01x03 - The Watchful Heart

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Previously on
Fatal Attraction...

I want you to help me find

a copy of my old case file.

The first thing we do is rerun

all the prints that were found

on the scene that weren't yours.

Maybe some people

who weren't printed or arrested

15 years ago have
been arrested by now.

I just wanted to update you

on Tracy Sims.

She's unconscious again,

but I was able to talk to her.

And she ID'd him. She said

he was the one who beat her.

If you
could have the ideal

relationship with
him going forward,

have you thought about
what that would be?

I just want
to hold his hand.

Did you take something, Alex?

Pills.

I took all of them.

Morning.

Good morning.

See the hearing's been pushed?

I did, yes, thank you and... oh.

Excuse me.

- How are you today?
- Okay.

I had a dream last
night this giant snake

bit me on the face.

That's disturbing.

Beatrice, here for Kosna?

Yep, it's been a while

since I've been up against
one of Norman's juries.

Can't say that I missed it.

I know that
you're scared.

And also this robbery
wasn't the first time

that you've experienced
physical violence in your life.

Yeah, but it's not the same.

No, it's not.

But it can still
make you feel like...

like you're someone that...

violence is drawn to.

The fact that it
keeps happening to you

means that it's going to
keep happening to you.

But those men,

they were strangers to you.

And the way that
your case is going,

there's no reason to believe
that they won't plead out.

And with a plea

comes no victim
disclosure of any kind.

Not even your name.

What if there isn't one?

- A plea.
- Then we'll handle that.

But there will be.

So, for now...

why don't we get some
of these other things

off your plate.

The broken hot water heater.

What is your landlord's number?

I'm in the mood to get loud.

Morning.

How's it going?

Did you see it? It was so tense.

I love a buzzer beater.

I mean, a win's a win.

Defense was for sh*t though.

I knew you were gonna say that.

What happened?

Oh, this defendant yesterday,
he wanted to get out

of custody, I reminded
him that he can't,

I torqued it a bit. It'll
be fine by tomorrow.

In the meantime...

why don't you put
a fritter on it?

You can't keep doing this.

I was just worried.

- I got back and you were gone.
- Mm.

So what happened
when you went back?

He was sweet.

He said he's only ever
afraid of losing me,

is the reason always
for what he does.

I say, he makes me
sell his drugs for him

so he won't lose me?

He didn't already k*ll me
once because the hospital

was too good and fast at
their job for me to die,

but he's afraid to lose me?

- You said all that?
- Yes.

To myself.

I'm not mad at you.

Why?

After all what you did
for me, I would feel mad.

Maybe you should.

Would that help?

Because I'll totally do
it. I like being mad.

He blames you. Artem.

He says we never had
trouble before you.

Well, I did invent trouble.

I'm with
Victims Services.

Instead of Conchita Lewis.

- For the Siddiqui case.
- Calendar number?

Um...

Six. It's six.

All right, I've got it.

What's your name?

It's Alex Forrest.

- That fritter looks good.
- It is good.

Plus, it was free, so...

Nawaz?

Hi, Mona. I'm Alex.

I met you with Conchita.
Do you remember me?

- Yeah.
- Yes.

Here's how today's
going to go...

Big day.

All the times I
had to remind you

don't do anything
to make the jury

feel bad or feel sorry

for the man that
m*rder*d Yalina.

But today...

this is...

This is the sentencing
phase. Today is the day

for all the emotions,
and this is the place.

Okay?

They are, actually,
really, really well.

I'm glad to hear it.

I thought
that you would be.

You know, considering...

how often you had to listen

to how well things
were notgoing.

Well, how are you doing
with finding someone there?

It's just, uh...

you know, with their
schedules and...

my schedule, it's...

even if you work that part out,

then, you know, you have
to, you have to meet,

and then you have to click.

- That's just the process.
- I know, but how do you know...

in one session?

Right? Look how long it took us.

Alex...

