What's on your mind?
This book my grandfather wrote.
My mom, her whole life,
just thought he was
this wonderful guy.
Turns out he's not.
Do you think
that you're like him?
Your grandfather betrayed
his brother.
- No! No!
- You're hurting him!
He's f*cking cursed,
we're all f*cking cursed.
Don't pamper this boy.
Is my real father alive?
I caught him breaking into
your brother's room.
I want my brother out of there
by the end of the week.
Everybody thinks it's wrong
for him to go with you.
I'm not giving up on my brother.
♪
♪
♪
Hey, you know what? We'll
come back in a couple months
and we'll go raspberry picking
over the hill there. Remember?
The raspberry leaves are poison.
They ground it up
and they put it in my tea
when I was in the hospital.
They were trying
to k*ll me there.
They're not poisonous, buddy.
Wow.
All these big old
ch*nk Oaks.
Look at 'em, Thomas.
Just the same as
when we were kids, right?
It's like they've
always been massive,
even when we were little.
You remember her?
Penny Ann Drinkwater.
Hey, did you, uh
did you see her brother a lot
when you were down there?
Down where?
In Hatch. The janitor.
Ralph Drinkwater.
Remember, you said
you saw him once?
You want to see the Falls?
A holy place.
What?
I said it's a holy place.
Do you believe in God?
I wish I did, man.
Jesus Christ is your savior,
Dominick.
He loves you, forgives you.
I know.
You know, someone told me
once that this this river is life.
And all it's doing is flowing
from the past into the future.
And just passing us as it goes.
♪
Let's walk down to the water.
No, no, it's too cold.
Come on, let's go.
I'll bring you back
when it's warm.
In June, when the laurels
are blooming.
We'll walk around.
Come on, are you hungry?
I'm hungry. Let's get some food.
Ladies and gentlemen,
rock and roll.
♪
f*ck you, Grandpa.
Okay. Great.
You ready, pal? Let's get you
put some pajamas on you, okay?
Hands up.
Okay, man. Give me a hand here.
No pun intended.
Here by my side ♪
Okay.
Thank you.
Thank you for taking care of me.
Yeah.
Thank you.
You've got the power
to make me feel good ♪
Lay down, bud.
I never would ♪
I was never satisfied ♪
Snug like a bug.
You need anything?
- Water.
- Some water?
Okay.
They never
felt this way I bet ♪
So don't underestimate
my point of view ♪
Cherish the thought ♪
Of always having you ♪
Here by my side ♪
And baby, I cherish ♪
Hey, buddy.
Buddy, I got your water.
Singing it ♪
Cherish the joy ♪
You've got the power
to make me feel good ♪
And baby, I perish
the thought ♪
I never would ♪
You ♪
Can't get away,
I won't let you ♪
Who ♪
You ♪
I could never forget to ♪
Cherish is the word
I use to remind me of ♪
Your love ♪
Givin' it,
givin' it to me, boy ♪
Thomas?
Hey, Thomas?
Hey, Thomas?
Thomas?
Thomas?
Thomas?
Thomas?
f*ck.
Thomas.
Thomas.
Thomas!
Thomas!
Thomas!
We got a call about
a missing person.
- Yeah, my brother.
- We're here to help you.
Who's this?
Is this your brother?
No, no, that's my father,
stepfather.
Where the hell is he?
Where is he?
He's missing, but we're gonna
take care of it.
We're gonna get out there
and we're gonna look for him.
- When are you gonna do this?
- We're gonna find him.
Any specific places
that he likes to hang out at?
Yeah, the Falls.
♪
Jesus. Jesus Christ!
Thomas!
Thomas!
Tommy!
Thomas!
Thomas!
Come out!
Tommy! Tommy!
Tommy!
♪
♪
In deep water,
in the plunge pool
of the waterfall,
they found him.
He'd been stuck under
the forces of the current
for hours, they said.
The rocks had banged him up
pretty bad.
