01x03 - Episode 3

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Previously on Secrets & Sisterhood...

I'm still going, guys.

- Nooreya can go longer
'cause she's the only one gettin' some.

- So I'm pregnant.

I am going to keep the baby.

- I'm scared for you.

- If we're back home,
this would get you stoned.

Were you thinking about saying anything?

- Hell no, girl. You crazy?

- Just because you have your boo

doesn't mean that
you can't spend time with the rest of us.



- And you never told me
that he asked you to move in.

Like, why would you hide that from me?

- They have no idea
what's going on in my relationship.

Like, no idea.

The truth is,
us moving in together is his idea.

And I think it might be the only way
to save what we have.

Explore yourself.

Find out
what kind of sexual person you are.

- Yeah.

That should be fun.
- Yeah.

- I'm actually seeing a girl, you guys.

God.

No, you're not. Shut the front door.

- No, I am.



- Whatever it is, get it outta your head.

- Look at this drawer.

For someone who's so very organized,

the spice drawer obviously
is not very organized, actually.

I happen to live
with, two other women

who are not as organized as me.
- And your little drawer looks like that.

- I have taco seasoning right here.
- I don't like doing that.

This is like the cheat way.

I know, but it'll give it more flavor.

A lot of things have been going on
the last couple weeks

with Eid and the family dinner.

So tonight, I've decided
that we're just gonna keep things chill

and have a Taco Tuesday
at the Wolf Pad.

You cheat your way
through all your cooking.

You use a crock pot.

Now you're using taco seasoning mix.

You might as well use
Hamburger Helper at this point.

- Wow. I use a fricken...
- Can you gimme some scissors?

- I need to cut this.
- I... I use a crock pot

because I actually work,
like, 12 hours a day, all right?

I need food fast that's healthy.

You know I eat food to be functional,
not for all the flavor all the time.

- What? That's disgusting!
- Yeah, I mean...

- I eat for flavor,
not because it's functional.

That's gross.

I'm floored that Jamila thinks

that she should be eating
to be functional.

I mean, we're Afghan,

everything's about food and flavor,

and not using, like, a cheat code.

You can't do that.

- Is Noor home?
- Not yet.

She should be home a little bit later.

But she knows we always do Taco Tuesday.

- Well she's been
kind of feeling in a mood

because of her birthday, so.

Well, she thinks that no one's
actually planning anything for her.

So you know what I was thinking?
I'll take control of it myself.

- You're actually gonna plan her birthday?

- I am going to plan her birthday.

Her best friend, me.

I'm so excited to plan Nooreya's birthday

because her past birthdays
have been ruined by exes.

So I'm taking initiative,

and I just wanna make it really memorable.

She was so supportive of me
when I shared my secret with the family,

and I feel like I owe her.

- Sorry I'm late.
Thank you for waiting.

Okay, so you wanna hear
something really crazy, Sid?

What?

- Hamida says
she's gonna take full control

over planning Noor's birthday.

Wow, what a lie.

Hamida never in life
has planned a birthday,

from the beginning of time.

- And that's because
she's the baby of the family.

And so, naturally,
everyone else takes responsibility,

and Hamida will show up
and have a good time.

- I'm the birthday planner here.

- Well, then, why haven't you planned it?

She's... You're really making her
feel some type of way

that, like, she feels like
no one's planning at all.

- Nooreya is a birthday-zilla.

She literally will cut our heads off
if we don't get it right.

- Sid is feeling some type of way
that Nooreya and I started getting close,

and we're not the "trifecta"
like that anymore.

- Since I've kind of left the trifecta,

she's like, "Well you, Sid,
I can do it on my own,"

and I hate that.

- Well, I ki...
I'm curious to see or hear

what you guys think
you guys want to do for her.

- I personally think that
when we all went to Members...

Remember that place
we all went to and had such a great time?

The Moroccan place?

- Yeah, the ambiance is really nice.

The vibe was really good.

I already reached out to them.

We can totally get,
like, a really nice table.

I was actually thinking
of something really different

if you wanna hear my idea.

So you know how when we were kids,

we never really got to celebrate birthdays
all crazy and big, right?

'Cause our parents couldn't afford it.

So I was thinking, for Noor,

we should totally do
a kid's theme birthday party.

I know this sounds crazy,
but I think that...

- we should, like,
hire someone to, like, paint our faces.

Really?

- It's not the vibe, Jamila.
Come on, girl.

- Like, rent a pony.

