- I found out I was adopted when I was .
- You're trying to find your birth mom.
- I would like to meet her.
I'm afraid.
She could tell me, "I just didn't want you."
[sniffles]
- Every colored person I wish was like you.
You don't try to be thug.
The thought of g*y people having sex disgusts me.
- Jenna, you've said so many--
- You said so many r*cist things since you've been here.
If you choose to get offended by something,
it's your choice to get offended by that.
- You just don't have an open mind.
I believe that Jenna will get something out of this,
and I hope that she learns something.
- Dylan is your eighth roommate.
- Dylan's an attractive dude.
- She doesn't know what she wants.
- Dylan.
Dylan!
Come here.
- Shut up, Jenna.
- Jenna, I think you should go to bed.
A.K.A. swerve, b*tch.
- A.K.A. [bleep] you.
What the [bleep] are you--
- b*tch, [bleep]--
- ♪ All the people in the house ♪
♪ Put them up right
♪ Whoa
[upbeat electronic music]
♪
♪ Put them up like whoa
[dramatic music]
♪
- It was bad.
- What the [bleep] are you doing then?
- Bring your a*s up. Do something.
- What the [bleep] are you-- - b*tch [bleep] try it.
I been waiting.
Don't you [bleep] try it.
- Don't punch her. - Yeah?
Mm-hmm. - Get off.
- Don't you [bleep]try it.
- Get up.
- Don't you [bleep] try it. - Oh, my God.
- I don't remember exactly what set me off,
but I know how I feel about CeeJai.
There's so much aggression built up towards her.
I just think I should've handled it better.
CeeJai.
I was blacked out last night.
I don't remember anything that happened,
but Kailah just told me, saying I attacked you.
- You did. - You did.
- I'm glad that you handled it
the way you did 'cause
I was totally blacked out, and I'm so sorry.
- All right.
- All right.
♪
- I don't believe a damn word
that's coming out of her mouth.
I don't even accept the apology.
She thinks it's okay for her not to take
responsibility for herself,
and to me, that is not okay.
- Are you [bleep] kidding me?
Jenna does not seem to remember the events
of last night.
I don't know what's real and what's fake from Jenna.
Do not act like you are sorry.
You just don't want everyone in the house
to hate you even more than they do.
I've not ever experienced racism face to face
like I have with Jenna,
but what she's gonna know is that this black girl was not up
for that [bleep].
These are our last few days here,
and it's just best
if she stay on her side of whatever room
that we're on and I stay on mine.
- I apologized.
Like, that's all I can do.
- We watched the whole fight from inside this fort.
[laughs]
- It was awesome.
- Honestly though, I can't even tell you
how funny that's gonna be.
Do you remember the fight last night?
- Yes, I do.
Kind of realized that Jenna's, like, insane.
- It went from bad to worse after--
- It went from awesome to awesome.
- This whole thing is [bleep] weird.
- I was an idiot for ever thinking I liked her
because she is kind of just an idiot.
- Here. We need to block this, dude.
I don't like this.
- We should build a patio. - Hello?
- Okay, you guys need to take the fort down
because you've attached it to the sprinkler system
and it's a fire hazard.
So the fort needs to come down. - Okay.
The fort's attached to the fire extinguisher or something.
- Let's destroy it!
- No!
[yelling]
That fight wouldn't have happened if not for this fort!
It inspires greatness in all of us.
And [bleep] decisions.
- Okay, fun's over.
Thanks.
[upbeat electronic music]
[phone line trilling]
- Hello? - Big baby.
- What's up with big baby?
- She tried it, and I had to put her down.
I'm sorry, but she ran up on me.
- Oh, girl. - I'm sorry.
- As long as you didn't go all the way with it.
- I didn't.
- You just keep your cool 'cause--
you just be careful, for real.
- I wanted to hit her, but,
like, my whole model-- I've grown up
around violence my whole life.
I don't think that way.
Like, I don't want to act out that way.
For me to come here on national television
and put out that same violence
that I've been around only
makes me a product of my environment.
I just want to see a better life
for myself and for any future that I have.
- You don't need to be on her acting a fool, so...
- One thing I kept saying to myself is "CeeJai,
"you cannot let a person that's never been nowhere
take you away from somewhere where you deserve to be."
♪
- I'm in the elevator. Grab your wallet, Dylan.
- All right. - I was blacked out last night.
- Yeah. Do you remember fighting CeeJai?
