01x08 - The Starlight Fades, But Love Remains

[bunniefuu]

Vin.

Easy... easy.

Take a sip.

How do you feel?

Feeling better?

I...

I...

How did I end up here?

You had malaria.

You were unconscious for days.

Good thing they got
you to the doctor in time.

As for Sila, he's at the
reeducation camp right now.

Just wait-

another week or two until you recover.

Then you will have to go there too.

A reeducation camp?

Mm-hmm.

It's set up by the government for people who used
to be in the jungle before returning to the city.

But you don't have to worry, Vin.

I'll be your guarantor.

You and Sila will stay there about a month,

then you'll be released.

"When Light Fades" [Episode 8]

[Order 66/2523]

[opened the way for those with-]

[differing political
beliefs and ideologies, ]

[including Communist Party members]

[and civilians who fled into the
jungle to escape suppression, ]

[to lay down their weapons
and leave the jungle]

[to become contributors
to Thailand's development.]

[They will receive amnesty
for all political charges]

[and be able to participate
in the elections] Aunt La Or.

[In accordance with
democratic principles] Oh, Dan.

I was just about to call you.

Is Vin close to being released yet, dear?

Well...

There's something I need to tell you.

Mom.

Vin.

Mom.

Then who brought me out?

Sila and Sin.

They brought you to the military camp,

then went back into the jungle.

When they brought you back,
you had to be searched.

So I kept this for you.

Sin.

I... I, I'm here.

I'm always with you, Vin.

Grilled sticky rice with meat?

Never seen that before.

I was afraid some kid might be hungry,
so I added pork.

- Mm.
- How is it?

You know...

when I first met you,

you were so cold and emotionless.

I'm human too.

How could I not have feelings?

When my parents died,
I cried for a very long time.

Then how did you get through it?

It was really hard.

Maybe because of the “Joy Game.”

My mother taught me how to play it.

It helped a lot.

The Joy Game?

What's that?

I've never heard of it.

Aren't you going to eat too?

You keep on eating.

Otherwise you'll faint again
and I'll have to carry you.

Heavy as you are...

open your mouth.

But if I'm full, I want
us to be full together.

If we starve, we starve together.

Come on, let me feed you now.

Here, open up.

What's this? Don't act all shy now.

So what about that Joy Game of yours?

Tell me about it. Come on, tell me.

Let me hear it.

You speak your suffering out loud,

then you find the good
hidden inside that suffering.

Once you vent it out, you feel lighter.

Suffering...

has a good side too?

Everything has two sides.

Like today, for example.

The sun is blazing hot.

Mm-hmm.

But the good thing is,
the sky becomes clear.

And at night,

the stars become beautiful.

Mm-hmm.

And so we can watch the stars together.

I'm sorry that I came
so far away from home.

And I don't even know
when I'll ever return again.

But there is something good about it.

The good thing is...

I met someone here

that I love very much.

Why was this meeting called?

The Party has issued orders.

After the government announced its policy,

many people surrendered
and laid down their weapons.

So the Party issued new orders.

Anyone who still wants to keep fighting

must all cross over to the other side.

As for us, we destroy the documents

and follow later.

And appoint Comrade Yue
as the new leader instead.

[Ravin ChaiChan 12 Rd.Maha Chai,
Sumranrath, Pranakorn, ฺBangkok]

[A very sad letter to Vin apologizing
without the intention of seeing him again.]

Mom, I'm home.

Vin.

Mom, are you okay? Why
do you look so stressed?

Ah... it's nothing, dear. Sit down first.

How did the internship interview go?

I passed, Mom.

Once I told them I wanted
to become a journalist,

they kept talking with me for ages.

Good. That's wonderful.

My son is the best.

Go on, go take a shower.

I'll make something
delicious for you to eat.

Okay, Mom.
Go.

Comrade Roong should've already-

sent the last group across safely.

We should hurry too.

I'm done.

It's not locked, Mom.

Vin.

Dan.

I got off work early today, so...

I stopped by for dinner.

Aunt La Or told me to get you.

Do you still think about him?

And...

Do you still love him?

I'm not sure.

