05x03 - The Book of Broadway

[bunniefuu]

-[♪ upbeat music playing]
-♪ I'm a star ♪

♪ Hey, hey, hey, hey ♪

♪ Going far ♪

♪ Hey, hey, hey, hey ♪

♪ I'm a star ♪

Whoo!

Ah, it's cold!

Holy sh*t, that hurts.
It hurts.

-No, it literally hurts.
-[Miranda] We're not in Utah anymore.

So we just landed in New York City...

Me, you, Mayci, and Jacob are in one.

...to watch Whitney's
performance as Roxie Hart.

It's opening night.

So, we're so excited to see her.

Jessi isn't here yet.

She recently got another breast procedure

and she's been experiencing some pain.

So, she's catching a later flight
and then she's going to meet us there.

Oh, wait, I see it! [squeals]

My girl!

That's Whitney's [indistinct]!

That's our girl!

That's so crazy. I'm so proud of her.
I'm going to cry tomorrow.

-Oh, I know I will for sure.
-Like a little b*tch.

I literally, like, kind of cried
with Dancing with the Stars.

I cried that night, too.
Both her and Jen came on.

I was like, [hyperventilating].

We're just feeling all the feels

and I think it's because,
like, seeing Whitney

in such a pivotal role
and, like, seeing how far she's come

makes me just think about how
MomTok first got together,

and I'm like, four years ago
we were just making TikToks

and, like, it's just so crazy

all the things that we've been
through together as a group.

And I'm honestly so proud of MomTok.

MomTok survived.

-[indistinct chatter]
-Hi.

We're going up. We're going up.

[Mikayla] I think getting Taylor
away from the men and Dakota

and just getting her out,
doing a girls' trip,

having her hang out,
I think it'll be good for her

to get away from that
and also prove if she's actually ready

to finally move on and heal.

It's a great opportunity.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

[laughing] Hi!

Hello.

-[♪ theme music playing]
-♪ Come ye saints and come ye sinners ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Listen up ♪

♪ I'm the one you've been dreaming of ♪

♪ I've got everything
you could ever want ♪

♪ Try me and you'll see
I'll bring you to your knees ♪

♪ Baby, you're gonna believe ♪

Shh.

Shh.

Shh.

♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪

♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪

♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪

♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪

♪ Temptation ♪

[speaker 1]
Is filming actually on pause?

[speaker 2]
And five was filming.

[speaker 3]
We now have an update on...

[speaker 3]
Didn't feel comfortable filming

with everything that was happening.

♪♪

-[Ben] Have you seen this place?
-[Taylor] No, this is insane.

-Uh... I guess we got lucky. Huh?
-[Ben] Yeah.

[Taylor] How did checking in,
I guess, as my brother go?

-Uh, it was fine.
-Really?

-Honestly, yeah.
-They didn't question you at all?

-No.
-So, it worked.

-Yeah.
-Sweet.

Oh, my gosh.

-Yeah, right?
-It just keeps going.

-Yeah.
-There's another level?

-There's 10 floors.
-Holy sh*t.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

♪ Got to go, got to go
make history ♪

♪ And my name's gonna be
in the books you read ♪

♪ Living our truth never felt so free ♪

'Kay, let's order as many
appetizers as we can.

Yeah, I'm so hungry.
I want the burrata.

We just got to New York
and we are all so hangry.

We've been on that plane for five hours.

So, I'm ready to eat.

But, uh, where's Taylor?

They have a gluten-free pasta.

Only if you're over five.

Right?
Or why does it say plus five?

-Does that mean something?
-I don't know, actually.

Is this everyone coming?

Taylor?

What could Taylor possibly be doing?

Um...

[laughter]

So, none of my friends know
you're here, by the way.

They're going to dinner tonight.

Anyways, I probably should go.

I don't want to, though.

Well, I'm not going anywhere.

Yeah, you can't, you can't
go anywhere, like at all.

Yeah, I literally can't go anywhere.

For The Bachelorette,
we have to be in hiding until end of May.

So yeah, everything I do
with Ben or whatever,

needs to be under wraps until then.

♪♪

Hi, guys.

-There you are.
-You're over here.

-Okay, I've just come to say hi.
-At the head of the table.

-The father, the father of the table.
-I thought it was a girls' only dinner.

Then you wouldn't want to come, Taylor.

What were you doing in that room?

Uh...

-[Layla] Taylor.
-What?

-[Layla] What were you doing?
-Why?

-You were taking nudes.
-You were taking nudes.

[Miranda] No. You were on
the phone with Ben, huh?

-Where did you guys get nudes from?
-[Miranda] That's better than Dakota.

-You like a good nude.
-[Taylor] Wait. No, I'm curious.

We heard rumors.

-[Mikayla] Just out of habit...
-[crosstalk]

That's, like, the least of my worries.

I'm like, just a feeling.

[Jace] So, you're saying it's much worse?

-Is that what I'm hearing?
-[coughs] No, but I don't take nudes.

She's so guilty of something.

Jen, Jen, Jen?

Did Zac not come?

Oh, why not?

I don't think this was worth it for him.

Has him and Whitney
talked at all since...?

No. Yeah, no.

I definitely think Zac not coming
to New York is for the best.

He's not a fan of Whitney.

If you had gotten eliminated,
would you be voting for Jen?

Absolutely.

-Absolutely.
-And that is complete bullshit.

-I-I don't even believe that one percent.
-It's not.

And you know what, Zac?

You don't have to.

I wish that I hadn't asked Zac
to go to that.

And I think the conversation
I need to have with Whitney

is between Whitney and I.

Even if she can't see my perspective,

I'm just hoping that I can be heard.

[plastic thumping]

Oh, wait.

[metal clinking]

First off, I just want to know

where everyone is at with Whitney.

If she could just acknowledge
the hurt that I felt.

But she doesn't want to.
She has to care about you.

Exactly, that's the part
that frustrates me.

She acts like she cares about me.
She acts like we were friends.

We were never friends the whole time.

She tells the whole world
we were friends

when she, literally, is a b*tch.

I, I feel like we've all been
in a rocky place with her.

-Like, at one point or another, you mean?
-Yeah, yeah.

When she came to me

and she was frustrated about me
not congratulating her

about... Broadway,
it was very confusing to me

'cause I'm like,
if it was important for...

for me to congratulate you,

why didn't you tell me
about it in the first place?

