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02x07 - Kona, Hawaii

Episode transcripts for the TV show, "We're Here". Aired: April 23, 2020 – May 31, 2024.*
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Featuring former Drag Race contestants, documenting the drag queens as they travel across the United States to recruit small-town residents to participate in one-night-only drag shows.

02x07 - Kona, Hawaii

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♪ ♪

[Waves crashing]

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

>> Eureka: we're here.

♪ ♪

>> Eureka: aloha.

We're here everybody.

Hi.

>> Shangela: we're here in the

Rain.

>> Eureka: hi.

Mood is cuz she's got her water

Shoe on b*tch.

>> Shangela: hello.

Hi.

She's in a flat, don't worry.

I like this.

This is very g*y.

I live.

Oh, I love how your

Umbrella matches your shirt.

That's fabulous.

>> Bob: hi.

What is going on here?

>> Shangela: that says surfin

a*s.

>> Bob: and it got donkey ba*ls

Down there.

>> Shangela: what?

Kia, but keokies.

>> Eureka: it's the chocolate

Factory.

Oh my god!

They've got a water slide.

>> Shangela: girl we're gonna

Have to suction off some tray.

>> Eureka: can we go down the

Water slide?

Shangela: oh no, don't

Suction the trade.

Never mind.

♪ ♪

>> Eureka: we're in literally my

Favorite place in the world,

Hawaii.

>> Shangela: we're in kona on

The big island.

Alohalleloo.

>> Bob: every direction you look

There's water.

>> Eureka: you can just feel the

Energy of the land; it is

Tropical paradise.

>> Bob: I've been to honolulu,

It's a lot more quiet on this

Island.

A lot less people, less traffic,

Less everything except the

Goats, way more goats.

Kona's a small town.

>> Shangela: there is though a

Beach that they call like the

g*y beach, I went there, six

People.

Look if there is a strong g*y

Presence in kona I have not seen

It.

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

>> I grew up in north

Kuhala, which is the northern

Most part of this island.

It's a very small town.

But I grew up immersed in

Hawaiian culture.

As a g*y kid I got called mahu,

I got called f*g a lot.

It was the late eighties and

Early nineties and everything

That I knew about being g*y

From when I was a kid was

Shaped by the A*DS epidemic.

I had no idea what a flourishing

Life as a g*y man could

Potentially look like.

What I understood as being a g*y

Man is that I'm gonna get A*DS

And I'm gonna die.

I work in hiv care and

Prevention and I feel like that

Was supposed to be my path

Because all of the work that I

Do now is trying to undo those

Years of mental anguish.

>> Eureka: knock, knock, aloha.

>> Ooh, hi.

Nice to meet you.

>> Eureka: nice to meet you,

Too.

I'm eureka obviously.

So what's

Your name?

>> I'm kekoa.

>> Eureka: kekoa, did I say that

Right?

>> Yes, yes you did,

Perfect.

>> Eureka: kekoa.

>> Yes.

>> Eureka: what was it like

Growing up here?

>> Um, generally good, I

Love my home, I love the

Communities that I'm in even

When they're really hard to

Love.

It's, it's basically I

Mean people know your

Business before you've said

Anything.

>> Eureka: small town energy.

>> Exactly.

I struggled growing up

In a small town you know, I

Remember really distinctly

Seeing the news and seeing

People sign waiving about you

Know h*m* is a sin

And g*y people get A*DS and

They die and that was my whole

Concept of what being g*y was

And so I didn't want to be g*y.

It's hard because you

See people from your own

Community saying these things

That are really hateful but

It's passed off and dismissed as

Something different right.

In our culture i, I

Identify as mahu I mean it's

Like, it's like having a foot in

Both worlds.

It's not so much like, not like

An orientation but more gender.

So we have you know people who

You know are born male but they

Identify as female and they'll,

They would be mahu.

Or even people who

Just kind of have like a

Fluidity to them and go between

Both which would be more like me

I guess, yeah.

>> Eureka: mahu, I love that.

>> Yeah.

>> Eureka: so, have you ever

Done drag?

>> I have.

>> Eureka: you have?

>> I have.

I did drag from about

2005 Until like two

Thousand eleven.

>> Eureka: oh really?

>> But I spent a lot of

Time holding up the wall at the

Bar so you know.

>> Eureka: what do you mean?

>> I, oh my god, i, I drank

Like crazy so at the end of the

Are gone, like.

>> Eureka: okay, so she got

Wild?

>> Yeah, she got wild.

It, I got such bad stage fright

Which is why I drank all the

Time and so I'm, all the

Performance I ever did I was

Usually hammered.

>> Eureka: really?

>> Like yeah.

When I look back on it I wish I

Would have committed more to the

Performance and the look and

All of that and you know.

