10x08 - Infestation

[bunniefuu]

[dramatic music]

♪

- Oh, man.

I'm not feeling well at all.

I realized today that my
body could not be pushed

as much as I thought it could.

So I'm gonna double
up on my food.

I'm so full right now.

- I'll take a little
quick walk around here.

I set out to adapt to this land.

And I've achieved that.

Squirrel.

Knock on wood, I'm
feeling really strong

in this game now.

- I stabbed myself in the arm.

I pulled about 1 1/2
inch piece of wood out.

Oh.

I probably shouldn't
have done that.

I've got all the other
stuff out of it, I'm sure.

- I want to stay out
here for as long as I can

and push myself.

[gasps] It's a giant pike.

The days to push
are coming. I know.

Oh!

He just took my lure.

- This is disgusting. Ugh.

This was my food, like,
for the next ten days.

Maggots.

I don't know what to do now.

[sighs]

♪

- I'm gonna do this,
man. I'm gonna do this.

I'm gonna fight this thing
out to the last breath.

♪

- OK.

Game on. [bear growls]

- [groans]

- I got him.

Narrator: In "Alone's"
most remote location yet...

- Yes!

Narrator: Ten participants set
out to survive at all costs...

- [groans]
- My goal is stay alive.

♪

- [inhales sharply] Ah!

Narrator: Battling
extreme isolation...

- There is no camera crews.

You are really alone. [sighs]

- It'll eat at you, tear you up.

- God, why?
- It's a battle.

Nobody ever comes out the same.

- Oh, man.

- It'd be impossible to.

Narrator: And
fierce predators.

- A big bear is right
outside my shelter.

- Predators like that
damn sure gonna k*ll you.

- Please don't rip my face off.
[animal screeches]

- He bit the hell out of me.

Narrator: They'll
endure merciless wind...

- It's been over 60 hours,
and it has not let up.

- I can hear the trees
falling down around me.

Narrator: And bitter cold.

- This whole place has
turned into a frozen hell.

Narrator: Last one standing...

- It's a moose. Wow.

- Whoo-hoo-hoo-hoo!

- No, no.

Narrator: Wins.

♪

- That's it.

I've taken all I can stand.

And I just can't stand no more.

These rats are
getting on my nerves.

Kept me up late last night.

I set up a prop
stick and string.

And they were chewing on
the top of my damn pan.

And so it was really loud.
[imitates screeching]

And whenever I'd hear
that, I'd pull the string.

And it actually
caught me four rats.

I guess I'm gonna skin
and gut them, cook 'em.

[soft music]

I think these are
the smallest animals

I've ever skinned in my life.

I think I won the
rat w*r for now.

I was told to be
thankful for everything.

One little cleaned rat.

I'm thankful for being here.
This is a dream come true.

Wish I had more food.

♪

Two down, two to go.

I tell you what,
by the end of this,

I'm gonna be a rat
skinning expert.

That squirrel was good.

Make a tasty little snack.

♪

That's three.

Getting the little
damn thing started

is the hardest
[bleep] part here,

pulling out his fur.

There's four little
skinned out rats.

Two of these guys
will be cooking today.

Mm, rat brains.

Skewered a rat.

♪

Eating rats...

♪

It's basically a mind
over matter thing.

If you don't mind,
it don't matter.

One day, I hope I can
sit down with my son

and do some more bushcraft.

I want to be able to
do something with him,

even go sh**t a bow.

Of course, he can't
do that right now.

I want to take him out,
get his first deer.

It's a big moment
in a boy's life.

It's a big moment
in a daddy's life.

Some things will
be harder for him.

Some things will
be easier for him.

But he doesn't have
a tap out button.

That's why I'm here,

to make the rest of
his life a lot easier.

All I have to do is win.

Another whole rat.

And I've got two put away.

[burps]

[dramatic music]

♪

- I was kind of half
asleep, laying in my bed,

and a critter ran over my arm.

That's right. It was a mouse.

You know what he was doing?

Staring at me like this.

Just, with his beady
little black eyes.

And I've named him Scotty.

Look at this.

This is the sweater
that my wife knit me.

And he chewed the
hell out of it.

Like, that's not good.

He's going to chew my
sleeping bag, right?

Man, this guy's dead. It's on.

[tense music]

It's time to put together
my deadfall mouse trap.

♪

Find the flattest
side of the rock.

