02x13 - My Brain Feels Different

[bunniefuu]

There is so many cool people
and fun things that come out

of New England.
-England.

-Oh, my God.
-New England, US.
England...

across the water.

[with English accent]
Spotted alone in a safari,

an itchy baby weenie.

We're not saying that again.

[Baylen]
Look at the double-decker.

Their sidewalks here are
pretty skinny.

[Baylen]
Look at their license plates.
Hello, London!

-Everything is still so much
different, it feels like.
-[Allen] Yeah.

[Julie]
What did the wedding planner
have to say about

Colin and his horse?
-[Baylen] Oh, God.

Colin and I met up
with the wedding planner.

And she told us we spent
too much money on our venue.

We should maybe ask my parents
for some help.

I don't think that I'm ready
to go and ask your dad

for a handout.

Next stop.
Piccadilly Circus.

Pick a d*ck, b*tch!

Hit it, b*tch!

The tour and the tour guide
are awesome, but I can

definitely feel Baylen's tics
escalating the longer

that we're on this bus tour.

Park plaza that d*ck.

Park that d*ck.

This is exactly why we wanted
to come to London and try

the Neupulse device.
-Fantastic d*ck.

I really hurt my hand.

If this device works,
these moments could be

so much more enjoyable
for Baylen.

[Baylen]
Bald b*tch!

[Colin]
If this device really is
this life-changing,

maybe that's something
that would really help

with pregnancy as well.

Spotted d*ck!

-[Colin] That's
actually what it says.
-d*ck -- [larynx squeeze].

[thudding]

[Colin] He just turns around
and stares and laughs.

Just grew up without manners.

It's so hard when you're being
mocked and stared at.

d*ck!

I just don't know how much
more I can take.

[Baylen, with an English accent]
Objection! Spotted...

alone in a safari,
an itchy baby weenie.

This isn't our first rodeo
in public.

-[Colin] It took
every ounce of me --
-Every dingleberry in me.

Yeah, pretty much, to not say
something to him.

-[Allen] Oh, there's a --
-[Julie] I can ask him --
oh, wow.

A taste of the Alpaca
[indistinct].

Thank you.

But I didn't want
to cause a scene

and have it ruin
the time that we were having

with her family.

-[Julie] Oh, OK.
-It's my first taste of beer.

-Is it bitter?
-[Baylen] No.

-So do you like it?
-[Baylen] Yeah.

[Colin]
Really?

I think you're the only human

on this planet
that thinks that.

No, I think I'm the only human
with the right taste buds

to know that exactly what
it tastes like.

[continues indistinctly]

d*ck and d*ck.
Community d*ck.

d*ck, d*ck, d*ck, d*ck,
d*ck, d*ck, d*ck.

Dude...are you...

-Do you need ketchup,
man, or anything like that?
-No.

-Alright.
-I'm just gonna need a nap.

-[server] All right, enjoy.
-[Allen] This is no joke.

[Julie] Oh...

[Bechnir speaking]

The fish and chips, I thought,
tasted fresh.

-I thought it was good.
-I liked it --

I liked it.
It was overall like an 8.5.

-Oh, Mom, you'll love this.
-[Candy] What is it, Julie?

Bubble and squeak.
Cabbage, carrots, potatoes.

Just -- eat it.

No, I just need to hold it
like this.

OK.
I'm not gonna throw it.

[Allen]
Look at that.

[Colin]
Do you like it or no?

[Julie]
I'm gonna go with a no.

You want fries?

-What are you doing?
-For Bay -- Baylen wants
French fries.

Well, there's one thing.
Oh, oh.

[Julie]
What are you doing?

Getting my ranch out.

For my French fries.

[Julie] You brought ranch
to the restaurant?

I'm still taken back
at the fact that she would bring

it to another foreign land.

-Like, [laughing],
I don't get it.
-[Julie laughs]

Now, if you excuse me.

Like, she's awesome and weird,
and, like, I love it.

I surrender!
m*therf*cker.

Hey, m*therf*cker.

[Allen speaking]

-Oh, about Neupulse?
-[Allen] Yeah.

[Baylen]
I'm not necessarily nervous.
I'm just hopeful.

I surrender!

-Are you struggling?
-[Baylen] Yeah.

-OK, yeah.
-You ready to head out, then?