- You were like a screaming kid
that a mother leaves at daycare for the first time.
- Well, I was blacked out.
Don't remember [bleep] about it, so I don't know.
- I wish I didn't remember [bleep] about you after this.
- I hope you don't.
- Enjoy your day.
- You too.
- You know, you've said some things,
and we were okay with you taking your time to apologize,
but, you know, like, if you've changed,
now's the time to tell everybody
and to make some apologies.
- Chris is all fired up.
- I'm so sick of her.
- Everyone in this house pretty much hates me.
- [laughs]
- Nobody's ever on my side,
and, like, I've just come to terms with it.
I'm just like, "All right,"
and then Dylan,
he stopped talking to me and, like,
stopped, like, being all over me and like, all about me.
- About you? Yeah.
- With the whole me and Dylan thing,
I feel like he's listening to the opinions
of everybody else in the house.
I just wish everybody in the house would butt out
and let us be friends
and stop filling his head
with all this nonsense and bull[bleep].
I don't know what I was thinking with any of this.
♪
- Jenna, like, she apologized to you?
- She came in this morning and said some [bleep],
but I swerved her.
- Like, there's been five different instances
where she, like, literally says, like,
"I never did that or said that,"
and it's like, first of all,
I have a memory that's pretty good.
I do remember what you said and did, so no.
Second of all,
there's a big black thing on this guy's shoulder
that's recording everything you say and do.
- Take a little bit of ownership.
Like, just a teeny bit.
- No, because I'm not h*m* or r*cist.
That Confederate flag doesn't mean racism.
It means Southern pride against the government.
They make it out to be like I'm like that.
- It's not on us.
It's not on us. You've said these things.
- No, I didn't.
We didn't make out.
- Oh, shut the [bleep] up,Jenna.
[dramatic music]
- So you kissed him? - No.
♪
- I'm gonna look like a dumbass for the first, like, episode.
- Yep, this a*s clown falling in love with Jenna.
- Honestly, if I could go back,
I probably wouldn't change a thing
'cause I wanted to see for myself
that she's absolutely out of her [bleep] mind.
- Yeah.
- I swear, Dylan. Just do that.
You will-- - All--yeah.
- All you got to do is give her attention, dude.
- I'm done wasting time on Jenna.
I would definitely hook up with Kailah.
That was, like, my first instinct
when I got here was like, "All right, go after her."
She would not let me [bleep],period.
Like-- - She will.
Only thing you got to do
is just show her a whole lot of attention.
Don't show Jenna none for the next few days.
- Yep. Yep. - I bet you.
- She was so hammered last night.
You know, I asked Jenna.
I was like, "What the [bleep] did you,
"like, envision happening?
"You went up and you punched a girl that would,
like, obviously whoop your a*s."
- When I [bleep] tossed her a*s on the floor,
I was like, "Yo, I'm gonna look like a p*ssy.
I'ma just be real." - No, you're not.
- Yeah, she's been coming for me all [bleep] season.
- No, no, no. I'm just saying, like,
you look more like a boss
by holding--like, handling it.
You made sure she didn't harm you and you didn't harm her.
- I looked like a b*tch, bruh.
Jenna is the same person
that she was the first day that she walked in.
I've given Jenna so many opportunities.
Every single time, I go back.
"Okay, well, maybe she doesn't mean it.
Maybe it's because of her upbringing,"
and yet I always get disrespected,
and if I don't get disrespected,
someone of my color gets disrespected,
and I refuse to stand for that.
I'm sorry.
- You are now. You don't fight.
- You did the right thing.
[upbeat electronic music]
♪
- Are you parkour-ing with us?
- What is parkour-ing? - It's being awesome.
- Like, what do you do?
- You jump off of things like trampolines and yell,
"parkour" really loud.
- You have to yell "parkour"? - It's part of the rules.
- Hm. I'm gonna pass.
Thank you though.
Got some calls to make.
Call my investigator, Jon.
With my time left here,
I want to accomplish meeting my birth mother,
and I don't know what's going to happen.
[phone line trilling]
- Sabrina. - Hi, Jon.
How are you? I wanted to check in and--
- Yeah. I've got a lot of information.
A lot. - You do?
Like, a lot of information? Okay.
- Yeah. So let's meet.
Maybe
- All right.Bye. - Take care.
- You too. Bye.
♪
I am freaking out.
For all I know, this interesting news
could be bad news.
Or it could be good news.
