13x01 - The Eaglewoman Has Landed

[bunniefuu]

- Breaking news:
Kyle and Mauricio

have officially split.

- Did they grow apart?

Their kids are leaving the home.

- There's always been
rumors about Mauricio.

- Holy sh...

- I had no idea.

- You think they're
hiding something?

- I think she's been lying.

- Complete strangers are like,

you made us believe in true
love, and now it's over.

- This is true love.

Everybody else's
opinion can [BLEEP] off.

[dramatic music]

- This season on
"The Real Housewives

of Beverly Hills"...

- Vegas, b*tch.
Vegas, Vegas, Vegas. Ha!

Oh, my God.
We have red Phantoms.

- Bring on Magic Mike!

[cheering]

- So sexy.

- This is a million bucks.

- You have to give
a BJ every day.

- Gladly.

- This is your horse?

- How much did you
pay for Santos?

- More than your Birkin.
- [laughs]

- Do you wanna
come to Barcelona?

[cheering]

- Viva Espana!

[upbeat music]

- Yes!

- I'm the chef.
I hope you enjoy the house.

- Thank you, Chef.

We can tag team him.

- Any time you want.

- You know what else
I want from you?

I wanna thank you.
- For what?

- For giving you
something to talk about

and making your a*s relevant.
- Ooh!

- Oh, God.

- This group wants me to scream
all the... ing time.

- I saw my friend in distress,

and you say, you insert
yourself.

By the way, [BLEEP] you.

- Hi, girly!

- Oh.

- Did you know that it's $7
for a naked bundle

of Denise Richards on OnlyFans?

- You think I'm not gonna
go as... ing low as I can?

- You are one evil woman.

- I am.

- You don't understand
the severity of the PTSD.

- There are elements
I understand.

There are also elements
I consider more obnoxious.

- I wanna be back on stage.

I wanna be making new music.

But does that
translate into people

wanting to work with me?

- How are things
with you and Mau?

- If there was infidelity,
would you stay?

- I don't know.

- Every time I go online,
I see something

about someone cheating.

Where there's smoke,
there's fire.

- I don't wanna talk
about that right now.

- I just want you to know.

- I don't wanna talk about it.

- Kyle's not wearing
a wedding band.

Is there something going on
in your personal life?

- Her marriage.

- This is Morgan.

- You put the first letter
of your name on her body.

What is going on, Kyle?

- I'm just glad it's you
out there having an affair.

- For once, it's me.

We are a very strong family,
and we always will be.

We always will be.

Nothing is gonna change that.

- Kyle? Where is she?

- In denial about something.

- Oh.

[upbeat music]

♪ ♪

- Bubba?

What the... you're
out of control, PK.

You've got two bags open.
- Mm.

- Oh, my God, I leave you
for 15 freaking minutes.

- Oh, my God.

I can't keep this in the house.

Honey, listen.

Remember I told you
about Eaglewoman?

- Yeah.

- So she's coming over today.
- Oh, is she?

That'll be interesting.

- Love, love, love
for you to meet her.

- How is she getting here?

Is she flying?

- She... wait.

[knock at door]
She's here.

- Hello.

- Hi, hello.

- Who's Eaglewoman?
- I'm Eaglewoman.

- Hi, Eaglewoman.
- Hi.

Nice to meet you.
- I'm PK. Nice to meet you.

- Nice to meet you.
- Hi, PK.

Nancy.
- Hi, Nancy.

Have you got a name
like Eaglewoman as well?

- I do, Blue Raven.

- Blue Raven?

Dorit, this is Blue Raven,
also known as Nancy.

- Yes.
- Sorry, I'm just...

I'm just gonna apologize
right now for my husband.

- Honey, that's her name.

I didn't say anything wrong.
- Is it?

- I can't believe you're
making excuses for me already.

- I have to, Bubba,
because I'm petrified

of what's gonna come out of
your mouth.

- Don't be petrified.

- PK has a habit of putting
his foot right in his mouth.

- I asked whether I call you
Eaglewoman, Eagle, or Woman.

- [laughs]

- No, no, no, not just
putting his foot in his mouth,

jamming it down his throat.

I have a group of friends.

We had a really rough year.

- Okay.

- There's definitely a lot of
healing that needs to happen.

I would like for you
to help the women

talk about their feelings so
that we can actually move on.

- I'm what you call
the doctor of the soul.

My job is to make
sure everyone feels safe

in this collective
consciousness,

in this sacred circle.

What I would do is take
everyone on a vision quest,

let them start to feel
spirit within them.

Through my
experience, people are

able to express how
they're feeling,

what they they're feeling
towards each other.