There were scratches all over
his face, Ray told me.
He was the one who went down
and identified the body.
I found something!
Accidental, they ruled.
Before I start
the funeral arrangements,
I'd like to gather some
information for the death certificate.
So I have his name
as Thomas Birdsey.
Uh, his date of birth?
December 31st, 1949.
Did he ever serve
in the armed forces?
- No.
- Okay.
Highest level of education.
Uh, 12th grade.
He had a year of college.
Okay, so some college.
And his marital status?
None. Single.
Single. Never married. Okay.
Now, what did Thomas
do for an occupation?
- He didn't work.
- Well, he, he had a job.
He had a little job. But, uh,
he was he was in and out of
He was in and out
of state hospitals,
mental hospitals, but
he had a he had a little,
he had a coffee cart.
Okay, how about
I'll put down "disabled" then.
- Yeah, that's fine.
- Is it? Okay.
That's fine, and I need
the birth name of his father.
We don't know that.
- Yeah, we don't know
who his father is.
- I'll put down unknown.
- Mm-hmm.
- Okay.
You've reached Ralph Drinkwater,
tribal pipe-keeper of
the Wequonnoc nation.
Hello, Ralph, it's, uh,
Dominick Birdsey.
Uh, I'm just calling
to let you know my brother's
funeral is this week.
Uh, Thursday, 11:00 at
the Boswell Avenue Cemetery.
It's just gonna be
a 20-minute service.
It's not a big deal
if you don't make it.
Thanks, Ralph.
Hello?
Dess?
Oh, Dominick.
Oh, my God. I'm so sorry.
Are you okay?
Yeah, just wanted
to invite you to
his funeral.
I my sister told me
about it already.
I, I was gonna be there
anyway, of course.
Thanks.
- Dominick.
- Yeah?
I know
that you spent your whole life
trying to save him.
And I failed.
It wasn't your fault, Dominick.
Yeah, whose fault was it?
No one's. You couldn't save him.
No one could.
You were an
amazing brother to him.
He knows how much you love him.
Okay, thanks.
Dominick.
Please take it easy
on yourself, okay?
Okay.
I'll see you at the service.
Okay, bye.
- "The Lord is my Shepherd."
- I shall not want.
"He maketh me to lie down
in green pastures.
"He leadeth me beside
the still waters.
"He restoreth my soul.
"He leadeth me in the paths
of righteousness
"for His name's sake.
"Ye, though I walk through
the valley of the shadow of death
"I shall fear no evil,
for Thou art with me.
"Thy rod and thy staff,
they comfort me.
"Thou preparest
a table before me
"in the presence
of mine enemies.
"Thou anointeth my head
with oil, my cup runneth over.
"Surely goodness and mercy
shall follow me
all the days of my life."
Is Dessa coming?
Yeah, I talked to her.
She's just running late,
I think.
- Forever. Amen.
- Amen.
I wasn't lucky enough
to know Thomas
but many of you have shared
your memories of Thomas with me.
He touched many of the lives
of the people who are here today
in many deep ways.
From Dominick, his brother,
his twin.
Well, you and Thomas
must have known each other
just about as as well
as two people could.
I know through all his
trials and tribulations,
you were his rock.
You were his defender,
weren't you?
Unlike Cain.
He m*rder*d his brother, Abel.
You stood up for your brother.
And you will be remembered
as your brother's keeper.
Your stepfather, Ray,
first met Thomas and
his brother, Dominick,
when they were just baby boys.
And Ray looked
upon these children,
and then he looked upon
a single mom
who was raising them,
and Ray must have thought, "Good
Lord, how am I gonna handle this?"
And then God heard him,
and he answered him.
And he said, "Ray, take this
challenge and do the best you can."
And with that, Ray,
you took the responsibility
upon yourself to raise
those two baby boys,
and in a moment,
you became their father.
For 41 years, Ray
was a father to Thomas.
And let us not forget.
Thomas' mother, Concettina.
