01x09 - Social Media Is a Great Way to Connect

[bunniefuu]

Hey, mate.

Oh, hey.

You all right?

Yeah.

- Sure?

- Yeah, just tired.

- Yeah. You all right?

- Yeah, good.

Oh, Happy Halloween.

You too.

"What about me?"

"Why can't we have

a white history month?"

"Oh, what if we had

a straight pride day?"

"Why can't we have a men's day?"

Whining, temper tantrums,

like f*cking

little fragile children.

We get a day, you get a lifetime

knowing that you are likely

to walk free

from r*pe.

So shut the f*ck up.

This is why I be hating

straight white guys,

and y'all are making it

really hard for me

to change my mind.

Rah.

Doxing.

So, um,

the readings have come back fine

on the CT Scan.

Um, in regards to that,

everything's in order.

- Really?

- Yay!

Your blood pressure results,

however, are

Sorry, one sec.

As you know,

you can't give peace

unless you have peace.

I had a CT scan to check in

with the mind.

So for anybody

who thinks I'm crazy

for having Insta

and Twitter wars with rapists

and life-destroyers every day,

you can relax.

I have the all-clear, yay!

Besides, it's not every day.

Thursday, I'm sat with

my pum-pum on your dad's face.

Ask him. I care for him,

I care for me.

Care of self.

Self-care.

I encourage you all

to manifest it

into your daily lives.

Hold tight the NHS,

hold tight bae

for booking my appointment.

Oh, hey, snuggle bunnies,

it's me,

at therealterrypratchard.

Be good to those who love you

'cause those who love you

are good to you.

Or trick a m*therf*cker

'cause it's Halloween, b*tches.

Back in the room. Sorry.

Uh, so, yes.

Uh, you will need

to monitor that.

- What?

- The blood pressure.

- Oh.

- The higher

the blood pressure,

the bigger the knock-on effect

on the kidneys,

which are already

at an elevated risk

due to your being

of Afro-Caribbean origin.

Um, are there any new stresses

That was racial ignorance.

I'm not Afro-Caribbean.

I'm actually African.

There's a unity

and a distinction

between those places,

and as a London doctor,

you should be aware

of those things

to avoid generalizing

people of color

and accidentally becoming

a deeply problematic member

of your profession.

I'm sorry, it's just the term

used on the reports.

If it's got something to do with

the form you keep pointing to,

maybe tell the big boss

of the pharmaceutical

neuro-whatnot

to change the form.

- Who makes the form?

- Who makes the

I just want them

to tell me what they mean

by "Afro-Caribbean,"

given it's not where I'm from

and it's used to describe

my origin.

I I don't know.

Is that the extent

of your diagnosis?

"Hello, Arabella,

you're Caribbean

and I don't know?"

So,

why is her blood pressure high?

That's what I don't know.

- She doesn't smoke?

- No, just vapes now. That's it.

What?

Well, vaping isn't

Do you agree that vaping

is better than smoking?

- Well, yes, but

- Then that's all we need

to say about it.

But if there's a predisposition

to kidney problems,

then it's better just to get rid

of the vape completely.

Doc, I think my friend

is stressed.

- Do you confirm?

- Yes.

And the r*pes, stressful,

do you confirm?

Yes.

And other stressed people

asking her to defend them

and expose rapists,

abusers, and pedos,

and she does this day and night

via phone screen.

- Stressful, do you confirm?

- Yes.

So why would we tell her

to stop vaping

if it doesn't take

a professional to see

that the stress from the phone

will k*ll her faster

than any puff of nicotine

ever will?

Who are they?

Right, don't know who that is,

but that's Michael.

And so, he sent you

a video of him having sex

with someone else?

Uh Oh, yeah. Of course.

Let me at least

see what it looks like

on top of someone else

before I tap my Oyster

and creep under it.

- I like that.

- You like it?

but only one halo.

You'd think that they'd stock up

on these things,

- given it's Halloween.

- Yeah, sh*t, yeah.

Yeah. So now,

we have to battle it out.

Could I state my case first?

You know what?

We wouldn't even be here

doing this self-care day

if it wasn't for you

setting it all up, Terry.

So yes, you should state

your case first,

but I don't know how you feel

about this, Bells

I'm actually happy,

and indeed willing,

to let you wear the halo.

- Guys, are you sure?

- Definitely.

Yeah, def Yeah.

Come on, then.

Paint and Wine

is first come, first served,

so we're gonna need to be

prompt with time.