That should do the trick.

OK.

Now I need my little
trigger mechanism.

I need a thin piece of wood.

So far, this challenge
has been quite enjoyable.

But every day there was
a challenging moment.

And I just have ten
items to survive

in a harsh environment.

So when a mouse starts
impacting your ability

to stay warm and
wrecking your stuff,

I've got to get rid
of this little mouse.

♪

All right, let's see.

Set this bad boy,

just like so.

♪

Don't move, Mister.

♪

OK.

We have it set.

I just need some bait.

It's mouse wars with
Alan and Scotty.

Well, let's get to some fishing.

[upbeat music]

♪

Guys, big news.

This is the new and
improved lake trout baby.

And it's pike proof.

See that?

I didn't have a...

My leader only came
to about there.

So the pike grabbed it.

And he got really sharp
teeth, so my line was...

So went to set the
hook, it cut it.

So now, lake trout
baby two, pike proof.

He's got two smaller
razor sharp hooks.

And the body is smaller,

so it's gonna get
swallowed up more.

I just need to get a strike,
or two, or three, you know.

On a cold day like this,
somehow, I doubt it.

But you just never know.

I think if you want to
just focus on the negative

out here, it would
be really easy.

But my wife said to me, "Al,
find something each morning

to be thankful for, gifts
that the land gives you."

Even though it sounds
kind of corny like that,

but every time I fish,
it's just so gorgeous

seeing all the
wildlife, the birds,

and memorizing their songs.

And that's a gift.

Come on, lake trout.

Let's try one over here.

And even though I
didn't get that pike,

man, it was a gift.

I'm never gonna forget that.

It was pretty cool.

Geez, that's a good long gust.

Holy moly.

Oh.

[tense music]

Right up there.

♪

♪

I just heard a bunch of
grouse flying up here.

♪

These things have been
my nemesis, though.

I can never see them.

♪

Where did they go?

♪

Here, I see one.

He's spread far.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

- Oh, God, yeah.
[laughs]

Oh, my God.

That drilled him.

[laughs] What?

Wow, what a treat, man.

These things have
been my nemesis.

Oh, finally.

I finally caught up with one.

Whoo!

Yeah, they've been...

I've been pretty frustrated
hunting these guys

because they just have
been so evasive for me.

And just, I can't see them.

And by the time I know
that they're there,

they're already flying away
because that's the only reason

I know that they were there.

Yeah, super pumped.

We got a little
chicken for tomorrow.

[dramatic music]

♪

- Good morning.

Just going out for fishing now.

The food I have, I can stretch
it for like five, six days.

I want to go hunting.

I want to try hard to get
a moose for the winter.

And for that, I really
need to eat a lot.

Otherwise, I walk,
and I'm tripping.

I don't want to get
hurt and be pulled out.

♪

[bleep]

And I was depending
just on active fishing

with my rod and reel.

We need $1/2 million.

It's what I want.

So fishing is crucial.

But I grew up in
a fishing village,

so the odds are
in my favor here.

[vocalizing]

[laughs]

♪ Fish

[vocalizing]

♪

If I get some more fish
and more small game,

then I can chase the big game

because that's the ticket.

At that point, the possibility
of winning, it's big.

♪

Oh, my God.

Yes, yes.

♪

♪

Got a pike, my friend.

I got a pike.

Beautiful.

♪

We got fish.

It's fish head soup day.

Fish head soup, fish head soup.

If you ration in the point
that you're not productive,

it just doesn't make sense

because if you're weak,
you don't go hunting.

If you don't go hunting,
you don't get food.

But if I eat now, feel better,

then I'm gonna go hunting,

or I'm gonna go fishing.

I got to protect this food
because everyone wants it.

Getting big game
is very important,

but you have to use a lot
of energy to get to it,

so I need to eat.

There we go.

♪

And let's have some food.

Mm, rich, warm broth.

[animal chirping]

♪

What's that?

♪

♪

Here it is.

[marten screeches]

[impact]

[dramatic music]

- Here it is.
[marten screeches]

[impact]

[sighs]

We got a marten.

There we go.

I knew you were gonna come back.

Probably was, like,
the smell of the fish.

My trout stealer.

My trout robber.

Revenge!

He ate a whole trout.

But I finally got the marten.

Now my food is gonna be safe.

For now.

♪

Well, that trout that you stole
turned into nice fat there.

