10x05 - Spirit Bear

[bunniefuu]

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- I'm gonna do this, man.

I'm gonna do this.

I'm gonna fight this thing
out till the last breath.

♪ ♪

- OK, game on.

[bear growls]

- [grunts]
- I got him.

- In "Alone's" most
remote location yet...

- [screams]

- Ten participants set out
to survive at all costs.

- My goal is to stay alive.

♪ ♪

- [groans]

- Battling extreme isolation.

- There is no camera crews.

You are really alone.

- It'll eat at you, tear you up.

- God, why?
- It's a battle.

Nobody ever comes out the same.

- Oh, man.
- It'd be impossible to.

- And fierce predators.

- It's a big bear.

It was right outside my shelter.

- Predators like that
damn sure gonna k*ll you.

- Please don't rip my face off.
[marten screeching]

Ow. He bit the hell out of me.

- They'll endure
merciless wind...

- Been over 60 hours,
and it has not let up.

- I can hear the trees
falling down around me.

- And bitter cold.

- This whole place has
turned into a frozen hill.

- Last one standing...
- It's a moose. Wow.

- Whoo!
- No, no.

- Wins.

♪ ♪

- I'm out looking for
anything this morning.

See how fresh that
bear [bleep] is?

I just got to find him.

I don't have to accept failure.

I just have to
continue to get food.

- [sighs]

I don't think I can
sh**t this bear.

It's obviously a sow with cubs.

What a beautiful sign.

Time to go home to my
mama bear and my cub.

♪ ♪

- I hit it.

Hell yeah.

I got a bird, but
I'm down an arrow.

- Now that I have my
shelter completed,

this pull to go home is
just burning inside of me.

This is Jodi Rose. I'm
officially tapping out.

- Stay right there, my friend.
[marten snarls]

You're free, you're free!

I'm gonna take
down all my snares.

I haven't seen any rabbits,

and I did not like that poor
thing suffering in that snare.

- Can you see it? Oh, h*.

[imitates growling]

I got two nice fish.

Yes!

I put them in safe
reservoir for the night.

How the [bleep]?

Oh, no, they're gone.

Obviously, it [bleep] wasn't.

♪ ♪

- Done the gillnet.

She's done.

Launch the gillnet
into the lake.

♪ ♪

The fishing doesn't
get any better

as it goes into winter.

So it was good to have
another means of potentially

getting food besides
hand casting.

So I'm really putting a lot
of hope into my gillnet.

♪ ♪

[sighs] Man.

After all that, I
forgot to press record.

I just launched my gillnet.

It went really smoothly.

Yeah, so there's
the gillnet, guys.

I'm just looking for some
half blind, dumb old fish

to swim into it.

♪ ♪

Good day for building
the door to the shelter.

I don't want to get hit
with three or four days

of crappy weather
and be stuck in there

without the door.

♪ ♪

I wasn't too
interested in school.

It's so ironic because
I'm a teacher now, right?

But no, school wasn't my thing.

I hated doing homework.

I want to keep these
ones more spaced out

because my door tapers
wide at the bottom.

What do I want to do in life?
I want to have fun, right?

I don't want to go
home and do homework.

I want to go ride my bike.
I want to go fishing.

There's some good moss up here.

The teachers I
respected the most

and worked the hardest
for were the ones that

I had a good relationship with,

that had time for me,
was interested in me

as a human.

This is gonna be one
well insulated door,

that's for sure.

My favorite part
about teaching is

the relationships
and connections

you form with the kids.

I like to show them
my human side a lot.

I admit when I make mistakes.

I'm constantly joking around
and just trying to have

as much fun as possible.

That will hold that moss
there, like, rock solid.

And trying to think of
ways to make learning fun.

♪ ♪

And that's my door, my
insulated moss door.

That's sweet.

I'm ready for winter.

♪ ♪

- Being hungry makes you
do some questionable stuff.

Howdy, mister.

Um, you the guy
giving out berries?

I be that man.

♪ ♪

You be the man
looking for the bears?

How did you know I was
looking for a bear?

He come through here?

Where'd he go?

I couldn't tell you that
kind of information.

That bear, he told me
you're a crafty feller.

Ain't to be trusted.

Not me. I'm a pretty
trustworthy guy.

Mm.

You seem down on your luck.

♪ ♪

Can of berries for your trouble.

Thank you so much. Thank you.

Now, get.

Yes, sir.

I'll be on my way.

