01x03 - Butterfly

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Boom!

Mr. Sparks.

OK.

Lucinda Price?

Have my drugs changed?

Olanzapine and Zopiclone.

Open.

OK.

You were early for our session today.

Nothing better to do.

Any further thoughts
on what triggered you?

It's been six months
since you've cut yourself.

Anything to do with Luce's arrival?

I like her being here.

But I hate it too.

You have a tendency to put other
people on a pedestal, Arriane.

Do you want to be like her?

You know, you can't really
crawl out of your life

and into someone else's.

That's not how it works.

It's just...

my mind...

it's so loud...

and confusing

all the time.

It just goes around
and around and around.

Like, should I have said this?

Why did she say that?
What did this mean?

Like, why can't I keep my mouth shut?

And the pain dampens the noise,

makes it all go quiet.

For a little while.

We've talked about other ways

you can achieve the same sensation,

but in a safe way.

Some people find it helps to hold

an ice cube in their
hand until it melts.

Or scratching.

I'm not a cat.

There is another method
that we haven't talked about.

The butterfly technique.
Have you heard of it?

You draw a butterfly

wherever it is that
you usually self-harm.

And in that butterfly...

you write the names of
the people you care about.

And then if you're tempted to cut again,

you have to cut through the butterfly

and through the names of your friends.

Hey. You OK if I sit down?

Sure.

I had this weird dream.

Well, it... wasn't a dream, exactly.

We got a photo from the laptop.

A motorbike accident.

Something happened when I
saw the picture. Like a...

a vision.

It was like I was there...

with you.

I could... smell the
smoke from the bike,

and I could hear the... noise
from the insects, the, um...

Cicadas.

Yeah.

It didn't feel like a dream.

It was like I was actually there.

I mean, you...

you tried to talk to me about it, right?

In the truck, after Cam.

You were on the back when we crashed.

You...

I died... didn't I?

But here you are. It's...

- I'm going crazy.
- Yeah, me too.

You know, I, uh...

I keep replaying that
moment with Cam, like,

over and over again in my head.

Now when I see it,

I'm not trying to save him, I'm...

attacking him.

Just like Howson said.

There was another resident. Cassie.

What, the girl who escaped?

Yeah.

She was convinced Howson had
been messing with her memory.

She said it was the drugs, the therapy.

My drugs have changed.

It's the same prescription,
but not white pills anymore.

I've been on those for...

years,

and no matter the packet,
they're always white.

Until now.

But wait, how did Cassie escape anyway?

- Had a chance and she took it.
- Right.

We took that chance.
Or at least we tried.

Yeah.

All roads lead back to Sword and Cross.

Where is she now?

I don't know.

Look, if Howson's
messing with our drugs,

that has to be malpractice, right?

If we can prove that, then
that could get us out of here.

Not just me and you. I mean all of us.

How do you prove that?

I don't know.

I'm... working on it.

I'll catch up with you later, yeah?

Yeah.

Don't worry, I can do that for you.

That's why I like you.

Hey, Molly.

Come on, come on...

Lucinda?

I'm sorry, I know I'm
late for my work session.

I've let them know you're with me.

Is everything alright?

Fine.

It's just usually people who are fine

aren't trying to find
books on suppressed trauma.

I was just doing a bit of research.

I'm having a hard time
remembering things.

Or remembering them...
differently to how I thought.

So...

It's common for people to
remember events differently.

Then how would anyone know
what actually happened?

Well, it depends on
how far you want to go.

What we think of as reality

is more subjective than
any of us can imagine.

The information we
receive from our senses,

mainly our eyes and ears, is limited.

The mind has to fill in so much.

That would mean that everyone
remembers things differently.

Exactly.

The past isn't a real, accessible thing.

It's a silhouette with shadow

that forms in the layers between
what we all agree to remember.

But what if it's like
I... I can't see it?

Or it changes?

You know who you really
should be talking to?

Dr. Howson.

Ah, thank you, Miss Sophia.

Take a seat.

I'm afraid that we didn't
get off to the best start,

but I do hope you will come to trust me.

Maybe if I understood
what you're planning

with my treatment.

The better way to look at it is

what would you like to get from it?

To...

be able to rely on my
memories... my mind.

So things aren't moving
and changing all the time.

Well, we can certainly
work towards that.

But we will need your cooperation.

And if I cooperate and my therapy works,

then is there a chance
of a reduced sentence?

Depending on your progress
and the choices you make,

we can certainly set a review
for six months from now,

shortly after your 21st birthday.

I'm in session.

Sorry to disturb you.

Excuse me. One second.

They've found Cassie.

- Dead.
- Where?

About 200 miles outside
of the perimeter.

There's something else.

They're bringing her in now.
She should be here about noon.

The residents are on a
scheduled trip to the lake.

They should be back at five, so there
won't be a problem with the delivery.

Well, uh... let me finish here.

I am... sorry, Miss Price,

I've been called away
on an urgent matter.

We'll...

pick this up...

another time.

Thank you, Dr. Howson.

- All residents, please...
- Hey, Cam.