I just want to get to the point,

and even if that means
that we're not friends,

I just want to be cordial.

-Yeah.
-And move forward 'cause, eventually,

we're probably going
to run into each other

-and see each other.
-Like, tomorrow?

[Taylor]
Yeah, like, probably tomorrow night.

I know genuinely that she does care a lot
and I think a lot of her--

[Miranda] More than she
cares to admit sometimes, too.

-[phone chimes]
-Exactly, and it's the same thing.

Like, I have my faults
from my trauma and my wounds

that it's hard to not be defensive.

And I can see that in her a lot

now that I'm on the other side of it.

So, do you think she actually
wanted to be friends with me?

-[Mikayla] I think so.
-[Mayci] I think she does.

I think she wants to be friends
with everyone.

And I think sometimes it hurts her

when people don't like her,
don't have a friendship--

And that's when the defensiveness
comes up of like,

-"f*ck you, I don't care."
-[Mayci] Yeah.

Well, hopefully, I can get to that place
that you guys are all at

'cause I just want
to move past everything.

I hear Jen saying that
she wants to let it go,

but I also hear on the other hand
that she still has a lot of resentment.

I feel like she has to let go of that
before she's actually ready to

fix her friendship with Whitney.

I feel like she's pretty reasonable

if you can, like, get through to her.
Like, I feel like

-she is pretty reasonable.
-[phone chimes]

I'm trying to focus on Jen
and what she's telling us,

but hearing Taylor's phone,
ding, ding, ding, ding, ding going off

and she's all, like, giggly
and whoever's texting her.

And so I'm like, oh, great.

That's a long message.

Any boys on there?

Who's your last boy text, Taylor?

-What?
-Who's your last text?

Show me, boy.

-Go on, show me.
-Hold on a second.

No, don't delete anything, show me.

[Miranda] I know who it is.

[Miranda] So we thought it was nudes
to Dakota, but it's nudes to Ben.

I think that Taylor doesn't
know how to be single.

She might be using these men to

get back at Dakota or to make him jealous,

which all the more reason
to just be single.

-[Mikayla] Are you sweating?
-Are you-- She's sweating.

[crosstalk]

-No, I will say, though...
-[Miranda] Why are you getting stressed?

Lovely people,
I'm sorry for interruption.

I will give you dessert menus.

[Taylor]
Can we get one of everything?

Yeah, there is so many desserts, though.

Mayci's down, I know you're down.
One of everything.

-One of everything, yep, yep.
-[Mikayla] That's a lot, Taylor.

Let Taylor just live her life tonight.

She's going wild, let her do her thing.

Okay, guys, I think I'm heading out.

No, you're not 'cause you just
ordered dessert for everyone.

[Jace] Is the person in your room
getting impatient?

[Mayci]
She has to go text her boyfriends.

Girl, you gonna go text your man.

She can't be naked in front of us
and send pictures, Layla.

[Mayci] You are not! No.

You're so dumb.

[Taylor] Bye.

-[♪ sensual music playing]
-♪ I can be a good girl ♪

♪ Show you what you need ♪

♪ I can be a good girl,
lady of your dreams ♪

♪ I can be a good girl, good girl ♪

Hello!

-Hi.
-What's up?

I just got your text.

"I have a bunch of hugs
and kisses for you."

Ooh!

-Let's go.
-[laughter]

Who texted that?
How was dinner?

Good, good.

[♪ mischievous music playing]

Wait, should we cover this?

So she doesn't know it's us,
or else she's not gonna answer.

Taylor, hello, you just ordered

the entire table of dessert,
everything on the menu,

and you just leave?

Something feels off here.

This is a case for M&M Incorporated,

and I think we have
to get to the bottom of it.

-[knocking on door]
-I heard a knock.

[high-pitched voice]
It's housekeeping.

-You got to go up.
-Is it the girls?

Yeah, probably.

God, 'cause she's gonna answer that.

Also, hide your stuff.

♪♪

♪ Amazing grace ♪

♪ How sweet-- ♪

What are you doing up here, Taylor?

I smell like there's a man in here.

-Something smells a little funky.
-Oh, I'm bringing you

the dessert you ordered.

-Something...
-And I have two.

So that's perfect for you
and your plus one.

Wait, let's do a little room tour.

-Yeah, show us a room tour.
-I wanna see...

Wait, let's check in the closet first.

Something weird's going on.

Either she's sending nudes to Dakota

or Dakota's in her room,

Ben's in her room, somebody's in her room.

[Taylor] What, do you think I have
someone hiding in here?

-[Mikayla] Ooh, this is cool.
-[Mayci] Taylor!

-[Taylor] No, I'm genuinely--
-[Mayci] What do you do in there?

-There's another floor.
-Wait, wait, wait, guys, guys, guys, guys.

-Wait. Hold on, hold on, wait, don't--
-[exclaiming]

[Mikayla] Taylor!

-[Mayci] Where is he? Taylor?
-Taylor.

-We found this bag.
-Oh, interesting.

It just happens to say "Benjamin" on it.

Your name's not Benjamin...

-What's his last name?
-Lambert.

Who's Benjamin Lambert?

-Benjamin?
-Benny?

Where art thou?

-What the hell?
-Actually, wait, wait, wait, wait.

Guys, guys, guys, guys,
wait, hold on, hold on.

Wait, are you going to listen?

-[Mikayla] No.
-[Mayci] What?

-Oh, look who it is!
-Oh, hey, Ben!

Oh, my goodness.

Taylor, have you lost your damn mind?

What are we doing here?

Shocker.

Couldn't go anywhere without a man.

Thank God it wasn't Dakota.

But still, probably not
a good idea to bring Ben around,

especially when you're under
a strict NDA of Bachelorette

not to be seen with any men.

And you fly this man to New York?

That's crazy.

So, what's going on here?

What's the situation?

I mean, I think we just--

[Mayci] 'Cause this feels complicated,
so now I'm curious.

-[Ben] Yes, well, it is.
-Yes.

-Yeah.
-Uh, yeah.

[Mayci]
I have a random question, though,

'cause you just won
your Happy Couple with Doug.

So, does he know about Ben?

Or is he going to find out on TV?

[Taylor]
Um, he doesn't know about Ben.

