01x03 - Grateful

[bunniefuu]

[Belle] It would've been different
if Milla was in the same city.

Open the f*cking door!

[Belle] We'd met online,
but then had gotten so close.

- We got each other.
- [phone dings]

- We need to use proper doctors.
- Oh, because you know.

You've looked at none of the research.

[Alma] There's no point in coming
if you don't have the book.

You will buy the book today.

- You said you read the book.
- I read the articles.

The thing you need to understand is
Belle doesn't have friends.

She has hosts.

How's your business babe?

- My health, you mean?
- No.

I think I would like to try for a baby.

I'm Belle. Belle Gibson.

[Justin] Belle Gibson has faked
her entire cancer diagnosis.

- Why are you being so stupid?
- Why are you yelling at me?

[Belle] I wanna do an app.

One that tracks recipes,
gives health advice. Like a coach.

Or a friend.

Like the best friend you ever had.

[thrilling instrumental music playing]

[Hek] This is a true-ish story
based on a lie.

Some names have been changed
and characters invented. Which is...

- [knock at door]
- [snorts]

[Belle] Hek?

Do you care?

Should you?

Fake news. Post truth.

Our arrogance where we f*ck facts

and cherry pick
science we want to believe in...

[knock at door]

- [Belle] Hek?
- [groans]

Stories were meant to connect us.

But our compulsion to narrativize
and dramatize heroes journeys,

goodies, baddies.

We've become incapable
of objective thought.

- [knock at door]
- [Belle] Hek? You okay?

[speaking in Farsi]

[Hek exhales] You ready?

Don't be nervous. Don't be charming.

Simple answers. Don't overshare.

Did you sleep last night?

Yeah. Why?

You've got pubes on your chest.

Ah... I shaved.

Can I check we're all signed off
on the agreed questions?

I sent an updated version yesterday
at 2:00 p.m. PST.

I just have to say, Anais...

I love Women's Weekly
despite the circumstances.

This is genuinely so surreal for me.

My grandmother used to
subscribe every month

even when she couldn't afford it.

I would look at the women in the articles.

It was before I could read.

I would imagine what it would be like

to be that interesting
someone would wanna write about me.

I'm a big, big fan.

[Anais] Why don't you tell me
about yourself?

[Belle] Oh, okay.
What do you want to know?

Uh, well, I'm a Libra Sun.
Capricorn rising. [chuckles]

And I never had a father.

I don't say that to elicit sympathy.
It's just an objective fact.

But there are definitely father figures
who have guided me, shaped me.

We wanted to create software
that would empower lots of people.

And so we thought of ourselves,
what would we like to see?

I can't resist a good idea.
My biggest weakness is I can't say no.

[man] Focus obsessively
on solving a real problem.

Make something people want.

The good news is,
you don't need to open a factory.

You just need to open a laptop.

[Mark Zuckerberg] The web isn't going to
solve disease or solve poverty.

It makes it so that people can share
information effectively

and know what's going on.

When people are better informed,
they can make better decisions.

Yes, nice, mates.

We've got health and wellness
lifestyle guides,

a recipe conversion tool

and a shopping list function
which is so cute and fun.

But it's the 50 recipes,
all gluten-free, paleo, and all vegan.

I need to collaborate
with a photographic vision.

I don't sh**t food, though.

Food photography is so static.

I don't want it to be slops on a plate.
It needs to feel alive, kinetic.

[camera shutter clicks]

Like all your work.

You found my work on Insta, yeah?

[Sean] She just contacted you
out of nowhere.

Did you ever wonder if she was legit?

About the cancer?

No, no, no, that all tracked.

About the app?

Yeah, yeah.

She was a hustler, straight up.
That was obvious.

Welcome to HQ.

Lenny, this is Alex.

He's managing the iPhone app
and Christopher's coding Android.

How's it going?

Oh, no, they're wired in
for the next 20 minutes.

Like the Facebook movie,
we're going to do appletinis on Fridays.

Mocktails for me, obviously.

Okay, so I know
it doesn't look profesh yet,

but it's 3.1 by 5.6,

which is actually bigger
than most professional studios.

And whatever equipment you need,

we can just put it on
the company credit card.

I'm paying everyone 21.50 an hour.

Or we could explore foregoing
of an hourly fee

for more of a profit-share arrangement?

If that's of interest...

say 3%, all earnings?

Never saw a f*cking cent. And I've chased.

But she says that
the brain cancer makes her forget things.

What, like paying her bills?

Why'd you sign up?

She had taste, aesthetically.

Not every client has that.

And I guess she was pretty beguiling.

Oh, she's wriggling.

Fifteen weeks. She's the size of a peach.

You know, she was this...

she was this brave pregnant lady

who, sure, was dribbling sh*t.

Three years ago,
I was in chemo chucking hell,

poisoned by the medical establishment.

But she had a dream for the world,
and that's nice.

I feel it's more than a responsibility,

like a compulsion
to get what I've learned out there

into the hands of people who need it.

Besides, it feels nice
to believe in something sometimes.

Even if it isn't real?

Yeah, but you believe in it,
and it becomes real.

That's how perception works.
That's how startups work.

Like, I'm doing some work
on this hypnosis app at the moment.

Man, the results are f*cking unreal.

- You got some spare cash to invest?
- [laughs]

["Clap Your Hands" by Sia playing]

Whoo, whoo, whoo!

