05x04 - She's Gone...?

[bunniefuu]

[dramatic music playing]

[Uche] Um...

[sighs] I walked into the pod, and...

I started talking.

The, uh, the person seemed
to recognize my voice.

And know certain things about me.

It is a girl
that I have dated in the past.

It's Lydia.

[sighs]

[Lydia] Hello, who is this?

Uh, my name is Uche.

f*ck!

[laughs] That's not
the reaction I was expecting.

Your name is Uche Okoroha.
You're a lawyer, have a business.

-[Uche] Who am I speaking with?
-Really, Uche? You don't know who I am?

-[Uche] Who are you?
-You do not recognize my voice?

I do not recognize your voice.

Oh, sh*t. Okay, how about this?

You know me outside the pods.

I know you outside the pods?

Yes!

[Uche] What's your name?

[Lydia] I love Kobe.

-Lydia?
-Yes!

[laughing]

f*ck!

[laughing]

-You're laughing! Okay, thank you.
-[laughing]

-[Uche] No way!
-Uche, how have you been?

I've been great. This is kind of, uh...

[Lydia] Unexpected?

This is unexpected. I... I don't know.

I don't know if it's a sign, or...

[Lydia] Right? If this is a sign
that we should stop, like...

You know what I'm saying? Cut the crap?

Do you wanna start at zero?

-A blessing in disguise?
-[Uche] I don't think...

I don't think
we can do that because that kind of...

It ruins the...

-[Lydia] The experience and the moment?
-The experiment. Yeah.

[Lydia] You don't think it's even worth it
to get to know each other more?

I don't think it's, like, genuine

from the experience
because we already know what each other...

[Lydia] Oh, my God!
How are you gonna feel if I get engaged,

and you see me with somebody else?
How are you gonna feel?

[laughs] I don't know.
This really caught me off guard.

[Uche] We dated for a few months.

I just didn't think
that we were that compatible,

so I ended things.

It hurt me so much.

-Because she deserves an amazing person...
-[sniffling]

[Uche] ...who is completely sure about her,

and I really hope she finds that.

[Aaliyah sniffles]

-'Cause that's what she deserves.
-[Aaliyah sniffles]

It's Lydia.

["I Don't Really Want This Anymore"
by Faith Richards playing]

[Aaliyah crying]

I need a second. [sobbing]

[sobbing continues]

-[song continues playing]
-♪ Feel like I was better off ♪

-♪ Before ♪
-[sniffles and exhales]

[sighs]

[song continues playing]

[sniffling]

[sniffling]

-♪ I don't really want you anymore... ♪
-[sighs]

-♪ Feel like I was better off before... ♪
-[Aaliyah exhales]

I'm back.

I don't know how to feel.

In my mind, I'm just like...

It's not that I don't trust Lydia, I just...
I need to talk to her.

She's a trustworthy person.

-She's been making comments.
-What kind of comments?

She's been saying things,
and I'm like, "How do you know this?"

And even when we had our disagreement,

she was the first person
to come console me and encourage me,

and told me that, "If he doesn't
make this right, it's on him."

She just kept saying,
like, all the right things.

She's been telling me multiple times,
like, "I just see myself in you."

Like, "We are almost the same woman."

You know?
[crying] It's just weird. I don't...

-[Uche sighs] Yeah. Yeah.
-I don't know how to feel.

And I really do love her.

She hugs me like no one else.

We hold hands. It's just...

[sniffles]

You know? Like, she's my friend.

She'll be one of the most
incredible friends you'll ever have.

And all these stories about these girls
just not being genuine,

and we will be
each other's genuine friend.

She's gonna be an amazing aunt
to my kids, you know?

I can tell you 100%
she has been supportive

of me and you,

and I feel like
that says so much about her character.

We just really bond. Like, that...

I really feel like that is,
like, my sister, you know.

I feel like I just need to have,
like, this sister moment with her

to feel at peace about it totally.

That is why I am drawn to you,
because you're both incredible people.

-[sighs]
-Do you ever wish you were still...

dealing with her?

Are you...

That's over with.

-Okay.
-[Uche] That's over with.

I went back and forth about it

for a long time,

because I do see a lot of qualities

that would make her a good wife.

She seemed 100% into me.

And I thought to myself,

"If I can't give her 100% back,

then I don't wanna hurt her."

And I couldn't give that 100% back.

-I just couldn't.
-[Aaliyah] I understand.

[voice breaking] And I hope
she doesn't hate me for it.

[Aaliyah] I don't think
she hates you, Uche.

I wanna make sure that,
like, y'all have resolved your issues,

especially emotionally on her end.

You know, I don't want to feel like
I can't turn my back.

No, I mean,
you don't have anything to worry about.

But I don't know how she feels.

-She blocked me on Instagram.
-Mmm-mmm.

[Uche] You know, because I think
if she opened up her social media,

and she saw my pictures,

I think that those memories
might have been too much for her.

Yeah.

-It was just her and Milton right now.
-[Aaliyah] Yeah.

And how does she feel about Milton?

She seems very, like, into him.

[Uche sniffling]

Obviously, you can't tell her
anything that I'm saying right now.

-I know. Of course not.
-[Uche] But...

I told Milton,
"You don't have to get engaged in here."

'Cause I know that's what she's ready for.

-[Aaliyah] I know.
-He is not ready for that.

[sniffles]

[exhales] I don't want her to get hurt.

Did you love her?

[sighs] No.

Okay.

-[Uche] I think I have love for her.
-Hmm.

I don't think I was ever in love with her.

[Aaliyah] Okay.

It's just not ideal,

but we'll get through it, okay?

-[Uche] Okay.
-We'll get through it.

[Uche sniffles and sighs]

-Okay.
-[Aaliyah] I love... I...

[clears throat] I love her.

And I love you.
So, we're gonna get through it.

I love you too.

And I hope that this doesn't change
anything between us.

It doesn't. It doesn't.

-We are compatible in all the right ways.
-[Uche] Yeah.

