01x03 - Someone Else's Life

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Sometimes, late at night,
visited by dread and shame...

I lie in bed and think
of somebody else's life.

I imagine the love
that they're getting...

And the relief that comes
from being really known.

The private
pleasures they share.

The friends they have,
and the pressures they don't.

Their sense of importance...

The satisfactions of their work.

I imagine how
fulfilled they are...

How rich their life is.

And in these moments,

I feel empty and wanting.

f*ck.

Isn't it weird you always
wake up as yourself?

Amy.

Never even one day
as somebody else...

Here, this came for you.

Don't you have to
be at work soon?

Aw, suck a sick d*ck! sh*t! Amy!

Oh, sh*t, I'm late.

Hey! Hey!

Oh, my gosh. I spilled
coffee all over myself,

and I've been, like, trying to get it
out, and I'm making it worse. Whatever!

So, um, I just wanted
to come by and tell you

that I was... Thinking
about you last night.

I was thinking about you and
the baby, and just how cool this is.

You know, Krista, I'm just
so happy for you, really.

And that's it. That's
all I wanted to say.

Thanks, Amy. You know that we said we were
gonna try to get together for lunch later,

but we're gonna
need to put a pin in it.

Put a pin in it?

Ugh, I know, I know. I
know I sound like that.

Uh, but, Damon, he scheduled a
department meeting, and... Yeah.

We gotta go over our
contracts with our vendors.

It's just lunches are
really hard right now. Okay.

Uh, I just, uh, sent
you an e-mail. Oh, hey.

Oh, hey, Amy. Good
to see you. Hey.

Uh, with the bids from
Clarviva but ignore it,

'cause there's a new set
coming in, so, I'll let you know.

Thanks, Harris. Bye.

We're going into
business with Clarviva?

I really actually can't
get into it. It's a little...

You know, they're the ones responsible
for that methyl gas leak in Bangladesh...

Oh, it's so preliminary...

I'm gonna send you a link.

I gotta roll some calls.

Okay. Wow.

Busy, busy, Krista.
Look at you...

I mean, I remember when you were
down in the pit making calls, so miserable.

You know... Oh, God, yeah...

And I said to Jeff, "There is
an amazing girl down there,

"And she is dying to get into H
and B." And now, here you are. It's...

And you taught me
everything I know.

I know.

All right, I'm gonna
send you that link.

Okay. 'Kay...

That's stupid, okay? CONNIE:
It's the appropriate thing to do.

I don't need to
hear this stupid stuff

from you... CONNIE:
This is... just bunk!

I don't appreciate being sneezed
on! Lady, okay! I don't like this.

Okay, lady? I don't need
this! Hey, hey, hey, hey!

What's going on? If you're sick,
you should not be here, okay?

And he should wash his hands. And not
blow snot all over other people's faces.

I can't afford not to work.
Well, I can't afford to get sick!

I have two kids. I have
three kids. I have three kids!

My doctor, he says
I'm not even contagious.

Oh, well, tell that to him.

He is about to drop dead
over there in about a minute,

'cause you blew your
infection into his face.

- Wait, wait, wait!

I've got Oscillococcinum
in my desk.

Shut the sh*t up! Shut up!

It's just a flu
remedy, it's, like...

I said, shut it! It's
a homeopathic...

I don't give a f*ck!

All right, look!
Excuse my cuss...

All right, but I'm in
charge of this department...

And I'm not interested in it becoming
the "United Nations of Bitching."

Okay? Let's act
professional, aite?

You ain't sick.

If you're gonna worry about
a problem you don't got yet...

How you gonna get
anything done in life?

You ain't sick. He was sick.

Now he's sick.

He's not sick no more.
He's still sick. He goes home.

He stays. Final answer.

I was just trying
to be helpful, and...

Why you so wet and dirty?

I spilled coffee on myself.

Well, you might wanna put on a
sweater. People can see your nips.

Is it so hard for you to maybe
sneeze into a napkin or something?

You had enough? You
got someone sent home?

b*tch.

That guy Dougie is a real rager.

I mean, he shouldn't
be the head of anything.

What the hell am I
doing here? Not much.

Why did they put me
here? To break me.

'Cause I'm mentally ill?

I wasn't mentally ill, okay? I mean,
I was just f*cking stressed out.

So, I go away and deal with it.

And it's like, they're trying to
stress me out all over again.

So what? So that I come back,
and flip out, and get fired or quit?

No, uh-uh. I was good,
I was a good buyer.

Forget Krista, who's in my office,
who was my assistant, who I trained.

And I was here before Damon.

I was here before him, and he's running
the department? Are you kidding me?

Into the ground, and
they put me in the ditch.

Okay...

I'm not gonna
get angry, I'm not.

I'm gonna get another job.

That's what I'm gonna do.

One that can have an impact.
One that can mean something.

Not this sh*t job that
sucks your f*cking soul,

you'd have to be
lobotomized to sit down here.

I mean, look at you...
I mean, you know

what I'm saying, I'm
just, like... whatever.

Thanks for talking.
You're sweet.

Let's do this.