- I'm a little cynical for
you being able to achieve that

with this group of ladies.

There's a lot of weird
sh... that goes on.

- Honey, could you
not swear, please,

in front of the ladies?

- They like me.

You know, they're at...
They're at one with me.

- Honey.

You never know how people
are gonna react when you're

offering new-age healing.

But I've sent text messages
to all the ladies

inviting them to the retreat.

I hope you can all attend.

Lots of love.

And, to my surprise...

Okay, Erika, I see you.

They were all very open to it.

There are six of us.

I've got a nice, intimate space

so the women can feel
comfortable to open up.

- I work with this
talking stick.

- But they're not the
sort of ladies that

are gonna sit there
and only speak when

they've got a talking stick.
- That's not fair.

We know how to abide by rules.

- Good luck.

- Honey, we're not
a pack of wolves.

- I'm up for the challenge.

[laughs]

♪ ♪

- In the real world, what
does one wear to a retreat?

- Are we gonna do one
of those trust things

where we fall back
into each other's arms?

I'm not doing that.

No one's gonna catch me.
[laughs]

- It is supposed to
be windy and cold.

I need a jacket.

If I've got a good
Chanel one, then I would

definitely go that route.

- Well, I go in looking happy.

- Aw.

- I don't know how
long this lasts.

- Do you think you're
going to a beauty pageant?

What are you doing?

- Well, good.
I'm glad you...

- Hello?

- Wow.
You look so hot.

- Yeah.

- I know.
Please, do not drop that towel.

[laughs] She's so sexy.

Ah!

- ♪ Baby, let's go ♪
- ♪ Let's go, let's go ♪

- ♪ Why they got me
in the limelight? ♪

♪ Why they got me
in the limelight? ♪

♪ Why they got me
in the limelight? ♪

- ♪ Yeah, yeah ♪
- ♪ Baby, let's go ♪

- ♪ Let's go, let's go ♪

- ♪ Why they got me
in the limelight? ♪

- We made it.

Why do I feel sick
to my stomach?

- That's how I
felt, too, earlier.

Let's just see
how today unfolds.

No predictions, no expectations.

- I'm gonna let Eaglewoman...

- Her name is Eaglewoman?

- Yes.

- Her God-given, government
name cannot be Eaglewoman.

Is it?
- Yes.

- Okay, great.

- I love that rock, how
it's looking right at us.

It looks like a grandfather.

Grandfather protection.

♪ ♪

- Oh, look at the horses.

Oh, so beautiful.

Stay close by, yes?
- Yes, ma'am.

- Okay, super. Thank you.

- My relationship changed
with everyone

since last year, honestly.

- How would you think I
would feel to hear that you

wanna destroy your sister?

- I never said that.

I said other things.

- The only one it
hurts here is me.

I'm the one who gets... ed.

I was very hurt by some of the
ladies last time I saw them.

It's so secluded,
just how I like it.

So I am nervous about
seeing them today.

- Hi!

- This looks so pretty.

- Isn't this beautiful?

- Hi, how are you?

- Look at us.

- Hi.

- Thank you, Colleen.

This is really pretty.

This is not where I thought
our first outing would be,

on top of a mountain.

I thought maybe we'd have
c*ck at a cool lounge,

but here we are at a
spiritual retreat with Dorit.

Hi.

- This is not what
I was expecting.

- How are you?

- How are you?
- I'm good.

- I love seeing the horses.

- I just bought a horse.
- What?

- Oh, I did.

- Congratulations.

- Thank you.

- What'd she say, a horse?

- She got a horse
in the Netherlands.

- You got a horse
in the Netherlands?

- And I was telling Garcelle,
he can pull a carriage.

- We're gonna take the horse
and carriage down Rodeo Drive.

- What on Earth?

- What is this place?

I come to the retreat
feeling two things.

One, I knew I was
vicious at the time.

- All I think about are victims.

- I don't give a [BLEEP]
about anybody else but me.

- Honey, just take
a deep breath in.

- No, I'm not taking
any deep breath.

Two, I was also
protecting myself,

and I had to stick up
for myself.

There's a teepee here?

What is this?

So I am walking in
like a man on my own island.

My friend is gone.

All smiles, Erika, all smiles.

And we'll see what happens.
I don't know.

- Hello.
- Hi, everybody.

- Are you the Incredible
Shrinking Woman?

- You're so skinny.
- No, are you?

- Oh, my God.

- What the hell?

- So skinny.

- Hormones.

- "Hormones."

Hormones?
- Hormones.

- Oh, is hormones spelled...

I don't know.

- People think I'm on Ozempic?

- No, I'm not, but I'm on
some really good hormones.

