10x11 - By Any Means

[bunniefuu]

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- By far the coldest
day. This is ice.

Whoo!

Everything’s just a
little harder in the cold.

- We’re into the serious
stages now, boys and girls.

I don’t know how
many people are left.

But it won’t be a lot.

That, I assure you.

I’m sure not looking
forward to going outside.

[laughs]

♪ ♪

- Even in the snow, I’m
not finding any sign.

As seasons change,
everything that you

just spent the past
two months learning

means nothing anymore.

- [bleep] Oh, man.

Fire’s going on right there.

Holy [bleep].

[bleep]

That was scary.

Literally seconds away from
having the shelter gone.

- It’s time for
the skinny check.

I’m definitely getting low.

Pretty skinny around the waist.

I’m going to eat
my store’s food,

hoping that my competitors
don’t have quite

as much food as me.

- God, please let
me win this soon.

I am struggling.

Let’s wish everybody
would hurry up and quit.

Everybody’s got their
reasons for being here.

Let’s hope their reasons
aren’t as strong as mine.

♪ ♪

[wind whistling]

♪ ♪

- I’m gonna do this, man.

I’m gonna do this.

I’m gonna fight this thing
out to the last breath.

♪ ♪

- OK, game on.

♪ ♪

- [grunts]

- I got him.

Narrator: In "Alone’s"
most remote location yet...

- Yes!

Narrator: Ten participants set
out to survive at all costs...

- Our goal is stay alive.

- [inhales sharply] Oh.

Narrator: Battling
extreme isolation...

- There is no camera crews.

You are really alone.

- It’ll eat at
you. Tear you up.

- God, why?
- It’s a battle.

Nobody ever comes out the same.

- Oh, man.

- It’d be impossible to.

Narrator: And
fierce predators.

- A big bear is right
outside my shelter.

- Predators like that, damn
sure going to k*ll you.

- Please don’t rip my face off.

[animal screeches]

- He beat the hell out of me.

Narrator: They’ll
endure merciless wind.

- It’s been over 60 hours,
and it has not let up.

- I can hear the trees
falling down around me.

Narrator: And bitter cold.

- This whole place has
turned into a frozen hell.

Narrator: Last one standing...

- It’s a moose.

- Wow.

- Whoo-hoo-hoo-hoo!

- No! No!

Narrator: Wins.

♪ ♪

- Look at that.

You can call that
my hillbilly smoker.

[laughs]

I got one small piece on.

That’s going to be dinner.

These other three
pieces, all they’ll do,

they’ll freeze tonight.

If I stretched, I
could probably get

three days out of each fillet,

but I don’t see any
reason why I shouldn’t be

able to catch a couple
fish ice fishing

once I can get out on the ice.

♪ ♪

So hillbilly fish cooker.

This will be
absolutely delicious.

Going on to the next tree.

♪ ♪

Well, every day we’re
a little bit closer

to Remembrance Day.

♪ ♪

Grandfather was a veteran.

There ain’t anybody in
this world that appreciates

living here more than I do.

♪ ♪

Not proud of all
of our heritage.

The way we treated
our indigenous people.

We got a lot of
skeletons in our closet.

Don’t ever kid yourself.

But we can remind
ourselves of it.

We can learn from it.

♪ ♪

Not make the same mistakes.

♪ ♪

Please don’t think I’m...

I’m a preacher or anything
like that ’cause I’ve got

my own skeletons, my
own walks of shame.

♪ ♪

There’s probably a 30-year
period where I never

went a day without drinking.

♪ ♪

It would probably be
the only disappointment

my grandfather ever
had of me in my life.

He never said too much about it,

but he’d take one
moment every year,

beginning of hunting season,

to tell me I drank too much,
and then he’d hand me a bottle

and say, "Have a good week,
and have a drink on me."

♪ ♪

That was his moment
where he could tell me

his disapproval without
breaking any kind of trust.

And his point was clear

because I still
remember it today.

You can’t change yesterday.

It’s gone.

Done a lot of good things too.

So on that note, gonna
carry a load of wood over.

♪ ♪

I’m also getting hungry.

♪ ♪

Oh, yeah.

♪ ♪

h*, h*, h*, h*, now does
that not look delicious?

Oh.

Now...

♪ ♪

Oh, my goodness.

Chimney cooking 101.

[laughing drily]

♪ ♪

- Day 53.

Day 53, feels good to say that.

But, man, I’m telling you,
the fun times are over

here in Reindeer Lake.

The fun times are over.

It’s snow,

freezing temperatures,
high winds.

Had a hard time staying
warm last night.

I’m going to have to start
sleeping in my parka soon

and... charge the battery pack?

I just put in this battery pa...

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

Where was I?

♪ ♪

I’m not sure if my lack of
eating is affecting my brain.

Yesterday, I went back
and forth to the teepee

because I kept
forgetting [bleep].

But during weather
like this, I mean,

it’s smarter to
stay in your shelter

rather than trudging around
in the snow, you know?

So today is just having a fire.

Let’s get her started, day 53.

♪ ♪

All right, let’s see
how this fire goes here.

♪ ♪

Come on.

♪ ♪

The weather has been an
absolute game changer

in everything I do.

There we go.

My whole shift went
from acquiring food

to acquiring wood to stay
warm and survive the night.

♪ ♪

Everything’s a little
harder in the cold.

The wood takes longer
to heat up and burn.

♪ ♪

My pot of water is a
frozen block of ice.