Hi, I was calling about
the administrative job.

Oh. Oh, it's been
filled. Too bad.

Well, actually, I've been
placed in this special department,

here at Abaddonn, for people
who are really computer savvy. So...

No, but I know Microsoft
Word and Excel.

Oh, woah, woah, woah...

AMY: What is it?

Do, do any of you guys know
how to work this, 'cause it's...

It's a fax machine.
I know, but it's not...

Does anybody know... Have
you tried opening and closing?

Hola. Me llamo se Amy.

Si. Um, Yo busco una job?

Oh, my God, m*therf*cker!

Great. Yeah, I
just e-mailed you.

Okay, well, take a look and, um, give
me a call if you have any questions.

Thank you so much. Okay, bye.

I think they were interested.

So, do you wanna go to lunch?

Um... no, uh...

I think I'm just gonna grab something
quick... with all this stuff going on...

Well, I could pick up something and I
could bring it back here, we could eat...

Together... No, no, it's
okay, I'll do it. Thanks, though.

Thank you so much.

Hey, guys! Hey,
Harris. Hey, Janis.

Damon. Hi, Krista. You
guys having a working lunch?

Me too, just busy, busy.

So, uh, Amy, what
department are you in now?

Oh, it's a new program
they put together.

It's pretty interesting.
Cogentiva?

I've never heard of it.

What is that?

It's, um, really cutting edge,
kinda hard to explain, but...

I'm not actually supposed to be talking
about it. Um, you know how that is.

So, all right, well,
Krista, I'll talk to you later.

Okay, well, have a good lunch.

You know, you guys? I know
this is none of my business, but...

Clarviva? You guys should think twice
before you get into business with them.

Okay, Clarviva?
K*llers. Really. Google it.

Oh, sh*t...

I told Krista about it earlier.

They're really, like, anti-
environment and big dumpers.

She probably... Maybe you
forgot to tell them. Whatever.

Hey. Why's some dude from
a homeless shelter calling you?

What?

Your phone kept
ringing so I answered it.

Oh. That's a homeless
shelter I'm affiliated with.

You're affiliated with
a homeless shelter?

Well, I mean, just like, you know, getting
involved in the community and whatnot.

With the poverty and stuff.

Okay. Kinda
random, but whatever.

Oh, that would be awesome. Well,
as soon as possible, 10:00 a.m.?

Um... Okay, well,
yeah, I'll make it work.

And I look forward to
meeting you and seeing your...

Facility or
whatever you call it.

Okay, all right. Awesome.
Thank you so much. Thank you.

But, Amy, it's $24,000?

I already paid off half of it.

$48,000!

Mom, you shouldn't be
looking through my mail.

Well, I... you could hardly say I was
snooping. You left it out on the table.

Shut up, Ginger!

Don't talk to her
like that. Mom!

They gave me my
life back, all right?

My health, my hope. You can't
put a price on that kind of thing.

Well, apparently you can. I mean, how are
you gonna get your feet back on the ground,

and get yourself a place again, when
you've got that anchor around your neck?

I've got a lot of ideas, okay?

Yeah, I've got, you know, some
cool new opportunities coming in.

I've actually got a job
interview tomorrow morning.

Really? AMY: Yeah,
for an administrative job.

It's pretty exciting.
Well, where is it?

It's a homeless
shelter in Fontana.

Oh, my God. Are you
pulling my leg, Amy?

Mom, no. It's a real job.
It pays. Just... How much?

I don't know, Mom.

Well, it sounds
dangerous. And dirty.

And you know what? You are not
going to meet any suitable people there.

Why do you say that?

Because they're all poor.

They're probably
pitifully sick. Ugh.

Abaddonn is sick. Oh, my
God, that whole place is sick!

They're a really bad
company, Mom. I'm serious.

They're corporate
and humiliating.

And they put me in the basement,
okay? After, like, 15 years!

Amy, beggars cannot be choosers.

What's that supposed to mean?

It means that you
are $24,000 in debt.

And this is not the time
to help the homeless.

Help yourself.

Everything is gonna be
okay. You need to not worry.

'Cause I am not worried.

Please don't do this.
You already have a job.

I wanna do something meaningful,
okay? I want to give back.

You want to give back? AMY: Yes.

Volunteer on Thanksgiving.
That is how most people give back.

Mom, I'm going,
okay? Relax, it's okay.

This might be just what I need.

Amy! I don't know about this.

Okay, so I need an excuse to get out
of here for a few hours. What do I say?

Tell him that your cat's been having
seizures, you gotta go put it down.

Tell him that your old babysitter
died and you gotta go to the funeral.

I don't... yeah...

Tell him you have cramps and you
gotta go home and deal with your cramps.

Dougie! You have to go home. Look
at you, all of your face holes are leaking.

No, I'm not sick. Yes, it's
time for you to go home.

Omar... Get your
stuff, this is your rule.

Omar, it's not your
concern. Dougie, come here!

It's disgusting. Everything
on your face is gross.

She is sick. Look, she
is sick! Leave me alone.

She has a fever. Put a
thermometer inside her.