- Rent a pony?
- No.

I think she would have a lot of fun.

I'm wanting to do something
a little more youthful

because with my pregnancy a secret,

I don't want my sisters to question
why I'm not drinking.

- I have a great idea.

Let's do a nice dinner,
and let's go to an escape room.

- I mean, I guess we could do that.
- No.

- No?
- No.

- Why? It's challenging.

- Because I would know
what Nooreya wants to do, trust me.

- No, it's what you don't want.
You don't wanna have to think.

- Babe, it's not even about that.
I don't care...

- She doesn't want to use her brain cells.

- Girl, you're crazy.

First of all, she wants to get lit.

She wants to turn all the way up,

not be stuck in a room
with nine of her sisters.

That's a recipe for disaster.

- Okay, final decision.
- Okay.

We're doing Members.

Can you just roll with it?

- Okay.

- Is this gonna be
a whole family occasion?

Is everyone gonna show up?

- So it will be Muzlefa,

us sisters, Rabya.

Are we gonna have, like, Shakur come?

'Cause she's mad at everyone right now.

Yeah.

Rabya and Shakur
are in a huge fight right now.

- When is Shakur not mad?

- Rabya's moving back to LA.

There isn't enough space
for her to live with us.

So Rabya decided to move in with Shak.

And this fight over the size of a bedroom,

and that's what led to this big blowup.

- You know our rule,
no matter how mad we are at each other,

we never miss birthdays.

- We never miss holidays.
- All right.

So let's just nip that in the bud
and say everyone's invited.

- All right.

- So, um, they're having
the birthday party for Noor.

- Are they?
- Yep.

I don't know.

I don't know how I feel
about going at this moment.

Why?

- 'Cause of the whole Rabya debacle.

Rabya, acting the way she's acting,
honestly, is very surprising.

I invited Rabya
to come live with J and I.

She'd rent a room from us.

She got to choose the room she wanted.

Then she decided, ninth inning,
she didn't want that room anymore.

Guess what, Rabya? It's too late.

Things blew up.

And there's certain things
that cannot be unsaid.

This is my first time we'll be seeing her

since that whole,
you know, event transpired.

- Yeah.

- She said, very specifically,

"I want my room
to be separate from you guys.

"I don't wanna hear you guys.

I want it to be an en suite."

Yeah, they're all huge rooms.

They're all en suites!

- What is wrong with you?
- Dude, who are you telling?

All you were doing
was trying to just help her,

and do her right.
- That's it!

Most surprising part
about this whole fight

is Rabya's bringing up the whole show.

She's like, "I'm gonna go run
and tell everyone how up you are.

I'm gonna say whatever lie I need to say."

- The crazy thing is
I came up with the idea for the show

because I wanted
to highlight our culture, share our story,

and showcase
the fact that there's 10 sisters.

So it's total bullshit
she would throw this in my face

when all I wanted
was to make us even closer.

- Khadija, like, she begged me,

she begged me to come move...
To... to come do this.

And she was like,
"Babe, this is our house.

"This is our house, you know?

You pay rent. You this. You that."

I'm your older sister,
and I deserve to be respected.

When I got to the house,
it just, I... It felt small.

The bathroom felt small.
It just feels small.

Never once did she show me
the bigger room.

I looked at every...
I looked at the whole house,

and she goes,
"Babe, are you okay?"

And I said, "No, I'm not okay.
Like, I'm upset."

I'm not gonna lie, Khadija, I was hurt.
- I know.

We were arguing for a while

and then all of a sudden, she goes,
"Fine. I don't think it's gonna work out."

I'm sorry, what?

No.

She threw a big kink into my plans

because I stopped looking for places

and now, everything,
all the prices had skyrocketed.

I walked out... lost.

I'm owed an apology.

And you know what...
- Do you think you owe her one too though?

You know what? No.

She said
some really up things to me

like it was her show and that I was lucky
that I was even on it,

and how she can get me kicked off of it.

I really don't want the show to divide us.

- So what do you think about the party?

- About the par... I wanna go.
I don't wanna miss Noor's birthday.

I'm just worried about...
Is she gonna give me a dirty look?

Is she gonna, like, instigate and do this
to get me to react again?

I love my sisters, and I love Rabya.

I'm just apprehensive

because I don't want things to pop off
and go the wrong way on Noor's birthday.

At this point, I don't know
if I'm going to the party or not.

That's one for J.

- That's two for J.