♪ Shake me out of my misery
Oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ Oh, oh, make me ♪

♪ Get out and wiggle it ♪

[camera shutter clicks]

♪ Clap your hands
Clap your hands ♪

♪ Turn the lights on my nights
This is life and we only get one chance ♪

♪ Oh, clap your hands
Clap your hands ♪

♪ Come on dance
Take a chance on romance ♪

♪ We only get one shot at love ♪

♪ Oh, clap your hands
Clap your hands ♪

♪ Turn the lights on my nights
This is life and we only get one chance ♪

Would have been, what,
three years ago, honey?

My diagnosis?

[nurse] Oh, you poor thing.

I think it was
the Gardasil that kicked it off.

I don't wanna invest time
into getting angry about it.

I personally think we're over-vaccinated,

- but you didn't hear that from me.
- [laughs]

Let's have a look. You're 23 weeks?

- Twenty-four.
- Yeah, on Tuesday.

I was so nauseous with my first.

This one's been an angel.

[machine warbling softly]

It's usually the opposite with girls.

Sorry. I'm just...

[machine warbling]

Yeah. Can you put the, um, sound up?

I'll pop out and grab a doctor.

I won't be long.

What are you doing?

I'm going to turn it off and on.

What a f*cking idiot.
You don't need the rhetoric.

- Clive!
- It just needs... just needs a reboot.

[Belle sighs]

[machine warbling]

At 23 weeks,

our options are
a vaginal delivery or a C-section.

There are risks and benefits to both.

If you're planning on
another vaginal birth in future,

I suggest you go with vaginal birth.

It's less invasive,

- and it might seem confronting...
- [Clive crying]

...but you'll be on your feet quicker
and home.

Aisling has some more information for you.
I recommend you have a read.

But we really need to get working
on this process.

- I'll come back.
- [sobs] Oh, f*ck!

Here's some more Miso to insert.

We've got to keep softening that cervix.

I don't want another pessary.

Can I just swallow this?
There's no efficacy difference.

Yep, fine. Just pop it under your tongue.

- Why can't--
- Shh.

Oh, God. This is all wrong.

- [Clive] I know.
- [groans]

[sniffles, sighs]

I need a candle or something.

I need a f*cking candle, Clive!

Um, do you want me to...
I'll go to the gift shop.

Oh, f*ck. I don't have my wallet.

Um... Do you have any cash?

- [Belle] Just go, Clive.
- [door opens]

- [sighs]
- [door closes]

- [Dr. Walsh] She's going.
- [Belle] Oh, f*ck.

Just breathe.

I want you to really give it a nice,
strong push. Breathe.

- That's it.
- [Belle groaning]

- That's it.
- You're very close. Good.

- [Belle groaning]
- [Dr. Walsh] Good.

- [groans]
- [Dr. Walsh] Almost there.

- [camera shutter clicks]
- Okay.

- [camera shutter clicks]
- Oh, let me see.

Good. I'll just take a couple more.

Can you angle down?

Oh. Okay.

And go.

[camera shutter clicks]

Thank you.

Good job.

[door opens]

[door closes]

Do you want to hold her?

[sighs]

You should. It's okay. You won't drop her.

[sighs softly]

Oh. She's perfect.

This is how nature does it.

Nature knows she's not perfect.

[breath trembling]

[nurse] Hi.

Do you wanna take a look now?

Uh, yeah.

There, she's up in Bellingen.

Does some really lovely placenta jewelry.

Hmm.

Which would be nice to have.

And her capsules.

They get your iron back up.

It's 400 dollars for 70 capsules.

But I'm sure I can get you a discount

given the circumstances.

Yeah, that'd be great.

[nurse] You'll feel a lot better soon.

[inaudible]

[Lucy] Sorry, so what is it?

[doctor] It's called
an implantable cardioverter defibrillator.

Okay? They pop it in

and if it senses an arrhythmia
it sends you an electric shock

to get you back in time.

[Lucy] And so... another surgery?

[doctor] It has to happen
before your next round of chemo.

[sniffles]

[sniffles]

I lost a baby
and poured myself into another.

[inhales deeply]

[Belle] The Whole Pantry was born
out of a place of unimaginable grief...

[exhales]

[Belle] ...but also out of love.

It's love that powers me.

Transforms me.

- Do you come here often?
- [Belle] It sustains me.

I saw you from across the bar.

Hey, look what I found on YouTube.

If we're brave enough to let it.

[audience applauding]

[Sean] Hey, Lucy Goosey.

- Hi!
- Hey! [chuckles]

Is it Jessica Rabbit?

Ariel, Little Mermaid.

And I've got my little chicken fillets
in tonight if anyone was interested.

Oh, nah. He wouldn't want me to look.

Do you know anything about
Belle Gibson's supposed miscarriage?

What's a bet it's also bullshit?

Sorry, he's off down a hole.

Do you know when he'll be out?
Dinner in 10 minutes.

sh*t.

I reminded you this morning.

We were gonna go back
to the office for a bit.

We met Belle's photographer today,

just need to finish off some transcribing.

Go to dinner, mate.

[Justin] When was this?

Uh, just this afternoon.

With who?

Dr. Chidiac and the cardiac surgeon.

I don't think they told me his name.

Did they say which artery?

God, you're in full work mode right now.

No, I mean, was it an important artery...?

Let's call it minor,
but with a great personality.