What's up?

If you wanted something
from the outside,

is there anyone you could ask?

That depends what you want.

Roland can get bits and pieces.

Chocolate, cigarettes, small stuff.

But if you're after something bigger,

like a... Lamborghini...

- Or a helicopter?
- Yeah. You're out of luck.

Right. Thanks.

Gabbe.

Morning, Dr. Howson!

You should be in sector three.

I'm scheduled to be here all week.

You're no longer an EMT.
You must join the others.

If this is about the laptop,
I told you it was planted.

- You should talk to Lucinda.
- Do you have any evidence?

You're not better than everyone else.

Privileges must be earned.

Now, you need to start climbing
back up that hill, so run along.

Yeah.

Today you'll be hiking to the lake.

I remind you that, thanks
to the eyes in the sky

and your tags, those of
you who are wearing them,

we know where you are at all times.

Take a bag. Get into your pairs.

All residents are clear. Over.

Hey. Anything from the laptop?

As soon as I know,
you'll know. You know?

Cam said you can source stuff.

Can you get me a phone?

In exchange for what?

I don't have anything.
They took all my stuff.

It doesn't have to be stuff.

We can just agree that if I need
a favor, or cover, or an item

you acquire between now
and then, that you owe me.

You good for it?

- Yeah.
- Fine, then.

Next shipment's on the way.
It'll have to be next month.

Wait, no, no, that'll be too late.

Take it or leave it.

Oh, look who it is.

What? Thrown in with the rest of us?

Don't break a nail.

- You OK? -
Yeah. Mm-hm.

Alright, let's get a move on.

You ready?

Yeah.

Oh, sorry.

It's fine.

Just concentrate on the ground,

cause we're behind already.

I am trying.

- Oh!
- Seriously, Penn?

Get it together.

I hate hiking,

walking, running.

Beats sweating under a
hairnet in the kitchen.

Did you talk to her about the crash?

You gonna talk to me?

Last time I did, Howson
replayed it to me word for word.

Well, you know how Howson is.

And I made a mistake.
People make mistakes.

Especially me people.

You got the stuff on you? My
package is due later tonight.

I, uh, haven't got the drugs.

- Class.
- Since those b*tches broke in,

I've not been on normal rotation.

And today, I just... I
couldn't get access, OK?

So I'm gonna need an IOU.

- You don't get credit.
- What? Why not?

Because we both know
you're not good for it.

- I'll sort it out. I will.
- Don't give me that sh*t.

The rule's the same as always.
You give me, I give you.

No exceptions.

How's your head?

Devastatingly handsome, obviously.

Hey, do you know what drugs you're on?

Uh... Mexa-trilla...

Something with a lot of consonants. Why?

Doesn't matter.

It's nice to be outside anyway.

Yeah. Wait until you see the lake.

They usually let us swim there.

It's really beautiful.

What?

I'm totally capable of sincerity.

I can think things are beautiful.

What is it?

Nothing. Just forgot
where I was for a second.

Give us a hand.

Cookies. Don't mind if I do.

Someone must have seen something.

Maybe they caught it on the Reds?

Well, I'm sure you'll work it out.

You did last time. Either way...

- Hey.
- Hey.

How you doing?

Fine, yeah.

Hey, I'm the queen of fine.

Don't just give me fine.

Tell me.

I used to come here with my dad.

Yeah. Same spot near the lake.

I know there was only two of us,

but... you know.

Yeah, I... I know.

I shouldn't mope. It's been two years.

No, Penn, it's OK to still be sad.

You know, I learned that
from a decade in therapy.

So, yeah...

I don't want to be sad anymore, though.

I need to be tougher, like you said.

Oh, I didn't mean like...

No, no, but it... it's true.

Oh, that drawing's pretty!

What is it?

Uh, it's a butterfly.

My friend used to have one too.

Was that my name?

I hope you don't mind. I
didn't have anyone else, so...

No, no, it's fine.

I'm... I'm glad.

Alright, time to move to the lake.

If you haven't finished your
lunch, eat while you walk.

- Better get going.
- Not far now.

We need to take her downstairs.

Sorry.

Hey.

I need to show you something.

What?

Come.

What's going on?

I took these from Howson's office.

Do you remember him doing this to you?

No. The file I took them from,
I mean, it's only one file...

There's probably more.

This must be from where Cam got hurt.

And this...

This is Cassie, right?

What happened to her?

Daniel?

Cassie agreed to send a message
at 6 am every day until I got out.

She was my ride.

When I didn't make it, we were
meant to go back to the old routine.

I've not been able to reach her
since we got out of solitary.

- She's not replying.
- Well, do you think she's OK?

I hope so.

I asked Roland for a phone.

I'll call my parents
and see if they can help.

Luce!

We don't need the hassle,

especially with those photos on you.

Woo!

We need to try and keep
it together, alright?

They're watching.

Yeah.

Compartmentalize.
Don't worry, I'm a pro.

I'm going in.

You gotta try it once.

Woo!

Coming in?

Yeah.

Yeah, in a bit.