And they should be, too.

- The woman that's coming
to lead the ceremony.

- What's her name?

- Eaglewoman.

- Okay.
- What is she gonna make us do?

[drum beating softly]

- [clears throat]

- [chanting in native language]

I'm gonna lead you
into the circle.

- All right,
I'll see you outside.

What the hell?

Only Dorit.

- ♪ Breathe ♪

♪ Just breathe ♪

♪ Breathe through me ♪

♪ Great spirit ♪

♪ Great spirit ♪

♪ Breathe through me ♪

- And you may take
a seat wherever you feel

you would like to sit.

- This is a chair.

- That's a chair?
- Yeah.

- Welcome, ladies.

It is an honor to meet
each and every one of you.

My name is Eaglewoman.

You met Blue Raven.

She's my apprentice,
my right hand,

because I'm left handed, so.

[laughter]

But right now, what she wants
to do is just pass out...

- Thank you so much.

- Some sage tea.

And this is part
of our ceremony.

You know, open up the soul.

In the teachings of the eagle,

it's about being able
to see everything

from a higher perception.

The eagle flies the highest.

It flies close to the sun.

[eagle cries]

And then it travels
behind the sun

to meet with Creator,
with the ancestors,

and then it brings back
the wisdom.

Forget what you know
and remember what you forgot.

- I love meditation.
I love yoga. I can relax.

Mm.

Eaglewoman.

- Ooh. [laughs]

- Fly on down.

- We all had a rough year,
and there are certain things

that have
been difficult to move past.

My hope would be for us to
move through some issues,

heal, and then be able
to put it behind us.

- Agree.
- Totally agree.

- Yeah.

Well said.

- I mean, listen,
I'm very happy to go first.

I feel very hurt by you, Erika.

Obviously,
I'm sure you know why.

- What Bravolebrity
relationship do you think

is headed to splitsville next?

- I think it's Dorit and PK.

- Oh!

- To see you behave like
that was deeply hurtful.

[dramatic music]

- Coming up...

- Dorit, is your
marriage strong?

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- It feels like there are
certain things that have

been difficult to move past.

I feel very hurt by you, Erika.

What you said about PK and I
was mean-spirited

and deeply hurtful.

- I didn't wanna answer that
question, and I asked not to.

Uh, I don't wanna answer this
question because I feel bad.

But...

[audience shouting]

Wait, but.

- You delivered that answer
like someone who

really wanted that attention.

- Dorit, I'm a showman.

I walked right down to
the edge of the stage,

and I gave those people
what they wanted.

- Standing up,
going to the center stage,

delivering the line,
and then flipping her hair,

coming back, and feeling
very good about herself.

That's not a showman.

That's a b*tch.

I kind of thought that you
were gonna lead with an apology

rather than defending it.

- Well, it's not a defense.

It's just an explanation
of how it went down.

It was a shady question.

And I gave a shady answer.

Dorit, is your marriage strong?

♪ ♪

- The only thing that I've
ever heard about PK and Dorit

was the night PK got
pulled over for a DUI.

He may have or may not have had
a woman in the car with him.

That's the only rumor
I've ever heard.

- My marriage is very strong.

- Right, so when someone
says something like that...

- First of all, I went through
a very challenging year.

You're hurting.

And so you lash out,
and you're mean-spirited.

- The last two years of my life
have been very complicated.

But we all hurt each other's
feelings in this group.

- I think it was when
the "LA Times" article

came out after you left.

It seems like,
she must know this.

- I don't believe that you knew
most of the things, genuinely.

- Then why are you
torturing me about it?

- What does $750,000
earrings look like?

- They're 1.3.

- Why wouldn't you
pay the victims?

Have a heart.

- You know what I say?

I'm not guilty,
and how... ing dare you

say that sh... about me?

I was getting hit from all sides

when I just needed a moment to
catch my breath in this group.

But as your friend,
I'd like to apologize

if I was rough,
if I was vicious.

I've never felt so low.

I've never felt so unheard.

I love you all.

And I'm very sorry.

♪ ♪

- It's interesting to see Erika

be emotional and vulnerable.

But I also feel like, do
I trust that completely?

I don't know.

That being said, yeah, I
wanna give Erika a chance.

I wanna see who she really is.

Maybe we'll be surprised by her.

- That's a breakthrough.

- You get what you give.

- Let's take a deep breath in.

Let's keep the circle
alive and moving,

everything moving through.

That's it.

- Ooh.

- Can I go next?

- Yes.

- Something that was hanging
over me that was bothering me,

obviously, you know, we have
never had issues before.

But the stuff with
Kathy strained

all of our relationships.