And food insecurity really
creates long-lasting trauma.

[sighs]

I'm gonna eat the organs.

♪

Fry the guts there.

It's mostly the fear of starving

that gets to your head.

♪

OK, this is the head.

♪

You have an acquired
taste, I must say.

This is this marten tongue.

♪

Mm.

♪

Mm, brain.

♪

I feel better.

I'm full.

Just made me feel like,
whew, I want more.

It make me feel like I
want to hunt a moose.

♪

- God.

OK.

I'm trying to get some sleep.

And I just keep feeling
this vibration, this...

[imitating screeching]
Oh, these damn mouse.

They're just like... but then,
it felt really, really close.

Really close.

And I roll over, and I look.

On my bed, chewing, Scotty.

So I got my revenge.

♪

I k*lled him with my bare hands.

I smacked him like a bug.

Like, what a bold little bugger.

I feel no remorse
for k*lling you, sir.

♪

His chewing days are over.

[dramatic music]

♪

- Well, it's not snow.

But it did blow half
a gale last night.

Absolutely crazy.

But today's a new day from
wild and windy wonderland.

♪

Lighting a fire
is very difficult

when it's very windy.

I mean, I don't
mind. I'm a pyro.

So for me, I just go for
it, and it kind of happens.

But at the same time,
you want to think

about conserving energy
and doing things quickly.

I am eager to finish
my fire shelter.

I really want to get that done.

♪

I'm just so happy I have
a good store of berries.

And, you know,
with this weather,

the berries will start dying.

One cup of berries,


And I have lots of
cups of berries.

I just want to do
things the easiest way

because I don't want to
lose calories needlessly.

I love working hard, but
I also want to work smart.

That's really as about as tall
as I'm going for height-wise.

♪

I definitely use
my knowledge of how

people survived in history to
help myself in the present.

I remembered something which
I'd learnt when I was studying

the soldiers, both the
French and the English,

during the wars in the 1750s.

So this is birch, and
it's absolutely saturated.

And what you can do is use it
as a temporary putty on gaps.

And right now, with this wind,

that's exactly what
I'm gonna do with it.

I learned it from an account
of a soldier's journey

from one fort to another.

And the punky wood
really is so malleable,

you can just press it into
the crevices like this.

And it creates this
airtight barrier.

It's amazing.

OK.

That looks good.

I want to make a fire,
boil some water...

Part of this "Alone"
experience is your head.

It's always your mind
that gives up on you.

Busy hands and busy
minds are very important.

'Cause it's when
people get bored,

that's when they start
thinking negative thoughts.

I find that most humans need
other humans to feel sane.

If they don't have
companionship,

if they don't have someone
to talk to, then they...

They tap out.

Water's boiling.

I'll take that inside
when I'm ready.

There we go.

I know I should get up.

[laughs]

But I'm so comfy.

The sky is an interesting color.

♪

These are snow clouds.

They're heavy.

♪

And they have
sunlight in them too.

♪

Can't allow yourself to
dwell too much on home.

♪

Otherwise, it gets you.

♪

You sit looking
at that direction.

And you know that's where
it is over the horizon.

♪

It's tough, man.

All the things I
love are over there.

♪

[sniffles]

♪

[crying]

[exhales sharply]

Deep breaths.

Pull yourself together.

You'll be there soon enough.

[dramatic music]

♪

- So I've got some
meat and some bones

that I'm wanting to grind.

It'll grind.

I found a stone
with a divot in it,

and I found a stone
with a round end.

So I can use them as
my pestle and mortar.

I have all kinds of
dried out meat and bones.

I had been saving 'em
from my grouse and rats

that I k*lled and
stuff like that.

I'm going to grind 'em all
up and make my pemmican.

It's the nastiest [bleep]
you'll ever put in your mouth.

It is terrible, but
it's full of fat,

and it's full of protein.

My God, that's just awesome.

So far, I have that
much powdered meat.

I just need a little fat.

I wonder if anybody
else out here has got

a powdered meat bag.

I'm almost willing to
say that they don't.

♪

All right.

See if we can't go
find something to eat.

All your protein around here
is made to get away from you.

It has natural camouflage
that has kept it alive.

Anything that can k*ll it,
it has evolved to avoid that.

♪

Well, I found some
berries, which is awesome.

Edibles don't run.

Edibles don't fly.

Not a whole lot of
berries left around here.