I-I know, but this is
what I'm thinking, okay?

I don't even really need...

like, a regular scheduled thing.

At all, I just...

need advice sometimes.

You know, from somebody
who knows me...

I'm not certified in Californi.

I understand that,
but even over...

I'm talking about
over the phone, so...

it seems pretty stupid to me
that you can't even talk...

You have to keep looking.

I mean, I am. I...

You sound mad.

I'm not.

Okay.

You know, you can say that,
but I can actually tell

if you're mad at me or not,

so I don't know why
you wouldn't just...

Take care of yourself. Bye now.

The hidden source is
the watchful heart.

The hidden source is
the watchful heart.

The hidden source
is the watchful heart.

The hidden source
is the watchful...

The hidden source is
the watchful heart.

The hidden source is...

The hidden source is
the watchful heart.

- Hey.
- What are you doing downstairs?

Mendoza's out sick.

I had to cover. What
60-year-old gets f*cking mono?

- g*dd*mn it.
- You're having a day.

Jesus Christ, I-I...

Got a flat yesterday.

It's unfixable.

guys
telling me when I can show up,

when I can have lunch,
when I can take a sh*t.

I'm a D.A., I sh*t when I want.

So is Judge Glynn gonna
retire, too, now that you are?

You're the only
one who makes sure

he doesn't drink before lunch.

Sometimes I tell him I
put Sambuca in his coffee.

- Do you?
- He didn't.

But I didn't.

- But he thinks I did.
- Cheers.

Does he...?

You know it's not
happening, right?

What's not happening?

He didn't get it,
the appointment.

Oh, my God,
you're kidding!

Dan, uh, Gallagher,
he was up for judge.

Wow, that's crazy.
What happened?

Maybe somebody
called in a bigger favor?

Or there's people that
still hate his dad.

Maybe they got together,
and did a little conspiring.

People being dicks
isn't a conspiracy.

All right.

I'm gonna head back. You coming?

Uh, yeah, I'm gonna

grab a cookie first.
You want a cookie?

Of course, that's
why I'm leaving.

I'm here... minimum
three times a week.

Which means that
since you moved,

I have been here 90 times.

Must be the
place to be, I guess.

Or just the place

I always am.

Are you okay?

You seem...

I don't know,

something right now.

Yeah, I probably do.

It'll be okay.

Or it won't.

Good night.

Good
night, ladies.

See you next week, Doc.

Hey.

Uh-oh, he bailed on you.

Right?

Too hungry to wait, I guess.

What were those, um...

the sandwiches,

with the peppers,
the Italian ones?

Ah, the Calabrian.
The-the hot pepper salad.

Yeah, I think about
those all the time.

Oh, um...

Oh, sh*t, yeah, I
couldn't remember,

uh, where I...

I just bought another one.

- So... Keep it.
- Oh.

That's how long it's been
since we've hung out.

You forgot where it was.

I just... things
have just been crazy.

I mean, I-I had to stop
seeing new patients.

Start a waiting list.

Uh...

Yeah, so I-I just don't
want you to think that...

it's just my schedule,

I just have no time for
anything these days.

I don't, I really
don't think that.

Okay, good, because...

I-I don't think the way that
you've been acting for the past

however long has been a
function of scheduling,

Paul, and remember
before you argue,

just how long it's been since
you've returned a phone call

or even answered the door.

Or at least...

remember that I remember.

I'm... I've just
been crazy busy.

- Really.
- So you... I mean, you still,

like, want to be friends, right?

- Yeah. Of course I do.
- Okay, good.

Great.

'Cause I've been crazy
busy, too, but I...

I always have time
for my friends.

What I don't have
time for, though,

is criminals.

That's what I don't
have time for.

In fact, I have a
professional obligation

to report criminals.

I mean, obviously, I work
in the criminal courts.

But friends, I always
have time for those.

Thanks.

I can hear you now.
Yeah, go ahead.

