01x08 - Day 229

[bunniefuu]

[discordant piano notes]

This land is your land ♪

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This land is my land ♪

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From California ♪

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To the New York island ♪

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From the Redwood Forest ♪

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Of course they're playing this song.

This is the corniest, touristy

Wait, you don't like this song?

I mean, sure, it's a little corny,

but if it catches me in the right mood,

it always makes me cry.

You think they're playing

this song to distract us

from the fact that we're 110 stories

above the Earth's surface?

I wouldn't know.

I got a 30-inch vertical leap.

I'm used to being up this high.

Come on, don't lie.

You're a little scared.

You're sweating through your shirt.

That's just the way

the light hits my muscles

underneath my shirt.

You know, it creates shadows.

Right, my mistake. Muscle shadows.

We also walked for,

like, eight hours today.

Yeah, well, we had to do

all the Chicago things in ten hours.

An hour of which we

spent not being able to move

because of Lou Malnati's.

- So worth it.

- That deep dish?

[together] So good.

I can't believe you

spit it all over yourself

trying it to fold it

like a New York slice.

This is Chicago, girl.

Yeah, well, how else

was I supposed to trick you

into buying me my favorite shirt?

I'm kidding. I'm gonna pay you back.

Hell no. We're days away from

electing our first female president.

Time to get excited.

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[children scream]

Grayson, Everett, stop it.

You really that afraid of heights?

- You really not scared at all?

- No.

- You wanna lean up against the glass?

- No.

Come on.

It's gonna be okay.

We're gonna get through

this together.

This land was

made for you and me ♪

♪

So you lied about

your fear of heights?

I was trying to make her feel safe.

Her or you?

Ben, dishonesty creates

distance, not intimacy.

I thought lying

above a certain altitude

was okay like international waters

but the sky.

I think that you are afraid

that she won't like you

The real you.

Can we focus on my stress ulcer?

I am.

You bottle things up.

You try to be optimistic

and strong to everyone

when you're really afraid and in pain.

Look, what is keeping you

from telling Annie

how you feel about her?

I don't know.

- I have an assignment for you.

- Therapy's got homework?

Radical honesty with

the people that you love.

No hiding just

speak your truth

and allow them to have an honest

and informed response to it.

Are you even a good therapist?

Like, I didn't Yelp you or anything.

Next week we can

discuss your use of humor

as a means of deflection.

So you want me to be

honest and not funny, cool.

You're still doing it.

All: Cheers.

- Ugh.

- Oh, eyes, eyes, eyes.

I can't believe how

insane this election is?

Have you guys heard about

him wanting to fire Fauci?

Oh, yes.

Everything's gonna be okay, right?

Annie, that's the 12th

time you've asked us,

and we still don't know.

I could hold a vote right now,

between Winnie the Pooh

and the Teddy Graham bear.

We could all vote for Winnie.

I could still make Teddy win.

Hacking is real.

I cannot take another four years

of the Teddy Graham bear.

Well, we just all need

to be Care Bears, all right?

And blast that g*y as hell rainbow stare

as far and wide as possible.

Look, I'm nervous too, but

I want q*eer and trans kids

to know we're still gonna

be here to protect them.

I can't handle watching

the results tomorrow.

Cameron's planned a

special, virtual date

- to distract me.

- Oh, that's so cute.

Seems like a weird day for a date.

You know, I've been fantasizing

about moving to another country.

I know Singapore imprisons people

for chewing gum in public,

but is that really the worst thing?

Or we can focus on

fixing this country

by getting people to vote.

Call me Amethyst because tomorrow,

I'll be working the poll.

- The voting poll.

- Yeah, no, we get it.

The rest of you are still

down to watch it tomorrow?

I need to be with people.

- Of course.

- Hell yeah.

- Absolutely.

- Yes.

Also I think Jazmin's

gonna join tomorrow.

Oh, now I've got FOMO,

but I can't cancel.

