Blur: To the End (2024)

[bunniefuu]

I've been coming here

since 1996-7.

And I don't mind not being around people,

that's the thing.

I'm not racing.

My brain's not racing so fast.

I'm able to... relax.

I suppose that's what I've just realised.

Yeah, I could actually live here now.

We did Think Tank a bit here,

but it was very rough and ready.

Alex and Dave,

they haven't been there since then.

And Graham's never been here.

We just carry a lot

of experience, collectively.

That's why I wanted to do it again.

It felt like, for some reason,

it was wanted

at this moment in time.

I'm 55, I'm, like

have to accept that, you know

time is not infinite.

I'm training to be a rally driver.

Everything else is based on

our reaction to it.

My great grandmother was 103,

and my gran was 100.

Might as well just start thinking about it.

To be totally fair,

she was a month shy of 100.

But it's trying to see...

it's trying to see an upside...

...I suppose.

How long do you think you'll live till?

- Me?

- Yeah.

Who knows?

How long will anyone live, Toby?

When you're young,

you don't have wisdom,

you don't have knowledge,

you don't have stamina,

you don't have dedication, especially...

He was going too fast.

Luckily, I was going really slowly.

Did you... Did you film that?

f*cking w*nk*r, nearly k*lled me!

And now you're making me do this.

It's classic, though. We were just

talking about mortality, weren't we?

I mean, you couldn't have timed it better,

which is...

This is what I've learnt in life,

is that, you know,

you never know what's round the corner.

All those dirty words

Jusqu'a la fin

They make us look so dumb

En plein soleil

Been drinking far too much

- Jusqu'a la fin...

- Hello.

And neither of us mean what we say

En plein amour

Well, you and I...

They can get very, um

lively round this area.

I have to have a stick.

No prob... Eh, eh, eh, eh!

Oi, oi, oi! Go on! Move, move!

It's a very big day today because we, uh

got our first egg.

We've got quite a rambunctious c*ck.

His name's Tony.

First, I'm going to put this down,

'cause I know that is your...

Come on. Calm down, everyone.

There we go. Wow, look at all of that.

See, while you're busy

protecting everyone,

you're missing out on the treats.

Did you like that? Ooh. Wasn't that nice?

Thank you for the eggs.

Well, I've been here for ages,

but Blur are coming here.

I think it's going to be okay.

I'm just concerned that we do it

as honestly as humanly possible for

you know... people like us.

Whoop, whoop!

Uh-oh!

All right,

I'll see you on Wednesday.

Love you.

- Thanks for last night.

- No, you're welcome.

Driving down,

it's f*cking enchanted, man.

Jurassic Park...

- f*ck' hell!

- How are you? You all right? Nice, innit?

- Hey!

- Hey, man, how's it going?

- You've been in the sun, mate!

- Yeah.

So, where's this...

you're taking me?

This is

a very, very old smuggling...

- Argh!

- ...pub, in a very old smuggling village.

Sometimes you get ghosts.

It's kind of famous for it.

- Cider-swilling...

- Oh, really?

Peasants with smocks

and red kerchiefs, with bright blue eyes.

We've barely communicated

for the last ten years.

I get more from Downing Street

and the Palace

in an average year

than I do from Albarn and Coxon.

I mean, even when we really split up,

it didn't take this long to make a record.

But what's wonderful is, as soon as

the four of us get in a room together,

it's just exactly the same

as it was when we were all 19.

It's just four sweaty blokes

annoying each other.

Oh!

- This is brilliant.

- Wooden floor.

- You all right?

- Yeah!

I'm all right.

- Oh, Jesus.

- Oh, big f*ck'...

- How are you doing?

- Ah, you've been diddling.

I've just been working,

just trying to get this sounding amazing,

and, you know...

Trying to fulfil the

potential of our, uh...

Exactly!

Damon and I communicate

musically a lot, really. We always have.

Then that developed into friendship

or whatever else,

and I haven't got many friends,

so it's a bit like, every now and then,

we have to check up on each other

and see if there's something there

that's been brewing.

How's your knee?

I've already told them

that my knee's knackered, so they know.

But, no, how's your one?

- How's your one?

- It's all right.

It went to crap after my first gig,

but now it's absolutely fine.