>> Eureka: is there a part of

Your story that you want to tell

During this performance?

What is it?

>> What I would really

Love to share is my, my journey

Of recovery.

I've been clean and

Sober since july twenty fourth

Of 2015.

That has, is what has given me

The opportunity to live my life

In such magnificent ways that I

Could have never imagined

Before.

After I did find my way

To a narcotics anonymous

Meeting I've connected with my

Kuleana or my responsibility

Because I'm sober.

I'm hoping to really

Prove to myself that i, that my

Journey is coming full circle

And that I can do things that I

Used to do, but do them sober.

>> Eureka: so this is like

You're a brand new queen.

>> Right.

Cuz I haven't done

Drag my entire recovery I have

No idea what to expect and that

Kind of scares me a little bit.

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

>> I have a very special place

In my heart for kona.

I don't even know how to

Describe it but there's this

Magic on the island.

It's my hometown and while I'm

Not native hawaiian by blood I

Really advocate for the

Indigenous community because

There's so much that is sacred

On this island.

I have performed consistently in

Kona from even my childhood all

The way through teen years.

And I teach at multiple schools

For drama and dance.

I knew in my high

School years that I was

Different and had experiences

With both females and males.

I identify as bisexual but it's

Very challenging for me to be

Open with my identity here.

Back in the day there was a time

Where my mom definitely caught

Me doing something with a female

And we never spoke about it.

My mom's response is very

Similar to community responses.

Like don't, don't talk about it,

Don't do it, don't, don't say

Anything really.

I kind of shut down and was

Afraid to be open with my

Identity because I didn't know

What people were gonna feel

Like.

%

Úand I think that's why I kind

Shangela: uh, did somebody

Call for a pole-fessional?

>> Hi.

This pole.

>> Shangela: wow.

>> Hi.

>> Shangela: hello gorgeous.

What's the perception of pole

Dancing in kona?

>> Even in my family

There's a weird notion with it

And I think it's just kind of

Like that stereotype that comes

With it that people kind of

Think it's more sexual or more

Stripping focused and I've

Definitely been battling that

Especially with like

Pole you know because yeah

We're in less clothing and so of

Course I'm worrying of like what

Do people judge me and my

Body and I do identify as bi.

And so i, in the

Beginning what I constantly

Panicked about was that if

Someone in that room knew I

Was bi were they gonna worry

Like oh, is she gonna look at me

And you know because people

Always play that notion too of

Like well if you're g*y don't

Flirt with me.

Like I didn't tell you I'm bi

Cuz I was trying to have

A threesome I just said it cuz

You were you were asking.

You know.

>> Shangela: right I just said

It because my identity is

Someone who loves outside of

Just one the gender.

>> Yeah.

>> Shangela: and that's just who

I am.

>> Yeah.

>> Shangela: how important do

You feel it is to say that you

Are someone who is bisexual?

>> Yeah, I've been

Very trained to you know shut it

Down, you know, and I don't

Want people to be worried

About it or think about it

Because something that

Happens out here a lot is that

People hold on to things and it

Kind of you know makes me

Wonder about like if I do openly

Come out are people gonna be

Like, oh the bi girl.

It's that weird small town

Mentality of how do people

Communicate it and how

Are people gonna spread that

And so personally I feel like it

Shouldn't be the firm identifier

You know like i, I've done a lot

Uh, living here and I've done a

Lot for myself and for others

Uh I feel like and I don't want

I feel like and I don't want all

Of that to kind of just

Dissipate because now she's bi.

>> Shangela: I want to reaffirm

To you this is a beautiful part

Of who you are.

It is not the only identifier of

Who you are.

But you will never be able to

Control how random people whose

Life is about stereotyping

Others how they're going to

Respond to stuff.

When do you feel you are

You're most authentic,

Authentic self?

>> On the stage of

Course.

Everything that I've gotten to

Do on stage has led me to a

Greater chapter of life.

And I think yeah it's kind of

Those moments where it gives

You lift.

You know.

>> Shangela: that's beautiful.

And that's what we have to, to

Get to especially through this

Show.

In owning who we are cuz I feel

That you may feel that it's

Easier to blend in than to

Stand out.

>> Yeah.

Yeah, out here especially.

>> Shangela: but I'm gonna tell

You something.

Some of us don't have a choice

In standing out because it's who

We're meant to be.

>> I guess it's kind of

Our kuleana right, our

Responsibility to take that on

And normalize it.

>> Shangela: yeah, our what,

Say it again?

>> Kuleana.

>> Shangela: is that like a, a,

>> It's a hawaiian

Word for a responsibility.

>> Shangela: oh, my kuleana?

Oh.

I like that.

You're an awesome teacher.

>> Yes, oh my gosh

So I can't wait to see your

Moves.