- Lisa, here are
some of the things

that you claim that
Kathy said to you.

"Dorit is a stupid,
useless idiot."

"Crystal and Sutton are pieces
of sh..., useless idiots,

should be fired."

"I can't believe I have to be
around these... ing peons.

They need to go away."
- Lisa.

- "I will destroy
Kyle and her family

if it's the last
thing I ever do."

- Whoo.

- Kathy, do you remember
saying any of these things?

- No, I don't.

All of that, no, I don't.

- I was so upset, and
I was so emotional.

And I, like...

I... it felt like
I looked up, and I wanted,

like, somebody to come up to
me or something, you know?

I'm sorry,
I have a lump in my throat.

I can't talk now.
Give me a second.

- You have a lump
in your throat?

- Yeah.

I was literally
sitting there, and I felt like

I was, like, drifting out
to the sea or something,

you know?
And I was so upset.

And I looked up, and
everybody was just like...

And it really hurt me a lot.

I did expect more
from Dorit and Sutton.

I was very hurt by that.

I've known you guys longer.

Sutton is a very social person.

I get it.

You wanna be friends with Kathy.

Do I think it's because
she has a lot of parties?

I do.

I mean, yeah, you wanna
go to Kathy Hilton's parties

and all the people there.

- I felt for you, but I was
also confused by you

because I thought you're not
going to the people that

are coming for your family.

♪ ♪

- Coming up...

- I want to show my
success to the ex-husband.

[dramatic music]

- I was confused by you.

You're not going to the people

that are coming for your family.

- She had bad behavior
in front of all of us

in a public place.

And so there's
consequences to that.

- You're only punishing me,
just so you know.

- Your sister is punishing you.
- That's right.

Your sister is punishing you.
That's right.

- Why is Garcelle not
getting that my sister

created all of this by coming
for my family and for me?

There's a time where
you say enough.

I'm not a punching bag.

I didn't feel like
defending someone

who's hurt me repeatedly.

So I kept my mouth shut.

I've had so many incidents
where my sister has called me

and lost her temper.

- It is hard to get
you on the phone.

I feel like a pest.

- Well, you often
call me to rant.

When the phone will
ring and I see her name,

I get sheer panic.

I know I'm an adult, but it
affects me like I'm a child.

I'm sorry.

- Just take a deep breath in.

- There's a lot of hurt.

There's a lot of pain.

But there's a lot of love.

- Well, we can't be hurt
by people we don't love.

- That's true.

- Well, I think what I'm
hearing in this group

is we all have a lot
of regrets that we've

done to one another.

And I would like to
see us all try to be

better friends collectively.

- Absolutely.

You know what I'd love to do?

Would you mind if we move?
- Yeah.

- Would you like that?
Thank you.

- Thank you so much.

Thank you, Eaglewoman.

- I want you to get closer.

All:
Oh!

[laughter]

- Yeah.

- Oh, this feels good.

- We needed that.

- Well, we've gotten
through the day,

and everyone's now hugging.

Hell hath frozen over, or
at least Beverly Hills has.

[laughs]

- Whoo!

- Thank you so much.
- Thank you, Eaglewoman.

Thank you.

[upbeat music]

♪ ♪

- What's going on today?

- Review spring order.

- Okay.

- Cashmere order.
- Cashmere order.

- Then we have a few horse
issues to go through.

- Define "horse."

- Okay, it's my money.

I can do whatever I want.

I happen to be half-Texan.

I grew up riding,
and I wanted to ride again.

Now, some people would say,
well, just lease a horse.

It's on my AmEx.

But I'm not normal.

And Santos spoke to me with
his eyes...

on the internet.
[laughs]

- Oy vey.

- It'll be fine.

- Hey!

- You can...

[laughter]

- How are you?

I haven't seen you hardly...

Paris, since Paris.
- I know.

- Yeah, I know.

- You look so pretty.
- Well, thank you.

That's my job.

- We've got lunch.

I just put this out
to be decorative.

- Well, that's very nice.

We have enough to
feed an army here.

- Jennifer Tilly is
one of my best friends

for over 10 years.

We travel so well together.

We love to go to fashion
shows all over the world.

I did put one of
her salted caramels

in my ear on an
Air France flight.

I thought it was the earplugs.

And they were stuck in my ears,
and we couldn't get it out.

- Avi, we need some alcohol.

- And then she said, is that
my salted caramel I gave you?

Yes, it was.

I don't know.
We're so stupid together.

- Hi, honey.

- We gotta do
another Paris trip.

- Yes.

I cannot believe,
Sutton, you made

Avi come out for two days.

All he got was
Sutton yelling at him

like, Avi, where's my suitcase?