I was the very last member of Blur

to get a very big house in the country,

but we've all done it.

And it's funny how these sneering comments

you make in your twenties

turn round and bite you in the arse.

- Is it gluten-free cake?

- I'm pretty sure.

That would be f*cking spectacular.

I will be like,

"I'll have the whole thing," if it is.

If it's not, I shall just, you know...

I'll be grown-up about it.

There's some rye bread.

Is there some cold porridge

left over from yesterday?

Stoical face.

I shall unselfconsciously

put this fishcake into my mouth.

No, I'll do it like that

the way chefs place their food.

I think it's lovely that I'm getting into

an old codger who's falling to bits

and I'm flippin' doing the biggest gig...

you know, with me old band.

We haven't played Wembley before

'cause we haven't been big enough

to play Wembley before.

That's the reality.

We're getting bigger and bigger.

The less we do, the bigger we get.

Me and Damon

watched Live Aid together,

you know, round my house.

We were, like, 16.

We sat watching it all day.

So, why are you doing it?

You're doing it

because there's a pureness to it.

So basically

when I come back from America,

we've got, like, two weeks,

and then we're on tour.

- Yeah.

- Is that really it?

New album plus a couple of oldies.

So, like, three weeks' time,

we start rehearsing.

- May 1st.

- May 1st?

Fuuuuuck!

Graham and I

spent a lot of our adolescence

just hanging out by the river

behind the village.

It was not a thing

of being in a band.

It was a thing of hanging out

on Friday nights at his house.

Him writing and me coming round

and maybe playing some saxophone.

Mainly, it was sort of

hanging out and going for walks.

And trying to, uh, race on cows

when we were drunk.

Which never went well,

and I don't recommend that to anybody.

And just talking about

music and life and everything else,

and sharing, you know, our feelings,

or whatever that was.

First time I met Dave, I had to go

round his flat for a rehearsal.

Everybody I knew

played an instrument.

Everybody was constantly in bands,

three or four bands at a time.

And I went down

and knocked on his flat,

and he was still in bed,

and he got up, and

he had this sort of floppy Mohican

haircut, and he was in his pyjamas,

and he sat on the edge of his bed

eating his cornflakes.

His drum kit was there in his bedroom,

and then I got me sax out.

I wanted to be in a band with Damon

because of his songwriting.

Graham took me along to see him.

He was playing with, uh,

some guy in a hat, I remember.

Or did Damon wear the hat?

I don't know.

A hat definitely featured

in their performance.

At one point,

I think I jumped into the audience,

but there were so few people there

that it was actually really embarrassing.

Then I kind of sort of

went for the toilets, I think,

just to make it not feel quite so awkward.

I had a chat to Damon afterwards

and said, "Really like what you're doing.

"If you ever need a drummer

for any of your projects, let me know."

That was the start of that, really.

Alex was just who I met

when we got to halls of residence,

who lived underneath me

in the block there, in Camberwell.

I said, "Alex plays bass, he's this bloke

in my halls," and we all met.

I kind of liked Graham instantly.

Damon was very kind of, "What you got?"

You know, which I respond well to.

Um... And, yeah,

I think Dave made me a cup of tea.

You know,

I think we'd got each other's backs.

It was Alex joining, really,

that was the kind of missing piece.

After he joined,

we were signed within six months.

There's one more on here.

I think our legacy is pretty good.

You know, not wanting to trample on that,

not wanting to release some rubbish,

you know, 'cause we're going out on tour.

You know, in the context of the legacy,

let's just try and make

the very best music we can.

Well, doing a whole new album

is the difference between

this just being a nostalgia-looking thing

and something

that feels totally

part of our lives now.

Again.

Part of my life again, anyway, definitely.

So, yeah, I think

it's a bar of click, and then you're in.

Smooth exterior

Mess inside...

Before we, uh,

dipped our toe in the water with Blur,

I hadn't played drums for quite some time.

I have been making film music,

by and large.

I've done a lot of things.

You know, my legal career

started and ended in the last ten years.

I don't know, I just...

I've always been someone

that just does whatever seems

most interesting at the time.

I've never really had a plan.

Would you mind

doing one more all the way?

Yeah, let's do it like that.

Same again?

Yeah, it gives it loads of energy.

It's cool.

The service station on the road

I took the acid...