So, you're probably
going to have to tell him?

-[Mikayla] Eventually.
-[Taylor] I guess.

Well, you're gonna want to

-before you do the final rose.
-Yes.

You'll get-- She'll get
eaten alive, you know?

Yeah.

Is there a little bit of, like,

it's almost more exciting

-because you shouldn't be doing it?
-[Taylor] Mm-hm.

We both want, like, a stable,
long-term relationship,

and we're just trying to figure out
if we're compatible for that.

Ben's mentioning what
he wants in a partner,

and he wants someone who is stable,

and a long-term this,
and a long-term that.

And, like, I'm looking at Taylor

and I'm like, "She knows
that she's not that person."

[Mikayla] So I'm like,
you gotta get running, Ben,

because you're not in
the right place for that.

♪♪

[♪ upbeat music playing]

♪ Talking about star potential ♪

♪ Talking about exponential ♪

♪ Talking about something special ♪

♪ Better get it right now ♪

♪ No fuel, we stop in traffic ♪

♪ It's about to be a classic ♪

♪ One glimpse, you've got to have it ♪

♪ Bet you gonna say wow ♪

I'm glad that Whitney texted me before
because I feel like,

I was like, she's so busy,

I didn't know if we were gonna have time
to meet up before her show,

but I think it worked out perfectly

that she literally had her rehearsals
right across the street.

-[both] Rawr!
-Oh, my God, you guys.

[laughter]

-Hello.
-Hi!

How are you?

It is Whitney's opening night of Chicago.

We're so excited.

I feel like I have been
so nervous for her.

I'm just excited to see her
and see how she's feeling

'cause I would be losing my sh*t,

and I feel like she's probably stressed

and just wants to talk about it.

So, I hope she goes out there,
just gives it her all,

and proves all the haters wrong.

[Jace]
How has the whole process been for you?

It's grueling, for sure,
but I love performing,

like I love doing it.

It's like a whole
different thing than dancing.

-It's like a whole different world.
-[Whitney] It's so different because

everybody wants everyone to do a great job

and it takes, like,
every single person to make

-what you're going to see tomorrow.
-[Mikayla] It's a team,

it's like MomTok.
It's teamwork.

-Well... sure.
-Teamwork makes the dream work.

Do we all want each other to succeed?

-I don't know.
-We're like, actually...?

-[laughter]
-Maybe not that part.

Once I found out that Jen
was coming to New York,

just so confused on
her intentions and motives.

But, like, I don't want
to put my energy into this.

Just wanna get up on that stage

and, like, get the first performance
over with.

How I'm going to sing tomorrow,
I've never done that, ever.

-[Jace] Mm-hm.
-I've only done it in an ensemble.

I've never had, like,
a solo like that before.

-[Mikayla] Mm-hm.
-[Whitney] That's the thing that

gives me the most anxiety.

-[Mikayla] Yeah.
-[Whitney] I just want to be present.

-[Mikayla] Yeah.
-[Whitney] That's it.

'Cause you only get one,
so I don't wanna f*ck it up.

-You got it.
-Well, she's not going to f*ck it up.

No, you're not.
There's a reason that they picked you.

-That's what I would tell myself.
-[Conner] Yeah.

There's a reason that they picked me,

just say that every single day.

-[Jace] Mm-hm.
-Just own it.

Own the stage, the Broadway stage.

I appreciate that.

Mikayla and I, am very happy
that we're in this place.

What we've gone through in MomTok,

no one can ever take that away from us.

And I feel like we're
all in this together,

regardless of where our paths go.

'Kay, I love you guys.

-Love you.
-Stay warm.

[Whitney]
Thank you, love you.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

♪ I'm down for you,
down for you, down for you ♪

♪ Take it ♪

[Ben]
Alright, I'm going to go turn the bath on.

Do you want it hot or, like, scalding hot?

[Taylor] Hot. Scalding hot.

Is it really hot, though?
I'm not getting in if it's not hot.

-Yeah.
-Ooh.

[♪ flirty music playing]

[Taylor laughing]

Hurry up and get in.

♪♪

I can't believe you did that on camera.

Oh, this feels nice, actually.

♪♪

[Taylor] Ahh, so good.

[Ben] Like a wild animal.

-[♪ upbeat music playing]
-♪ Oh! ♪

♪ I just came here to come say hello ♪

-♪ Hello! ♪
-♪ We can talk about it ♪

-♪ Hi! ♪
-♪ We can talk about it ♪

♪ Yeah! ♪

♪ I just came here to come say hello ♪

-♪ Hello! ♪
-♪ We can talk about it ♪

-♪ Hi! Hello! ♪
-Sure. What's your last name?

[Jessi] It's Ngatikaura. I'll give you
my ID 'cause it's kinda hard.

I had to come a day late
to New York because

I got my boobs done
about a month ago,

and I just had a lot of pain,
some swelling,

some fluid buildup, and I did Google it

and everything seems like a hematoma.

So, trying not to freak myself out.

But I wouldn't miss Whitney's
opening night for the world.

I'm so proud of her
and I'm so happy to be here,

whether I'm in pain or not.

Imagine if I was like,
"Jordan, I want another surgery."

Oh, that's never happening again.

-I know. I know.
-Ever.

Don't worry, I think I learned my lesson.

The girls are out shopping right now,

but I'm just gonna stay home and rest

before we do even more of the activities
we have planned.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

[Mayci] I think we're here.

-Vivrelle.
-Vivrelle!

The ladies and I are going
to Vivrelle to snag some bags

for the premiere for Whitney tonight.

[gasps]
Oh, it's beautiful in here.

I'm excited to see what
we can get our hands on.

-Hi, guys.
-[greeting each other]

Welcome in, I'm Sophie.

Welcome to Vivrelle,
excited to have you in.

[Miranda] Gorgeous.

Wait, this is actually Heaven on Earth.

[♪ angelic choir singing]

-♪ Ahh ♪
-Yeah, I mean, our closet's your closet,

so feel free to browse.

I know, Mikayla, you have an appointment,

but everyone else
can sign up for a membership.

Ooh!

We ship nationwide.

So, browse, have fun,

and let me know what you want me
to place an order for.

-Amazing, thank you so much.
-Of course, come on in.

[Mikayla]
Actually, though, I'm in heaven.