Interesting can go both ways,
and I'm afraid.
I am. I'll be back!
- Good luck.
- I'll bet you Sabrina's hotter than her mom.
- If her mom's hot, bring her back.
[instrumental music]
♪
- Hello. - Hey, you.
- How are you? Good to see you again.
- Good to see you too. How are you doing?
- The team wanted to come and just support.
- We're just here to be supportive.
- You nervous?
- Very, but it's okay.
- I can't imagine what she must be feeling right now.
She's gone her whole life wondering, "Why?"
- This is birth mom
in the Weymouth High School yearbook.
- Oh, okay. - That's her.
Here's another one. She's not very tall.
- No. I'm short too.
It's freaky to see this photo in front of me.
I look nothing like her, I don't think,
but it gives me more hope.
Instead of just saying, "Oh, my birth mother," with no idea
what this woman looks like or if this person even really exists,
and so now I have a little bit of something to look at
and give me hope to keep looking.
- I just got an email. "We have some information
"that Sabrina's birth mother may be living in Springfield,
Massachusetts."
- That's close to where I go to college.
- What would you think if you ran into your mom
one or more times and had no idea?
- Ran into her when I was at school?
- Isn't that random? - That's very random.
Springfield's like ten minutes from my school, so...
- It's possible. - Hm.
It's very possible.
- You've got a first, middle, and last name.
- Mm-hmm.
- But these other names come up as related to her.
Two different first names, middle names, and last names.
- What's with all the names? - No idea.
It could be very, very simple to explain,
but this happened within a three-year period
right after you were born.
- Weird.
- And for whatever reason, she's keeping a low profile.
- The more I find out and the more I know,
the scarier it feels.
I mean, I'm putting myself out there,
and I'm struggling to find a person
who I don't even know if they want to be found.
[dramatic electronic music]
♪
- Coming up on "Real World." - You know what we should do?
We should go [bleep] in Jenna's bed.
Come on.
- Is that supposed to convince me right now?
- Come over here and fight me, b*tch!
- You ain't gonna do a damn thing.
- You need to quit talking [bleep]
or come punch me in the [bleep] face.
- It is very unwise
for Jenna to want to get into a fight with CeeJai.
♪
[electronic music]
♪
- Put it on your thumb and then right here.
- Like this?
- No. Put it on the middle finger.
Yeah. - Like this?
- Yes, just like that. - Okay.
- Now flick it.
It goes to the left.
Like my [bleep].
- I give up.
- You want to go have sex in the shower?
- No. - Please?
- We've already talked about this.
- [in high-pitched voice] Frustrating.
I haven't had sex in over, like, two weeks, you know?
Want to!
[exclaiming]
You know what we should do?
We should go [bleep] in Jenna's bed.
- Idiot. - [laughs]
Come on.
Don't you--
- [laughs]
Is that supposed to convince me right now?
- This could be us. You could have it.
Just be gentle.
- [exclaiming]
[laughs]
- It's, like, I want to cover our bodies
in different colors of paint
and [bleep] on a canvas
and cut out the coolest part of it and frame it.
- Ew.
♪
- How'd it go? - Good.
It's a lot of information.
- Did he give you the picture? - Yeah.
- I want to see it. - This is s high school.
- Which one? - Right here.
- Oh, my God. - Do you see a resemblance?
I don't know if I do.
I definitely think I look more like my father.
- So are they getting, like, closer to finding her, or--
- Would you say he, like, basically knows who she is?
- Yeah. I think he knows who she is.
- Yeah, he knows who she is. - Where is she?
- She's ten minutes from her school.
- Yeah, so-- - That's crazy.
- We have a bunch of addresses.
He's gonna send them to me, and then he's like,
"Whatever you decide to proceed to do," he goes,
"you have people to contact."
- That's crazy.
- So we will have to see.
♪
- Come talk to me. - Wherever.
- All right, let's go.
♪
- Okay.
- So what's--like, you don't even want to talk to me.
Like--
- I'm talking to you right now. - All right.
- I've given so much time to you.
I've given, like,
barely any time to do other [bleep].
I want to just have a good time, honestly.
- And you can't do that with me?
- I mean-- [chuckles]
Okay. - Why is that funny?
- It's funny because,
like, I tried so hard to help you out,
and you didn't want it.
I know more about you now. Like, everyone--
- You don't though. - Yes, because everyone's--
- You just started believing everything
that everybody else is saying.