>> Shangela: wait.

What, what, whoa.

My moves?

My extent to knowing about the

Pole honestly besides seeing it

In like the g*y bars and going

With it is like j-lo at the

Super bowl.

Okay.

>> So respect the

Pole, it will secretly respect

You back.

>> Shangela: I love it, okay.

>> Yeah, so anyway.

>> Shangela: so hello pole, nice

To meet, shangela.

>> So it's your dance

Partner, yes essentially.

Um, so try by just lifting

Yourself.

>> Shangela: oh, you want me

To start already?

>> Try it.

>> I'm here for you.

>> Shangela: no longer scared,

Shake it out.

Confident for a fish.

Here we go.

>> Yes, now knees

Together, yes.

Yes.

Keep going, yes.

You're doing good.

Yes, and then legs straight out,

Legs straight out.

>> Shangela: oh.

Oh my god, oh my p*nis.

Oh my god.

[Laughing]

I should have tucked before I

Came to the gig.

♪ ♪

>> Bob: hi.

Hey.

>> Hey.

Halo ha.

>> Bob: I'm bob.

>> Lanakila.

>> Bob: lanakila.

>> Nice to meet you.

>> Bob: so, what, what are you

Doing out here?

>> Oh, this is my

Community garden project.

The project that we do is called

Huli ka lima I lalo which means

To turn our hands downwards to

The land instead of waiting for

The hand out.

We can make it happen.

>> Bob: I feel like I'm in, like

I'm in the woods.

>> We call it the

Boonies.

Like the boonies.

>> Bob: should I help you,

Should I do some work?

>> Oh yeah, I'd love to

Get you dirty, yeah sure.

>> Bob: I'll do some work.

>> Come, come, you, you, I'll

Introduce you to a friendly

Tool.

>> Bob: this is so american

Gothic.

>> Right.

I was gonna say you're gonna

Have fun with that one.

>> Bob: oh my god.

>> That will save your

Hands.

>> Bob: listen, I don't, listen,

I want to get a little dirty.

>> Okay.

>> Bob: I mean.

>> You can grab it.

>> Bob: you know it's, I'm not

Green acres over here.

You know.

What should I do with

This?

>> So, you can stab

This thing.

>> Bob: okay.

People think that I'm like a,

Oh.

Oh my.

>> Natural.

>> Bob: okay, I can't have it

Back.

Oh my god, if my mom could

See me, she'd be like who is

This.

This must be really I mean

Important to the people

Who live here too.

>> It is you know this is

Very agricultural community

Yet, we have uh, so much

Western influence that takes us

Away from the land.

Our

Our ancestor, we've been here

For thousands of years.

Thousands of years and even some

Of the earliest ship logs coming

Into this land described how

Bountiful this land was and yet

Today with a smaller population

We can't sustain ourselves.

>> Bob: can I just stab this in

The ground or,?

>> Yep, perfect.

Give it some oomph.

>> Bob: fierce.

That's a serve.

What is this?

>> This is our ipu, we

Like to grow them for making

Our instruments our, our

Implement, the ipu heke that

We use in hula.

>> Bob: is hula like a gender

Thing?

Like hula's,?

>> No, not at all.

I'm, I'm a teacher of hula

Myself I've been a student all

My life.

Hula is such an integral part of

Our tradition.

We don't just choose things for

Esthetics everything has like

Deep meaning behind why we would

Choose certain plants for our

Leis.

As a dancer we're

Botanists, we're geologists, we

Become farmers because we

Know all these things intimately

Through the songs and the

Chants that we say.

>> Bob: keepers of agriculture

And culture in general.

♪ ♪

>> Bob: how is like q*eer

Culture in native hawaii and

Like how is it received in

Native hawaii?

>> Mahu, we were such

An intrinsic and, and in many

Ways normal part of society.

Um, in some cases kind of

Almost elevated to just in the

Sense of, of you have the

Physical of this yet you carry

The, the energy of this, so the

Ability to, to, to see multiple

Perspectives.

>> Bob: so is mahu just for

Native hawaiians or like am I

Mahu?.

>> We would describe

That's a mahu, yeah we're,

We're mahu.

>> Bob: it's really, that's so

Interesting because like you

Would be considered a butch

g*y.

>> Okay.

>> Bob: why do you, why you

Want to, why you want to get

Up in drag?

>> You know I've

Always been inspired on the

Bravery and for me I just want

To also express even in myself

As feminine.

It's an, it's another

Aspect of even for myself I

Haven't put out there, the

Tradition I come from hula is

Considered hermaphroditic art,

We sacrifice our individualism

To become whatever the hula

Tells us.

So you can be the biggest,

Brutest, strong guy but

If the hula is talking about the

Beauty of the woman and a

Delicate flower then you better

Feminine up.