-[Allen] Yeah.
-[Julie] Yeah...yeah.

-That's fine.
-[Baylen]...like, ready to stop
saying d*ck.

d*ck!

[Julie]
I think she was truly
emotionally exhausted

at looking at people that were
clearly, like,

mocking her the whole time.

-And lots of anticipation
for a Neupulse tomorrow.
-[Allen] Yeah.

[Julie]
So I think the best thing for
us to do is go back to the flat

and rest up.
-[Baylen] Shut up, b*tch!

I can only imagine what it
would be like to go out

to a restaurant for an hour
and be completely tic-free.

Or not even completely
tic-free, just...

less tic-y.
I'll take it.

[upbeat music plays]

[Baylen]
You get him, Forrest.

I'm excited for you.

Today is finally the day.

We are here to meet people
with Neupulse...

[Allen]
All right.

...a device that helps
the frequency of tics,

and today I will be able to try
it on for the first time.

-[Colin] Here we are.
-It's nice and warm in
here, too.

-[Colin murmurs]
-Shut up, b*tch.

The anticipation leading up
to this meeting today...

is white knuckles.

I...

There's -- fidgety.

-Oh, OK.
-My belly's a little nervous.

Yeah, welcome to the club.

What if the device
doesn't work

and it doesn't help my tics?
And it does nothing?

Shut up, b*tch!

But I'm also very hopeful,
because I've been waiting

for something like this
to help me for a long time.

-Hello.
-[Baylen] Hello.

Hi, I'm Barbara.

[gasp], [short whimper] --
oh, my gosh.

[Barbara speaking]

-So, how has your trip been?
-[Julie] Good.

-So far, so good.
-[Baylen] It's been really good.

-Thanks for inviting us
here to...
-Absolutely.

[Barbara]
No problem.

Shut up, b*tch --
[short whimper].

Up top, girl scout.

[Barbara speaking]

[short whimper]

Is there a reason
that it's not out...

to, like, the public yet?

[Julie] OK.

[foot bangs loudly]

Shut up, b*tch!
[short whimper]

-Wow.
-Yeah.

Wow.

But it would come out
here first, and then, of course,

there's a whole other process
for the United States,

like the FDA,
to approve it over there.

[Barbara]
Exactly, yeah.

How many case studies
have there been for the device?

-Clinical trial.
-[Barbara] Yes.

And so the results
of the trial showed that

there is an immediate effect
of the stimulation...

...specifically,
we saw a reduction

in the frequency of tics,
of average 25%...

What we also saw is that after
using the device for 10 minutes

a day for four weeks,

there was a reduction
in the severity of tics

of an average of 35%.

-Wow.
-[Barbara] Yeah.

[Allen]
That's astonishing.

in anyone's life,

regardless of whatever it is.

[Julie] Every facet of her life
is affected

by her Tourette syndrome.

[larynx squeeze] --
wind it up.

So, if Baylen were
to experience that number

of relief,
it wouldn't be the same life

that she's been living
for the last five or six years.

So, you only wear it
for 10 minutes?

[Baylen] Mm-hmm.

Let's get the sucker on.
Put it on me.

Are you ready
to try the device, Baylen?

Yes.

Yes, I'm really excited
to try the device.

Bald b*tch.

[dramatic music builds]

Are you ready
to try the device, Baylen?

Yes.

Yes, I'm really excited
to try the device.

Bald b*tch.

My hope for Baylen is that
she can experience the most...

relief that she's ever felt
in her life.

This could change everything.

Can you place your arm
on the table?

Yeah.
Thank you.

-Perfect.
-Yes.

-Can you feel anything?
-It's not on.

-I think she has it on zero.
-She's gonna fix it.

-It's not on.
-She has to turn it up.

[short whimper] -- wind it up!

Um, can you press
and hold the button

for five seconds, please?

You will see a yellow
flashing light on the device.

Perfect.

[Barbara speaking]

[pensive music plays]

Six.

[short whimper]

Do you feel anything yet?

[pensive music continues]

I feel it.

Shut up, b*tch.

It's like, um,
feels like numbness.

-Mm-hmm.
-It feels numb?

Yeah, like tingly.

In your fingers
or up this way?

My fingers, but then,
like, through my...

through my arm.

