01x06 - Indulgence

[bunniefuu]

Did lips, painted with poison, just come to my room?

It seems as if my mind and body are melting with your kiss.

Hateful self, years old Hateful self, years old

Your heart is so beautiful it's almost nauseating.

Why would you kiss someone like me, who can't do a thing?

Hmm?

Hateful days, years old Hateful face, years old

L-L-L-Like a black swallowtail butterfly,

I want to fly on magnificent wings!

P-P-P-Please don't say it's ridiculous!

That kind of life is good...

It's good! (L-L-L-Like a black swallowtail butterfly...)

Excuse me...

"Midori Pharmacy" Excuse me...

"Midori Pharmacy"

Excuse me...

Excuse me...

Coming!

Uh... I need some ekikyabe. [brand of stomach medicine]

Ekikyabe...

Let's see...

Hey! You know where the ekikyabe is?

The regular or S type?

--Which would you like? --Huh?

Umm... W-Whichever's most effective...

I'm back!

Not in such a loud voice, Watanuki...

Quietly, quietly...

Do you have no sympathy for me in my weakened state?

You're heartless.

It's just your standard hangover.

I have no room for sympathy.

Here. Drink this.

Hangover, plus lack of sleep.

Hmm?

Huh? Yuko-san, you have a computer?

Net! Net!

Net?

Water...

Now, shall we go out?

--Huh? --A change of clothes for leaving the house!

There's something I want to buy.

Well, I'll call it a day then...

What are you saying?

You're still working, you know.

Pu! Refreshing!

I'm revived!

For your information, I do not have a driver's license.

Well, of course.

So... We're taking a train?

Going on foot.

It's close?

Ginza.

Ginza!? We're walking from here!?

Just how long will that take!?

It's all right.

We're taking a [beep] route.

What the heck is this!?

I constructed it. It's great. So convenient.

There's a kind of lukewarm breeze blowing...

Maru, Moro, Mokona,

I'm leaving the house in your care.

--Take care! --Watch your step!

Slipping!

Something strange just passed by...

What are you doing? Hurry up.

W-Wait!

What's someone young as you doing so out of breath?

Of course I am! What's with that passage!?

There were weird things coming out, and it ends in a weird place!

Now, I'm sure that shop was this way...

You're not even listening to me!

Hmm?

Definitely this way...

If you're gonna torment me, at least say so.

Huh?

Yuko-san, are you listening?

I want this sake!

Ah! That one, too!

Make sure to buy one dozen this time, Watanuki.

Like I said, please listen to me!

"Mikado Sports"

"Mikado Sports" This is what you wanted to buy?

That's right.

I wanted a red one.

Mm... If you wanted a metal bat,

I'm sure someplace other than way out in Ginza...

Not really. Not a red one.

So, is our shopping over?

--Shopping, yes. --What are you going to use this bat for?

All that remains is finishing up a task.

Is this an acquaintance's place?

No, it's a customer's house.

Huh? This is a business trip?

Uh.

Yes?

I've come to grant your wish.

Huh?

More high-pressure selling!?

I'm sorry things are such a mess.

Not at all.

Please don't fuss over us.

Is this really okay?

Showing up at her house without notice...

It is.

Excuse me, but... You're Kindo-chan, aren't you.

--Hmm? --Yes. And you're Hanahana-san.

Huh?

They're handle names.

Oh!

You know each other from the internet?

Incidentally, Kindo-chan is borrowed from the masterpiece, "Macaroni Spinach".

What kind of site are you on?

A magical girls and special effects systems site.

So, you have hobbies like that...

I'm surprised that Kindo-chan is such a wonderful young woman.

So knowledgeable and trustworthy,

to whom the whole site takes off their hats.

I, too, am in admiration.

So, about what you wrote in the e-mail...

Yes...

I want to quit...

...the internet.

Huh?

I've always worried about doing the housework or watching TV.

But even though I know I shouldn't,

I soon find myself sitting down in front of the computer.

My child has been feeling lonely...

Even my husband has said something about it.

Are you serious?

Yes.

But you haven't been able to stop, even now.

That's...

Yes.

Why do you think that is?

Because I'm not yet ready, I think.

Ready?

But this time, for sure, I really think I'll quit.

You quit, and then what?

I'll keep it at a distance...

Once I calm down, I might be able to try it again.

Anyway, I'm quitting for now.

Tell me...

Yes?

When you want to quit something,

you must carefully consider why you want to quit

and why you are having difficulty quitting.

Umm... What do you mean by that?

Why do you want to quit using the computer?

Because even my husband said something to me about it.

You have to quit because your husband tells you to?

You would quit anything just because your husband tells you to?

No, i-it's not like that.

My husband isn't a particularly demanding person.

This is the first time he's ever told me to stop something.

So...

I do nothing but surf the Net, neglecting things around the house,

even my son has noted I haven't been playing with him.

Why do you have to play with your child?

Why?

He's still so little

and I want to fawn over him so that he never feels lonely.

Why do you not want him to feel lonely?

Because he's my child.

--Because? --Because he's cute...

Even thinking such things, you have been unable to quit...

Just......excuse...

Even realizing all that, why do you think you are unable to stop?

That's...

--...unintentionally... --No.

This might be something bigger than a spirit...