Do you remember what I told
you that night at Chan Siao Cave?

I know you don't think of me that way.

But can you give me a chance?

We can take things slowly.

But...

But with him, you can't even answer-

whether you still love him or not.

Why can't it be me, Vin?

It's not something that
can just be anyone, Dan.

Where did I lose to him, Vin?

Because you're not him.

Even if he's dead,

or even if we never meet again,

I will always see you as a brother.

Just as a brother.

What's wrong, Comrade?

Excited about crossing over?

What's there to be excited about?

Come on, if we make it across,
you'll become the leader.

Aren't you happy?
Hey,

let me rest first.

Nature calls.

Comrade Fah,

watch the bags for me, okay?

OK.

Be right back.

I'm going to refill the water.
Mm.

Hey!

Ouch!

What the hell are you doing, Nop?!

You took everything away from me.

So you're trying to k*ll me now?

Huh?!

You're going to k*ll me?!

Huh?!

Hngh!

I followed every single rule.

I sacrificed everything for the Party.

And in the end, after one mistake,

the Party threw me away like trash

and put you in my place.

What about me?

I did everything for the Party.

For the ideology,

huh?!

Stop hiding behind ideology already.

I k*lled people to protect you.

I fled into the jungle with you.

I never wanted anything from the Party.

I always saw you as my friend.

How could you do this to me?

Vin.

What are you doing?

Planting vegetables, bro.

Planting vegetables?

Well, from what I remember,

you hated vegetables when you were little.

Before I knew it, you've already
skipped ahead to growing them yourself.

Back when I was living at the base,

there wasn't any meat to eat.

So I had to eat vegetables.

After eating them for a while,

I ended up liking them.

Talking about it now makes
me think of them again.

I miss them so much.

Bro...

I'm sorry.

Mm.

Actually... I've been trying to move on.

But now I understand.

Love doesn't necessarily-

mean staying close or owning someone.

Stepping back a little,

while still getting to
stay in each other's lives,

might be better.

Let's see what you're planting.

Vin!

Sila!

- Vin!
- Hey, Mada!

- Damn, I missed you so much.
- Vin.

It's been forever.

Weren't you supposed to get out next year?

We got our sentence reduced,
so we were released earlier.

Sila came to pick me up.

He especially wanted to surprise you.

- Hey, seriously?
- How have you been?

Vin.

Oh, Dan.
Hello.

Hello. Hello.

Go spend time with your friends first.

I'm going to see Aunt La Or for a bit.

Okay, bro.

Man, it's been so long.

I missed you so much.

Hey, since we haven't
seen each other in forever,

Today...

should we celebrate a little today?

Same as always. The usual recipe.

- Sure.
- I can handle it.

Hey, you have to come with me.

Wooo.

No, no, no!

Hey, Vin!

- Hey!
- Are you messing with me?

Just kidding, just kidding.

Go. Go. Go.

Baan Saeng Dao Base has already fallen.

The ones who still wanted to fight all-

crossed over to the other side.

Including Comrade Yue.

Even though the base is gone now,

for us,

it was a classroom of life.

It taught us to see people as human beings.

Um...

That place really was a life lesson.

We've seen that no matter what system...

or what beliefs people follow,

every one of them has both pros and cons.

The chaos comes from the people-

who misuse them.

When he brought you to the military camp.

Vin had malaria.

There was no medicine at the base.

We needed a doctor.

I'm begging you.

He kissed you without hesitation.

Even I was shocked when I saw it.

You knew from that moment, didn't you?

That was when everything
became clear to me.

And you don't find me disgusting?

Before entering the jungle,
I couldn't accept it either.

But after seeing him fight with everything-

he had just to get you to a doctor,

my whole perspective changed.

I realized that being able to love someone,

and having them love you back,

that alone is already enough.

If everyone could think like you,

things would be better.

Maybe we won't see it in our generation.

But I believe that...

one day,

someone will dare to think differently-

and do something new to change the country.

But I don't want to wait.

We want it to happen in our generation.

Mm.

May I come in to speak with
you for a moment, please?

Of course. Please, come in.

