02x06 - Crushed

[bunniefuu]

NARRATOR: What you're about
to see may be dangerous,
ill*gal, unethical,

petty, misguided, immoral,
and most definitely stupid.

But it's also all true.

Hmm. Sort of.

-[BELL TOLLING]
-[WOLVES HOWLING]

BUNNIE: It was years ago
when this happened.

I was always taught
to respect cemeteries.

I didn't think we were messing
with dark forces or anything.

♪ [TECHNO MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

BUNNIE: I was doing
a pretty basic goth photoshoot.

-It was emotional. It was dark.
-[SHUTTER CLICKS]

LESTER: Beautiful, baby.
Darker. Darker, yeah.

BUNNIE: At one point,

I stood in front
of this very tall,

very old concrete cross.

♪ I'm cutting sound ♪

♪ Sharpen a blade
with a single... ♪

BUNNIE: I don't know
if it got bumped,

-but it started falling forward.
-[GRAVESTONE CRUMBLING]

-[SCREAMS]
-[THUD]

Oh, f*ck!

[MOANING]

BUNNIE:
I'm basically paralyzed,

and I realize, "sh*t,

I'm two and a half hours
from home."

Now I'm gonna drive

to Jacksonville,
but I can't feel my legs.

But we're gonna make it happen.

♪ [THEME MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

♪ [THEME MUSIC CONCLUDES] ♪

♪ [UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

Hi! Come on in.

Hi, I'm Bunnie.

I'm a born and raised Floridian,

and I am what is called
a Disney adult.

We're really just people

who can connect
with our inner child,

and really enjoy the magic
that is Disney.

But I also do things
like modeling, fire spinning.

I've hung from hooks in my skin.

And then doing a lot
of fetish videos.

Whenever anybody hears
the word "fetish"

or "BDSM" or anything like that,
they think of sex.

And that's not
what it's about at all.

-[MOANING]
-[CHUCKLES]

When I met Bunnie,
she was a dominatrix.

My name is Livi.
I am a yogi here
in Orlando, Florida.

The way that I met Bunnie,

I had just been introduced
to this particular local dungeon

to teach naked yoga.

She's walking in,

one of the gentlemen there
said to me,

"In order for you
to say hi to Bunnie,

you need to motorboat her."

So, I said, "Okay."

He grabbed my head
and put me right in
between her boobs,

and motorboat my head.

And then, that's how
I met Bunnie. [giggles]

♪ Jesus loves me, this I know ♪

BUNNIE: You'd never guess it,

but I grew up
in a very strict Christian home.

Amen.

BUNNIE:
I didn't have any friends
outside the church.

It felt like
no one understood me.

No one understands me.

So, I would go online.

♪ [EERIE MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

It was the only way
to meet new people.

You basically met people online,

but you didn't tell anybody
you met anybody online.

MOM: Bunnie, are you meeting
anybody online?

No, Mom,
I'm not meeting anybody online.

Nice to meet you. I'm Bunnie.

So, it was around 2010
that I met this guy, Lester.

♪ [GOTHIC CHORAL
MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

BUNNIE: He said things
that really spoke to me.

I only smile when I'm bleeding.

BUNNIE: And he had such
interesting things to say.

[KEYBOARD CLICKING]

We talked online and stuff.

We built a friendship,

or what I thought
was a friendship.

LESTER: Your darkness is
so beautiful.

BUNNIE:
My favorite color is despair.

LESTER: Gravity is the world
trying to hold us back.

BUNNIE:
Reality is too literal for me.

LESTER: Let's put the "art"
in "heartbreak."

BUNNIE:
The only thing I trust is decay.

LESTER: Every day
is an apocalypse.

BUNNIE: Every time I blink,
a moment dies.

At the time,
I lived in Jacksonville
and he lived in Orlando.

And that's when he asked me
to come down and visit him.

LESTER:
Abandon your life there.

Leave Jacksonville.

Come to a real city, to Orlando.

I don't know.

LESTER: It's your destiny.
You were meant to be...

worshipped.

That's true.

Okay.

So, I came down to Orlando.

♪ [WHIMSICAL MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

f*ck you, Jacksonville.

[DOORBELL RINGS]

LESTER: Hi.

Hi.

BUNNIE: I finally met Lester
in person.