Any idea when
they wanna schedule the surgery?

We're circling back on that.

Happy? Sated?

I would have
come with you to the appointment.

I know, but you were busy.

- [sighs]
- You look beautiful.

Stupid.

It is so f*cking itchy.

Hey.

You ready?

[groans softly]

Come on.

Ah, there.

- Hi!
- Hey!

- Hello!
- [Lucy] Hi!

Oh, my God, you look amazing! [chuckles]

You look beautiful.

- [dog whimpering]
- [dog barks distantly]

- [sniffles]
- [door opens]

Hi.

[Belle clears throat]

The little one is in bed.

We watched a movie.

[sobs]

Thanks, Magda.

Where's Alex?

- Should be working.
- I sent them home.

There's still work to do.

They keep f*cking around.

Coding.

[phone vibrating]

It's Mum again. Do you mind if I...

I'll be quick.

Hi.

Hi.

- Yeah. [sighs]
- [door closes]

Yeah. [crying]

[Clive cries hysterically]

I think... it should be soon.

Yeah.

[birds chirping]

[door opens]

Cup of tea?

Mum was asking if, uh, you'd had
any pain the last couple of days.

You've been so busy.

Nothing.

Yeah, that's what I said.

It's no one's fault.
We did everything we could.

[scoffs]

Well, I did.

- Clive.
- What?

I can't even count
how many Wi-Fi networks are in this area.

The EMF load, the DNA damage.

- Didn't know you were worried about that.
- [scoffs] Are you kidding?

The... the f*cking mold in the kitchen,
I can't even work in it.

I've asked you so many times to move.

[sighs]

I have a knife in my head

and it's back because
of this f*cking apartment.

I wanted you to take care of us.

Yeah. Sorry.

[sighs]

- I'm sorry.
- [scoffs]

[boy] Mama.

Hi, bubby.

Oh, honey. You have a dream? Huh?

You have a dream?

Yeah, it's okay.

It's okay.

[man on laptop] ...not very generous.

Not really sure why.

Can't find my credit card though,
you know?

- [crowd laughing]
- Yeah, "ha-ha-ha."

Credit card theft
is really funny, isn't it?

He's on TV,
you can treat him with no respect.

That's bullshit, all right? I got no...

[Milla] Think of an intention...

and I want you
to blow it into the balloon.

So something that fills you up,

makes you feel excited and happy
and something that's for you, okay? Go.

[man 1] That's all product is.

It's a story we're telling the world

and it's constantly evolving
and we're putting it on this grand stage,

which is the world.

[man 2] Few ideas come fully formed
out of the air and just are realized.

[man 3] There is no limit in terms of
the numbers of millions of people

and the impact you can have.

[Belle] I was given six weeks to live.

Four months, tops.

The doctors were only treating my disease.

They didn't care about me.

And it reminded me just how much magic
there was in the world.

[Belle] I threw myself into research.

I read about
the healing properties of lemons,

and how they are a detoxification tool.

Everybody should write a book.
Everyone's got a story.

[Belle] And this got me thinking about
what foods I put in my body.

And it was that moment... [sighs]

that I started not thinking with my head.

We had a vision that we believed in
and so started with nothing.

It is sort of a dream come true...

[Belle] It all just clicked.

I wanted to live
and I wanted to live well.

[birds chirping]

Mum, you don't have to do that.

[Tamara] It's okay. I'm having fun.

What's Dad doing?

He's outside, being proud.

Dad!

You all right, Dad?

The white ants have
gotten into that veranda.

[Milla] Okay.

It's not a problem yet.

But you'll have to keep your eye on it.

We don't know how to look after a house.

Gonna need your help.

No sh*t.

It's okay.

I'm not sure any of us
wanna see Arlo with a chainsaw.

That's mean.

You know, he asked me
if he could ask you to marry him.

You know anything about that?

What did you say?

Ask the boss.

I'm way too low on the pecking order.

[chuckles softly]

[Milla] Okay,
I know the mortgage is massive.

And you think I should've
been sensible and bought a townhouse,

but I'm gonna plant orange trees,
do events.

Got a whole plan.

All of this from scratch?

My daughter.

Wow.

["Feel So Close"
by Calvin Harris playing]

♪ I feel so close to you right now
It's a force field ♪

♪ I wear my heart upon my sleeve
Like a big deal ♪

♪ And there's no stopping us right now ♪

♪ I feel so close to you right now... ♪

What's that? Plant-based?

How you feeling?

- Um... Better. Yeah.
- Hmm?

[grunts softly]

It's a bloody long driveway, isn't it?

- [Tamara] You made it!
- Yeah.

The flight got delayed in Abu Dhabi.

You know what? That's a lie.

That's a lie. I was in duty free
and they don't call the flights there.

Can you believe
they don't call the flights?

- Hello, Joseph.
- How are we?

- I'm good. You look handsome!
- Good to see you.

- Milla's got me making kefir.
- What's that?

Welcome home, darling.

Where's my Moo?

Um, bathroom, next to the bedroom.

Okay.

She'll be in there
shoving coffee up her arsehole.

- [Chanelle] Oh.
- But she'll want to see you, sweetheart.

[woman 1] Channy Fanny! How was Belgium?

Berlin. But, er... same, same. How's here?

Married. Pregnant.

Wow, me too!

I've missed you.

And I've missed you too.

Aso, I didn't miss you at all, mate.

