n*gga took a swing at me

and when he hit me,
he knocked my glasses off

and shifted the fro.

- He hit you?
- Yes. He hit me.

- And I first...
- Punch or slap?

This is... this is key.

It felt like it came in
with some knuckles and a little palm.

That's what I felt. So...

So it wasn't a whole slap.

- Yeah. It wasn't a whole punch.
- But it wasn't a whole punch.

Right. It was something
in between like that.

So that's just
slightly disrespectful.

A slap would've been
very disrespectful.

I feel like the fact
that he eight years old

raising up to me
is disrespectful alone.

So my first reaction was, "Whoa!"

And he responded quickly. He said

"You brought this on yourself.

I told you to tell him to shut up

and that's why I had
to slap your a*s."

I think to some degree

- like, I was a bad kid. Like, my mom
- You think so?

My mom always had
to come up to my school

and explain some sh*t to my teachers.

I was always getting
kicked outta class.

I was always getting
ISS or so some sh*t.

So what was the root of that though?

Like, you know what I'm saying?
Because I don't think a kid is just

acting out for no reason.

And maybe this is the counselor in me

a kid is not just acting
out for no reason.

I don't know that at the time, right?

I know... I didn't even saw it
as acting out.

I've always... I hate m*therf*ckers
telling me what to do.

But I feel like
we all have that in us.

Like you know what I'm saying? We all
have that like not wanting to...

Wanting that freedom to do
what the f*ck you wanna do.

- Like, you know what I'm saying?
- Yeah.

I don't think anybody enjoys
being told what to do.

I think weirdly too

we live in a country
where they promise you that.

We literally live in a country
where they're like

"You can do whatever you wanna do."

- But when you...
- That is the promise.

- And that is a lie.
- That is a promise

- until you do it.
- Exactly.

- It's a promise until you do it.
- Exactly.

And then your time is up.

And when... and when, like...
Hate to make it this

but when you're black and poor,
those bumpers

- come along earlier in life.
- Yes.

And you're seeing other people do

things they're telling you you can't.

- Right.
- So I think also

never thought about it

that breeded
that opposition in me of like

"But I'm watching
other n*gg*s do it."

- Right.
- So what the...

So it's not that I can't.

Whatever reason you've decided
I'm not good enough to.

- And now I'm hot. Now I'm hot.
- Yeah.

- That adds another layer.
- 'Cause that's just being...

- You're being f*cking particular.
- Yeah.

And this isn't like a sweeping rule.

- Right.
- And when you really break this down

there is no sweeping rule
in this country.

There's no rules.
There's never been rules.

So once you realize, like,
"Yo! There are no rules."

And it's like,
"Why you trying to give me some?"

At that point,
did you feel kinda lame

for snitching on
a eight-year-old kid?

Like once you got it right down

"And then he hit me. I told him."

Don't you feel a little bit like,
"What's happening?"

I can't say I felt like that.

What I felt was I want my lick back.
That's what I felt.

I feel like you should
just smack a little homie

and put on a movie.

But they woulda made my night longer.

I woulda had extra paperwork
to fill out.

- So...
- Did it hurt?

It made me mad.

It ruffled my feathers.

Was that something you even thought
could happen before it happened?

It's one of those things
where it's like

you see it happening,
so you know that it is possible.

You just like, "I wonder what I'll do
when that happens to me?"

It's always in the back of your mind

"I wonder what I'll do?
What is gonna happen when it..."

So it wasn't like a "if,"
it was a "when."

It was like "When?" Yeah.
One day maybe it might happen.

One day I might get lucky.

Am I gonna be the one
to snatch the kid up?

Like, "Yeah, I'mma make
an example of you."

Or am I gonna be the one to do
what I did, fill out the report?

What did you think prior to?
Were you confident either way?

I was talking noise. Like

"Yeah man, I ain't finna
let no kid do me like that.

I'm gonna fold him up.