You want the
works on both?

Yes, uh, the hot pepper,

the pepper salad, is
that in the works?

- The Calabrian...?
- Yep.

- Then yes.
- Okay, two with the works.

It'll be 20 or 30 minutes.

- Thank you.
- All right.

- Hi.
- Hi.

Hold on.

Oh, God.

Um...

because I found them, and
I thought you would like

- to have them.
- Is it an apology?

No. For what?

I don't know, for the
things that you said?

For the way that you said them?

Okay, wait.

Which time that you
overreacted was this?

Okay, then how
about you apologize

for how you f*cking
ruin everything?

What are we ruining again?

What, what is there to ruin?

Seriously, tell me, Alex,
because I-I don't know.

Yeah, why would you?

Fu... I have to go.

Hey-oh, I got a f*ck
of sandwich here.

- For someone named Alex?
- Yeah, just put them on the table.

Okay.

You expecting guests?

Or you think you're gonna handle

both of these bad
boys by yourself?

'Cause if you're trying to
save one for tomorrow...

bad idea, too many condiments.
It soaks the bread.

But if you want to do it, just
know we don't endorse that sh*t.

So, it's up to you.

Yeah.

Your whole thing has
too many condiments.

Yeah, okay.

Do you know how? I
man, can you roller-skate?

I mean, I don't
remember doing it,

but I remember that I did it.

I used to be able
to roller-skate.

I'd probably break my
a*s if I tried now.

I think you should
do it, seriously.

So what do you think?

Is this the one?

It's certainly on budget.

Though I may not be able
to find myself a job, so...

Come on, daughter of
a general contractor.

- What do you think?
- Well, um...

It was weird how hard they
made it for you to get in

to see it and that's
kind of a red flag.

And, uh, also Arthur would
say that they just painted

this part of the wall here and
then they left the cans there

because they want you to
think that they're renovating,

but once you're in, they're
never gonna come back

and finish it, and,
uh, also the bathtub

is spraypainted white
to make it seem like

- the enamel's not coming off.
- So Arthur would keep looking, huh?

Yeah.

Yeah, Arthur would
definitely keep looking.

You get along with him?

I mean, I don't know
why you wouldn't.

You always did.

- Um...
- What do you call him?

Sorry. I'm sorry.

I shouldn't have said that. I...

That, I'm...

There is something
that I-I just,

I want to say this
to you, that...

I really thought I was
gonna die in there.

And in the beginning,
I didn't even know

how to...

start thinking about that.

And once I did...

I just was thinking
of you and your mom.

And I would just drown in it.

So I really had two choices.

And both of them were bad.

But one of them
was better for you.

I mean, I don't know, I just,
I think if I would've made

- the other choice I probably wouldn't...
- Okay.

You know, I think
this isn't the one.

- Why don't we head down to the other place...
- Uh, it's

getting later than I thought,
so I'm actually gonna go.

Um... are you good to get
over there by yourself?

- Of course.
- There's a bus stop that's

on this side. It's
about half a block away.

You can probably find that.

- Thank you.
- Yeah.

For today.

I'll grab some
meatballs in a second.

Hey, Dan.

I thought you said you came here
a minimum three times a week.

And what did Mike
have to say about that?

Nothing.

I never told him.

I actually
never told anybody.

At least 40% of
those wins the jurors

were probably not listening
to a word you said,

they were too busy
watching your mouth.

I'm going to the ladies' room.

Yep.

Fraud Bureau Steve Park?

Yes, I've been assigned
to a case of his,

but I've never met him, so...

Um, smart guy.

Slightly an enormous as*h*le.

Verschlimmbesserung.

That's, um...

when you make a bad
situation worse.

Like you're trying to apologize

to somebody for
calling them stupid

and you accidentally
call them old.

That is a weirdly
specific example.

Pardon my arm.

"You are fantastic.

Thank you."

Did he give
you his number?

We-we work together, remember?