[exhales]

[sighs]

Arlo Palmer.

- Hmm.
- Didn't he used to vomit on command?

- That was to get out of maths.
- Oh, yeah. And social studies.

He didn't really like
the book learning much.

Hmm. Reader, she married him.

- Are you finished?
- [laughing]

[both laugh]

[Milla] I fired my manager,
I'm doing it all myself.

And I don't wanna complain,
it's just a lot of pressure.

You know, mortgage, a wedding.

Everyone's so proud and I feel
so grateful all the f*cking time.

Sounds dreadful.

It is, and I feel like
I have to keep deserving it.

What I really want is just...

I want the book to win.

I want the business to...

Sorry, the caffeine
is hitting the bloodstream.

- a**l walls are paper thin.
- Hmm.

f*ck cocaine. Do an enema.

- [chuckles]
- I want to cure cancer.

f*ck. All right.

I wanna change the f*cking world.

And not because I'm grateful,

but because I was right
and they were wrong.

So you are good, right? Health-wise?

Never been better.

And you're eating? Not just juicing?

From where I was then to where I am now.

That makes me really happy. Hmm.

And hey, listen.

The business stuff.

You should be leveraging
the f*ck out of those numbers.

I can help with that.

- Really?
- Mmm-hmm.

["We Can Do Anything" playing]

♪ We can fly
Yeah we doin' it, oh ♪

♪ Hit the sky
Yeah we doin' it, oh ♪

♪ You and I
Yeah we doin' it, oh ♪

♪ We can do anything ♪

- [door opens]
- [Clive] Hi.

Headache?

Always.

Do you mind?

Just thought
you might wanna know, they, um...

they think it's ready.

- What?
- Yeah.

Why didn't you say it's ready?

Ah!

[Christopher] Load time.
It's 0.5 of a second.

- No glitches.
- [sighs in relief]

I did it.

You're artists. [laughs]

Thank you, thank you.
Thank you, thank you.

Hey! Happy new year! [laughs]

- [all laughing]
- Babe, tell me that's French.

Ah, from the champagne region,
s'il vous plaît.

This is your provisional profile
developer ID.

- Okay. Great.
- ["Get Lucky" by Daft Punk playing]

- You're gonna be famous!
- Can you get off me? Um...

- I download it here?
- Yeah, yeah.

Cheers. Cheers.

♪ Ah ♪

♪ The force from the beginning ♪

♪ Look ♪

♪ We've come too far ♪

♪ To give up who we are ♪

♪ So let's raise the bar ♪

♪ And our cups to the stars ♪

♪ She's up all night 'til the sun ♪

♪ I'm up all night to get some ♪

♪ She's up all night for good fun ♪

♪ I'm up all night to get lucky ♪

♪ We're up all night 'til the sun ♪

♪ We're up all night to get some ♪

♪ We're up all night for good fun ♪

♪ We're up all night to get lucky ♪

♪ We're up all night to get lucky... ♪

[scanner beeps]

Matchy-matchy.

Oh, my partner created it.

- Are you serious?
- Yeah.

Wow. Could you tell her thank you for me?

Yeah, for sure. She'd appreciate that.

My dad has lymphoma
and it's really helping him. [chuckles]

Oh.

No more hidden nasties.

No. Right.

♪ We're up all night to get lucky
We're up all night to get lucky ♪

♪ We're up all night to get lucky ♪

♪ We're up all night to get lucky ♪
♪ We're up all night to get lucky ♪

♪ We're up all night to get lucky... ♪

[door closes]

[Belle] Hi!

[Clive] Hi.

- You've been shopping?
- Yeah.

I bought that platter
from that place on Acland.

We need to do some entertaining.

I told Mum and Dad to come in June.

Awesome.

I am the flat pack king.

Uh...

When did this come?

- What's that?
- [gasps]

Oh.

Oh, my God. It's them.

It's the publishers.

[thrilling music playing]

Belle?

[exhales] f*ck.

I... I understand the rejection policy.
I'm just asking for feedback.

I'm actually a good friend
of one of your authors. Milla Blake.

Uh-huh. She's a dream.

Mmm.

My app, though, was downloaded
over 50,000 times in its first month,

which is...

You know, I read a study
of the endorphins found in chocolate.

Here.

Come on. The app is a hit.

Platinum.

Cupertino's gonna come knocking any day.

[sighs]

- I want a book, Clive.
- Yeah.

Something I can hold in my hands
so my son can look at it

and tell his kids, "My mum did that."

- [sighs]
- Yeah...

I just feel like
focusing on the app right now.

Letting it grow organically
away from the personal story.

And when we're ready to sell up...

He wants a bigger house already?

- Hmm. [sighs]
- [scoffs]

Babe, you can't sh*t in three bathrooms.

Yeah, the opposite.

This place, I'm... I'm nervous.

[scoffs] It's a tax deduction
and a home office.

- It's all right.
- Get off of me.

[Belle sighs]

I can do the photos here. You agreed.

- Yeah.
- You love living by the beach.

Yeah.

I met a woman doing groceries.

Her dad's sick.

She has the app and...

I think maybe
we go under the radar a little.

I think that cardigan
should go under the radar.

Short legs, long torso, not your fault.

Like maybe we just don't push it as much.

Dial back the cancer part?

So, what is that? You want me to...

I don't know, why don't we
talk to potential buyers?

I've started to dive into some research.

