All That We Love (2024)

[bunniefuu]

Go get your ball

Go get your ball

Go get your big a*s ball

Big a*s ball

Big a*s ball

Go get your big a*s ball

Tanner...

you can go.

It's okay.

Mommy's here.

I'll be okay.

I love you so much, boy.

My baby boy.

Hey, how you holding up?

Okay.

Pretty cool, huh?

I still don't think

this is a good idea.

Oh, shut up.

I always wear a good helmet.

Are you still up for it?

We don't have to or anything.

I just thought

since we're here...

I already found a spot.

Give me your phone.

How's this?

Fine.

I don't want fine.

I want sexy m*therf*cker,

all right?

Come on. Perk up.

Have some energy

for me please?

If we're doing this,

we're doing this.

- Okay.

- Tell me what to do.

So, just, um,

put your head back

a little bit

so it hits the light.

How's this?

-Nice.

-All right. Keep going.

I want options.

So that looks good.

Now, just, you know,

just give it to me.

-How about that?

-Oh, good. That's good.

Wait, wait,

these have to be--

they have to be cute though,

right?

I don't wanna look like

I'm messing around.

-Yeah.

-Okay.

-Yeah.

-What if I...

-Oh, hot. Hot.

-Yeah?

Hot. All right.

Try sitting on the bike.

-Get on the bike.

-Okay.

Good.

So, look off

and don't look at me.

Yeah, that's great.

I would f*ck him.

Yes.

No.

No.

Oh, God.

Uh...

Hey, look.

Best one, right?

Oh, the midlife crisis

is really coming through

on that one.

This is the first time

I'm here without him.

I'm gonna need a minute.

Yeah.

You don't have

to do this, Emma.

You can keep them.

Really?

But my neighbor said--

Oh, come on.

You barely talk to that guy.

You're really gonna take

his advice

on where to leave

Tanner's ashes?

...of what you want

the room to feel like.

Various colors

evoke different emotions

and convey

unique personality--

f*ck.

- Oh, f*ck. f*ck. f*ck.

- So...

No. Oh, f*ck.

K11 is in second proofs.

Oh, and they added two alt

covers for you to approve.

Okay.

And the buyers are going

to present the merch

for L12 this Friday.

Thanks, Lynn.

Just one more thing.

I got H9 in the mail.

Who copyedited that?

Uh, that would be Brian.

Brian.

Where's Brian, Phillip?

Uh, he has

a doctor's appointment.

Hmm. Because I caught

at least six instances

of hand-painted

without the hyphens.

I know I sound

like a broken record

but we spell grey

with an E.

No exceptions.

Also the swatch order

didn't match the copy

with the fringed table linen

on page 29.

I've circled everything

in red.

I'll speak to Brian.

I can fix the digital--

I was training Brian.

I'm sorry. I, uh,

thought I checked his work.

I guess not.

I can handle this, Phillip.

Okay.

Well, happy Monday, everyone.

Got another email...

Mm.

...from dad.

Yeah. Uh, I got one too.

Should we write him back?

Mom, he's just making amends.

Good.

It's about freaking time.

But f*ck his guilt.

It's been forever.

He lives in another country.

What's the point?

It's not like we're ever

gonna see him again.

You'll be back

before the holidays, right?

I thought we could go

on a road trip,

like we used to.

Yeah, about that.

Um, I think we're gonna stay

in Australia

a little longer.

How much longer?

Five months.

Five--instead of five weeks?

Mom, Nate hasn't seen

his family in ages.

And he wants

to show me around.

He has friends in Sydney,

in Brisbane,

and we're gonna go

to New Zealand,

maybe check out Thailand.

What about your job?

I put in my notice.

Couldn't we have

discussed this?

I discussed it with Nate.

Mom, we saved up for this.

I can still freelance

as an illustrator.

I'll be fine.

Hey. What if you visited us

for the holidays, huh?

Twenty hours in coach.

Sounds like a nightmare.

You can afford business.

That's on you.

Oh, you're right.

It's better where it was.

I told you.

I do this for a living.

Okay. Right here?

Yeah, yeah,

this is good. Okay.

Yeah, it looks cute there.

-Perfect.

-Yes.

Oh, is this new too?

Um, yeah, I got it

at the same place

I got the console table.

We have this exact table.

I could've got it

for you for 20% off.

I never would've heard

the end of it.

Where's Craig's recliner

and armoire?

I sold them.

Okay.

You have so many likes.

When we do a post

for Timmons,

we get a 150 likes, max.

So pathetic.

I'm an Instagay, b*tch.

Oh, get this.

I had this open house today.

And, um, this really

cute couple came in.

And then after they left,

they sent me their d*ck pics.

Do you wanna see?

Respectfully decline.

Hmm.

What is this?

This is a new mix by this

Instagay DJ I'm following.

It's banging, right?

Ugh, I thought

you hated this sh*t.

You're in a mood.

Ugh, the vet called.

The receptionist said

that I have an excess balance

of $38.

Can you imagine?

The nerve.

After all of the thousands

I've pumped into that place.

Oh. I ran into Dom Wilcox.

He says you still haven't

returned his call.

-Oh, no. Please do not...

-Huh.

...set me up with anybody.

The last one

was a total disaster.

And Dom Wilcox,

that name is so porny.

I can't stand it.

I love

how insanely porny it is.

No, no, Dom's great.

I've known him for years.

He's not gonna raid

your closet

and donate your clothes

like Eric did.

I know. Psychotic.

Who does that?

Well, you know, I mean,

some of those sweaters,

they had to go.

They're vintage.

Oh, sh*t.

Okay. Come on. Come on.

That beat's gonna drop.

Get your a*s up. Come on.

Come on.