Luckily, I was
able to store food,

but it looks like day


because I’m pretty
fricking skinny already.

You can see my cheekbones,
and I don’t like it.

♪ ♪

I’m worried about a med check.

I suspect there’s
gonna be one soon

’cause I think they’re going
to be worried about frostbite.

That can always be a
bit dangerous this late.

♪ ♪

You know what I miss right now?

My wife.

♪ ♪

You know you’ve... you
know, your life partner,

you’ve been through
so much together,

and sometimes you forget
how much they mean to you.

♪ ♪

Over 25 years of being together

and not talking to
her for two months,

it’s hard, it’s hard.

♪ ♪

I miss you, babe.

Can’t we to see ya.

♪ ♪

[sighs]

I’ve been in here
since 4:00 yesterday.

That’s a long time.

Keep grinding, that’s my motto.

Grind. Keep grinding.

Just grind through each day.

Just grind through each day.

Keep going.

Stay focused.

Think positive thoughts.

It’s short-term.
It’s short-term.

I just want to do the best
that I can, and I want to...

I want to prove to myself that I

can grind through tough times.

It’s all part of the challenge.

All right, that’s it.

See you tomorrow.

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- Went ahead and peed
and got me some snow.

♪ ♪

Just pretending it’s ice cream.

♪ ♪

You are correct.

I am eating snow with
piece of a leather belt.

♪ ♪

Let’s be completely
honest. It could be worse.

I could be eating the belt.

All right, I got to get outside.

Get the day going.

♪ ♪

Everything’s completely
covered in snow again.

I do mean completely.

This whole trail,
I had it cut out.

There’s another
inch of snow on it.

At this point, I’m exhausted.

It’s hard enough just
to get up every morning

and walk to get water.

Look at that.

Ice on all the water here.

It’s freaking crazy.

I have to bust through
just to get some water.

My legs and my feet
are starting to hurt.

I’m noticing I’m
not walking as far.

It’s too cold.

It’s getting harder
and harder to handle.

I’ve stopped shivering.

My body just can’t keep
up with it anymore.

Ready to head back.

♪ ♪

It takes so much to get warm.

♪ ♪

I do not want frostbite.

Not only will frostbite
cause me to lose this,

but frostbite will also cause
me to lose parts of my body.

♪ ♪

I just don’t understand
how it could be so cold.

♪ ♪

But I gotta keep going.

♪ ♪

[squeak]

Well, that smashed
his guts clean out.

Just because he’s
a wee little guy.

Put that in there.

I can’t let them
[bleep] keep robbing me.

I’m gonna skin all these
little b*stards out.

Cook these later.

♪ ♪

But for right now, I’m
gonna eat some berries.

[grunts]

Man, I’ve been holding
on to these berries

for a long time.

This is the ugly
truth about survival,

you don’t always have
rabbits, and squirrels,

and moose, and bears.

Sometimes you got rats.

I don’t even know how I’m
gonna skin these little ones.

♪ ♪

I miss my family.

We sacrificed a lot to be here.

They sacrificed a lot
so that we can be.

♪ ♪

I think that’s what
this show basically is.

It’s all about sacrifice.

♪ ♪

What you’re willing to sacrifice

and how long you’re willing
to sacrifice it for.

♪ ♪

It’s the hardest [bleep]
thing I’ve ever done.

♪ ♪

I feel like I’m
turning into a rat.

I sure am holed up
like a rat would be.

♪ ♪

- Well, looks like today we
got a little bit of snow.

It’s cold.

You can see the ice starting
to form all on the lake.

You just got that
little slush to it.

♪ ♪

Just going to be ice in no time.

♪ ♪

I’m trying to see across,

if I can see my gill net.

I don’t know if I can.

♪ ♪

[blows nose]

My nose is running
within seconds.

So we need to check our gill net

and hopefully find a
squirrel, a grouse.

I could really go for
a moose steak too.

Wish me luck.

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

[bleep]

Things are getting slippery.

I’ve been cold, but this place,

this is a whole new
element to cold.

♪ ♪

Cuts through every layer.

You want to curl
right up to the fire,

just wanting it to
stop, but it doesn’t.

It just gets worse.

♪ ♪

It was a pretty desolate walk.

[wind whistling]

Wow, there’s a lot
of ice around my net.

♪ ♪

As much as I hate to do it,

I think it’s best to
take it right out.

♪ ♪

I don’t think it’s
fair to take a chance

of it freezing in and having
fish go to waste in it.

♪ ♪

Whoa.

Yeah, that’s how
slippery things are.

♪ ♪

I don’t know if I can
get a stick or something.

Uh-oh.

♪ ♪

Try bashing it.

I’m a guy who believes that
you have to respect the land.

The water has been good to
me, and for that reason,

I’ll happily carry
it out of here.

♪ ♪

I’ve still got lots of
fish, or enough fish.

♪ ♪

Wow, that is just solid.

♪ ♪

I’ve ice fished for lake
trout my whole life,

and once I can get
out on the ice,

I have full
confidence that I will

have no trouble catching fish.

♪ ♪

I got a new goal, and
that’s to catch a fish

on Reindeer Lake ice fishing.

I’m getting close.

One fish will make
it all worthwhile.

♪ ♪

Oh, there it goes.

♪ ♪

Power of leverage.

There it goes.

♪ ♪

No fish.

But at least we did
the right thing.

All right, now I just need
to make it off these rocks.