I love being here in person

'cause I'm online
all the time getting stuff,

but I'm like,
it's nice to see it all in person.

No, this is insane.

I'm like, "I'll take one of everything
to ship it to my house."

This is a bar.
Wait, this is incredible.

Can I have a Diet Coke
with, uh, sugar-free cream?

-You got it.
-Thank you.

That one's so cute, Mikayla.

I know, and I feel like
it's perfect for my outfit,

-but I feel like it's too big.
-[crosstalk]

Like, I feel like this one's just cute
and, like, [squeals].

What are you going to fit in there?

Um, I don't know, maybe I could fit
the three men I'm dating in here.

-[Mayci] Yeah.
-[Mikayla] You want to borrow it?

That's gorge. Love.

-'Kay, I need your advice, Mikay.
-Yeah.

-What?
-It's about Mason, you can hear.

-I want your insight.
-Oh, God bless.

So, you know how I went a little
too hard on his birthday,

which, like, you guys already
gave me sh*t for that?

-[Taylor] No, I don't.
-On his birthday?

Oh, I bought him, like, Cartier ring,

-new suitcases, a bunch of clothes.
-Taylor's face...

Um... so he just started school again,

and I wanted to get him, like, a...

-No, do not get him a MacBook.
-...congrats on starting...

It's not a MacBook; I just bought him,
like, a really nice watch.

-Rolex?
-No, not a Rolex, I'm not that psychotic.

Wait, it's a watch for going to school?

-He needs to be able to tell the time!
-He has a phone to tell the time.

♪♪

-'Kay, what watch was it?
-It's a Breitling watch.

I don't even know what that is.

-Layla!
-[Layla] No, couple thousand.

-[Miranda] Let me see.
-$3,500 to $48,000?

-[Taylor] Oh, see, that wouldn't be me.
-How is that a back-to-school watch?

♪♪

Good hell.

I think when Mason came into the group,

it was around the same time
that Chase was coming back into the group.

But for Mason, I'm like,

I couldn't tell if it was quite
convenient timing

or, like, did he actually like Layla

or d-- was he just here
for the opportunities and the money

and the perks of our lifestyle?

But Mason doesn't really pay for things.

She's paid for all their trips,

and, like, I'm sorry,
you don't really have a job.

Like, what is he doing to add value
into this relationship?

When was the last time
he spent money on you?

[Taylor groans]

-God bless.
-I was on the phone with you

when you guys were fighting about
who was going to buy smoothies.

A smoothie?

-That's worse than Swig.
-[Miranda] I was on the phone

and you were like,
I was like, just let him.

I'm like, "Let him get it, Layla.
Girl, let him get it."

-Layla's like...
-I think I got it.

..."He buys me Swig sometimes."

[Mayci] I think the problem here
is that we are choosing

the wrong men time and time again.

These men who want a platform,
they wanna be on a show,

they want to quit their jobs
and do social media.

That, to me, is a red flag.

Well, I think beyond that,

like, what does he have
to offer you, Layla?

-He's my best friend.
-No, I get that,

but what does
he offer you other than, like,

friendship and companionship
and, like, you love him?

Like, I'm just curious, like,
is he gonna be a good dad?

Does he help provide?

Like, think about all these things

because it's-- you can't just
have physical attraction

and then you fall in love
and then that's all you have.

I definitely think they have a point.

I don't think gift giving's a bad thing,

but I definitely feel like I give a lot

in my relationship with Mason.

I'm a giver in a lot of ways.

It's how I show my love,

but I feel like, sometimes,

he doesn't necessarily give it back to me

and it can kind of sometimes leave me

feeling a little underappreciated.

And I just wish he would
show up sometimes.

As long as he's doing something,
like, take me on a date.

I don't know, buy me something
other than a soda.

Yeah, I think it's just
hard for me sometimes.

'Cause I feel like I don't deserve that.

-You do.
-You do deserve that.

[Mayci] And more.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

-[Ben] Hey, Tay?
-Yeah?

-You good?
-Just getting ready.

Whitney's hosting a party.

-Oh, tonight? Oh, nice.
-Yeah.

I can't wait to actually
do this stuff, like,

normally with you, you know?

Like, where you can come with me.

Like, go out, like, some of
the guys are going tonight

with their wives and stuff,
or their girlfriends.

-Yeah.
-But, like, that'd be nice.

You think so? You think it's more fun
to just be a secret forever?

-[laughing]
-Actually...

How much do you go to church now?

Mm, like, really on special occasions,
like, not all the time.

-Yeah, that's what I figured.
-But--

Um, I mean, I'm the same way
with church attendance.

So, how would you feel
if your kids were in the Mormon church?

I think they would be, right?

Like, your kids would be
in the Mormon church.

Yeah, but like, hypothetically,
if we're talking about us.

-Mm.
-Our kids,

-hypothetically.
-Our kids?

I mean, way far, but hypotheticals,
right, for fun?

-Well, better think about it, huh?
-Yeah.

'Cause then, you can just run now.
Bye!

[Jessi]
Will you help me get this off?

Here, I'm going to get down,

-and then you go up this arm, yeah.
-'Kay.

And then I'll go over the head,
but don't ruin the makeup.

I don't know if you're gonna be
able to wear this dress.

Oh, sh*t, I have my mic.
Whoops.

I can't, I have no other choice.

[Jessi] In sickness and
in plastic surgery.

I just have to say, I am a true friend

because I could be
internally bleeding right now,

I could be falling apart,
but I've made it.

The show must go on.

So, you're going to have to just go under.

And be aggressive.

-I'm going to be sweating tonight.
-Yeah.

[♪ Broadway music playing]

Alright, let's go.

[Layla] Oh, my gosh,
I can't even, like, put into words

how... proud I am of Whitney.

[Mikayla] She's going to k*ll it,
we all already know it.

We saw her on Dancing with the Stars.

We just know her stage presence is there.

I mean, what Whitney's doing is a big deal

and it's a dream of hers.

[announcer] Making her Broadway debut
as Roxie Hart,

we welcome Whitney Leavitt.

Yeah, every-- every part of me
doesn't wanna go.

[crowd cheering]

[announcer] And good night.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

One of the best Broadway shows
that I've seen in a long time.

I mean, honestly, wow, wow.

