01x03 - Episode 3

[bunniefuu]

I'm going to ask everyone to

slowly

..move their focus further inward.

Now listen

..deeper.

Can you?

Can you hear your blood

circulating inside of you?

SHE HUMS

The Hum is there.

Inside

the deepest part of you.

Focus on i-i-i-it.

Let it gro-o-o-o-o-ow.

Let it gro-o-o-o-o-ow.

Let it fill your body.

Let it fill your body.

Let it fill every space

in between your cells.

Aaaaaah.

This is the only sound.

This is

the original sound.

The sound that predates

life on Earth.

The sound that made us.

And as The Hum

fills your entire body,

you become nothing but sound

..vibrating on the same frequency.

Boundless, until there is no

distinction between our bodies!

Release yourself!

Release yourself!

PEOPLE HUM

Come back. Come back. Come back.

Release yourself

into this boundlessness.

Release yourself

from the confines of your body!

Release yourself.

Release yourself.

Erase yourself.

Well, that was something.

HE CHUCKLES

Yeah.

It was It was amazing.

Incredible, right? f*ck, man.

No, but seriously, f*ck.

Everyone is on their path.

Kyle, for instance.

He's at a point in his life

where he's being asked to

discover and define himself.

He's open to all

of life's opportunities.

Ready to challenge himself.

Whereas Whereas, what?

I've lived my life and now

I'm ready to be put out to pasture?

No. No, not at all.

Merely he is actively searching

for his purpose in life.

Mm-hm, right.

And I'm finding this difficult

because my life has no purpose.

It's not about what I'm saying,

it's about you, your life.

Yeah, well, my life

is fairly obliterated.

I mean, my husband's left me,

I have no job.

Yes, and that's frightening.

And you are shutting it out

because you're frightened.

And we hoped the quarry might help.

I'm sorry if it didn't.

Why are you doing this?

I mean, what's it for?

We're not criticising you.

You know, it took me

a long time to welcome it in.

We want to help.

But why?

The experience becomes deeper,

more expansive.

The larger the group, the more

connections that can be made.

More possibilities.

We can exist on

a new spiritual plane, Claire.

And that can be transformative

for all of us.

When you feel it,

you will understand.

We know you could get there.

But I think if you wake up tomorrow

and never hear it again,

you would choose that

without a second thought.

You are not trying, Claire.

ROTORS THRUM

Well, he's right, isn't he? Mm?

Nuke it.

Dig it out of your ears.

Go back to the before time.

What, you mean you wouldn't?

No.

Not after that.

Huh.

I don't know, I

..slightly reject his whole "you

have to be in a perfectly content

in your life in order

to progress to the next level."

That's not what he's saying, though.

Really?

It's about how YOU feel.

I don't get it.

I think they're onto something.

I felt like

..like we're not suffering together,

there's something beautiful in it.

I felt connected to everything

for a few seconds.

Can you hear this?

LOW HARMONIOUS HUM

Mm-hm. Yeah.

HUM INTENSIFIES

I don't know what I'm doing. I feel

like I'm watching my life collapse.

I AM watching my life collapse.

Ashley is furious with me.

And Paul? Has he come home?

No, he's staying in some studio

in a block he's developing.

We've barely spoken since.

I want to talk to him. I think.

I just don't know how, because

I'mreally f*cking angry with him.

I don't understand why he

felt so threatened by them,

those people that

I think most of us

move through this life

with responsibilities

andburdens,

familial, financial, domestic.

To stop oneself and constantly ask,

am I

..choosing this life?

I mean, I do, of course I do,

but in a way, but

Is this the life I chose?

I don't know

that they're the solution.

I don't feel what they feel.

I just don't know how to say

any of that to him.

What do you want, Claire?

Ashley? How'd it go?

DOOR CLOSES

OK, we don't have to talk about it.

Dinner's nearly ready. Look,

I opened a packet all by myself.

I'm not hungry.

Yes, you are. I need to revise.

