01x51 - Episode 51

[bunniefuu]

You're being weird right now.

You're so not being yourself.

I know. I know.

What's wrong?

It's just--

Something happened to you in that bedroom,

because you're not being you at all.

No. I know, I know.

[theme music]

The whole thing is just so bizarre.

I keep feeling like we're--

you know when astronauts get ready to go on a mission?

They live in a controlled environment before they go,

and they come back, and they have

to go back into a controlled--

Decompress.

--environment and decompress and all that.

That's kind of how--

how it's--

How it's gonna-- yeah.

The problem is, is once you manage to, you know,

even if you make it to the days and you're out,

you're just cast out immediately.

It's just got to be overwhelming.

Being cast out there, I'm just going

to have to dig really deep and find whatever reserves

I have to cope with whatever.

You know, if people hate me or if they love me too much,

you know?

If there's just too much, which I guess is a better scenario,

or you know, if, like, nobody cares.

Also that could be a whole other thing to deal with,

you know what I mean?

You just spent three months of your life

in this place and nobody cares.

I can be cool with the nobody cares thing, because, you know,

I was satisfied with what was on--

what I had before.

So no change other than I had a break.

Sure.

And also, even though, obviously, this

isn't on any of our minds that we're on television,

that we're being watched--

this is probably kind of now big, who knows?

We don't get the direct impact of any of that

or even the feel of it.

We're only speculating, minor confirmation.

So I don't feel like anything's happened to me,

and so if I walk out there and indeed nothing has,

then I'm, like-- it's not a change.

You're fine, yeah.

That's, I think, the adjustment to either fame

or great liking or dislike will be the hardest,

because you will have had no ramp.

- No, you're right. - Nothing.

You're out there and it immediately happens to you.

You're right.

I think, to me, OK, like, walking out the door,

you get out there and there's people.

And you have to go to the studio,

and you're immediately on display.

I know we're on display hours a day here, but it's different.

But not in the same way.

I think that's the scariest moment, you know?

[music playing]

Oh, what do I hear?

Sounds like a plane.

No aerial as*ault yet.

Nope.

Nothing.

Nice.

You going shirtless?

[muted] you.

[laughter]

I'm tired, man.

I'm sick of getting dressed up for these shows.

Maybe you should put the bow tie on.

[laughter] - Yeah.

Sweet.

I'm a--

Oh, it's right there.

Oh, not me again.

What's it say?

George--

Back--

Backstabbing--

You--

You--

RR.

Banishment.com.

I don't have a computer.

[laughter]

Tell him your modem's down, bro.

George backstabbing you and--

I haven't done anything.

Tell him your AOL got taken away.

Oh, my god.

George built a computer with the cans,

and he's been backstabbing us online.

[laughter]

That's got to be a website.

Oh, yeah, definitely.

Oh, for sure, it's a website, banishgeorge.com.

Oh, no.

FU.

[laughter]

Use camouflage, bro.

What does it say, George?

Ha ha.

That's what I'm going to put.

Ha ha.

Oh!

Chiquita ruined the message.

It says tufu.

It says tufu now.

[laughter]

Tufu.

Tufu, tufu.

You know, I usually don't get pissed off,

but that kind of yanks my crank.

George, you got a website, bro.

Oh, yeah.

Boy, just what I want.

[laughter]

Like I say, I have everything happen to me

but that's my life.

That's my life.

[laughter]

That sucks.

See?

FU would have been so much easier, bro.

I think it would have been a little bit more deliberate.

Oh, w*r is tiring, even just to watch.

[laughter]

Does this mean w*r, George?

Come here!

[laughter]

That's funny.

Come here!

Oh, man.

What did I get involved in here?

Magwi.

[sighs]

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ANNOUNCER: The dog agility week-long challenge

is entering the homestretch.

Woof!

[barking]

[music playing]

I will not let you fail, Paquita.

She wants to go to sleep.

She's got potential.

Paquita, sit.

Good girl.

Up.

There you go. Up.

Come on. Climb it.

Come on.

Up.

There you go.