She just crushed it.

I was watching a little girl
see her dreams come true.

She exceeded my expectations.

[Mayci] I feel like Whitney's
performance shows us

to not only follow your dreams

and pursue what you want
to do in this career,

but also break the norm
of just, like, being a Mormon woman.

My girl can sing.



I'm just so happy that we're all together

here at the after-party
supporting Whitney.

I don't want to say it,
but I genuinely feel like

this is what MomTok is actually about.

[Whitney] Let's do it!

Let's party!

[all cheering]

We did it!

[♪ upbeat music playing]

Thanks for being here!

♪♪

For the first time ever, I feel like

I'm doing what I really want to do.

And not only am I doing that,

but I have this crazy support system.

[ladies screaming]

My friends and my family

who have made such an effort
to be there for me.

I can't express enough

how much it means that you guys are here.

Thank you, guys.

[both]
Aww, we love you.

That's so sweet.

I'll never forget it.

[Jen]
I'm just gonna go this way.

Are you guys talking often or no?

-Uh, Dakota?
-Yeah.

No. Not-- Really about Ever.
I like Ben.

-Oh yeah, is that going well?
-Yeah. He's here.

No! He's in New York?

Shut up!

He's in the penthouse with me.

Are you not allowed to--
Oh, you're not allowed to bring him out?

[laughing] Oh, my--
Did he fly out separate?

-Uh-huh.
-I'm dead.

I'm not surprised that Ben's here.

Honestly, I expect
nothing less from Taylor.

I mean, I guess swingers
do date multiple people,

so this is on brand.

Are you surprised?

But I do think it's a little ballsy
to bring him to New York City

because if he gets spotted at all,

people are going to know
immediately who he is.

[exclaiming]

My gosh, guys, thanks so much for coming.

-Oh, my gosh.
-Your wife is a freaking rockstar.

Hopefully, you guys are having fun.

-I'm having so much fun.
-I'm gonna keep making rounds.

-Okay, yeah.
-But we love you guys.

[♪ tense music playing]

You were great.
How do you feel?

-I, again, I'm just so happy it's over.
-Yeah.

♪♪

-[indistinct chatter]
-Oh, my God, you look amazing!

I can see Jen making her prowl
towards Whitney right now.

She's on the move towards the target.

I feel like something's gonna go down,

which when does it not with this group?

-[Whitney] So, I appreciate...
-[speaker 1] Yeah, you look stunning.

[speaker 2]
Yeah, you look amazing.

♪♪

I just wanted to congratulate you.

-[Whitney] Thanks, Jen.
-Okay, um,

we can talk when you're back in Utah

because I don't want to steal
your moment but you did,

you did incredible.

Thank you, I appreciate that.

-I really do.
-You were incredible.

There's a lot of things
I want to talk to you about.

I'm not going to do it here.

Um, but you did incredible

and you're glowing and, genuinely,
I'm so happy for you.

-And so proud of you.
-Thank you.

-Yes, yeah.
-Thank you, I appreciate that.

As much as I'd love to have
a conversation with her, uh,

this is definitely not the time.

And to be honest,
I think this is just a moment

of congratulating her
and making this moment about her.

And hopefully, she felt that from me.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

♪ I'm not the kind of girl ♪

♪ Who's gonna take your word for it ♪

♪ I'm not no prima donna ♪

♪ I don't get off on shining ♪

♪ But I like it nice, you can tell ♪

[Taylor] Eventually, we need to
figure this out a little bit...you know?

[Taylor] Like, where this is going,
you know?

-What are we?
-Not even that.

Where do you want it to go?

I'm dating you to be my wife.
Like, I'm looking for a wife.

Mm-hm.

And so far it's going well.

-Yeah...
-What do you-- [laughing]

What? No, it's fine.
It's good, it's a good thing.

[Ben] Yeah.

What makes me wifey material?
I'm curious.

You're just so cool.

I know that already.
What else?

Like, the way you are with your kids

and, like, the way you are with me and...

How am I with you?

Gentle.

[laughter]

Like, very sweet.

-Mm.
-Um...

I bet you have a lot
of love to give, actually,

once it's, like, unlocked, you know?

[♪ upbeat music playing]

♪ Who you know that can walk like this ♪

♪ Talk like this, act like this ♪

♪ Who you know getting cash like this? ♪

♪ Fresh like this, fashion like this ♪

♪ Who you know that can walk like this ♪

♪ Talk like this, act like this ♪

♪ Who you know getting cash like this? ♪

♪ Fresh like this, fashion like this ♪

So, Taylor, is she not coming?

Of course not.

[Jessi]
Well, and she doesn't show up to much.

Like, any girls' night we have,
like, she's not really coming,

she doesn't make an effort.

And so, it's the one time
we're all here together.

We're in New York
and we have to go ice skating

in Central Park, it's iconic,

but Taylor is nowhere to be found,

she wasn't answering her phone.

If I had to guess, she's with Ben,
and it's a little discouraging

because we, as friends,
show up for her so much

and no matter what,
she runs back to the same guys

for that validation instead.

And how do we keep giving it
if she doesn't really value it?

Even, like, the--
W-Whitney's Chicago party,

she's like, "Ugh, I don't know,
I'm not going to go."

-And I'm like--
-She wasn't going to go?

I'm like, we're both sick
and we're both showing up.

[Jessi]
Look at me, I'm internally bleeding.

-I'm about to die, and I'm here.
-Yeah.

But it's like, she's like,
"I don't have capacity to give,"

but like, "You do to Ben.

-You do to Doug. You do to Dakota."
-Exactly.

But never your friends
who are there for you.

Why do you seek validation in men

instead of your friends
who have been here for you

for the last four years
through everything?

And you just keep going
to men, men, men, men.

But it does come to a point
where it's like,

this is only servicing you
in this friendship.

It's not a two-way street,

and I don't think it ha--
really ever has been.

When has she ever been there for us
when we're going through sh*t?

[Mayci]
Sometimes I genuinely feel like

she doesn't want
to hang out with us at all.

-This is gorgie, though.
-[Jessi] Yeah, this is pretty.

♪♪

[Jen]
Has anybody gone ice skating before?

[Mayci]
Like, a couple times as a kid, but.

Good morning. Hi, guys.