I've been taking
every opportunity

that I can out here.

So I carry forage bags
on me at all times.

♪

Here's some more berries.

If you have a
wealth of knowledge

of the basic edibles in an area,

then you can live
for a long time

and not have to worry
so much about proteins.

And you can sustain yourself
until you have an opportunity

to get those proteins.

I don't want to go without food,

but I want to
reserve just in case,

if I can't go outside
for three days.

Temperature is
starting to drop again.

Fingers are starting
to get cold.

And when I get back
to the Sasquatch hut,

maybe try to make a
little fruit leather.

Then I can have pemmican
and fruit leather.

♪

I didn't get grass.

But I did get a
[bleep] ton of berries,

which is awesome because
berries are real hard

to find right now.

All right.

So I've got about a handful
of cranberries in my pot.

Gonna crush 'em up
and then strain 'em.

♪

This is just my skill set.

I'm a modern day caveman.

I can do this, and I
can swing a hammer.

Haven't made $500,000
swinging a hammer,

nor will I ever.

I know my purpose out
here. I know why I'm here.

I can't afford the
therapy that my son needs.

That's why.

There's my goo.

♪

All right, I'm gonna
start by putting one twist

in this thing right here,

shoving the whole
damn thing in the jar.

♪

I'd say that's most of
the juice out of that one.

I know that there's
groups online and stuff

that just bash everybody
that's been on "Alone."

And I'm sure that I'm
gonna hear about it

with my special needs child.

I think people take for
granted all the things

that they can do
with their kids.

So here I am out here
in the woods all alone.

And if I do win this,
in all of his life,

he'll never have to
want for anything.

He's the reason I want to leave.

He's the reason I want to stay.

See that?

That's fruit leather. Look.

Look at that.

Man, that's awesome.

I feel like I'm
making progress here.

♪

- Heading out.

Should go check my snares
and go check the spot

that I've seen moose tracks.

A few days ago, I went
through a big marsh.

And I could see footprints.

Everything was moose.

You can survive here
without big game.

But if you get a
big game, I mean,

your job is just
to eat and sleep.

And with the winter
coming, that's what I want.

And today as well.

And I think that
was a good choice

because you have to
use a lot of energy

to go hunting and hike a lot.

[leaves rustling]

The wind is blowing right
through my scene location here.

All right. Let's
get out of the wind.

I'm gonna go back to the shelter

and work on my project.

♪

Oh.

Let's continue.

Hey.

So this is the soundboard.

It's a board I found

on the shore.

And this is the sound
box, and the neck,

and the place you put the
pegs to hold the strings.

♪

Music is something
actually new in my life.

But acting was for years my job.

I really value
and love the arts.

There is a human connection.

I have to be very
careful because I know

it's been a lot of work already.

So I'll run it through myself.

I had very good support
in that from my mother.

But my stepfather, you know,

he was not accepting
the way I was.

He was rough around the
edges, and he was firm.

This is good.

I needed to work more
hours on the field

to plant cassava
and stuff like that.

There was that expectation.

Now I'm adding a string to test,

a test string here.

♪

[plucks string]

For example, he didn't
like I played soccer.

It was a waste of time.

♪

There we go.

We have three
holes where you can

put the strings through.

Let's tune it.

Today, what I see of him in me,

it's being resilient.

What we are different is
the level of creativity.

[plucking strings]

And I'm hoping
that, watching this,

and he see my journey, and the
challenges, and the successes,

I hope he feel proud

because he has taught
me many skills needed

to survive in the woods.

And maybe this could be healing,

not just for me,
but also for him.

All right.

Some improvement to be made.

But nevertheless, a fun start.

[plays guitar]

[dramatic music]

♪

What's she look like?

Ah.

It doesn't look too bad anymore.

♪

Oh.

♪

Ugh.

Look, she still got a... ugh.

♪

Still got a fair bit
of stuff in it though.

♪

Be a thing of beauty.

I think I'm gonna leave that.

Nah.

I probably should
put a Band-Aid on it.

Come this far, may as
well keep it as clean

as we can.

There.

Now you got stuff for
the fire. [chuckles]

Biohazard.

♪

Now that that's done,

let's go see if the fishing gods

will smile upon us once more.

Brr.

It is cold out there, campers.

♪

Let's catch a fish.

You ready, little devil?

I'm ready too.

There we go.