♪ ♪

Never to return.

♪ ♪

There’s no question
that everything we do

is getting harder.

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

You can see the lake
is freezing here.

It’s out like 25 feet or so.

It’s freezing all the way
over to Lake Trout Rock.

I’m going to get enough
firewood to make it

through a couple nights.

Man, if this continues,
the weather like this,

I bet you a week,
this lake is frozen.

Good for ice fishing
anyways, so...

♪ ♪

I’m just an average teacher,
who loves hunting and fishing

and being outside.

♪ ♪

This will need to be split.

♪ ♪

I’m hoping winning "Alone"
will inspire my students,

especially my
outdoor ed students,

to let them know that
anything’s possible.

Whew, three is all I can
do before I need to rest.

Three and rest.

But unless some rabbits
start magically showing

their tracks around here
or the ice freezes quickly,

I won’t have food.

♪ ♪

All right, time to
work on my snowshoes.

Get ready for ice fishing.

♪ ♪

OK, let’s do this.

I could ice fish now,
but the shallow areas are

the only parts that are safe.

And I know there’s not
going to be fish in there,

so I’m not going to waste my
time and calories drilling

holes in the ice.

Tying some bootlaces,
some bindings.

I only need to make it 50 yards,

so they don’t have
to be stellar.

♪ ♪

I applied for this
show for the adventure.

I used to go on fishing
trips as a kid on my bike.

I had this plastic container
that slid onto my belt,

and it was a worm container,
and I’d fill it up with dirt

and fill it with worms,
and I’d pack a lunch,

and I’d biked all along
the highway to find all

these different fishing holes.

Even though I could fish
like right below my house,

I wanted to go on adventures.

That is "toight."

Real toight.

I want to experience
this adventure

to the fullest extent.

I just don’t want to do well.
I want to make it to the end.

I am ready for some fish.

But I could feel my
mental game being

chipped away a little bit.

Eating and my mental
wellness goes hand in hand.

The few pieces of fish
left, they go fast

if I don’t get any more food.

I’ll feel terrible.

Who knows where I
can go from there.

But yeah.

Got my ice snowshoes.

♪ ♪

- This is a beautiful place.

If I had a cabin
up here somewhere

with a big picture window

next to my fireplace
with my wife,

we’re laying down on
a pallet on the floor.

♪ ♪

Nikolai, he’s running around
playing, climbing on us.

He runs to the window.

He looks outside. He
says, "It’s snowing!"

♪ ♪

That would be a dream come true.

♪ ♪

But right now,
it’s just a dream.

My reality is, is that
there’s ice on my tarp.

♪ ♪

On the inside of my tarp.

Can you see that reflection?

That’s all ice.

This whole place has
turned into a frozen hell.

♪ ♪

God, please just let me
win this, so I can go home.

♪ ♪

I haven’t done anything but
lay here in my sleeping bag

all morning.

♪ ♪

Kind of been in a
dark place mentally.

[device beeping]

♪ ♪

I just got the
message saying that...

♪ ♪

Now I gotta get up,
get ready for that,

which sucks.

I really don’t want
to get up right now.

♪ ♪

Calm down, Mikey.

Try to hold it together,
but I literally

do not even have the
strength that it takes

to put my boots on.

My feet are freezing.

My hands are freezing.

♪ ♪

I don’t see how I’m gonna
be able to keep doing this.

♪ ♪

OK.

- So [bleep] cold.

I mean, just unbearably cold.

- OK.

- Yeah.

♪ ♪

My hand’s freezing.

My feet are numb right now.

Oh, and they’re red as hell.

- Is that painful
when I do that?

- Those last two are.

- Those last two?
- Yeah.

- OK.

You can put your sock on.

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

- [groans]

Can’t put my boots on.

[bleep] damn.

The loss of
sensation’s not good,

and his toes are extremely cold.

- God, I can’t believe this.

I can’t get pulled
after I’ve come this far

and I’ve missed so much.

I’m so sorry, Hazel, and
I’m so sorry, Nikolai,

that I left y’all.

♪ ♪

- I’m so sorry, Hazel,
and I’m so sorry, Nikolai,

that I left y’all.

I’ve done everything
that I possibly could.

[soft music]

I had so much faith.

♪ ♪

But I can’t do this anymore.

[sniffles]

OK.

- I wanted to not have
to go back to work.

I wanted more
therapy for my son.

I’m just so cold that
I can’t handle it.

♪ ♪

- Hey.

I think I’m done, guys.

Y’all’s decision or
not, I think I’m done.

♪ ♪

- God, I hate to
say those words.

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

God, I hate to say those words.

I don’t quit at anything.

Ever.

♪ ♪

But...

I’m officially tapping out.

[breathing shakily]

♪ ♪

This is a hard decision to make.

In my head, I could keep going,

but I know that if I
push too much farther,

then I’ll be really
hurting myself.

I don’t want to go
back to my son broken.

Then I can’t do
anything for him.

♪ ♪

And if I go back broken,
I’m not gonna be able

to continue to
provide for my family.

But I’m a different
person coming out of this.

♪ ♪

After everything you have
has been stripped off of you,

and your mind and your
body has been broken down,

you start seeing things
a little differently.

I’ve learned there’s no point
in holding back the emotions,

the things that you want to say.

It’s actually caused more
problems than anything.

And I see that now.

♪ ♪

From now on, I’m gonna
talk through everything

I need to talk through,
instead of just swallowing it,

and putting it in my stomach,
and going on with it.