You've been reading
my Steve Jobs biography

and watching Silicon Valley.

You can do anything, Belle. You've...

You've proven that
maybe there's a business

that's not so much about your cancer.

All that energy in that space,
it's negative energy.

Then Milla gets to be the authority
on how to beat this disease?

Don't know. Feels wrong.

Yeah, well, fresh start.

Yeah.

Wants to turn me off and on at the wall.

No, no. Just future-proofing.

Some safeguards.

Who knows?

[secretary] Hi.
I have Belle Gibson for Julie.

She's in the lobby with me now.

Okay, bye-bye.

I'm sorry,
that's not on Julie's schedule today.

Oh, it's on mine.

I have a confirmation right here. Um...

There's been some disorganization lately
because of the merger.

Oh, that must be so stressful,
you poor thing.

I just flew up from Melbourne,
which would be totally fine,

but I had to cancel my appointment
with an oncologist.

Oh.

I'm just interested, I really am,
in how one might justify 35K on R&D

with a chef that no one's ever heard of.

That chef was trained by
Martin Berasategui.

She's gonna change the culture
of Basque cuisine in Melbourne.

That's just great for the Basque people
of Melbourne, all f*cking 55 of them.

Or they could just connect to this,

it's a new thing,
it's called the internet.

- Oh, no.
- And they can... Wait, wait, wait.

They could just Google the recipes.

Oh, I cannot keep having
this f*cking fight.

Oh, my God. I'm even older than I look.

Yeah, I'm aware of that, Julie.

- You know, I'm trying to help you, right?
- Yes, yes, thank you.

I have Belle Gibson for you.

Oh, right, right. Well, there you go.

- Okay, we're done.
- Off you trot.

Great.

Julie, relevance, Jules, changing world,
said with love, said with love.

I'm feeling the love.

- All love. Okay.
- Really feeling it.

Not a good time?
Shall I tell her to go away?

Who is it again?

Belle Gibson.

Brain cancer.

[Belle] We launched
a little under four months ago.

In the first month
we were downloaded 50,000 times

and that was with no marketing
other than my Instagram following.

I'm up past 200,000 followers,
all potential readers.

All the recipes on the app and in the book

spring forth from
an integrated whole food philosophy.

Paleo, vegan, gluten-free,
low sugar, of course.

[Julie] Hmm.

Where'd you get the recipes?

Um... They're mine.

I'm not a trained chef, self-taught.

I started with cakes, actually.

When I was little I used to read
The Women's Weekly Birthday Cake

under the covers. [chuckles]

It was my best friend.

Sold a million copies.

- My mentor created that book.
- Oh, wow.

Mmm.

I believe good food can save you.

But creating a cookbook,
I'm... I'm out of my depth.

I have everything to learn.

That's why I'm here.

Maggie Beer had no formal training.

Sometimes it works in your favor.
It makes you more... accessible.

Mmm.

I lied before...

to you.

I didn't have an appointment.

Did you just talk your way in here?

And am I supposed to find that impressive,

charming, desperate?

Determined.

Ah.

Ah, I see.

Okay.

Babe?

I need you to book me a hotel.

I'm cooking for Julie Gibbs tonight.

["Can't Get Enough of Myself"
by Santigold playing]

[doorbell rings]

[Julie] What are you gonna cook for me?

A peach tart.

Vegan.

I chose it because I used to pick
the peaches at my grandma's house.

She had an orchard
just outside of Brisbane.

Mmm. Well, let's drink to that.

- Clare Valley?
- Yeah.

There you go.

♪ Living a, living a fantasy ♪

♪ Live in, I live in my vanity ♪

♪ Hey Mom
Hey, do you see me now? ♪

♪ All I wanna do is what I do well ♪

♪ Ain't a gambler
But honey, I'd put money on myself ♪

♪ All I wanna do is bottle it to sell ♪

♪ 'Cause my brand of vainglory
Is much better for your health ♪

♪ Oh... ♪

♪ I can't get enough ♪

♪ I'ma say it, it's true ♪

♪ I can't get enough of myself ♪

♪ Oh... ♪

I usually use unsalted nuts.

Caught me off guard, Jules. [chuckles]

Do you eat red meat?

- Um...
- I might order in.

Was that bullshit about your grandma?

Peaches don't grow well in Brisbane.

Stone fruit, they like a cold winter.

Right, no.
Um, she was in Tassie at that point.

She moved around.

[Belle] I was more than chubby.

Obese, clinically.

Not that anyone took me to a doctor.

My mum doesn't cook.

Neither does mine. Cans and packets.

[Belle] Mmm.

I remember standing on the stool.

I was making pasta. I was about four.

I burnt my hand.

[Julie] Oh, gosh.

How does it work with your authors?

Because I'd need to be able to control
the aesthetic on the recipes.

It's a collaboration.

- Do you have kids?
- No.

No, my books.

I mean, I like children,
but I couldn't eat a whole one.

[both laughing hysterically]

[sobs]

[Belle] Oh, I'm sorry.

[crying]

I lost...

I lost a baby.

When was this?

Just before the app.

- I lost one child.
- [sniffles]

And I threw myself into another.

From the depths of pain...

comes a blessing.

Just forget your grandma's pretty orchard.

You are a battler from the 'burbs.

No frills.

Hills hoist.

You have fought all your life,

and now you are a mum fighting cancer.

These recipes should have no frills.