- No!
- Argh! No, no, no, no!

Argh!

You good?

Yeah, fine.

OK.

Woo-hoo!

Woo! Ow!

Woo!

Woo-hoo!

Woo-hoo!

Hey.

Hey.

Hey, man, great jump.

So, when did you start painting?

Sketching?

Yeah, that's what I meant.

Right.

Um... I don't know, actually.

I've got books and books
of the stuff, though.

Landscapes, portraits...

random stuff.

So, I guess, a long time.

What do you like to draw the most?

People.

Mostly people.

I read once that artists struggle

drawing parts of the body, like...

hands.

Woo-hoo!

Ears can be tricky.

Yeah, you know, sometimes...

...someone can end up
a bit out of proportion.

So you're going to sketch me like Dumbo?

That might be a risk, you know.

You know, sometimes, someone
can end up a bit... jowly.

You know, the mouth
and chin just massive,

sorta like a baboon.

Oh, my God, let me see.

- No, no!
- Come on!

It's not finished. Trust me.

I like sketching the eyes.

Trying to find the lines of the face...

...the smile.

You know, if you can...

catch the light in
someone's smile and...

put it on the page, then...

Wow.

It's beautiful.

Yeah. You know.

Oh, shut up. You barely
even looked at me.

No.

Can I keep it?

Of course.

Time for one more swim
before we head back.

Are you coming in?

Oh, yeah. I'm... I'm going to try.

Are you going to jump off the rocks?

Um...

Yeah. It's from the accident.

It's not pretty to look at, I know.

I don't know. I disagree.

Come on, you said it yourself.

Stop moping, start living.

You alright?

I'm going to jump off the rope swing.

Are you sure?

Mm-hm.

Why don't I come with you? Hm?

Right.

Just remember, don't let go
until you're fully swinged out.

Look up there! What's she doing?

- You can do it.
- You good?

You can do it.

Jump.

- What are you waiting for?
- Arriane, just let her do it.

She wants to do it.

Come on, don't be a baby.

Jump, jump, jump...

jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump...

Jump, jump, jump, jump, jump...

Jump, jump, jump!

Jump...

Jump, jump, jump, jump, jump...

Jump, jump, jump...

Something's wrong.

Stay back.

Stay back, nobody else in the water.

You're OK.

You're alright.

Breathe, breathe.

I'm really sorry. I
shouldn't have tried.

It's alright.

- Something grabbed my leg.
- What?

- Something grabbed my leg!
- Did you see what?

Animal or something?

No, it wasn't an animal.

It looked... It looked half human.

- Thank you.
- Yeah, yeah, of course.

Alright, enough. Hugs are gross.

Pals, I have towels!

Thank you. You're a hero.

Hey, you're bleeding.

You two, this way.

- Did something attack her?
- No, it's impossible.

We're inside the perimeter.
Get back with the rest of them.

I'm sorry.

Yeah...

Come on. Love you.

Arriane?

I'm sorry.

It's my fault.

I just wanted to help.

- You didn't know that...
- I'm such an idiot.

Why am I like this?

Can I help?

There.

Thank you.

Anytime.

Roland, I can't pay for the
phone right now, but I will.

Who exactly are you thinking of calling?

Look, it's private.

Back to your dorms.

I found another buyer.

What? Who?

Lucinda? Wow, OK.

What could she possibly
be giving you, hm?

That's private.

Right, OK.

You two, to the medical center.

Miss Miriam? I can help
with bandages, if you like.

Back to your dorms.

Was she certain that's what she saw?

Yes.

I don't understand how it could
have got through our defenses.

It must've been here the
whole time, near the Vellum.

You think it's been
here since the beginning?

Dormant? That's...

That's thousands of years.

If it's out there, we'll find it.

Miriam is sending a squad to the lake.

- Can't be a coincidence.
- What?

Cassie.

I don't know.

The prophecy says legions of them.

If one is here...

...more will be coming.

Come in.

Gabbe, can this wait?

You asked for evidence.

So, it's come to my attention

some of the residents have
been dealing in contraband.

I see.

Can you be more specific?

I believe that, amongst other things,

Roland is smuggling in a
phone for Lucinda Price.

I gave you evidence. You're
welcome to search his room.

I asked for evidence
regarding the laptop!

Um...

But you have given me
something of value, I suppose.

So if it's verified, you may
resume your Med-Tech training.

It's been a very long day, Gabbe.

Of course. Thank you, sir.

Hm.

There you go.

I'll get you some new clothes.

Luce?

Those photos you showed me,

I think they were
taken behind that door.

It matches, doesn't it?

Here you go.

Thank you.

Thanks.

Hey.

I think you're right.

They match, don't they?

Yeah.

- I'm going in now.
- What?

Wha... Luce!

Um, Nurse Ryan?

Yes?

I've got a horrible
sh**ting pain down my leg.

The bandage might be too tight.

No, let go of me!

- I don't want to hurt you.
- Don't, let me go.

Don't go in there.

Help, help!

Daniel!

Help!

Cassie?

What have they done to you?

It's coming for me.