Yeah, but not on an empty stomach.

Come on. And this, this offers more

than your recommended

daily salt intake.

It always feels like it's gone

worse than you think.

Remember how you felt after GCSEs?

Yeah, this is not the same.

I don't want to talk about it. OK.

I'm here if you need.

You know I'm really proud of you.

How was your group?

Yeah, I don't know.

I think I might notgo any more.

HUM AMPLIFIES

What are you doing?

What?

Hey.

HUM INTENSIFIES

WATER TRICKLES

BIRDSONG

Hi.

No, it's fine. How are you?

Mm-hm.

Right.

That makes sense.

No, not at all.

You have to do what's right for you

and for your family.

And what we do,

it's, it's not for everyone and I,

I could see you holding back

and that it was a lot for you.

Claire.

Well

..Omar and I wish you all the best.

Shame.

Hi.

Thank you for meeting up with me.

How have you been? Yeah, fine, busy.

Exam season, so

Look, I wanted to meet up

with you because I

..I thought that, erm,

we were friends.

I mean, we've been there

for each other, and

..and I have been struggling,

and I miss you.

And look, I know that it has been

completely weird,

but to not call or even reach out,

I mean

I've been a good friend to you

over the years, haven't I?

Come on.

No?

So what? That was all just

a f*cking lie then, was it?

Sometimes being your friend was

a bit like being a wall, Claire.

Something for you to talk at,

bounce your voice against.

That is not fair, Cass.

OK, well, sorry you feel that way.

You know, I didn't really mind that.

But I do mind being lied to.

No, I didn't lie to you.

Yes, you did. No.

He's a student, and you lied.

You don't know anything about it.

You haven't asked me anything.

Why would I ask a r*pist anything?

Inside the deepest part of you.

Amen.

Since when do you smoke?

I don't know.

Very, very, very bad for you.

I have heard.

Did you sleep OK?

I'm going to go to the library.

Well, then, I'll give you a lift.

Dad's going to take me.

Oh.

He needs to grab a bag.

Can he come in?

Yeah. Are you?

I'm Sorry, are you asking me

or is he?

Well, he is.

CAR DOOR SHUTS

Yeah, of course, it's completely

DOOR OPENS

..fine.

DOOR CLOSES

Morning.

Hi.

I'll be, um, down in a second.

OK.

DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES

I just need tograb a bag.

No, Ashley already told me.

Go for it.

How have you been?

OK.

You?

Yeah, fine.

I wanted to ask you

..if we can talk.

Because every time that we try to,

it escalates so quickly, and I,

I don't want that to happen,

I want us to figure this out.

Me, too.

I was

..wondering if you wanted to, erm

Are you asking me on a date?

Yeah. I mean, I don't want to speak

for Claire, but from my perspective,

things were good, I think.

Er, you know.

Nearly finished bringing up

our kids, erm,

work was not without its struggles.

We were good.

Nice house, good kids.

HUMMING THRUMS

You know, we had friends, lives,

right?

Yeah. Yeah.

It was good.

You've mentioned several things

that aren't directly

about the two of you,

about the relationship, Paul -

work, your daughter, social lives.

Right, but

..when you're at

our stage of life

..those things are the relationship,

aren't they?

If this is because of

No, it's I just can't any more.

I've been reckless.

It's not fair.

I shouldn't be leaning on you.

It's not right.

It feels right.

I just think I was hopeful for

..something more.

Some of the time.

Look, I get that it's a lot.

But what we're doing as a group

..it f*cking works. Yeah, for you.

For anyone who's open to it.

You said that our life was good,

is good,

and that's true, it is,

but it's all so small.

I mean, we used to have more than

just three friends each.

Do you think that might be connected

to why you're hearing this buzz,

Claire? Buzz?

Because it's offering something

No. ..more exciting.

No, it's not

I hear a sound, a real sound

that some people can hear

and others cannot.

I just struggle to buy that

this is the reason for your

..fixation with some student.