- No, I've seen some [bleep] for myself.
Now it's personal.
Now I can make a decision for myself.
I feel like I've been wasting time.
- You could've hooked up with Kailah a long time ago.
- I probably should've.
- You have these, like, bad feelings towards me now.
- Can you blame me? - No.
Dylan came in
and made it enjoyable for me again.
Not having him anymore
as a support system makes me really upset.
I feel like a part of me just wants, like, the old Dylan back.
- I don't want to say it's your own fault,
but it is.
[dramatic music]
♪
- Stop!
[bleep] creep.
- Kailah. - Yeah?
- I'm gonna see if we can go down
and get food if you want to come.
- Okay.
[people speaking indistinctly]
- [laughs]
- [sighs]
- Hello?
- Hi, is Dylan is there? - Yeah, hold on.
Dylan.
Dylan!
- He left!
- Don't yell at her. She didn't know.
- I'm yelling 'cause she's across the room.
- No, you yelled with a lot of animosity in your voice.
Don't yell at her.
- Well, the animosity wasn't supposed to be there.
- Well, I don't care. I don't care.
I said what I said.
- Dude, I don't give a [bleep].
I can talk how I [bleep] want to talk.
- No, you can't. - Yep.
But just realize what the [bleep] you saying
and how you saying it.
- Well, how you take it is your problem.
Sorry.
- No, that's actually your problem.
'Cause I'ma correct it and I'ma say it.
- Okay. - So chill.
- Jenna does not understand the comments
she makes when she makes them and who she's making them to,
and that is why she gets herself into trouble.
- Hey.
What's up, b*tch?
- What you doing?
- Dude, this place is [bleep] crazy.
I need to get the [bleep] out of here.
- [yelling indistinctly]
- I'm about to [bleep] sh**t someone, dude.
- You ain't 'bout that life though.
You ain't 'bout that life, bruh.
- [bleep] her, dude.
I [bleep] hate that b*tch.
- But you don't know.
You ain't 'bout that life. - Come over here, b*tch!
Come over here! - You ain't 'about that life.
Turn up!
Turn up while you on the phone with your friend.
- Come back over here and find out what I'm about then, b*tch!
- Turn up. - Jenna, shut up.
Like, you're not gonna fight anyone.
Shut up. - She ain't gonna do [bleep].
She gonna bust a grape and--
- No, she's not gonna do[bleep]!
Come over here and fight me, b*tch!
- You ain't gonna do a damn thing.
- You need to quit talking [bleep]
or come punch me in the [bleep] face.
- It is very unwise
for Jenna to want to get into a fight with CeeJai.
Be quiet.
- Yeah. [bleep] it.
I can let her be ratchet on her own.
- The devil keep trying me by putting her a*s in my face
saying dumb [bleep] like she be saying.
You gonna call me ratchet?
Me?
That's an issue
because those are offensive, racial remarks.
I've been patient. I've been kind.
I've been respectful. I've been forgiving.
- Skanky b*tch. [laughs]
- Come on now.
How much more can somebody take?
- [laughs]
♪
[upbeat rock music]
♪
- CeeJai has to go to the bathroom.
- Where is it?
- It's right around the corner here.
- When y'all woke me up, the only thing I did
was brush my darn teeth and wash my face.
Ooh, a Bloody Mary looks so good.
- What do I do?
- Just pour it in. - Just pour it in? Okay.
- Yeah, this is second pour.
- I wonder why there's so much water in it.
Oh, it's vodka. - That's vodka, yeah.
- Yeah, that's definitely vodka. [laughs]
- So I didn't say anything last night,
but Jenna called me ratchet.
- Wow.
- Like, where I come from, that ain't cool.
- That's just straight up disrespectful.
- That's so insulting too.
- Like, you continue to offend me and people
that I stand for.
Like, come on now.
I represent every black culture here, whether they're ratchet
or they're prestigious.
I represent every girl that has struggled with something.
I represent every girl
that has attempted to get a degree
and has gotten one.
I'm not gonna continue to be around nobody
that's going to continue to offend me.
- She doesn't even realize it when she does it.
- And she doesn't realize it.
That's the reason why I'm like, "Swerve."
- Like, it literally just comes out of her mouth so easily.
- I would just-- I would just rather not.
- That would've pissed me off.
Like, I literally would've went the [bleep] off.
- I'm just not gonna affiliate myself.
I'm not gonna deal with you.