He was a model as well.

Very feminine looking,
very androgynous.

-Hey.
-Hi.

BUNNIE:
And he also lived with his dad.

I remember his dad was like
an official Sith Lord preacher.

It's a cute place. Just you two?

-There can be only two.
-Master.

Like, Sith is actually
a religion in Florida,

and he actually was one.

[CACKLING]

BUNNIE:
But I kind of go with the flow.

[LAUGHING NERVOUSLY]

And I like to see
where life takes me.

Welcome to my studio.

♪ [INTENSE MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

Beautiful.

It felt nice to have this friend

that I thought was somebody
who understood me.

I understand you.

BUNNIE: Lester felt like he was
a kindred spirit,

because they were
so different looking themselves.

-You're so different.
-f*ck normal.

-It still wasn't popular
to be like this.
-f*ck popular.

And I felt that
it was really cool
that he was just himself.

f*ck...

everyone else.

f*ck everyone else.

♪ [DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

BUNNIE: He helped me
see myself in a new light.

It was cool to see,
like, such beautiful work.

LESTER:
Oh, that's it. Yes. Yeah.

-Yes.
-BUNNIE: You could feel
the emotion.

LESTER: Suffer for me!

BUNNIE:
And it was a really good escape

from my home world
and everything.

He pushed me out
of my comfort zone...

toward new ideas,
different beliefs.
And it just...

-[SQUELCHES]
-[SCREAMS]

-[CAMERA FLASHES]
-[GOAT BLEATS]

...made me so excited.

♪ [DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

Later that night we went
to a hotel room in a Motel 6.

I don't remember
what caused us to do this,

but we ended up
sitting fully clothed,

smoking weed
in a bathtub full with water.

-[BOTH GIGGLING]
-[BUNNIE COUGHING]

BUNNIE: Lester wanted
to roll another joint.

-We're out of wraps.
-No, we aren't.

BUNNIE: So, he said we should
use pages from the Bible.

Won't that, like,
open a door to Satan?

LESTER: Let him in.

It didn't really feel like
we were working

with dark forces
or anything like that.

♪ ["JESUS LOVES ME" PLAYING] ♪

♪ Yes, Jesus loves me ♪

♪ The Bible tells me so ♪

BUNNIE: So, the next day,

Lester invited me down
to do a photo sh**t

in a cemetery.

[CROWS CAWING]

[JUGGALO CHANTING IN LATIN]

-[DEMONIC HOWL]
-[GOTH-ROCK MUSIC PLAYING]

BUNNIE: Lester was very serious
about this photo sh**t.

That's it.
Give me dark, twisted.

BUNNIE: He even had
a weird juggalo assistant
helping.

Keep chanting, Hansel.

[CHANTS IN LATIN, COUGHS]

I said twisted. Come on.

Yeah, f*ck yeah.

I was raised
to have a respect
for cemeteries.

First off, you know,
we're not doing anything
disrespectful.

Desecrate it!
I said desecrate it!
That's someone's grandma!

Being back here again
feels really weird.

♪ [WHIMSICAL MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

This definitely reminds me
of the cross that fell,

but this is a replacement
'cause that one broke.

The one that fell on me
was bigger than this.

I found out later
it weighed over 700 pounds.

♪ [GOTH-ROCK MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

Lester had some photographers
that he wanted us to work with.

[CAMERA SHUTTERS SNAPPING]

Oh, f*ck yeah.

BUNNIE: It was really moody
and beautiful.

LESTER: That's it.

And I had my hand up,
and I was leaning like this.

f*ck yeah,
you're from hell, baby.

BUNNIE:
I'm not sure how it happened.

LESTER: f*ck yeah. That's it.
That's so f*cked up. That's it.

BUNNIE:
The cross started tipping.

-[THUDS]
-[LESTER GASPS]

Holy sh*t.

BUNNIE: It pinned me down.

Ow!

My hands were right here
as I went...

went down, all the way back.

And then as I hit the ground,
my hands went to the side.

Help.

They just stared at me
and did nothing.

-It's so...
-They called it...

...tragically beautiful!

-[EXCLAIMS]
-[CAMERA SHUTTERS SNAPPING]

"Tragically beautiful."

Help!

They just kept taking pictures.

Hansel, more fog, man! Come on!

