01x05 - Annie

[bunniefuu]

People have mentioned seeing

a man in the woods
behaving strangely.

I wouldn't know anything about that.

But, actually, now I think about it,

the doctor was really funny
with me yesterday.

Something was definitely off
with him.

He collared me in the hotel bar,

and there's one thing
he said stayed with me.

There's an ordinary violence
in all of us.

Sent chills down my spine.

He's the one
you should be talking to.

FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING

Thinking deep thoughts?

The deepest.

Leave in ten?

Sure.

CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING ON RADIO

-See you later.
-Hmm. Have a good time.

- TEACHER:
- Just watch the clothes.

Capture the tension
through the line.

It's really a sense of movement.

Well done.

Becoming quite epic. Beautiful.

Oh, I keep waiting for you
to tell me what I'm doing wrong.

That's really interesting.

Oh, have I just outed myself as
someone terribly under-confident?

Your lines are actually
very confident.

-Hm.
-But do you mind?

No. Go ahead.

See here how the tilt of
the neck creates a line,

all the way across the torso...

into the hips.

CHUCKLES

Don't me tell this is your
first course.

Ah, I drew at school.

It was just a fun thing,
I never took it seriously.

Well, you should have. You're good.

I never saw it as something
I could do, I suppose.

Well, it's never too late to do
the things that you want.

Is that actually true?

Yes.

My car's just there.

Give me your phone.

Unlock it.

TAPPING

KEYS JINGLING

Hi.

Bursting for the loo.

SIGHS

How was it?

Oh, I'm not Picasso just yet.

Well, I'm sure world renown
is just round the corner.

SHE CHUCKLES AND SIGHS

TYPING

-You can do it in the car, Annie.
-But I...

For goodness' sake, come on.

Be bloody dark by
the time we get there.

PANTING

GASPS

BREATHING DEEPLY

EXHALES

WIND GUSTING

KNOCKING

CHUCKLES

No, thank you.

How did you find me?

Mum said you sleep
in a car in the car park.

Sort of narrows it down.
HE CHUCKLES

Does she know that you're here?

Probably for the best.

Are you still playing football?

Made the school team.

Have you got a position?

Wherever the coach wants me.
Apparently I'm quite versatile.

It's actually quite annoying.
But mainly on the left.

What, you're left-footed?

I can play with both, but aye.

I used to play on the left.

Couldn't kick for shite
with my right though,

so defenders always worked me out.

You can come home some time.

Have a cup of tea or,

you know, use the shower or whatever.

Mum's not usually home
till about six.

Do I smell? Be honest, not kind.

Not so you'd notice.

Yeah, the, er... burger place
got a bit funny

with me using the washroom, so...

HE LAUGHS

Does your mum talk about me?

No.

-Have you got good friends?
-Yeah.

I know this isn't the dream, this.

-I've got to go.
-Yeah.

-They give detentions if you're late, so...
-Wait. Will I, erm...

Will I see you again?

OK.

Maybe next time we can meet in
an actual cafe or something.

-I can pay.
-No. You don't have to do that.

It's OK, I... I'd like to.

CLATTERING

RUMBLING

PANTING

THUNDER RUMBLING

PANTING

What are you looking at?

Look at that.

It's like a clavicle.

I love what you do.

Very bold colours.

- LAUGHING
- OK! Thank you!

Have you got everything?

- LAUGHS
- Yeah, I have.

-OK.
-Yeah.

Have you had an affair before?

No, but, er... David and I had
a threesome once.

- LAUGHS
- Man or woman?

Woman. My idea.

I'm sure it was.

David had just had a fling,

and I thought it might recharge us
or something.

SIGHS

Oh, I was to blame too.

-For his affair?
-Yeah.

We had young kids,
and I was a stay at home mum,

which was sort of my choice,
and I resented him for that.

So you should have.

Mm. So I withdrew from him.
Emotionally, sexually.

I mean, what did I expect?

For your husband
to keep it in his pants.

Course he's to blame, of course
he didn't have to do what he did.

He's not a child. Neither am I.

I mean, it's all very well saying,
"Oh! Oh, the man, the man," but...

I'm an adult too, you know.

There's a point you have to stop
feeling sorry for yourself and say...

you know, "Do I want this
to work or not?"

And, do you?

CHUCKLES

Tell me about this threesome
of yours.

We have this holiday cabin by a loch.

There always used
to be these parties with music,

dancing, and drinking.

-Mm?
-And this woman, Celine, took a shine to us both.

Just seemed to happen.

Have you been with other
women since?

I have not been with anyone since.

Apart from David.

- DAVID:
- Annie?

-Annie? Come on.
-SHE GASPS

GASPING AND GRUNTING

SOBBING

Do you have a boyfriend?
Er, girlfriend?

No.

Do you?

-Have a girlfriend?
-Or a boyfriend?

I... don't think I'm ready
for either.