There you go. Yeah.

So give me

love tonight...

I know I should've

caught Brian's errors.

He's still new

and he's busting his a*s.

- He'll get better.

- Uh-hmm.

I made my share of mistakes

when I first started too.

I'm sure you remember.

Look, we've downsized.

Everyone is wearing

20 different hats.

But Lynn and I

can review anything you need,

so please just utilize us.

Great. That's helpful.

Well, just to put it

out there,

if we get hit again,

I would like to volunteer

to be laid off.

I've heard that the severance

is actually pretty decent.

You've been with us

for what, 11 years?

Yes. And I'm so grateful

to have something so steady

and to learn so much from you

and the team

and the employee discount.

I have so many nice things.

Things I don't

really need but,

um, if I'm honest,

at the meeting when you were,

like, grey with an E,

I mean,

is this where we're at?

Back when I started, we were

known for our clever branding

and our snappy headlines

and our holiday catalogs.

They were collector's items.

You're not wrong.

This place has changed

since the merger.

I've been thinking

about what I should be doing

with the rest of my life.

And getting laid off

might push me

towards my calling.

- Your calling?

- Yes.

To better serve the Lord.

I've been volunteering

at my church

and they wanna create

a position for me.

Oh, I'm sorry.

I thought you were kidding.

Um, okay. Yeah,

I can't promise anything

but I'll talk to HR

if that's

what you really want.

Yeah. Thank you.

What's up, my Raveners?

It's your girl, Raven.

And today as always,

I'm Ravenous.

I'm gonna be taking down

12 packs of spicy ramen.

No drops of water,

no cheating, no edits.

That's right. And I'm gonna

up the challenge.

When I get to the last noodle

on my plate,

I'm gonna snort it

up my nose!

Okay. Here we are.

The moment

you've been waiting for.

What's your girl do?

Never break a promise.

Make sure to like

and subscribe.

Here we go, no turning back.

Okay. All right. Okay.

There's a first time

for everything.

That is up my brain.

Thanks for getting back.

It's been forever.

A decade, actually,

because, uh, you helped Andy

move out of my place.

Damn. You're right.

And you're famous now.

I saw your videos.

I don't know about famous.

You subscribed to my channel?

I--um, yes.

I'm about to hit a million.

Hook your sister up.

Or ex-sister-in-law.

And like some of my videos.

Anyway, the reason I called,

um, Andy sent me a card.

I don't know

if you remember our dog?

He just passed away.

Yeah, I heard.

You did?

I mean, I remember Tanner.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Thanks.

It's kinda weird.

We haven't talked in a while.

And the card

was postmarked in the US,

and it had

your area's ZIP code.

Are you still

in North Hollywood?

Uh-huh.

So...

is Andy back from Singapore?

Why are you back?

Raven didn't say?

Cynthia and I divorced.

Oh. I didn't know.

Yeah. Three years ago.

And my show got canceled.

And then there was a DUI,

it was all over

the news there.

And I wasn't getting

any more work,

so I figured

I'd come back here

and start auditioning again.

I landed this indie.

It's called "Being Rich."

I play Rick Wong,

a grocery clerk who uncovers

the secret portal

in the freezer section

that leads

to this alternate reality

where he becomes Rich White,

who is--

Rich and White?

I guess that is a bit

on the nose, huh?

Oh, I was kidding.

I didn't...

Well, it's more

than that, right?

So he keeps flipping between

these alternate worlds

and these two identities

where he has to figure out

which one he'd rather be.

It's very hard

to be rich and White.

It actually is,

at least for this movie.

So, this job is for research

until we start filming.

But it's been delayed

twice now.

Who knows, it probably

won't even happen.

But I kept the job.

I think I do better

with the routine.

It's close by,

and Raven needs a good deal

of quiet space

while she's recording.

I was very impressed

by the spicy ramen challenge.

That's totally fake.

Really?

Yeah.

She sets aside one noodle

that's safe to snort.

It's pretty seamless,

I'll give her that.

g*dd*mn.

I was--I was convinced.

And she keeps bugging me

to start my own channel,

but honestly,

I think it takes a certain

type of person to do that.

I don't think that's for me.

Well,

maybe that's not a bad thing.

Who am I to judge?

I'm the one living rent-free

because of my little sister's

face-cramming empire.

How did you find out

about Tanner?

He came to me in my dream.

Next morning

when I woke up,

I just felt like something

happened to him.

Come on, really?

Yeah, really.

I didn't know for sure

until I saw

your Facebook post.

I may have glanced

at your profile

from time to time.

Anyway,

I wrote it down on my journal

the day after I had my dream,

July 13th.

Shut up. He died on the 12th.

And nobody online

knew for a week after.

Oh, that's something.

Well, I wish he would come

to me in my dreams.

I'm so jealous.

I talked about him

on my last AA meeting.

How much of a licker he was,

how he'd always have to kiss

my face to wake me up.

I don't remember that.

It was mostly when I was

blacked out on the couch,

not while

we were asleep in bed.

Maybe he was trying to say,

"Hey, get up,

get your sh*t together, man."

So, how's Maggie?

She's well.

She has a boyfriend, Nate.

I don't know if you knew.

No. She's done

a remarkable job

of keeping me

out of her life.

Can you blame her?

So you guys got my emails?

We weren't ready to respond.

You mean Maggie wasn't ready?

Hey, it's okay. But, uh,

I gotta try, you know.

It's all part of the process.

So we're just one

of your 12 steps?

No. Uh, I mean, yes,

but I've wanted to apologize

to you both

for a long time now.

Maggie's going to Melbourne

for a few months.

Nate's Australian.

I'm dreading it.

I'm not ready

to have her so far away.