I'm not gonna deal with you [bleep]
on black people, you [bleep] on gays.
Like, I'm a very forgiving person.
[bleep], I forgave my daddy after k*lling my momma.
You think your little petty [bleep] can faze me?
No.
I'm not gonna tear my character down
to get on the same level as you.
I would rather not. - Yeah.
- We all have given Jenna so many chances,
but sometimes people just aren't willing to listen,
and we're so done with Jenna at this point.
Like, why did we think we could change this girl?
[intense electronic music]
♪
- Dean-y! Deany-weany.
Jenna, you sure you don't want to come?
All right. - Just want to go to sleep?
Okay. [laughter]
[Laura Leighe's "Boys Just Wanna Have Fun" playing]
♪
- ♪ New York
♪ Paris to LA
♪ If you're a lady then you want to be the bae ♪
♪ You want a rock but he wants to swing ♪
♪ This ain't a jungle, baby boy ♪
♪ Nobody made you king
♪ Oh
♪
♪ So don't you play me, baby ♪
♪ Oh
♪ I'm not some brainless paper doll ♪
♪ He thinks he knows but we know he doesn't ♪
♪ He thinks he knows but we know he doesn't ♪
♪ The more you hold the more he wants it ♪
♪ The more he wants it
♪
♪ Boys just want to have fun
♪
I do not have any interest in Dylan whatsoever,
especially after he wanted to be with Jenna.
I do not want to be associated with that at all.
♪
I'm sorry, but too little too late, boyfriend.
Like, not gonna happen.
♪
[phone line trilling]
- Hello? - Hi, it's me.
Did I wake you up? Do you have work tomorrow?
I feel bad. - That's fine, Sabrina.
- I'm on edge because I'm an impatient person
and I'm waiting for Jon the investigator to call me,
give me any news he has about finding my birth mother.
I mean, he has all the addresses.
He has everything,
but I don't know why she has six different names.
- I don't know, honey.
I think she'll be fine with meeting you.
- Should I just give up?
- It's something that you wanted to do, Sabrina,
and you're never gonna have peace of mind
until you finally do it.
[instrumental music]
- I think she at least owes me the idea
of meeting me
because you gave me life
and you gave me the most amazing family in the world.
Why wouldn't you want to meet me?
I don't know who I am.
I don't know why I do certain things
because I don't know that.
It's extremely hard to tell myself
it's going to be okay because I don't know
it's going to be okay.
♪
[mellow electronic music]
♪
- [bleep].
- What is it, like,
- Mm-hmm.
- [laughs]
[phone ringing]
- Hello? - Sabrina?
- Yes. - This is Jim.
- Hi, Jim.
- I got some news for you. - Yes?
- Your mom, your birth mom,
is ready to meet you.
- No way. - Yes.
- Oh, my God.
- The plan is midnight tomorrow night, so it's a red-eye.
You get into Boston about : a.m.
- Okay. Thank you so much.
- All right, thank you. - Bye.
- Bye.
- I've been waiting for
over a decade for this to happen.
- Oh, my gosh.
- I can't believe this is actually happening.
I can't believe it.
Whoo. - Yay.
I'm so excited for you.
- things adolescent adoptees
wish they knew about their birth parents
but are often afraid to ask.
- "Do you remember how I was conceived?"
- "Do you remember where you conceived me?"
Oh, my God.
Right to Boston.
- Coming into this experience, everyone had these things
that they never thought would happen,
and obviously Sabrina finding her mom is huge.
If I were her, I'd be freaking out.
[instrumental music]
[R&B music]
♪
[quirky music]
Sabrina, come here.
Before, he was not moving and just standing like that.
From the first time that I met Dylan I was like,
"There's something more to this guy," and I sense it,
and since that day,
I've seen him be so bizarre.
His actions are very weird,
and I don't know what to make of it.
- We're all going insane. I've lost my [bleep] mind.
- I live in an insane asylum. - In an insane asylum.
- Bye.
- At this point, I'm really lonely here.
They don't really understand me,
they don't want to understand me,
and the more people push me on the things I say,
like, the more I stand up for what I believe in,
but at this point, I feel like it's just a waste of breath.
Nothing I say is gonna change is their minds,
and they're still gonna bash me
and come at me the way they are,
but what I was always taught growing up
is you stand up for yourself no matter what.
Oh, I'm gonna sit at the bar.
I'm just by myself. - [speaking indistinctly]
- Yeah.