Cameron said he's

been planning this date

since the day we met.

Isn't that romantic?

- So four days.

- [chuckles]

You're funny, Ben.

Well, I'm grateful that we're

all gonna get together tomorrow

'cause I'm gonna need that

strong friendship network

to provide the proper emotional support

during this stressful time in my life.

Ben, are you dying?

It's cancer. It's cancer, isn't it?

No, no, no, I'm fine. I'm fine.

I actually started taking therapy.

- Wow.

- Oh, that's great.

- Wow, good.

- Good for you.

That's very good.

That's terrific, Ben.

Seriously, I know it's

probably hard for you,

but it is so worth it.

Do you feel like it's helping?

Kirby's cool.

He actually gave me an assignment,

but it's cheesy.

He said I bottle things up

and instead I should practice

radical honesty with you guys.

It's dumb, right?

- No, not dumb at all.

- No, of course not.

I've been radically honest for years.

I had no idea it was good for me.

Do me. Yeah, come on, do me.

I don't really think

that's how it works.

Come on!

First thing that pops in your head.

Let's be radical.

I don't feel

comfortable, like

That's avoidance.

You're avoiding, Ben.

I'm gonna tell this

Kirby person that Ben's

Okay, sometimes you're too

selfish and self-involved.

I'm sorry, um

Yeah, that was I'm sorry.

That was, like I

wasn't trying to, like

No, no, no, it's okay.

Good note.

Just processing the jagged, little pill,

and, ah, processed.

There, okay, see, nobody died.

Thank you for your radical honesty, Ben.

Really? Oh, okay.

I also think your

love for Julianne Moore

is weird and unwarranted.

You take that back!

That woman breathes fire and music

into all of her roles!

Well, I know what

you're gonna say about me

That it's hard to live in my shadow,

et cetera, et cetera.

Actually, sometimes

I feel like you treat me

like a child when

you're the childish one.

[mockingly] Sometimes you treat me

like a child when you're the

Am I the childish one?

You know what? I don't remember

asking to be CC'd on this email.

Okay, I'm gonna stop this now.

No, this is great. We can take it.

Of course you love this, Ellis.

You thrive on drama. Janice, much?

Are you calling me a meddler?

I am not my mother.

I have some radical honesty.

The Clippers should move to Seattle.

- Not the time, Garrett!

- This is a bad idea.

Come on, these aren't

shocking revelations.

It's fine. We're a pretty

self-aware group, right?

Be radically honest with me, Ben.

What, hair too pink? Clothes too weird?

Mayday Malone impression too on point?

Come on, tell me, what do

you really think about me?

Maybe another time.

Intriguing.

Well, if truth court's adjourned,

I'm gonna go look for

my non-weird outfit

for my romantic date

with Cameron tomorrow.

Wish him luck for me.

What does that mean?

Nothing, I'm drunk.

You know, schnapps is

really a sipping beverage.

Maybe try those liqueur glasses

I got you, Ben.

What did you mean by that, Ben?

Just that this poor guy

is probably k*lling himself

trying to impress you when

he's secretly terrified

it won't be enough, and you know what?

- It probably won't be.

- Somebody mute him!

Him versus your expectations

is not a fair fight.

Not everyone speaks in sonnets, Annie.

He's just a guy doing his best.

He's not one of your characters

from your romance novels.

I don't need him to be perfect, Ben!

At least I'm putting myself out there

unlike you who's too scared

to make a move or take a leap

with anyone.

[soft beep]

So this therapist, would

you recommend them or

[upbeat music]

Hey, I heard you blocked Ben

after our little truth

circle last night.

Yeah, he just kept

texting me apologies,

and I just I can't right now.

I just wanna focus on my

date with Cameron today.

Totally. It's election day.

Everyone is on edge.

I just snapped at Siri for

saying, "Can you repeat that?"

b*tch, hear me the first time!

However, is today really the best day

to be severing friendships?