Known to her friends as Connie,
but to Thomas,
she was just called "Ma."
Come on, Thomas.
Oh, Mr. Rabbit. It's time.
- Thomas and Ma
- Hippity hop, hippity hop.
Were more than just
mother and son.
They had a very
special connection.
Come on, let's go.
Don't you touch that Jell-O,
huh? That's for after supper.
You let me know if your dad
comes home, huh?
Here we go, Mr. Rabbit.
And people said that they
were like two peas in a pod.
They really were best friends.
Weren't they? Dominick?
Ray?
I'm sure we can all
find some solace
knowing that Thomas and Ma
are reunited together now
in a very, very special place.
What are they doing now
in Heaven?
Maybe they're playing
a special game
they like to play together.
I leave you to consider
and reflect upon this
while we remember our son.
Our brother. Our friend.
Thomas.
Eternal rest grant unto him,
O Lord,
and may the perpetual light
shine upon him.
May his soul and all the souls
of the faithful departed
through the mercy of God,
rest in peace.
Amen.
It was an accident.
I'll clean it up.
- Where's your mother?
- Upstairs.
They're playing their
stupid game again.
Thank you, Mr. Rabbit!
What the f*ck
is going on in there?
What did I tell you about
having a f*ck' tea party?
- Come here, come here!
- Don't you hurt him!
Get off of me!
Stop right where you are!
Stop right where you are,
goddammit!
Come here! What are these
things in your hands, huh?
Huh? Those are
things girls wear.
What are you,
a g*dd*mn little girl?!
Give me these things.
Get 'em off your f*ck' hands.
Is that what you wanna be?
A g*dd*mn little girl?
Get in there, get in there.
And stay in there.
Let me out.
Please.
Ray!
Let me out! Please
don't! Don't touch me!
Ma?
It's okay.
Don't touch me!
It's okay, baby. I'll be okay.
- You clean up this floor.
- Clean up this whole mess.
And don't you dare let him
out of that door, understand me?
Dominick?
Let me out!
Please. Let me out.
Dominick? Please!
You can leave the door open.
Dominick?
Let me out.
Please?
- Let me out.
- Where's Dominick?
He's in the kitchen.
Hi, come on in. How you doing?
Hey, how are you?
Thank you so much
Come on, get outta there.
Um, where, where
do you want these?
Huh?
Oh, anywhere in there
is good, thanks.
Sit down, sit down.
- How you doing?
- Doing good.
- Leo.
- Here you go.
Hey, if, uh, Pops has
any booze in the house?
I bet some of these geezers
would take a drink.
Hey!
- So good to see you.
- Yeah.
Forget about it.
Come on, I'm all right,
I'm all right.
- Wayne, how are you, buddy?
- I'm all right.
- Where is she?
- I don't know.
She should have
been here by now.
You should give her a call.
Welcome. Come on in, hello.
I'm I'm Ray Birdsey.
I'm Thomas' adopted stepfather.
- Nice to meet you.
- A pleasure to meet you.
I appreciate everything
you've done for Dominick, too.
He's gonna need your help now 'cause
the guy's beating the hell out of himself.
- Just keep an eye
- Thank you both so much.
I don't know where she is, but
Angie's gonna leave her a message.
It's her life, man.
- If you're hungry
- She'll be here.
Would you like
something to drink?
She'll show up.
- Do you need any help?
- No, no, no.
I don't know,
she's not answering.
You want some scotch?
Well, we'll get you a scotch
when we get the scotch out here.
Angie.
I'm sorry.
Geez, is he okay?
He's okay.
I had to go to the ER and he's
I was gonna call. I was on my
way to the service and forgot this.
My father had a really bad fall.
I had to take him to the ER.
It was such a long wait,
and then
- I'm so sorry.
- Hey.
Come on, take it easy,
take it easy.
You're here now.
- Ray, I'm
- How's my little girl?
I'm so sorry I wasn't here.
Ray? I'm gonna miss him so much.