Avi, you're not
taking good pictures.

Avi, this... we're
trying to do a TikTok.

- I rest my case.

- Avi is my assistant
but also house manager.

- Thank you.

- Excuse you, sir.

You're not on camera right now.

- Ladies, are we
ready for lunch?

- Yes, we are, Avi.
- Thank you.

- It's so elegant.
Look at this.

It's so nice.

- Chinese chicken salad.

- Did you make that, Avi?
[laughter]

- Where's the dressing?

- It's on the way.

He only has two hands, Sutton.

There you go.

- Can you believe
almost four years?

- I can't believe it.
I remember when you opened.

I was here.

Sutton, I'm really proud of you.

- Thank you.

The business is my
true focus right now.

- Mm-hmm.

- And it's really
important to me.

- Because this is your time.

You spent the last


and being a good mom, and now
you're in a new metamorphosis

of your life.
- Thank you.

I want to show my
success to the ex-husband.

- Mm-hmm.

- I just do.

When my ex-husband
and I got married,

we were on equal footing.

I was working.

He was working.

Then I got pregnant.

And it was, you're not
gonna work anymore.

My power diminished.

This became,
here's your allowance.

Financial freedom
is a big thing.

I think, in that, comes my
children and showing them

financial autonomy
is liberating,

especially for my daughter.

Once the allowance
got taken away,

because it could, I realized,
wow, I allowed that to happen.

I will never allow
that to happen again.

When you are divorced...
- Mm-hmm.

- There's two words,
spousal support.

- Yes.

- They come with an anchor.

I'm not gonna give
that up because only

stupid people would do that.

But I don't want the anchor.

I don't want it.

I want complete freedom.

I earned it.
- Mm-hmm.

Well, he didn't have any...
- Every single dime.

- He didn't have any
money when you married him.

You guys built his
fortune together.

- We built that together.

And I earned every single dime.

And I have no guilt about that.

But for me to take
and build myself

is very important to me.

I want my ex-husband
to say, I remember you.

You are smart,
and you are capable.

You don't just make
lunches and dinner.

- Avi, can I have some
more champagne, please?

- I hate to quote Cher,
but I will.

I'm strong enough.

- Thank you.

He's a sweetheart.

- Applications for what?

- No!

[laughter]

- Coming up...

- I didn't deserve the
way I was treated by her.

I didn't do one... ing thing.

[upbeat music]

♪ ♪

- Hi.
- Hello.

- Oh, I love your outfit.
Look at this lady.

You look so beautiful.

- It's so good
to see you in person.

Come sit down.

- Thank you.

- I know we're used to,
like, the Zoom thing.

- The Zoom in our sweats.

I really risk becoming hateful,
becoming mean,

something that I don't wanna be.

I've been in therapy for the
last two and a half years.

Therapy has given me tools
to organize my emotions.

You can take the anxiety and
the sadness and the anger,

and then you go, you know what?

That doesn't
serve me any longer.

So I'm gonna put it away.

- How are you feeling?

- Good.

Listen, I was married to
one of the most unsupportive

humans probably
known to marriages,

and then Tom being indicted.

- It's such a terrible
fall from grace.

- The indictment was everywhere.

And it was very
difficult to deal with.

- "Fraud on a massive scale."

That's how federal
investigators today

described the indictments
against attorney Tom Girardi.

The Department of Justice
says the 83-year-old used

the stolen money,
tens of millions of dollars,

to pay for himself
and to support

his much younger wife,
Erika Jayne.

- Do I feel better that I'm
not included in an indictment?

Absolutely.

But does that stop
people from thinking

I did something wrong?

No.

- Old man Girardi,
he's going to jail.

- Yeah, she's watching her back.

- She may not have been
responsible

for stealing the money.

She is responsible for
spending the money.

- Yeah.

- You know, Tom is older,
and he's gonna die.

- Yeah.

- Have I come to a point
where I'm okay and I let go?

- You're gonna start a
whole new stage of grieving.

- Really?
- Yeah.

- God damn it.

- When he actually passes away,
I think it will surprise you...

- How hurt... how hurtful it is.

- How sad it is.
- Will I slide back?

- Look, as long as you're not
mixing Lexapro and alcohol...

- Yeah, no.

What are you doing here?

- Flowers.

- Get the [BLEEP] out of here.
- Don't cuss at him.

- Get the [BLEEP] out of here.
- Oh, my God.

- Before you get in trouble.

I'm off Lexapro now, so
that's actually pretty good.

- You've done a lot of work
on yourself since to make sure

that that never happens again.

- Dorit was very upset
with me about what

I had said at BravoCon.