And not compatible
in all the right ways. [laughs]

[both laugh]

-So, no, I don't want anybody else, Uche.
-Yeah.

Like, I knew from day one,
you were who I wanted,

and I haven't changed up on that at all.

I don't wanna lose either of you.

-[Uche] Yeah.
-But I especially don't wanna lose you.

Yeah. I don't wanna lose you either.

I just need to talk to her.
You know what I mean?

Like, now, I feel like I need to.

Yeah.

-["We're Not Done Yet" by Øthers playing]
-♪ I know we went through hell... ♪

Boy, boy, boy. I tell you.

-[Uche chuckles] Yeah.
-You are going to be my headache.

[both laugh]

Till death do us part. [laughs]

-[Uche] That's what it is.
-[laughs]

-[laughing]
-["We're Not Done Yet" continues playing]

♪ To me we're not done yet ♪

["We're Not Done Yet" continues playing]

♪ We're not done yet ♪

-♪ We're not done yet... ♪
-Too much.

Coming, fellas.

[JP] Hey, I like the red, white,
and blue you got goin' on.

[Connor] Hell yeah, brother.

Choosing between two people

was probably one of the hardest things
I've ever had to do.

Stacy knew it was
between her and another girl,

and I just wanted to give her,
you know, that validation that

there's nothing
you have to worry about anymore.

-Okay, I'm gonna go propose.
-[man] Whoo!

[men laughing and clapping]

-[Connor] You all right?
-Yeah, I'm good.

-[Connor] You nervous?
-A little bit. I'm good.

I'm just gonna go off the dome,
say what I feel, go with my gut.

If she says no,

I f*cking gave it my all.

I did the experiment right.
Then I'll go home...

-[Connor] Yeah.
-[Izzy] ...content, so...

[exhales]

[Izzy] I want Stacy to know
that I'm fully committed,

and now let's talk about,
you know, the future.

"Do you see a future with us?
Do you see the engagement?"

-[Izzy] Wish me luck, fellas.
-[Justice] Let's go, bro!

Whoo! Baby, let's f*cking go!

I'm proposing to Stacy,
and I feel like the luckiest man alive.

-[exhales] How are you feeling?
-[Stacy] I'm feeling good.

I'm feeling fantastic.

I wanted to check in with you.

-Yeah.
-[Izzy] To make sure if there was any...

anything on your mind.

[Stacy] I've just...

[exhales] I've just never been 100%
with something like this, ever.

Honestly, from the bottom of my heart,
thank you for, like, being supportive

through this experiment and where I stood.

Like, you didn't give up on me,
and that meant the world to me.

It said so much about your character
and just, like, who you are as a person,

and that's why
I've fallen so hard for you. [laughs]

-[both laugh]
-[Stacy] Thank you.

I just want you to know
that I will always be patient with you.

I will always be kind with you.

I will always do my best to compromise
and hear you out.

I promise that I will fight for us.

Regardless, whatever obstacles
life throws our way,

I want you to know
that I will have your back 120%.

I will love you wholeheartedly,

unconditionally.

I am, like, so confident in you.

I feel safe.

I feel like this is home,
and I feel like this is where I belong.

I've never been more certain
with anybody in my life.

[exhales]

I feel the same way.

[uplifting music playing]

So...

with that being said...

Stacy Renee Snyder...

will you marry me?

It's crazy 'cause I've always been just

smooth-sailing, solo,
totally fine with being on my own

for however long just because
I kind of gave up on the fairy tale,

and that's exactly what I found with you.

And it's just the corniest,
craziest "what the f*ck?"

I could have ever expected, but...

-Yes!
-[Izzy exclaiming]

-[Stacy laughs]
-Yeah, baby!

-Yeah!
-Of course, 100%.

My heart is, like,
not just b*ating out of my chest,

it's just hot.

I just...

I can't even describe it.
It's f*cking crazy.

I've never known, like,
more than anything that this is right,

and that you're the one.

[Izzy laughs]

Your laugh! [laughs]

'Cause I'm so f*cking happy, that's why!
Like, I'm just...

I'm so glad that you said yes.

You're my fiancée,
and I can't wait to see you tomorrow.

Whoo!

[laughing]

["Hold You Closer" by Ovrthro playing]

♪ I'm dreaming
Like whenever the night is dead ♪

♪ Never gonna die
Never taking you for granted... ♪

Whoo! Smile!

-I'm a fiancée!
-[all exclaiming]

[Stacy] I'm like, "Oh, my God."

-[Taylor] Are you so happy? Yay!
-[Stacy] I am.

[laughs] Aww.

-[Stacy sighs] Oh, my God.
-[Estefania] I'm happy for you.

-[Stacy sobs] It's just like...
-[Paige laughing]

-[Stacy] You put so much into it.
-[Paige] I know.

And just, like, trying to get there,
and it just feels so good.

-I can't breathe.
-[Paige] Yay! Yeah.

Like, it's good.

-I'm just, like, overwhelmed. [gasps]
-[Paige exclaims]

-Happy for you.
-[Stacy] Cheers, thank you.

-Wish you all the best.
-[Stacy] Oh, my God.

[Taylor] f*cking crazy.

It's also, like, I've been holding
so much in and so much back.

Not with him, but just in here.

And it's just nice to be able to be happy.

-[Taylor] Oh, my God!
-[Stacy laughs]

I'm so happy for you. [chuckles]

[Stacy] Like, he's the one.

[exhales]

[dramatic music playing]

[sniffles]

[crying softly] I, like, haven't even...

had a chance to cry about it.

Because you walk out into a lounge
and you're immediately faced with...

[sniffles] ...his future fiancée.

It's like, how do you process
how you're feeling...

[sniffles] ...in that situation?

Just processing the pain. [sniffles]

The only way out is through.

Um, so I just wanna let myself feel it,
and mourn it, and...

[breathes deeply] ...move on.

The process worked out
differently than I thought.

Izzy told me he had a bad credit score.