♪ ♪

Hi there.

Are you the guy
giving out berries?

You look at an awful lot like
the first fella who just come

running through these parts.

Not me.

I've never been here
a day in my life.

You sure you ain't
the same fella?

I'm positive.

Take your berries and get.

Thank you so much.

♪ ♪

Can of berries. Two cans.

What a dummy.

Cowboys are so dumb.

Today is the day.

Today's bear day.

♪ ♪

Hopefully, that bear's
out in that meadow,

picking off the very
last of the berries.

I got a good idea
where I want to sit.

All I can do is hope he'll
do what I think he's gonna do

and be there waiting on him.

♪ ♪

OK.

There's a little bit of berries
still left in this patch

out here.

I got berries left.

So there's a main trail that
the caribou and the bears

are using that comes
right down here.

♪ ♪

I'll try and just
set up on this trail.

We'll make a little blind out
of this cubby of trees here.

♪ ♪

I didn't gain any weight
for this competition.

I know that will be
a hindrance to me.

But I don't think that
it would be right.

I believe that the
idea of being out here

is to see how long I can survive

on this little "Gilligan's
Island" territory.

I'll use this tree
as a little chair.

Just don't want all
that bark down my neck

every time I move my head.

♪ ♪

Think that's pretty good.

♪ ♪

Long days in this
blind. I'm going crazy.

♪ ♪

It takes a lot of
mental strength

to force yourself to sit here.

♪ ♪

Thinking about my little boy
a lot while I'm out here.

I try not to, but I think
a lot about the baby

we just lost as well.

When it's on my mind,
I try to escape it,

but it's not really something
that you can get away from.

Now I just need a bear.

I just need a bear.

♪ ♪

[sighs]

I had enough.

Couldn't sit no more.

I've come to the...

I've come to the
realization that...

that was my last walk that
far till I can get some...

some serious food of some kind.

I think I see a squirrel.

I do see a squirrel
way up in that tree.

[squirrel chittering]

♪ ♪

I'm very hungry.

I need this.

♪ ♪

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- Got him.

I got him good.

He's bleeding good.

Where is it?

I can't even find it now.

[bleep].

I think he's dead
in the tree now.

[sighs]

I'm so hungry.

So I'm gonna try and
climb this tree real quick

and get to him.

He's right... He's
right up there.

He quit moving, and I can
see blood dripping down.

I think he's dead.

I got him good with
the... Oh, maybe not.

It was a good shot.

I can't believe he went up there

and wrapped onto
that tree and died.

Couple blueberries here.

That's how hungry I am.

I'm like, "Oh,
man, blueberries,"

while I'm trying to
get the squirrel.

I'm, like, 99%
positive he's dead.

I can't just let
him waste up there,

not when I'm starving to death.

Not period, but especially
when I'm starving to death.

That squirrel makes this
walk to do worthwhile.

♪ ♪

- I watched my first deer die

when I was about five years old.

My father and I, we'd
gone hunting together.

And he... he eased the
r*fle up into his shoulder,

and it went off,

and she collapsed,

and he smiled at me, and
we walked down to her.

And I look at her eyes,

just lifeless open eyes,

and I leaned down, and
I touched her coat,

and her body was warm,

and I got all teary eyed.

♪ ♪

And I remember, he looked at me,

and he said, "You
can't undo this.

This is how we survive."

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

[squirrel chittering]

[groans] Oh, ow.

Ow, he's biting me.

[bleep]. [bleep].

Ow, [bleep].

♪ ♪

[panting]

I got that squirrel.

I bet that squirrel wasn't
even worth the calories

to climb that tree, but I'm
not gonna wound a critter

that's gonna die and leave it.

I hit him a little low.

Man, he bit the hell out of me.

I'll wash that out
good when I get back.

I gotta take these...

Take this shirt off and
stuff and get the...

Get the sticks off of
me. I almost passed out.

♪ ♪

But I got a squirrel
for my effort.

♪ ♪

[sighs]

That'll do.

♪ ♪

- Last night, my door
was, like, rock solid.

It's a beautiful bluebird day
out there, but she's chilly.

I'm gonna check the
gillnet right now.

Exciting stuff, man.

Keep her going. Keep pushing.

♪ ♪

I'm really putting a lot
of hope into my gillnet.

This could be my key to staying

in the game the longest.

♪ ♪

Come on, fish in the gillnet.