[Mikayla] We got to stop making
this a habit, Taylor,

of you showing up late
'cause I'm getting irritated.

[Taylor]
It was so hard for me to get up.

I don't know,
my body crashes every cast trip.

Oh, that's convenient.
[laughs]

[Taylor] No, it's not convenient,
it's called

my body gets in sur--
uh, out of survival mode

and actually tries to rest
and that's how exhausted I am.

So, not convenient, it's just life.

[Mikayla] We're all living the same life,
that's for sure.

[Jen]
I can really relate with Taylor

because I know what it's like

to be in a really bad mental space

and not feel like you can
function properly.

There can be a lot of shame and guilt

that comes with that as a mom as well.

And I don't know if the girls understand

what it's like to feel
the way that she does.

I'm gonna twist an ankle,
pop a hip, and pop this p*ssy.

-I wonder who's going to get hurt first.
-[Layla screaming]

Layla's hating her life.

[Mayci]
Feel like a grandmother.

[screams]

[rink PA] Once again, if we can
have everybody off the ice at this time.

Great, I am done anyways.

-Oh.
-We have to clear the rink.

[Mayci] Well, they need to
'cause the ice is all jankety.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

-Knock, knock. Is that--
-[ladies] Welcome in!

-Welcome to our igloo.
-[Miranda] Ooh, she's toasty!

-I think I'm gonna get just...
-Coffee?

-Regular?
-Yeah.

Smells weird in here.

[Mayci]
Did you say anything to Mason

after, like, yesterday
talking about, like, the--

No, I need to have
a conversation with him.

He really doesn't communicate well.

So, anytime I do come to him

that, like, something's making me sad

or, like, upsetting my feelings,
like, he takes it, like, as an attack.

And then, anytime I do, like,
I'm the one that ends up apologizing.

I'm like, "Oh, I'm really sorry
that I brought this up," like.

At this point,
it's like you're taking care of him

over and over and over again,

but, like, you also need
to take care of yourself.

You know what I mean?
Like, you've been a single mom.

It's almost like
taking care of another kid.

You deserve to be taken
care of, too, by someone.

I feel like in MomTok,

we've really tried to, like,
break the gender roles

and push the boundaries,
but it also comes at a price.

Me being the one to provide

and Jordan not having anything of his own

has caused huge issues.

And I see that in
Layla and Mason's relationship.

I can only imagine that that is going

to blow up in a really bad way.

I think the reason why
I do the things for him

and why I, like, buy him the gifts

and why I'm, like, making sure, like,

I'm always telling him
how much, like, I care about him,

like, I'm over the top with, like,
words of affirmation is 'cause, like,

I think it just roots back to, like,
my abandonment issues

that I'm always afraid that
someone's going to leave me.

That's what I was going to say,
do you buy him gifts

'cause you're afraid if you don't,
he's going to leave you?

We want you to feel that love

and we don't want you
to have to ask for it.

-I know.
-[Mayci] Like, it should happen

without having to ask to be treated...

-[Layla] It's hard.
-I know he treats you well,

but I'm saying treat you well
in the sense that, like,

you deserve to be treated
and feel that love

-and not just always giving it.
-Yeah.

I view myself as, like,
a burden in relationships.

A lot of it stems from my childhood.

My dad would scream at me

and then, the next moment,

take me to the store and buy me gifts.

It's what I'm used to
is just being spoiled,

and I feel like I need to do that
for my people around me

to kind of just, like, keep them happy.

Are you afraid of how he'd respond
or, like, what do you think

he would respond like
if you talked to him?

[Layla]
It's that, yeah, like, the response.

I just feel like it's always just, like,

he feels like he's just getting,
like, attacked in situations.

And, like, I try to come to him
with, like, the most, like,

loving tone and like,

"Hey, like, I want to work
through this, like, together,"

but it's just, like...
it just doesn't, like, click.

I'm very similar to Mason in that way.

Where it's like, Jace is like,
"I could bring it up so gently

and it feels like an attack to you."

-[Miranda] Personal attack.
-Yes, 'cause it's the guilt.

You don't need to earn love,
like, you don't.

People, like, love you without--

I've never one time ever,
ever, ever felt like I...

Our friendship is because of anything.

You're gonna make me cry, stop.

I'm gonna start my period,
so I'm so emotional, but I love you.

No, I love you, too,
but I just want you to feel...

-We love you.
-...like you get the love you deserve.

I love you guys.
You guys are the best.

-Thank you for being here.
-We love you. You deserve the world.

I think me and Mason's relationship

is definitely starting to get very serious

and I don't wanna hold
resentment towards my partner.

I want to be able to openly
communicate with them.

But I get a little bit worried
that if I bring up these things,

it would maybe be stripping him
and emasculating him.

Me too.

She's like, "Move aside, b*tch!"

-[Jen] Yeah.
-[Taylor] Yeah.

[Jen] What's your dream life?

I don't know.

I don't know anymore.

I used to think, like,
being married with kids

and I don't even know if I would
like that anymore, to be honest.

I actually think married,
it sounds so boring.

And, like, I'm not there anymore.

Taylor is telling me that

Ben potentially could
see them getting married.

I don't think that's a good idea.

She needs time to reflect
and time to heal,

but I do think she needs stability.

Maybe she could find peace
and happiness in that.

What do you sit and think about
when you're, like, at home

with, like, your kids and you're away
from, like, all of this?

I think it's easy to disassociate

and it's easy to, like, ignore.

I do disassociate, though.

Yeah. It's weird to, like,
see your kids, like, look at you

and be like...

"Did you hear me?"

'Cause you're, like, looking at them,
like, as they're talking.

I can tell you're, like,
you're tapped out.

And I know it
because I've seen it in myself.

I'm just so tired.

I think it's, like,
a coping mechanism, honestly.

And I'm like, I don't know where I go.

[Jen] Yeah.

But I feel so bad for my kids

because I'm like, damn,
I don't know where I am.

It's like, I can see the look
in my daughter's face.

It's like, where are you?

-Yeah.
-And I'm like, "Oh f*ck, I don't know."

I know what it's like to be
living in a little bit of a bubble

when it comes to a show like Bachelorette,

because I was kind of living that

when being on Dancing with the Stars

where it just fully consumed you.

It almost becomes, like, your new reality
and identity for a little while.