They're clean,
and kind to the woman who's cooking them.

"I see you." That's what you're saying.

I've got your back.

Wait. Hold on a second. Is that you?

[Milla] Shut up.

Wow. Looks like we've got
a minor celebrity in our midst.

- Stop it.
- Maybe they could properly pay you.

Would you hate it if I asked for a selfie?

- I'm just such a big fan.
- Stop it. Mum, hold on.

Oh, my God.

Guess who just got nominated for Cosmo's
Women in Media Fun and Fearless Award?

- [Milla] Really?
- Yeah.

I don't know what that is,
but they really want you to come,

so I'm thinking
that means you've won. Congrats.

- Do we accept or decline?
- We accept.

Got it. I'm gonna start looking
into dress options.

Ooh. Alexa Chung at London Fashion Week
or Blake Lively in anything.

On it. Also, real quick,
before I lose the internet,

the juice people.

Look at that. It's like another world.

Oh, my God.
The mosquitoes are dickheads out here.

So, Mills, um, I think we should
give them a definitive yes or no.

I don't want to leave them dangling.

I don't know. I know the money is...

Borderline offensive.

I hate the product.
Thirty-five grams of sugar, I can't.

Mmm. Okay.

But maybe we could start a juice range.

Hmm, no.

That sounds like infrastructure,

and right now,
what we need is posts for cash.

Hmm? Posts for cash. Stay focused.

Did you actually look
at the link I sent you?

You all right, Mum?

Wow. What a view.

That Belle girl in Melbourne
just launched a recipe app,

and I'm not saying we do an app,
but yeah, maybe we do an app.

Yeah, I'll read it.

But we should keep talking
about the juice thing.

You know,
glass bottles could be really special.

[Chanelle] Yeah, or posts for cash.

Girls, I think I might stay in
and enjoy the villa tonight.

What? Why?

You'll miss the keynote speaker.

Well, it's just that
I've got that little pain again.

What pain?

Well, it's not really pain. I'm just, um...

just a little clogged up.

Oh, no, Tam.
Should we get some prunes in you?

- Or maybe a laxative?
- She's not taking laxatives.

Yeah, they don't work anyway.

Sorry?

Mum, tell me you didn't.

Oh, it's just laxative chocolate.

It's so bad for you.
Why would you do that?

Okay, bathroom. Pants. Off. Now.

This is my department.

Jesus. Milly!

Pants off?

I need to find somewhere to put this.

Honey, I'm fine.
Please, just go to the party.

Perfect. Come on.

Lie down. No one's gonna see you out here.

Oh, okay. I'm good. I'll be upstairs.

How long has this been going on?
Why didn't you tell me?

'Cause you just boss her around.

Leave your mother alone,
you dirty pervert.

[groans]

[sighs]

- [Milla] All good?
- [softly] All good.

[Tamara groans in pain]

It shouldn't hurt.

Mum? Mum? Hey! Hey, don't do that.
What are you doing?

Hey! Mum? Mum? Mum?

[Chanelle] Uh, I need a doctor.

Ambulance, please.

Villa number eight.

[Chanelle] Hey, Joe.

In here.

Hey, hey, hey. Hey.

- [Tamara] Hey.
- Hey.

- Hey. Shh, breathe. I'm okay, my darling.
- [Milla] She's okay.

It's okay.

We just got a little stuck.

[sighs] Okay.

- Didn't we?
- Yeah.

You see, this is where the lower bowel
has been most impacted,

but there's an obstruction here.

We're gonna keep you in overnight.

Keep up the fluids.

We'll have a specialist in tomorrow

to talk about how to navigate
the obstruction. Come up with a game plan.

Thank you.

Has the biopsy come back?

Uh, not yet.

Can I ask if it is cancerous?

Let's not get ahead of the biopsy.

Our family has
a lot of negative experiences

when it comes to oncologists.

Do you know where
this specialist was trained?

- Under what methodology?
- [doctor] I'll get that information.

I wanna shift the obstruction naturally
before any surgical interference.

I would say that coffee enemas
aren't medically recommended.

I saw someone a few months ago
with a serious burn.

That would've been performed incorrectly.

There are huge benefits,
the immunoboost alone.

[doctor] There's a risk
of chronic proctocolitis.

That's constant diarrhea,
bleeding in the bowel,

- which can lead to sepsis.
- I have five a day.

And that's not been
my lived experience at all.

[exhales]

[Milla continues indistinctly]

I would just really like
a private consultation...

[inaudible conversation]

We've got three doctors. Top specialists.

They all want to say
you can't cure brain cancer with diet.

They're all falling over themselves to say

that the crap she's espousing
is dangerous, magical thinking.

- [Toby] Hmm.
- I like a bit of magic with my chemo.

Thing is, the doctors can't say
she's faking her diagnosis and recovery

without looking at her medical records.

If we could put on pressure
for her to produce those records,

then no doctor who looks at them
can tell us about her particular case

because of patient-client confidentiality.

- Right.
- And you were following her, Luce?

[chuckles softly] She still is.

She has recipes I like.

I don't see why
nutrition can't be a part of...

It's all alleged anyway.
They don't know she's faking it.

Oh, we do. We just can't write about it.

Anyway... [chuckles]

Do you guys know
what kind of birth you wanna have?

- [Toby] Mmm.
- Are you going to go public or private?

Yeah, well,
some water somewhere, definitely.