You know, the process, I wasn't sure

how it was going to be coming into it.

You never know, going in

with these kind of, like, hero bands

what it's actually going to be like.

And from the very first meetings,

there were some kind of, like

sort of little warning flags of tension,

and, like, I was like,

"Oh, no, it could be a nightmare."

If you see darkness, look away...

Graham's got a young family

and is touring with his new band.

You know, Alex is coming back in

maybe a little apprehensive.

Damon's just, like, a powerhouse

and almost, like,

pathologically kind of addicted

to making new stuff up

all the time, you know?

And to that end, it feels like

you're on shifting sands a little bit.

Great. Do one more chorus,

then we'll go back to the verse,

then we'll go and have dinner.

Yeah, sure.

You'll probably shine it back on me

But I won't fall this time

With godspeed, I'll heed the signs

I won't fall this time

With godspeed, I'll heed the signs...

We were with each other

a lot in the '90s.

And it was a very intense time.

It's the sort of time,

and on the same sort of level,

as a relationship or marriages

and things like that.

And I think it's okay

to say that time apart

was taken up

with other friendships and just

just sort of recuperating,

or, you know, doing other things.

Since everybody

kind of went their separate ways,

I got married

and started making some cheese.

That was in 2003.

I've sort of organised my life

so I don't have to go on tour.

I've moved the mountain to Mohammed,

having a festival on the farm.

It takes all day

to just be a dad

and run a farm and a festival.

Bass playing

is the easiest job in the entire world.

But, you know,

I have to be in Devon to do that.

Yeah, we could just about manage.

- There's been a bit of a storm...

- Oh, Christ, Albarn!

- What?

- f*ck this!

- f*ck that?

- It's horrible!

No, but it's... I mean, it's...

- You feel good afterwards, right?

- Um, I mean...

- That doesn't, you know...

- No, I promise you...

I'm in. I'm all in...

- I promise you...

- ...but blimey!

- Uh, we could go to another...

- No, no, no, no. But this is...

No, do you know what?

Should we go to another one?

No, this is the perfect

spot. This is lovely.

Bands start, usually,

when people are quite young,

you're still finding yourself.

You have to

work through that relationship

where you can be relaxed and comfortable

and not want to push each other's buttons

and want to be supportive.

You know,

that takes time to work through.

And ideally, the best place to do that

working through

is not in the full glare of the public.

We've had times where we've really

not wanted to be

even in the same room as each other.

When you're in the thick of it

and, you know,

you've just been touring

for three years with two days off,

it can feel like what you're

actually engaged in is politics

and the music

is a kind of sideshow to that.

When I last saw them,

it was great.

So... yeah, I mean

we grew up together,

so, you know, family.

The bedrooms aren't finished here yet,

so we've got back to the

house where we're staying down the road,

and, uh.

...I made me and Graham

some bacon and eggs.

And...

...it's just like when we were staying

in halls of residence at college.

You know, the midnight snacks.

But it's actually

sort of quite good to be kind of removed

from the kind of noise of

running a farm

and a festival and a family

to drink scrumpy

and make bacon and eggs in peace.

I don't know how he can stay in there.

Hangover's history.

Wa-hey!

Um, when do you want to

do a playback? Soon?

What is it

that we're going to be hearing?

- Basically...

- What we heard before but with...

With full vocals. Everything...

Damon's done every song.

Let's get this party started.

I don't think any of us

thought we'd make another record.

Especially not a record like this.

I suppose that's why I wanted to try

and make it as good as possible.

'Cause otherwise it's just

some bunch of old c**ts

trying to relive their past.

I mean, you know,

it's not the finished record.

Everybody ready?

You of grace

Many ghosts alive in my mind

Many paths I wish I'd taken

Many times I thought I'd break...

Emotionally,

I think, with this album,

something has been dislodged

within the group, within Damon.

...It seems to be...

Well, I suppose it's about

it's... about loss.

It's about the aftershock of... of loss.

...Songs to play...

Once something dramatic

has happened,

whether it's a break-up or pandemic...

...grace for everyone...

I mean,

what do you want me to say?

Now I live alone, essentially,

in the countryside.

That's what's happened.

And this record, obviously,

very much feels like that.

Why everything

In this world been lost...

A boulder has fallen out.