♪ ♪

It doesn't look like
there's anything in there

that I can see. Nope.

Damn, I was really
hoping I had fish in here

this morning.

I need to eat,

or my time here is
going to be brief.

That sucks.

♪ ♪

I've noticed the fall brushing
my cheeks some nights,

that cold air coming in.

Some of the things I was
eating are dying off,

like the Labrador tea.

It's harder to find
green leaves to make

your tea in the morning.

The mushrooms are kind
of getting rotten.

Being alone isn't what
I'm worried about.

Man, I like to eat.

♪ ♪

Gut's definitely
getting smaller.

I used to be able to just
grab it with two hands.

My most valuable
asset is time fishing.

This seems to be the only way

I'm getting food is hand lining,

so I've got to do it, right?

I got one more day with food.

Not a lot, but
enough. Then I'm SOL.

I got today and tomorrow
to catch a fish,

if I don't want to ever
be without food for a day.

♪ ♪

Holy [bleep].

There's a huge fish right there.

Take it, take it. What is it?

Oh, it's that big pike.

Oh, my God, he was huge.

He was right there.

He was, like, this big.

Oh, sh**t.

Oh, there he is. sh**t.

And there's some... darn it.

But that's a good sign
he came back for it.

♪ ♪

Man, that was the biggest
fish I've seen here,

that's for sure.

Son of a g*n.

It's so frustrating, man.

Like, I can't even
describe to you

how frustrating it
is to be so close,

but not have anything
on the shore.

Don't get mad,
Al. Don't get mad.

Pay attention.
Right hand goes out.

Something gonna strike.

Just goes out.

Oh!

Two bites, two
little nibbles there.

Come on.

Why are they... Is
it a little fish?

There he is. Take it.

Got him!

Got him. You stay on.

You stay on, mister.

Yes! [laughs]

Just a little guy,

but hey, I'm happy.

Yes.

Yes!

Oh, I set the hook
perfect. It was awesome.

So pumped, so pumped.

Let's get this guy in the shade.

♪ ♪

So I'm gonna keep fishing here.

Take advantage of this, man.

It'd be nice to pile
up a couple of fish

in the old fish bag, you know?

♪ ♪

What made me specifically
want to teach

outdoor ed and survival

and experience all these things

that I've enjoyed
in my whole life

was because I'm so
passionate about it.

Being an outdoor ed teacher,

I'm known as a guy who
loves hunting and fishing

and being outside,

and I'm teaching these kids
all these outdoor skills.

♪ ♪

And I want that passion
transferred into the kids.

Got one.

♪ ♪

Come on in.

Come on right up
here, my friend.

[laughs] Lake trout.

Okay.

♪ ♪

Let's go!

♪ ♪

[sighs] Two fish day,

and the day's not even over.

Oh, my God.

♪ ♪

That's better.

♪ ♪

Got another one. Holy
crap, he's a big one.

♪ ♪

OK, he's under the shelf.
He's under the shelf.

Holy [bleep], this is a big one.

Come up here, you.

Oh.

Holy [bleep].

I can't believe this.

♪ ♪

[sighs] Oh, my God,

I need to take a minute
here. Are you serious?

Three fish.

What is going on with...

What's going on with
the fishing today?

It's so good!

There's something
happening here today.

I don't know what it
is, but I like it.

I'm gonna keep fishing
till it's dark.

♪ ♪

Let's keep it going.

♪ ♪

My goal going in
to this experience

was to not be embarrassed
by my performance,

and be an inspiration
to the outdoor ed kids.

I feel like I'm
finally doing that.

Be nice to get one more tonight.

Got one. It's a good one.

OK, come on up.
Come on. Come on up.

Get up here.

♪ ♪

Yes.

Oh, my God.

I don't even know what to say.

[sighs] It's unbelievable.

Thank you, Mother Nature.

Thank you for what
you've provided me today.

[laughs] I can't believe it.

Thank you. Thank you.

Oh, my gosh.

I can't believe it, man.

So good.

I'll never forget this day.

♪ ♪

- There's a grouse. Missed it.

Chasing this bird all
the way across hell

and half of Georgia.

[bleep].

I got no grouse this morning.

Having a hard go right now,

but still got a lot
of stuff to do today.

Gonna work on my
shelter a little bit.

Gonna try to get this
thing to where...

It's actually half past warm
because it's starting to get

colder at nights and mornings.

So...

let's move this show outside.

Gotta get this stuff done

before the snow
comes in and caves in

the side of my tent.