BOTH CHUCKLE

Ask it. Whatever it is.

Why'd you leave?
HE SIGHS

I was drinking too much.

I lost a couple of jobs.

I was a mess.

And Mum grew sick of it.

She said you assaulted someone.

In a town centre.

She said it was quite bad.

Yeah, it was.

Why'd you do it?

This drunk guy in a bar.

I knew him from school.

He used to bully me to shite
for being a reader.

He started saying things.
Offensive stuff.

How the people that
I was fighting deserved to die.

I told him to give it a rest,

and he turned on me.

Called me a baby k*ller.

So I snapped.

It was like I was outside
of myself.

He deserved it though.
For all the things he was saying.

They discharged me.

Dishonourably.

Happy birthday.

Oh!

I found it in a second-hand bookshop.

You chose this?

I liked the cover.
Thought you might too.

Yeah... yeah, I really do.

-See you next week?
-Aye.

HE CHUCKLES

LOW RUMBLING

PANTING

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. Sorry. Sorry.

Oh, no, no, no, no, no...

GASPING

- MAN:
- The nearest one...

ANNIE: And, er, if I wanted to
withdraw my half of the balance,

do I need my husband's permission
to access the funds?

WOMAN: - The day to
day account is in your name,

but the savings account is jointly
held and requires both signatures.

Yes, of course, yeah.

Thank you. OK.

Ahem.

SIGHS
Erm... OK.

Oh...

Oh!

- DAVID:
- Annie? You home?

What you doing in the dark?

LOW RUMBLING

Hm?

- MAN:
- And your executive function

and processing of information
will be affected.

And spatial awareness,
your ability to process names,

faces, carry out familiar tasks,

as well as coordination
and general physical capability.

Er, there are also hallucinations.

SIGHS Hallucinations?

It's very common.

Erm...

have there been any new
developments re, erm... Medication?

Well, there are new developments
all the time.

I can send you links
to the studies.

But I have to say

that the side-effects can be quite
unpleasant for most people,

and they don't stop
the symptoms long-term.

SIGHS How long will I live?

Erm, five to seven years
is most common.

It could be more. Could be less.

But the cognitive and physical
decline happens a lot earlier.

That's correct, yes.

That walk used to be easier.

Well, it's steep,
that section of path.

Never used to struggle with it.

No, but...

Quite a drop, though.

Well, it's a good job I caught you.

CHUCKLES

SIGHS

I might say something
to those, er, you know...

the Poles in the cabin making
the noise.

I just think it's not on.

-Yeah, you said.
-Well, I'm saying it again.

You get so angry with me.

I'm not angry, how is that angry?

What do you call it, then?

-Irritation.
-Well, you're irritated a lot.

SIGHS HEAVILY

I think you should go to Costa Rica.

You can't even get up a hill,
how're you gonna manage that?

I didn't mean with me.

Well, what would be
the point in that?

After I'm gone.

We always said we'd go.
I'd like you to. When I'm gone.

We're not talking about that.

-Well, I'm... I'm just saying.
-I said we're not talking about that.

Stupid conversation!

sh*t! Now I've spilt this.

DISTORTED SLOW JAZZ SONG PLAYING

MUSIC CONTINUES CLEARLY ON RADIO

I'm just popping out.

Come here.

You were always so beautiful.

You still are.

Oh!

Silly boy.

CHUCKLES

Annie?

Annie?

What?

It's me, David. Your husband.

I know exactly who you are.

DOOR SLAMS

Oh, this one's for you.

Someone's got handwriting
just like yours.

That's your signature across
the seal. What is this?

Can I have it?

Why are you writing to yourself?

I need you to listen
and not interrupt.

Will you do that?

OK. It's a letter
laying out my wishes

while I still have
the clarity to do that,

so that in the future, there's...

there's no doubt
as to my intentions.

Wha... what do you mean, intentions?

Annie.

I don't want to see things out.
I don't want the decline.

SIGHS

-I'll care for you.
-No, David.

SIGHS

Other people may want that, I don't.

Oh, no, no, it's not to open now.

No, David, please don't.

Dav...
SIGHS

Annie, this is absurd.
It's a criminal act.

No, I'm not asking you to help.

-You're fine.
-For how long, though?

-No, you're not doing this.
-Oh, David. -No!

-No! - Oh, no, no...
-We do not talk about this ever again.

-Ever again! -No...
-No!

WAILS
David! David...

Go on! Walk away.

SIGHS Like you always do.

WHIMPERS: David...

GASPS

David? David?

HIGH-PITCHED ROARING

VEHICLE APPROACHING

CAR DOOR SLAMS

WIND GUSTING

ANNIE: I've been getting confused
over simple things.

Getting lost. Small things, you know.

My balance is OK,
but I have the odd moment.

I'm fine for now,
but it... it'll get worse.

How long does it take to progress?

Er, year or two, possibly more, so...

But is there... is there
a cure that you can try?