He just signed a lease somewhere else.

-[Estefania] Oh, no.
-He doesn't seem ready for commitment.

-He's not ready to be actually vulnerable.
-Mmm.

-So... and I was.
-Yeah.

[Johnie] Yeah, and he ran, so...

That's fine. We'll see.

It was actually
a perfect timing for him to run.

[Johnie] Yeah.

Because you had that time to realize
and to talk to the other person, you know,

and make your connection again, or...

-That's true.
-Yeah.

I came out here to try to find my husband,
so I'm not gonna give up.

I was still open with Chris.

-Like, I just wasn't prioritizing him.
-Mmm-hmm.

He's the one
who I had all the inside jokes with.

Like, he's the one
I was laughing with the most.

He's the one I kept saying,
"I see exactly how my future would be."

Then, for some reason, I was swept up in...

-"But I want the other one!"
-[chuckles] Yeah. I know.

But now I've had time to think about it,
and I'm like, "Yeah."

-Like, I can see it all playing out.
-Yeah.

First time I met you,
I just knew you were real.

I can see that both of you
are perfect for each other.

I mean, I think
he sees that I'm genuine too,

so, like, I think we can,
like, build that trust.

I'm like, "Okay, pick yourself back up."

"Keep going."

[chuckles] The path to love
is not a straight line.

-[expectant music playing]
-♪ Lift me up ♪

♪ We're going higher... ♪

[Johnie] Hi!

[Chris] Hello.

[Johnie laughs] Hey.

[Chris] How are you doing?

I feel like I could pee myself
right now because I don't... [chuckles]

I'm, like, so nervous, but... [gasps]

-[Chris] Don't be nervous.
-Um...

When I think about, like, my time in here,

like, the person
I was laughing the most with

and I felt the most safe with was you.

I can just imagine you
coming home from work over lunch,

um, and, like, us going on walks

holding hands like you talked about.

And, like, you saying
one of your biggest turn-ons

was just looking across the room
and seeing your partner smiling,

and, like, that eye contact.

And, like, that's always
been a big thing for me

that I've never even been able to explain.

And I can just see
introducing you to my family

and, like, going to your big
family reunion thing every year

and, like, going to
my family events together. [chuckles]

-Loving you.
-[emotional music playing]

I can see how it would play out with us,

and I should have trusted that

and, like, recognized, like,
how safe and secure you make me feel,

and not have taken that for granted.

And I'm just... I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

Um, I accept your apology. I do.

I've put a lot of thought into us.

I've always been really...

really invested in our relationship...
[sighs]

and I appreciate everything
that you've said and everything that...

you kind of see with 20/20 hindsight.

My heart and my gut really want to,

and I've always just felt
such a connection with you.

And the way you describe our relationship
is this exact way I picture it.

It is. I promise.

Like, I really do want you, Chris.

I just want a chance.

[Chris] I care about you
more than anything, and I...

I do see a future with you.

Chris, I really... I really care about you.

All I know is I wanna be with you.

[Chris] I do want to be with you,

and I don't want you
to ever think otherwise.

I have this whole time pictured us
walking out of here together.

I came here to find my wife,

and at one point, I thought that I had.

[emotional music continues]

♪ Trouble is washing over... ♪

My whole life, I've had a hard time
picking the correct women,

and I've always given everything of me
to that relationship.

[Johnie] Mmm-hmm.

♪ The waves might pull us under... ♪

I really need to be selfish today

and worry about myself

and choose someone who...

who always chooses me.

-[emotional music building]
-♪ When everything is wrong ♪

♪ We got to carry on ♪

♪ I know we're feeling broken ♪

♪ With the world on a shoulder... ♪

-[Johnie] Okay.
-♪ We got to carry on... ♪

[exclaims]

I will maybe see you soon.

-Have a good day, Johnie.
-[emotional music continues]

♪ We got to carry on ♪

-[Linda] Bye, ladies.
-[Shondra] Bye!

-[Linda] See you later. Have fun!
-[Estefania] Bye!

[Lydia] What's up?

[Aaliyah] He told me.

-[Lydia] You know? You know?
-Mmm-hmm.

I... I cried.

[somber music playing]

[Lydia sobbing]

[Aaliyah] You know,
I do genuinely love you.

I genuinely love you.

-[Lydia] I genuinely love you, baby. I do.
-I really do.

[Lydia] I really love you so much.

-[sobbing]
-[Aaliyah] I know.

And I love you, and I'm so sorry.
This is the shittiest thing ever.

Remember that I kept saying
I see myself in you?

[Aaliyah] Yeah.

-[sighs]
-I was scared.

'Cause I didn't know
how you were gonna react, and, like...

Yeah.

Because if I came here and told you guys,
Uche wouldn't have had that chance.

This is just really complicated.
It's not ideal.

-It's not.
-And I just...

-It's a weird f*cking f*cked-up situation.
-Yes.

But that just speaks more
on who we both are, like,

that we would be drawn to the same person.

Yeah.

-Like...
-I think that is crazy. [laughing]

-[Lydia] It is crazy. It's like...
-It's crazy.

-We both write poetry.
-I know!

-We both are, like, sensitive yet strong.
-Yes.

-We're both gifted.
-And very giving people.

-Like, genuinely selfless.
-Right. Yeah.

And I'm like,
"Dude, you picked the same girl as me."

-"What the f*ck?" [laughs]
-Yeah! But how do you feel emotionally?

'Cause I told him
I needed to talk to you about that.

-Emotionally, do you...
-Honest?

-Like, honest to God, like...
-Yeah.

-I'm not gonna lie to you.
-Mmm-hmm.

I think I'd fall for him.

-Yeah.
-Um...

And when I walked in that pod,
and I was like...

He said, like...

-Even his breathing.
-Yeah.

-He has a peculiar...
-Yeah. I know.

[Lydia laughs] And I was like,
"Oh, my God, who's this?"

-And he's, "Uche." I'm like, "f*ck!"
-I know.