[Julie]
Wait, nine was too much?

-Nine was like...
[makes vibrational noise].
-[Julie] Whoa.

-My brain feels different.
-[Julie] Mm-hmm.

She's cute.

I mean, this is like
our version of going

to the moon.

Up top, girl scout --
[short whimper].

I feel a little bit numb
right now, because it feels

like, surreal.

There's not many instances
in life where your life can flip

upside down in a matter
of seconds.

This just makes me feel
not exhausted, but just,

like...like, calm.

-Yeah.
-Yeah.

Yeah.

I feel calm.
OK.

[emotional music plays]

[soft sobs]

My baby girl feels
like her brain feels calm.

She hasn't used
the word "calm"...

in years.

My heart...

hurts because it's so happy.

I'm sorry.

It's pretty emotional,
just because I know that --

mmm...

[choking up]
I know the amount of pain

that Baylen goes through
on a daily basis...

and just seeing how much
this device gives her relief,

it just means
the world to me.

-I love you.
-I love you, too.

Thank you.

This is gonna help
so many people.

Thank you.

[Barbara] I love to be part
of that moment, like,

it's very emotional to see
how the device is impacting

someone else's life.

And yeah, it just makes me feel
quite emotional as well.

We're coming to get this.

I'm sad I have to give
it back.

Thank you.

Off we go for a little bit.

[whimper] --
shut up, b*tch!

[Baylen]
When the device turns off,
it's like instantly

back to all my tics.

But with Neupulse,
it's not like a buildup

of tics.
It's like a pause in my tics.

Thank you so much.

-Truly appreciate this.
-Great meeting you.

-Thank you.
-No problem.

Thank you so much.
-No problem.

[Colin]
Thank you.

[Baylen]
b*tch.

b*tch.
Let's go to a library.

[laughing]

[upbeat rock music plays]

[Baylen] World class!

Yeah, it says you hit it.

Well, it's actually kind of
hard to judge.

Because we were both
on beginner.

Because Sven is just so much
better than Bechnir.

All right, well -- zip it up.
We're done.

Zip it up.

Bro.

[Julie]
This is a lot.

[Baylen]
Bald b*tch.

-Hi.
-Hi.

Shut up, b*tch!

[Allen]
This will be a good test.

f*cking b*tch!

This is an amazing place
to come to,

to try it out for the first
time, because this is

the environment I would be in
if I already...

used the device.

[overlapping chatter]

All of the overstimulation,
all of the people,

sets my tics off.

Closed nine to five
for d*ck.

-OK.
-Where is it?

-OK, she's closed nine to five.
-Oh...what?

[laughing]

d*ck!

So how did the meeting go?
You were gone a long time.

The meeting was amazing.

So how many people have
they experimented this on?


-[Candy] 130.
-Can I see it?

[Colin] So this is it,
and it will go...

on the inside
on your median nerve right here.

-Oh, it's magnetic.
-[Baylen] Shut up, bald b*tch!

So I have the phone, too,

and now all you have to do is
just turn it on, hold it

for five seconds...

-And now it's on.
-[Julie] And now
it's beeping yellow.

[Baylen]
This is the true test.

Please work.

Please.

We're making every life
decision in a matter of,

like, six months,
and now you wanting babies

on top of it is...
-It's about wanting a family.

It's what I want.

I can feel it now.

Tell me what you're feeling.

Calmness.

Like my brain
feels different.

The look on her face,
her reaction,

and the deepness in her eyes
say the whole story,

just how impactful on her life
in that small moment.

[Sven] If this device helped
Bay, even in the slightest,

maybe it'll give her
that boost of confidence

that she needs to have more fun
and just enjoy time with us.

-Aw, I love you guys.
-Yeah.

Aw.

So how does your brain
feel different?

I still feel like I have
the urge to tic.

It's not a cure.
It just pauses it.

[Julie] Yeah,
pretty fascinating.

And it's the look on your face.

-I know I'm happy.
-Yes, you're glowing.

-[Julie] You are glowing.
-You're glowing.

I'm really happy.

[Julie]
Oh...

I haven't felt like this since
I was 13 years old, like...

[Colin] Being able to...

to see you happy,
can't put that into words.

You mean the world to me.

You're not my Meemaw,
and I'm closed nine to five.