Yes.

Please come in.

We received a report

about an unidentified male
body found in Nan Province.

The victim face was
beaten beyond recognition.

But during investigation,

we found that the firearm
had your name engraved on it.

[Ravin ChaiChan]

Mm.

Why are you giving me a g*n?

You want me to sh**t now?

Look carefully first.

[Sasin Ngaochan] That way,
you'll feel like I'm always beside you.

I want you by my side all the time too.

This part is mine.

[Ravin ChaiChan]

Do you happen to know
who might've done this?

Right now, we still don't know.

And there are no witnesses yet.

The body was abandoned deep in the forest.

If possible, I'd like to ask you

to come give a statement
at the police station.

I'll go with you.

Vin, where are you going, dear?

I'm going to Nan.

I need to make sure
whether it's really him.

Who is that guy?

Why are you this desperate
to go to Nan right now?

Vin.

Vin.

Vin.

I can't bear to watch
you leaving like that again.

Do you know, Vin?

That day when I woke
up and couldn't find you,

I ran everywhere searching
for you like a madwoman.

When Dan told me you
had gone into the jungle,

even though I felt relieved
that you were still alive,

I never slept peacefully again,
not even for a single night.

Are you going to leave your
mother again today, dear?

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry for making you worry.

I know your heart is breaking.

But he's gone no matter what.

Sometimes...

we have to let it go, dear.

Mom.

Cork tree' flower cigarettes

help with allergies.

Mm,

try it.

How is it? Do you like it?

Yeah, I do.

It smells nice. Tastes good too.

Why don't you roll a new one?

This one already has my saliva on it.

Get a new one.

Although while we're here,

and I couldn't show my feelings too much.

But that doesn't mean I feel nothing.

What do you feel?

I feel that you're someone very special.

And I want to take care of you.



[without tears…]

Comrade Yue! Comrade Yue!
[Wishing it would all fade away.]

[Wishing it would all fade away.]
Comrade Saeng!

[Begging the wind to carry it off.]
Comrade Yue!
[Begging the wind to carry it off.]

[Begging the wind to carry it off.]

Comrade Saeng!

[I don't want to live like this.]

Comrade Saeng!

Comrade Saeng!
[As someone who never forgets…]

[As someone who never forgets…]

[I could barely breathe.]

[If I knew I'd lose you…]

It's me! Comrade Saeng!
[If I knew I'd lose you…]

[If I knew I'd lose you…]

Comrade Yue...

Where were you?

I've been looking for you forever.

[Every night, pretending I can handle it.]

[Not knowing how deep I'm sinking.]

[I'd be fine.]

[I told myself I could live without you…]

[A world without you seemed easy enough.]

[But today, I realize… you've never left]

[from this heart that
still holds onto your love.]

[Onto the promises…]

[that no matter how long it
takes, no one can replace...]

If I could turn back time,

[you.]

I'd spend as much time
with you as possible. [you.]

[I just want to forget
how happy we used to be.]

[To wish that your smile
would slowly fade away.]

[Yet this heart keeps
waiting, never drifting off.]

[In the end, it's me who
just won't let you go.]

[Every night, pretending I can handle it.]

[Not knowing how deep I'm sinking.]

[I'd be fine.]

[I told myself I could live without you…]

[A world without you seemed easy enough.]

Comrade Saeng!
[But today, I realize… you've never left]

[But today, I realize… you've never left]

[from this heart that
still holds onto your love.]

[Onto the promises…]

[that no matter how long it
takes, no one can replace... ]

[you.]

Excuse me, sir.

Come in.

I have something to report, sir.

Someone left this for you.

Where is the person who brought this now?

How come you could come
out for a walk with me today?

Aren't you usually busy?

What he did to Uncle Rapee,

have you fogiven him yet?

I'm happy that you've-

finally moved on.

That's why there's
something I want to give you.

[As the sunlight slowly fades away, ]

[all I need is someone by my side.]

[Let it be you, let it be you.]

[Just sitting close, meeting
your eyes, warms my heart.]

[Let this moment be just the two of us.]

[Like the moon waiting
for its time to shine.]