Hey! Hey!

- Hi.

- Uh, I just wanted to say

thank you for your content.

-Oh.

-I know your work.

I've read your posts.

And what you're doing

for r*pe victims,

- girl, whoa.

- Thank you.

- Thank you so much. Wow.

- Yeah.

I I was abused by a straight

white male as a child,

spoke out for the first time

a few months ago, and

it's not easy.

As a man,

as a black man, to be honest,

to to show pain,

it comes at a price.

- Sorry, you must be busy.

- No. No, listen,

I am never too busy

to talk about pain.

'Cause some people

don't wanna engage

the minute you try

talk about some real sh*t.

Yeah. They, uh, kinda treat you

- like a broken vessel, right?

- Mm-hmm.

Some people,

they don't wanna dig too deep.

Mmm, 'cause if they dig

deep enough,

- they'd see they're in pain too.

- They're in pain as well.

-Mm-hmm.

-That's it. Wow.

You're so brave.

Keep fighting

the good fight, yo.

"Thank you.

Thank you so much for reminding me

of all the pain and frustration.

That's all I can think about."

"Oh, it's my pleasure.

Make sure you tell your friends

to follow me

and make me more powerful."

"Of course, you're my shero,

consoler of the weak

and avenger of the bad men."

- Oi, Bells?

- Yeah, wait, wait.

- Can we go?

- One sec.

This echo chamber is freezing.

I'm cold!

You never know, Kwarms,

you might be feeling

a bit down one day

and you just might need someone

who agrees

whatever the f*ck you say.

Even if you are chatting sh*t.

- Bye-bye.

- Bye.

Sorry, guys.

Uh, we said no phones.

Oh, yeah.

No vaping.

What?

Bella!

I'm spreading awareness,

people should know.

I'm not going to upload it now.

I'm just gonna take it,

and then I'll post it later.

- Fine.

- Hey, bunnies,

thought I'd let you know

about the POC

Paint and Wine Movement.

I believe we have the right

to express ourselves,

to be vulnerable, to grow,

to free ourselves

without the critical eyes

of our oppressor

shaming and judging us

while we create.

The POC Paint and Wine

Movement

Is it even a movement?

I don't know why

she keeps saying that.

Paint and wine.

Self-care,

friendship, expression,

art, creativity, peace.

This is what I've done so far.

Cute!

Okay, peace and love, bunnies!

Hey, look,

don't forget who booked it,

my bae,

at therealterrypratchard.

Actor, angel, cuddle-bunny

snuggle butt. Holler!

"Snuggle butt?"

Okay.

Anyways, Kwame, you were saying

- this r*cist b*tch, Nilufer.

- Oh, yeah.

You know, I hate it

when white girls disappoint me.

She said some h*m* stuff

as well.

- What?

- Yeah, she said the f-word.

People think they can chat

sh*t and get away with it.

Yeah, it's kinda dark still.

- I'm sorry, Kwarms.

- Hmm.

Why didn't you say something?

I just wanted to forget

about it.

I don't wanna think

about it now.

I hope you pulled your d*ck out.

Nah,

it was afterwards, actually.

We were just chilling,

and it really made me think,

what are people saying

in your absence,

d'you know what I mean?

Oh, okay. So she didn't know

you were

She she didn't know

you were g*y until after?

And after I called her out

on her h*m* bullshit,

the way she f*cking

hit the roof.

But Kwame, why did you tell her?

She said "f*gg*t" just casually.

How am I supposed

to stay silent?

You didn't mind her

racially stereotyping you?

You definitely didn't

mind 'cause you f*cked her.

As I said,

I really wasn't trying

to do anything with her, so

It's also no wonder

she was angry.

She found out you were g*y

after you stuck your d*ck in her

and shot a load up.

I don't know, I think I would be

at least a little bit,

like, surprised.

I I feel terrible about it,

but she kinda forced me, so

Yeah Well, you kind of had

penetrative sex with someone

under false pretenses, Kwarms.

That's a bit, I don't know

What the f*ck is wrong

with this thing?

- You need to top it up.

- Okay.

I'm saying I feel sh*t. I

don't feel good about it.

Yeah.

Um, yeah, yeah.

I mean, Kwarms, I'm sure

she feels absolutely superb.

I just think that

it was just really confusing

- for everyone

- No. Terry,

as someone

who has not experienced r*pe,

you should be listening

and not concluding

conversations.

- What?

- There's no vaping in the

Bella.