We all look ridiculous.

- So when are you going to see Mom?

- I don't have a car here,
so I'm just at the mercy of everyone else.

- So Mom's gonna call me
and give me a hard time

for not driving you to her.

- Possibly.

Muzlefa is sister number six.

She lives in the UK.

She has been visiting us
for the past few weeks,

and I'm delighted that she could be here
for Noor's birthday.

She's very conservative.

She actually had an arranged marriage.

Probably met her husband three times
and got married.

She used to cover herself.

She wore just the niqab,
and the gloves, and the long socks.

And then she started wearing the hijab.

Since you've come to the United States,

you always stay with me.

It's 'cause you wanna wear all my clothes.

- Yeah.

- Okay, so you're moving in.

- I don't know. I feel like...

- I need a wing woman.

- Besides me,
you have eight other sisters

to be a...
- That's true.

But they're not as good as you.

You're like my best friend.

I love having Muzlefa in town.

We have a very close relationship.

Even things that
I wouldn't share with the wolf pack,

I share with Muzlefa.

Because I am like the lone wolf.

Sometimes I'm feeling like
I'm not connected with the other sisters,

and I like to just always be involved,

and that can be taken the wrong way.

So talking about clothes,

do you have any clothes
to wear to the birthday?

My God.

You know my entire...

- Because I know your attire,
but we're not there anymore.

I remember you couldn't show your toes.

I remember you couldn't show your wrists.

So I can lend you
some conservative... outfits.

- I don't think that exists
in your closet, you know?

No.

I'm thinking, like,
it doesn't have to be haram.

It can be a little halal, okay?

Are you able...
Are you willing to show,

you know, your calves?

Your arms?

We're in America.

- I know we're in America,

but I prefer
just to keep it covered as possible.

- Okay, can it be tight fitting?

I don't know what...

- Don't be nervous.

It'll be fun.

I really hope that
Rabya and Shakur squash their beef.

I don't want any drama
at Nooreya's birthday.

I want everyone to have a good time.

I don't want to get involved
in Shakur's and Rabya's tiff.

So I told them, "No drama,"

and I just don't wanna bring
any of that negativity into the birthday.

- Yeah.

- It'll be quite a... quite a night then.

We'll try
to ease you into it just a little bit.

- Shakur and I
were hanging out at the house

and, um, I started
having some bleeding

and, um, I started cramping.

And I knew right away
that something wasn't right.

And so, um, she took me
to the emergency room,

and... tests were done.

An ultrasound was done.

And, um,

there was no fetal heartbeat.

And, um,

I was going through... a miscarriage.

Later that day, they did a D&C

to just make sure
that there wasn't anything inside of me

that would cause an infection.

Shakur didn't even know
that I was pregnant

and, um, she found out
as I was miscarrying.

I just knew it was happening.

I knew that...

That I was losing the baby.

And I was...

It was just...
It was just so heartbreaking.

And I wanted it so bad.

- I wanted the baby so bad.

- Hi, babe.
- Hey, babe.

- What's wrong?

- I just got back
from my doctor's appointment.

- Okay.

- He said that there's gonna be
some healing time that needs to happen

before I could even
get pregnant again, you know?

He said the uterus needs
to heal at least six months.

- Yeah.

- I left the office, knowing
that everything is gonna be fine.

But I just feel like
with the loss of the baby,

I feel like it's just hitting me
differently right now.

- I mean,
you have to give yourself time.

- I just didn't think...

I don't know, like, you know,
you try to stay strong for other people

when you see them going through
these types of situations.

- I know it's sad. I know it's...

I mean, sh*t, a miscarriage is a big deal.

You know what I mean?

Unbeknownst to me,
you were even pregnant.

Like, the only reason why I found out

was because you were miscarrying
in front of me,

and I had to take you to the hospital.

I didn't know what was going on.

But I just had one concern,
make sure you're good.

All I cared about
was her health and her wellbeing.

Now I've had time
to digest everything and what's going on.

I'm gonna tell you how I feel.

I don't know why you didn't come
to any of us sooner, or at least to me.

You know what I mean?

I don't know who else knows.

I don't know who else you told...
I haven't said anything to anybody.

J doesn't even know.

I mean, don't say anything.

- Girl, I would never!

- Right now,
I'm still processing the whole situation.

- Jamila, God makes no mistakes.
It is what it is.

I know that may sound
a bit abrasive but...

you know how I feel
about children before marriage.