♪

I'm not ready for snow yet,

but it's not gonna be long.

The winter is coming.

♪

Come on, fish.

Where is the fish?

Where's the fish?

It's been cold.

And the fish have
really been down.

They're just not hitting.

Yeah, I haven't even
seen a follow up.

Nothing this morning.

They've shut down on
the lures for a bit.

And it's been a couple days,

and nothing in the gill net.

[blowing]

Wow, it's amazing how
quick the hands cool off.

My reel, my rod, they
don't work with gloves,

so it's cold.

So fishing's gonna kind of suck.

But the hands need
a quick warm up.

Wow.

♪

Try this again, shall we?

♪

I'm on the last loop on my belt,

so I've lost some weight.

I was hoping I wouldn't
do it quite this quickly,

but we are counting
up on day 40.

No fish.

Damn.

So we can hunker down, you know,

keep my portions smaller.

And we'll see what
this weather does.

It's got the potential to
really drop in temperature.

She won't be long, and
we'll be ice fishing.

Brr.

♪

- Last night, I had a
massive bout of homesickness

as I was sitting by the fire.

Oh, man.

Really tough.

Just being away makes you
really appreciate someone,

you know?

So, yeah, just missing him

and missing our amazing
life up on the mountain.

♪

I'm gonna go make myself
some nice hot drink,

add some carbs and
starches into it,

and sit by the fire.

Oh, my God.

[groans]

Oh, I have to show
you something.

[chuckles]

That is unfortunate.

That's my thermals.

[chuckles] Oh, my God.

Do they actually stand
up by themselves?

Wow, put a dent in it.

[laughs]

I guess I'm gonna have to
hang this over the fire pit.

♪

Make a little rack.

Hang it over.

Keep it away from the flames.

The weather is changing.
It definitely is changing.

That's for sure.
Winter is coming.

And that means I
have to prepare.

My God, this is probably
how I'm gonna be drying

my clothes from now on in.

It's almost dry.
Almost completely dry.

That's amazing.

The most important thing
to prepare for winter

is your food.

Reindeer moss is really cool.

But it doesn't taste good,
whereas the rock tripe

actually has a
consistency and a taste

that I'm really enjoying.

It's like a toasty,
nutty flavor.

So chewy.

Crazy.

And it's a survival food.

It's what they survived
on in the 1750s

during the French
and Indian w*r.

And I'm gonna survive on it too

because if they can, I can.

♪

It's like ten days' worth
plus what's in the pan,

which is another
three for 13 days.

So I have a good amount
of reindeer moss.

And I'm just gonna let those dry

and bake it to evaporate every
single ounce of moisture,

and then turn it into flour.

So the flour gives me the
carbs and the starches.

But it also dissolves
into the liquid.

And if I mix that
with the rock tripe,

no problem at all,

which is important
psychologically

to enjoy eating
your food out here.

♪

Oh, I miss Brian.

Brian asked me to marry
him before we left.

We'd been having
problems with bears.

So I knew there
were bears around.

One day, he runs up to me.

He's like, "Mel, come, come!

"I think I found a bear
track, found a bear trail.

I think I know
where they are."

So we grabbed the g*ns.

And I'm like, oh,
hell yeah. Let's go.

We're, like,
following this track.

And there's, like, a big trail.

And it's like, whoa,
yeah, it's really obvious.

It's a [bleep]
bear. It's amazing.

And then, we get to the
top of the mountain.

He's like, "Yeah, it's
around here somewhere.

It must be around
here somewhere."

So I was, like, looking around.

Brian's like... he's behind me.
He's like, "Mel, look down."

[chuckles] And I look down.

And on the ground...

[chuckles]

♪

[breathes shakily]

♪

There's a blanket with a bottle

of champagne and two roses.

[sniffles] And I'm
like, "Wait, what?"

And I turn around to him,
and he's on one knee.

And he's got the ring out.

And I'm like, oh.

It wasn't a bear.

And he asked me to marry him.

I mean, really lovely ring.

Can't wait to wear it again.

Not allowed to
wear my ring here.

I wonder why not.

I know why.

It's part of the
psychological warfare.

We will wear you down.

We will make you homesick.

I think I'm doing a good
enough job myself of that.