>> Bob: to his best way.

You got to become him she or her

Them hips better not lie.

>> Yeah, and I think

Just being able to even be

Willing to show like no matter

What wells up in us that that is

Who we are, we all have a role

To play in our community.

For me it really coincides with

This continued cultivation of

Our traditional culture and our

Perspectives coming back to the

Forefront of, of guiding our

Communities.

>> Bob: well lanakila we're

Gonna turn miss thing out, we're

Gonna, we're gonna reach deep

Within and pull out miss

Lanakila.

[Laughter]

>> I'm frightenly excited.

♪ ♪

>> Shangela: I want to laugh.

You all got room for one more?

Hello.

>> Hi I'm raisa.

>> Shangela: hi, raisa nice to

Meet you.

>> Nice to meet you.

>> Shangela: and you are?

>> Uh, zach.

>> Shangela: zach, what's up

Zach.

Look at your earpiece

Matching my outfit.

You all picked me up something,

That's so sweet.

How do you guys know each other

By the way?

>> I was just kind of

Walking.

>> We, we were loud,

We were laughing and then he's

Like oh that sounds fun.

I have coffee.

>> There's and extra coffee

Here I might as well come and

Drink it.

>> We've been

Together for about two and a

Half years now and.

>> Shangela: you guys have

Been together for two and a half

Years?

>> Yeah.

And then raisa is like my hanai

So hanai is like a chosen family

They're like the ones who have

Kind of helped taken you in uh,

Either in times of need or just

Like if your family, your blood

Relatives are not necessarily

There you know.

And while we say we have friends

You know sometimes we need that

Feeling that like you can

Confide in no matter what.

>> Shangela: I know from my

Own perspective, coming out to

My family was one thing but

When I said it to my friends

What I felt in that moment was

I'm telling them this and I

Don't' want them to feel like

I've been keeping something from

Them on purpose this entire

Time.

>> Yeah.

>> Shangela: do you remember

The first time that jackie

Mentioned to you about being

Someone who identified as

Bisexual?

>> Um, I think she was

Nervous to tell me and there

Were a lot of tears.

I'm sure she felt like I don't

Want to lose you or anything

Like that.

It was less of a shock to me and

More of a like a, it's like I'm,

I feel kind of special that she

Feels like she could share this

With me and be that vulnerable

With me.

>> Shangela: how did the

Conversation with you happen?

>> Um, it was, it was

Actually like a few weeks ago

And it was like leading up to

This, and I could tell that she

Was like terrified to tell me

And her voice sounded like she

Has been like keeping the

Biggest thing from me ever and

To me it just sounded like she

Was worried that I would still

Accept her which is hilarious

Because I would always.

Remember in our first date when

I said I had been with some

Girls and then you were like oh,

That's cool.

And then you never like, like

And that, that was one of the

Things that got brought up in

The car too after I like was

Like so i, I just have to say

The physical words I guess.

What you brought up was super

Connecting in the sense about

Um, sharing with your friends

And I really appreciate you

Sharing all of that um, like you

Said like you're afraid that

You, you feel like you've lied

To that person even if they know

Or don't know and trying to

Figure out how do we make this

Normalized and not like

Something that gets suppressed

Again you know.

>> Shangela: right.

>> I hope that

Someone from here can see this

And be like wow, that is my

Home and like people here do

Accept that and people, people

Here can thrive in, in whatever

They want to thrive in.

>> Shangela: but it is still um,

A fairly, it feels like a fairly

Conservative space, you know.

>> Yeah, yeah.

>> Definitely feel like it's

Very easy since we're on, on an

Island in the middle of the

Pacific ocean it's easy to

Forget that there all these like

Worldly issues um, and so a lot

People don't like to talk about

It but it's weird because even

As somebody who's just an ally

It feels like because we're not

Having the conversation we're

Never gonna pass that threshold

Of accepting it.

Because it's just gonna be keep

Getting pushed off and pushed

Off.

>> Shangela: how comfortable

Are you feeling in this moment

About being so vulnerable on

Stage coming up in a couple

Days?

>> When I first joined

The show one of the huge

Breakdowns that I had was that

I did not want to physically

Come out on stage.

Saying something about it on

Stage is going to be the part

Where i, I've been practicing in

The car and I start like getting

Teary eyed every time and I'm

Like sh*t, it's part of like

This, like it's hard to say it.

>> Shangela: you got to own it

To yourself and that's a

Journey.

So just, just stay on it, don't

Give up on yourself cuz it's

Beautiful and you have people

Here who love you.

♪ ♪

>> This place is super,

Super heavy and important, this

Is waipi'o the valley of the

Kings, this is where some of

Highest royalties and our

Ancestors are from and so it's

Been a big, a lot of work for us

To come back and restore these

Places and we always humble

Ourselves before coming to this

Place.