I mean, let it be a lesson
that it don't happen again this way.

You know, those are things
that people don't plan for, Shakur.

Yeah, I get it.

But no, you're responsible.

That was very irresponsible.

- I have to go.

- Jamila?

- I'm here crying, telling you
what happened at my appointment...

- But, Mila,
I just want this to be a reminder.

- A reminder of what?
This is not a lesson learned, Shakur.

Come on, are you serious?

Thanks for your support. Okay.

- Jamila, you've had my support.
You always have my support.

That's why I'm the first one running
when you get hospitalized.

- I'll talk to you later, okay?
I'll talk to you later.

I love you. I gotta get to work.
- Jamila, see. You're being a hypocrite.

You're being a hypocrite.

What the?

The way that Shakur reacted
was almost like she was punishing me.

I just want her support as a sister.

I can't believe that sh*t.

I need a break from her.

You're sweating b*ll*ts already, girl.

- Tell me if I have sweat drip...
Drops on my upper lip.

- You do sweat a lot on your lip.

- You.
- Okay.

Okay, guys,
we've got your waters here.

- Thank you.

We also have, um,
this really cool thing that we do here.

We put your faces on your lattes.

- Hey, I'll drink your face
and you drink my face.

- I like that idea

'cause I feel like I would feel bad
about drinking my own face

'cause it looks so nice.

- Says the girl who has her own
photo of herself blown up in her room.

- Why do I want a picture
of anyone else up in my room

if it could just be me?

- What if you wanna
hang up something inspiring?

- I inspire myself.

At the family dinner,

some of the sisters
weren't really supportive

about Hamida exploring her sexuality.

And I just feel terrible

because I've been spending
so much time with my boyfriend

that I didn't even know.

And I just need
to be here for my little sister.

She's my best friend in the whole world.

So is there anyone that you like right now
that really stands out?

Anyone in particular
that's taking up most of your time?

I don't know why I feel so weird
talking to you about this.

Well, now you have to tell me.

I get it.

So look, so, um, Amy and I
have hung out a couple of times.

- Amy.
- Whatever.

Your look...
Why're you giving me that look?

Let's go on.

- No, tell me
why you're looking at me like that.

- I wasn't looking at you in any way.
- No, it was judge-y, like...

- Girl, Sid's friend, Amy?

How did you keep this from me?

Why wouldn't you tell me about this?

I'm your best friend.

I am shocked.

I'm just kind of...

just so... so surprised
to hear any of this because I thought,

of all people, I would be the one

that you could
at least come to with that, so.

- Yeah, it's interesting
that I didn't tell you.

It's just something so new for me.

It's kind of scary to me too.

- Wait, is that why
you turned off your location?

So I saw that you had
your location services turned off.

What are you hiding?
What don't you want me to know?

- Yes, perhaps I did.

I'm not trying to hide things,

but I don't need
everyone's opinion about it.

- I get that. But I love you.

- I know. I love you too.

- No matter what.

Who you date does not matter to me.

At the end of the day,
it's nobody's damn business,

except for mine.

Duh!

- I honestly didn't share
this feeling I had with Nooreya

because it's so foreign for her.

The only people that can actually relate
is probably someone outside of the family.

And Amy's that person for me

that I can just, kinda,
like, share this with.

Girl, I don't even know what I'm doing.

I'm still doing so much other sh*t
at the same damn time.

So it's not like
I'm now committed to one thing.

I got a roster, girl.

Well, I should probably start
filling my roster too 'cause...

Right now.

I am...

single.

- You guys were literally just talking
about moving in together.

- Um...

Okay, how can I say this?

You guys were literally just talking
about moving in together.

- Um...

Okay, how can I say this?

- Are you, like, legit
or is this one of your things

where you're like,
"This is how I feel,"

and you just take a few days off

and then it's like back to him,
like, hitting you up again?

- No, I'm officially single now,
and it's for the best.

Yeah.

- Finally, the day has come!

I'm elated about her leaving this guy

because she just deserves so much better.

- There are plenty of red flags

that I chose to, like,
"I think that's like pink."

He would say things to me
like, "You're too strong.

"You're too opinionated.

"When I come home from work
at the end of the day,

"I don't wanna hear about your day,

it's just gonna stress me out."

That I should just sit there
and know my place.

- Why did you choose to hide
this huge part of your life from me?

- Because I don't wanna give...

Have you use it against me
and say I told you so.

- I don't think I've ever told you,
"I told you so." Never.