I’ve gone 55 days.

You learn maybe, you know,
I want to do something

different with my life.

I don’t have to have
$500,000 to make more time

to spend with my family.

♪ ♪

I don’t want to go back to
working all day every day.

As long as I can continue
to provide for my family

doing something that
I can be happy doing,

and we’ll give that
a try for a while.

I do have adaptability.

♪ ♪

I’ve proved that.

♪ ♪

- OK, we’ve checked the ice.

I got a few places
I can go fishing.

That means today, we’ll
have to build an ice ladder.

♪ ♪

I need some crossers.

♪ ♪

To go ice fishing,
we either need

to have snowshoes
or an ice ladder,

and I think an ice ladder
is far more feasible.

♪ ♪

All right.

I know it’s a pain in the
[bleep] to carry this,

but I don’t have to worry
about laces freezing up

and all that good [bleep].

♪ ♪

I was hoping I was going to have

to make a ladder like
this to build a tree stand

for either bear
or moose hunting,

but no chance of that.

The bush has become almost
too dangerous to walk in.

I can’t find a
track of anything.

Time to freeze the fingers.

♪ ♪

There’s no squirrels left.

There’s no grouse left.

There’s no big game.

I need to get out
there ice fishing.

♪ ♪

We have an ice ladder.

So let’s get going.

♪ ♪

All right, well, we
got our ice ladder.

We got our ax, and we
got our jigging stick.

We’re going to see
how deep it is.

Hoping to be at 15-foot
plus depth of water.

♪ ♪

I can remember as a
young kid going fishing

on the Nottawasaga
River with my dad,

and he would go around
and check the ice.

Put a wrist guard on,
so we don’t lose our ax.

♪ ♪

And he would make a path,

and it didn’t matter
what was going on.

You did not leave that path
because 5 feet over there,

you could fall through the ice.



So 10 feet, not really
the depth I wanted,

but it’s all I got for now.

♪ ♪

Try there for a little bit.

Let’s see if I can’t
catch a walleye or two.

♪ ♪

I’ve fallen through
the ice more than once.

I’ve stood naked on
the shore of a lake

hovering over the campfire
going, holy [bleep].

♪ ♪

But in these conditions...

God, that wind’s nasty.

You basically have ten
minutes to get dried off,

get some kind of shelter,

and basically an hour to
start warming your core

back up before extreme
hypothermia sets in.

That’s not long.

♪ ♪

One injury, one
slip, going home,

One injury, one
slip, going home,

and that opportunity of 500
grand to leave my legacy

in this world, that’s gone.

♪ ♪

Nope.

Fingers are freezing.

It’s temperature dropping.

♪ ♪

We’ll give her a whirl tomorrow.

♪ ♪

All that effort for nothing.

[dramatic music]

[dramatic music]

[dramatic music]

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- I’m heading out ice
fishing in a few minutes.

Just want to talk about
how I’m feeling today.

This is the most
weakened I’ve felt.

Everything is just such
an effort right now.

Even bending over to
get in the shelter

and straightening up again,
I kind of lose my balance

and get a head rush.

So none of that’s
very healthy for me,

and I’m going to push
through a few more days.

Push through.

♪ ♪

My body is close to the end.

I promised myself and
my wife that I wouldn’t

push too hard without food.

♪ ♪

I don’t feel great right now.

My urine is orange
for some reason.

Maybe my kidneys aren’t
working properly or something,

or I’m just not drinking enough.

Pushing too far means
long-term damage to your body.

Organs, teeth, there’s so
many things that can happen.

Well, here we go.

♪ ♪

But at any second, my
competitors could tap out.

♪ ♪

We are through!

I’m gonna get some
moss for the hole.

I’ll be right back.

♪ ♪

I’m homesick.

I’m missing my wife and my kids,

but I want to
inspire my children

to fight through tough
times and be resilient.

Let’s give this a shot.

So maybe I should just keep
fishing and keep pushing.

Ooh.

That wind is chilly.

♪ ♪

To do this, I can
work off the strength

of the students who inspired me.

Come on, fishies.

Build off the strength
of loved ones.

Going to be pike down there.

Stay positive. Stay hopeful.

Anything’s possible, you know?

Well, that wind is blowing
right through my bones.

So done for now.

♪ ♪

- [sighs]

I thought I was done
with this gill net.

Well, today,

even though I’ve only
got 10 feet of water,

what I’m going to do
is, I’m going to try

and cut myself a trough
that I can drop my gill net

back in and fish 24/7.

So I’m trying to
get it untangled

or whatever you want
to call it... unfrozen.

[chuckles]

OK, here’s one.

I’m going to tie this,
so I can get everything

kind of situated
best as possible.

I’ve come to the
realization that,

no matter what, I’m
hungry all the time.

♪ ♪

Stomach’s growling.

Saying hurry up, tie that net.

Catch me a fish there, boy.

Ice fishing is slow,
cold, and windy.

So to stand out there
and fish is not feasible.

So I’m going to put my
gill net down there.

OK, well, that’s that part.

So let’s grab our ax.

We’ll go cut a hole.

♪ ♪

OK, I’m going to cut a
line straight in starting

from the hole I cut yesterday.

♪ ♪

Nature gives you every element
to be the best you can be.

♪ ♪

But she will provide for you,

or she’ll rip it away from you.

♪ ♪

Now, I got to go
get my three poles.

♪ ♪

So you have to learn
how to become balanced.