[laughs]

[dramatic music]

♪

[guitar playing]

- ♪ In the morning

♪ I'm gonna make
some lavender tea ♪

♪ In the morning

♪ I'm gonna eat some pike

♪ Oh, in the morning

♪ I won't let my
spirit fall down ♪

♪ In the morning

♪ I'm gonna get some trout

♪ I will, a trout
here, my friends ♪

♪ In the morning

♪ I will keep trying

Needs some improvement, but hey,

you get grooving, and I
guess things work out.

[dramatic music]

I'm very hungry.

I need fish to fuel me.

I want to take the
canoe out on the water

because right now it's calm,

and I can get to
fish in deeper water.

All right.

I'm going to go up there
in the entrance of the cove

and see how it goes.

Flotation device on.

So far, so good.

♪

I have food for tomorrow
and then zero food.

I was hoping it was
going to last longer.

But one day, your body is OK.

The other day, your
body needs more food.

And we have to catch something.

I'm scared that I'm
not gonna be able

to stay as long as I want

because a few days
ago, I went hunting.

I was, like, so weak,
so not productive.

Just giving it some action,
see if we can attract.

Then there is the
aspect of being alone.

The thing about being
alone is this...

It's when you fail on stuff.

That is the challenge
for me, though.

I don't have anyone
to even share that.

And the impact, it's huge.

We need an anchor,
so we can stay put.

While I am in my lowest
point, I think of my kids.

They live in Brazil, but
I want to win the prize

to get them here
to live with me.

It's a good spot here.

I'm the person that
they call to talk

about anything, really,

helping them with
homework and high school,

and just guiding them

through very different
situations and tough times.

But it's hard being
away from them.

They're 18.

And pretty soon,
they're gonna be adults

and go on their lives.

And for every day that
I am away from them,

I'm losing that window
into the formation

of their personality.

♪

Whew.

I need a sense of family
in this new country,

where I am alone.

I didn't think things
would be that easy.

Not at all.

Things are hard.

♪

Hello.

I'm tired.

I'm hungry.

And I'm just, like,
walking in the woods

and thinking about the
people that I love.

And, you know...

[sniffles] It takes
a toll on you.

You know?

♪

I miss the rhythm of my
life back home and...

♪

That's what happen, you know,
when you're hungry and alone.

[laughs]

That's what happens
when you're hungry,

and you're alone, you know.

It's... whew!

Man, there's nothing else left

but you and your feelings.

♪

We just know when we
don't have, you know.

Let's get some food.

Today is a struggling day.

Tomorrow I'm gonna
go back to fishing.

♪

- So it just [bleep]
started raining.

Weather changes around
here like crazy.

Sounds like it's
snowing ice again.

Sleet and hail.

I just wish, if
it was gonna snow,

it'd go ahead and snow, so
I could do some tracking.

I hate just being
stuck in my shelter.

This is the worst times
when you're just stuck here.

Hate this [bleep].

I'm gonna take my boots
off and just lay here

in the sleeping bag,
get warmed up good,

make a piece for
my dreamcatcher.

♪

I wanted to make a
puzzle piece for my son.

♪

And it means so much to me.

♪

It really does.

♪

God, I miss that little boy.

I miss him with all my heart.

He's about to turn five.

And I'm not gonna be there.

[groans]

♪

I already miss so much
just working all the time.

I usually take off of work
just for his birthday.

Even if we don't do
anything that day,

I'm always there
on his birthday.

Always.

I've really done a whole
lot of nothing today,

and I'm tired.

It's ridiculous.

[bleep] got to stop.

♪

This is the first birthday
that I won't be there.

It kind of makes you feel like
a horrible, horrible parent.

There.

♪

A little puzzle piece.

I chose this style
of puzzle piece

because I made it look
kind of like a little man.

And that's what he represents.

He's my little man.

[sniffles]

Now I got to put it
on my dream catcher.

And there it is, on
my dream catcher.

That little piece of wood
right there represents...

♪

The most sincerest
form of innocence

and the sweetest
boy you ever meet.

♪

I miss him so bad.

I swear to God, it's
a physical pain.

♪

It really is.

[dramatic music]

♪

- Well, brr morning.

It is cold.

I don't know how cold,

but it's cold.

[rattling]

That's the ice.

I had to break ice on my water

this morning to brush my teeth.

The wind is blowing
out of the North again.

It's not an overly strong wind,

but it's a cool wind.

And I'm adjusting.

Ready to go.

Day 40, day 40, yes.