My biggest regret is opening myself up
to the people in the house
because it only gives them a*mo,
and they don't even listen to what I say when I defend myself.
- ♪ All this time you thought I would be ♪
♪ Your girl
♪ I'm sorry ♪
♪ I belong to no one
♪ No one
♪ I belong to no one
- Dione, let's go!
Hurry up before Jenna gets home.
[upbeat instrumental music]
♪
[camera shutter clicking]
- Don't do a Kailah. - This is the Kailah now?
- No, this is the Kailah.
- [bleep] you.
- I can just see Jenna walking around the house right now.
"Hello?" - "Where y'all at?"
- "Anybody?" - "Guys?"
- "Where is everybody?" - "Ghosts? Jesus?"
- "Is it Jesus?" - Oh, my God.
- I feel like so many of our conversations are about Jenna.
Like, why do we got to keep, like, talking about her?
- Because she keeps saying stupid [bleep].
- We don't have TV, cell phones,
and social media to talk about other things.
- And because she continues with it.
We would've dropped it a long time ago
if it were a one-time thing, but it's reoccurring.
Every [bleep] day she says something dumb.
- Like, when Kailah's like, "Dione, you're an as*h*le,"
she's not saying you and everybody like you are assholes.
When Jenna says to me, like, "g*y sex disgusts me,"
she's insulting, like, me and everybody I know.
- I don't see her changing, in my opinion.
- As a black person growing up out here
in America, everybody thinks if you don't stand up
for what you believe in,
you're just a person that's just trying to make it,
but when you do stand up for what it is
that you believe in as equal rights or whatever,
you're begging for too much,
or you're nagging because of the oppression--
- That's me and you. - And things like that.
- So it's like, where do we win?
- It's like it's an incident, and you don't win.
- Where do you win?
- Some people just don't take it serious,
and some people will sit in your face and be like,
"Oh, no. No, no.
You being black does not matter to me,"
but when you describe me to somebody else,
the first thing that you point out
is that I'm black.
- Oh, yeah, the black girl. - The black girl.
- Like, I didn't think I was attractive until college
because I, like-- I'm so dark-skinned.
Like, everybody told me that I just wasn't attractive.
- That's the thought. - I know.
It just sucks that it's like that.
You would like to think that, you know,
it's gotten so much better because it has,
but there are still a lot of people
out there like Jenna
that continue to be small-minded
and they still feel this way,
and, you know, it's really sad.
- I only want people to respect me.
Just respect me
and appreciate who I am as a person
because I am human.
I hurt like you hurt.
I feel like you feel. You're my equal.
That's it.
If only Jenna could just recognize
what she says then I think the girl would be all right,
but because she don't,
she won't,
and if you say something offensive to someone then
they have every right to defend
whatever it is that you're offending them on.
[dramatic electronic music]
[electronic music]
♪
- What do I wear?
- Premium cuts and premium butts.
- Premium sluts.
- Well, that's hard to find.
- Kailah, I'm gonna need your help.
- Ooh.
I like the pink a lot. - Mm.
- I'd probably say that one with a leather jacket.
- Leather jacket? - And these.
- These or those? - Mm.
Actually, those 'cause you walk better in those.
- Mm-hmm.
And I think they're, like, classier.
- Yeah.
- Yeah, of course.
- So I am headed to Boston.
I'm nervous.
I don't know how she'll feel about me.
"Hi. Here I am after years.
Nice to meet you," but no matter what happens after this meeting,
I'm so thankful.
All right, here we go.
♪
- Dylan, just try. Try, try, try this.
You have to. It's cactus jerky.
It's disgusting.
Take a big bite and try to keep it down.
If you don't, they don't have to.
Okay. - I'm currently sweating.
- How disgusting is that? - It has ghost pepper in it.
- You like that? - Yeah.
- Your a*s is gonna hurt tomorrow.
- I like the flavor though.
- It's spicy.
- She's like, "It's not even hot.
It's not hot."
- Dude, it's hard to do a [bleep] confessional
after eating the spiciest ghost pepper jerky
ever.
Dude, this is, like, not real.
It is so hot.
♪
Wipe your face.
[laughing]
- I hope that Kailah's lamenting
that she ate that whole piece like a dumb b*tch.
- "This is not even hot."
Shut up!
Shut up! It was delicious!
- "It's not spicy."
- What the [bleep] is my life?
♪
- Ah. [laughs]
Today is the day.