Want a ride?

Nah. I'm close, I'll walk.

It's good to see you.

It's good to see you too.

Yeah.

Get it.

All right. Here I go.

You ran away

to find something to say

I went astray

to make it okay

And he made it easy,

darlin'

I'm still in love

and I say that because

I know it seems

between you and me

It hasn't been easy,

darlin'

Hey, hey.

I can't even look at you

Would you look at the space

just next to your feet?

The wood is warping

The lines distorting

This house

is on fire, woo!

Burning the tears

right off my face

What the hell did we do?

Tell me

we'll make it through

You got it.

'Cause he made it easy...

Oh.

Thanks, Maggie, thanks, Nate.

I've been meaning

to get this.

Oh.

Hey, check the front,

it's, uh, autographed

by the photographer.

Oh, boy, yes, it is.

Isn't that nice? Thank you.

-You're welcome.

-It's gonna go perfectly

with Bob

and Julio's fleshlight.

Yeah!

Send us videos, will you?

When you break it in?

Have we met?

Uh, oh, Emma,

this is, uh, Bob and Julio.

Hi.

Hi, Julio.

Oh. Actually, I'm Julio.

He's Bob.

Oh, sh*t. I'm sorry.

It happens all the time.

Okay.

-That's mine!

-Ah.

Better not be more

Timmons closed-out sh*t.

Sounds like some

Timmons closed-out sh*t.

Oh. When was this taken?

Memorial Day, 2007.

We had that picnic

on the beach, remember?

You and Craig,

and me and Andy and Maggie?

I don't remember.

What?

It's, uh--

it's very nice.

Thank you.

Show us.

Um...

Oh.

-Oh, that's beautiful.

-Oh, that's lovely.

Is that you on the right?

Yeah. Yeah.

And who's next to you?

Uh, that's Craig. He, uh--

he passed away

a couple years ago.

Oh. I'm sorry.

So sorry.

There's also a gift card

at the bottom of the bag.

Oh, so more Timmons.

Okay. Thank you. Thanks.

Can I get a volunteer

to sing the other part

of the song?

Stanley, you know this one.

Okay. Um, anybody?

Anybody?

I've always

wanted to be Cher.

Oh, perfect, Julio.

Okay.

Then I get to sing

the man part.

Okay.

Well, here we are again

I guess it must be fate

We've tried it on our own

But deep inside

we've known

We'd be back

to set things straight

I still remember when

Your kiss

was so brand new

Every memory repeats

Every step

I take retreats

Every journey always

brings me back to you

- Bye, Stan.

- Oh, thanks for coming.

You think we would've

missed the party of the year?

- Thank you.

- Happy birthday.

Mom. Should we take you home?

It's okay. I got her.

It's on my way.

-You sure?

-Yeah.

-I could get myself home--

-No. Oh, God.

Because your boyfriend

has not quit smoking!

Only when he drinks, Mom.

Like that's better?

It's not like I'm pregnant,

Mom.

Just ignore her,

she's being an a*s.

Like, I'm being a*s?

He's taking Maggie

away from us.

Twenty hours on a plane!

It's more like 16 hours.

Emma, Emma, stop.

And I'm not taking her

away from you, Ms. Gwon.

-I never meant to--

-Meant to what?

Give her cancer?

-Nate, get in the car.

-Okay.

Let's go, Emma!

What's going on with you

and Bob and Julio?

I smell a three-way.

How much did you have tonight?

You don't usually

drink this much.

They told me that you

sold them their house.

They're the d*ck pic dudes?

You're just now

putting that together?

She was so distant tonight.

Who was?

-Maggie.

-Maggie...

I can't believe

she's going overseas

for five months.

She used to be afraid

to fly and she meets Nate.

Now, she wants to get

the f*ck out of town.

I should be happy for her.

She's really going for it.

Uh-hmm.

We don't talk like we used to.

She barely came to see

Tanner near the end.

Not that I blame her.

I mean, she has her own life.

It's just that,

time just whooshes right by.

Uh-hmm.

Not now, though.

It's taking forever right now.

Did you know that "After All"

was my song with Andy?

I did.

It was from our second date.

We went to go see

the movie that it's from.

Oh, God.

What was it called?

It starred,

um, Robert Downey Jr.

and, um, Cybill Shepherd!

I f*cking love

Cybill Shepherd!

Did you and Craig

have a song?

I don't--

I don't think we did.

No, you did, you did,

you--because, um,

it was super obscure

and I cannot remember--

oh, oh.

Does alcohol make you senile?

Emma, I'm gonna very gently

yet firmly kick you

out now, okay?

Okay. But you have

to text me and tell me

to pick up my car

because I don't wanna wake up

and think it got stolen.

Oh, honey.

No one's stealing that car.

-Love you.

-Love you.

-Bye. Happy birthday!

-Oh, thank you, thank you.

Thanks for coming.

- Do you need help?

- No.

I can--

I can come around.

- No.

- No? Okay.

Tanner?

There you are, boy.

Hi, boy.

Hi, Tanner.

There's no name,

just a number.

It's A319703.

319793?

Oh, yeah.

The name's Angus.

We still have him.

Oh. Well, he doesn't

look like an Angus.

You're allowed

to change it.

Well, I, um--I thought

I would just come out there.

I don't live too far.

It's only like eight

and a half hours.

Oh, you're not

from around here?

No, but I don't mind driving.

What if you change

your mind?

I won't. He's perfect.

A note here says

he's due for a surgery.

- Oh, really?

- Hmm, torn hind leg.

There's an order

to amputate.

It's nothing, really.

Dogs are resilient.

We'll call you

when he's ready.

Uh, yeah.

He's also

heartworm positive.

Don't think that was

listed in his description.