Protect yourself. Protect your heart.

- Like, I'm... I'm learning,

as I get older, I'm holding
onto things and relationships

that don't serve me.

And I'm done doing that.

I am so big on respect, honor, loyalty,

and he was turning me
into someone that I didn't wanna be,

and I needed to get out.

Now I'm just at a place
where I want to protect my energy

and do my own thing.

Work on myself. Learn about myself.

Avoid narcissists.

- It's unfortunate.
But you know what?

Now you're single. That's perfect.
- Yeah.

I'm just so happy
that there's no toxic men around

to ruin my birthday this year.

I just wanna have fun.

No drama.

- So, like, who are you expecting
to come to your birthday?

Do you have any,
like, people particularly?

- I would just like it to be sisters,
I think, family, yeah.

- We're gonna have a really good time.

- Especially 'cause I'm single now so.

Do you know where the tray is?

- The...
- I do.

- I like how you know
what's in my kitchen.

- Because I was here for so long.

Maybe this will cheer her up.
- I hope so.

- Hey.
- Hi.

Fancy to see you here.

- Hi!
- What's up?

- How are you?
- I wasn't expecting to see you.

Having a tea party without me?

You can join.

So what's going on?

Have you spoke with Jamila at all?

- I actually haven't seen her,
um, come down much.

I just figured... you know?

Yeah, at this point, I'm concerned.

I just wanna make sure
she's okay, you know?

- Y'all would do that for me.
- Well, this is sweet.

- This is like a nice gesture.
- Yeah.

We're all feeling very shocked and sad

because we just found out
about Jamila's miscarriage.

- Let's go and see how she's doing then.

- Yeah.

- Going through a miscarriage
must be devastating,

and I just wanna
make my sister feel better,

and let her know
that I'm here for her

and I support her.

- Hi, love.
- Hey.

- Hi, babe.
- Hey, babe.

- What is this?

Just to come hang out with you.

It's been a couple of days
and I haven't really seen your face,

so it's just kind of like,

what's going on, babe?

- Well, I went to go see the surgeon
for my follow-up appointment.

And we were just talking about,
you know, how the surgery went,

which, you know,
Alhamdulillah, it went well.

Thanks, babe.

But I called Shakur after my appointment

and, um, I feel like culture and religion,
you know, was a playing factor

in how she responded
to, you know, me in that moment.

And so I figured that

there was some built-up, maybe, resentment

or anger or frustration on her end.

- Shak could have done
a better job at consoling Jamila

and being there for her.

Like, be there and listen.

There's a time and a place
to hash out other things,

and that wasn't it.

- But how come
you didn't come to me or Noor?

I mean, you have
an in-home support system, sweetheart.

I mean, I really think
you should take advantage of it.

- No, I know you guys
have been there for me,

but it's just this whole...

The pregnancy, to begin with,
was not happy news to you guys.

All we can think about is
how's Mom gonna react?

How's the family gonna react?

And I mentally put myself in a space

where I was willing to risk it
just to be happy,

and just to be a mother.

And it's just, I don't know,

it just completely changed
my perspective now.

You know, I just, like I said,

I just need my sisters
to be sisters right now.

Take out religion, take out culture,

take out what other people are thinking,

just be there for me as a sister.

- That's all I'm asking.
- Okay, babe.

Seeing Jamila in pain hurts me.

And it reminds me
of how important family is,

and that I need
to bury the hatchet with Shakur.

- The fact that I have to hide this
from the rest of the family

is k*lling me.

And I'm not... I don't think I'm ready
to share it with the rest of the family.

I mean, at this point,
I mean, Shakur knows

because she was the one
that was hanging out with me

when this... whole ordeal happened.

Um, you guys know that
what happens in this house,

it should stay in this house.

This is a big deal for me.

I'm trying to get through this.
I wanna get past this.

And I just...
Please just don't say anything.

- Do you think you ever will
say something about it in the future?

- Maybe when I'm ready...
- Okay.

- if it were to come up.
I just don't wanna think about it.

- We love you.
- Love you too.

- We love you.

- Come here, big lips.
- Ooh, la-la.

- Okay.

- Shaista, aren't you gonna pour mine?

- Of c... Relax, dude.

- I thought you were gonna sit down, so...

Look at this gorgeous property.

Okie-doke.

We have three acres
with downtown city views.

Fabulous plans
for a 30,000-square-foot home.

We should just sit here
and just kind of people-watch.