"f*ck!" And he's like, "Well, that's not
the expression I was expecting."

[Aaliyah] Yeah.

And it took him a while
to figure out it was me.

Yeah, yeah.

Uche met me when I was
at a really low point in my life.

-[Aaliyah] Yeah.
-He was vulnerable with me.

-I was vulnerable with him.
-Yeah.

I do feel like when we met
and when we were dating,

he just felt that he would have
had to take up too much.

Yeah.

Like, "sh*t, like,
she barely has friends in here."

-"She doesn't have a family in here."
-Yeah. Yeah.

-"I'll have to be everything for her."
-Yeah.

[Lydia] I didn't wanna lose him.

-[Aaliyah] Yeah. Yeah.
-It was I guess not meant to be.

The reason? I don't know.

-To this day, I don't know.
-Yeah.

And I hopefully think that
he just needed to learn a few lessons.

Maybe prove to him
that he needs to be a little more open.

"Here I am, choosing a person
who is so similar to Lydia."

Yeah.

"This is the universe
giving me a second chance

to have an amazing, great-ass woman."

-I'm so scared, Lydia.
-Why are you scared? Tell me.

I've been hurt.

I genuinely want you to be my friend,
and I don't know how that's gonna...

-I'm gonna be your friend.
-How are we gonna do this?

I don't know.

-For me, it's a trust thing.
-Mmm-hmm.

Like, I would want you to be my friend,
and I want that,

but I don't wanna ever feel
like I gotta look over my shoulder.

Girl, I would never.

And that's not something
I would wanna deal with.

-It's up to you.
-I know.

If you wanna cut me out of your life
'cause this is too much, it's up to you.

And I don't. I genuinely don't.

I'm really gonna see Uche now
as "Aaliyah's husband."

-Yeah. Yeah.
-That's it.

-What is in the past is in the past.
-Okay, yeah.

You're amazing.

And he sees that.

And he did good.

[laughing]

I'm proud of him. He has a great...
You're gonna love Kobe.

I know. I had a dog named Kobe.

-Kobe's amazing. Kobe's fun, playful.
-Yeah. Yeah.

He pees himself every time he sees me.

He destroys the toys.

I even bought him a toy.
It was, like, a bone. Uche was like,

"I don't know where you bought that.
That was a good one."

[Aaliyah] Yeah.

I know everything about him
because I know him.

-You know?
-I know.

-So, anything you wanna know? [laughing]
-No, I don't wanna know anything.

I don't wanna know anything.
I wanna still be surprised.

-Let me tell you this.
-Yeah.

I know his friends.

I've gone to a couple of events
with his friends.

I just don't wanna know that though.

I'm pretty sure you're gonna get along.

-He is kind of, like, a workaholic.
-Yeah, I could tell.

He is OCD.

Oh, and his house is dope.

-Yeah.
-[laughs]

I really didn't wanna know too much.

[sighs]

It's, like, a three-level house.
And he told you he drives a Tesla?

No, I like...

-Did he tell you his favorite color?
-Yeah.

Like, blue. Like, royal.
And that's the color of his car.

Did I tell you, like,
my favorite whiskey is because of Uche?

Wild Turkey Honey. It's his favorite.

Oh, my God.

[Aaliyah] This is pissing me off.

I don't wanna know what you have,
what car you drive.

By the way, I wanna be honest with you.

Last time we saw each other was
back in January this year.

-We slept together and all of that stuff.
-Mmm-hmm.

That is just...

You had sex three months ago.

And I'm supposed
to feel like that's no big deal.

I don't like that. I would never
put myself in a situation like this

in my actual life.

I do, like, feel...

I did for the first days,
I felt, like, emotionally drained.

Yeah.

-Holding back my tears.
-Yeah.

-Holding back trying to explode.
-Yeah.

It's because in that pod,

we had just decided,
like, we were gonna start from zero.

I was like, "We have the advantage
of seeing each other."

He's like... [gasps]
"But then the experiment won't be real."

Yeah.

I don't know
if I can handle this situation.

I know this situation is super hard,

but I do think
that we are strong enough to handle it.

We're gonna laugh about this in,
I don't know, three years from now.

[sighs]

It scares the sh*t out of me
because it's like...

it's what I've prayed for, you know.

And it's happening.
Listen to me. It's happening.

-I'm scared.
-It's happening. You know what?

-For both of us.
-Yeah.

-You know?
-Yeah.

I would never in my life date someone
younger than me.

-And here I am.
-[gasps]

[bittersweet music playing]

[exhales]

Uche and Lydia have a very recent past.

Um...

I'm struggling with the fact
that he left out a lot of details.

I get Lydia's story,

and it includes a lot more detail
than I would have liked.

[Uche] Hello?

-Aaliyah?
-Mmm-hmm.

I don't wanna go
into a marriage feeling doubtful

or even an engagement feeling doubtful.

[Uche] So you had a discussion with Lydia.

Yeah.

[grunts softly]

Oh, boy. [exhales]

[sobs] It's just
really hard to trust people.

It's so hard... [sobbing]

[sniffles] ...to trust
what's being said to you.

It... [inhales]

[exhales]

[crying] How do I know
he's not gonna f*ck me over?

Number one,
if I don't trust you, I won't marry you.

I won't be with you.

And the part that upset me

was that she said you considered

starting from ground zero.

[exhales]
"Considered starting from ground zero."

That's not exactly what happened.

Did you not tell me
about the full conversation in the pod,

because you were actually considering
rebuilding with her?

[Uche] No!
I don't have any feelings for Lydia.

If I wanted to be
in a relationship with Lydia,

I would be in a relationship with Lydia.

This is f*cked up, and I don't like it.

On the outside world,
I would never date a friend's ex.

I would never befriend your ex.

And you don't think this is hard for me?

-Okay?
-[Uche] I mean, it's happening to me

just as much or even more
than it's happening to you.

No, it's not, because I'm over here

sitting with your ex
that you f*cked three months ago.