You know, there's 40 years' worth

of stuff in this boulder

that has been dislodged,

and now rolls down

towards us.

Pursuing God with change

And furthermore

I think it's just

Too late.

That was the hardest ever...

It sounds effortless,

for all your hard work.

Well, I promise you,

I really worked hard.

It seems

like lots of little stories,

like, came out

while he was just recording...

"Oh, this is about this thing,

and that is about..."

"Up and down the town clock" is about

when I went round

to Alex's flat in New Cross

and took acid, and thought

it was a good idea to jump up...

'Cause there was a very, very narrow,

like, sort of, um

- distance between.

- It's not that narrow.

I've seen it plenty of times.

It's quite wide.

It's about from here to...

It's about from here to you.

- Really? No, shut up!

- It's not narrow.

No, but anyway,

I jumped over that,

and then went and orienteered myself

onto New Cross Town Hall clock

and changed the time, on acid.

- You actually changed the time?

- Yes, I changed time, yes.

I ch... I... I changed time!

We literally haven't

spoken to each other for ten years,

and it's... straight back together, like...

And actually evolved in some...

This, um

has come into all of our lives

unexpectedly, really, in a way.

It's made us, uh...

something else, you know?

- Wow, this is such a treat to have...

- Like 10cc, ABBA

me old muckers!

That's great.

I can't wait to decipher more words.

- Oh, we have a lot.

- The singing is f*cking ace.

Yeah, you think so?

- Yeah, and your voice sounds really good.

- Thanks.

- But it's an expensive microphone.

- I know, well...

It's kind of a bit overwhelming

having all that emotion coming out at me.

I'm a bit kind of gobsmacked,

to be honest.

I'm just getting sentimental

in me old age, that's what it is.

- How are you feeling?

- How am I feeling? I'm feeling

- a little discombobulated.

- I am not surprised.

I saw some footage of the weekend.

- It looked pretty mega.

- Yeah, yeah.

Went on tour

in the Autumn with Gorillaz,

wrote the album, came back,

recorded the album,

went on tour with Gorillaz again,

then came back.

So, it's just... it's non-stop really.

So, there's headphones and stuff,

if you want to sit here.

Everything's quite frenetic

at the moment.

The amount of stuff there is to do

is peaking around this week,

because we're in rehearsals for the shows

and, uh, we've got promo starting.

- Is it possible to have the sound on it?

- Oh, yes! Reuben, hi.

They're all getting f*ck'

younger and younger, aren't they?

And it's been quite a while

since we've been in this position, really,

of doing everything all at the same time.

One, two, three, and...

Blow, blow me out

I am so sad, I don't know why

Blow, blow me out

I am so sad, I don't know why...

He... He...

Hang on a minute.

He...

He was crowned on a Saturday...

There's nothing more boring

than rehearsing.

People are always going to be bad-tempered

and, uh, testy

and irritable,

because nobody wants to be there.

- Turn down.

- I'm just playing it with what's here.

I'm playing what's here.

When you get over here with Blur,

it is like when you see

those f*cking gorillas in the zoo.

How does it feel to be back?

You guys are back. How does it feel?

When you're in a band, it's a relationship

like brothers and sisters, isn't it?

- I'm playing normal. I've always...

- Play that in A-minor.

I mean, is it different?

Have the dynamics changed?

Have you enjoyed

being back in the studio together?

Um...

Can't you just stake me out on a beach

and send some vultures over?

Yeah, we could do that.

They handed out cigarettes

to the kids.

- Did they? To the kids?

- Did they?

They did.

Like they hand out sweets on take-off.

They went round with a little basket,

handing out...

- What, packets of, um, tens?

- On a school trip?

- Packets?

- Yeah.

I do like smoking with my kids,

I have to admit.

You like having a f*g with your kids?

I used to quite like sitting

with a bottle of scotch, with my mum.

So, what about just doing the

from the "up close" bit,

just go from there.

So, it's kind of that twice, yeah.

Damon's work ethic

is very strong.

That's just part of who he is.

Where you and I might be

watching TV, or, uh, playing video games,

Damon doesn't do any of that,

he just writes songs.

We all go to the bar,

Damon goes to his room,

gets his equipment out and writes songs.

On the bus, he's writing songs.