Ooh, it’s cold.

It’s already starting to freeze,

so no time for whining.

We’re going to get this baby in.

♪ ♪

Yeah, now she shouldn’t fall in.

All right, let’s move
this party inside.

♪ ♪

We’ll just wait and
see what it brings.

♪ ♪

[wind whistling]

The wind’s picking up.

Probably going to be
an ugly night again.

♪ ♪

Lots of thoughts
going through my head.

♪ ♪

I don’t know how many
times my boys have said,

"Dad, you drank too much."

How many times my mother said,
"Wyatt, you drank too much."

How many times a hundred
other people have said,

"Wyatt, you drink too much."

The amount of times I’ve said,

"It’s none of your
[bleep] business."

Crawling under that
nice fleecy cloud,

that nice shroud of alcohol,
and all the rest of it

dulled the mind
and warmed my soul.

Well, so I thought.

Just took a lot of years of
hearing it from other people

about how bad it was before
I realized that maybe

it’s time to change.

[fire crackling]

[bleep], another
hole in another sock.

Oh, [bleep].

I’m losing a toenail.

♪ ♪

No.

♪ ♪

I should rephrase that.

♪ ♪

I lost a toenail.

♪ ♪

Look.

♪ ♪

Whole toenail.

Gone.

Oop, just dropped it somewhere.

My toenails just falling
off because of the cold.

You don’t even notice
it because your feet

are so numb from being
so cold for so long.

It’s gone past
the point of pain.

Now it’s just this numb feeling.

Almost dead.

♪ ♪

Knew there was
going to be a degree

of suffering out here,

just didn’t know quite how much.

♪ ♪

Mind’s playing tricks on me.

I’m hearing things.

♪ ♪

Probably just the ice.

♪ ♪

Oop, fire.

Oop, fire.

♪ ♪

We got a fire going on.

♪ ♪

[bleep] [bleep]

[dramatic music]

[dramatic music]

- Oop, fire.

♪ ♪

We got a fire going on.

[bleep] [bleep]

Are you kidding me?

Are you kidding me?

♪ ♪

[bleep]

♪ ♪

She’s out.

[bleep]

♪ ♪

Whew, that was close.

I’m glad I was awake.

There must have been
one of the branches

up top caught an
ember or something.

♪ ♪

It’s too damn cold to not
be having a fire tonight.

♪ ♪

Lose a toenail, start
the shelter on fire.

The hell kind of
[bleep] is this?

That wind’s not gonna let up
very much, I’m sure, till...

It’s going to be a long night.

The fire, it’s just
one more stress.

Sleeping with one eye
open, shivering like a dog.

It’s getting harder and
harder every day to stay here.

Whoever’s left, they
know how to tough it out

because there’s nothing
easy about being here.

♪ ♪

At this stage, the
grind is on, you know?

It takes a little bit more
to grind through the days.

I can’t get my hands warm.

I’m going to go back to the
teepee for 19 hours or so.

I’m in my shelter a lot.

I don’t have any
fresh fish to smoke,

and it doesn’t make
sense to be out

in the cold and the snow,

but being in the shelter so much

is challenging because
boredom is starting to creep

into my mind, and it’s
just more difficult

to stay positive when you’re
in the same spot not sleeping.

♪ ♪

Hey!

♪ ♪

Is there something out there?

♪ ♪

The hell was that?

♪ ♪

Get out!

Get out here!

♪ ♪

[fire crackling]

♪ ♪

Minutes are now like hours.

Days seem like weeks.

Hopefully, today, we got
something in the gill net.

I just need something
to add some kind of fuel

to my inner fire.

Give me some excitement.

k*ll the time.

Well...

looks like we’re
not cleaning fish.

Looks like we’re
going to cut wood.

[bleep]

Because right now,
time is k*lling me.

[bleep]. Oh, slippery rock.

♪ ♪

Sorry about that.

Got about a foot and a half
past the camera and wiped out,

but I’m all right.

Don’t worry about me.

It’s all good.

[bleep]

♪ ♪

Who knows if there’s
three people left

or two people left.

Who knows if they have food?

♪ ♪

- That is the tiniest
damn little thing.

Look at that.

- I just don’t know.

It’s kind of exciting
to think that maybe

I might be the last one, but
it almost seems impossible.

♪ ♪

I am struggling
mentally and physically.

♪ ♪

When is this going to end?

But I wanted to be pushed.

Even though I knew it
would be unpleasant,

I wanted to feel it.

I just can’t get warm.

I’ve had this chill for hours.

Mission accomplished.

♪ ♪

It is cold.

The wind blew out of the north
all night, and it blew hard.

We won’t be checking
the gill net today.

Not a chance.

♪ ♪

My water bucket’s been
sitting 3 feet from my fire,

and it’s frozen every morning.

[wind whistling]

I sit beside the
fire to at least keep

my feet from burning
any worse than they are.

But my body’s growing weak.

The cold’s winning.

♪ ♪

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- Well, I’m just getting
out of my sleeping bag,

- Well, I’m just getting
out of my sleeping bag,

and this is exactly
the reason why.

This wind has been going
like this since 7:00

last night, but let’s
have a look at what

the ice has done down here.

♪ ♪

I can’t see my gill net, but...

Whoa, she’s a little windy.

♪ ♪

I guarantee you it’s not
gonna be in good shape.

♪ ♪

[bleep]

♪ ♪

There’s my gill net, or the pole

that’s supposed
to be holding it.