He knows that I have it.

So you still think that
there's nothing to ruin?

Well, he's definitely
leaving the door open.

Leaving it up to you to
walk through it, though.

But that is what he wants
me to do, though. Right?

Well, he's a lawyer,
you say he's a good one.

I'm not a lawyer
but even I know:

You leave a door open,
someone's gonna come in.

Quincy... Ah!

Oh, my... Oh, no.

Quincy, what are
you doing, buddy?

I'm so sorry. Are you okay?

- Yes, I...
- Hey. Hey.

- Twisted my dignity.
- Hey. Buddy.

Come here, buddy. Come here.

Oh, I lost an earring.

You can't do that, okay?

You can't do that.
You're too big now.

You're not a puppy anymore.

You're so tired,
it's been a big day.

Been a big day.

So tired. Been a big day.

You k*ller attack dog.

Hi, buddy.

Everybody tired? Don't
worry, just hang in there.

I have some hamburger
I can make him.

No.

No.

He does not do well
with dietary changes

and I cannot afford
a car blowout

after what he did
at home last night.

I just got to take him
home and feed him there.

Also, I just realized...

the cleaning service might've
left my place unlocked.

Thank you for today.

It was great.

Yeah.

It kind of really was.

Which is just my luck.

So what are
you asking me?

It's just, uh,
their mom is gone,

my wife is gone.

It's just the two
of them and me left.

And they're saying
either I drop it...

or they're gonna leave me.

If the case against your
grandsons doesn't proceed,

then you have to take on

all of the debt that they
incurred in your name.

That means you either
have to pay that off

or you have to
declare bankruptcy.

What if the case goes forward
in some different way?

Like if y'all...

Like if the state pressed
charges against them?

Not me, but on my
behalf, you know?

That way, the kids
get consequences.

And I'm not the one who...

Avery, you have
been here before.

You know how this goes.

You're just making it harder
by pretending that you don't.

Now, you get to decide...

if you want to be with the
people that hurt you, or alone.

But it has to be one or
the other, because...

those are the choices
that you have.

- Oh, hey.
- Hey.

Uh, hope you're not looking
for Dr. Paul.

Keys in my mailbox,
no notice or anything.

Floors were refinished
when he moved in.

Now it looks like one of those
Zen garden things you rake

except he forgot the
f*cking sand.

Now I got to deal with it
or the management company

is gonna make me eat sh*t.

So, sorry in advance.

Next however many
days around here

it's probably gonna get
a little hard to breathe.

And please give the
defendant written notice

of her right to appeal.

Court dismissed.

All right.

Who was it who pinch-hit

for you on the Siddiquis?

- Alice?
- Oh.

- Alex. Mm-hmm.
- Alex. Right.

Yeah, I
mean, that could work.

Do you want to brief
her? Do you want me to...

No, no. You can
take care of that.

She seemed smart.

She's in a
coma at Saint Matthew's,

and no one is optimistic.

So, the thing is, if she does
not identify Jonathan Coleman

as the one who assaulted
her, we have no case.

So, Dan is getting creative

and he said you did
great with the Siddiquis,

that you're smart.

- I like to think so.
- So do I.

Since I'm the one who hired you.

But I've been wrong before.

Right.

And we
watched it together.

My mother didn't want to
because it was upsetting,

it was about w*r.

But he loved it so much, so...

I wanted to love it, too.

I couldn't follow the names
or the battles, but...

then this actor, he
read the last letter

that this Union Army major
wrote to his wife Sarah

before he died at, uh...

My dad would k*ll me.

Um, Bull Run, I think.

And then I understood
everything.

Sullivan Ballou was his name.

He crystallized his whole world

into just pure emotion,
in that letter.

Everything else breaking down,

fading away to just...

love, in the face of death.

My dad remembers all
the battlefields,

the dates, but...

I remember this.

"Forgive my many faults,

"and the many pains
I have caused you.