Gonna do just like I did before,

I'm gonna cut poles
and bring them

over here and lay them down.

Then I'll clean them
up and stand them up.

♪ ♪

Wasted a good bit of
time on shelters so far.

This is a temporary shelter.

Permanent shelter will
be coming up soon.

The trees around here
really aren't big enough

to build a decent cabin
for it to be over my head.

I'd have to have


This is actually the first
teepee I've ever built.

♪ ♪

Oh, it's just not long
enough. Son of a [bleep].

[grunts]

And I just don't see it becoming

what I wanted it
to become, so...

God, this is a
good spot to build.

It's just... I
can't find anything

to start with or build to.

I don't know.

Maybe I can build some kind
of a lean-to structure.

I don't know, man.

It's terrible.

I feel like I look like
I don't have any idea

what I'm doing when I do.

It's just learning a new place.

God!

Oh, this is so [bleep]
hard when you're tired.

This is supposed to be
where I was having fun.

Would have loved
to build a cabin,

but this is what I've started,
this is what I'm doing.

I'm not going backwards.

In a survival situation,
you can only plan so much.

Everything's so unpredictable.

I gotta get out of this groove.

I've been making one mistake
right after the other.

I'm a carpenter.

I was gonna come out here.

I was going to have
a single pitch cabin.

And coming out here,

the situation that I was handed

was I'm exhausted,

and I have to make do
with what I can build

right now, not what
I can have done

two weeks from now.

I'm not used to a
whole lot of snow,

but I know

that snow gets heavy,

and I want my shelter to be
able to withstand heavy snow.

In fact, I'd like for
it to hold it in place

to help insulate more.

As a young child,
I lived on a farm.

My parents were renting
to own the farm.

And our landlord died, and
we were forced to move.

Wound up in poverty.

Bring on the sun.

We built a basic shack.

We were collecting
rainwater in barrels

because we had no running water.

When we did have electricity,
it came from a generator.

It's one thing for
an adult to decide

I'm gonna live off grid.

It's another thing for a
child who has to go to school

not having a bath for a week.

This is my last pole.

If I didn't grow up
having to adapt...

Insulation.

I probably wouldn't
be here today.

So it's kind of a
double edged sword.

All right, think
I'm done working

on the shelter for today.

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- Good morning.

Got mighty cold last night.

It is pretty this morning.

I couldn't help but
notice this morning

that my belt is fitting
a little looser on me

today than it was yesterday.

From the mark I made on
it when I first came out,

I've lost about four
inches of waste.

It is a beautiful
morning, though.

♪ ♪

My entire strategy
revolves around

the pursuit of big game.

That squirrel is done.

Gonna have me a nice
breakfast c*ck.

But unfortunately, I understand

that my metabolism
will not hold me up

without a source of fat.

♪ ♪

Everything in here has a
little bit of a bitter flavor

because I'm desperate,

and I cut a chunk of
the extra off my belt

that's just dragging
and threw it in the pot.

So it's got fat in it.

I can see it on the top there.

♪ ♪

I'm just desperate for
some fat or some food.

♪ ♪

There it is, piece of leather.

♪ ♪

OK, here goes.

♪ ♪

Oh, that tastes horrid.

♪ ♪

Can't do it.

Can't do it, too chewy.

Every bite, every chew
is just the worst taste

I've ever had in my mouth, ever.

♪ ♪

[grunts]

[spits]

I hope that little bit of
oil in the belt leather

will do me some good.

♪ ♪

OK, so I'm feeling
a little better.

I'm just gonna hit the west side

of that berry patch,

and it's just a
couple hundred yards,

but it's getting to be
about all I can do, man.

Even my face just looks sunk in.

♪ ♪

[sighs]

It's so frustrating because

I know where that bear moves.

I know where he's been eating.

Pathetic excuse for blueberries,

but it is food

I absolutely cannot pass up.

But the berries
are all but gone,

and it's gonna get really
tough from here out

to find that bear.

♪ ♪

[bleep]. [groans]

So I almost fell
down over nothing.

I'm exhausted after that.

[sighs]

I gotta go find
something to k*ll.

Right now.

♪ ♪

I can't help but think
of an Iroquois legend

about a Mohawk village
that was haunted

by a great spirit bear.

♪ ♪

All of the greatest hunters
tried to get the spirit bear,

and all they could
ever find was tracks.

Fresh bear poop.