- I think you crossed
a line as a friend.

You're hurting.

And so you lash out,
and you're mean-spirited.

- I need to be a better friend.

- Yep.
- How can I do this?

- You're gonna need to be able
to look at what your friends

are going through,
and you're gonna need

to have some empathy for them.

- So where does that come from?

How do you develop that?

- Because it's relative and...

- But how do I get that?

- You imagine being
in that person's shoes

with their background
and their history.

Try to imagine what that
feels like emotionally.

Yeah.

Your job is to
take the high road.

- It's very honorable
for you to say that.

[laughs]

- Yeah, look, you've done low.

It didn't work for you.

Let's try high.

- Let's try the high road.

[upbeat music]

♪ ♪

- Bubba, are you only gonna
have two bites of your salad

that I got you?

- I had a lot of salad earlier.

You missed it.

- Do you think Kyle
will want some pizza?

- There's no way
she's eating pizza.

Judging by the photographs
that I've seen of Kyle,

I think that she'll like
a nice glass of water

and nothing else.

- Pizza on Hermès.

I mean, it doesn't get
any better than that.

- Is that Kyle?
Hello.

- Hi!
- How are you?

- I'm good. How are you?
- Good.

I've got nonalcoholic gin,
if you want it.

- I mean, with a
personality like this,

do you think I need alcohol, PK?

- No, you do not, my darling.

- It's been seven
and a half months now

that I have not had
one drop of alcohol.

My behavior at Garcelle's
party was terrible.

- So if you wanna
be a mother... er...

- Excuse me.

Sutton, don't talk... don't
talk like that to her.

Don't talk like that to her.

I just really felt like
alcohol wasn't serving me.

- Don't be a stranger, okay?

- I wanted to do whatever it
took to make me feel better

physically and spiritually.

- We've got a nice,
romantic dinner.

- I know.
Look at this.

- Oh.
- Aren't we so cute?

- Baby, listen, it's just
a little bit of salad

and a little petrified pizza.

I am so happy to see you
in such a good place.

Even though it was
probably a sh... y journey,

you're coming out
the other side.

You're not gonna
get that resolve.

You know that's
not gonna happen.

And as much as you...

- We were supposed to fix it.

- You are gonna fix it.

- No, you don't know.

I can tell by the way that
we ended there, it's not.

- It's out of
everyone else's hands,

and it's in yours and Kathy's.

- I saw her at
Sutton's holiday party.

- Yep.

- It was fine.
It was like, hi, how are you?

You know, like, civil, but
it's just, I'm at a place now

where I'm just not going
to be mistreated by anybody.

- You are entitled
to your feelings.

- I didn't deserve
what she said about me.

I didn't do one... ing
thing to deserve that.

Kathy's used to a lot of
people allowing her

to get away
with a certain behavior.

Growing up as the baby sister,

I also allowed that
because I'm not

speaking up to my big sister.

You know,
it's taken me this long

to be like, I'm not going
to allow you

to continue to treat me
like this.

I just said, okay,
you know what?

- Enough is enough.

- Enough is enough.

You know?

- Listen, my darling,
talk about hard years,

and I really understand.

Obviously, different
circumstances, but I had

such a difficult year, Kyle.
- I know.

- I had a difficult year all
around because of the PTSD,

and I was struggling.

- Babe, don't cry.
Please, don't cry.

Come on, come on, come on.
- I'm scared.

- No, it's okay.

You don't have to be.

- My husband, the one that
you depend on the most,

was spending a lot
of time in London.

I started to feel like PK
and I weren't connected.

For the first time ever,
I thought,

is it possible that, like,
PK and I would not make it?

- I've had those thoughts.

I think that's normal
to have those thoughts.

- And I felt it, and he felt it.

- Well, I think there are
times in a relationship where

life happens, and it
can pull you apart.

And you can either
grow in different ways

or you can pull it
together like you guys have

and start from scratch
and put in the work

like you're doing
with a therapist and...

- Yeah.

- You know, come
out the other side.

- I walked down
that aisle with PK

because I truly believed
I was gonna spend

the rest of my life with him.

Or the rest of his, anyway.

It's normal.

A lot of marriages
go through it.

It'd be one thing if,
like, he cheated on me,

or he lied to me, or he did
something, and I can say,

you know, there was an incident.

- Right.
- It wasn't.

It was, like, a period of time
that, like, I just needed him.

He wasn't there.

- You needed more from him.
- I needed more from him.

- And he wasn't capable
of doing it at the time.

- Yeah.

[dramatic music]

- Coming up...

- Guess what I'm writing?
- Ashlyn.

- Yeah.

[upbeat music]

♪ ♪

- I'm getting off to get gas.