And so, once it's over,

it's hard to just, like,
jump back into reality

and cope with life after.

[exhales]

You are just like me.

We shut people out, but like,

but just know that you're not alone.

Well, thank you.

I think the happiest people

are the people who have
the best relationships.

I think Ben comes from
a very sincere, loving place

and he does care for me

out of the pureness of his heart and love.

But I think Ben is waiting for something
that I'm not ready to give yet.

Like, clearly, I'm not
because I think I'm really just have some,

so much wounds and hurt
and anger and sadness.

I'm gonna ruin it.

[Jen]
Like, genuinely, like, I wanna be healed

in my relationship with Whitney as well.

I don't obviously know
everything that you're feeling,

but, like, I kind of, like,
understand a lot of it.

[Jen]
She has her perspective, I have mine.

I'm praying that we can at least
get through the conversation

so we can get to a point where
we can both see each other's sides

because any time I do have
a conversation with her,

it just gets so quickly, like--

-E-Escalated? Mm-hm.
-Yes.

Are you planning on having
a convo with her tomorrow?

I think so.

Like, genuinely, I'm so happy for her.

Like, seeing her yesterday
was honestly inspiring for me.

That is the beauty of this group.

-Back to, like, what we started with.
-Yeah.

Like, just wanting
to, like, support each other.

Yeah.

[Taylor] We all just kind of got
pulled in different directions

-a little bit, too.
-Yeah.

I do feel like MomTok
is growing more and more apart.

But I do feel like these women
are the only women

that I can actually relate with

because they're living
the same life as me.

And I'm really hoping that me and Whitney

can mend a lot of the hurt

that's happened on both of our ends.

[Taylor] It is hard 'cause,
at the end of the day, I'm like,

"Where do we all stand when
we come back together?" You know?

♪♪

♪♪

[all cheering]

-To Whitney.
-To Roxie!

-[Jessi] To Roxie!
-[all cheersing]

[♪ upbeat music playing]

It is the last night in New York City

and Whitney cannot be here
because she is performing tonight,

so Conner is here in her place.

I feel like regardless of all
of MomTok being together,

there does feel like there's
a little bit of an elephant in the room

'cause I know that Whitney
still has to talk to Jen.

Taylor has Ben in her penthouse,

so it doesn't feel like
we're all in here mentally.

We really want to say
thank you to everyone

for coming out to New York City
for Whitney's opening night.

I know there's been ups and downs
with relationships,

people have had differences,

not everyone's been
super tight all the time,

but to see everybody come out
to Chicago in that theater,

it meant the world to Whitney and I.

It was so cool seeing everybody there.

We felt the love.

We really, really appreciate you guys.

I know it's not easy, so thank you.

-[Mason] Whitney did so good.
-Oh, I was so proud of her.

She did so good.
Her voice sounded amazing.

[Conner] Yeah, the words haven't
even been invented yet

to describe how proud
I was of her that night.

It was incredible.

[Jace]
I was telling like, it felt like...

You seem, like, I don't know...

kind of, like, overwhelmed or sad,
like, I don't know.

-Overwhelmed, yeah.
-Why?

-Why, though?
-Work.

Also Ben, trying to figure that out,

if I'm even ready for it.

And, like, I think he's such
a sweet guy and it's like,

-like, I don't wanna...
-Yeah.

Like, are you ready for this?
Like, can he handle your life?

-Yeah.
-Yeah.

I just feel like
I'm gonna be drained for a while

until I just, like, get back
to normal, if you will.

And Ben's been
really helpful with that.

He's, like, a good friend to have.

Almost feels like a best friend.

-[Jessi] Well, he's healthy.
-Yeah.

I-I know some people say,

"Well, at least Ben is
distracting her from Dakota

and kind of keeping her from
running back to Dakota."

So, like, there-there's a benefit there.

But why are we needing to use
another human being,

with feelings, as an escape
from another human?

To me, all roads should
lead back to being single,

not to Dakota.

We should each get one of those.

I'm okay.

-34 ounces is insane.
-[Layla] Do it then, do it.

-[Mason] 'Cause those are expensive.
-[Layla] Do it.

[Mason] Thank you.

One more.

Yeah.

I genuinely just want the best for Layla,

but I do have these reservations
with clout-chasing men

getting together to get more clout.

Take Marciano, for example.

And so, I feel like you
should take a step back

and be like, "Wait.

Am I getting taken
advantage of in this situation?"

I feel like I'm a little bit
worried about that.

[clearing throat]

Do you think we don't like you?
I'm curious.

-Do I think you don't like me?
-Yeah.

Yeah, I don't think you don't like me.

I think you guys are protective of Layla.

Like, I think it's so great

that she has those qualities,
that she's so giving,

and that's, like, her love language
is gift giving,

I think it's an amazing quality to have,

but it gets to a certain point
where I'm like,

it is too much if you're
getting taken advantage of.

[♪ tense music playing]

Before we started dating,
that was one reason

I, like, was kind of hesitant,

at first, was just like,
"Yo, you're so cool,

like, your lifestyle is sick."

I'm just like,

"I know you have a lot of dudes
you could hang out with

"that have tons of bread

"and have, like,
all these things that, like,

I wish I could provide right now,"

but it's just like,
that's not where I'm at.

It's not even, like, a money thing.

It's really just like a...

Even just, like, little things
that don't cost money,

like, uh, that make you feel seen, loved.

It's true.

[Mikayla]
You know, that's something for you two

to have the conversation.

[Layla]
And to have communication, yeah.

To have the communication, yeah.

I'm not shocked that Mikayla's
calling out Mason right now.

I mean, Mikayla is the girl
to say what's on her mind,

we all know that by now,

and she's very protective of
the people that she loves.

But it's definitely putting me
in the position now

that, unfortunately,

now I have to bring this up
with Mason, which, great,

did not think that New York
was going to be the place

that this was going to occur.

So awesome, love that for me.

[Mikayla]
It was not an attack on you,

not an attack on the relationship,

it's just we want Layla to be
taken care of and loved and happy.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

-[Layla] Hello.
-What's up?

-Did you get some pizza?
-You want some?

-No, I'm gonna eat some chicken.
-You've been eating only protein,

I feel like, since we got here.

That's true.

Can we talk about something?

Yeah.