"How thoughtless and foolish
I have sometimes been.

"How gladly would I struggle
with all the misfortune

"of this world, to
shield you from harm.

"But O, Sarah...

"if the dead can come
back to this earth,

"I shall always be near you.

"Amidst your happiest scenes

and gloomiest hours, always."

I didn't think that
this is what we were doing.

What were we doing?

Really, what were we doing?

Alex, I'm sorry, but I
really do have to go.

Well, then you really should go.

Do you want me to stay?

But you can go.

It's not what it looks like.

Looks like yesterday's
clothes, big guy.

Looks like the wages of sin.

If falling asleep on
your couch was a sin,

then everyone in this
bureau would burn.

Yeah, no, that was good.

That was good, a
little self-righteous,

no pause to think.

Overall convincing.
I'll give you a nine.

Can I take these socks?

"To each according
to his needs."

Oh, really?

The walk of shame closet
is a Marxist utopia?

What, so you're admitting
you're doing the walk of shame?

You honestly think I could
pull it off, living like you?

I fell asleep on my couch.

Are these cashmere?

They're amazing.

You know what? I believe you.

Hmm. Alex Forrest
from Victim Services

was looking to have
a quick word with you

about the Sims case.

I put her in the
conference room.

I just wanted to...

apologize, um,
for what happened.

I'm so sorry.

- You don't have to do that.
- I do.

No, there's...

absolutely nothing for
you to be sorry about.

I appreciate that, but...

your kindness, I'm
so grateful, your...

- discretion.
- Alex.

I'm just happy that you're okay.

I am.

I am, I don't...

know what that was.

Compassion fatigue?

A failure to empathize
with yourself, maybe?

Hmm. Maybe.

Maybe exactly. That's...

exactly the kind of thing
you always just seem to know.

That I have to at
least, at least ask.

If there's something
that we can...

um, you know, some sort of...

I don't know, casually
adjacent hanging out,

maybe the occasional very
bland margarita, or...

I know what you're saying.

I just don't see
how that could work.

In fact, it definitely wouldn't.

Of course not.

That, I mean, what
are we even...

What are we even talking about?

Anyway, um...

Thank you.

For everything.

Hey.

I'm so sorry, I...

As soon as you have to be at
a place at a certain time...

- Hey, don't worry about it.
- That's when your client

brings up a complaint they've
been hanging onto for months.

It's okay. It's okay. Don't,
don't... worry about it.

I don't have as much
time as I thought.

Sorry about that, too.

I like the...

You're wearing it well.

Thank you.

So are you.

What did you actually
want to talk about?

Uh...

You know, did Ellen...

- tell you about my, um...
- Yeah.

She did.

And Mike, Mike's always
kept me up to speed

on whatever he knew about you.

That's... not a surprise.

It does make some
of the other things

a little harder for me to...

wrap my head around, though.

Like what?

Like...

Even though...

I still feel like I
made the right decision,

it blows my mind how
completely you just...

Believed you?

Took you seriously?
Did what you asked?

This is what we're doing here?

No matter how wrong and
insane it felt to me,

you said it was what you needed.

That if you had
to think about us,

thinking about
you in that place,

you wouldn't survive.
You said "survive."

So wrong and so insane that you

just completely
went along with it?

You wouldn't
authorize my visits,

you sent all my letters back.

I can't fight with someone
who-who won't engage.

Also, I had to show Ellen

how to live with a
thing you can't change.

So what did you say to her?

That you wouldn't...

be in our lives, but you'd
never stop loving her.

And how did she take that?

She was really bad, it was bad.

She talked about
you for a long time,

then she stopped.

Maybe she thought that's
what you wanted her to do.

Now I'm gonna be late.

Hi, it's me. Again.

I'm gonna have this new special,

this robiola cheese
with roasted tomatoes.

You know for me to
order not meatballs,

it must be pretty good.

But I don't know how much
longer it'll be on the menu.

So this is your heads-up.