Who's putting the gas in?

- Jax.

- Come on.

[burps]

- Jaid, Jaid, Jaid,
Jaid, Jaid, Jaid, Jaid.

- Here, Jaid.
- Paper, scissors, sh**t.

Damn it.

- Yeah, go get the gas, dum-dum.

- Do I insert card first or
do we get the fuel in first?

- Insert card, 'cause
you gotta pay for it.

Now press the gas you want.

Do you know how to make it stop?

- Do I have to hold it?

- No, you can put
the little lever.

You see the lever?

- Yes.

- Awesome, babe.

- Thanks.

When do I stop it?

- It'll click when it's done.

- Oh!
- What?

- I smell gasoline.

- It's okay.

- There's gasoline out here.

- That sucks.

Just put it away, Jax.
- Jax, just...

- Nothing's gonna explode?
- No, it'll be fine.

- You sure?

I seen those
cartoons where they...

- Just close it tight.

- I don't... okay.

Wow, I'm so ready
to start driving.

- So Jax and Jaid are 15 now.

I remember the day when I would
carry them both like this,

like footballs, and now...

- Hi.

[laughter]

- They can carry me.

They're huge.

- This is the Jaid vlog.

- Jaid, put the camera down.

- Yeah, I was just
doing some buffoonery.

- Some buffoonery.

- All right, let's
go have a picnic.

- Wow, this is nice.

- This is so pretty.

I've been going back and forth
sh**ting this show in Atlanta.

All I wanna do is
spend time with my kids,

but I also have to work.

And I also love to work.
- Can you do this?

- No, you can help me do it.

So you just make quality
time when you can.

Jaid, what are you doing?

That's good.

You're hungry.
- I am hungry.

- I got a mini,
so whatever is small.

- Guess what I'm writing?
- Ashlyn.

- Yeah.

- Oh, my God, you're
so in love with her!

It's actually romantic.

- I wanna stay at
your house another week.

- You can stay with me
as long as you want,

as long as Dad's okay with it.

But I do wanna talk to you guys.

You said something yesterday.

Going back and forth sucked.

- I think it would be
much better if we didn't.

I mean, we were with Dad for,
like, a year, so it's fine.

- I wasn't gone for a year.

I was gone for three weeks, and
I could tell that you were...

- Three weeks is
basically a year.

- And how did that
make you feel?

I felt like when I was talking
to you when I was away,

I could tell that
you were annoyed

that I was gone so long.

- My friends don't
live around there.

And it's boring.

- I definitely feel
guilty that my work

takes me away sometimes.

Like, you can say, Mom,
I wish you didn't go or...

I don't know if that would
change me not going

because it's work.
- I told you.

- Wait, no, no, because it's
work commitments, right?

But I'm saying sometimes I wish
you would just vocalize it.

This is your chance to
say how you feel about how

we run the household.

- I would like more freedom.

- You get enough freedom.

- Not as much as I would like.

- I feel like you're not
letting me parent you.

Like, if you're sick and I go,
can I give you something?

Can I take your temperature?

And you're like, Mom, Mom...
- That's fair.

That's fair.
- I can take care of it.

I feel like you don't
let me parent you.

- And I understand where you're
coming from, that you want

to be more of a parent to us.

But I needed that
two years ago instead of now.

Most of the parenting
and teaching me how to live,

I know already how to do
all of that by myself.

I needed...

- So are you saying I
wasn't your mom then?

- Yeah.

- There's a lot of pressure
as a working parent.

I feel like I've always
been there for my kids.

Can I say I was there 100%,
all the time?

No, I can't.

Hearing it from him is
like a knife to the heart.

- There was times
where I think I needed

more than you were giving me,
in terms of parenting.

But as of now, I don't need
that much parenting anymore.

It's that simple.

You know my intention
isn't to hurt you.

I just think that what needs
to be said needs to be said,

whether if it hurts or not.

- I'm happy he's being honest,

but it makes me feel
like a failure.

For the times that you felt
like I wasn't there enough,

I'm sorry.
- And I'm sorry, too.

I'm glad that both of us can
admit faults from the past

and mature from that.

- Who are you?

- I'm the same kid
that you've raised.

See?

I think I turned out fine.

- I think you're gonna be great.

- Thank you.

- Listen, these boys, although
they're twins, Jax and Jaid,

they couldn't be more different.

Back in the day, you
didn't parent differently.

My mom
blanket parented all of us.

But nowadays, you have
to look at the child.

What does he need?
What doesn't he need?

Like, I didn't
grow up like that.

What do you have to say?

- Who, me?

- Yeah, you.

- About what?