He said he didn't feel good

about it.

He's a man

concealing his identity

following a woman into her home.

He's making someone vulnerable.

If he felt good about that,

I'd be f*cking horrified.

I'm saying he's got his own

He's vulnerable.

Yeah, being vulnerable

doesn't mean

you can make

other people vulnerable,

it doesn't mean

you can put other people

through pain, it doesn't mean

you can penetrate people.

Come on, seriously.

Bells, she literally

- pushed me into

- Mm, no

It sounds like

you're blaming her.

Are are you blaming her?

I'm not of of course

I wouldn't do that.

You just shouldn't

have told her, babe.

Yeah, you know, T, I agree.

Because that'd be like

telling the truth,

and it's much better to just

hide that under the surface

and never acknowledge

that you are hiding something

from a woman who's let you

into her bedroom.

Fix your brain,

are you f*cking insane?

- He made a mistake.

- A mis

Yeah, yes, yes.

He made a mistake.

Sure. Nobody gives a f*ck

that it's a mistake, Terry.

We all make those.

Do we make deceitful,

destructive,

narcissistic, sick,

inconsiderate mistakes?

No.

So, on my birthday

when you locked him

in the room with Jamal,

what was that?

What? What, uh, so

What did I What did I do?

Samson's friend,

you locked him in with.

Sorry, hmm?

And then you just

Kind of just

What wh wh

Where is this

where is this going?

You left Kwame in there

without really thinking

about the consequences.

He wasn't in a good place,

so it was

It was really hard for him

to be left there because it

It was a dangerous

It was a dangerous situation

at that moment.

- Kwame?

- Yeah?

Wow, he's here,

so I guess that means

you don't need

to speak for him,

which is great,

so you can just

shut up and f*ck off.

Kwame?

Uh, um, I feel like I've

been a good friend to you.

You told me

what that guy did to you.

Yeah, you are.

- And I've tried to

- You have been, Bells.

What Did I Did I do

- I I don't

- 'Cause if there's something

that I did that day

that I'm not aware of?

Um, I I can't even

really remember,

like, for real, so.

I'm just saying, right,

if you

paint things to make it look

like you're a victim,

and I find out that

isn't entirely the case,

it makes me question

who you are.

Now, just look in the mirror,

d'you know what I mean?

Because it's

it's really unnerving

and it's

uncomfortable for everyone.

f*ck this sh*t.

Excuse me. Sorry.

Can I just see if that wire

goes into my vape?

It's losing its power,

so I just wanted to

Ah, amazing, do you mind

if I hold on to that?

Thank you.

I'd let you know about

the Paint and Wine Movement

What is this?

It doesn't work, but thank you.

I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry.

Can you take a quick

picture of me?

Okay.

Just like, y'know.

Hey, sweetheart.

Like your horns and everything.

Oh, it's really amazing,

that you think your opinion

should just be heard.

I thought we were

Your hair is the same as mine.

Come on.

Hey, guys.

Did you know that all

crash test dummies

They don't factor in breasts,

hips, pregnancies.

Cancer research relies on

studies conducted on men,

on white men in their 20s

to 30s, specifically.

There is no data for women.

is based on the average size

of their hands.

I mean, it trickles down,

doesn't it?

And I wish I could tell you

these were some

Halloween tricks,

some fake news, some bullshit,

but sadly, this is all true.

I shouldn't be scared

that as I walk this street

right now, at any moment,

a man could drag me into

a dark alley and attack me.

f*ck this sh*t. f*ck.

I love you too.

Doxing

publishing private information.

Thank you.

I came across it this morning.

"Doxing," any of you guys

heard of it?

Who would you dox if you could?

No, I will not show you

my f*cking

Hashtag doxthecocks,

that's the new one, yeah.

If anyone's got Zain Sareen's

home address,

feel free to share.

Never dox.

No, you should never dox.

We don't need to take matters

into our own hands.

To bury a

dark hypocritical narrative

as if it didn't even happen?

And just walk around like some

kind of victim?

Hmm. You seem very upset.

It's really affected you,

hasn't it?

I never thought Kwame would

turn out to be

this kind of person,

d'you know what I mean?

Because he's my friend,

and I don't keep

that kind of sh*t around me.

Look at my Facebook.

And my Instagram too, yeah.

DM after DM after DM after DM.

There is so much injustice,

and my job is

to speak the truth.

I have to speak the truth,

no matter who to.

I can't be complicit.