That is not what this is about.

That's literally it. You're making

a choice to keep f*cking suffering.

No. Look, I'm glad that

it's working for you, I am.

But it doesn't for me.

You were fired, Claire.

And you are still

Going to a place where there are

people who validate how I feel.

You know what?

It doesn't matter

because I have decided

to stop going there.

One person feeling bad all the time

is better than three, right?

I'm done. OK?

Goodbye.

THRUMMING

Er, hey.

We miss you.

There's a new guy.

I think you'd like him.

PEOPLE CHATTER AND LAUGH

Er, hey. We miss you.

Come on, it's funny

because if it's not funny

There's a new

guy. I think you'd like him.

No, I I feel so much better,

you know,

having listened with you guys,

honestly.

Oh, that's nice. That's so nice.

You all right? Did she not tell you

she's not coming?

It's a former member

of our group here. Right.

No, yeah. No, she did.

Erm, I just thought she would

have changed her mind.

I'm going to have a party.

Excuse me? That wasn't a question.

No, it didn't sound like one.

After prom,

no-one else's house is free.

Obviously, you can't be there.

And I won't trash the place.

It's basically the least

you can do after everything.

KNOCK ON DOOR

Hold that thought.

KNOCK ON DOOR

Hi. Hi, Claire. Sorry to disturb.

Just wondered if we could

have a word.

Someone set fire to my bins.

God.

That, erm

Ash, can you maybe head upstairs.

I haven't finished my dinner.

Well, I'm very sorry

about your bins, Tom.

Sima and I have been talking

about The Hum very publicly.

Well, as publicly as we can,

haven't we? Mm.

And people are not happy.

Hence my bins. Yeah, well, it's a

It's a very extreme reaction.

My neighbours are worried that

it's lowering their property value

or some such rubbish.

We've been talking to the council

and we have a few signatures,

but we just don't have enough

for them to launch

a formal investigation. Right.

We have tracked down a few people

who used to attend

Jo and Omar's groups

and then left

Emily goes there

all the bloody time.

She mentioned that you'd left.

That's right.

We are gathering testimonials,

banding together.

Look, I'm really, really sorry,

but I can't.

Claire, you do realise that Omar's

theory is bullshit, don't you?

The sound that he's talking about,

yeah, that exists,

but humans cannot hear it.

Yeah, I don't know what to think,

to be honest, but I don't happen

to think that it can be a factory

or a wind turbine or a phone mast

or whatever, it's just

Omar is a charlatan.

It's a cult.

That wasn't my experience.

It wasn't.

Anyway

Anyway, I'm not going any more,

and I can't help you!

When he was at Rosyth,

he taught under a different name.

OK. Oscar Barat.

Joe was his student.

I'm, I'm aware of that.

And then he ran a group

with the students listening.

He got fired over incredibly

serious allegations.

Like what?

Well, some people described it

as psychological conditioning,

grooming, tantric-like meditation.

No, that's not What? Exactly.

No, it's not

Extremely inappropriate

and unscientific practices.

Did he make you do

the deep listening?

Yes. Because we did hear from

some people who were forced

to do that and then went on to have

extremely frightening experiences,

like forms of psychosis.

Yeah, well, I wasn't forced

to do anything, and I'm fine.

I am.

OK, you know what, I

..I think that you should leave.

I'm just trying to have dinner

with my daughter.

OK? Please?

If you want to order pizza,

which I know you will,

then use my credit card.

Thank you. Go crazy. Can I?

Can you, what?

Well, can we get a few more?

Damien? Damien. Hey.

Hi. How are you? I'm good.

This is, this is my son.

This is Aaron.

No way?

I had no idea that you had a son.

Hi. Hi, Aaron. Hello. Hi.

Good boy.

CLAIRE CHUCKLES

You remember Ashley.

Hi. How's it going?

Yeah, we've missed you, Claire.

Wewere sorry

you decided to leave.

You're coping OK?

Yeah, she's doing great.