Still on him, kind of.

I'm onto him.

Three hunters had a dream that
they caught the spirit bear,

and so they decided
to take their dog,

and they began hunting for days

and days on end without rest.

And eventually, they came
to the edge of the Earth.

♪ ♪

And refusing to give up,
they leapt into the stars

to chase the bear
across the night sky...

♪ ♪

And when the hunters
were upon him

and thought they
finally had the bear,

he cast a net down upon them.

♪ ♪

And so when you look up into
the sky towards the North,

you will see the three
stars of the hunters

and the fourth
star of their dog,

trapped forever under his net.

We refer to this now
as the Big Dipper.

And I think that that story
is quite fitting for me

because I'm just
chasing my spirit bear.

♪ ♪

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- Nikolai, it's snowing,
buddy. It's snowing.

Look, Nikolai.

Look, it's snow.

But the sun is
starting to peek out,

so I think it'll probably
melt here in a little while.

That's pretty cool, though,
my first Canadian snow.

Huh, it's already snowing.

♪ ♪

Well, it was a lot
warmer last night.

Just insulating my shelter
really has made a difference,

but apparently, the way
I've built my shelter

is the perfect
mouse amusement park

because they have not stopped
running around this thing.

So today, I'ma
work on some traps.

Well, it's warmed
up a little bit.

I'm going to make some
figure four traps.

I'd like to have at
least four of them.

I've got some dry sticks.

Reason I like using
the dry sticks

is because they
don't bend as easy.

OK, let's work our way
through one of these.

I try to find sticks that
are somewhat straight,

but I work with what I got.

♪ ♪

So they're a bit upright.

♪ ♪

Bushcraft is something
that's just ingrained in me.

Since my childhood,
not having anything

and having to make it
work for something,

it's nothing for me to make
a tool out of an antler

or whittle new ax handle,
whittle a new hammer handle.

You know, when that's what
you have, that's what you use.

That'll probably just
about work right there.

♪ ♪

One more part to this,
and that's the bait stick.

Let me see about how long
this thing needs to be.

♪ ♪

Somewhere right in here.

There's a beauty in
everything that you do,

whether that's
processing an animal

or processing a piece of wood.

Everything that I do out
here has a piece of me in it.

♪ ♪

Make a notch.

This is what keeps me
centered is being able

to build something
with my hands.

Then, see about where
it needs to sit.

People meditate.

I don't meditate, I carve.

♪ ♪

Now, I have the upright stick.

I have the weight stick,
where the rock will sit on it.

And then, I have the bait stick.

When all that comes
together, it makes a four.

Thus the figure four deadfall.

OK, I'm gonna get
a bunch of rocks,

bring them up places that
I want to set these traps

and get them set.

I just want something to
work until the snow comes,

and I can track. I think
I'll do a lot better.

Think that'll work.

♪ ♪

- All the nice kindling, huh?

Good fire starter.

[grunts]

Hey, you looking at my butt?

Don't be looking at my butt.

[chuckles]

♪ ♪

Fishing's been doing OK by me.

Reindeer Lake go of Hellfire.

Proven to be a notable
lure, there's no denying it.

We're catching fish.

But the bottom line
is, I need to catch

more fish until the
Gold Hellfire fails me.

It is my go-to. [smooches]

Love you, baby.

Aw, yes, you're so pretty.

♪ ♪

I just heard a fish.

♪ ♪

It's a sign.

I'm so excited.

♪ ♪

It's a glorious night
to go and catch a fish.

There we go.

♪ ♪

There we go.

♪ ♪

Yeah, baby.

♪ ♪

And that'll work.
Another beautiful trout.

The Gold Hellfire does it again.

How beautiful is that?

♪ ♪

[smooches]

Crafted with love and
fishes with passion.

Oh, you are awesome.

I don't know how
many fish that is

on the Gold Hellfire now,

but we're getting there.

We're chalking them up.

Any more takers?
Any more takers?

♪ ♪

I'm just so happy I've
got another victory.

I feel like I'm
walking on clouds.

See if we can't catch
one or two more.

♪ ♪

And we got something.

♪ ♪

Whoa-h*, it's a good
fish, by the feel of it.

It's a good fish.

The Reindeer Lake Gold Hellfire
comes through for me again.

♪ ♪

Oh! No, no.

No. Oh, no.

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

The Gold Hellfire is gone.

A big pike took it.

Oh, no.

Oh, no.