Well, the short answer is no.

If I were to divorce David, then...

yeah, I would be
entitled to, erm...

I mean, I... I don't...
I don't know how much, but...

I know we talked
about being together.

But I won't hold you to that.

This doesn't change anything
for me.

Don't say that. Course it does.

-Not for me.
-SNIFFLES

I'm in it, with you.

All the way.

Whatever it takes.

MAN: - You tell your
girlfriend to butt out

-when things don't involve her.
-WOMAN LAUGHS

What, because men should
tell women what to do, is that it?

Oh, don't give me that shite.

CAR DOOR SLAMS

ENGINE STARTS

CAR PULLS AWAY

WIND GUSTING

DOOR OPENS

Hi.

That bloody roundabout's still
closed. It's an absolute nightmare.

Can we talk?

Yeah, just let me get
the rest of this stuff in.

-Is everything OK?
-Yeah.

PHONE BUZZES

SNIFFLES

SIGHS

-Can we sit?
-Yeah.

Let me just get this frozen stuff
in the freezer.

PHONE BUZZES

-You need to get that?
-Yeah.

Ahem.

Hello.

I've just been thinking...

-Who is it? - ..about everything, and I...
-Er, it's the, er, doctor.

-Whatever, er, we...
-Oh. Do you want me to speak to them? - I don't, no.

Hey. I need more time.

Well, I need to think this through.

I thought you already had.

I'm just saying hold off
on any big conversations.

I understand.

I'm hanging up. I'll call you.

No, that's not going to be necessary.

-Annie, I'm... I'm not saying.
-All well?

Er... yeah, yeah.

They were, erm... they were just
offering me some free counselling.

-I said no.
-Oh.

Yeah, yeah. Yeah.

Oh...

CHUCKLES

HE CHUCKLES

Oh!

Oh.

I remember that look
from our wedding day.

Hopeful and frightened
at the same time.

HE SIGHS

The promise we made
to love each other.

To be faithful.

I regret my affair
with every fibre of my being.

Do you, though?

Cos I don't regret mine.

The art class.

That guy with the facial stylings?

My teacher.

SHE SIGHS

Are you leaving me?

I would have done.

But then Deborah was not
the person I thought she was.

SIGHS

I mean, I had no idea.

I know. And I felt
quite offended by that.

You thought it was just you who
has the big, complicated feelings,

that you were the one deciding
if you were going to stay with me.

Never once occurred to you

that I have a life inside here
you don't have access to.

I don't deserve you.

I don't care.
Cos I'm what you've got.

Not your idea of me,
not what you think I want.

Just what I actually want.

What do you want?

SNIFFLES

SIGHS

Is that what I think it is?

I take full responsibility.

I want it to be here.

With memories. With you.

Is that selfish?

WIND GUSTING

- SNIFFLES
- No, I can't let you do this.

Oh, well.

Oh, if you don't,
I'll find another way.

That'll be worse. You know I will.

SIGHS

-No.
-No, wait.

-No!
-Let me. Let me, please.

David, I can't.
I don't want you to get in trouble.

Everything that I have ever done
has been about me.

I'll be fine.

SHE SNIFFLES

I'll, erm...

Er...

I'll mix it in with some, er...

- SNIFFS
- I'll mix it in with some hot tea.

SOBBING

BREATHING SHAKILY

THUNDER RUMBLING

Hi.

You OK?

What did you see in the bothy?

-Why won't you tell me?
-Nothing. I didn't see anything.

-Really?
-Well, what the f*ck are you asking questions for anyway?

Huh? What're you even doing here?

Go! Go!

-You can't be near me.
-Why?

Cos I'm dangerous.
I'm not safe to be around.

Why can't you get that
into your head?

RUMBLING

Don't come close to me.

Don't come close to me!

RUMBLING

SILENCE

Come here.

HE SIGHS

HE SIGHS

It was my daughter
I saw in the bothy.

I was afraid of
the love that she showed me,

what it might open in me.

So I left.
Just like when she was little.

Twice now. Twice I've left her.

She'd still want to see you,
if you explained.

HE SIGHS

I don't think people are as capable
of change as you think they are.

HE SIGHS

A biscuit?

HE CHUCKLES

Wouldn't wanna get them
mixed up now, eh?

HE LAUGHS

How much sugar?
HE LAUGHS

HE SIGHS SHAKILY

The things that make up a life.

HE SNIFFLES

HE SIGHS

SHE SIGHS AND SNIFFLES

SIGHS

You're a good man.

I'm so sorry.

ANNIE: One minute,
you're the centre of the universe.

And the next...

you may as well not be there.

But nothing we do is ever lost.

There are places that hold memories.

So much pain.

But also so much joy.

THUNDER RUMBLING

Summerwater is one of those places.

WIND GUSTING

CREAKING

MILLIE: - The scream that
came from that poor woman.

I think I might hear that
till I die.