I send him back to his momma,
really roughed up." You know, but...

What stopped you?

I don't know. I was shocked.
I guess I was just shocked about it.

Did that end your career?
Did you continue teaching out there?

Oh no. No more teaching after that.

- That was your last.
- That was the last.

Took you out the game.

That was my last class.
My last lesson. My lecture.

Would you say

the students have too much power
in the classroom nowadays...

Nowadays? Yes. Absolutely.

Especially when you see
those Worldstar videos

with the teachers
squaring up with the kid

and fighting and everything

and the teacher gets hammered.

The kid gets
a suspension or something

but the teacher gets hammered.

Are you ever, like, envious
when you see those videos?

Like, "Damn that's what
I should have did.

I shoulda just squared off
with the little homie."

I am until I hear the verdict.

I am until I hear the verdict.

Are you pro bringing
a*s whoopings back to school?

Yes. Bring the a*s whoopings
back to school

because obviously the a*s whooping
isn't happening at the house.

When I was growing up in school,
we got whoopings.

You know, you could see the teacher
take the yardstick to the back

and take that one student.

And hopefully,
everybody got the idea.

When I go back on the sh*t

and I think about it
from an adult space, right?

I feel like a lot of that energy
just came from

being in a system
I knew was f*cked up.

I remember, one day
I was skipping class on some bullshit

and I'm at Stoughton High
at this time.

And I'm walking down the hall,
skipping class

and I poke into the Home Ec

and they had all the f*cking
special needs kids, n*gga.

- Ah, sh*t.
- In there making cookies, n*gga.

The same cookies we would buy

they used to sell these big a*s
snickerdoodles at lunch.

And I'm like, "Wait a minute.

You got these kids locked up
in here making the cookies?"

I'm sorry. Did you say Jonathan
was making f*cking cookies?

Big a*s cookies n*gga.

And I was like, "Bruh! What is this?"

You know what I'm saying?
Like, what game are we playing?

Like these n*gg*s
don't need to learn?

Y'all are hawking off cookies?

Like, what the f*ck is going on here?

I've been... I've been playing
with this phrase

"suck my d*ck, kid."

Like, I was definitely
a "suck my d*ck" kid, right?

I was always a contrarian class.

I was always cutting up.

Always kinda pushing back
against authority.

Would you... Did you feel like
you were that type of student?

Definitely. Definitely.
You couldn't tell me nothing.

I felt like I already knew it all.

I was just here.

- So, I definitely was that student.
- Buying time.

Buying time, exactly.

Little did I know that was gonna be

the easiest time of my life,
you know?

So then you believe
a "suck my d*ck" kid could be saved.

Always. Always. He's not too lost.

She's not too lost.

What did you need?

What did you need
as a oppositional kid?

- What do you think you needed?
- I don't know there was anything.

I just think I was just
in that space, like

I look back at that time,
and it was bumpy, man.

Like, I dropped out
of so many schools

I quit job after job.

Like I've always had this, like

"don't f*cking try
to control me" sh*t.

Right...

And I found an art form and a thing
that allows me to be free.

- Right.
- Right? So I get my fix.

- Yeah.
- So I can move around the world.

I can wait in lines and not be mad.

If a n*gga told me, I'm like,
"Sure, I'll move over here."

- 'Cause I have this thing.
- The outlands.

But I think about
the n*gg*s that don't

and I'm like, "What happens to them?"

I guess I wanted to start with

what made you identify as a Satanist?

I was just an art kid. Art, music.

Which is really how I found Satanism.

Ultimately.

'Cause I was into metal,
heavy metal a lot.

I grew up in the church.

I got the classic Baptist family.

They had me play drums for a while.

I was in a choir, all the good stuff.

So, you know, going from church

to now going to, like concerts
and hanging with like the white kids.

I seen all the symbolism, Satanism

and, you know, like "Eff Jesus"
shirts and all that stuff.

I was like, "I wanna do that."