♪ ♪

That is terrible.

That is really terrible.

♪ ♪

I have lost a lot
of lures in my life,

and I'll tell you,
I have never had one

make me feel so
sick as that does.

That is depressing.

♪ ♪

Well... [laughs]

I can't even describe
how I feel right now.

Not only was it losing a lure,
but I lost two treble hooks,

and I only brought four.

So I have a pile
of single hooks,

but they're not very big.

You know what I'm
saying? They won't work.

I've caught lots of
fish on single hooks,

but having a treble
hook on that lure

was obviously working very well.

I picked up a piece
of driftwood here

on the way over that...

Well, we'll never make
the Gold Hellfire again,

but maybe we can make
something close that'll work.

We just need something
that's gonna work.

♪ ♪

I came into this game
with the intention

that my big game
hunting was going to be

my feature contribution
to my survival,

and then I got here, and
I have not seen anything.

♪ ♪

So I have to change
my whole plan

on what I was going to do.

Fishing is the only thing

that's really gonna give
me a feasible chance

of staying here.

No crying over spilt
milk or lost lures.

♪ ♪

There's no room for failure.

If you think you're gonna fail,

you've already failed,

and I don't do that.

♪ ♪

She's an absolutely perfect
night to be fishing.

But we're not gonna have

this done in time for that.

♪ ♪

I don't like to quit.

There's no room in
this life for quitting

because you're
quitting on yourself,

and that's the one person
you should always count on.

I don't want to screw this up.

It's not the Gold Hellfire,

but I think it's gonna work.

One thing's for sure,
we're gonna find out.

♪ ♪

- Well, the trap fell.

Hey, hey! Hey, look at that.

Holy [bleep].

♪ ♪

It's a rat.

♪ ♪

Oh.

♪ ♪

Wee little guy, a
little flat rat.

♪ ♪

[laughs] That's awesome.

Well, it looks like
I'll be eating rat.

♪ ♪

Now, take it easy on me.

Never cleaned a
rat before, so...

Damn, about cut his
leg off right there.

Not really what I was wanting.

I had to perform
surgery on a rat.

You have to watch
how you pull on it.

You'll pull the little
guy right in two.

There we are.

A little skinned mouse.

I'm not gonna lie to you, guys,

this has probably been
the hardest animal

I have ever gut or skinned.

I'm gonna clean my hands
off, get a fire going...

See about cooking a rat.

♪ ♪

I've got the mindset
it's just meat.

When you're wanting
protein, and here comes

a little bitty piece of
red meat running around,

you're gonna take it.

You're gonna eat
that damn thing.

♪ ♪

Hell yes, give me rats.

♪ ♪

Right now, what I'm gonna
do is I'm going to make

a hoop out of this willow.

Stretch this little guy on.

Just because I think
it would be cool.

It's amazing how
even the smallest

little bit of food...

Move this wire to hold this
little guy in place for me.

Can really lift your spirits.

Man, if I can eat
rats, I can do this.

That's basically where I'm at.

There's a lot of
people out there

who don't get dinner every night

and be thankful for what
you've been given today.

♪ ♪

What do you think?

♪ ♪

Not too too bad, huh?

♪ ♪

Nice little furry critter here.

Put his tail on this side.

There we go.

Look at that.

Might have a couple
little rips in it,

but I won't let that
happen next time.

♪ ♪

- Time to finish
off the new lure.

We're gonna tie that
leader onto the Gold Fury.

We can't have any more
incidents like went on

with the Gold Hellfire.

♪ ♪

Yep.

The Gold Fury. The Gold Fury.

Made with love.

Manufactured with love.

[smooches]

Let's ravish these waters.

Together, we shall
raid Reindeer Lake.

[laughs]

♪ ♪

OK.

[grunts] Well, she casts.

Let's see if we can't
catch a fish or two

with the new lure.

Man, I've had a lot of
[bleep] challenges in life,

but this is a
challenge I wanted.

♪ ♪

I tell you, I sure
would like to catch

a big pike with a Reindeer
Lake Gold Hellfire

stuck in his mouth.

Some people aren't so lucky,

and they face adversity
with no choice.

I got a choice, and I want this,

and I embrace this.

♪ ♪

This ain't near the
challenge I had when my wife

was on her deathbed with cancer

and going through
surgeries and...

trying to look after
her the best I can

and trying to raise little kids.

And really, in...
In the big picture,

this competition is
a [bleep] cakewalk.