Like, don't we all need each other

more than ever right now?

Can't you just unblock him

and at least hear him out?

Wait, is this meddling?

God, am I a Janice? Damn it, Ben!

What have you wrought?

First of all, the assignment

was to be honest about yourself

to your friends, not give

them a Comedy Central roast.

Secondly, I never said to do it drunk.

I needed liquid courage. I was

- Scared?

- Nervous.

Look, Ben, being

vulnerable doesn't mean

sh**ting flaming truth

arrows at your friends.

It means taking off your

armor and setting it down.

How can I take off my armor

if she won't let me in the castle?

She pulled up the drawbridge.

I'm standing at a moat.

Give her some space, okay?

Try reconnecting with the friends

that haven't blocked you.

Look, everyone is going

through a tough time right now.

This is not the time

to give up on people.

Besides, with a

friendship and a connection

like the one that you

describe between you and Annie,

I doubt she's gonna

freeze you out forever.

God, I hope not.

Man, I don't know if this

therapy thing's for me.

We're supposed to

have weekly sessions.

You asked for three in three days.

I mean, I guess I like some parts.

[upbeat music]

Wow, you look great.

You have no idea how much

I've been looking forward to this.

So what are we doing?

Oh, boom.

We are organizing our

closets like the Home Edit.

- [quietly] Oh, wow.

- Yeah.

'Cause I remembered you

said on your first date

that you love that show,

and you said listening

- was romantic.

- I did, I did.

I did say that.

- You hate it.

- What?

No! No, I love it.

I have a perfectly reasonable

expectation of romance.

- What?

- This is perfect. No, not perfect.

I don't need things to be perfect.

I love organizing dates.

Okay, then we'll see what sparks joy.

See, this can be romantic.

What about this coaxial

cable I stole from work?

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I messed up.

This therapy thing is

new, and I didn't mean

to call you childish.

Oh, it's fine, and

to be radically honest,

I have way bigger things to worry about.

Garrett's volunteering

at a polling place,

- and we're fighting.

- Why?

You know how I've been joking

about wanting to move

- to another country?

- Yes.

Stop sending me articles

about Prince Edward Island.

I don't know what that is.

I think I actually

wanna leave the country.

- What?

- But not Canada.

They put too many

animals on their money.

I wanna move to Portugal.

- What kind of random-a*s

- It's not random.

I've always wanted to learn Português.

It's like Spanish but you're drunk,

and Garrett loves oily fish.

I think we'll thrive there.

Hi, thank you for voting. Water?

Garrett, back me up

on this Portugal thing.

No, you back me up.

I think it's a ridiculous idea,

though there are some

beautiful properties

in our price range.

What's really going on here?

Oh, I don't know, the election,

RBG dying, climate

change, the wildfires,

Breonna Taylor, waiting

to see if the government

takes my uterus, my

brother, or my husband first.

It's too much!

I just feel like curling up into a ball

and hugging a stuffed animal.

I am not childish.

Look, is America broken? Yes.

Do I love an oily sardinhas assada

or a caldo Verde? Of course I do.

But we can't just run away.

And what about the

people who can't leave?

We have a moral obligation

to stay and fight

to make this country

better for everybody.

Do we though?

It's like what you

said about me and therapy.

It's hard, it sucks,

and sometimes I don't wanna do it,

but it's worth it.

And since when have you

been scared of a fight?

- Since I might be pregnant.

- What?

Michelle.

I know. I know.

It's early.

And maybe probably nothing,

but I might be pregnant,

and I don't know if I want to raise

a Black child in this country.

Is everything okay, sir?

Hi, thank you for voting.

Do you want some water?

[light music]

- Michelle's pregnant?

- Yeah.

And you're moving to Portugal?

You know they had a fascist dictator

- well into the disco era.

- Might be pregnant.

I'm just late and a little hormonal

and might be moving to Portugal.

Not moving to Portugal.