You know we're not the only ones

that can hear it.

I mean, we can't be.

It's obvious.

It's not just us wackjobs, right?

HE LAUGHS

But it does make you think, though,

right?

You know, why isn't this a thing?

Why isn't it talked about

in the mainstream?

Why, why are they keeping it

from us?

So? They?

Ash.

I mean, I'm not stupid.

I know it sounds

like paranoid bullshit.

But this isn't a new thing,

you know,

the Government are listening.

They're literally listening to us

all the time.

They'll have heard everything

we said at Jo and Omar's.

OK, why would they, why would anyone

want to listen to that sh*t?

OK, OK.

No, no, no, it's good.

That is exactly the right question.

This is This is a w*r.

It's a w*r for people's minds.

And I know that I'll do

whatever I need to do

to protect myself and protect

..protect my family.

Look, it's really hard to explain

because they're not

allowing you to hear it yet.

But The Hum unlocks something,

right? Something that

It has the potential to be

catastrophic

to those that are in charge

because it liberates.

The liberated mind,

it can't be controlled.

He's f*cking nuts.

I have empathy for him.

He's a m*rder*r.

OK, well, that kind of language,

that's not helpful, Ash.

No, no, that language clarifies,

Claire.

Just because it was probably

some drone strike

doesn't mean he isn't a m*rder*r.

You know that most people

live in a bubble.

And I think that being challenged

and learning to listen

Learning to listen to incels

and abusers? Yeah, very cool.

Tell me why you have

decided that Damien is an incel.

And who is the ab*ser? Omar.

Sorry, Oscar Barat.

You know, the professor who

doesn't understand boundaries?

Well, I've stopped listening

to him, haven't I?

I don't listen to anyone

any more, Ashley, apart from you.

Is that what you wanted?

Yeah, that's exactly what I wanted.

f*ck!

Ash.

CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKS

Nice.

And again.

CLAIRE LAUGHS

OK, I lied, this is the last one.

CLAIRE CHUCKLES

OK, I'm going to go.

You look beautiful.

You're going to have a great night.

Don't trash the house.

CAR HORN HOOTS

Come here.

I love you.

CAR HORN HOOTS

DEEP, DISTORTED HUM

THRUMMING

Almost there.

Inside the deepest part of you.

METALLIC CLANGING

TENSE THRUMMING

DISCORDANT GURGLING

CLAIRE GASPS

SHE SOBS

Please, please, please.

Hi, it's Paul.

Leave us a message and I'll get back

to you as soon as I can.

CLAIRE SNIFFS

Hi, it's Paul.

Leave a message and I'll get back

to you as soon as I can.

SHE WHIMPERS

HE STRUMS GUITAR

It's your prom, you should go.

Really don't want to go.

MOBILE PHONE VIBRATES

What the hell

do you think you're doing?

Oh, God. Leave my son

I'm sorry!

SHE SOBS

PHONE RINGS

SHE BREATHES QUICKLY

Hi.

Get into the car.

Take a breath.

You're doing so wonderfully, Claire.

I'm here with you.

Omar's here.

POP MUSIC PLAYS

What?!

What the f*ck are you doing here?

DOOR SLAMS

f*cking hell, man.

Is this your parents' room?

Do you want to chat while

people dry hump next to us?

I don't want to be in here.

Well, everyone assumes

you already have been.

HE CHUCKLES

Such a f*cking c**t.

MUSIC PLAYS DOWNSTAIRS

Can you hear it now?

All the time.

ROCK MUSIC PLAYS IN NEXT ROOM

I'm sorry.

For what?

For whatever

you need an apology for.

I offer you my sincerest apologies.

Tulpen und Narzissen

by Die Doraus and Die Marinas

und hab' nur die Blumen

und hab' nur die Blumen

MUSIC FADES OU

Erm, I wanted to ask you something.

It's delicate.

Please.

OK. Thank you.

Erm, somebody told me something

about when you were a teacher

at the university. Mm.