What's your name and number?

Ma'am?

Sal, no. Quiet.

Quit barking.

Shush, shush, shush.

Sal. Shush.

Coming.

He just went potty.

Yeah, good boy.

Good potty.

I never would've guessed

you were churchgoer,

but I guess we don't

talk about that at work.

Yeah. Well,

my faith is a personal thing

and I didn't know

that you had a dog.

And I didn't know you foster

until Phillip told me.

I once had four dogs

at the same time

if you can believe it.

Four?

It was madness,

but totally worth it.

You know, when you find them

their forever home.

So what do you think of Sal?

I don't know if he likes me.

Oh, you'd know

if he didn't like you.

I think

he's falling for you.

So what happened to Tanner?

They found tumors

in his liver.

It was well past chemo.

The vet said he would only

live for a few weeks,

but he actually hung on

for months.

-We had good days mostly.

-Hmm.

My Zoey,

I had her for 13 years.

She was the best,

sweetest Dalmatian.

I foster because I can't

bring myself to adopt.

She was the love of my life.

Remember only dry food

twice a day

and the cheap stuff

gives him diarrhea,

so I will email you a list

of recommendations.

And then, in here, we've got

treats and all of his toys,

there's poop bags, um, that

thing folds up really nicely,

so, uh, you might wanna

crate him for at least

three to seven days, you know,

put a little water in there,

maybe some wee pads if you

don't have any of those.

Is this too much?

-No, it's fine.

-Oh, my God. I'm sorry.

I feel like

I'm forcing him on you.

No, it's like

he's rescuing me.

Oh, baby.

Can I write you a check

for the rescue place?

Oh, no. Let's just

wait until you decide

if you wanna keep him.

Saying goodbye is so hard.

He's the sweetest boy.

I love this one so much.

Sal is my favorite.

Damn it! Sal!

No. Drop it.

Sal. No.

I don't think

this is working out.

He's just

settling in.

Are you training him?

Yeah. I mean--but he's

just--can you hear him?

He's barking,

barking, barking.

He just poos and pees

everywhere.

I take him on lots of walks,

but he just--

How can something

that small can poo so much?

He even sh*t in my shower!

Well,

excessive defecation,

especially indoors,

is usually a sign of anger.

Anger? What does

he have to be angry about?

Well, your tone

isn't the most tranquil,

you know, and he's sensitive.

Have you tried

an anxiety vest?

Are you suggesting that my

voice is causing him to sh*t?

Okay. Okay. Come on.

Good boy.

You're my first return,

you know.

I feel like such a failure.

No, Emma.

I keep on thinking about

having to go through

all this again.

I think I waited

too long with Tanner.

I think I prolonged

his suffering.

No.

I was gonna

put him down that day.

I made an appointment.

I had it all planned out.

Nuggets, ice cream,

a long walk,

the last game of fetch,

but it's like he knew.

He didn't wanna die

at the vet.

He woke me up

at the crack of dawn.

He waited just so he could

say goodbye to me.

It was like

he was asking permission

to be let go.

I can't let go.

Okay.

I learned this

exercise when Zoey died.

I think it might help.

Okay. Lay down

and then turn on your side.

Okay.

Okay if I put my hand here?

- Yeah.

- Okay.

So close your eyes and relax.

Breathe in through your nose,

out through your mouth.

Slowly.

Deeper breaths.

I speak to Zoey.

She can hear me.

Once, she even showed up.

What?

Yeah.

I was cooking breakfast

and I caught her

out of the corner of my eye

for just a split second.

She was there watching me

from across the kitchen.

I think she wanted me

to know that she was okay.

My grandma used to say that

once they know they're yours,

they'll always be with you

even when their gone,

they'll find a way, to let you

know that they're still here.

My neighbor Tom told me

to scatter Tanner's ashes

at his favorite place.

That that's where

he would wanna be.

And then he would be free

to roam and look for me.

Well, I don't know about that.

But I do know that it's

important for you to tell him

how you feel about him

so that he can hear you.

So go ahead, Emma,

tell him how you feel.

Tanner, it's mommy.

Can you do me a favor, buddy?

If you can find your way...

give me a sign.

Something real.

Just so I know

I'm not going crazy.

You could whine...

like you did when you wanted

me throw your ball...

or bark like you did

when you dreamed...

or scratch at the door...

like you wanted me

to let you in...

or just show up.

I would really love

to see you...

even if it's only

for a moment.

Yes, we'll have the roti prata

and ayam satay to start

and we'll also share

the beef rendang,

char kway teow, laksa mee,

and nasi lemak,

and can we get a side

of sambal too please?

Look at you! Ordering

like a real Singaporean.

Of course, lah.

Lived there so long already.

You look terrific, Emma.

Thank you.

Oh, I'm having

multiple foodgasms.

I didn't oversell it, right?

No. You know what?

Get out your phone,

film me inhaling all of this

because we're gonna start

a f*cking channel right now.

Look out Raven,

here comes Emma.

Thank you.

We had Maggie so young

and you weren't ready.

I was so driven by my career

and you had to give up

Juilliard to stay

at home with Maggie.

That must have been hard.

Thanks for saying that.

It's weird. I'm so nervous

about acting now.

It's like I'm starting

all over again,

especially having been

gone for so long.

But you were

the star of Singapore's

number one soap opera.

Co-star and it was

number three actually.

Wait, you've seen it?

Just some clips online.

Don't get a big head.

Please, that show

got me typecast.

You play a villain

for eight seasons,

no one can see you

as anything else.

Uh, I f*cking hate

when I sound like this.

Like what?

An annoying actor?

A f*cking annoying

character actor.

Anyway, who cares?