[Let it be you, can it be you?]

[The one who stays by
my side and never leaves.]

[Let it be you…]

[Who knows what tomorrow holds, ]

[or how things might change.]

[Just having you is all my heart desires.]

[In the darkest of nights...]

[Please know that whenever you look back, ]

[Through all the tomorrows, ]

[I'll still be right here,
never leaving your side.]

Sin.

How did you get here?

We need to destroy the body quickly.

Otherwise the Party
will definitely punish you.

I'll report to the other side.

That you were k*lled-

And Comrade Fah escaped.

Leave everything behind here.

Remember this: Comrade Yue is dead.

From now on, you are Sasin.

There's someone waiting for you outside.

Go live your life.

Did you ever receive the letters I sent?

Not even once.

That's such a shame.

No need to regret it.

There wasn't much inside anyway.

Just...

“I miss you” over and over again.

Wow,

now I want to read them even more.

But now we're together already.

And neither of us is going anywhere again.

Is something wrong?

Are you afraid other
people won't accept us?

Your mother... right?

I'll atone for what I've done.

And I'll make your mother accept me.

I'll be waiting.

Even though m*rder
carries a heavy sentence,

confessing like this may
reduce your punishment.

I just want to pay for my sins.

Please take care of Vin for me.

Then don't make him wait too long.

Thank you for helping me.

You're welcome.

This way, please.

[“Scapegoat Case Reopened: Former Communist
Party Member Confesses to Police m*rder”

“Revenge for his father's false accusation
that led to his death in prison.”]

At the time, all I knew is that

we were waiting for
the Appeals Court to decide whether-

your dad had arrested the wrong person.

But I never imagined that
he had truly destroyed-

another family this badly.

Mom...

the person named Sasin

was the person I was going to see that day.

And...

the body in Nan...?

It was all a misunderstanding, Mom.

As soon as he got out of the jungle,

he immediately turned himself in.

He truly wanted to start a new life.

I'm not blaming him for your dad anymore.

Because he was partly at fault too.

But as for everything else...

I think...

I still can't accept it.

But I truly love him.

But he is...

I don't care what he is.

I love him.

When I was with him, I felt safe.

I could be myself.

And I was deeply happy.

But it's against nature, dear.

What will other people think?

I don't care what other people think.

All I care is what you think, mom.

I just need you to understand me.

That alone is enough.

[I know you can take care of yourself.]

[But I keep thinking all the time.]

[About how you're doing.]

[I don't expect you
to reply to my letters.]

[I just hope you get to read them.]

[I want you to know that
I'm always worried about you.]

[Is it cold in Bangkok?]

[It gets very cold here at night.]

[Vin, take good care of yourself.]

[If your allergies flare up,
hurry and take medicine.]

[don't just leave it]



[and worry about you so much...]

Mom...

Mom...

Mom...

I know you can't accept it.

But you don't hate me, right?

You don't hate me, right?

My child...

I will always love you, dear.

No matter who you are,

I'll always love you.

[Minister, how do you feel about-]

[the atmosphere at today's
Marriage Equality event?]

Today is considered an important step forward.

[“Key Points of the Marriage Equality Act” Sila
Wattanakul Deputy Minister of the Interior]

It reflects that Thai society is
becoming more accepting of diversity.

And it proves that-

Thailand is moving toward
a society that is truly open

and genuinely equal.

I believe love has never had a gender.

And sometimes, understanding-

can matter even more than
what society calls "correct".

Marriage equality is not just
about obtaining legal documents.

It is about receiving equal rights in love.

I'm happy.

About what?

Being with the person I love.

Look at you...

back then you barely even talked.

But now you're confessing your love.

Can you keep making me this happy forever?

And How do I do that?

We'll just grow old together.

[As the sunlight slowly fades away, ]

[all I need is someone by my side.]

[Let it be you, let it be you.]

[Just sitting close, meeting
your eyes, warms my heart.]

[Let this moment be just the two of us.]

[Like the moon waiting
for its time to shine.]

[Let it be you, can it be you?]

[The one who stays by
my side and never leaves.]

[Let it be you…]