Because I haven't seen
you here in a while.

It's starting to
make me feel like

maybe I misunderstood something,

except I really don't
think that I did.

I think you might have, though.

And so I want to help.

I want to help you be the man

that I know that you are.

For your sake and
for everybody else's.

But in order to do that,

I can't let you pretend
like I don't exist.

Because I doexist.

And I'm not going
to be ignored, Dan.

How was it?

I wanted to lick the plate.

The open house

is officially over at 5:00

so somebody's gonna
come back around 6:00,

6:15-ish to pick her up.

And it'll probably be me.

Okay, well, we'll just
be here reading I assume.

- How many books did you bring today?
- Five.

For not even a whole day?

She also has a language arts
worksheet she needs to finish.

Well, this is Nana's
house, we don't do homework

- at Nana's house.
- You heard the woman.

You're supposed to
be the grown-up here.

Yeah, well, I'm supposed
to be a lot of things.

Bye.

Bye.

Hey, I've
got a Dr. Diamond

calling from Saint Matthew's.

Okay, yep.

Hold on.

- Yeah?
- Hi, this is Dan Gallagher.

Hey, uh, your name was in
the file on Tracy Sims.

- Contact DDA directly in case of...
- Yep, yep.

So, I'm calling to inform
you Ms. Sims passed away.

Oh, sh*t, that's...

That's terrible news, I-I...

I just assumed she
was getting better.

Why?

Well, because of...

you know, that day when my...

colleague was there
and she spoke with her.

Ms. Sims came in braindead

and that status did not change.

Not to speak, not to anything.

I don't know who
told you otherwise,

but they are not correct.

Okay, thank you.

Thank you.

This is Alex Forrest,

leave me a message.

- Oh.
- Excuse me.

- Thank you for coming.
- Of course.

Idiots.

I-I agree.

I do.

Hi.

- Hi.
- This is Alex...

I forgot your last name.

- Forrest.
- Alex Forrest,

my husband Dan.
Dan, Alex Forrest.

- No, I know him already.
- Oh.

From, uh, the criminal courts.

- I work in Victim Services.
- Oh.

That's... with Conchita, right?

- Right.
- Wow, are you kidding?

You were right, Beth.

This place, I mean, it's...

It's magical.

Well, we've been
very happy here.

I can feel it.

The happiness.

- Thank you so much.
- Of course.

And, uh, yeah, maybe
I'll see you around.

What do you think? She
really in the market?

Um...

I mean, yeah, I
don't know, maybe.

Earl.

So they gave you parole, huh?

Yep, that's what they did.

And you haven't lost the
gift of the blarney then

because that is total bullshit.

So let me guess.

You want to talk about your case

and all the things that I
would've done differently

in retrospect, which
is none of them.

Earl, can we do this inside?

Yeah, I'm not doing
it at all, Mikey.

That case was so solid it
could make me a sandwich.

Can you just listen? Please,
you don't even have to talk.

- Can I? Sure. Will I?
- Earl, will you cut the sh*t?

Yeah, but you know
what's pretty crazy, though?

That you're letting
him drag you into this.

I mean, I would say
"have you no shame?"

But as we all found
out a while ago,

you don't.

I don't, I don't...
I don't understand

w-what did he want you to say?

I don't know. It's like...

the shittiness of his situation

was why he was supposed
to be the one to say

how things were gonna go,
but then it was also why

we weren't supposed
to listen to him.

Don't try to logic this.

No, he got to tell
us what to do then, so...

now he also gets to tell us
how we should've felt about it.

Or something.

What? Please, just let me
get my scissors and go.

You know that he thinks
you're a part of it too, Dad?

- Part of why we never...
- He said that?

I mean, kind of, yeah.

Do you think he has a point?

- About me being...
- About any of it.

Ellie, do you think that I
should've tried to keep him

more actively in your mind?
Should I have reached out

after however many
years to see if he

changed his mind, to check?