What's most important

now is my sobriety,

just got to stay on track.

I don't blame you anymore

for everything that happened.

I get these flashes of Tanner

when he was younger

and it takes me right back

to what was happening

between us then.

I'm just observing

and it feels like

what it must have been like

for Tanner

just watching over us.

And it takes away

all of the awfulness

and the resentment.

Does that make sense?

Sort of. Yeah.

I can see it

from your side now.

The way things

soured between us.

It doesn't mean

you're off the hook.

But I've had a lot of time

to think about everything.

Do you ever think

about seeing Maggie?

All the time.

Is now a bad time?

No, not at all.

Um, so this

came out of the blue.

It's completely unexpected.

Australia fell into the ocean?

They're banning Americans?

Mom, stop.

Uh, Nate was offered a job.

Yeah, he was head hunted

by this design firm

in Melbourne

who saw his portfolio

and they jumped on it.

It pays really well.

Oh, honey.

Long distance relationships

can be really hard.

What? No.

Uh, I'm trying

to tell you that

I'm gonna play it by ear.

If I like it there, I'll stay.

What? You're moving

to Australia?

No. No, Mom.

I'm just--

um, I'm just not

setting any parameters

for when I come back.

Yeah, that's called moving.

It's not like

a set thing.

If it doesn't work out,

I'll just come back.

But, um, since Nate

accepted their offer,

we have to leave earlier

on the 27th.

What did you say?

That's just two weeks away.

So you're just gonna

drop everything

to move to Australia for him?

What about your life,

your career?

I want this, Mom, okay?

Well, I'm glad

you took the time

to think that through.

I did.

Sadie is hosting a going away

party for us this weekend

and I really want you there,

but you have to promise

not to be weird

and, um, Stan is coming.

You already told him?

Yeah.

Before me?

How long have you

known about Maggie?

Like literally a day.

Jesus, don't change

the subject.

What the hell

were you thinking?

I should've kept

my mouth shut.

I don't understand

why you'd see Andy.

Just because he sent

you a card?

We were just catching up.

It's not a big deal.

Just catching up, like

old pals.

Have you conveniently forgot

what he did to you guys?

It's a long time ago.

People change.

Not that much.

What happens when

he falls off the wagon?

I think it's gonna be

different this time.

I've heard

that before. Multiple times.

Recovery is a process, Stan.

What are you, his sponsor now?

You're not getting back

together with him are you?

Give me a break.

Is that why

I haven't seen you lately?

Because you've been with him?

I can't do this. I can't.

Don't hold back for my sake.

I won't be around when the

sh*t hits the fan this time.

Are you mad about the present?

God, that is such a f*cking

false equivalency.

I knew you were mad.

I was gonna ask you about it.

Okay. You want to go there?

But sure,

let's f*cking go there.

Um, I'm gonna start

with the positive

as I'm not a b*tch.

The gift card, that was great.

Who doesn't love a gift card?

Um, the photo

on the other hand,

even Maggie cringed.

I mean, what's up with you

and old photos anyways?

They're plastered

all over your f*cking house.

And then, you have to drag me

into your sappy

sentimental hell too?

It's not sappy!

I found that when

I was cleaning the attic.

It touched me

and I just thought that

you would want a memento

of how things used to be.

Why would I want that?

I've moved on,

what we're all supposed to do.

Well, When you said

that you were going

to Bear Week

in Provincetown,

I was like,

"Oh, that's weird,"

because you used to say

that labels were tribalism,

but now,

you're all scruffed up.

You got some butch drag,

and suddenly

you're in a throuple.

I am not in a throuple.

I'm hanging out

with a couple.

There is a difference.

And even if I was throupling,

I don't need

your f*cking approval.

And how dare you

say butch drag!

If Craig was here,

he would've bust a gut.

Well, he's not f*cking here

because he died!

Stan, I didn't mean--

We can't go back, Emma. Okay?

It is so f*cked up

that you're seeing Andy.

It's played out.

And what's Maggie gonna think

when she finds out?

Have you even

thought about that?

You actually think

I've forgotten Craig?

I think about him

every f*cking day.

Do you wanna know

what it's like

to be with someone

who isn't a selfish alcoholic?

His dying wish was that

I would meet someone else.

That's what he wanted,

for me to, uh, keep going.

I--I'm self-aware, you know.

I see how I must look.

I--but maybe

this is just a phase.

Maybe this is just me

figuring things out.

But why should you,

of all people,

give me so much sh*t about it?

Stan, I just--Stan, come on.

Stan.

Hmm, that was not good.

I hit a nerve.

It's not like you two

haven't fought before.

We're like this

old married couple

always taking digs

at each other.

But this was real bad.

He'll get over it.

You remember that time

you didn't speak to each other

for a month

because Craig was insulted

you wouldn't get them

something from Timmons

with your employee discount?

I did that?

Yeah.

Huh.

Did I get you this?

Well, yeah, I guess you did.

Hmm.

Still fits.

So if you were still

with Cynthia in Singapore,

would you have even

sent me that card?

I would've sent you that card.

I thought you wanted me

to stay away.

You and Maggie.

She would ask about you

from time to time,

over the holidays

or when we were with kids

with their dads.

It grew less and less

over the years

as she got older.

I didn't know that.

One time

she thought she saw you

in a shampoo ad

in a magazine.

She swore up and down

that was you.

She insisted

that we look it up.

When she found out

it wasn't you...

it devastated her.

She got really guarded

after that.

Stuff like that

made it really hard

not to hate you.

I kept telling myself

that the booze

is what distanced you from us.

Made it seem

like you weren't there.

But it was worse

when you were there.

Like that time you

picked up Maggie from school

and you were drunk.