Do you think
if you had another outlet

for your rebellion and that energy

you would've went this direction?

Do you think you got here
out of frustration?

Yes, definitely.

You know what? I was an angry person

but when I found Satanism

all that left.

I became my best self.
I became my happiest self

Do you feel like...

what you're doing is
the highest level of contrarianism?

Or do you think
there's something past this?

I think this is the ultimate, like
"F you" that you can ever do.

Satanism is more of a positive
than a negative.

Everyone has these
negative connotations.

They think we're doing
like things against kids

and you know, drinking blood
and slaughtering goats.

Well, I mean, that's pretty much
the propaganda though.

I don't know
that you can blame the people.

Just ask people.

You know, just say,
"Hey, I heard this. Is that true?"

Well you're the first Satanist
that I'm being...

I don't know that I'm walking
around every day seeing y'all

to be like, "Hey, what up with that?"

You know what?
They're pretty close, actually.

The satanic temple is out in Salem.

Yes... There is one out there
that I don't...

Because also, like you said,
it's a very white thing, right?

As a black person
growing up, that was...

this is a very, not only
anti-religious thing to do

this is a very
anti-black thing to do.

I get this idea
of wanting to push back

against what is the norm.

But I guess I'm wondering

why you chose something

that is so anti-society

and so visibly anti-society.

You know, I wouldn't say
it's anti-society.

It's anti-misinformation.

It's anti-oppression.

And just anti all the bullshit
that's going on right now.

I was never a kid
who, like, followed rules in school.

I hated authority.

I was very much like
a "suck my d*ck" kid.

You know what I mean?
Like one of those kids

you know, who would always
get into it with the teacher

would always question
the teacher's authority

would always be like, "You don't know
what the hell you're talking about."

And I think, some of that
was quite healthy and correct.

I think, some of it
was not and was selfish.

When you were growing up

would you say that
you were a suck-my-d*ck kid too?

One hundred percent suck my d*ck.

I look at now, right?

And I look back on my life,
and I'm like

"Damn, I had this real
oppositional, f*ck authority

like, suck-my-d*ck attitude
towards sh*t."

And then I look at college years,
and I'm like

"Damn. That energy
didn't really serve me well."

Like, I look at my life
and the bumpy road that was my life.

And sure there was a lot of things,
my mom passed away.

I had a lot, but a layer of it
was just my oppositional energy.

And I look at the sh*t,
and I'm like, "Damn."

I don't know that all of that
woulda happened to me

had I just not been
so "I don't like f*cking structure."

You know what I mean?
I ended up going to a college

- that was under a f*cking mall.
- Oh, my god. That's f*cking...

- You know what I mean?
- What college was it?

Bauder College. It was...

I went to a Bauder College in Atlanta

- under a building.
- It was under a mall.

- A fix plaza, n*gga.
- A plaza. Yeah.

Yes. All I know is I had
to walk by Intimate Apparel

to get to my communications class.

- And that was f*cking crazy.
- Let me ask you a question.

This energy. This like,
suck-my-d*ck, contrarian

disruptor energy

it can go to like,
you become Kyrie Irving.

You'll be like Hitler
or Genghis Khan or something.

Yeah, you become a monster.

You become a person

who can't see past
your own want for that need.

And never kind of
sees the greater good.

Which it doesn't
sound like is Satanism

but I do think is a direction that
that sh*t can go.

If you didn't have this, what...

What is Kevin now?

I would probably just be an atheist.

A metalhead atheist, at that point.

So there's no like...

I'm saying, like... So the whole vibe
of Satanism is not there, right?

Like, you can't...
There's no red contacts

there's no affiliation
with the devil.

Like what do you dress like?

Are you just like a regular dude
in the suit who's, like, "f*ck God!"

Nah, I'd still be wearing this.

'Cause this... I promise you.

This ain't even Satanism.
This is just me.

I'm not gonna lie. When I was younger

like when I first started,
like I don't know...