Well, let's have some fun.

-[Colin] I'll play cricket.
-You're gonna play?

-Yeah, I'll play.
-Go ahead, Colin.

-You check it out.
-Let's see this swing.

-Hey, Dad.
-Hey, Bay-bay.

[Candy] Oh, I thought you had
that one.

[Allen mumbles]

[emotional music plays]

This moment has been one
of the biggest reliefs

over the last four
or five years.

And all I wanted was
the same hug...

that I've given
her the whole journey.

I've been waiting for this
for a long time.

I know.

This little tiny robotic
device changed my life.

What the heck?

What a grateful journey.

Thank you guys
for getting me here.

Thank you so much.

Today has been...

rewarding and happy
and positive and probably

every happy word
in an encyclopedia you can find.

I think dictionary
is the right word.

I don't give a sh*t
what it is.

Whatever book you can
find happy words in,

that's what book
I'm talking about.

And with mine
and Colin's future,

I want you guys
to be closer.

Would you mind hanging out
with him?

-I will if you ask.
-You guys could hang out while
we're here.

Yes...

I want both of us moving
in the same direction,

so the both of you
can be better.

Oh!

-I hope he's better at golf.
-[laughing]

All right.

[electronic music playing]

[Julie]
Hey Bay...

-[Baylen] Hi.
-How'd you sleep?

-Mm.
-Yeah, that's impactful.

I really wasn't expecting
the time change to be

this difficult on me,
to be honest.

[Julie]
But it's worth it.

-The Neupulse meeting
went great.
-Mm-hmm.

It's just bittersweet,
'cause it works, and I know

that we can't leave with it.

[Julie]
What a Neupulse device could
do for her in the future never

felt within arm's reach
until this trip for us.

-[Julie] I know.
-At least we know it works.

-Right -- but how...
-[Baylen] Are we gonna
make it work?

How we can make it work.

Knowing something could really
help your daughter so much,

but really not having
accessibility to it

is really just depressing.

Me and Colin have even talked
about moving here.

-What?
-We talked about it

because
of the device working...

so well.
-Oh.

-He's like, "I've never seen
you so happy before."
-Mm-hmm.

So we went through

how to get a visa.
-Oh my gosh, Baylen.

I kind of love the idea
that they've been talking

about moving to London,

only because
it's affirming to me

of how deep Colin's love is
for Baylen,

that he knows that,
at all costs,

he wants to make her better.

JB does crystal meth
with Joe Biden.

JB does a lot
of crystal meth.

Crystal meth for days, b*tch.

-You're struggling right now.
-I know.

So what about...

-Crystal meth.
-OK, I can't.

I'm gonna have
to switch my words.

-You had mentioned...
-Crystal meth.

OK, can't start
with that either.

JB does a lot
of crystal meth.

Hey, JB.

I like that y'all are thinking
about the big picture

to include this device
to better your life,

but...that's all very
premature thinking,

because they haven't even
given us,

like, an exact release date.

Want to know another thing
that's premature?

Colin told me...

Colin.

You're smarter than that,
Colin.

Like, I know
you have baby fever,

but, like, let's slow
the roll here.

'Cause Colin would want
to have babies yesterday

with his timeline.
-Wait...

That's not where
we should be going.

You need to...

finish the journey
that you've started

about taking care of Baylen.

Because if you can't take care
of you, then you can't

take care of a child.
-I know.

And you're finally starting
to see a little bit of light

at the end of the tunnel

where you can be...hopeful.
-Hopeful.

[Julie] I think Colin probably
needs to take a step back

because Baylen
is really just experiencing

independence
for the first time

in this last six months
to a year,

and then to add a child

to that, I think could really --
it could really kick her back

a few notches.

I know deep within your soul,
just by what you're saying,

that no part of you is
ready for a kid.

[whispering]
No.

I just don't think
I've expressed to him...

my concerns,

it is kind of one of the most
important conversations in life.

[Baylen]
I know.

I need to stop avoiding
the conversation

because with my condition,
everything's always changing.

And as much
as I hate confrontation,

it's a conversation that needs
to happen so me and Colin

can both be on the same page
moving forward.

We're here today
to make a Viking knife.

[Colin]
I know that Allen is really
stoked to be doing this.