[grunts]

[Aaliyah] She's telling me things
that I didn't wanna know from her.

It's just like, "Okay, I get it.
I get it. I get it. You dated him."

"You f*cked him."

Yeah, I know that sucks.

[scoffs] It f*cking sucks, okay?

But I'm f*cking,
like, in a cage with her, damn near.

I just didn't wanna know
the things she said.

[Uche] I know
that this is hard for you right now,

and I can't even imagine
what you're going through

and what you're feeling.

But I think it's about me and you,

you know, establishing our connection

and not letting anything
get in the way of that.

-[Aaliyah] Hmm.
-[somber music playing]

I'm just scared, okay?

That you're going to hurt me.

How are you so sure
that I'm what you want? [grunts]

We both have the same vision

of what we want out of life

and what we want out of a marriage,
and our core values.

And you make me happy when I talk to you,

and you make it easy for me

to open up to you
and to be vulnerable with you.

We can go home. We can give it all up,
but that's not what I wanna do.

Yeah.

I'm here for you,
and that's all that matters to me.

I know.
I'm here for you too, and I want you.

I don't want you to doubt
that I am 100% here

and in it with you.

I just needed to talk to you.

And you're my person,
and I'm here for you.

[Aaliyah] It's gonna be fine.
We're gonna be okay.

I feel it,
and I've never felt this for anyone.

-So, it's gonna be okay.
-[Uche] I feel the same way.

Have you ever thought about

a wedding ring?

[laughs]

[Uche] And what you'd like that
to look like?

I want you to pick what you think.
We'll see if you have good taste.

-[Uche] Oh, I have good taste.
-Okay.

-[Uche] I picked you, didn't I?
-You sure did.

You're about to have a baddie on your arm.
I hope you're ready.

[Uche laughs]

I'm just letting you know.

[laughing]

-["Thinking of You" by Felicity playing]
-♪ I'm thinking of you ♪

♪ I'm thinking of you ♪

♪ I'm thinking of you ♪

Is this my husband?

How are you doing, my love?

-[Milton] I've had a long day.
-I got a long day too.

[Milton] Tell me about your day.

I need to talk to you about something,
and I'm nervous about this.

[Milton] Mmm-hmm.

-[Lydia] On day one...
-Mmm-hmm.

[Lydia] My date number ten.

-[Milton] Yeah.
-He walks in. [sighs]

And I recognized his voice.

Uche and I have dated in the past.

[Milton] Damn.

I stopped things.
Like, I told him we need to move on.

Back in February of this year.

It's been hard for me.

Imagine you finding your ex in here

and, like, listening to everybody
talk about her.

But that's as far as it goes.

Universe has, like, a weird,
messed-up to mess with me.

-[Milton] Mmm-hmm.
-And, yeah, so he's here.

I wish him well.

He has a connection here,
and I f*cking love her to death.

I don't have any feelings
to be unresolved.

[Milton sighs] Okay.

What are you thinking?

-Uh, nothing.
-[Lydia] Really?

-You're quiet.
-Um, I mean, I just...

I didn't... I didn't expect that. [sighs]

I know it's weird, but I promise you,
Milton, there's nothing there for me.

Um, there's no thr*at.

Like, I love our connection.

And I have been
truly genuine with myself with you.

And there's a reason
why Uche and I didn't work out.

I really wanna know your thoughts.

[Milton] Um,
I don't really have any thoughts.

Okay.

Are you indifferent?

[Milton] I mean, I guess.

[sighs] I just, like,

I wasn't, like,
expecting another curveball.

[Lydia] What is the other curveball?

-[Milton] Just this whole experiment.
-Milton. Oh, sh*t, Milton.

I was really nervous
to tell you about this.

Because I care about you. I do.

And I believe you're perfect for me.

Perfectly imperfect for me.

And...

I'm falling for you so hard.

-[Milton sighs heavily]
-[somber music playing]

[Milton] Yeah, I'm just listening.

Milton!

[Milton] Yeah.

What are you thinking? Please tell me.

[somber music continues]

Babe, please, don't let this affect us.

-Milton!
-Yeah, sorry. I'm... I'm listening.

-[Lydia] Milton.
-[Milton] Yeah.

It doesn't matter.

-I care about you.
-Yeah.

-[Lydia] Milton.
-Yeah, I'm just listening.

[Lydia] I'm falling in love with you.

I wanna marry you.

Can we come back in five minutes?

[crying] Are you gonna come back?
Do you promise me?

Yeah. I just need, like, five minutes.

[Lydia] Okay.

♪ Now your eyes are colder than December ♪

♪ The fire is out
It's just a dying ember ♪

♪ I thought we were going
To last forever ♪

♪ Then you said ♪

-[Lydia crying]
-♪ All good things must come to an end ♪

♪ All good things... ♪

[sobbing continues]

♪ All good things must come to an end... ♪

-[Stacy] What happened? You okay?
-[sobbing] He didn't take it well.

[Stacy] What?

[crying] Milton didn't take well
the news about Uche.

Oh, God. [sobbing]

-[Stacy] What happened?
-[crying] I just told him the truth.

He's just quiet.

I don't wanna lose him. I don't.

-Lydia. Lydia, stop. Lydia, stop.
-[sobbing]

What do you expect him to feel?
That is a shock.

Let him have a moment.

Pull it together. You're strong.

Pull it together.

Give him the chance to think about it.

-Big breaths.
-[crying] I don't wanna lose him.

[Stacy] I know you don't wanna lose him.

You need to go in there though.

You need to go in there,
and he's gonna have questions. Yes?

And if there's nothing
between you and Uche anymore,

you should be able to explain it.

-[Lydia] Yeah.
-Okay.

-[somber music playing]
♪ Close your eyes ♪

♪ Stop the noise screaming in your mind ♪

-[Lydia sobbing]
-[Stacy mutters indistinctly]

You're okay. It's scary.
You're scared 'cause you're vulnerable,

and you care about him,
and that's a good thing. Yes?