That's when I knew

that you and I were done...

because if anything

had happened to her...

I would've never

been able to forgive you.

I'm sorry, Emma.

I'm really sorry.

Hey, before you go.

We had that made for him

when we first adopted him.

He was just a little baby,

remember?

Somehow it ended up with me,

but you should keep it.

You were always

his number one.

Thanks.

Go get your ball

Go get your ball

Go get your big a*s ball

Big a*s ball

Big a*s ball

Go get your big a*s ball

I've sang that song to him

until the day he died.

I still sing it sometimes.

-You made it up.

-Uh-hmm.

I'd catch myself singing it

from time to time.

Like some terrible song you

can't get out of your head.

Cynthia was always like,

"Stop that sh*t, lah!"

But somehow it relaxes me.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

Is Stan gonna tell Maggie?

I don't know.

Remind me why you

told him again?

I can't keep

anything from him.

If he tells Maggie about us...

I'll deal with him.

And if he doesn't,

would you tell Maggie?

What would I even say?

That we're back together?

That we're just hanging out?

Okay.

I won't tell her.

She's leaving anyway.

She doesn't need the baggage.

- Hi.

- Oh, sh*t.

Sorry. Um, sorry.

I thought

you're back tomorrow?

Yeah, my car was making

this horrific sound,

so I brought it back

to take to the shop.

- How's camping?

- Good.

Better once

the mushrooms kicked in.

Oh, I just uploaded

the video online

if you're curious.

Twenty hotdogs,

five bags of marshmallows.

It's the new

outdoor challenge.

Wow, can't wait.

Can we step outside?

Sure.

Um, let me just

put on some pants.

I know you must find it weird,

Andy living here.

You know, we don't talk

to our other siblings,

but Andy and I get each other.

We both sought out

unstable careers.

My dad still

refuses to believe

Ravenous is my actual day job,

said that I blew my MBA.

Not Andy.

He's always been supportive.

That's why I'm starting

to feel conflicted now.

What do you mean?

What Andy did to you

and Maggie, it's awful.

I thought it was a good idea

for you two to meet

and clear the air.

I just didn't expect you

to be seeing each other again.

He's different now.

Don't you think?

I do, because he's finally

willing to work on himself.

I'm not saying

you're causing problems.

I mean, I haven't seen him

legit happy in a while,

but I do know that

in the program

they talk about triggers

and I wouldn't want him

revisiting his past

to cause him to drink again.

You follow?

I don't think he has

another relapse in him.

Hey.

Hey.

You leaving? I thought

we could grab a bite.

I know this

great Brazilian place.

I'm gonna head out.

I have to go get ready

for Maggie's going away party.

It's kind of a drive.

I need to go home and change.

Yeah, right.

You mentioned this.

I got a meeting

I can go to anyway.

I'll call you.

I've been working

on the accent

but it's like really hard,

you know?

They kind of-- huh?

I'll be right back.

Hi, Mom,

beginning to wonder

if you'd make it.

I got a late start.

This place is nice.

Whose is it?

Sadie's parents.

It's a timeshare.

The credenza

by the front door,

it's one of ours.

I actually helped name it.

It's called the Echelon.

Cool. Remember, Mom,

don't be weird.

Get me a drink.

I want whatever you're having.

Is, uh, something up with you

and Stan, by the way?

He's also being weird.

Kept asking

when you were coming.

Hello, don't you guys text?

Oh, boy.

Oh, you guys are fighting.

That's cute.

Actually, get me

a double vodka tonic.

Hey. Hey.

Go easy on Nate.

You're stressing him out.

He should be stressed out

about the secondhand smoke.

I am serious, Mom.

Hi, Ms. Gwon.

Glad you came.

Hi.

How's the drive?

So long,

kind of like

flying overseas.

Well, guess what?

Back on the patch.

Third time's a charm.

No cancer-ridden daughters

on my watch.

Ms. Gwon, I know

what you're thinking.

But I don't want you

to think of us leaving as--

Nate, congratulations

on your job,

but let's not do this now.

I know this

hasn't been easy for you.

Which is normal.

Maybe I'll come around

to it eventually.

Okay.

How long do you think for you

to come around, like ballpark?

Ask me again in 20 years.

Hi.

I just wanted

to say thank you,

uh, to everyone

for coming out.

This isn't really a farewell

or a send-off

or any of that sad sh*t.

As we've learned,

we're all just

a video call away.

For Nate and I,

this is the start

of a new adventure.

I mean, it's his homeland,

so it's more so for me.

Uh, but we promise

to come back

as often as possible.

And you're all welcome

to come stay with us

in Melbourne

in the kangaroo pen.

-Hmm, no.

-Nailed it.

Uh, shout out to

the bad b*tch herself, Sadie,

my bestest bestie since

way the f*ck back in pre-K.

Thank you for hosting us

in this insane house

I love you forever, girl.

Finally, I wanna acknowledge

two very special people

in my life,

my mom, Emma,

and my godfather, Stan.

They've been lifelong friends

and it's no exaggeration

to say

that I am who I am today

because of them,

the good and the bad,

mostly the good, mostly.

We went through a rough patch

when I was growing up,

but Stan was always there.

And having you both

meant I never missed out

on having a complete family.

So thank you.

And I love you both very much.

I love you.

And now a toast

to the one family member

who couldn't be here...

Tanner.

The best dog

anyone could ever hope for.

He was a rescue pup,

and I don't really remember

a time without him.

He crossed the Rainbow Bridge

not too long ago.

He will live in our hearts

forever though.

To Tanner!

To Tanner!

To Tanner.

Hey, um,

you waiting Ms. Gwon?

Yeah. Somebody's taking

a really long time in there.

Oh, okay.