Oh, I just had a
hit. OK, she works.

♪ ♪

That was a hit.

I think I got everything that
it's gonna take to win this.

I really do.

♪ ♪

That was a hit.

It's a sign of life.
It's a sign of life!

The Gold Fury is alive.

♪ ♪

Come on.

Oh, come on.

Oh, no! Oh, no.

♪ ♪

Oh, no.

♪ ♪

Oh, my God.

♪ ♪

The Gold Fury is gone.

♪ ♪

[bleep] even with the leader.

♪ ♪

[sighs]

That is just heartbreaking.

I'm down to one treble
hook, and it's a small one.

♪ ♪

I can't even begin to tell
you how deflating that is.

♪ ♪

- I'm getting a late
start, but I'm just beat.

I got some mushrooms in the pot.

And I've been trying to hydrate.

I'm having these weird flashes

of warm and then cold.

I don't know what that
means or what's going on.

♪ ♪

I need to go hunt.

Tonight could be
the night, you know?

I could have the big bear
come out in front of me.

So I gotta push through it.

♪ ♪

Be strong, Cade.

Be strong, man.

♪ ♪

[sniffs] [sighs]

I'm exhausted, but I've got
to get to the berry patch.

It's the last place I
saw any fresh bear sign.

And if I'm not in the
patch, I'm not gonna have

that opportunity at a bear.

♪ ♪

I'm just gonna bring
the GoPros again.

I know I should be packing
around this big camera.

I'm just... [sighs]

I'm beat.

Just hoping that
today is the day.

Gotta find me a monster.

Monster anything,
monster squirrel,

monster grouse, monster
mouse, monster bear,

monster moose, monster goose.

Something, man, just
something to k*ll.

I need something big, though.

These squirrels just
aren't doing it.

Squirrels and mushrooms
ain't keeping me going.

♪ ♪

My little boy, I think
about him all the time.

He thinks the world of me.
He thinks I can do anything.

He thinks I'm Superman.

Look at that.

♪ ♪

Day old bear poop.

♪ ♪

That's something,
two cranberries

right there beside it.

I wanna prove to him that
I'm who he thinks I am.

♪ ♪

Because I'm not a quitter.

I'll leave here medically
before I give up.

♪ ♪

[groans]

[sighs]

[bleep] feel like
I'm gonna pass out

every time I get back up,

and I see three
more cranberries,

so I gotta get back down again.

♪ ♪

Legs feel so heavy.

♪ ♪

I'm just so... [body thuds]

♪ ♪

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- [groans]

[sighs] Oh.

♪ ♪

Passed out.

[panting]

♪ ♪

[groans] Oh.

♪ ♪

[camera thuds]

Oh, I wanted it
so bad. [sniffles]

♪ ♪

I want it so bad, man.

I just...

I don't think I
can do it no more.

♪ ♪

[sighs]

♪ ♪

[sniffles]

♪ ♪

I lost that baby.
We lost that baby.

♪ ♪

And I lost my arrows,

and I've been... I've
been fighting so hard.

♪ ♪

I don't want to leave.

I don't want to quit.

[bleep].

♪ ♪

I've been fighting
so hard for this.

I've been fighting
so hard for this.

[sniffles]

♪ ♪

I left my family at home,

my wife grieving by herself.

I couldn't even...

I couldn't even do it.
Couldn't get it done.

♪ ♪

Sometimes...
Sometimes, your best...

Sometimes, your best
is not good enough.

[sniffs]

[sighs]

[phone beeping]

[sniffs]

[line trilling]

Um, this is Cade.

Um...

I passed out for a while.

I... I think I'm done.

I... I'm tapping out.

♪ ♪

[sniffs]

[sighs]

♪ ♪

Headed back, trying
to meet them there.

Danielle, I'm so sorry
I couldn't do it.

I was just wore my body out
before I could find success.

I never knew my limit.

[sighs]

But I know it now.

This place has
reminded me who I am.

♪ ♪

And who I want to
be, love for family

and everything that is
important in this world.

♪ ♪

[sighs]

My whole body hurts.

I just... I was
eating some berries.

I don't remember.
I just woke up.

I sat there for a
minute, and I figured...

I don't know.

I don't know, where do I
go from there, you know?

I can't hunt.

I'm just wasting away.

I didn't come here to
play arts and crafts

or starve to death.

I came here to do
what I know how to do.

And I just...