Do you think this is against the law?

- Noor.
- What's up?

My God,
it smells like smoke in here.

- Um, it's sage and palo santo.

- What're you doing?

I'm just clearing
my space and my energy.

- From what?

- From old boy.

It didn't work out.

So I've decided,

officially to...

cleanse him out of my system,
my aura, my space, my energy.

I don't want any remnants or trace of him.

I just need to cleanse.

I broke up with my ex

because I just was tired
of feeling all the pressure

of trying to live up to
who he wanted me to be,

instead of him accepting me for who I am.

I'm done.

Good.

I remember talking to Sid,

and I was jokingly... half-jokingly saying
we gotta get rid of him.

- I should've ran

when we got into that fight
up in Paso Robles.

And he started a fight with me in Mexico
at my work conference

because I had
gotten a sandwich for a guy

that he... that didn't say hi to him.

Took it as, like, a personal disrespect.

- What a loser.

- Right?

- We saw how he treated you.

I mean, the way that he acted
on your birthday last year.

He got upset that your sisters
surprised you at midnight

with a cake and flowers,

and we danced at the house,

and he then blocked you.

- Because he...
- And he ruined your birthday.

- Because he wasn't the first one
to say happy birthday to me.

- I mean, I'm really glad you finally saw
what we saw from the beginning.

So was this like an accumulation
of things that happened,

or did you guys have,
like, a really big argument

where you finally walked away?

What exactly happened?

- Um, it...

- Noor, he didn't get
physical with you, right?

My ex crossed a line.

Not only did I feel emotionally abused
and verbally abused,

but I felt threatened by him.

I just didn't feel safe with him anymore.

And as a modern Muslim-American woman

who strives for independence and respect,

I would never wish this upon any woman.

- 'Cause you didn't answer my question.

- So the last time that I ever saw him,

um, we were talking,
I was standing outside of his car and...

he got so upset that he grabbed me
and pushed me to the ground.

- My God.
- Like I was nothing.

And he said, "I'm gonna hit you."

I was just so much shocked,
like, Jamila, my blood was boiling.

I couldn't believe that
this man that I shared my life with,

that I was going to give everything to,

he made me feel like I was worthless.

Seriously, he is the biggest
coward I've ever met in my life.

And this is what Mom has always told us,

"Don't pick a man because of wealth,

or because, you know, you think that
he's gonna provide you this luxury life."

She goes, "Pick a man with a good heart
that understands you, respects you,

and treats you like a queen."

- And now, my priority's me.

And it's gonna be just healing
and learning to love myself

and to break the patterns

that keep leading me to a narcissist.

'Cause he's not my first one,

but I sure can tell you
he will be my last.

- We just have to be better
at choosing men.

- You know what?
- I'm choosing myself. that.

- I'm seriously proud of you.

Seriously, Noor, I mean that
from the bottom of my heart.

- These are the last traces
that I have of him in my life.

Go ahead, rip 'em, girl. Rip 'em up.

I'm just grateful

that I was able
to turn the situation around

where I became the victor
and not the victim.

And I feel so light and free
going into this birthday

because I've left so much negativity
and toxicity behind me,

and I'm not looking back.

- Well, gimme a hug.

I love you.
- All right, boo. I love you too.

Me too, girl.

Guys, you guys literally leave a mess.

There's hair everywhere and I...

Can you vacuum my room too, please?

No.

That's cute.

Well, then, let's give them the cake.

- Let's put the cake away,
so it stays cold.

- So excited. I'm gonna hurl.

- You can have virgin drinks.

I slayed Muzlefa's look
for tonight's party.

And now I wanna have a good time.

So everyone needs
to get past this bullshit drama.

Hamida hates wearing makeup.

She literally does not give a.

- I don't.
- Yeah, 'cause she has me.

I wonder what that would feel like
to have a sister,

you can go to the room
and be like, "Hey..."

- You won't even
let me leave the house.

"Hamida, I need to touch up your face."

I'm like, "Let me just live..."
- I wish somebody would do that for me,

be like, "Hey, Noor."
- I do, I appreciate you.

- "Let me do your makeup."

- I appreciate you.
Thank you for doing my makeup.

I love you for that.
- I love you too.

I'm really excited for my birthday.

I have no insecure man dragging me down
to make me feel bad about it,

and make it about themselves.

And I'm just really grateful
just to be here

and just celebrate a new year.

- You look good.
- Ooh.