-I don't wanna lose him.
-Okay.

Well, you can't hold this back
and get all of him.

♪ When you feel the walls are closing in
Creeping in ♪

♪ What do you fear the most? ♪

[Lydia sniffling]

♪ When you're holding on
To shadows cast from the past... ♪

[Lydia stifling tears]

[Stacy] It's scary, but it takes strength,
and you're being brave.

♪ When you're holding on
To shadows cast from the past ♪

♪ It's time to face your ghosts ♪

♪ 'Cause they'll haunt you inside ♪

♪ You're scared of your own darkness ♪

-[sighs]
-♪ You're falling for the madness ♪

♪ You're frozen in time ♪

-♪ They're just ghosts ♪
-[clears throat]

♪ They're just ghosts in your mind ♪

[Stacy] You're a very truthful,
honest person. You're strong.

You're a tough cookie.

And I think that the people that can
handle the things that are the toughest

come out getting the things
that are the most worthwhile,

that are the most rewarding.

You told him that you care about him.

I do.

And if he cares about you,
he's gonna be okay.

We all have a past.

And the people that love you
wanna know more,

and they take your past
as a map on how to love you.

They don't use it as something
to hold against you.

-[exhales]
-You're okay.

["Mixed Signals"
by Darius Coleman playing]

And no matter what, I'm here.

I'm here for you.

[sobbing] It's just so f*cking hard.

[Stacy] I know.

[Stacy sighs]

♪ Sending me mixed, mixed, mixed
Mixed, mixed, mixed signals ♪

♪ Mixed signals... ♪

I'm going back.

[whispers] I got this.
He's my husband. He's my husband.

[exhales]

[Lydia] Hello?

-Are you there?
-Hey, what's up?

[Lydia] How are you feeling?

Um, I feel good. I feel all right.
How do you feel?

I'm so scared of losing you.

Yeah, I'm sorry. I just needed, like...
I just needed a second.

[Lydia] Don't apologize. Don't apologize.
You have a human reaction, right?

It was just valid, you know.

-You got some unexpected news.
-[Milton] Yeah.

-Just a lot of information to take in.
-[Lydia] It is.

Anything that you wanna ask me,
I will respond to you.

Do know that I'm gonna be
truthful for you.

[dramatic music playing]

[clicks tongue]
Um, is it, like, pretty recent?

[Lydia] I met him in 2020,

and remember when I told you
that was, like, the hardest year?

Yeah.

[Lydia] He was kind to me,
but he kind of became like

someone who was there
if I needed to just, like, let it all out.

Um... [clears throat]

Three months ago,
I decided to just, like, move on,

and I decided to just not think about him.

And then I get the surprise
that he's here.

Yeah, that's crazy. Small world.

And I promise I'm never gonna lie to you.

I'm never gonna lie to you.

But it has nothing to do with us,

because my heart,

my soul, my being wants you.

Yeah.

And if I have to repeat that
a hundred times, I will,

'cause I don't wanna lose you.

[Milton] I just feel like
maybe if I would have known, like,

sooner, like...

[Lydia] I couldn't say a word,
because if I had said something,

the whole experiment
would go down the drain.

I wanted to tell you.

And if you had known sooner,
would you, like, stop talking to me?

[clicks tongue] I mean...

There's an answer I wanna give you.
Then there's a truthful answer.

Say to me the truthful answer.

I feel like the truthful answer,

if I would have known,
like, day one, day two,

like, yeah, probably.

Why?

Just because, like... I don't know, like...

It seems kind of, like, messy.

We all have our past,

and it could happen to anybody.

It's just different
when you know the person.

I just wasn't expecting it.

I was not expecting it.

[voice breaks] Can you,
for five seconds, put yourself in my shoes

of what I've had to endure?

[Milton] Yeah.

I kind of thought, like,
going into this experience, being 24...

-I mean...
-[exhales heavily]

[Milton] I thought I was, like,

in a really, really good spot.

And I thought, like,
I knew so much about myself.

I kind of realized
that there's a lot emotionally

that I haven't,

like, healed from.

There's a lot of things
that I've never addressed.

There's a lot of relationships
that I need to fix.

You realizing and recognizing
all these things is a positive thing.

You recognizing that,

"sh*t, I need
to do a little bit of work on myself."

I am a work in progress,
and I'm 30 years old,

and you have discovered it at 24.

-[gentle music playing]
-That's big!

I have no doubts about you.

I have no concerns about you.

I know the amazing soul that you are.

And I'm reassuring you,

I just want you.

-Babe.
-Yeah.

I want you so bad.

Can you trust me for that?

Yeah, I trust you.

And I wanna hug you,
and kiss you, and love you so bad.

So bad.

Well, that sure was a plot twist in life.

I really honestly don't know how I feel.

I was gonna say something,
but I don't wanna make you pissed.

-[Milton] What's up?
-If you have doubts, ask Uche.

[both laugh]

That's a great thing to say, like...

Too soon?

[laughing] I'm sorry.

Oh, my f*cking God. My f*cking God.

[Lydia laughing]

I'm so sorry!
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

The most inappropriate time,
you're gonna make a f*cking joke.

[laughing]

[laughing] I'm so sorry.

Honestly, that's some sh*t I'd do.
[laughs]

[laughs] I'm just perfect for you.
Admit it.

["One Last Breath"
by Martin Buster playing]

My f*cking God.

♪ On one last breath ♪

["Wild Heart" by Katie Hargrove
and Stevie Gold playing]

I've always wanted the best friend
that I can laugh with,

and Izzy's the one.

I've never seen him,
but I can't imagine life without him.

It has nothing to do
with what he's looking like.

He gets me, and he gets the parts of me
that I didn't even know were there.

I love him.

♪ Come into the world, I'm ready... ♪

I'm so cheesy right now.
It's embarrassing.

♪ My wild heart... ♪

[Izzy] Good, good, good.

[Izzy] Meeting Stacy,

she's given me more
than anybody in my life has ever given me.