Honestly?

Those seem like crazy
things to expect,

but I didn't lose my whole life.

I don't know what
it's like to be him.

But also it sounds
like that shadow stuff

that you were talking
about, isn't it, Ellie?

If it isn't part of us,
it doesn't bother us.

If you ask me, he's
mad at you guys

because he's mad at himself

and-and... and he knows he
doesn't get to be mad, but...

I mean, that...
doesn't mean he isn't.

What the f*ck was that?

I was going to call you.

I don't know what you
think you're doing,

but it's going to stop.

- Right now.
- It's not going to stop.

- Why would it stop?
- Why?

Because you are not going
to come into my home,

into my private life, and
threaten me and my family.

What are you talking...?
I-I didn't do that.

How could I do that?

Dan, wh...?

What are you so afraid of?

Really, you remember
what it was like.

Right? You remember
what you were...

Stop! Just stop this!

I spoke to the
hospital about Tracy.

And I don't know what
f*cking insanity...

Why you would even try to
do something like that,

but I could end your career.

And if you come after
my family again, I will.

You know, some
people would say

it doesn't count
as a kitchenette

if there's a stovetop
and a fridge.

But no sink.

Well, there's a sink
in the bathroom.

Yes. Exactly.

And the rest is my office,
which I don't even use.

Because I do
everything on my phone.

Now, we just can't
ever find a tenant

that you can peacefully
coexist with.

One was too friendly,

one was hiding a cat,

and one had doll eyes,
whatever that means.

Oh, I know exactly
what that means.

Well, we'd be giving you

an extremely competitive
monthly rate of... nothing?

At least for now.

- I'll take it.
- Okay.

But when I come in here, I
get to sit in my chair, hmm?

Ah. Honestly, you'd be
doing us a favor, though.

You know Mom, she's on
the ball for 92, but...

man, her bones are
like rice noodles.

Ugh.

This is amazing,
Mike, thank you.

You are welcome. Oh, sh*t.

A set of prints
came back already.

That's fast. Why so fast?

Because the guy they belong to

is in prison now
apparently, Calipatria.

Some...

pill mill doctor, drug
dealer guy, Paul Halliwell?

Mean anything to you?

Hmm? No? But it will.

Uh, first we got to
get your stuff, huh?

Sorry there's no bathtub.

You know, not something
I really missed.

Yeah, you know, you see
enough crime scene photos

of the creative ways
that people use bathtubs,

they kind of lose their charm.

I need you.

Please, I don't
care if you're not

certified in California, just
please just call me back.

- Hey.
- Hey.

Hey, um, are we supposed to,
like, sign in or something?

No, no, but if you need
somewhere to leave your shoes,

Lorena is gonna watch
'em while we skate.

Cool.

It's fine. Just
put them there.

God, everybody here is
like really good, huh?

How good are you at this?

More towards the front?

- Middle?
- No, no, the back.

Uh, the back of the back.

- Even though you own skates?
- That I thrifted for this.

- Oh, God. Oh. Oh, yep. Yep.
- Maybe you want a little help?

Oh, yep. Could you just shield
me from ridicule for a second?

All right, all right.
Hi. You're good.

Hi.

Hey. I feel like I know you.

Do you T.A. for Macksey?

Yeah, for Macksey.

- Macksey. Yeah.
- Okay.

- Okay. All right.
- Cool.

- You want to...? Okay.
- Yeah, sure.

- Hold on to my hips? Hold on.
- Let's do it. Yeah. Definitely.

Okay.

Oh, my God.

This is crazy. Why
the f*ck are we doing this?

I don't know, I don't know.

Oh, my God.

Ugh.

With this episode,

I like this peek behind
the curtain for Alex.

I want to know why she thinks

these decisions
that she's making

are the right decisions to make.

Alex's
perspective episode,

it started with Glenn
Close in interviews

saying that if anyone was ever

going to reboot or
reimagine Fatal Attraction,

that the only version
of it that she felt like

would be worth telling

would be the one from
Alex's point of view.