I have been waiting for this for years,
and it's finally going to happen.
♪
I wake up every day, I look in the mirror.
I know I'm good enough on the outside,
but on the inside, I'm still saying to myself,
"What is there missing?"
And finding out that I was always enough
and I am always enough will really help.
♪
All of these thoughts are running through my head.
I don't know how to act.
I don't know what to think.
Do I give this woman a hug?
Will she be impressed with me?
It's almost like a blind date
but it's my mother that gave birth to me.
Ooh. This is nerve-wracking.
I don't know how to feel,
and even though I'm going into this
with zero expectations,
I still don't want to be disappointed
that I came this far.
♪
[upbeat music]
- Hi. - Oh, my gosh.
It's like looking at me. - [laughs]
Nice to meet you finally. - What's going on?
- I'm Sabrina. How are you?
- Sabrina.
How are you? - Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.
- Well, this is interesting.
[both laugh]
- Yes, it is. - I know.
I didn't know you were blonde.
' Cause this isn't real, so...
- I know--I am. How are you?
- I'm good. How are you?
- I'm good. - Oh, okay.
♪
- Um...
- [laughs]
- [speaking indistinctly] - Story of my life.
Such weird vibes.
I don't know how to act.
It's awkward.
I just pray to God we start talking.
[laughs]
- So tell me about you.
- Oh, okay. Let's see.
Well, I'm in school right now
at the University of Massachusetts.
- Good for you. - And--
- What's your degree gonna be in?
- Communications and zoology.
Zoology because since a young age,
I've loved playing with horses.
- Oh, wow.
I have horses in Las Vegas. - Really?
- Yeah, I have two with the Las Vegas Mounted Patrol Unit.
- Loved horses since a young age.
It's so weird.
Immediately, we bring up the fact that at a young age,
we both had a love for horses.
I mean, come on.
If that's not a sign or fate, I don't know what is.
- Do you do drugs? - No.
- Oh, good. - No, I--
- Do you have a boyfriend? - No.
Oh, no. No.
Career first.
- Okay. - But I mean, not like--
- Have you had a boyfriend? - Yes.
- Good. Okay.
- Not that I'm not looking,
but I just usually have really bad taste
in the guys that I pick.
- Oh, boy. Oh, yeah.
Some guys that I have in my life are scumbags.
- Yeah. - [laughs]
- I hope picking the wrong guys is not a genetic thing,
but I am completely shocked with the amount of things
we have in common.
Things like different facial expressions we make.
I'm very animated
and this woman is very animated,
and we're also a little intense and aggressive.
What nationality are you?
'Cause I never really knew. I've been--
- Irish-English.Okay.
- Really?
- Okay. I was like, "Really?
No way." - No.
- No. But I've always wondered.
I've always been like, "I wonder why I look this way
and why I do this and why I do that."
My personality is just so different
from Linda and Tom's, so it's just--
- Oh, sure. Mine is too.
- I was very wild growing up,
but my younger--
- See, I never was--like, I never dated 'til, you know--
- Yes, yes. - Okay.
- We were together about a year.
- Mm-hmm. - You know?
But he met somebody, you know?
And I was young. - Yeah.
- Real young. - How old were you?
- . - .
When you had me?
- Yeah.
You know, when I look back, I mean, I don't have regrets,
but it's tough to have kids young, you know?
I mean, it sounds selfish, but, you know--
- No, it's not selfish at all.
You picked a very good family,
and you were young, and you know what?
If I was and had a kid,
I would--I would give it up.
is young.
From the moment I found out that I was adopted,
I always felt abandoned by people,
but now, hearing my biological mother's story,
I know that I was not abandoned.
It was with love,
and it was just someone who was young
and wanted to live their life,
and I cannot condemn her for doing that.
- ♪ Hello, beautiful
♪ Hello, victory
♪ Hello, universe
♪ I'm ready to take the lead ♪
- I hope we do continue this relationship
because I have room for more people in my life.
Good people.
- Oh, absolutely.
- I plan to reach out to her
because I would love having another possible family
with my biological mother.
- Aww.
That would be an amazing feeling.
All right. Thank you so much.
- ♪ And it goes on and on and on and on ♪
- [speaking indistinctly]
- ♪ For as long as I can see
♪ It goes on and on and on and on ♪
♪
♪ The universe and me
♪
That was amazing.
- This episode of "Real World" continues now.
[upbeat music]
♪
- Hi. - Hey.