[COUGHING]

BUNNIE: There was this moment
where it seemed like

Lester was actually
gonna help me.

He took my head in his hands,
and said...

Just chill.

BUNNIE: And then...

Hey, does this look cool?

I couldn't believe it.
Lester is just posing.

[BUNNIE WHIMPERING]

I'm getting my insides crushed,

and he still thinks
it's a photo sh**t.

[SCREAMING]

He's like this, and like this.

♪ [ROCK MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

BUNNIE: I remember
I was lying there, thinking,

"Why did this happen to me?"

How did this happen to me?

BRIAN: We all wonder
why bad things happen to us,

and sometimes it is demonic.

There's a lot of different ways
to open doors

to Satan
and sort of his kingdom.

-[CHURCH BELL TOLLING]
-My name is Brian Holmes.

I'm the pastor and founder

of MPowered
Christian Ministries.

You can open a door
through satanic rituals,
blasphemy.

Definitely smoking pages
of the Bible

is either something
led by demons,

or choosing to do that

will then open the door
to the enemy.

-Won't that, like,
open a door to Satan?
-LESTER: Let him in.

-[GOAT BLEATING]
-[DEMON LAUGHING]

I have three pieces
of equipment here.

I'll just set these here.

My name is Larry Lawson.

I'm the director
of the Florida Bureau

of Paranormal Investigation,

and the founder
of Indian River Hauntings, LLC.

These are going
to help me determine

if something demonic
or paranormal

was happening that day.

Is there anybody out there
who'd like to talk
with us tonight?

We mean you no harm.

We're here out of
the utmost respect.

[STATIC CRACKLING]

I'm just gonna wait here now.

You call out to me
when you're ready.

[STATIC CRACKLING QUICKLY]

BUNNIE:
Finally, I yelled at them.

[SCREAMING]

And I said, "Get it off,
get it off, get it off,
get it off."

Get it off.

[GRUNTING]

BUNNIE: They all tried to lift
the cross together.

-[SCREAMS]
-[LESTER SIGHING]

BUNNIE: And they could not.
So...

[GRUNTS, SCREAMS]

I pushed it off of myself.

[SCREAMING CONTINUES]

That whole adrenaline thing,
you know,

"Grandmother lifting the car
off a kid," is real.

-[GRUNTS]
-[CROSS THUDS]

I still to this day remember
it just being so light

to just throw it off,
and it just... [IMITATES THUD]
...landed.

♪ [HOPEFUL MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

BUNNIE: That night,
we went to the hospital.

DOCTOR: Hmm. How weird.

[TRILLING]

-Wow.
-Wow?

I have never seen anyone crushed
by a tombstone before.

That's a first.

The doctor literally
touched my legs,

and said, "Can you feel that?"

-DOCTOR: Can you feel that?
-No.

DOCTOR:
This? That's fascinating.

DOCTOR: Hmm. It's just awful.

To be honest,
I thought you weirdos
were just making this up

to try and get drugs
or something.

That's not the first time
I've had doctors

literally think
I was a drug seeker.

What kind of drugs
could she get? Oxy? Vicodin?

Okay. I can see where
this is headed.

He said, "Oh, you're fine.
You're just bruised."

-You're fine. Just bruised.
-I can't feel my legs though.

It's normal.
Bruises often lead to paralysis.

You guys should go out,
hit the clubs or something,

do whatever you want.
Excuse me.

Get out of here. Scat! Scat!

Hit the club?

♪ [SOULFUL GUITAR
MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

BUNNIE: And Lester said,
"So, I'm leaving."

-So, I'm leaving.
-What?

"Because I wanna dance."

Yeah, I gotta dance.
Today's been rough. [CHUCKLES]

You seem good.
Yeah, you seem great, actually.

So, drive safe.

BUNNIE: But I was like,
"You know what?
I just-- I have to go."

Come on, Bunnie. You got this.

It was about midnight,


I'm thinking it's about
a two-and-a-half-hour drive home

from Orlando to Jacksonville,
but I can't feel my legs.

But we're gonna make it happen.

♪ The silence spans forever ♪

It was kind of a struggle,
but I made it into the car.

♪ It was nothing more
Than the end of the world... ♪

[TIRES SCREECHING]

It was just kind of surreal.