Well, hey, I'm George,

Sadie's boyfriend.

Oh, hi, George.

Nice to meet you.

-Call me Emma.

-Nice to meet you.

Oh, everything

come out all right?

-How's it going?

-It's going.

I'm trying here, dude.

I can tell.

What do you want me to say?

I don't know.

Maybe, "I'm sorry"?

Hey, y'all mind if I...

Oh, go ahead. Sorry.

Technically,

we're both at fault.

You haven't seen Andy

in forever.

You have no right

to judge him.

Okay. Well,

I beg to differ.

You have no idea

what you're talking about.

-We're done here.

-Oh, seriously,

we're doing this again?

Come on.

I feel like there are

a ton of opportunities

in Australia, right?

We can kind of do whatever.

Is everything

okay out there?

I need a little space, okay?

I'm asking for a little space.

- Okay.

- Well, just give me--

Well, here's the space.

This is enough space.

Yo, I don't

mean to eavesdrop.

What?

Okay. This is not the time

or the place for this.

This is a party

and it's not about you.

What the hell, guys?

You're freaking people out.

Honey, is there

no more food left?

I'm starving.

Yeah, we just

ordered some pizza.

Your mother's stalling.

Stan.

She has something

to tell you.

Is this about dad?

Did you f*cking tell her?

I didn't say sh*t.

George heard you guys.

-Who's George?

-f*cking George.

- Bathroom snitch.

- Guys?

What's the deal with Dad?

He's back in town.

Okay. Um,

have you talked to him?

For starters.

Stay out of it.

What did he mean,

"for starters"?

Mom?

We've been hanging out.

The hell does that mean?

What do you think it means?

Oh, for f*ck's sake.

How many times?

How many times what?

Did you guys hang out?

Maggie, that's none of your--

once, just once.

Hmm.

Were you even gonna tell me?

Yes, but there was

never a good time.

A good time?

I leave in a week.

See?

So what?

You guys dating now?

No.

Truthfully, I don't know

what we're doing.

Well, he abandoned us, Mom.

And we moved on.

It took us years,

but we f*cking did it!

Yeah, but you would say that

you missed him sometimes.

I got over it, Mom.

We weren't enough for him.

So he's not enough for me.

Don't you have

any self-respect?

Hey, don't,

that's not fair.

She's right.

But I know he's trying.

And we both made mistakes.

Oh, goddammit, Mom.

And I know that

it would mean a lot to him

if you would see him

before you go.

Oh, my God.

Oh.

Well, um, you know what?

I think--I think

I want you to leave,

both of you.

Me? What did I do?

Maggie, calm down.

-We can just go inside.

-Just go. Now.

Oh, I didn't pee.

f*cking hell.

Stan, I'm sorry!

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I said all

those shitty things.

I'm sorry for being

such a terrible friend.

I'm just--I'm really

f*cking lost right now.

And I need your help

to get through it.

Are you going home tonight?

Uh, no.

I got a hotel room nearby.

I left my purse at Andy's

and I'm running low on gas.

See, this is what happens

when you're dickmatized.

All right, come on.

Oh, and I have to pee.

Just, um--

I'm gonna go in those bushes.

-Keep watch.

-No, stop.

Come, uh, really girl? You--

- I'm gonna burst.

- You can't hold it?

I'm gonna burst!

Oh, Jesus.

Okay.

- Make it fast.

- Don't look at me.

Look at the door.

What the f*ck?

Did she just take a piss?

Do not tell Sadie.

Why didn't you

just let her use the loo?

She didn't say.

What?

You wanna talk about it?

I heard what happened.

Not right now, babe.

Hey, and for what it's worth,

you know, my prick for a dad

left us too,

but, well, if I had a chance

to see him again,

I'd consider it.

Why?

Well, I wanna believe

people do change.

It's just like,

I wanna believe

your mom's gonna accept me.

If my dad wants to be

in my life again,

I'd like to know that.

I dropped a pin.

Tell him to be at this diner

8:00 AM sharp.

He's got until 8:05.

Not a minute more.

Sounds like

a sting operation.

Where's the diner?

Around here.

Oh, God. Why so early?

It's a trap.

She knows that

Andy won't make it

or he'll be late,

especially with the drive.

Well, you know,

if he wants to see her.

Damn it, Maggie,

girl certainly knows

how to make things difficult.

I wonder

where she got that from.

Okay. Well, I'm gonna go

get us something to eat.

Hey, she's less mad at you.

Can't you ask her to meet Andy

at a halfway point?

Hell no. I'm not

getting dragged into this.

Don't you get it?

This needs to be on her terms.

Yeah. So I just stood

out there for a while...

and then I called

my sponsor.

Emma, I'm only

telling you this

because I don't want

there to be any more lies

between us, okay?

So you didn't make it to AA?

No.

But you went to a bar.

But I didn't go in, okay?

I swear. I fought it.

I believed you

for the longest time,

but you got so good

at hiding it.

I just couldn't tell anymore.

I still can't.

When you left this morning,

were you ashamed?

Of what?

Of me.

Of what we did.

No, I wasn't ashamed.

Yeah.

Well, I felt it regardless.

Oh, so I'm responsible

for your relapse?

I didn't relapse, Jesus.

What about tomorrow?

You're positive?

She wants this?

She told you that?

It was her idea.

Look, I'll leave here early

and I'll pick you up at 6:00.

That should give us

enough time.

You don't think

I can make it on my own?

It's far, Andy. Isn't Raven's

car getting fixed?

Yes. I'll figure it out.

I'll give you a ride.

I don't mind.

Emma,

let me figure this out

myself, okay?

I won't f*ck this up.

It's not that.

I just wanna help.

You don't wanna

let her down again.