- Anything.

- I miss Ashlyn.

- Oh, good lord.

[laughs]

- Coming up...

- How many tattoos
do you have right now?

- Five.

- Seriously?

[upbeat music]

♪ ♪

- What do I want?
What do I want?

Do I wanna be healthy or no?

- Hi, Jane. How are you?

I'm good.

So I have to go to New York
and then to Portugal.

Mm-hmm, and then that's Portia's

spring break, too, right?

Is she the previous week
or that... or the next week?

- Portia is next week.

- [sighs]

- Oh, so I can't go to Coachella

weekend two is what
you're telling me?

Can you send me notes
on all of this stuff

so I can talk to Kyle about it?

Because, like,
I can't do this alone.

- How much longer
are you on the phone?

- I'm sorry.

Is that first class?

- How long is he gonna take?

- Jane, if I do that,
then I could

golf with Bob on the 27th.

- Psst.

How much longer
are you gonna be?

- Hold on.

Honey, I'm working...

- Well, as soon as you can
wrap up your golf schedule,

let me know.

- Okay.

All right, Jane, listen,
I have to run real quickly.

Let me catch back up with you.

Thanks. Bye.

[dramatic music]

- I can't with this whole day.
I hate everything.

Sorry. [laughs]

- Hi, honey.

- Hi.

- How are you doing?
- Good.

I heard you talking to Jane.

- Yeah, I was just
talking to Jane.

I gotta talk to you a little
bit about our calendars.

- It sounds like you're
really booked up.

- I'm supposed to go to Portugal

during Portia's spring break.

I don't know if you guys
wanted to all go to Portugal

and make it fun.

- I have stuff I
have to do here.

I don't think I would be able
to go anywhere like that.

I can't go to Portugal.
- At all?

- Not during that window, no.

- Got it, okay.

- Mau and I have had
a challenging year together.

You know, he has
been working nonstop.

I've been working.

When you have to
schedule a meeting

to go over your schedule,
you know it's a problem.

- On another note,
you look amazing.

I mean, you're gonna
go work out right now?

You look so good.
- Thanks.

- You're, like, working out
like a beast right now.

You're eating well.

You're not drinking.

Like, you're changing your life.

- When you go through
painful times in your life,

it changes you as a person.

My sister, feeling let
down by my friends,

feeling disconnected
from my husband, you know,

you have to find an outlet.

I feel good about it.

And I hope... I hope Mau does,
too, because here I am.

- You look amazing.

- Well, thanks.

- How many tattoos
do you have right now?

- Five.

- Seriously?

- This is the first.

- That one, I know.
- This is the second.

This is the third.

This is the fourth.

This is the fifth.

- I only knew of three.

- Well, maybe you should be
looking at my body closer.

This is clearly a big symptom
of not spending time together.

Years ago, he would have
noticed a freckle on my body,

and now he doesn't know that
I have two more tattoos.

- I think that's enough, yeah?

- Mm, I don't know.

I think I'm gonna
get another one.

- Lovebean, that's enough.

Five tattoos is a lot.

- If I want to, I will.

- I will not allow that.

- You didn't even
know how many I had.

So if I want one,
I'm gonna get one.

It's my body.

- I... Lovebean, stop that.

You don't need any more tattoos.

- You don't have a choice.

- Honey.

- You don't have a choice.

[tense music]

- Lovebean.
- I don't know.

I mean, sometimes
you're married,

and they can do no wrong,
and other times,

they breathe,
and you wanna punch them.

Right now, I'm irritated.

I'm at a point in
my life I don't

have to explain anything
to anybody anymore,

including you.

I went from doing everything
my mom told me to do

to being a mom myself
and having to be

a good example to my girls.

And I just realized that
you can do all that,

and things can still go to sh...

I don't know if it's what
happened with my sister

or what, but I just
don't feel like

I have to answer to anybody.

- Well, you don't, but don't
become a rebellious person

and do it out of rebellion.

Do it because you want it.

- Listen, I am very
ing clear right now.

I'm not rebelling.

I'm just really clear.

♪ ♪

- Next time on
"The Real Housewives

of Beverly Hills"...

- What's an ideal
partner for you?

- Tall, handsome.

And we'll talk about
the wealth part later.

- I need to let go
of being defensive

and being ready to fight.
- Yes.

- I want to work on
repairing this friendship

because I don't have many.
[laughs]

- I think Jax thinks
I'm doing it all wrong.

He asked to go live
with his dad.

I feel like I failed.

- You think that
this just happens?

There's a lot of
effort that goes

into dressing a certain way,
looking a certain way.

- I think maybe I'm not gonna
bother with surprises anymore.