- What happened? - How was it?
- It was amazing.
It was more than I could've asked for.
- Good. - She was just awesome.
She was, like, telling me the whole story about my father,
how it, like, didn't work out.
She was when she had me.
- Is she single?
- I finally feel like a whole Sabrina.
I appreciate the life I was given more now,
but I also appreciate knowing the life I could've had.
Honestly, it's amazing to know
that I have seven strangers who support me
because I believe a lot of people
even close to me wouldn't understand,
and they seem to understand, so that's a pretty cool feeling.
This is what gets me.
She has boobs. She has boobs!
- Get the [bleep] out. - Yeah, I'm like, "What?"
- No way!
- Why wasn't that the first thing you said?
What do you mean?
- I looked at her and I was like, "Oh, my God."
- Momma has nice t*ts?
- So I'm like, "Is this really my mother?"
- [laughs] Shut up, Sabrina.
- She's very athletic. She's got--
♪
- All right, see you. - Have fun.
- Me and Kailah are gonna practice having kids.
- [scoffs]
- Let's practice making babies.
- Shut up, Dylan.
- Bye, guys.
- Bye.
- What's up? - Hey, b*tch.
What's up?
- Turn up. [laughs]
- I really just hate everything about her.
- [laughing]
- I hate her voice.
I hate every time something happens,
ignorant comments, offensive comments,
kissing, hitting me,
it's always blamed on something else.
- Yeah, she never takes responsibility.
- Never takes responsibility.
Never. That's what pisses me off.
I've been angry about a lot of [bleep]
in my life.
I've not been able to understand a lot of [bleep] in my life.
I think I'm more so upset
because, like, I have to live with this b*tch.
- Only eight more days.
- Eight more days is a long [bleep]
time when you dislike somebody.
- S'up? - Not much.
You can do it. You're strong.
- I'm just ready to be back and be tan.
Like, I can't deal with this white [bleep].
- [laughs] - Oh, lord.
- Yep. - [laughing]
Got that a*s beat, boy. - Yes!
- I, like, blacked out--
- That was the best question you could've asked there.
Best question.
I just want to personally thank you for asking that question.
That was a fantastic question to ask.
- [bleep] off. - 'Cause the answer's yes.
Go ahead and talk about it.
- The other night, I was blacked out.
I don't remember [bleep] but what people told me.
- Why you over there sitting over there
just lying and [bleep]?
- This girl that I was arguing with the other day,
who's in the background now running her mouth--
- Yep.
- She was running her mouth to me--
- Yep.
- And apparently-- I don't remember what happened--
- And you got that a*s beat.
So be honest 'cause you got that a*s beat.
- I, like, jumped off the counter and, like--
- You got that a*s beat.
- Okay, shut the [bleep] up. - Nope.
You're on the phone with your friend.
Yep. Get amped again.
- I'm so fed up with her at this point.
She needs to shut up and let me talk to my friend.
- Get amped again.
- I'm not gonna give you what you want, b*tch.
- Do it. Yep, do it.
- So shut the [bleep] up. - Do it. Do it.
- I'm ignoring your ratchet a*s.
[intense electronic music]
- That's fine.
- Your friend's ratchet and she r*cist,
and she's a h*m*.
- She says shut the [bleep] up.
- Well, tell her come make me.
♪
- [laughs]
♪
- Yeah, I do.
Until you come and see me, don't [bleep] say [bleep] to me.
You don't even know me.
♪
- Ooh. - Oh, I can't--ooh.
- Did you hear her friend, CeeJai?
- Yep.
- She said, "Go pick cotton, b*tch."
- That's horrible. - That's fine.
She calls me ratchet again,
and then her friend says,
"Tell that b*tch to go pick cotton."
That's just wrong.
- The ratchet comment was bad enough,
and then she said that?
Who the [bleep] do you think you are to say things
that are so r*cist
and deliberately just laugh about it?
I just see CeeJai's blood boiling.
This could be really bad.
♪
- Next time, on "Real World"...
So it's okay to make r*cist comments?
- That didn't come out of my mouth.
- But these are your [bleep] friends.
- It's torturous to know that I live with a r*cist.
- I'm not [bleep] r*cist. I didn't say that [bleep].
- Shut the [bleep] up before I come over here
and beat your a*s.
- Oh, my God. Get her! Get her!
- Oh, [bleep].
Somebody's definitely going home now.
- It's not good. We can't tolerate it.