I just, I don't know why there
always has to be sharp objects

when it's just us two.

Chainsaws...

now we're making knives.

Hit it, Colin.
Get mad.

-[Colin] Is this it right here?
-[Allen] Yeah.

Boneyard, bro.
This'll be good.

-[Colin laughing]
-Come on, let's go in there.

-Hey.
-Hey.

Hi, welcome to Boneyard.
I'm James.

-I'm Allen.
-Nice to meet you.

-Colin. Nice to meet you.
-Nice to meet you.

Yeah, perfect.

So if you guys just want to get
some aprons on,

they're on the hook behind you.

And then when you're ready,
just make your way over

to the rest of the classes.

-OK.
-All right.

Baylen asked me to spend
some time with Colin today,

some bonding time.

So I got online and I started
looking up some things

where I thought maybe it would
be in my wheelhouse

to maybe draw him
into me a little bit.

All right, so,
welcome to Boneyard.

And we're here today to make
a Viking knife.

This is something that I would
never willingly choose to do,

but I know that Allen is really
stoked to be doing this.

I just -- I don't know why there
always has to be sharp objects

when it's just us two.

Chainsaws,
now we're making knives.

We have the bladed section here,
and there's also

the handle section,
which we draw out,

we twist around, and then form.
-This is gonna be great.

I have no idea what I'm doing.

I'm a little unsure
going into this

because we don't hang out
one-on-one.

Right there.

[Colin] It's just not
our relationship at all.

But I know how much
this means to Baylen.

[electric guitar plays]

This place is pretty legit.

Like, I could probably, like,
I could do an internship here.

Hit it, Colin.
Allen, get mad.

It's really cool to be able
to see how each step, it looks

a little bit more like a knife.

So I get that sense
of accomplishment that Allen

probably gets
when he makes stuff.

So these just need to cool
down now before the next step.

So if you want to just take
five, ten minutes break,

we'll get back at it soon.

-OK -- OK.
-Great.

[Colin]
Yeah.

-[Allen] No joke, right?
-Yeah, it's cool.

Really cool.

It's really important to have
this time together,

not just because
Baylen wants it,

but because I don't want Colin

to feel like he's always being
judged by Baylen's dad.

This trip to London has been
absolutely amazing

and an emotional
roller coaster.

A while back when we first had
our discussion, when I really

meant by -- I didn't want
to give you any false hope

like this was going to be
an easy relationship,

but I want you to know, like,
you're doing great, man.

I'm just more concerned about
the longevity of...providing.

That's all it is for me,

because if your life's not easy,
then neither is hers.

-For whatever it's worth.
-Yes...

Yeah, so, you know,
the plan is to still pursue

real estate.
-Yeah.

I'm excited.
It's looking really promising.

However, because
of this Neupulse device,

Baylen and I actually talked
about moving to the UK.

-Wow.
-Because to me...

it's more important to me
that Baylen...

lives a happier,
easier life than what I do.

It's not 100% decided on,

but it's a massive conversation

to have with Baylen.

Um...there is...

there's just a lot of hoops to
jump through,

but...
-[Colin] Yeah.

...I think that's...

that's pretty
f*cking honorable.
-[Colin] Yeah.

Trying to guide your kid
in in-the-moment decisions based

on emotions is...

is a struggle because
you do want to support them.

But realistically,
the path to...

moving to another country
is staggering.

[Colin] This conversation --
it's night and day compared

to the ones that I've had
in the past.

It's less of telling.

We got to get
our picture taken in this.

-Yeah.
-We'll send it to Bay.

[Colin]
So this outing was a step
in the right direction

towards having a better
relationship moving forward.

There, I've switched
it around.

-Are you ready?
-How do you --

there we go, we got our...
There we go.

There you go.
There's your knife.

-Congratulations!
-Look at that Colin.

-It's pretty cool.
-You guys happy
with what you made today?

Yes, sir.
This is amazing.

-Yeah.
-No, you did a great job.

You really picked it up well.

♪♪ I'm not gonna let you go ♪♪

♪♪ [indistinct song lyrics] ♪♪

It's just an amazing city.

[Baylen]
London's been good to us.

♪♪ I'm not gonna let you go ♪♪

I came to London with low hopes
that the device would work,

but it does work.