I know.
I'm so sorry.
It's his guilt,
that's why he's crying.
Right, Ray?
You bullied him to death.
We both did, right? You and me.
You remember, Ray?
We had to toughen him up
- so he didn't become
a p*ssy like Ma.
- What are you doing?
You were his f*ck' savior,
Ray, remember?
- What are you doing?
- Jesus. Dominick.
You know how many times
he went to visit him
when he was down there at
Hatch? Buddy, buddy, buddy.
How many times, Ray?
You wanna tell her?
How many times you went to
visit your son at the hospital.
Don't embarrass yourself.
I'm not embarrassing myself.
Or was that to toughen him up,
too, huh?
- Hey.
- I'd go down there,
I'd go through all that
maximum security bullshit
and he'd come in, Ray,
they'd escort him in
he'd sit down, he'd tell me
about everything
that happened to him that day.
What he had for lunch.
Who was trying to assassinate
him that particular afternoon.
And, oh, let's say
five minutes into the visit,
he'd go, "How's Ray?"
"Why doesn't Ray
come and see me?
Is Ray mad at me?"
I made all the excuses I could
for you, buddy.
I mean, there's only so far
one teammate can go
to fake it for another.
In seven months, Ray,
not one time?
To see your own son
that you said you loved.
Not even for f*ck'
Christmastime?
Let's go outside, man.
Hey, I'm no saint.
I, I admit it.
I, I was the same. I made
his life f*ck' miserable
anytime I could, just like
you wanted me to, Ray.
And he would take it, Ray.
He took it.
He was so sweet, just like Ma.
Everything that guys
like you and I hate.
- They were the good guys,
Ray, but we beat 'em.
- Knock it off, knock it off.
It wasn't his brain
that made him cuckoo.
It was us. We did it to 'em.
- We did it to 'em both, buddy.
- Hey.
It was us. We beat their asses.
- We're the f*ck'
champions, Ray.
- Look.
I did the best I could
for that kid.
I did the best I could for you.
And my conscience is clear,
you got that?
Really, your conscience
is clear. Yeah. Really?
Your conscience is clear.
You know what the probate
judge said to me
- the day I adopted you two?
- What? Tell me.
He said I was a good man,
that's what.
- Wow.
- He said that not one man
in a thousand would take on
what I was taking on.
- Oh, no sh*t.
- Not one, but two.
Two of you.
Now, look, I'm not sayin'
I didn't make mistakes,
that I couldn't have
done things differently.
- Wow, you're amazing.
- But you can walk on down
to that g*dd*mn courthouse
and you can read that record
if you want to, buddy.
You're a f*ck' hero,
aren't ya?
- March 19th, 1955.
- You're a real f*ck' hero.
- You deserve a medal
for that, Ray. Wow!
- Probate court of Three Rivers.
- What a guy! What a f*ck' guy's guy!
- Because Judge Harold T. Adams
He told his secretary
he wanted it
in the g*dd*mn record
that I was a good man!
Did Harold T. Adams
know you broke her arm?
Oops.
Oh, I let that slip, right?
That was supposed to stay
in the house, I forgot.
Oh, no, you know what, we're
clearing all this sh*t outta here today.
All this old sh*t is going
out of this house today.
- That was an accident.
- Right.
An accident. That's what we say.
Why don't you go to hell?
Sure, Ray. I'll meet you there.
It was an accident.
Yeah, all right.
Got that out of the way. Does
anyone want any coffee, huh?
Some dessert?
Another drink, Ang-Angie?
- How about some cold cuts?
- Calm down.
Can I make you a sandwich? Here.
Let me make you something.
You want a sandwich?
Here, here's a sandwich.
Where's everyone going?
I thought we were celebrating
the miserable life
of Thomas Birdsey.
Thanks for the casseroles.
I'll call you in a couple days.
- Wait, where you goin', Leo?
- Let's go.
Where the f*ck have you all
been the last seven months?