I never thought that
I was gonna find, like, love like this.

I see myself in 50 years with Stacy,

abroad, drunk off some rum,
dancing on a beach.

It's honestly like a dream come true.
This is the love I've wanted.

I think about what he looks like
all the time, and nothing comes to mind.

Hair color, eye color, I have no idea.

I try to picture him,
and I just hear his laugh.

So, all I can imagine is, like...

[laughing]

Like, a big cheesy grin.

I just wanna squeeze him,
hug him, and, like, not let go.

[laughs]

[inhales] Ahh!

[Izzy] I've never been more confident
with where I'm supposed to be,

and it's with Stacy.

[exhales]

[exhales]

[laughing]

My God!

It's so surreal. Oh, my God.

-Hi!
-How are you?

-[laughing]
-Oh!

[laughing]

-[Izzy] I'm completely shaking.
-[laughing]

-[romantic music playing]
-[both laughing]

♪ It's like I never met you
But I can't forget you... ♪

[Izzy exclaims] Oh!

-[Stacy] You are shaking! Oh, my God!
-I am.

-Nice to meet you.
-You too.

-You look amazing. Oh, my...
-Thank you.

I love this dress on you.

[gasps] God, you're beautiful.

♪ And I'll help you fall, fall ♪

♪ And after it all... ♪

-You're shaking so bad.
-I know.

-Take a deep breath.
-I'm good. [inhales]

-[exhales]
-Let it out. You're okay.

We're good. Come on.
Take a seat. I'm so excited.

Oh, my God! Oh, my God. Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh!

[laughs]

-All right.
-Oh, my God!

Oh, my God.

[Izzy laughs]

My heart is, like, racing.

[Izzy] Good. Take it in.

[exhales]

[Izzy] I'm excited.

Mmm.

[kisses]

-You smell f*cking amazing, by the way.
-Oh, well, that's a plus.

-Oh, okay, okay, okay.
-Gimme that hand, baby.

[laughing]

-My hand's shaking.
-Take all your time.

[Stacy squeals] Your hand
is shaking worse than mine.

Oh, my God.

-Oh, my God! Oh, the angst. Come here.
-[exclaims]

-[Stacy mutters]
-Oh!

-[Stacy] Oh, my God.
-[mutters]

[Izzy] What a relief.

-Finally.
-I know, right?

-[both laugh]
-[Stacy] Are you okay?

-[Izzy] It's a lot.
-Yeah?

-But it's good. I feel it.
-It's the same person.

-I know.
-It's an adjustment, huh?

-It is an adjustment.
-Yeah.

[Izzy] I'm just taking you in.

-Oh, my God, you're so sexy.
-Want me to do a twirl?

-Yes, give me a twirl, please.
-Okay, okay, okay.

-Let's do it in slow motion for you.
-Yes.

-This is me, Stacy.
-Uh-huh. Stacy.

-The one you chose.
-[laughs]

-Thank you.
-I'm f*cking lucky.

God, you're a bombshell.

-[Stacy] Oh, my God.
-Oh, my God!

-Oh, God.
-You're okay?

-Yeah, I'm good.
-I can feel it.

And it's so crazy 'cause,
like, I'm just f*cking excited, honestly.

-Your voice! Oh, my gosh, it's so...
-Is it what you pictured?

I didn't expect,
like, any sort of picture.

-Yeah.
- I just wanted to, like, be with you.

Same here.
I was just, like, so confident in you.

I was like, "I just wanna meet her."

"I wanna smell her.
I just wanna hug her, like..."

-I washed my hair just for you. [laughs]
-Me too.

-Shut up!
-[laughing]

You're real. Like, you're real.

I get to touch you,
hold you, and all the things, it's just...

-[Izzy] Yeah.
-It's just that final little, like...

[grunts] It feels good.

I know. I'm excited.

[romantic music playing]

-[Izzy exclaims]
-Don't touch my leg. I didn't shave.

-It's okay.
-[laughing]

I noticed. I wasn't gonna say anything.

But, you know,
a little hair gives it some character.

It's sexy.

-The leg hair?
-Yeah.

-I should grow it out?
-Grow it out.

Okay. Are you into braiding?

-[Izzy] Um, I don't know how to.
-[laughing]

But if you teach me,
a little hair brings character.

-I don't mind it.
-We'll start growing our garden bush here.

-Oh, God.
-Yes.

-Yeah. I'm just excited for the trip now.
-Yeah.

-I know.
-It's gonna be fun.

The fact that my nerves
are getting me right now.

-It's hitting the heart, baby.
-Oh!

But it's in a great way.
Like, yeah, it's not bad.

-It's me.
-Yeah, it is you.

-[laughs]
-It is you.

Oh, yeah. Oh, God. This is great.

-[Stacy] It's so wild.
-[laughs] This is my fiancée!

[laughing]

Your laugh! I've been dying for it!

Oh, man.

♪ Write a song for me
I wanna be the one ♪

♪ That makes you feel that way
Feel that way, feel that way ♪

♪ The one that makes you feel ♪

♪ Write a song for me ♪

♪ I wanna be the one... ♪

-[Lydia] Hello!
-[Milton] How are you today?

[Lydia] I'm good. How are you?

[Milton] Uh, I feel pretty good.

-[Lydia] You feel pretty good?
-Mmm-hmm.

I've been thinking about,
like, um, you know, us.

-Yes?
-[Milton] Like, you and I.

Um, I couldn't stop thinking about you,
like, last night.

Like, it was so, so nerve-racking.

I couldn't sleep at all.

There's still gonna be
a lot of things that, like,

we would have to sacrifice,
like, I would have to give up...

to be with you, you know?

I probably can't be at my friend's house
till 4:00 in the morning playing the Wii.

[both laugh]

If you wanna go play with your friends,
hell yeah, go for it.

I'm gonna have to ask you,
"Hey, can I go outside and play?"

No. You're just gonna let me know,
and be like...