♪ Hey, would you like to ♪

You got it, girl.

Yes, I was basically paralyzed.

I could not feel anything
from the waist down.

I could not move my legs

without physically
picking them up.

-[ENGINE REVVING]
-♪ Let's start a band ♪

BUNNIE: Honestly,
I did a pretty good job.

-Garbage day. f*ck!
-[GARBAGE BINS CLATTER]

-Oops.
-I mostly didn't hit anything.

-Oops, oops, oops, oops.
-[TRASH THUDS]

BUNNIE: This road is terrible.

It has one
of the highest death rates,

crashes, unexplainable things.

-[GRUNTS]
-[HORN HONKING]

Sorry!

All I can say is
I was very thankful

that cruise control was a thing.

And it was the one thing
that worked on my car.

♪ We gotta get out... ♪

Of course, I ran out of gas.
I pulled into the gas station...

[TIRES SCREECHING]

-...dragged myself out.
-[EXCLAIMS]

It was a struggle,
but I'm trained in taekwondo,

and they train us
to crawl and stuff
with our arms.

So, I was very well prepared
to drag my body around.

[GRUNTING]

-[BELL DINGS]
- ♪ [CHEERFUL MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

-[BUNNIE FLOPPING ON FLOOR]
-[THUDS]

BUNNIE: Pump two.
Actually, two of these.

-[TIRES SCREECHING]
-♪ Vampires forever ♪

Getting off of 95
to where my parents lived,

that was the most interesting
part of navigating.

-[TIRES SCREECHING]
-♪ And drive all night ♪

And you gotta go up the hill,
and down the hill,

and around the curve,
and around the other curve.

I'd hoped I could get home
without waking my parents,

but that wasn't to be.

-[GARBAGE CANS THUDDING]
-[GLASS SHATTERING]

♪ [WHIMSICAL MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

BUNNIE:
When they saw how hurt I was...

-they called an ambulance.
-[SIRENS WAILING]

By this time,
my legs were very swollen,
very yellow, very purple.

They did X-rays, CAT scans,
blood tests, everything.

-What is it?
-And they came in and said,
"She's broke."

-She's broke.
-I knew it.

She may never walk again.

I may never walk again.

And I had to wonder,

was God punishing me
for the things I was doing?

Is God punishing me?

It might have been that,
and also God sort of allowing it
to happen

in order to help her have
her wake-up call.

-[dramatic music playing]
-LARRY: Hello out there.
I'm here listening.

These documentary people
would like to know

if Bunnie was being punished
by God.

We might be able to hear you
through... this device

if you'd like to talk with us.

[STATIC BUZZING FAINTLY]

Doesn't sound like
there's a lot out there tonight.

With the facts that are
on hand right now,

I don't think it was
anything paranormal.

I don't think
it was God punishing anybody.

I think it was just
a terrible accident

where somebody got hurt
doing something they loved.

♪ [WHIMSICAL MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

BUNNIE: The doctor said,
"It's just a blessing

that your breasts are so large."

It's just a blessing
that your breasts are so large.

Thank you.

LIVI: The message I received
was that her life was saved

because of her voluptuous chest.

You wanna keep this? No? Okay.

♪ [UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING] ♪

What's crazy is I never had

any official therapy
or anything.

I taught myself how
to walk again.

And it pretty much worked.

The only problem is sometimes,
randomly,

you'll see me go to the side,

because my hip will just...
[THUDS] ...for one second.

I mean, she's changed,

but I still see her as
the gothic-style fluffy Bunnie,

you know, the badass, to me.
That's how I see her.

Real power lies
in not only finding yourself,

but accepting the person
who you find.

♪ ["SHE WANTS TO BE ADORED"
BY WINSTON GILES PLAYING] ♪

♪ Wrapped me up in fur ♪

♪ Tied me to the bed ♪

♪ She’s more than a tease ♪

♪ She really means to please ♪

♪ She's not to be ignored ♪

♪ She wants to be adored ♪

♪ She’s the queen of seduction ♪

♪ She truly loves to sin ♪

♪ She’s more than a tease ♪

♪ She really means to please ♪

♪ She’s not to be ignored ♪

♪ She wants to be adored ♪

♪ She’s not to be ignored ♪

♪ She wants to be adored ♪