What do you need, doc?
Now we got something
to talk about, huh?
Thanks for coming.
Dominick.
- I'm very sorry for your loss.
- Thank you.
But you go easy on yourself,
all right?
- Hm.
- Dominick.
And others.
Okay.
Will I see you next week?
I don't know. I don't know.
Dominick. Try and come, please.
Hey, you were right.
My arrogance k*lled my brother.
- Finally, huh?
- No.
No, Dominick.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
It's not your fault.
And there you have it.
You sure know
how to clear a room.
You know what I think his
worst offense has always been?
Not being your real father.
That's not his worst offense
by a long shot, baby.
Really?
See, I think you'd forgive
him for all the other stuff
before you'd ever
forgive him for that.
I'm never gonna forgive him.
I just don't know
why you do this.
Why I do what?
I mean, push everybody away.
Why do you push people away?
Come on, look at us.
We're cursed, Dess.
Such bullshit.
My whole f*ck' family
is cursed.
Let's face it.
You know, I'll finish this.
You're gonna end up like him.
Like who?
Like who?
Like who?
Like who?
"As Concettina was growing up,"
"the highlight of my long days"
"was coming home and putting
my sweetheart to bed."
"My little rabbit was
growing like a flower,"
"and my love for her
was growing accordingly."
"But still, I had Prosperine,
that witch,"
"running my household."
"She was unworthy of living
under the roof of a foreman,"
"a position I had earned through
hard work and commitment."
"As it was at my home, the mill
still contained one rotten apple."
"And so, I was surrounded
by my enemies."
"The witch had
taught my daughter"
"her womanly responsibilities
in the home."
"And soon, my sweet Concettina
would be old enough
to take care of all my needs."
Domenico Tempesta:
- What's your name?
- Henry.
- Henry?
- Drinkwater.
Go!
Yes.
Prosperine:
Voila!
You like?
This
Hmm? Okay?
This.
Poor hare-lipped girl
that no other man wanted.
Concettina has Sicilian
blood in her veins.
She knows how
to keep her secrets.
That's it.
He, he ends right there,
that's it.
I'm not saying
it's impossible. I'm
I'm saying it's
highly improbable.
I mean, come on, doc.
He says it right there.
"She knows how to
keep her secrets."
Sicilian blood.
All that omerta mafia bullshit.
Secrets it could
mean anything.
It could mean
Prosperine has secrets,
it could mean secret recipes.
I mean, anything.
From what you told me,
yes, your grandfather,
he was a he was a terribly
unhappy, misguided man.
Cruel, self-serving,
paranoid, perhaps.
But nothing,
nothing you have told me
necessarily means that
he r*ped his daughter
and fathered you
and your brother.
Okay, so I'm right back
to where I started before I
Before I even began
reading the g*dd*mn thing.
- Yeah, and where is that?
- I'm f*cked up and fatherless.
Okay, let's just think
for a moment, okay?
Let's think of this manuscript,
not as a mystery
with some maddeningly
inconclusive ending.
Let's think of it as a parable.
Right? Parables instruct.
One reaches
the end of an allegory
and confronts
the lesson that it offers,
so I'm asking you,
what does your grandfather's
story teach you?
That we're doomed.
I mean, come on.
How many families do you know
that have so much
f*cked-up sh*t happen to them?
Seriously.
I've lost, I've lost everything.
I lost my baby.
I lost my wife. I lost my mom.
I lost my brother.
And you think your brother's
death is part of a curse.
Yeah.
Yeah. Why not?
Seems to me, Dominick, that
you tried protecting
your brother
and a terrible accident
occurred.
An accident.
Yes, Dominick, an accident.
An accident that was completely
out of your control.
It wasn't out of my control.
It was out of your control.
You weren't even there.
Why is it so hard for you
to-to-to grasp the concept of this?
The sins of the father
are visited on the son.
You believe in karma, right?
- Do you believe in karma?
- Mm-hmm.