Chiquita, here.

Go through.

Come on.

Chiquita, here.

The dog is not a morning dog.

Here.

Here.

But I'm not going to give up with her.

Let's go.

Tap.

Tap.

Tap.

Tap.

Come on, tap.

Tap, Chiquita, tap.

sh**t.

Oh, man.

That dog is stupid.

Over the bar.

[laughter]

This is the way out, Paquita.

Come to me.

Over the PVC.

[laughter]

Over!

Hey, I'm talking to you.

That dog is stupid.

Food!

She hates that food.

I think the true test is not the patience of the dog,

it's the patience with us.

Now, make it over.

You've got it.

Keep trying.

She's a little-- she's closer.

Come on, girl.

I would-- what if you back up and--

Stand further back.

Come on, girl.

She's definitely not as intelligent

as some other species of dogs.

Go through. Go through.

Go through.

Go through.

Go through.

Oh, Paquita, look.

[laughter]

Come here, you.

OK.

She just did the cones once, but that's with me

feeding in between each one.

ANNOUNCER: During the live show, the houseguests

were offered $, for one of them to leave early.

They all declined.

Is anybody at all considering it?

Jorge?

Shut it, Eddie.

I ain't gonna take it.

All right, bro.

Oh, excuse me.

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Yeah.

If I make it past this round, I definitely plan on staying

till that fourth place.

You better get him out now.

Could have left two weeks ago with $,.

You have to laugh about it.

It's absurd, you know?

I mean, when does that ever happen to you?

When does that happen?

Someone's all, here, $,.

What?

This is make believe.

Who would like $, to, you know,

leave the house where they constantly

watch you and you can't have peace

and you don't get hot water and you're on a food budget,

and you have to train a [muted] stupid,

stubborn pug and you get to see your family right away.

No, I do not want that.

[laughter]

I know.

That's the truth.

That's crazy [muted].

Oh, my god.

Yeah.

Basically, that's it.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

People would be making jokes.

Reality TV, my a*s.

That is not reality.

People would be, $,, they would not say,

no, I think I'll stay here and go for another three weeks.

Yeah, definitely a laughing stock right now.

I know everyone at my home is saying [muted] moron.

Hey, I'm pretty sure I've got the same relatives there.

[laughter]

Definitely, with the same one line.

What were you thinking?

I come in here, I've got $ in my wallet.

I gave him one for the book as a book marker.

I've got $ in my pocket.

How does $, cash go badoop?

I had zero.

I came here without a wallet.

Two or three days is worth $, or $,

just sitting there.

[laughs] Oh, I don't think I want it.

Oh, my god.

I think the keys to a car might have

pushed somebody over the edge.

Oh, and there's a Viper outside waiting for you.

Oh, gotta go.

Lotus Esprit and $,?

Bye-bye.

Everybody might say, well, I'm not here for the money.

I'm here for the experience, but bottom line

is, if you were here for the experience,

you would have left tonight with the money,

because you have gained the experience,

and you will have gotten paid. - You think so?

Yes.

And I think that everybody is here, the same reason

I'm here, money.

It's just about money.

I don't know.

I mean-- I mean, I do know for me, but yeah, the money's good,

and $,'s a lot, but it's not like a lot.

It's not like a million. You know what I mean?

No, no, no. It's a lot.

And each day here is kind of more exciting, cool.

Like, I don't know.

It's the idea of missing out on whatever might be.

- Lies ahead. - Yeah.

No, no.

That's cool.

I understand that.

It is weird, though.

It's like I don't know if this offer were given

to me like, let's say, two months ago before going

into the house, and they're like,

OK, if you stay this long, you'll get the $,,

will you do it? You know what I mean?

Like, when you're thinking rationally.

When you're not here.

When you haven't committed everything to it.

You like-- I think, you--

a decision, a different decision might be made.

But like, once you're here, you've committed,

and you want to go the distance and stuff.

Well, that's just the way I see it.

But then, again, I see the public

seeing me as a money hungry nobody and bouncing me,

so it's no big deal.