I would also tell you not

to move to another country,

but I don't wanna come off as meddling.

I am so sorry I called

you a meddling Janice.

You're not. I think

it's just the hormones.

I thought the pregnancy hormones

didn't kick in until later on.

Then it's just 2020, all right?

Listen, I know I try

to keep things light

and I joke around or whatever,

but if I'm being radically honest,

this year has been hard and lonely.

I need you guys, and I need my sister

not to move to Portugal.

I love you.

I love you too.

Also what's the deal

with feelings, am I right?

Okay, Seinfeld, what

did we say about avoiding?

Pradeep, I'm sorry

I called you selfish.

You know, no one ever said

any mean, honest things about me.

- You're bougie.

- You dress like a grandpa.

The way you describe

food is so off-putting.

You have too many V-necks.

Your mother makes the worst cobbler.

Thanks, guys.

♪

Aw, I can't get rid of this.

You're a little sentimental, huh?

No.

All this stuff is practical.

Like this old b-ball here,

it's for playing

one-on-one with the guys.

- Why is there a Post

- It that says "Aidan's ball" on it?

Because he was my ninth grade crush,

and I stole it from him so I'd have

something he touched forever.

But I can still play with it.

[ball thuds]

Is that an old Solo cup back there?

This is from a keg party in college

where my freshman

crush almost kissed me.

He was emotional, but it worked out.

We ended up having almost sex later.

[melancholy music]

♪

Maybe today's not the

day to empty my closet.

Let me guess

Another almost kiss?

Yeah, almost.

Why didn't you just kiss him?

Girls who make the first moves are hot.

First moves are hard.

Not really. All you

gotta do is show up.

Did I mention I live very nearby

- and just tested COVID negative?

- Yeah, you did.

So just show up, huh?

[upbeat music]

♪

Have you talked to Annie?

No, I'm giving her space.

Space is for insecure

billionaires, Ben.

- She likes you.

- She blocked me.

I turned down your offer of free,

live-in Manny services

so you two slowpokes

could finally hook up.

It cannot have been for nothing!

Why didn't y'all tell me earlier?

- I don't know.

- Oh, the drama was fun.

What took you so long?

All that stuff I said about

Cam funk is really about me.

I'm worried I'm not good enough.

Hey, that's my friend

Ben you're talking about.

I'll thank you to be nicer to him.

Sometimes you just gotta take a leap.

I mean, I didn't even really

have friends before you guys,

but I took a chance, and now I do.

And then I took another chance,

and now I have a girlfriend.

- Since when?

- Shut up, Rufus.

- Who your boo?

- You do not.

He does.

And her name is

Ellis Dominique Devereux Murmelstein!

- What?

- Shut up!

- Oh, my God.

- Shut up!

I might have been a little extra

when I was picking my new name.

Ellis, Rufus is your quarantine bae?

- What?

- Hey.

Sex amigos turned official

steady romance couple.

Whoo, pew, pew, pew, pew.

We're still working with him

on talking about physical intimacy.

I'm new to it, yeah.

Well, how did all this happen?

Well, I can't not have sex

obviously for all the reasons,

and I was talking to

Rufus about how I wanted

to go and find a

COVID-safe internet hookup.

And I told her that was

a contradiction in terms.

She should find someone that

she knew she could trust.

And so he offered to come over

and platonically help

me fulfill my needs.

And that proved to be

almost immediately impossible,

and we fell in love.

Oh, well, like. Like a deep like.

I'm really happy for you two.

Ben, you know, you can call

her and leave a voice-mail.

It'll show up in her

blocked calls folder.

She'll find it if she's looking.

I can't believe I'm

taking relationship advice

- from Rufus.

- Believe it, Ben.

Miracles happen.

The assignment was

radical honesty, right?

So do your homework.

♪

[line ringing]

[sighs]

- [phone beeps]

- Hey, Annie, you were right.

I was scared.