- [Toby] Mmm-hmm.
- We'd love to have a home birth.

[Toby] Yeah,
but that might not be feasible.

We're just gonna
keep an open mind, I think.

[Kelly] I really wanna focus on
the fourth trimester. You know?

Everyone obsesses over the birth,
but that's just one day.

[Toby] Yeah, babies are forever.

- [Kelly] Not like puppies.
- [Toby] It's not just Christmas Day.

Gonna eat something?

[sighs] Well, that was fun.

Which part did you enjoy most?

Childcare rebates?

Skin-to-skin parenting.

Sounds sexy.

It's not. [exhales]

I'm sorry.

For what?

Are you thinking we should've
put some in the freezer?

I mean, I know you wanted to.

I hadn't really thought about it.

Because if my heart is screwed up,

my eggs are well cooked now.

Not even yellow, just grey and smelly.

We'll get to that later.

Just got to fix up the other bits first.

Let's walk through the gardens.

Can we get the tram, please?

I've got an early start
and I'm just shattered.

[Lucy] Europe, and Southeast Asia,

and I actually just came back
from three months in India.

I'm planning a trip to South America.

- Really?
- Yeah, yeah.

I want to get an old Ducati
and just ride through the whole country.

- Amazing.
- I'm going to have to save up a bit.

What do you wanna see there?

[Justin] Um, I mostly just want to...

I wanna do the South America trip.

That's a good idea. We should book it in.

Yeah?

Yeah.

Let's find some time after the next round?

Great.

Except that the next round
might knock off yet another artery

and then I'd have to get that fixed.

I don't know why you're mad at me.

Because...

It's just too predictable.

You running around
and fussing about a story.

- I have to investigate her.
- Fixating on that 'cause...

- It's my job.
- No, you don't.

What do you want me to do?

Pack a bag.

Right, okay.

I'm done.

I don't wanna be messed around
by more doctors.

You've made that clear.

You're really lucky to have
access to first world medical treatment.

Don't you dare lecture me!

I don't really wanna wait around
for you to finish work, okay?

I don't have time.

Sit in the chair,
put that sh*t in your arm.

"Be a good girl, Lucy."

Okay, so, um, Machu Picchu?

That sounds fun.

Yeah, maybe drink some Pisco Sours,

find a cure to breast cancer
in a f*cking mud hut in Patagonia.

Maybe!

There's a place in Peru,
it helps people accept...

- Accept what?
- I don't know.

- Yeah, great.
- [scoffs]

I also want to float down the Amazon.

See pink dolphins.

All the while, getting sicker every minute
that you're not getting treated.

Okay, look.

I know it's inconvenient, okay?

I know it is f*cking f*cked, all right?

But if we do this, if we just try, okay?

I'm so sorry,
that this is so scary for you.

[sighs]

But I have tried.

It hasn't worked.

The treatment is not finished, Lucy.

We are not finished.

And you don't get to walk away
because it's too hard.

I'm sorry, all right?

I'm not being unreasonable,
but I don't want you to die.

I think it's a pretty normal reaction.

I don't want you to die.

That's not about me.

That's about you.

Don't you see that?

[chuckles softly]

- You're good.
- Thank you.

[Belle] I love it, Jules.

How did you know? I'm obsessed.

Oh, I know, me too.

I wish you could be here.

- It's not...
- Fairy princess?

No. Powerful.

Oh, also, it is on loan, so be careful.

- [Milla] I look big.
- No, shh.

[Chanelle] Hmm.

I like it.

Gotta go.

[Clive] Quick night-night for Mama.

- [Belle] Hi, baby.
- [boy] Hi.

- What do you think?
- You look like a princess!

- [Belle chuckles]
- Yeah! Are there gonna be cameras?

Lots of cameras.

[female host] Milla Blake,
Green Stone Healing.

Margaux Ferguson,
The Steminist Collective.

Belle Gibson, The Whole Pantry.

And the winner
of the inaugural 2013 Cosmopolitan

Fun and Fearless Women in Business Award

is Belle Gibson, CEO of The Whole Pantry.

[crowd cheering]

["Brave" by Sara Bareilles
on speakers playing]

♪ And let the words fall out ♪

♪ Honestly I wanna see you be brave... ♪

Do you want me to trip her?

♪ And let the words fall out ♪

♪ Honestly I wanna see... ♪

[Belle] Ah!

Oh! [giggles]

Fun and fearless?

I'll take it.

It's been a rocky few years
being a person in the world.

I think a lot of you know

I was diagnosed with terminal brain cancer
three years ago.

I've met her.

What you don't know

because as a culture
we don't talk about it...

a little while ago

I lost a baby at almost 24 weeks.

[Julie] I lost one child
and I threw myself into another.

From the depths of pain... comes a blessing.

I lost a baby
and poured myself into another.

The Whole Pantry was born...

[Belle] ...out of a place
of unimaginable grief.

Out of a place of... [cries]

unimaginable grief... [sniffles]

but also...

out of love.

Out of a place of unimaginable grief...

but also...

out of love.

It's love that powers me,

transforms me, sustains me, all of us.

If we're brave enough to let it.

[crowd cheering]

[upbeat music playing]

[chuckles]

[Milla] You came up to me
at my event in Brisbane?

Right. Yeah, that's right.
I think just briefly.

And the app?

How did you even think of it?
It's such an incredible idea.