♪

- Ooh, winter is
here, my friend.

Winter is really here, so...

And we're gonna go fishing
because I've got to get food.

Yeah, we're gonna hike
up to the fishing spot.

But I'm not so...

I'm not so positive about that.

I think the wind is
blowing on the other side.

Well, you know what?

We're gonna do it. Gonna
take a little walk, easy.

♪

- Snow. I knew
it would be here.

♪

Holy cow.

♪

- I'm gonna be taking
extra slow time.

Now it's crucial
not to get sweaty.

♪

I do have one dry pair
of change of clothes.

♪

And we have to
keep that that way.

♪

- Hope I don't trip.

I feel sluggish.

So I need to not do a
lot of exhaustive work.

♪

Eh, are you sure?

♪

Should I go far?

♪

I just don't think
that's the best choice.

♪

- Main goal is to get as
many berries as we can.

Because it keeps getting
white around here.

♪

And I don't see it
getting any better.

♪

I'm down to a handful
of bear berries.

There's virtually no
crow berries around.

I'm almost down to protein only.

It's getting that cold.

Thing about berries is,
they'll give me my vitamin C,

a couple other vitamins,
a few calories.

So I need to get all of 'em.

OK.

Back at the berry patch.

I think I'm gonna start down
here and work my way this way.

♪

How cold can it get here?

Minus 30s, guaranteed.

Minus 50 is a very
strong probability.

This place can be cruel.

A lot of them are
covered in snow already.

♪

Mother Nature is one that
you have to work with her.

If you ever think you're
gonna beat her, you're a fool.

♪

Days that the weather is rough,

I'm gonna have to
find something to do.

- It's freezing [bleep] cold.

♪

That's amazing.

The ground's frozen in here.

Piece of wood is frozen.

♪

Ain't that just some [bleep].

- It's kind of like a process.

It's not even a day at a
time. It's a moment at a time.

And I believe that
the land will tell me

what I should do next.

- Got one or two more
reindeer mosses to process.

I'll do that today, just
keep the fire going.

And I can come back and
get warm if I need it too.

♪

- Nature doesn't judge.

Nature gives you every
opportunity to succeed

and every chance to fail.

It's what you do with it
that makes a difference.

- Let's walk down to the water,

see how it looks.

♪

Oh, look at that.

♪

The fishing hole is calling me,

even though that's my
fishing rock down there,

the one jutting out there,
just covered in snow

almost right down to the shore.

I'm hoping that the
part down by the water

is not covered in ice.

♪

It's hard to know how
many people are left.

What adventures have they had?

Have they got food stored?

Have they got two weeks of fish?

- I think that's good.

♪

But I think I'm gonna throw
the gloves on for a bit,

warm the body back up.

- Days like this really
test your will to be here,

let me tell you.

Because you know
you can just leave.

I could press that button.

It's tempting, knowing
that it's that easy

to be this close to comfort.

We'll see how my body feels.

Like, I've come this far.

I might as well go all the way,

as far as I can push it.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

♪

- I don't have a lot of
energy to go hunting.

♪

Oh, I can barely walk.

♪

[sighs]

♪

People can just, like, fall
and stay there on the ground.

[groans]

♪

And I don't know how long
I can keep up with that.

♪

[groans] God.

This challenge has been
making me reflect a lot.

♪

It's a pressure of survival.

And the stress of not
having food for the future

makes you reflect
on your own life.

I miss home.

But then I ask,
but where is home?

♪

Is home the tree house where
I live in in the birch trees?

♪

Is home Brazil, with my family?

♪

I miss my kids.

I've been living
away from their lives

since they were three.

I'm doing this with
the hope of winning

$1/2 million to bring
my kids to live with me.

But I think I have
a little window.

My kids are gonna go away soon,

building their own family.

And the fear is turning
this epic adventure

into a great regret.

My legs are wobbly and
barely can walk around.

And I do not want long-term
health complications.

But I love this place.

And I want to go
as far as I can.

♪

I don't know.

♪

[beeping]

Hi, this is Taz, and I am
officially tapping out.

♪

I tried my best, but
it's time to go back.

♪

I'll figure out a different
way to bring you guys here

and to help you guys
explore this new world.

♪

I'm tapping out
because I'm weak.

I cannot procure
food effectively.

And without food,
if you're sluggish,

feel tired, and you
feel more emotional...