And it makes the future look so
much brighter for me and Colin

once this device
becomes available in the US.

It's why I need to just be

honest with Colin
about my feelings.

Me hanging out with your dad
yesterday was fun.

It makes my heart happy.

This time that Colin and my dad
spent together was almost like

a reset on their relationship.

And if that can keep growing,
then in the future,

I see us being neighbors.

Also told him
about the whole

real estate thing,
and, um...

Did he ask
for a backup plan?

No, I mean,
we really didn't get into that,

because I also
told him that,

because of the Neupulse device,

we have had conversations
about moving here.

Giving you a better life means
the most to me,

so that you can live
a happier life...

and be a mom in the future.

Then I'm fine with that.
So...

Moving here is not easy
as one, two, three,

pick up stuff and move, like...
-Not saying it is.

Nothing in life is easy.

And where would you work?
What would you do?

That's all the stuff

that we would have to figure out
along the way.

Would we do that
before we get married?

After we get married?
Like...

-After.
-Now we're just throwing

so much stuff
into this equation.

We're making every life decision
in a matter of,

like, six months.

And now you wanting babies
on top of it is...

It's about wanting a family.
That's what I want.

I want a family too,
but I can't do timelines.

I can't.

At the end of the day,

we have to have a family
on my terms...

because of my condition.

And I'm not ready to have kids
yet because of my tics.

Over the last six months,
I've definitely made

a great amount of progress
with my conditions,

and once this Neupulse device
comes available,

it'll be the best
tool there is to help me,

but all on its own time.

But I just don't want to be
pressured into having kids

three months from now,
six months from now,

a year from now.

No one's pressuring you.

OK.
Thank you.

I have definitely sensed
that Baylen has been dodging

and avoiding having
this conversation about kids,

and being direct.

It's just kind of like a relief
because it's super important

that Baylen is just always

honest with me
about everything.

I think right now the only thing
we really should be

focusing on and budgeting on
is our wedding,

instead of focusing
on 10 different things

in our future.

It's fine with me.

In this instance,

I do believe Baylen is right...
-Ding!

...given the fact that we have
a lot of things

going on
in our life next year.

-I love you.
-I love you, too.

Let's go meet up
with your family.

OK.

-All right.
-Mm.

-I love you.
-I love you, too.

Our wedding planner likes
to call us venue-broke.

-That's kind of what we are.
-OK.

Told us
to lower our expectations

or increase our budget.
-Increase the...

[Baylen]
I would like...

d*ck.
We have an ask.

Don't throw anything stupid
out right now.

-[Julie] Beautiful.
-[Allen] That is nice.

[Julie] OK.
That's iconic.

I think we're both feeling
a little bit of relief

and exhaustion as this trip
is ending.

Oh, there's Bay and Colin.

-Hey, guys.
-[Julie] Hi, guys.

-Hey.
-How was your morning?

-[Allen] What a trip, huh?
-It's good -- it's chilly,
though.

This is amazing.

This trip has been really,
really incredible.

-It's been really nice.
-Oh, gosh, yes.

-Some hope for the future.
-Yeah.

Lots of hope.

So would you guys, like,
were you being honest and that,

like, you would go back
and forth or, like, move here?

It's definitely a conversation
for another time,

but right now, like,
our main focus is the wedding.

-Yeah.
-I love that.

[Baylen] It really is what
it needs to be.

I love that.

That makes me
very happy to hear

because you guys are
a little bit

all over the place right now.

Very impulsive,
but it warms my heart to know

that my daughter's future
husband is setting himself

on the back burner and saying,
"If this is what you need,

I'll figure it out,
I'll do it."

I'm loving who Colin is,
like, really showing himself

to be -- I really am.

-And speaking of the wedding...
-Just zero in on that.

We spoke
to the wedding planner,

and our wedding planner likes
to call us venue-broke.

That's kind of what we are.

-Oh.
-OK.

You're bald -- basically told us
to lower our expectations or...

-Increase the budget.
-...increase our budget.

And we have an ask.

We would like...

your help with the wedding.

-Yeah.
-Just name it.

What do you want?

You want me
to build you a barn?

We want to save money with,
like, a cross for the ceremony.

Another thing,
the bridal shower.

-Like, I really liked the setup
for the engagement party.
-[Allen] Yeah.