That’s it. It’s gone.

[bleep]

♪ ♪

That is insane.

That wind has just
smashed it in.

I’m even nervous about
getting near the shore

enough to fill my water buckets.

That’s no spot to be.

♪ ♪

I don’t know what the
[bleep] I’m going to do.

♪ ♪

She’s getting pretty scarce
as far as food around here.

I got one more night to me,

and that’s it.

The days are cold.
The nights are cold.

I got to cut at least
a whole tree every day

just to stay warm enough.

♪ ♪

Ahh.

This place is a
constant struggle.

There’s so many things
that have to be done daily,

but the wind blowing like
this doesn’t allow you

to do anything you need to do.

Get our piece of fish on.

♪ ♪

I’m falling too far back.

I need to get moving
forward again.

♪ ♪

My body is starting to fail me.

♪ ♪

My mind is starting to...

Starting to wander.

♪ ♪

The longer I sit here
and think of nothing,

other than the noise in
my head and all the things

that I can’t do,

the more and more I’m getting
tired mentally and physically.

♪ ♪

It’s hard to really
fathom that I’m

thinking of giving up.

♪ ♪

This place has taught me a lot.

♪ ♪

Buried a lot of demons.

♪ ♪

Washed away a lot of pain.

♪ ♪

We’re going to see how we sleep.

See how we feel tomorrow.

♪ ♪

How awesome is that?

Little things in life, eh?

I have accomplished
everything I need right here

other than the 500 grand, but...

I’ve got my house.

I’ve got a beautiful wife.

I’ve got beautiful kids.

I live a good life.

I don’t need to go out for
fancy dinners every night,

and live beyond my
means, and what have you.

To me, that’s not living.

To me, this is living.

♪ ♪

I really don’t have
the words right now.

♪ ♪

That’s unlike me.

I always got words.

♪ ♪

I did have a lot of
self-healing I needed to do.

Mentally, I feel whole.

I feel complete.

I’ve done everything I
needed to do out here.

Body’s letting me
know it’s time.

♪ ♪

[device beeping]

♪ ♪

This is Wyatt calling.

I am officially tapping out.

♪ ♪

My body and my brain
is just telling me

that it’s the right time.

♪ ♪

As the Doors once said,
"This is the end."

[helicopter whirring]

♪ ♪

Had enough.

Everything about my
body and mind is...

I’m done.

It’s been... it’s been epic.

I’m leaving here a
different person.

No question about it.

And I’m good about it.

I’m really good about it.

It’s...

♪ ♪

It’s for the better,
and this is my therapy.

[laughs]

♪ ♪

And I needed it to be sober,

to be not distracted,

and just to truly

process

the hows and whats
and wheres and whys

and put it all away.

And I did that.

♪ ♪

I was able to forgive
everybody I needed

to forgive in this
world, including myself.

Maybe mostly myself.

And my book full of secrets

got put underneath the
ice of Reindeer Lake,

and they’re gone.

Chalkboard’s clean.

Time to start a new chapter.

And I’m going to embrace it.

And I hope that this
journey allows other people

to accept the fact that
you can find yourself

in the strangest places.

♪ ♪

A legacy to me is
to be remembered

and remembered for
something good.

Well, whether it’s for my
children or my grandchildren,

"Alone" season ten will
keep the name Wyatt Black

going for a long time.

♪ ♪

[device beeping]

- There’s a med check today.

Oh, boy, I’m nervous.

Maybe I can push my body harder.

I don’t know. I don’t know.

I want to see what
my body looks like.

Viewer discretion is advised.

"You’re too skinny!

You must go home!"

"I must remove you
from the competition.

Alan, you’re gone. Go home."

♪ ♪

I don’t like the
look of my guts.

They look way too thin.

Like sucked in almost.

♪ ♪

I’m definitely diminishing.

I can tell since
the last med check.

I noticed my heartbeat
has slowed down, actually,

a little bit, you know,
like doo-doo, doo-doo.

Well, I know that’s an
effect of starvation.

♪ ♪

- Wanting to go home, I think.

♪ ♪

I was solid mentally
until the 50s,

which I’m pretty happy
with, but now I’m pushing.

♪ ♪

I think physically, I’m
almost at the end of my rope.

♪ ♪

- Yeah, no, it’s...

my kids.

Connecting with my kids.

I really miss my wife.

♪ ♪

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- Yeah, no, it’s...

my kids.

Connecting with my kids.

I really miss my wife.

Just a lot of the comforts
of home, you know?

Food, I’m having a bad...

A bad time with food fantasies.

Like, it’s something that
I’ve never experienced before.

Man, the food
fantasies are hard.

♪ ♪

Doritos.

Doritos.

Like a bag of Doritos.

If you guys had a bag
of Doritos right now,

your life would be in danger.

I’m serious.

- Is there anything
you need help with?

- Oh, my God! Are you serious?

[laughter]

- Oh, my God.

♪ ♪

Oh, my God, you did it!

You won, Al, you won!

You won.

I missed you so much.

Oh, my God.

I’m so happy to see you.
- Are you serious?

I’m so...

- Oh, my God, I love you.

- Thank God.

Oh, my God.
- You won.

- You did it!
- Oh, my God.

- Season ten.

Season ten, Alan Tenta.

Isn’t this amazing?

- Whoo!
- [laughs]

Whoo!

- [bleep]. You look amazing.

♪ ♪

I love you.
- I love you too.