- Okay, but, like, turn this way and do it

just in case
it does pop against and ricochet.

You know, don't actually pop, just...

You're scaring me.

Why is it so hard?

My God.

- I'm really pissed at Shakur right now
because I'm hurting.

But I'm not gonna let this get in the way
of Noor's birthday.

- Cheers.
- Cheers..

- Plus, Shakur's beefing with Rabya, Josh.

She's got a lot on her plate.

- We are ready to party, girl! Yeah!

- Hi.
- Hi.

- I'm looking forward
to celebrating the night with Noor.

But my sisters do like
to have their drinks.

They like to socialize.

For Josh,
drinking is not gonna be a frequent thing.

Once in a while,
you gotta a two-limit max.

But... I get to decide that.

- How are you, brother?
- I'm amazing. How are you?

- You look good.
- Thank you, you look beautiful.

Getting swole.

- So swole.
- Thank you. You look good.

- He's my little Viking. Yeah!

- I like it.

- I'm happy that Shakur and Josh
are working on their marriage.

They have a lot of things to work on,

so I am a little worried
for him to come out with us tonight.

Josh is struggling with his addiction,

but it's also a test for him

to see if he can
really control these urges

and just be okay with being out with us.

- Muzzie, I can't believe
you're back on this side of town.

- Do you like what she's wearing?
- Duh!

- She got it from Siddiqa's boutique.

She's showing leg!
- I know, I can't believe...

- The buttons actually go up to here.
- I see calf!

- And I tried to pop each button,
but to the thigh,

but she wouldn't let me.

- That'll be the day if I see that!

Muzlefa wearing something
with a slit to her hip.

- Yeah, that would be the day.
- I'm dead!

- I'd be dead too!

- Hi, everyone.
- Hey.

- Hi.
- Hi.

- Welcome!

- I hear that real condescending,
very, like, flagrant voice.

- I missed you so much.
- I missed you too.

It drudges up all the... the feelings.

I'm like, yeah,
I remember why I was so upset,

and why I said what I said,

and why I came after you
the way I came after you.

So sit over there.
I don't want the negative vibes.

Thanks.

- Saying salaam in our family
and in our culture is very important,

and it's sort of
like a rule we don't break.

So it's uncomfortable for me to see
Rabya and Shakur not greet one another.

And they're not even
looking at each other.

Surprise!

- The party's here!

Whoa! I'm the party!

- Happy birthday, Nooreya.
- Thank you.

- Wow, I'm so happy!

- Yes, I planned this just for you.

- The fact that
Hamida put this together for me,

that means, I know she loves me,

because Hamida does not put
anything together for anybody.

- Do you want a drink?
- Yes, please.

- Hi.

- Sumey! Hi!

- How are you?

How are you? Good to see you.

- Hi, good to see you.
- Hi. Sumey. Pleasure. How you doing?

Sumey's a friend of mine.

We do share the same beliefs.
We have the same values.

Sumey is the type of guy

that my mom and sisters
will want me to be with and date.

He checks all the boxes,

but I can't force it.

- Yeah, no.

It's all the sisters.

- The other day,
Hamida just told us she was curious,

and she wanted to venture outside of men.

And then, now, I see this really nice guy,

and I'm like,
"Well, this is just typical Hamida."

She doesn't know what she wants.

She just... She's a free spirit.

So no, this is very typical of Hamida.

I know it's just a phase.

- What's your name again, my friend?

- Sumey.

- Sumey.
- Yes.

- Like, "Hey, you saw me outside."

- Yes. It's a beautiful line!

- Sometimes,
the pressure is there from the sisters,

because they're like in my ears, saying,
"Hamida, what's wrong with the guy?"

So, like, it diverts their attention
from everything else that I said to them.

- It doesn't matter what my heart wants!

- Here's some shots.
- Ooh, thank you.

Of course.

It ain't happening.

- I said no. You're not drinking.

- Babe, it's her birthday.
- I said no.

Nah. We're not doing that.

And that's where the trust gets messed up.

Because it's like, "I'm trusting you
enough to have a good time,"

but there should be restrictions,
you know what I mean?

Especially coming from his past.

- Do you wanna do a toast for Nooreya?

- Hear ye! Hear ye!

- Hear, hear, hear! Hear, hear!
- Okay.

Yes! Cheers!

- Today, is the youngest we will ever be

and the oldest we have ever been.

And I wouldn't wanna get older
with anyone but my sisters,

and you, Nooreya.