I would like -- d*ck --
I would like the same setup

for the bridal shower.

OK.
I mean, I'm aching to help.

Shut up, b*tch!

That makes me happy.

-[Julie] It'll be fun.
-Thank you, guys.

I feel fulfilled when Baylen
finally asks us for some help,

because we just want to give,
and it's hard to do that...

if we're not asked.

Um, we also have a budget
that we know that we are going

to give every child,
all six of you, for a wedding,

so you can choose to give to use
that money also,

however you want.

We really wanted to figure out
all of this between us.

And I feel like when I have
to go to somebody and ask

for help, I feel like I failed.

But I knew that they would be
very happy to...

help us out.

As far as contributing
some money,

that's just a huge shock.

[Baylen]
I couldn't be more grateful.

There's one other --
there's one other thing.

Don't throw anything stupid
out right now.

-I know, it's not stupid.
-Let's just help
with the wedding

and call it a day.
-[Baylen] I do want to ask --

I do want to ask both
of you something.

You guys have both taken care
of me throughout my life,

and I only believe that both
of you should walk me

down the aisle...

for my wedding.
-I don't know if I can do it.

Oh, my Lord, God help me.

Oh, you were willing to make
fun of me afterwards,

like, "Oh, he couldn't
hold it together."
-I don't know if I can do that.

I think that's a great idea.

[Baylen]
You guys have both molded me

into the person I am...
-[Allen] You alright?

...and you guys both deserve
to walk me down the aisle.

-Oh, my God.
-[Baylen] I love you guys.

-Bay, that's awesome.
-[Julie] I don't know
if I can do it, Bay.

[Allen] Yes, you can,
baby...yeah.

-[laughing]
-Just walk slow.

Total shock.
I'm still shocked.

Like, I don't even know
if I can do it,

'cause I feel like
I'll be so overwhelmed.

This is...

Mm.

I'm better at, like,
making fun of you crying.

Well, I'm OK with it.
I'm like a professional.

[all laugh]

I'm very blessed to have
my parents guide me in the way

that they have the last
several years of my life.

Whole.

[choking up]

It's been a lot
the last five years.

And the only people that know
that are my parents,

so to have them walk me down
the aisle when five years ago

I couldn't even walk
because my tics were so bad,

It makes me feel whole.

Can we wear matching flannels
at the wedding?

Yeah.
Wear matching dresses.

We're learning how to walk
through life with her instead

of in front of her,
because this is nothing

we could have imagined
a few years back.

♪♪ This is all we ever wanted ♪♪

-♪♪ This is all we ever wanted ♪♪
-Oh!

-Oh, my God!
-Oh, my God!

♪♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪♪

Honey, honey,
you mean the world to me, OK?

[laughing]

-Oh, it sheds.
-Yeah, he does.

[Julie] Just letting Baylen
really take the wheel.

And not just Baylen alone,
Baylen and Colin.

Weenie.

This is what the queso
fountain's gonna look like.

Yeah.

All right.

-No.
-OK.

We're not even really in
the passenger seat anymore,

we're in the back seat,
and we're watching you kind

of steer your way
through the world.

But yell back to us
if you need us.

Yell back.
We got you.

Can we do a photo, guys?

Yeah, let's just do it
facing this way.

Just do it right here?

Sometimes it's easier to dwell
on the negative

and think about the negative.
-Yeah.

But what this trip
has reminded me of

is that day that she put

that Neupulse on her wrist
will forever be on my calendar.

I feel calm.

[soft sobs]

That's the reminder
I take with me from London.

Thank you, London.

One, two, three,
suck a d*ck!

♪♪ Living out loud ♪♪

-[Julie] Yay!
-[Baylen] Yay!

♪♪ Knowing who I am
and what I've got ♪♪

The last couple months of
our lives have been a journey,

a wild journey,
between wedding planning,

which we still don't
know what we're doing,

Planning on a career change

that it could also include
a move out of state.

Which is super scary to me.

All right, let's go
pack it up.

Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo.

There's a lot,
and it's just the beginning.

OK.

[laughing] What?

b*tch.

♪♪ Living out loud ♪♪

♪♪ Ooh ♪♪

[Baylen]
You little w*nk*r!

In all Nantucket,
they are wankers.

[Julie]
Oh, good God.