We'll see what happens.

I ain't gonna worry about it.

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Jamie tries to find out what Brittany

told Josh in the red room.

Like, I want to talk to you, but I

can't, because I, you know, I got to be true to everyone.

But I think she picked me for a reason,

because what she wanted to say, she knew--

she knows me, and probably knew how I'd react.

And knows you think too much about stuff.

Did she say to say anything to me at all

or is there anything at all?

She didn't say-- no.

That's weird.

Your name was never mentioned.

It didn't even we come up once?

Nope.

Huh.

That's weird.

I would think I've-- like if there were

anyone I'd want to talk to in the house,

it would be her, you know?

Yep.

You're being weird right now.

You're so not being yourself.

I know I know.

What's wrong?

It's just--

Something happened to you in that bedroom,

because you're not being you at all.

No, I know, I know.

I'm bearing a little burden, that's all.

What do you mean?

Just, like I said, I have information that no one else

has, and I feel bad about it and everything else,

and that's why I said that.

I told Brittany from that moment on,

I said, I know what you're telling me,

and it's going in one ear and out the other,

and that's how I'm going to do.

Gosh, that's just weird to me, because I would picked

her so fast, like, you now?

Did she pick you because you guys were in a relationship

and she had something to say about that?

Is that why?

No.

It doesn't make sense to me.

It's not going to make sense, that's the whole thing.

Just don't even think about it, and don't

worry yourself with it.

Well, you're obviously, like--

But it doesn't change anything.

It doesn't change anything.

I'm not going to let it change a damn thing,

that's the whole thing.

Well, it's obviously something that's unsettling for you.

Yeah.

Well, it's just unsettling because--

it's unsettling because I know it and no one else does.

It's like almost like remember how last week,

you were the only one not nominated?

Yeah.

It's kind of like, you know, you're just in a situation

where you feel strange.

I had two minutes to think about it or whatever, seconds

right before I came out the door whether or not I was going

to tell anyone, and I said no.

I'm not going to tell anyone.

And now, I've had a couple hours to think about it,

and I think I made the right decision.

It has nothing to do with me?

It has to do with all of us as a whole, and it's not bad.

Well, it's something--

it's something if you're burdened by it.

If it was some, like, great news,

you'd just smile and keep it to yourself or something.

Don't try and figure me out, because you won't.

Why did, when she said, no, Josh, remember that part?

How come everyone laughed.

Why was that?

Just because I think she's probably like,

grabs the mic from Julie Chen.

I-- she's just crazy like that.

Cracks me up that she would just have the ba*ls

to just do that, you know?

That's just weird, because I just--

it's weird to, like, have someone

that you're such a close friend with in the house,

and you're like, OK, you know?

Well, wouldn't you trust your best friend if she said, don't

ask me anything for a while?

Well, yeah, but I mean, with Brittany,

like, I was really surprised.

Well, trust Brittany You know you were friends with her.

You know you were good friends.

Don't doubt it.

It's very catchy now, what-- is there a dollar amount

that I would leave at?

I'm, like, yeah, definitely there is.

You were thinking about it tonight, weren't you?

I had already considered that dollar amount before,

and I'm, like, no.

I was thinking about that.

I couldn't even come to a number where they--

I couldn't, and I'm not sure what it is, if it's just

wanting to see it through to the end, to see how far I can get,

not wanting to walk away from anything I've started,

which is a lot of it.

I don't know.

I also, like, actually, I don't think

I have a realistic chance of, like, winning, you know,

whatever.

Or it's like, I don't think my chances are as good as so many

other people here, you know?

Then, you think, gosh, am I going

to be kicking myself in the butt,

if seven days from now, I'm walking out of here.

And you're like, oh, man, I should have taken it.

I'm like, I traded seven days for $,, which

is one way to think about it.

I mean, seriously, for everybody to be sitting here

and to have turned it down, what does that mean?

Does that mean we all think we're going to win,

or that we all just cannot turn a challenge down,

you know what I mean?

Or that we can't quit, or that we love it here so much,

or that we want more exposure?