So why is that any different
than the concept of karma?
- Because, Dominick
- I don't understand why you
- can't understand this.
- Because, because sometimes,
it's so much easier to look
outside of ourselves
to find explanations
for our own pain,
our own failures,
our own disappointments,
rather than looking inward
and taking responsibility
for our actions.
- Come on.
- I mean, it would be,
it would be so much easier,
wouldn't it,
if luck or God or genetics
or some unthinkable sin
or magical spell
just made us who we are.
It would be easier, wouldn't it?
Easier than what?
Figuring out
who we are on our own.
And that, in fact,
we can be many things.
Rageful and kind.
Strong and weak.
Terrified and sad.
Bereft but
not afraid to go forward.
Now intentionally or not,
your grandfather has given you
a very valuable gift, Dominick.
A parable of his failure,
the failure of his character.
The failure of his choices
because he had choices, Dominick.
You believe that a man
has free choice, right?
- Well, do you?
- Come on.
- Do you believe that?
- What do you think?
Then you need to take this
gift and you need to use it.
You need to learn from it.
You said earlier that you feel
f*cked up and fatherless.
Yeah, it's true.
- Is it?
- Yeah.
I beg to differ.
First off, you're certainly
not fatherless, Dominick.
Provided you're willing to
think beyond egg and sperm.
Yes, you may never,
you may never discover
the identity of your
biological father,
but if one defines one's father
as the male elder
who follows one's childhood
to adulthood,
then your father's very much
alive, isn't he?
Whatever Ray's parental
shortcomings have been,
his presence in your life
has been a constant.
Have you spoken to him
since the reception?
No.
I think you have
some work to do.
Ray?
Ray.
Hey, Ray.
Hey, Ray?
Ray?
Ray?
Who are you?
Hey, Pop, it's Dominick.
How you doin'?
Who?
It's Dominick.
Connie's boy. One of the twins.
Oh, oh.
What time is the game starting?
Which game?
Football.
Football's not on, Ray.
It's, it's May.
It's baseball season.
Basketball playoffs.
Whoa, whoa,
wait, wait, wait, wait, Pop,
Pop, you gotta lay down.
What?
- Dominick.
- Yeah, I'm here, Pop. I'm here.
You're gonna be okay, Pop.
I got this.
You're a good boy.
You're a good boy.
You're a good boy, Dom.
You're my
you're my boy.
So, your dad had
a heck of a night.
He had, he had a massive
heart attack.
All of the blood vessels
that feed his heart
were essentially blocked.
We had to bypass
five of the arteries
so that his heart muscle
could get some oxygen.
You know, it was, uh, it was
a pretty big heart attack.
Okay, I'm gonna lift your head
and we're gonna switch
pillows here.
Good job,
don't forget to breathe.
At this point, it's the only
thing left for him.
It was the only way
to really save his life
was to do this
emergency bypass surgery.
Have you called my son yet?
Once we're done with the bath,
we'll give a call to your son,
okay, Mr. Birdsey?
He's gonna need another
couple days in the ICU
maybe three, and then he's
gonna be a couple days on the ward.
And then he'll have to go
to a subacute rehab facility,
which is a nursing home.
Alright? He'll probably be there
for eight to twelve weeks.
Just move to the edge of the bed
a little bit for me, please.
He's not gonna go for that, man.
Yeah, he's-he's gonna have to.
He's gonna have to.
There's no real way for him
to get back to his old life.
You know, the way he was before.
- We're gonna stand on three.
- One, two, three.
Alright? He was lucky.
A lot of people don't make it
out of the other end
of this kind of heart attack.
- Yeah, lucky.
- Right?
He lives by himself?
Yeah. Has he got a lot
of stairs in the house?
There's stairs.
Yeah, that makes it harder.
That makes it a lot harder.
A tough road to hoe,
no doubt about it.
He's gonna have to put some
into this himself, too.
You're all right.
You know, he really needs
the support of his family
to get him through this.