- I missed you so much.

- I missed you too.

I can’t believe you were
out here for this long.

- Yeah, totally.

You look good.
- Thanks.

- Yeah, you look good.
- It’s the fish, man.

It’s the fish.

- Your eyes are
beautiful and blue.

Yeah. [laughs]

Good fishing?
Lots of good fish?

- Yeah, I’m more
excited about seeing you

than actually winning
right now, you know?

- Me too.

- It hasn’t sunk in yet.

- Oh.

♪ ♪

- Want to go in, show me?
- Yeah.

♪ ♪

- Oh, my God. This
is so incredible.

- Come on in.
- This is amazing.

- Sit down.
- Oh, my God, I love it.

- I’d have my fire here at night

and sit like this, and the
heat he would just flow,

and it would heat up the
teepee really nicely.

- This is cool.

How long did it
take you to do this?

- I don’t know. Not that long.

- What do you think is
your best experience,

the best thing you’ve
experienced out here?

When you go home and talk
to Mackenzie and Davis,

what are you going to
say top number one?

♪ ♪

- Mm.

♪ ♪

- Quiet evenings
fishing at sunset.

- I can see that, actually.

- Yeah.

And I had a really neat
experience with an owl.

- Oh, that’s cool.

- It’s going to... oh,
it’ll blow your mind.

It’ll blow your mind.

- Tell me.

- It was dusk.

And an owl, it was
like he was my pet.

It was the weirdest thing,

especially since my
dad passed, you know?

It wouldn’t leave.

Ten minutes, it was like
landing right beside me...

Tree branches.

- That’s pretty incredible.

♪ ♪

- Winning this challenge
is a lot owed to my dad.

He’s the one that introduced
me to the outdoors

and introduced me to fishing,
introduced me to archery.

I’ll never get over the loss.

Perhaps that experience with
the owl was his way of saying,

"Hey, man, I am
here with you."

Experiencing this really
enables me to understand

how important my
family is to me,

and how important
it is to tell them

how much they mean to me.

It just solidifies how much
I have and how lucky I am.

♪ ♪

This experience on "Alone"

has definitely deepened what
nature and all the things

I love about the outdoors,

it’s definitely deepened
the importance of it

right down to my soul.

Some people recharge
being around people.

I recharge being alone.

♪ ♪

The money’s going to give
me some more freedom,

but my "Alone" experience
is the pinnacle

of my adventure seeking.

What I’d like to say to
my outdoor ed students is,

thank you for inspiring me,

and I hope I can
inspire you to believe

that anything’s possible.

With hard work and the right
attitude and staying positive,

you can achieve amazing things.

♪ ♪

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- I begged God.

I begged God last night.

I said, "Please, let...

"let tomorrow be the
day they come get me

"and they tell me I win

and I can leave
this frozen hell."

♪ ♪

I came out here and
worked as hard as I could.

It just got too cold for me.

Have you ever been so cold,
it feels like you’re on fire?

That’s what my toes feel like.

They’re so cold,
they’re on fire.

I don’t wanna lose
a toe or three.

And I’ve got five kids that
love me and respect me.

I was out here to
suffer and struggle

so that they would
never have to again.

I just feel like I
failed all of ’em.

♪ ♪

Oh, thank you so much.

- Here you go, sir.

♪ ♪

Oh, my God.

♪ ♪

Leaving this place
isn’t the hard part.

It’s leaving this
place empty-handed.

Always gonna be in
the back of my head.

Every nail I drive,

every time I pick
up a screw g*n,

"[bleep], man, you
could’ve had $500,000."

♪ ♪

I’ve been out here for 55 days.

I haven’t seen my
family in 66 days.

I appreciate it.

♪ ♪

No matter what’s happened,

I’ll be the husband
I should’ve been.

I’ll be the father
that I wanna be.

♪ ♪

Now, I have had problems
putting my boots on.

- I can imagine.

- I don’t know if my
feet have swollen.

I’m not sure.

But just pulling my boot on,

it’s taking everything I got,

and then whenever I
finally get one on,

I have to rest for a second.

- Okay.

- And I’ve been trying, man.

I have been taking my parka

and wrapping my parka
around ’em and everything.

- Okay, prop this up.

- Sorry. Man,
they hurt so bad.

- So...

- Sensation? Can
you feel it here?

- Down here?

- Bottom of the foot?

- That’s sore as
[bleep] right there.

- Toes? Feel ’em?

- Yeah, but they hurt.
- Okay.

- You need this stuff off too?

- Yeah, we are gonna take

one last weigh-in
right now as well.

You are weighing out at...



- [exhales sharply]

- 216 pounds. 216.

- I’ve lost, like, 85 pounds.

- We’re gonna be spending
a decent chunk of time

together over the next two weeks

while we make sure that

everything’s going
well with your body.

- Just ready for a hot shower,
a warm bed, and a hot meal.

- No, I haven’t had any
nausea for a little while.

I think that that
broth really helped.

♪ ♪

I’ve seen the effort
that I’ve put into this.

And I’ve pushed my body
and I’ve pushed my mind.

So I’m gonna pick myself
up and keep going.

♪ ♪

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- I’d like the win and
I’d like the money,

but at what cost?

I’m getting weaker.

There was no way I
could sleep last night.

’Cause I had to be sure,

can I live with this
decision to quit?

♪ ♪

I think I’m done.

I just... you know,
I haven’t felt good.

I can’t sleep good.