-"Gotta be in by the streetlight."
-[laughs]

You're just trying to be funny,
aren't you?

Yeah.

Oh, my God.

You don't think, like,
my age is gonna affect us at all?

Age is just a number.

I've never been so sure
of anything in my life, and it's crazy.

It's absolutely crazy.

I honestly think it's gonna be amazing.

Never boring. [laughs]

-Always laughing.
-[Milton] Mmm-hmm.

And I'm just so excited.

[Milton] I definitely think
it would be a lot of fun

being married to you.

Me too.

I could definitely recognize your voice
in a crowd anywhere.

I'm kind of at a stage where I'm like,

"Do I wanna say f*ck it and take a risk?"

But then at the same time,
like, I have to think about you.

You know?

What if all of a sudden my job was like,

"Milton, you have to move to Argentina."

-"And you'll be working..."
-And I'll say, "Let's do it!"

Adventure awaits.

-[exhales] You'd be down?
-[Lydia] Yes!

[Milton] You're gonna say
you'd be willing to pick up your job?

-Like, just drop everything?
-[Lydia] I work from anywhere, remember?

And, like, actually,
can we move to Argentina?

[laughs]

-Sorry.
-It would be nice. You do speak Spanish.

Yeah.

You're too quiet. [laughs]

-You're nervous, aren't you?
-Yeah, I'm actually, like, super nervous.

Like, marriage is for life.

It is for life. It's a life decision.

I don't know.
I'm just, like, still so nervous.

Oh, me too.

Like, this is it. Like...

This is it.
There's no going back. This is it.

What do you want?

I want you. [chuckles]

'Cause you are already everything
I have desired and even more.

I never expected to be this sure.

I want you.

I wanna be your wife.

[Milton] I think you'd be a great wife,
a great mother.

I think you're really,
like, my best friend.

Are you a risk-taker?

[Lydia] I will say, like, half-and-half.

I'm a huge risk-taker,

and for some reason, like,

I've been overthinking about this.

You think you can spend
the rest of your life with me?

Yes.

A hundred percent. [chuckles]

[Milton inhales]

I don't know how to do this.

[groans]

-I'm on one knee.
-[Lydia gasps] Oh, my God!

[laughs] I'm standing up.

-[Milton] You're standing up?
-Yeah.

-Lydia Arlene Velez Gonzalez.
-[laughs]

Oh, my God.

I feel like
I've definitely fallen in love with you

during this, like, journey.

[Lydia] I love you!

[Milton] You're gonna be
my Puerto Rican wife?

[laughs]

Yes, I will be your Puerto Rican wife.

I'm, like, serious. I mean, like, forever.

And I mean forever.

["Falling For You"
by Ingrid Andress playing]

♪ But I hope
I'll never stop falling for you... ♪

Oh, my God, we're engaged.

You're my fiancé. [chuckles]

-That simple? It's just that easy?
-[Lydia] That easy.

No way. This is supposed to be way harder.

It was just meant to be.
Everything's meant to be.

Oh!

-[laughs] It's gonna be so nice.
-[exclaims]

[Lydia] Oh, my God, I can't wait.

I love you.

I love you too.

Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
I'll see you tomorrow?

[Milton] I'll see you tomorrow.

[squeals] Love you!

-[Milton] I love you too.
-Bye!

[Milton] Bye.

♪ I'll never stop falling for you ♪

♪ I hope I never stop falling ♪

♪ Never stop falling for you ♪

-[Lydia] I'm engaged!
-[women screaming]

["Before And After"
by Evie Waters playing]

♪ In my life
I've been living in a daydream... ♪

I think it's a little bit crazy thinking
about spending the rest of my life

with somebody that I've never even seen,

but falling in love with Aaliyah
has been the craziest experience,

and I think Aaliyah is just my dream girl.

This is a once-in-a-lifetime feeling.

Something that I've never felt before
about anybody.

It's something
that I've always dreamed of.

I'm in love with Aaliyah.

And I don't wanna lose her,

and I can definitely see
a life with Aaliyah.

♪ My heart beats louder ♪

♪ When I'm around you... ♪

I'm going to ask Aaliyah to marry me.

♪ Around my door
I know you're worth waiting for... ♪

[Uche] Hey, baby.

-♪ We can go anywhere ♪
-[music fades]

Hello?

[inhales]

[sighs]

[heart b*ating]

Hello?

[suspenseful music playing]

[man on speaker] Uche...

unfortunately, Aaliyah has decided
to not continue with the experiment.

[dramatic music playing]

[dramatic music continues]

[Uche exhales heavily]

-We just talked, I was like, "Hey, like..."
-[door opens]

She's gone.

[Milton] I have no idea
what she thinks I look like

or if I'm necessarily even her type.
It is scary.

[Izzy] You are the most tender
and sweet girl that I've ever met.

That's why I'm in love with you,
because that's the girl that I see in you.

[Stacy] I have never felt
this kind of love before.

[laughs]

[Izzy] I'm glad I'm here with you.

I was just curious why someone 30
would be interested in a 24-year-old.

-It's phony.
-[woman] Johnie's here!

You were my number one.

How are you gonna tell me you're in love...

-She told you she loved you?
-Four times.

And I do care about you.
Like, I did and still do.

So I'm taking it
as you want me to see you as a f*ck boy.

[Aaliyah] Uche.

I wanna spend
the rest of my life with you.

We have a lot to talk about.

Just be honest and say
that you're trying to get back with me.

[Taylor] I still have love
and care for you.

[JP] It just presents as fake.

But you didn't know
what I looked like before!

-But now I do!
-I feel frustrated. [sniffles]

[man] Now's the time
to decide if love is blind.

[Milton] Everybody gets cold feet.

["Moonlight" by Alex Komlew
& Wanja Janeva playing]

♪ You're cold as ice in the dark ♪

♪ Like dead inside ♪

♪ In the dark ♪

♪ You only cry for the moonlight ♪

♪ For the moonlight ♪

[music fading]