Yeah, and that's
a very hard thing.

That's just hard.

I think I have not spent
enough quality time

with my friends and
family, you know.

I'm always like, get things
done, and conquer things,

and not slowing down
to spend quality time.

And that's something that
I have to put in place

because time passes, you know.

That's something that
this place showed me.

♪

Through my life, I feel
that I have displaced

different chunks of time.

For example, at a young
age to be a father,

you end up missing
out on being a kid

because you have
responsibility very early on.

But being here in the woods
was a great opportunity

to shuffle things
into a different order

that give me a little bit
of control of my future.

I came to win.

And that didn't
really pan out for me.

But you know what,

I grew up in the
tiniest state of Brazil.

And against all
odds, 11 years ago,

I came to the U.S. and didn't
speak a word in English.

Now I'm on this
show, and surviving,

and speaking in English.

And if I can make
all that happen,

what I would like to say
to my kids is, I love you,

and that we're gonna be
together in this new chapter

of our lives soon.

[Wind whistling]

- Are you ready to
check the deadfall?

Three, two, one.

Yes, we have a mouse.

Is there actually
any meat on you?

No, not really.

- I'm worried I'm
not eating enough.

I just feel really weak.

There's bears in the area.

I don't want to
take any chances.

♪

Whoo!

Happy birthday!

- Holy [bleep].

My arm, I feel discomfort.

I squeeze this.

♪

Oh, [bleep].

♪

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- The weather is picking
up, and I went on a hunt

and I barely made it back.

This experience has been

illuminating for
me, for my life.

Have revealed need for family.

My daughter, she was going
to come to pick me up,

you know, when I win this.

It's gonna be hard
to tell her, like,

I was not able to
make it, you know?

♪ ♪

Sorry, guys. It's
the end of the road.

♪ ♪

I was betting on fishing
and the big game.

So I was hiking far, even
on empty, to get big game.

But the weather has been, like,

very chaotic and, like,
you know, unpredictable,

and with extreme winds,
it's really, you know, hard

on hunting and
fishing, for sure.

How can I hunt if I just
walk, you know, a mile

and I barely can come
back to the shelter now?

♪ ♪

Feel a little bit like
a failure, you know?

♪ ♪

You know, and disappointing
friends that think that...

Thought I would win.

I thought I would
win too, but...

didn't happen, and...

I feel like, "Damn it, man."

Really wanted to go further.

But it's hard when
you don't have food

or the energy to continue.

♪ ♪

Thank you.

♪ ♪

Ah.

Sorry, man, I
didn't stay longer.

♪ ♪

This so good. What
is this, bone broth?

- Beef.
- Beef broth.

- Beef bone broth, yeah.

- Five days, I've been
thinking about carrots.

[laughing]

Weird, right?

♪ ♪

This is place is
a beautiful place.

And it's my little
home out here.

I do not want to leave.

But nature made her decision.

And it's time

to go and embrace the
decision I have made.

♪ ♪

I want to leave this experience

with a sense of accomplishment,

not with a sense of resentment.

So my story continues.

And this experience
makes me grow,

adds to my arsenal of adventure

that took me out of
tough times in life.

- It's nice and warm in here.
- Wow.

♪ ♪

- And the heart's felt
fine the whole time?

No issues with it racing?
- No issue.

- No issues with having
to catch your breath

on exertion or anything?
- No.

- Is the weakness
localized anywhere?

Is it just kind of entire body?

Is it more legs?
Is it more arms?

- More legs.
- More legs.

- More legs, yeah.

Does it mean anything,
more legs, no?

- No, these are things
that I would expect.

Basically, you're not putting

as much nutrients into
your body as you need.

- Okay.

- So take your left arm.

[both speaking Portuguese]

- I'm pretty happy with how
you're looking right now.

I like seeing people
come out in your state

because you could do

significantly more
damage to your body.

And then we'll get all your gear

transferred over
to your new place.

- Okay.
- And then we'll get you set up

so you can have
a nice hot shower

and get cooking later.

- Oh. Is that a thing?

Hot shower?
- Hot shower.

- Is a thing? Does it exist?
- We have a hot shower.

I can promise.
- Okay, neat.

Being out here, I realized
that what keeps me going is,

you know, loved ones and family

and that energy that I know
they are thinking of me,

and I want to go back
home and feel heard

and to be cared for and
that sense of connection.

♪ ♪