>> [Speaks in native language]

>> So right here we're gonna

Gone onto my property up here.

Hi, baby.

>> Bob: hi.

>> Hi, aloha.

>> Nice to meet you.

>> Bob: it's nice to meet you

Too.

>> Welcome to my

Stomping grounds, this is where

I grew up.

We brought some snacks straight

From the farm.

Papayas, apple bananas, star

Fruit, it's called light,

Lychee.

Lilikoi, passion fruit.

>> Bob: lily, what can I bite

Into?

>> Star fruit.

>> Bob: just, just bite right

Into it.

>> Just bite straight

Into it.

>> Bob: so delicious.

>> You need to let it run,

It's, it's the best part to

Experience.

>> Bob: part of the experience?

I'm leaning, I just got to, he's

Got to let it, let it run, let

It run.

>> Mmmhmm.

>> Bob: these horses are getting

Wild.

They're coming for me;

They know I don't like them.

And they're giving me side eye.

I mean their eyes are on the

Side of their head but it's

Still side eye.

No miss thang.

Don't do it, mary.

How long have you two been

Together?

>> About two years

Now almost.

>> Yep.

Yeah.

>> Bob: do you identify as mahu?

>> I am yeah.

>> Bob: how was the experience

For you growing up?

>> I grew up in a really

Religious household and it just

Wasn't a very um, I don't know

Inviting environment in that

Way.

>> Bob: I mean what does a

Typical mahu experience like?

>> There's so much

Different ex, um, situations.

Um, I definitely feel that not

All of our community is, feels

Safe where they're at or that

They feel like they're safe

Within their family or their

General community.

>> You know my coming out was

Hella rough, you know my mom's

Hauli lady, she's irish,

Scottish from colorado and.

>> Bob: so your mom's just like

A white lady.

>> She's white, yes,

I'm hapa, my dad's hawaiian.

>> Bob: hapa?

>> Yeah, what we call

Hapa, kind of half, mix, mix.

So you know that you have like

Local culture where there's you

Know mahu was a little bit more

A regular part of community

You know the christian realms

And the churches it was a down

Sided so I just remember being

Told like I'll beat it out of

You.

>> Uh, I was just cursed out and

You know I end up having to run

Away from home.

>> Bob: how old were you?

>> Fourteen.

>> It was really, it was

Quite a, a hard experience I

Know, I know for me once I end

Up even having to go back

Home, it was just a lot of real

Negative coming at me from my

Family and would always just

Like insult me and come up with

Some real you know like f*gg*t

Jokes and all kind of stuff and

After a little while my claws

Came out and the only way I

Could make it and I felt like I

Was able to do that was to

Become a real b*tch.

You know I had to be very

Defensive to get them to you

Know just kind of push

Back whenever they tried to

Insult me.

>> Bob: lanakila was bullied and

Teased, for being feminine and

For being g*y.

Lanakila's having a hard time

Expressing his femininity but

Also it's really interesting cuz

He really reveres it in other

People.

>> Mahalo, everybody, these are

My two titas that are joining us

Today.

This is miss

Hawane rios and miss

Kaumakaiwa kanacka ole.

>> Just wanted to offer

You this prayer shall from our

Ohana cuz now we are all

Ohana and so this is how we say

That we stand in solidarity with

Amona.

>> If I'm mahu then I

Have a responsibility to use the

Multiple perspectives that I can

Carry within myself to help my

People, to protect our land, to

Protect sacred sites, that's

What is the mahu for me.

>>The big struggle that we're

Facing on the maona is continued

Degredation and destruction to

The summit.

Predominantly through giant

Telescope construction.

There's currently thirteen large

Telescopes on the summit of the

Mountain and if continued to

Just cut into this space which

Is held sacred to us.

>> With maona kia the

Government is still severing the

Tops of our sacred hills but one

Day when the machines were

Going up I was like screw that

And I drove up that mountain,

They had me blocked at the

Bottom, I said screw you get

Out of the way and I ran up

Thirteen thousand feet to stop

Them.

Now it has become the

Largest movement in the history

Of hawaii.

>> During the heights

Of the most recent stand in two

Thousand nineteen you had

Thousands upon thousands of

People coming here on this

Place to hold the frontline to

Shut down and block

Construction crews.

>> This front line stand

2015 All the till now you can

See so

Many people becoming

Unapologetically proud you

Know to just be who we are and

So many mahu at the forefront

Of that.

>> This is a q*eer movement we

Are sort of born anarchists.

>> Bob: yeah, born against the

System.

>> Which is why at no time, he

Ran this, this is what, this is

What lanakila ran up, from, from

That, straight up.

♪ ♪

>> Bob: welcome.