I won't let her down, okay?

Now stop treating me like

I don't have my sh*t together!

So yeah, things got out

of hand with Bob and Julio.

Bob is the one who wanted

an open relationship,

but Julio started

seeing me without Bob.

And Bob got upset.

So I had to get

the heck out of Dodge.

-Drama.

-Yeah.

On the flip side I, uh,

started seeing this Filipino.

Yes, Asian!

He's so adorable,

but he wanted

to take things slow,

which was nice for a change.

Um, and we went

out a few times.

And then he said

he wanted to go to Maggie's

with me tonight

and spend the night here.

And then he ghosted me,

so I don't know

what the f*ck happened.

No.

Yeah.

It, kind of, sucked.

I haven't posted

anything lately.

I'm just--

I'm just so sick of it.

All these guys online,

I just feel like they want

to jerk off at home, you know?

I don't love the idea

of you getting back

together with Andy...

but I'm willing to give him

another shot if you are.

Thanks.

I really thought

we could start over,

but I don't know anymore.

Do you--do you still talk

in your sleep?

I don't talk

in my sleep.

We were roommates

for years.

You talk in your sleep.

It's okay.

I have earplugs

just in case.

You have earplugs

on hand?

Craig would snore

like a Mack truck.

So I just--I got used

to sleeping with them.

Next Thursday's

my anniversary with Craig.

How many years?

What?

-Earplugs.

-Oh.

How many years

next Thursday?

Oh, 25.

We, um...

we always had

ice cream cake to celebrate.

He had such a sweet tooth,

even at the end.

I told you about

the Pop-Tarts, right?

No.

It was his last night

in the hospital

and he had a taste

for Pop-Tarts,

blueberry flavor.

And I could

only find strawberry

in the vending machine.

So, when I came back

to the room,

he had already passed.

I was only gone a few minutes.

I still have those Pop-Tarts.

I don't know

what I would've done

without you guys

when Andy left.

I was inconsolable

when Craig died.

You were there

for me too.

Oh, you know,

I think I remember it now.

Your song with Craig.

True love

will find you in the end

You'll find out

just who was your friend

Don't be sad

I know you will

Don't give up until

True love

will find you in the end

This is a promise

with a catch

Only if you're looking

can it find you

True love

is searching too

How can I recognize you

Unless you step out

into the light, the light

Don't be sad

I know you will

Don't give up until

True love will find you

in the end

sh*t.

Sit anywhere.

I'll be right with you.

Thanks.

You late m*therf*cker.

Where the f*ck is he?

Oh, I knew it.

f*cking bullshit.

You just had

to make sure I made it, huh?

Oh.

"ARE YOU CLOSE???" All caps,

three question marks.

Wow.

One would've been

sufficient, Em.

I just thought--

never mind.

Yeah.

I got here

half an hour ago, lady.

Thanks.

Charge a couple

of mimosas to your card.

Hope that's cool.

That's not funny.

Okay.

Maggie should be here soon.

And once she gets here,

I'm gonna leave.

All right.

What can I get you to drink?

Just water, please.

Thank you.

- You need a refill?

- Yes, please.

Hi, Maggie.

- Hey, Mom.

- Hi, sweetie.

We're gonna need a few minutes

before we order.

Oh, take your time.

-You need anything?

-I'm good. Thank you.

Okay. Great.

So, I'm gonna leave.

No.

You're staying.

I think that would be nice.

-What's good here--

-You look so grown up.

Oh, sorry.

Go ahead.

No, after you.

I heard both of you.

You gonna say something

or are you just gonna

ignore me like you did--

Maggie.

No. It's okay.

I'm just so happy to see you.

I thought--uh,

I thought you may never

wanna see me again,

so, thank you for doing this.

You think this is all it takes

to make up for what you did?

Maggie, it's okay.

No, Mom, it's not.

I'm doing this for you.

Not him.

I don't need the guilt

of not wanting to see him

after he

skipped out on us.

There's no guilt, really.

And you're absolutely right.

I did skip out on you...

the both of you.

And I'm sorry, Maggie.

I'm really--I'm so sorry.

So sorry.

You know what?

I'm gonna go.

Maggie, wait.

I have an idea.

Just hear me out.

I'm so sorry I wasn't

more upfront with you.

I've been such a mess

since Tanner died.

We don't have to say anything

to each other right now.

We can just sit and eat.

If you still wanna leave,

I won't stop you.

The offer still stands.

I'd love to take you

and Nate to the airport.

No, Mom, let's not.

LAX is a mess,

but we'll have dinner

before I go.

Just you and me.

Okay.

So, uh,

good luck in Melbourne.

I think

it's really exciting.

Thanks.

Good luck to you too.

Dad...

uh, I owe you an email.

You don't owe me anything.

You're right.

But I'm still gonna try

to write you back

once I'm settled.

I'd really like that.

Thank you.

I'm sorry

for not trusting you.

It's gonna take

some time, Em.

I need to work

on what it means

to be a better ex-wife.

We, kind of,

skipped that part.

Okay.

I guess it's only fair

I should work

on being

a better ex-husband too.

I meant to tell you.

The film is happening.

We start sh**ting

next month.

Whoa. Congrats.

You're gonna be

Rich White!

Yeah.

And I need to focus

on doing my work.

I don't wanna let anyone

down anymore.

You won't.

You'll be great.

Thank you, Emma.

I'll see you at Christmas.

Really?

I'll come out there.

Take care

of my baby girl.

Is this Dom?

Dom Wilcox?

Hi. How are you?

It's Emma Gwon.

Oh.

That's great to hear. Wow.

I won't bring him

back again, I promise.

Oh. Aw.

Look at his tail.

Good night, Sal.