Or like, you know, there's a million

reasons why one would turn it down, and I just don't know.

I think a lot of it has to do with not wanting to quit.

I think that for the most part.

I think that's a ton of it, yeah.

And I think that's what it is, is not wanting to sell out

or be bought.

You don't want to be bought, yeah, and certainly not for,

like, not that $, is anything to scoff at,

but not that, no.

What would you have done if it were $,?

I don't know.

Makes it that much harder.

I still haven't sorted out my feelings as to why

I said no to the $,.

I know it's the right thing, because it

just feels right instinctually, but I'm

just trying to think why.

Why I was, like, OK, definitely no at $,.

So I don't know.

We are definitely in an altered perspective

in this house.

I know.

That's why I'm like, I don't trust my instincts

so much here anymore, at all.

The thing with "Big Brother" is

like any time they do something, there's always some catch.

Of course.

There's always some underlying thing to try to stir up

emotions, and usually it works.

Yeah.

I mean, look, we're already talking about it now.

And the thing also, is like, talking now in the last

minutes, you know, has probably created stuff

they're probably going to use when

they show reactions to the--

Sure.

Whereas, if I wouldn't have talked about it,

there would be nothing.

And the thing that Cassandra and I have talked about a lot

is we look at the banishment pattern,

and the three people that have been the most emotional

have been the last three that have left.

And I've really made an effort to be stronger about stuff.

Right.

But there's a difference, though, between being emotional

and refusing to talk about things,

because I know Cassandra does talk about everything.

Like, I came here because I needed to talk about stuff,

because I don't know how I feel about things.

And like, you're the one I'm closest to in the house.

You're the one who, if I were on the outside,

I would still call.

Do you feel OK--

do you feel less comfortable if I listen

and kind of share ideas versus, like, me talking about it

as well?

You know, I want to hear from you, too.

I don't know.

[music playing]

ANNOUNCER: Brittany's warning to Josh

not to trust Jamie, Cassandra, and George

weighs heavily on his mind.

I guess I could just spit it all out so no one has to ask me

any questions, because I'm sure everybody is

wondering what I'm thinking about this,

about the events of today.

I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel

like the weight of the world was on my shoulders,

because I do feel that way.

You know, I understand that Brittany

was trying to help me out or whatever, and I appreciate it.

And maybe she was trying to help everyone else out in the house.

I think she probably wanted me to tell the other houseguests,

but like I said, I think that it would

be a bad thing for the group.

And my goal has always been to make sure

that we're running pretty smoothly in here,

making sure everybody is getting along

and that no one has any hard feelings towards one

another based on something that doesn't happen here.

And in a way, I know she's probably mad at me,

because I'm not going to say anything,

but I have to do what I think is right.

And at this point, I think that's what's right.

It wouldn't be right for me to jump on the bandwagon

and pin George in a corner, and it

wouldn't be right just to take sides,

and I don't want to do that.

You know, I love Brittany to death,

and I know that she cares a lot for me,

and I want her to know that, you know, I know she cares.

And I just hope that she has faith in me,

because I have faith that I'm doing the right thing,

and that's all I think I need to do.

I think that if I told them, they would probably

say, you know what, George has an advantage over us,

because he has a whole town behind him,

and I wouldn't want that.

If George has a whole town behind him, he's a lucky guy.

And then, if I was in George's shoes,

you know, he hasn't done necessarily anything wrong

at all, and then he may have the whole house turn against him

because of something that's happening on the outside,

and that's not fair to him either.

And so like I said, I think everything should be based

on what we're doing in here and what we know about each other,

based on what we've told each other and our experiences

together.

And anything other than that should be left outside,

and unfortunately, it's in here, but it's in here with me.

And it's just going to stay in me,

and that's where it's going to stay.

[music playing]

Do you have full breathing abilities, Holly White?

Full breathing abilities, Chicken George.

Ah, do you feel the air?

[sighs] Feel the air.

We'll do it on three.

.

.

.

You got to get the leg movement.

Yes.

Got to get the leg movement in there.

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