You want to quit using the computer, right?

Yes.

If you can quit, there will be an unavoidable victim of sorts...

Victim?

You want to stop, right? No matter what...

I want... to quit.

If so, you'll not touch that computer again, right?

Yes...

--Watanuki? --Y-Yes?

Shall we be heading home now?

Huh?

Umm... Is there nothing else?

Hmm? Such as?

--Advice, or something... --But you've decided for yourself, to quit.

That's true, but...

Then you have to do it.

It's a promise to yourself.

So, how has it been going with Himawari-chan?

Huh? What do you mean?

Everything going well? Hmm?

Well, nothing.

Doumeki is always butting in...

Oh yeah? That's good.

You don't listen to anything anyone else says, do you!?

If you don't feel like listening,

then please don't start conversations you're not interested in continuing.

If there's nothing else to do, I'm going home.

There is... something to do.

We're waiting.

Waiting? For what?

The result...

That's right, e-mail...

If I'm to quit using the computer,

I need to send a message that I'm no longer using e-mail.

What's this?

--What's going on here? --What the-? --Here, too?

Huh? What?

To think we didn't even have to wait long enough to finish one cappuccino.

I have friends I only keep in touch with by e-mail...

Not telling them would be rude.

That's right! I need to leave a message

on the bulletin board that I won't be writing anymore.

But I'm sure everyone will miss me.

I'm sorry.

And I was finally able to make friends.

"Notice" "New message from Peach-san" "Hello Hanahana-san! Kirari-san from before..."

There's another new thread... I have to respond!

"...well done..."

The other site has a download available...

But if I drop it all...

And if you drop it?

If you drop it again?

W-What...

Let's stop this...

I was sending e-mail saying I couldn't message anymore...

Oh? But this is a website, isn't it?

J-Just a little.

You know, just seeing if a novel had come out yet...

That's why... Just a little...

Saying you'll stop means all of it. Everything.

"A bit", "a little", or "one moment" and it won't change.

But as soon as I'm finished with this, I definitely plan to quit...

Whether you quit something, or do something,

the significance of accomplishing it is the same.

What you need is action and sincerity.

Is that toward my husband and son?

No. This has nothing to do with outsiders.

It's sincerity toward yourself.

Those "outsiders" are my family.

Regardless of blood relation or the nature of your connection,

anyone who is not you is an outsider.

That's why you have to think and decide for yourself.

Whether it's necessary or not is up to you.

It bothers others, but you want to do it...

That is your will.

Whether or not your child cries or your husband worries,

the computer is friendly.

The Net is your own world.

That's it.

If that's the path you've chosen for yourself...

Throw away the present world and go after that which you seek.

You desire understanding of the importance

and the difficulty of that which will be lost.

That is true resolution.

So... What is important to you?

I want to stop using the computer.

Really?

Because I don't want to lose the life I have now.

--Can you do it on your own? --I'll do my best.

But if you could do something...

--You want a little help? --Yes.

The computers in this house?

This is all.

It will be okay as long as you're able to quit this, right...

Yes.

All right. I'll help you to quit.

In exchange, there will be a price.

Money?

I don't need money.

Let's see...

I'll take that chair.

That high chair?

Why?

Is that okay?

Yes.

--Watanuki, the bat... --Huh?

You know, names are important.

Names are?

Yes. There is power in a name.

Whether living or not, when you invest that name in something,

that which bears the name is able to bear that same power.

Yeah, I don't see what you're getting at.

"Zantetsuken" [iron-cutting sword]

Yuko-san, you're not...

Hold it!

Hmph. I've cut another trifling thing.

Oh!! It only cut the computer!

Well, I'll be taking my payment.

The rest depends on you.

Ah, Yuko-san, please wait!

With her computer broken, she'll quit using the Net, huh.

On that computer, at least.

Huh?

If she goes out,

she can get her hands on any number of computers, you know.

But Yuko-san, you said you'd help her out.

Like I said, the one who chooses is her.

I said the rest was up to her.

That kind of seems like an immoral salesman palming off a fake.

Because I did what I did,

that deception resulted in such an equivalent payment.

This time, it doesn't end with just this high chair.

We can only do so much.

Are we going to be taking that route again?

Hmm? We're going home by train.

T-Train!? Why?

Because I want to.

Let's take that other route.

I'll even put up with those weird things.

It's shameful, carrying this stuff.

Yuko-san!

Mama...

W-What is it?

Mama, where's my chair?

This feeling is welling up for the first time.

The transparent ring connects, yes, our eyes meet, baby, it's you.

Unto the coloring of the sky, reincarnation is beginning.

The lamp of my heart is lit, the door of insight is opening.

More than glossing things over, I'd rather have your real intentions.

Reserve is the password, someday we'll solve it.

This feeling is welling up for the first time.

Pulling my arm, facing each other, don't be afraid, call a name...

Even I will certainly be reborn.

Falling, crying, feeling, everything for a reason.

Big, red, and in full bloom...

The concealing darkness in the shadow of those flowers...

That which invites is a young thing.

That which guides is a revered thing.

The underworld and the transient world, a fleeting evening...

A rain coupled with death is incessantly falling.

Next time, Holic, "Hydrangea".

Shall I grant your wish?