Feel like really, like,

hopeful in our relationship
and I am so happy with you,

like, you're truly, like, my best friend.

But I have just, like,
started to kind of, like, put together

that I feel like I constantly

overgive to the people
around me with, like, gift giving

or, like, trips or, like,
things like that.

I feel like I always
have to, like, almost, like,

earn their love.

And I feel like I've kind of

done that a lot in our relationship.

And I think just, like, sometimes

it feels a little, like, unbalanced.

'Cause I feel like I...

wear, like, the more masculine role.

Like, I feel like there's been some times

that, like, I've called you
before, like, crying.

I wish sometimes there would be like,
"Hey, like, Layla,

like-like, let me, like, come over
and, like, help or something."

Sometimes you, like,
when it's really hard,

it's like you push me away a little bit,
you just don't talk to anyone.

So, I guess that's where
my frustration comes,

but you see it from my side too.

Mase, but, like, you're not.

'Kay, this is why I have a hard time
wanting to bring anything up with you.

I mean, I have tried to express it.

Any time I do try to communicate
my feelings with him,

kind of a wall goes up.

And I feel like I normally cower down

and I'm the one saying sorry,

even though my feelings are hurt.

So, I'm gonna try to be strong
and not do that.

I'm-- I feel like I can't tell you things

because the second I, like, say anything,

I feel like you get
super defensive right there.

I know that communication's,
like, a harder thing for you sometimes...

-Mm-hm.
-...but I wanna be able to get better

at communicating with you.

I just don't wanna feel like
I'm, like... doing all of this

and then it's just going to be like,
"For what?" You know?

I know it's not me, but I do feel like
the girls get in your ear.

And sometimes I feel
a little, like, a b*tch

'cause, all of a sudden, I'm not--
I don't ever buy anything,

is kind of what I'm made, made out to be.

I know, I feel like you're getting
defensive right now again, though.

No one's saying that you don't.

I'm just telling you
how I'm feeling right now.

You're not in the rooms when they're--

we're having these conversations.

I'm not just sitting there,

and letting them throw you under the bus.

I mean, you'll see, I'm defending you

and explaining why situations
are the way that they are.

'Kay, thank you.

But, yeah, I'd appreciate that

'cause I need to pull, pull my weight

for some coffee and stuff, too.
[chuckles]

But I love you.

Love you.

[♪ tense music playing]

[♪ upbeat music playing]

♪ What you got? ♪

♪ You're flawless, yeah, that's right ♪

♪ Go on and take your shot ♪

♪ Reach for the stars and fly ♪

♪ Out in the sun, ha ♪

♪ Got the whole world in my pocket ♪

♪ Yeah, cue the applause ♪

[Miranda] This is cute, all the lights.

-Thank you, appreciate it.
-Thank you so much.

[Mikayla] It's adorable.

You can leave this open for Whitney.

-Does she have shows today?
-Yeah, tonight.

-Oh, tonight? Just one?
-Oh, just one?

We're flying out later this afternoon

and we're all at brunch
and it just, it feels so good

to all be back together
and just catching up.

It's nice when we finally
have, like, some peace.

It's never completely peaceful,
but we have some peace.

[Miranda]
I think Jen showing up here,

it seems like she's wanting to move on.

I know that Whitney, you know,
wants to get past all of it as well.

So, I'm hoping they can collectively agree

to just put it behind them.

-[♪ upbeat music playing]
-♪ Lights, camera, action ♪

-Hello!
-♪ Main attraction ♪

♪ Lights, camera, action ♪

♪ Everybody want to get a front row seat ♪

-[greeting each other]
-I'm so sorry I'm late.

[Mikayla]
Oh, you're fine, we're good.

[Jessi]
A star's never on time, it's fine.

That's right.

[Jessi] How was yesterday
and those shows?

-It was so good.
-[Jessi] Good.

[Layla] 'Kay, Miss Singer?

Oh!

It's different for me this time
sitting here with all of these women.

Everything that's happening
in my life right now,

like, I'm changing.

So, it's-it's a bit bittersweet.

It just feels, it just feels different.

-Didn't know you had that in you.
-Me neither.

-We found out together.
-[laughter]

Do you want to do more Broadway
or what's your goal after?

[Whitney] I don't know.

Like, obviously, I want it to lead
to, like, other things.

I think I've been a little bit
by the Broadway bug.

I've really enjoyed, like,
having a live audience.

-[Mayci] You feed off of it.
-I feed off it for sure.

But, I mean--

To do a major motion picture,
that would be--

-I'm curious--
-[Layla] I can see you in, like,

-a musical movie.
-Ooh!

It is weird and interesting

to see some members in MomTok,

all of a sudden, become a fan of Whitney,

now that she's on the rise and she's

gaining some, you know, popularity.

-[Layla] That would be incredible.
-Anastasia.

-[crosstalk]
-[Miranda] Like La La Land or something.

[Whitney] Yes!
Oh, I would love something like that.

But I am still needing to

have a conversation with Whitney,
especially about our past.

It's now or never.

Whitney, um, do you have time to talk?

-Yes. Yes.
-Okay.

♪♪

Listen, I'm happy to talk with Jen,
hear her out,

figure out some sort of resolution,

but if this goes south, case closed,
like, I'm done trying.

[♪ dramatic music playing]

♪♪

[Whitney] We've lived different lives
in this relationship.

I'm just trying to understand you.

I'm just trying to get a better--

You don't need to understand me.

I-I don't care for you
to understand me anymore.

She brought up when I said I--

she didn't think she was a good friend

two f*cking years ago.

What the f*ck?

Yeah, I guess I'll see you, like--

-Never?
-Maybe never, yeah.

I'm too exhausted.
I can't-- I'm spread thin.

You're exhausted and you're busy
'cause you're sleeping with Dakota.

Is she kind of, like, a drug to you?

Am I a little addicted?
Absolutely.

I'm just so over giving people
around me so much of me.

And I, every single time,
I'm f*cking broken.

You're not perfect.
Stop acting like it.

-No one's acting perfect.
-Yes, you are.

When you say, what about Doug?

Bring up all my flaws,
I'll bring up yours then too.

Are you perfect?
You're not.

You're just walking away
from your friends

for a man again.

[Mikayla]
She's not a real friend.

[♪ fast-paced, upbeat music playing]

[♪ music fades out]