There’s been a lot of good
come out of this journey.

I’ll never take things
for granted near the same.

And I’ve proven I
don’t need the crutches

and things I’ve been
hiding behind for years.

♪ ♪

You know what?

Yeah, the money
would’ve been nice,

but I’ve never had it,

so I’ll never miss it, you know?

That was only... That
was only part of it.

I’ve... I gave it what I had.

And just everything about me
is saying it’s time to go.

♪ ♪

- Fresh bone broth.

♪ ♪

Careful. It might be hot.

- Thanks.

- Take it easy
when you drink it.

♪ ♪

- It’s good.

♪ ♪

It’s just warm. [laughs]

But it’s tasty.

♪ ♪

I have no regrets.

♪ ♪

I have no bad
feelings leaving here.

♪ ♪

This experience has taught
me to look for the positives.

♪ ♪

I’m lighter.

The burdens are gone.
The demons are gone.

So it’s time to go home.

♪ ♪

Oh, that’s nice!

- Oh, yeah.

- They’re not
frostbit or nothing,

but like I said, the
one toenail fell.

I don’t know why it fell off.

I didn’t stub it. I
didn’t do nothing.

- You mentioned the dizziness.

Is that coming only when
you’re kind of bending over

or standing up...
- Yeah.

- Or does it ever happen
when you’re lying down?

- Nope, it’s kinda...
- Okay.

- Just confirming...
just nausea. No vomiting.

- None.

- Does eating change
your nausea at all?

- No. I’ve been
hungry for weeks.

And even though I eat,

I’ve had that hungry feeling.

I pay attention to
my body, always have,

and it was telling
me it’s time to go.

- Yup.

Now, I bent my toe like that

and that opened right up.

That was...

- A little.
- That’s a little blood there.

Right here.
- Kay. Yep. Yep.

- This one here?
- Mm-hmm.

- Okay, the sensation
of your toes is okay?

Can you feel this? This one?
- Yep.

I mean, you know, they’re
kinda going a little numby.

- But all things
look pretty good

for what you’ve gone through.

- I’m proud of my journey.

Nature gives you every
opportunity to succeed

and every chance to fail.

I didn’t win this competition,
but I did pretty damn good.

♪ ♪

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- It was 66 days.
That’s a long time.

- Let’s take a
quick look at them,

and then we’ll get
the boots back on.

- Yeah, I still have
more left mentally,

but I think physically, I’m
near the end of the line.

♪ ♪

If you guys had a bag
of Doritos right now,

your life would be in danger.

I’m serious. Your
life would...

- Is there anything
you need help with?

- Oh, my God, are you serious?

[both laughing]

- Oh, my God!
- Oh, my God.

[both laughing]

Holy [bleep].
- [laughs]

It’s over? I get to go home?

- Whoo! [laughs]
- Oh, yeah.

- Are you ready?
- You look so good.

- Thank you.
- You look great.

Can’t believe you
snuck up behind me.

Oh, my God, what a sight.
- These guys are incredible.

- I couldn’t believe it.
- Very well planned.

The kids, actually,
they just knew

this was gonna be
how it was gonna end.

We’ve been counting
kinda day by day.

- And it’ll sink in in a second.

I won? I actually won.

- You’re the last
person standing

on "Alone" season ten.

You did it.
- Geez.

♪ ♪

So I’ll show you
the other spots.

- Yeah, so I caught
almost all my fish here.

’Cause that ice is thin.

And it’s, like, 12
feet deep right there.

This is where I got my water.

- I just kept this
over top with moss

and it never freezes over.

I’ve walked all the
way around here.

I’ve been to there.

I hunted moose down there
at the end of the lake

where all the birch were.

Yeah.

That’s it.
- I’m so happy for you, Alan.

- Or is it champagne?
- [laughs]

- Whiskey?

- I don’t know if that’s gonna
be in your diet for a while.

- I think it’s broth.
That’s my guess.

Is it? Oh, it is broth.
- Yes.

- This is probably...
Oh, my God, salt?

Is that salt I smell?

- Your senses are completely
heightened right now, hey?

- Everyone’s breath,
I can tell...

I can tell everyone
exactly what they ate

last night and this morning.

I’m not kidding.

♪ ♪

I have fantasized
about this moment.

And it feels
amazing to have won.

It’s so surreal right now.

Whoo!
- Whoo!

[laughs]

- You can fly it backwards too?

- See you later.

- I’m just a guy who
loves the outdoors

and a average Joe teacher.

Being the first teacher to win,

I feel happy.

I feel proud.

Like, family and my students,

they are why I was able
to stay so long, you know?

Winning "Alone" feels like

a culmination of
all my passions.

Nice.

- You’re here.
- [sighs]

- You’re here.
- I’m here.

We did it, babe.
- I know you did it.

What the hell? [both laugh]

How’s it going, man? Hey.

- Congratulations.
- Thanks. Thank you, man.

- At 7:00 in the morning,
the helicopter was flying...

- Yeah.
- And I thought

the last person had tapped.

- I was wondering who
the second guy was,

and I said it...
I said it was you.

I said... top three,
I go, "Wyatt’s there

’cause he’s the other guy
that knows how to fish."

- It was a ride, eh?
- Oh.

It was a ride. It was a ride.

♪ ♪

- It’s really cozy.

- Oh, my God. Wow.

I’m so looking
forward to sharing

the amazing experiences I had
being alone in the wilderness.

♪ ♪