So cheers to you, babe.

- Cheers! Hear! Hear! Yoo-hoo!

To you, Noor.

- Happy birthday, Nooreya!

Nooreya, my baby.

- To me! Wooo!

- Can't do sh*t with these gloves, girl.
I can't do nothing.

- That looks good. That looks good.

My God,
yesterday we were skinny dipping,

and the neighbors...
- Who did?

- Him and I, we go skinny dipping, right?
- Wow.

- So...
- In the same pool that we swim in?

- Duh!

- She's like, "We're having dinner."

And now,
all we're talking about is his stuff.

I cannot believe I was about
to subject myself to that, 24/7.

Thank you, God, that I dodged a b*llet.

- It has a filtration system.

This has gone on long enough.

I didn't want there to be any drama
at Nooreya's birthday,

but these two have been bickering
for weeks on end.

It's time they get over it.

- To hell, if I don't pray.

- Rab.

- Where'd you get this dress from?
- Ordered it online from a boutique.

Do you know what? I'm over this.

Like, I'm gonna play nice.

I'm gonna play in the sandbox, you know?

It's like me drinking poison,
hoping it kills you.

And I don't wanna carry
that unnecessary weight.

So Rab, um, it's obviously been,

quite the conflict between us.

How things transpired, it would...
To another level, it didn't need to

because you just kept...

You know what I'm saying?
Going for my jugular.

And in that moment,
I said a lot of up sh*t.

So I apologize
for reacting bad to your behavior.

- You're apologizing for your behavior.

You're not apologizing to me.

You're apologizing to yourself.

That's not a damn apology.

You're discrediting
everything that went down.

Leaving me stranded and nowhere to go,

and then have the audacity
to throw the show in my face,

and that she could
get me kicked off of it.

I need an apology for everything.

Shakur, what you did was wrong.

100% wrong.

No, no.
And I'm talking about the big picture.

I'm not talking about, like,
the words that were exchanged.

No, no, no.
- You have no wrongdoing?

- No, no, no. But right now...
- You've no wrongdoing?

- Ri... Right now,
you feel like that's an apology?

- You notice, in this conversation though,

you still haven't been like,
"You know what, Shak,

"you're right, I... I up too.

I acted badly too."

You're not gonna take accountability
for what you did?

Rabya wanted to take her moment
to give a false narrative on me.

So don't be mad that my truth
lands harder than your lies.

- You know what? I'm your older sister.
Don't ever come at me.

- But why did you come at me like that?
- I didn't come at you!

- Am I supposed to be like,

- "Okay, Rabya, berate me."
- You didn't even have to get loud!

I'm sorry for, you know what,

allowing your classless behavior
to make me go out of pocket.

- Who started it? You started it,
and I finished it like I usually do.

- So you were classless, and low class,
and I fell into it, and I shouldn't have.

I should've been a bigger person.

- You started it, Rab!
- I should've been bigger person.

That's what I should've done.

- Rabya, you are... you are some
piece of work, girl, you know that?

- You know what's crazy?
It's 'cause we're cut from the same cloth.

So whatever I am, you are too, boo-boo.

- Look, girl, God revealed that
we do not belong under one roof together.

- We had a deal, Shakur.

- That don't matter, Rabya!
- Doesn't matter? It does matter!

- You gonna be living
at mine and his house!

- It's not... It's our house!

- Should somebody...
Should somebody go outside?

Holy,
this is gonna ruin Noor's birthday.

You got that house because of me!

Rab, you were at my house, my husband...

- You can kiss my a*s!
I'm done with you.

- My husband paid for the house!
How is it your house?

Next time on
Secrets & Sisterhood...

- What did you say to my sister?

Everyone, take off their mics.

- How is this happening
and taking over my birthday?

We're sisters.

Our mother raised us better than this.

- Mom, how was your trip to Pakistan?
- It was good.

- Obviously, it was good
if she wants to go back.

Are you all seriously okay
with her going to Pakistan?

Like, it's not worth the risk.

- What makes me think I can
tell my grown mother what to do?

- You sound so ignorant right now.

- You're ignorant.

- You mentioned
that you were dating girl.

I was shocked when you said it.

I was like, "Hamida's a man-eater.
There's no way that she would."

- So I'm just wondering why you thought

my birthday was a good occasion
to hash all that out.

Sid. Stop walking, Siddiqa!

I just wanna talk to you!

That's it. I'm done. I said my piece.