We're here in our safe space on

The beach.

Find a comfy seat.

>> Shangela: did you all

Actually know each other before

This, did any, did you all,?

>> Yes, we, we've all

Intersected at one point or

Another.

>> Bob: what is everyone's

Experience with drag here?

>> Modern drag, your medium is

Sort of the more contemporary

Medium of what ritual

Transformation would have been

In hawaii.

>> The hula we're

Learn, we're trained to

Transform and be able to call

Ourselves back too.

But we always come back a little

More richer, with a little bit

More ooh, I'm gonna keep a

Little bit of that.

>> Eureka: yes, I love that.

Kekoa actually used to

Do drag.

She hasn't done drag

Since she used.

>> You know it's like this

Time I get to fully experience

It whereas I kind of robbed

Myself of that chance before.

>> Bob: we have so many dancers

Here.

>> Shangela: well and I was

Gonna say and jackie's

Experience with dance is also

She comes from a musical

Theater background and a really

Unique way that she is being a

Part of our show here and part

Of this experience is because.

>> I'm bi.

>> Shangela: yay, all right.

>> We're saying.

No, we're saying it.

>> Shangela: and just know that

You're in a safe space and you

Are going to be embraced

Especially.

>> Thank you guys.

>> Eureka: and we're proud of

You, you know, we're proud of

You.

>> Thank you, that means a lot.

>> Eureka: as, as people, as

Mooha people.

>> Bob: mahu.

>> Eureka: ma, oh mahu, i,

Maybe I'm just mooha.

>> That's a good name.

[Laughter]

>> I was just talking to

My partner about this show

Because I was just like if we

Had this you know when we

Were younger, it would have

Been such a different journey

Coming into our own mahu, our

Own alanae, our own queerness

You know like I didn't even

Think it was a possibility for

Me when I was younger to be

q*eer and then seeing so many

Of us just being it's just so

Beautiful to know that our kama

Our next generation will know

And be able to just be in who

They are.

>> Group hugs everyone, that's

So sweet.

That's so beautiful.

>> Shangela: bring it in.

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>> Shangela: this is jackie.

>> Hi.

>> Shangela: welcome to the

Glam squad.

Luscious is queen of makeup as

You can tell right, the girls.

Gloria, she's on hair

And this is diego wardrobe and

Costume extraordinaire.

>> Like a more fabulous wonder

Woman.

>> So we're thinking of doing a

Very high pony.

>> Wow, oh my gosh.

>> And making it sexy and

Something that you can really

Like whip around.

>> We're gonna be doing body,

Body, body, body, body.

>> Do I fit in that?

>> Bob: you know what it means

To be snatched?

When you're snatched?

>> Oh.

>> Pull me in.

Make me skinny.

>> Snatch you up.

>> Bob: when your waist is

Snatched is when you're given

That, and then the.

>> That hourglass.

>> Bob: there you go.

>> Shangela: let me throw some

Terms out here and let you give

Me the first thing that comes to

Mind.

Okay.

>> Okay, oh no.

>> Shangela: work.

>> Eureka: give me a little

Strut.

>> Shangela: the girls said

Trade.

>> Bob: this is a good look.

You're gonna pull some, pull

Some trades this is like.

>> Pull some trade

Honey.

>> Shangela: what about, she is

Serving fish?

>> Eureka: oh.

>> Yeah.

>> Eureka: the body is going to

Be so correct.

>> I want to do something really

Colorful and like very dramatic.

Sunset disco drag.

>> Bob: you are gonna be like

Dusted.

Dusted usually refers to

Basically the amount of makeup

You have on.

You put on like a

Lot of dusty stuff, powder,

Shimmer, blush and you're like

Dusted, you're finished, you're

Beat.

You will be so dusted the

Children will be gagging because

You'll be serving the house

Down boots.

Are we not all speaking the same

Language here?

>> Yeah, right, welcome

To north american h*m*

101.

>> Eureka: should we take her

Out.

Work.

>> Wait, just give me a

Minute.

>> Eureka: live, no live in it,

Hold on.

>> I just want to look.

Wow.

I feel pretty.

I never thought that I would do

Drag again you know.

And I'm here.

Holy f*ck, I'm here.

>> Eureka: it's so cute.

Oh.

>> Using meth helped me

Escape from feeling shitty about

Myself.

Using and sex and drag

Just went hand and hand for

Me.

I was doing it with dates

And tricks you know.

I went downhill really quickly

And before I knew it I was

Homeless.

I was sleeping on the beach.

And I think I was homeless for

About three years.

I really hope this turns

Out well, and not like how I'm

Afraid it could, but I won't

Give that thought power.

I want good, I deserve good and

Good is what will be.

But I have doubt, I have doubt

In whether or not I'm a good

Person.