Maybe like 12, 13 started thinking
for myself a little bit more.

Reading stuff, right?

I'm growing up in
a Marilyn Manson era of music.

And I was like,
"Yeah, maybe I'm into Satan."

And I would write like a satanic on

like I had a tag name,
and it was satanic

- and I would write it on sh*t.
- Yeah, yeah.

But then like, I don't know,
two years of that

and I was like, nah, I don't
really, like f*ck with the devil.

But I do get this idea
of being in a box

and trying to find your way out of it

and it's kinda the first thing
that's right there.

Especially, I feel like
for black people

'cause it's so extremely opposite
of anything we see in our culture.

It's kinda the first thing
that's right there. That's like

"I'm crossing the line."
You know what I mean?

What made you stay there though?

It's kinda like The Matrix, you know?

You had the red pill
and the blue pill?

Satanism is the red pill.

You start to understand how much
we've been lied to about

literally everything.

From white supremacy

to the h*m*
that's out there now.

Once you get into Satanism,
everything starts making sense.

You start realizing that
all the darkness is in the light

and light is in the darkness.

- You just start to revert.
- Who's teaching you this stuff?

Like what are the books? Is it like
Satanism For Dummies?

- What are you reading?
- It's a personal journey.

So you have to learn
different things along the way

that apply to you.

And these are just things that
I learned pretty much on my own.

What do you do for, like, money?
Like you have a job?

Yeah. I created...
Lose for g*ng is a brand.

I've created a bunch of merch.

It's turned into... I'm trying
to turn it into a company.

- So you're self-employed.
- Yeah. Self-employed.

Have you ever had a job
where you had to work for somebody?

Oh, definitely. I've had
a whole bunch of those.

Was it difficult for you?

Terrible. Absolutely terrible.

I mean, I can't say
the names, but yes

I worked at all the retail stores
you can think of.

Low wage, minimum jobs.
It was not for me.

Do you ever see yourself...

conforming in any way?

Like, can you see yourself like

"Yo, I got kids now.
I got this going on

and, like what I'm doing
is affecting them

so let me tone it the f*ck down
or tailor it back."

Or does it need to be this...

outward for me to be this

or this affronting?

No, this is pretty much
where I'm gonna stand.

- Yeah.
- For as long as I can.

Yeah. This isn't just a phase.
So this is a real lifestyle.

- Satanism forever.
- Satanism forever.

...to make that point.

Yes. Which is bad.

- It's...
- It's bad.

And it's like hell,
and I'm so glad I grew out of it.

And I watch sometimes

I'll watch these m*therf*ckers
wilding at airports

about their mask,
and getting drug off a plane.

- And you see yourself?
- And it's hauntingly...

- It's hauntingly familiar.
- 'Cause you're like

- "Yo, that could be me."
- Could be me.

Thank God for comedy.

Because I would be that.

- Right.
- I would be that...

- I get it.
- ...because I didn't have a place.

- I get that. I get it.
- You know what I'm saying?

- I didn't have no place to put it.
- Yeah.

And it's like, "Damn!"

- That's how them n*gg*s get there.
- Yeah.

That's how these m*therf*ckers
end up on sub-Reddits

talking about how
they don't c*m, you know?

- It's just like...
- Oh, my god.

...f*cking... All that energy

and know... Going to work,
and in a cubicle every day

and constantly being told
what to do and shuffled around

and you have all this opposite.
And then the n*gg*s like

"Put your mask on."
And you're like...

That's the last straw.

It's like, for real.

I be watching them n*gg*s like,
"They ain't all the way wrong."

Why is this n*gga
telling them what to do?

Right...

'Cause if you ever
watch them plane videos

it never starts with the stewardess.

It starts with
a regular n*gga being like

- "You need to do this."
- Yep.

It's like, "n*gga, who the f*ck
are you to be telling me

what the f*ck to do, bruh?"

And that's how the chaos... I see it.