I can't even walk no more.

You ever wanted
something so bad that...

You know you're losing
weight, so you cut the leather

off your belt and then eat it?

I'm just out of gas, man.

[sniffs]

It's painful because
my heart and my mind

are still in it.

♪ ♪

This place will
always be a reminder

to me that I am
more than capable

when the going gets tough.

♪ ♪

I'll never forget that.

I learned that I'm exactly

who I thought I was.

I worked myself to death,

and that's why my
time was so short,

and I don't think
I would be happier

if I had lasted
longer and done less

because that's not
what I came here to do.

I will not make any
excuses for my failures

out here because to do so

would deprive me
of my victories.

Am I disappointed
with the outcome?

Yes.

But am I content with
myself? Absolutely.

♪ ♪

God has blessed me

with a once in a
lifetime adventure,

and it started the
day that I was born,

and it does not end here.

I've got a million
more hunts for me

and a beautiful
family at home...

♪ ♪

And this is just the
beginning of something better

down the road,

and I can hang my hat on that.

♪ ♪

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- Oh, [bleep], I passed out.

♪ ♪

I think I gotta call it, man.

I can't even [bleep]
walk out here anymore.

♪ ♪

Never hurt to do something
so bad in my whole damn life.

♪ ♪

I don't know how long I was out.

I just woke up and
didn't know where I was.

It ain't about being
hungry or tired or lonely,

'cause none of that
[bleep] matters to me.

I'm just...

I just physically can't.

♪ ♪

And that's a hard... That's
a hard pill to swallow.

♪ ♪

This is something that
I've always dreamed of,

and I love this place,

and I don't wanna leave it.

I'm sorry I couldn't do it.

I gave it my best.

♪ ♪

I know that's broth, but
I wish it was coffee.

♪ ♪

[bleep], that's hot too.

Mmm. Sorry, excuse my language.

Hell of a lot better
than that squirrel broth

I've been drinking.

♪ ♪

I'm just heartbroken right now.

I'm having a hard time.

'Cause I'm not a quitter.

Not everything out here
worked out in my favor,

but man, I fought as hard
as anybody ever could.

♪ ♪

I believe I proved
everything to myself

that I ever needed
to prove out here.

I didn't come here
for fame and fortune

and all that [bleep].

But I would love if I could use

this platform to teach people

the appreciation for the hunt.

♪ ♪

This place didn't change me,

but it taught me something:

not all losses are failures.

♪ ♪

Gotta keep my chin up

and set a good example
for my little boy.

♪ ♪

- Ready, champ?

- [chuckles]

Oh.

- How you feeling?
Any thirst or...

- I just... Oh,
thank you so much.

- Yep.
- [indistinct].

- Wow.
- Yeah.

♪ ♪

When I started
walking, I thought,

"Man, I'm feeling
a little better."

Usually if I kind of
get to moving around,

I feel better. [sighs]

My legs just felt so heavy.

- How we doing, my friend?

- Man, I've seen better days,
I'm not gonna lie to you.

I remember I reached down

and grabbed a handful
of cranberries.

Next thing I know, I woke up,

and I was, like, face down,
my [bleep] hat in the dirt.

I was trying to figure
out who the [bleep] I was.

- Do you remember
any other feelings

before you passed out?

Chest, heart...
- Kinda lightheaded.

I was just dizzy, you
know, like I was tired.

And then I just kinda sat there

and cried like a
baby for a minute.

- Gonna take a set
of vitals on you,

check the blood pressure,
check your blood sugars too,

just to make sure
there's nothing major

going on with the vitals.

- I thought I could make
it at least another week.

- Obviously, if your body's
doing something like this,

it's telling you not to go on.

- Oh, I'm just...

I'm really sad that
it's over, man.

I'm really sad.

Man, that thing's
getting hot now.

- Could just lean forward
for me, my friend.

Take a nice big breath for me.

Given the weight that
you came in with,

you've lost, I think, about


What we'll be doing
is putting you

on a high-risk
refeeding program.

We want to monitor
your food intake.

- Look at me, man. I'm
[bleep]... I'm a skeleton.

- Takes about five
days to get you

back to the baseline, ideally.

Make sure that we're not
doing any further damage.

Here you go.
- Thank you.

- Any questions?

♪ ♪

- What's for supper?

I gave it my 100% best.

And so this place will
always be a reminder

of my inner strength,

and I'd do it again
in a heartbeat.

♪ ♪