Do you need social media?

Well, I I don't need it.

Could you leave social media?

It's

it's important that we speak.

I have to speak.

The business models

of these networks

incentivize us

to behave in in certain ways.

In ways that promote speaking,

often at the cost of listening.

Do you remember the three R's?

Yeah Uh,

rest, reflect, rejuvenate.

Look, if you can't abandon it

altogether,

take a break.

We take breaks.

We don't work weekends.

We break for half term.

Even a cantor has a sabbatical.

And it's good

for our mental health.

Sorry, by the way.

- I've turned up at your

- No, you you called.

That's what the emergency line

is for. You're fine.

Okay.

- How are other things?

- Good.

Yeah. I've been writing

non-stop day and night, so.

I was wondering more

about the case.

Oh, they closed the case.

- They closed the case?

- Mmm.

It was about a month ago.

You know, I took my stuff,

the investigation bags,

is that normal?

Everything

and nothing is normal.

What was it like? Opening them?

Oh no, I didn't open them,

I just put them under the bed.

And they're still there now?

Yeah, but everything

is under my bed.

I think it's worth exploring

the possibility

you have an idea of self,

let's say "A" for Arabella.

And then there's a line,

a hard surface, a bed.

Uh, dangerous things,

dark things,

anything that contradicts

or threatens

your perceived reality go here.

It happens more often

than you might think.

A line is drawn separating

bad from good,

friend from foe,

men, women, black, white,

them, us, criminal, victim,

god, devil.

It helps us to deflect,

you know,

avoid feelings like guilt,

uncertainty, self-blame.

These feelings are are crucial

in the stages of recovery.

If we can't process

and understand them,

we can't process

and understand ourselves.

Hey, mate.

- Hey, mate.

- What you up to?

I kept

the investigation bags

from, you know,

so I thought I'd get them out,

but then there's loads.

All right, nice.

- Is this them?

- Mm-hmm.

Mate, you got loads of stuff.

What's that?

This was a long time ago.

I can't remember.

How many weeks was I?

I don't remember.

Ten weeks.

I just went and

done it, and then I forgot.

I never really thought

about it again.

I guess I've, uh

I guess I've

Do you feel like

you made the wrong decision?

No.

Doing what we have to do

doesn't always feel good,

does it?

If you felt good, I would be

even more horrified.

When you paint things

to make it look

as if you're just the victim,

and I find out that

isn't the case,

really makes me question

who you are.

Just look in the mirror,

d'you know what I mean?

It's really uncomfortable

and unnerving for everyone.

Sorry.

Where's Kwame?

He wasn't sure if you were okay

with him coming in.

Okay.

Yo, I I can go

if you don't want me here,

- I understand.

- Kwame

I was really

I was really intense today,

and I'm sorry.

I was wrong.

What I did was bad.

I, uh,

I locked you in this room,

and I didn't think about it.

That was really dumb

and really thoughtless,

and I'm sorry.

I don't wanna think about it.

No, f*ck that sh*t.

Please just forget about it.

- I love you.

- Yeah, I love you, too.

- You okay?

- Yeah.

Are you okay?

Well, Terry's self-care train

is making me wanna jump

in front of one.

So I'm gonna go

to this location.

You don't tell her,

she won't notice.

Okay.

Love you.

Jelly aliens.

If you throw it

hard enough on the ceiling,

it goes splat and then

a baby comes from inside it.

Right.

Uh, well, I'm gonna

I'm gonna go back watching TV.

Halloween TV.

Well, Kurz. So, um

So, uh, right.

Sleep well, mate.

Thanks, Ben.

Yeah.

Are you sure you wanna do this?

What do you need, bae?

Netflix, painting,

chocolate, do do?

- Can we go for a walk?

- Sure.

It's cold, Bella,

put your coat on.

Here.

This is a long walk.

Bella?

What are we doing?

Yas.

Don't you have work to do?

Your deadline,

ain't they waiting?

I think they are busy

celebrating people

who actually achieve.

And don't you get paid

on delivery?

You know there's nothing

coming out of that thing, right?

There's not, is there?

No.

Can we walk?

Are you angry with me?

Are you angry with me?

I thought I'd leave you

and none of this would happen.

Glad she told you,

for real when

she's the one who gave me

approval to leave.

Who are you talking about?

Oh sh*t.

And your dad, did he turn up?

My girl! Eh?

How are you?

Mum, I have to tell you about

something

that happened to me in January.

Okay.

What happened?