Oh, you know,
just thinking about what people need.

Has Apple been in touch?

I just, I heard a rumor.

- sh*t. Really?
- Congratulations.

Oh, thanks so much.

We've just started talking.
It's a long process.

- Yeah.
- I have to get your book.

I... I keep going into bookstores
but I can never find it.

Yeah, it sold out really fast.

I ended up signing with Julie.

- Gibbs?
- Yeah.

- She's at Penguin.
- Wow. I mean, she's the best. Congrats.

I didn't know there was an advance.

I'd write it for free.

I feel so grateful.

Me too.

So grateful.

- I'm gonna call it. Gotta juice.
- Hmm?

Ah, I tried Hirsch. Couldn't stick.

It's a commitment.

The enemas.

I mean, you don't smell at all.

No, you smell amazing.

I just reeked all the time.

[Chanelle chuckles]

- Okay, I'm calling a cab.
- Um, hold on. I just, um...

Sorry, I feel like I should maybe stay
and schmooze the Cosmo peeps

about the profile they want to do on you.

Please stay.
I don't know any of these people.

- Sorry, I...
- You should have a big night.

- No, actually...
- Have a big night. I'm being boring.

- Are you sure?
- It's fine.

- [Chanelle] Okay.
- Bye.

Okay. Just...

Is she okay?

Oh, yeah. No, no. She's fine.

Like, it's not a secret or anything.

Her mum just got diagnosed
with bowel cancer,

so like, she's gonna be fine.

But they're just really close.

f*cking cancer.

What a b*tch.

["Endless Summer" by The Jezabels playing]

♪ Black cinder till the end ♪

♪ You came home ♪

♪ For the endless summer ♪

♪ Watch me go ♪

♪ Paint a different color... ♪

[intense music playing]

[Lenny] I never saw a f*cking cent.

She says that the brain cancer
makes her forget things.

Yeah, it pissed me off.

It pissed me off.

I kept turning the whole thing
over and over in my head.

It was eating away at me.

And then...

Bang.

You a Melbourne boy, Lenny?

Nah, Brisbane.

[Lenny] We f*cking met,
like, ten years prior.

Lenny!

- [Belle] Take a picture of me!
- [Lenny] Hooked up once, briefly.

I don't... Foggy.

No, just a kiss.

Nothing untoward. Totally respectful.

Ugh!

Yo! It's tampon fingers!

What the f*ck? This b*tch is ragging!

[boys shouting indistinctly]

[Belle] Um, so, I just woke up
out of a coma-like thing.

The doctor told me
I went into full cardiac arrest

and died for just under three minutes.

Turns out, I have fluid in my pericardium,

which is the sac around my heart.

Need to get a new valve
or it'll stop pumping forever.

Got the most hectic bruising
from the paddles

when they electrocuted me
back to consciousness.

Hey, does anyone know her name?

- [boy] Tampon Fingers.
- [Belle] It's all right.

I'm not in the ICU anymore.

They're letting me roll about
in my wheelchair

and I'm off my head on f*cking morphine.

[girl 1] Weren't you pregnant last week?
Oh, no. Leukemia. Lols.

[boy 1] Someone call the whambulance.
Faker.

[girl 2] Hope you're okay.

Oh, my God.

Why would she...

I don't know.

But that's a pretty big
f*cking coincidence, right?

You said earlier the cancer part tracked.

Hmm.

What made you think that?

My mum works in nursing homes.

These homes, they have this smell.

This death smell, like a rotting.

Belle has that smell?

Oh, yeah, big time.

Big time.

Yeah, I mean I've thought about this
a whole lot, okay?

We're all gonna die.

Yeah? But you and I, most people,

that's too big.

We can't hold that concept in our heads.

We gotta run away from it,
we gotta numb it, gotta distract.

But the people who are really sick,

who know they're dying,

who open their eyes
and try to face it, mate...

they are up at the sun.

They're looking up, looking down,

they're trying to get in peace
before they say night-night.

Either that, or they're rats in a cage.

Cornered.

sh1tting themselves.

They know they're very f*cking unwell.

They know they're dying.

That's Belle.

It's just scary, to be honest,

because you doubt the crux of
all the things that make up who you are.

You know, I'm... I'm blonde,

and I have brown eyes,

and I've got cancer.

When you take away
some of those high-level things,

it's daunting.

I... I don't want sympathy.

I want people to say...

"Okay, she's human."

"She's had a big life."

"Not an easy life."

Yes, well, we've spoken to
your mum and dad about some of that.

Andrew?

He's not my dad.
She met him like five years ago.

Will you be including this
in your article?

Anais, this is a curveball.

We need all sides for a complete picture.

What did she say?

What did she tell you about me?

Because she's a compulsive liar
and a fantasist.

You can't print her toxic bullshit.

You're meant to be a credible magazine
that no one even reads.

You know that? No one reads you.

Your work is irrelevant.

Magazines are irrelevant.

Dead. R, I, f*cking P!

["Don't You Know Who I Am?"
by Happyland playing]

♪ Great party, where's Sally?
Have you seen her rhinoplasty? ♪

♪ I'm seein' her doctor ♪

♪ He's going to make me a star ♪

♪ Hey you! ♪

♪ Don't you know who I am? ♪

♪ Hey you! ♪

♪ Don't you know who I am? ♪

♪ Hey you! ♪

♪ Don't you know who I am? ♪