And I read some articles.

Look, I don't want to be

..rude.

You're absolutely entitled

to ask, Claire.

I, erm, had a research group.

Very small, very select, studying

the effects of the

Schumann resonance on the brain.

And honestly, and, you know this

..research work that requires

radical thought and openness

..can sometimes demand practices

that operate outside of the norm.

Some people were excited

by the idea,

but could not commit

or got bored or scared.

Or possibly

..it unlocked something deep inside

of them that they could not control.

Things were not perfect

all the time, obviously,

but it was misconstrued

and, erm, they kicked me out.

Good morning.

Ah, good morning.

Morning.

Thank you for letting me stay.

You've been struggling this week.

Yes.

Yes, it's been Mm-hm.

CLAIRE STRUGGLES TO SPEAK

I've really missed being here.

We understand how difficult it is

clear, Claire, but no-one moves

through these experiences unscathed

or with their lives

and their families intact.

You have to make a decision.

Step fully toward what you feel

is right

..and commit to it.

It was a party.

Obviously, Mum okayed it

otherwise, why else would

she not be here?

Well, where is she? I don't know.

Who was here?

Just people. Is upstairs trashed?

Ashley.

DOOR OPENS

Wow.

OK.

Morning. Are you kidding?

Come on.

We have a very good kid

who's having a really difficult time

and needed to blow off some steam.

It's not a big deal, Paul.

Where were you?

I tried to call you.

You were with them.

You promised. I know I did,

but where am I supposed to go?

Which of my friends do you see

flooding to support me, Ash?

Bullshit. Why is he here?

Get the f*ck out of my house. Kyle?

You should go. Sorry, but

..you called me, I was worried.

Oh, my God. Can you go?

Claire, I care about you.

I want you to leave, Kyle.

Yeah, well, I want to go, too.

Let's go. No. Ash, wait!

No, no, no, no, no, no!

Hey, hey!

Claire, you need to get a grip.

I'm trying!

But you, you f*cking left!

What do you want me to say?

We can't have this conversation

You isolate me, you ignore me.

..not here. Dad, can we just?

You f*cking laugh at me. We cannot

have this conversation here!

I

Ashley!

DOOR SHUTS

INTENSE THRUMMING

CLAIRE GASPS

a fine night tonight

a fine day tomorrow

Dee, da, da, da

If you could wake up tomorrow

and never hear it again,

you will choose

that without a second thought.

Connected,

like we're suffering together.

VOICES CONVERGE

Deepest part of you.

DISTORTED VOICES

Hear this.

or something

CLAIRE EXHALES DEEPLY

I want to try.

MUSIC FADES OU

We've just been adding to it

for years. Mm-hm.

Kyle, you can't sleep here.

Well, I don't really have a choice.

Mum kicked me out.

Yeah, well, I think

she'll let you back

if she knew that you were

sleeping here.

This isn't sustainable.

I mean, it's fine short-term.

You can shower at the gym.

Come on.

You must have somewhere

else that you can go.

Like where?

I don't know. I've

That's not a good idea.

No, I know, but

Claire.

Hm?

You have to give in.

It's fear. Hm-mm.

Not fear of anything bad,

I don't think.

It feels like you're afraid of

what could be good.

Because of how it might make you

feel about the rest of your life.

Actually, I feel pretty good about

takeaways in the middle

of the day in my pyjamas.

Claire

..I love you.

I don't mean that I'm in love

with you.

But

..I love you.

Not like a teacher or a friend,

or a mother, or anything romantic,

but something between

all of those things.

Something there isn't a name for.

I think you're f*cking amazing.

And you're filled with

the sound of f*cking earth.

What can you hear?

The wind in the grass.

BUZZING

A bee.

My breath. Your breath.

Your breath.

Theblood in my ears.

THRUMMING

THRUMMING INTENSIFIES

SHE GASPS

SHE GASPS

SHE LAUGHS

SHE LAUGHS