[Crying]

I know I do good things and I

Know I've done a lot of bad

Things.

I know I only have the best of

Intentions but the road to hell

Is paved with good intentions.

>> Eureka: well how does it feel

To be back in here?

>> It's hard because I read

It and I go right back to what

It felt like to write it in that

Moment.

[Crying]

>> Eureka: it's okay.

>> And to feel like absolute

sh*t.

[Crying]

You know my older brother used

To call me fat and so that kind

Of gave me kind of a complex.

Drugs made it easy for me to

Forget about that and also made

It easy for me to get skinny.

You know I thought that I would

Feel better about myself when I

Lost weight and I didn't, the

Problems were still there you

Know.

>> Eureka: I'm curious, have any

Of those insecurities went away

Since you've been sober?

>> A lot of insecurities

Still live inside of me.

Like when i, whenever I get like

In the shower, I think to myself

God, I can't believe that you

Let it get this far.

You know I see it and I turn.

I don't like to deal with it.

>> Eureka: how does drag help

Build confidence, do you know?

>> Oh my god, like drag

Gave me the opportunity to

Present what I wanted, you

Know.

I had the, the opportunity to,

To control how people saw me.

I'm really curious to know like

How different I'm going to be

Come show day I want to know

What it's gonna feel like

Walking on to that stage and

Hearing the audience and

Actually doing the performance.

I want to, I want

To experience that because I

Never did, you know I've never

Done it sober, I've never done

It without being high.

[Crying]

And it still breaks my heart to

Think about it.

You know?

>> Eureka: you have to forgive

Yourself.

It's okay.

It's okay, let it out.

There you go.

>> Thank you.

>> Eureka: thank you.

That sigh of relief.

It's okay to let it out.

>> Yeah.

You know that's why I

Feel like doing the drag show.

I want to remember who the f*ck

I am.

I don't' want to see the

Drug addict who struggled, I

Want to see the, I want to see

The recovering drug addict who

Survived and who thrived.

>> Eureka: and you are thriving

And surviving.

And you are gonna be fierce.

>> That's right.

>> Eureka: that's for damn sure.

I'm proud of you.

>> Thank you.

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>> Eureka: so we're gonna

Rehearse.

>> Am I gonna sweat?

>> Eureka: oh yeah you're

Gonna, well look at this sweaty

b*tch.

Hey.

>> Yes.

>> Bob: one of my favorite thing

That drag queens do is like

When we like walk out allowing

Literally, keep that word in

Mind, allowing, the audience to

Stare at you.

You are giving them the benefit

Of just looking at you, those

Lucky m*therf*ckers.

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>> In the basket it, woo,

Step right, left.

>> Five, six, seven eight.

Up, hold on.

>> Opposite, opposite foot,

Right.

>> Step and eight and

One, yeah.

>> Can you please lead me?

>> You're fine don't

Worry.

>> Eureka: start over.

>> Start over.

>> This is an iconic

Shangela move.

Crack.

>> Shangela: oh, I love that.

>> Yes.

So you go crack,

And you can bring that foot in a

Little bit more as well.

Yeah, let me see, let me see

From the top, ready.

♪ ♪

>> Three, four, five.

One, two.

>> Shangela: uh, ha.

>> She's there, she's

There.

>> I got it, I got it?

>> You got it, you got it.

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>> Bob: all the way, it's all

The way out, there it is yeah.

>> Remember you're a

Lady as well.

So like this is the masculine

Pose but you want to kind of

Like bring it all the way up.

♪ ♪

>> Up, up, down, down,

Good, up, up, down, down,

Lovely.

>> Eureka: mama got to get her

Baby, honey.

♪ ♪

>> Eureka: ahhhh!

>> Yes.

♪ ♪

>> Let's go!

>> Eureka: hey!

Okay, b*tch.

>> Bob: we were moving.

>> Good job.

>> Bob: that was very powerful.

I felt very powerful.

That was great.

Girl, she is...

>> She's done, how many

Steps?

>> Bob: um, four thousand steps.

♪ ♪

>> You guys are gonna

Start off right here and our

First motion is to gonna drop

Down.

[Singing]

[Drums]

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>> There was one point in time

In our journey as kanacka where

Our hula was banned, it was

ill*gal to dance.

And so I always say every time

We chant and every time we

Dance that somebody never

Stop dancing so that we could

Be here.

So many mahu people are the ones

That were the story keepers

Throughout time and space and

Someday somebody is gonna look

At the way that we continue

These stories and someone's

Gonna say I see me in this

Moment.

[Chanting]

>> And that's how

You spell lgbtqia plus in

Hawaii.

[Cheers and applause]

>> Bob: work.

♪ ♪

>> Morning, morning.

Excited.