Uh, excuse me?
What? You're sick.

Yeah! Because of you!

- Connie, come on.
- You are the one...

Who made the rule, if someone
is sick, they have to go home.

Now, I'm sorry,
but you are sick.

All right. I'm sorry, Connie, but
he's right. Those are the rules.

You're sick. You gotta go.

Really? DOUGIE: Yeah.

I need to work. Oh,
feel better, Connie.

Ahhh! DOUGIE: No!

Connie, come on!

I hope she doesn't get too sick.

That flu's a real b*tch.

Hey, um, Dougie?

I've gotta leave
for a few hours,

I'm going to a doctor's appointment
and I'll be back, like, right after lunch.

What kind of doctor?

A lady doctor.

'Kay, it's a lady,
but what's it for?

Uh, well, no, she's not a
lady. She's a man, and...

She's a man?

It's a man who's a lady doctor.

I don't...

Dougie, a gynecologist?

Oh, uh... is it serious?

It's a check-up. Then, no.

What? Look, Louis is home sick.

Now Connie's home sick, I
need all my people here, now.

Dougie...

This is important sh*t we're doing
here. Okay? We can't all just phone it in.

Going anyway. f*ck it.

No, I'm not gonna miss
out on this opportunity.

Oh, my God, it's in 20 minutes.

I can't deal with this.

You know what, if he asks, just tell
him I had to get something out of my car.

We provide mental and
medical health services.

We provide assistance
in job search.

We also have classes on money management,
self-esteem issues, and life skills.

Self-esteem is really a huge issue.
- Marv!

You know, there's an incredible
amount of intelligence here,

it's just a question of...
Mister Marv, thank you, baby.

I love you, Marv. Give me a hug.

I love you, too, Shari.
Shari, this is Amy.

It looks as though she may
be working with us. Maybe. Oh.

Hello, baby girl. Hi.

Give Shari a hug. Okay.

I got something
on you. I'm sorry.

Oh, don't worry about it.
It's fine. I didn't mean to.

I'm sorry. Bye!

Bye!

Shari is schizophrenic. But we've
gotten her on medication and...

And she's doing
somewhat better now.

So, how long have
you been working here?

Twenty-eight years. I was in
finance, working downtown.

And doing well... but
I just wasn't happy.

I felt compelled, you
know, to be of service.

That's me. I mean, I
want to be of service.

You know, you seem
like a great match for us.

I do?

May I ask, then...
What is the salary?

The starting salary
is $500 a week now.

Oh.

Well, that's $26,000 a year.

We serve 150,000 meals a year.

We have another dining
room at our family unit.

We have a lot of homeless
families and children...

Oh. Listen, um, I can't.

I can't. I'm sorry, I
can't, I can't take this job.

I can't live on $25,000.

I wish I could be here and
do this with you, and I can't.

I'm in debt, I'm living with my mother, I
don't know how much longer I can take that.

It's so beautiful what
you're doing here, and...

I'm sorry I wasted your time.

It's okay. I understand. I
wish I could offer you more.

I'm sorry.

I'm trying to stay positive,
you know. There's all this...

Good that I wanna do and
all these things I want to do.

And then I just can't, you know.
This is getting so frustrating.

You do what you can,
Amy. That's all you can do.

I'm trapped.

I feel like I don't
have anything.

You have a lot.

Thank you.

I'm so embarrassed. Don't be.

It was nice meeting you.

Thank you for your time and,
you know, all this stuff you do.

Oh, hold it!

Just getting something
out of your car?

Yeah. Yeah?

For the past two hours?

Yes.

You just... you just took a
nap in your car, didn't you?

What?

Are you living out of
your car or some sh*t?

What?

Look, you come in here, you
look strung-out and tired, and

you got stains on you, and...

Dirty blouses. You got some
f*cking homeless shelter calling you.

Are you homeless?

What if I were?

Uh... Well that...

That'd be sad.

Yeah. It would.

Thanks for covering for me.

Sure. I don't think
he bought it, but...

Sometimes I think
about someone else's life.

I imagine all the
love they do not have.

I see the passion
that is missing.

The friends they don't know.

And the awful pressures
that crush them.

In those moments I
realize how much I have.

And how much I have to give.

Hey, Tyler?

Wanna have lunch today? On me?

Sure. Cool.

So, um, what do you like to eat?

Oh, I don't care.

We can just go to the
sandwich shop, or...

Hey, Amy, hi. AMY: Hey.

Hey, I'm sorry if I
was weird yesterday.

It's just so awkward with all those
people, and the whole thing, and...

Anyway, um, my lunch canceled
and I'm free, if you want to go now...

Oh, well, actually I have
plans with my friend Tyler.

Well, it's okay. We could
go another time, or...

No, I invited you. And
we're going to lunch.

Sorry. Guess we'll
have to put a pin in it.

Okay. Well, have fun.

Thanks, you too.

Tyler, have you always
lived in Riverside?

No. Actually, I don't live in
Riverside, I live in Yucaipa.

Yucaipa? Where's that?

Yucaipa? You take
the 215 east to the 10...