The concept of that
stuck in my head.

In the first two episodes,

I only have a handful of scenes.

Even though we are messing
with perspective shifts,

it's not until the later
episodes, starting with 103,

we get to see her side of things

and just how different it is

from what we were
initially presented with.

One of the things
that I loved most

about the way that we
are telling the story

is those are big
shoes to step into,

but there's also an
opportunity given to us

to really get into
Alex's psychology.

We wanted to make sure
that we allow Lizzy

to play a character that
is all of the things

that she was in the
movie, but more.

I decided early on, and I
talked to both Josh and Lizzy,

that I wasn't gonna tell them
whose perspective I was in.

I didn't want them to start
catering their performance

or changing it based on
whose perspective I was in.

It'll be okay or it won't.

I held back information
when I showed things

through Dan's
perspective visually,

that then you get to see when
you're in Alex's perspective.

And so for the people
really paying attention,

her hand might have
dropped out of frame

in Dan's perspective, but now
that we're in her perspective,

we get to go down there
and see what she was doing.

We really play with
different points of view

of the same affair, and
when you look at a story

from two different
points of view,

you get a whole
different truth to it.

Brother, you said you came here

a minimum three times a week.

I think that's probably the
most interesting new layer

that we're putting
into Fatal Attraction.

How are you doing
with finding someone there?

In 103, Alex is
speaking to her former therapist.

She's constantly trying to
revive that relationship

and the therapist
has boundaries.

I just need advice
sometimes, you know,

from somebody who knows
me. I'm not certified

in California.

Alex really feels

like, "All I was trying
to do is call and tell you

how well everything is going,"

but the audience will know

that the only reason
things are going well

is because she just
met this handsome man

who lost his train of thought
when he looked at her,

and therefore, they
must be in love.

For her, she puts
people on a pedestal.

They're everything to her.
She thinks they're amazing.

So I don't know

why you would just...
Take care of yourself.

Bye now.

And as soon as they
puncture that fantasy,

very easy for her to
switch them over to,

"This is a terrible
person and I hate them."

It's just a tiny little
taste of how her brain works.

The hidden source is
the watchful heart,

the hidden source is...

The line, "The hidden
source is the watchful heart"

comes from a wonderful poem
by a Northern Irish poet

named Derek Mahon that's called

"Everything Is Going
to Be All Right."

Alex is struggling with
severe intrusive thoughts

that sometimes
make her lose time.

When the therapist rejects
her, she starts to feel as if

she's gonna go into that state.

Part of the coping
mechanism she's evolved

has been to turn this
poem into a mantra

so that she can keep herself
present by reciting it.

It's certainly not for
the meaning anymore.

Alex Forrest from Victim
Services was looking

to have a quick word with
you about the Sims case.

There's a moment in the
film, she comes to his office

to end things and apologize.

Thank you for everything.

She goes to shake
his hand to say goodbye

and he pulls her into a hug.

This is a pivotal
moment in the film

and something we definitely
wanted to have in the series.

Within the scene, we actually
see the transition to,

"Oh man, this is gonna be
more than I thought it was."

He should have
just let her walk away.

He is giving this
very fragile woman

pretty extreme mixed messages.

I think it makes sense
for Alex for her to think

maybe she misread the situation.

Starting to make me feel

like maybe I
misunderstood something,

except I really don't
think that I did.

And maybe he doesn't
want to end things.

And it's up to her to remind him

why he doesn't want to
end things with her.

I wanna help you be the man
that I know that you are.

We are watching a replay of
events that we already saw

to remind the audience
that there's two people

in every conversation.

Dan thought it was one way,
Alex took it in this way.

And that's why you need to think

about the consequences
of your actions.

Dan just assumed he knew.

While he's assuming them,

we don't want the
audience to assume them

and that's, for me,
what 103 is about.