♪ ♪

>> There's no turning back now,

We're doing drag tonight,

Ladies.

>> Ooh.

>> Okay, let's just get it over

With.

It's the art of drag.

♪ ♪

>> Eureka: work.

I love the little fish mug; this

Is huge though.

>> I know I love it.

>> Eureka: b*tch, how does it

Feel to be getting back in drag?

>> It feels amazing.

>> Eureka: yeah.

>> It, and it feels really

Special, like genuinely special.

♪ ♪

[Cheers and applause]

>> Bob: hello, kona, how are

You?

You are listening to the smooth

Sultry voice of bob the drag

Queen.

[Cheers and applause]

In aligning with hawaiian

Tradition please welcome eva,

Hawane, aila and laah.

[Cheers and applause]

[Chanting]

[Singing]

[Cheers and applause]

>> Our last kinkulaka would say,

Hula is the heartbeat of the

Hawaiian people.

Hula is that language.

In some ways I would say drag is

The language of the mahu.

[Applause]

>> I'm back, you know?

I've overcome so much.

Drag helped me feel beautiful, I

Want to reconnect with that

Piece.

I want to know that I'm

Fabulous, I want to know that

I'm fierce and I want to show it

Off.

>> Shangela: please welcome to

The stage, the lovely miss

Eureka o'hara and her newest

Drag daughter, miss nahay.

Give it up for them you

All.

[Cheers and applause]

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>> Eureka: b*tch, you all give

It up for miss nahay o'hara!

The only professional.

[Cheers and applause]

>> I am so overwhelmed.

[Crying]

>> Eureka: it's okay, baby, it's

Okay.

>> It's been so long since I've

Been able to do anything like

This, you know.

I've been sober, clean and

Sober, for six years and this is

The first time, this is the

First time in my sobriety that I

Have gotten to do drag.

We're here, b*tch.

>> It's gonna be a

Unique journey being out and

Comfortable with being bi.

I'm terrified to do this but

This is kind of a chance to

Share a story that I haven't

Gotten to share and that I hope

Will empower others.

>> Bob: please give it

Up for shangela laquifa

Wadley.

And matrix marley.

>> Shangela: oh.

You all better make some noise.

[Cheers and applause]

>> [Singing]

There is something I would like

To tell you, I figured it out

Some time ago.

I feel great, it makes me

Really happy, and I love you so

I'd love for you to know.

Have you heard of lgbtq plus,

Well I am the b.?

I have a heart that could love

Plural genders yes, I'm bi and

I'm proud to be me.

[Cheers and applause]

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>> It has been quite a journey,

I'm so grateful for everyone

Here in supporting, this is my

Official coming out.

[Cheers and applause]

So only very, very, very, few

People know in my life and so

It means the world for you all

To be here and share this

Moment.

If there's anything that this

Journey has taught me it's that

There's going to be a family out

There that does love you, it

Will come and it will take some

Time.

I love you all.

[Cheers and applause]

>> My position has been one of

The leaders on the mountain and

Being mahu I have to be

Vulnerable to my community.

I pull all my masculine energy

To be that warrior standing

There, I pull all my feminine to

Do drag.

It ignites and supports

Everybody else to come up.

I'm a face that many people are

Looking to.

For kanacka, I would want them

To still see me and see the

Hawaiian coming out like this.

>> Eureka: I would like to

Welcome to the stage my

Good sister bob the drag queen

And her daughter frita ina.

[Cheers and applause]

Hey.

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>> Bob: soak it in.

Soak it in.

Yes.

Turns into a total diva.

Gets in drag once.

Take it away, baby.

>> [Speaks in hawaiian]

This journey has been so

Powerful, just looking at

Another form of transformation,

Another, another realm of

Transcendence and we come in so

Many shapes and colors so from

The mud of waipio to this

Glamour.

[Speaks in hawaiian]

[Cheers and applause]

>> Shangela: how do you feel?

>> Excited.

>> Shangela: yes.

>> I mean I still am

Awkward and still shy but I

Think it's allowed me to accept

Me and being me and, and

Realized that if I can't be me

Then it's not worth it you know.

>> I feel incredible.

I feel like, like I had a

Release of some kind.

Like I can't even really

Describe it, like it just

Feels good.

You know?

>> Bob: it's been really

Humbling to be taught so much by

Some people who have a lot of

Reference for what it is they're

Sharing.

q*eer culture is more than just

Like being a little monster.

>> May we continue to fight the

Good fight.

>> Ay, oh, and we'll do

It fabulously.

Yes.

>> Bob: it's a sense of

Connection with their past but

Also like a sense of

Responsibility to uplift

Each other and that activism

And community building and

Chosen family.

We need people like this

Because then everyone else

Gets to see it.

>> One more thing.

>> It's a halo.

Halo.

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