That day at Willis Tower, you and me,

those weren't muscle shadows.

That was I was terrified.

I needed to hold your hand

as much as you needed mine,

but when we looked down

at that city together,

I knew it would be okay

because I was with you.

Truth is, I've had feelings for you

for a long time, and that scares me

a hell of a lot more than any heights.

I it's hard for

me to be vulnerable,

so I work my a*s off not to be,

but I don't know if

that's working out for me.

This insane election, this whole year

has terrified me,

but nothing scares me more

than the idea of not

having you in my life.

I love you.

Kind of feel like I just sent a telegram

to the bottom of the ocean,

but at least I sent it, right?

I know you might not get this,

and I know it might be too late

But at least I tried.

Your friend, Ben.

[tender music]

[sighs]

[upbeat music]

- Jazmin!

- Jazmin!

- Jazmin.

- Hi.

What is going on? What have I missed?

Well, I started my own

hand sanitizer business.

And he hasn't gotten reported yet.

Pradeep yelled at a

food delivery person.

Okay, not my best moment.

- Oh, Garrett got arrested.

- For like five minutes.

Oh, and Ben got a stomachache

and then started therapy.

That's a gross oversimplification.

Michelle might be pregnant

and moving to Portugal with Garrett.

- Might be.

- We are not moving.

And Ellis is dating

Rufus. How crazy is that?

- I know, right?

- It's not that crazy.

And Ben finally knows that

Annie had feelings for him

- back in March.

- What?

Amazing, and also I knew all that.

- Ellis sends daily texts.

- I knew it.

- Ellis!

- I don't thrive on drama.

I just like to keep people informed.

I meant what

have I missed tonight?

Well, I finally told

Annie how I feel about her.

- [gasps]

- What?

- Oh, love wins!

- What?

In a voice-mail she

probably won't get.

- Right.

- Oh.

- Less incredible.

- All right.

Bannie.

Anyway, forget that.

Jazmin, how are you?

Better.

Things are better here in New York,

but still not great.

I'm still self-isolating

from my family.

I'm still pulling crazy

hours at the hospital,

and, I'm sorry, Portugal?

- You cannot move to Portugal, Michelle.

- Thank you.

You know what I love about you guys?

You are always there for each other

or as there as you can be, and Portugal

is not as there as you can be.

Michelle, I know it'll be hard

to raise a Black kid in this country.

We know better than anyone.

Is this country r*cist

Like deeply r*cist?

Yes.

But there's racism

everywhere, even in Portugal,

and probably racism you

won't even understand yet.

Don't go across the globe

looking for new racism.

Stick to the rivers

and the racism you know.

You can't leave the only

home we've ever known.

You can't leave your family.

And when Ben says

family, I'm inserting me

and the rest of us too.

We're your family.

We need you, and you need us.

- Absolutely.

- 100%.

Okay, fine. You convinced me.

- We'll stay for now.

- Yeah.

- Jazmin convinced me.

- Yay!

- Wait, Jazmin?

- I knew you weren't leaving.

I have been making

amazing arguments all day.

Yeah, but she's a doctor.

When she says things,

they just sound true.

Yeah.

Okay, guys, listen.

We will not only survive this.

We will rise out of it and

become something stronger

because we have to.

- [knocking on door]

- Um, somebody's at my door.

- You got my message.

- I [chuckles]

What message?

Then what are you doing here?

I'm showing up

at your door.

You mind if I come in?

- Yeah.

- Annie?

- It's Annie!

- Bannie.

Annie, you are just in time.

All right, the results

are starting to come in.

Buckle up, everyone.

["This Land Is Your Land"]

This isn't over.

No matter what happens,

our fight has just begun.

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We're gonna be okay.

We're gonna get through this together.

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Nobody living ♪

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Can ever stop me ♪

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'Cause I go walking ♪

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My freedom highway ♪

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Nobody living ♪

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Can make me turn back ♪

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This land was

made for you and me ♪

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