Alright?
Okay.
- Hey.
- Hi.
What are you doing here?
Is someone sick?
Your ma? Gene?
No, I, I work here.
- Remember I told you
I work the children's ward.
- I'm sorry, I forgot.
What are you doing here?
So he's gonna,
he's gonna be here
about another,
another week or so
until rehab.
Geez, he's gonna love that.
- Can you imagine?
- No, I cannot imagine.
Oh, those poor people.
I know.
It's good that you're here.
I mean, that's a step.
- Yeah.
- Right?
Yeah, yeah.
I, uh
I'm really, uh
I'm sorry about, uh
the day of the wake.
You know,
I realized that I, um
never really learned
to say sorry for anything.
So, uh
I wanna apologize to you.
I, uh
I'm sorry about what happened.
With Angela.
I'm sorry that I
I wasn't there.
I just wasn't there.
And I'm sorry that I wasn't
there to grieve her with you.
I'm sorry that I stopped
our chances of
having a baby again.
I wasn't being malicious.
It was just that I didn't know
how to do it any other way.
And I'm not saying this because
I expect anything from you.
But I didn't know how to do it.
You know, I just
didn't know how to do it.
And I didn't know how to listen.
And I know I blamed you
for leaving.
But it was me.
It was all me.
And it was unfair of me
to blame you.
And make you feel bad about it.
'Cause there was nothing else
you could do, and I,
you could do, and I totally
I totally see that
and understand that.
Anyway
Hey.
Thank you.
I love you, Dess.
Ray.
You have some visitors,
Mr. Birdsey.
Ray.
I brought you some company.
- Hey, Dom.
- Hey, you remember this kid?
Mamie Van Doren?
I'm gonna let you visit
with your company.
Okay.
Hey. Who's Mamie Van Doren?
- Thank you.
- You don't remember her?
She had the most
beautiful breasts.
Oh!
Right.
Hi, sweetie. My little girl.
Shut up.
What the hell happened to you?
I don't know, I
I guess it all just
caught up with me.
I knew nothing about it,
then I ran into that guy.
- Yeah?
- Yeah.
Where'd you run into him?
- In the elevator.
- She works here.
You
- you work here?
- I just volunteer.
I'm in the children's ward.
- Well, I'll
come down and visit.
- You don't move.
- You shouldn't move.
- No, I gotta
You're not allowed
to leave this room, oh, no.
I, I have to get up and move.
He'll roll me down.
Oh, God!
When you're weary
And feeling small
When tears are in your eyes
I will dry them all
I'm on your side
Oh, when times get rough
And friends just
can't be found
Well, like a bridge over
Would you take me to my room?
I will lay me down
All right, take long steps, Ray.
If I was a horse,
they'd sh**t me.
You're doing fine.
You got this, keep going.
Your mother used to give me
the best shaves.
I never seen her do that.
What, you think you
knew everything about us?
No, I just
I just didn't know
you did that stuff together.
Well, we did lots
of stuff together
that you didn't know about.
She was a little shy, maybe.
But that didn't bother me.
She made a mistake, that's all.
Anyone can make a mistake.
What, you think I was
an angel in the Navy?
Plus, I got a kick
out of you kids.
"Double trouble."
That's what I used to call
both of you.
Did she ever
did she ever tell you, Ray
who our father was?
We never talked about
stuff like that.
It was all water
under the bridge.
We just let the past lie,
her and I.
Hm.
Yeah.
I may not live to be as long
as I would have liked to.
But a good life is more important
than just living a long time.
You're being really brave
about it, though, Wilbur.
Yeah, I am pretty brave.
But it's just one
of the many things
I've learned from being
your friend, Charlotte.
He did alright.
He did a good job.
If I were you,
I'd hold on to your day job.
- Oh, come on.
- Oh.
- He was laughing his a*s off.
- You liked it.
You didn't like it at all?
- You were good.
- Thank you.
You were good.
I bet it's gonna feel good
going home.