- You see that...
- But thank God for comedy and money

'cause I be in first class

sleep like a baby,
minding in my business.

You're like,
"Listen, if that was me..."

But I don't know what I would do
in the back of the plane

if a weird lady told me
to do something.

She used to literally
give me these talks like

"Listen, stupid.
This sh*t ain't gonna work.

Stop being so f*cking nice."
I'm like, "Why?"

Do you ever wish you still had,
like more of that energy

in your adulthood?

Sometimes it'd be nice to turn
into the Hulk on certain situations.

If you feel like
you been backed into a corner.

You know, knowing that, I'm not
gonna get in trouble for this.

I could lash out on them right now

tell them at the end of the day,
"Suck my d*ck."

And then I'll walk away
and not get in trouble.

Remember I pissed Susie off that time

she tried to fight me in the closet?

If someone say,
"I wanna piss off Susie..."

She was the nicest teacher we had.

To the TGI Friday's manager

who at the end of me
working my double shift

started screaming in my face.

To all the customers
who threw stuff at me

cussed at me.

Throwing sh*t and telling me
I wasn't allowed to leave.

To the executives
over at Bed Bath and Beyond

who hired me as a manager

and stuck me
in their affiliate program

at the Christmas tree shops.

I'd love to get a message out
to the owner of a company

who decided to call me on Christmas

to get him into
some gambling websites.

To the postmaster
who made me mule the shittiest route

for the shittiest, shittiest postman.

This Jewish guy was stuck
working with 70-year-old women.

The day after Christmas

in the middle of a f*cking blizzard.

To my boss who made me stand outside

in 90-degree weather
in a button-up shirt for seven hours

in the middle of a parking lot,
just to wave to children.

To the tech manager who scammed me

who didn't even have
his own business.

Who couldn't give me pay stubs
to prove I was getting paid.

To my r*cist a*s manager.

You remember me?

You sat me all the way
on the other side of the department

all by myself?

To my boss on PAUSE with Sam Jay

who tried to skip past
the COVID check-in table

and who regularly pulls down
their KN95 mask

despite having
literally been infected.

- Suck.
- My.

- d*ck.
- Suck.

- My.
- Jewish d*ck.

Suck my d*ck.

Shove it up your a*s.

Eat a bag of dicks, you m*therf*cker.

Hey Sam, you can
suck my d*ck.

So we're all in a car

and I'm in the backseat
losing my sh*t.

- We're all drunk driving.
- We're all drunk.

- Kerry's in a front...
- That's Atlanta.

And I'm being messy.
I'm a messy drunk.

So I'm like, "You acting
like this towards me?"

You sit in the room and tell me how
much you don't even like this b*tch?

You know what I'm saying?
I'm doing... I'm doing that.

I go on to roll down my window.

- Kerry locks my window.
- Oh, damn it.

'Cause it's her car.

And I was like,
"Yo! Unlock my f*cking window."

You put that child lock on?

And Kerry was like...
Kerry was like, "No!"

And I said, "Kerry, I swear to God

if I try to open this window again,
and it doesn't go down

I'm punching Kiwi in the face."

Wait, what? Kiwi doesn't.

- Wait, not her?
- No.

'Cause she was in the front.
She was in the front.

- I said, "I promise you."
- Oh, my god.

I said, "Let me hit this button,
and it don't go down."

And she tried me. And I hit it,
and that b*tch didn't go down with.

- "Open the f*cking window."
- And what was Kiwi doing?

Getting hit.

- Kiwi's having such a hard time...
- You didn't need...

And then they pulled over

and then Carrie was like, "She needs
to get the f*ck outta my car!"

Yo, Kiwi took it to the chin.

"She needs to get
the f*ck outta my car!"

- Bro...
- You had to hit Deanna's gate.

Why Kiwi? Why Kiwi?

- She was in the back.
- She was...

- And everybody...
- She was collateral damage.

That's what I'm trying to say though!