Right?
You can watch TV past 9:00.
No more 5:00 dinners.
You can eat whatever you want,
whenever you want.
Food's not bad.
They do a good job with it.
Reminds me of your
mother's cooking.
It's nice to have three
hot meals a day.
Beats doing dishes,
I can tell you that.
And I do not miss
those stairs either.
Yeah, I'll get you one
of those little electric chairs
that whisks you up the stairs.
No. I don't need that,
no thanks.
I don't know,
I kinda like it here.
Come on.
What, they up your meds?
You're talkin' crazy now.
You wanna take it?
Take what?
The house.
Your mom would have
wanted it that way.
Come on, Ray.
It's your house.
She'd want you to live there.
- Your grandfather probably would
have wanted you to have it too.
- I don't know, Ray.
What's there to know?
Just too many memories, Ray.
Well
I guess we could sell it then.
Yeah, I mean, sure, it'll
help out with your bills here.
No.
I'm not gonna be around
that much longer anyway.
There's something, um
I've been thinking about
that's been bothering me.
You remember a conversation
that we had
a couple weeks ago
about your father?
How I said she never
told me who he was?
She made me promise
not to say anything.
She told me a couple of months
before she passed away.
I, I didn't know
anything until then.
I was as much in the dark
as you were.
When she got sick,
I guess it weighed on her.
So she told me.
Made me promise not
to say anything.
I guess she was scared
or ashamed
Of course, nowadays,
people have babies
out of wedlock all the time,
all different colors
of the rainbow, too,
but it was different back then.
For Italians, especially.
A lot of them,
I mean, they were
prejudiced as hell when it came
to the coloreds and Mexicans.
Indians, too. Anyone
who was darker than them.
Her father, for instance
he would have m*rder*d her
if he knew.
Knew what, Ray?
She told me she was
always worried
about you two finding out.
I mean, not so much
your brother, but you.
She, she thought that you
would hate her for it,
or hate yourself.
But it's different now,
so you
Dom, you have a right to know.
His name was Henry.
He was k*lled over in Korea.
He never even knew
you two existed,
according to your mother.
She must have really loved him.
I knew it by the way
she talked about it.
Of course, the funny thing is
your grandfather knew
your father's father.
I guess they worked together
at the mill.
- Henry what?
- Hm?
What was his last name?
Drinkwater.
Hey, how you doin', Ralph?
I stopped over at Hatch to see
if I could track you down there.
They said you weren't
working anymore.
You're here.
What can I do for you?
Yeah, I found something out
this afternoon.
What's that?
Henry Drinkwater was my father.
This afternoon?
What do you mean you just
found out this afternoon?
My stepfather just told me
a couple hours ago.
Did, did you know that?
I've always known
we were cousins.
I thought you'd known
all along too.
Thought you wanted it
kept secret.
No, man, I didn't know.
I just found out.
That's funny.
Now that the casinos
have opened up,
everyone's got
the scent of money.
You wouldn't believe
how many cousins I got.
I don't give a sh*t about
your money, man.
I just want to figure out
who the f*ck I am, really.
I hated you and your brother
when the four of us
were at school.
I hated the way everyone
always lumped us together.
Two sets of twins.
One Indian.
The other one white.
And therefore, better.
When my sister died,
that day when you read
that speech about her
at the tree ceremony.
I wanted to k*ll you that day.
First time I ran across
the word "hypocrite"
I immediately thought of you.
So, why'd you help us, Ralph?
Because we're connected.
Whether I like you or not.
Thanks, Ralph.
Maybe I could stop by
and see you again sometime.
Thanks.
I'm not a smart man,
particularly.
But one day, at long last,
I stumbled from
the dark woods of my own,
and my family's,
and my country's past,
holding in my hands
these truths.
That love grows
from forgiveness.
That from destruction
comes renovation.
That the evidence of God exists
in our connections
to one another.
This much, at least,
I've figured out.
I know this much is true.
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