At home, he's writing songs.

And if we don't keep him

focused on the job in hand,

he will literally be doing another opera

before the third single's out.

- Take in one...

- One, two, three...

He's also exhausted

from doing Coachella,

and so, will basically have an idea

and then fall asleep.

Do you want to

keep going, Damon, or...?

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Don't worry about my, uh, demeanour.

It's just.

It's just standard utter exhaustion.

Come on, let's do it again.

It comes

Like me

Up close

I fell in love with you...

This idea of the workaholic,

there must be some sort of brain condition

that drives you to just

pursue something so sort of relentlessly.

Yeah, it's just sort of never believing,

really, that it's happening.

It needs to be right

for me to be able to sleep properly.

It comes

Like me

Up close...

And I guess if he didn't work,

he'd have to

do nothing, and maybe, you know,

have to take a long look at himself,

and, you know, God,

that would be a freaky thing for him.

I'll fall along

We travelled

round the world together.

Really, really, really could happen

Really, really, really could happen...

Where are we?

We're in this f*ck' big sh*thole.

Concrete floor polished,

so everything sounds insane and bad.

Um, it's a great way to make you

feel awful about everything you're doing.

And then they've got

all these silly lights, and some of them,

like, I look down at my fretboard

and I'm blinded by these stupid lights.

It's as far away as creating

music together as you can possibly get,

when you start incorporating all this sh*t.

But, you know, Wembley's a big stage.

So, we have to, like,

employ all these people

because they've decided to come

to a venue that is so large,

they're going to see ant-like figures,

like I did when I saw The Osmonds

in the early '70s.

Um, thankfully, there was some luncheon,

and I've had that,

and I'm going to try

and give it another go.

Right, for this run-through,

Let's just go straight through, okay?

Yeah.

Wrong one, son. Come on.

Going back to

the classic model of the Beatles,

I suppose the appeal of the band

was the psycho-dramas

that accompanied everything, you know?

Even though, at the time,

we just wanted to be on Top of the Pops.

Well, Alex and I did.

This is next-level madness for all of us.

And we're all... we're all hanging on.

I've definitely mellowed a bit.

You know,

I'm more tolerant of some things.

I'm completely intolerant

of most other things.

I'll be packing my bag tomorrow

and, uh, hitting the road.

Is it daunting?

It's like children.

It takes absolutely everything out of you.

It takes everything out of you.

Hanging on.

It's a really busy time,

and I'm not used to it.

I mean, I'm not lazy or anything,

and I'm going to do everything I can

for it to be completely brilliant.

But we're a bit older.

You're doing everything you can

to make it completely brilliant.

You know, it's like, we don't want to have

a flippin' hip replacement

because we've pushed it

a bit too far in Eastbourne.

You know, end up living in Eastbourne.

And I fully expect myself to not make it

through the year, at the moment.

I do. I think, at some point,

I'm not going to be able to do it.

But I'll just not think about that

until it happens.

It's a massive trigger

for all of us. It's on a knife edge.

I never know when it's just going to...

I want to hear my f*cking band.

I want to f*cking hear it played properly!

Stupid...

Just makes you feel like an amateur!

- Concentrate!

- Is there another bit?

No, it's left how you've left it yesterday.

- Yeah.

- We've learnt a lot of songs,

but now we need

to start concentrating a bit,

just so that we've got something

coherent,

and then, you know

see how long we can hold it together

without collapsing,

in one form or another,

'cause there are many, many, many ways

to collapse on the road.

I love the choice of the

warm-up venues that you guys have picked.

Eastbourne Winter Gardens,

Wolverhampton, Newcastle City Hall,

- Colchester Arts Centre...

- Well, there you go.

'Cause those venues

remind me of some of the venues

that Blur would have played

back in the early days.

Really from Parklife onward,

we had full brass,

full backing singers, percussionist.

There was always someone

playing a f*cking gourd or something.

This time, we've stripped it right back.

If the four of us

can't get on in a room and make music,

then there's absolutely

no point in doing it as a band,

just back to how we started.

...Feel this strange

Can I go through this again?...

- Hello.

- All right?

- Hiya.

- Hi.

- Damon, this is John.

- Hello. Nice to meet you.

- Hiya. I'm the head teacher, so...

- Excellent.

I just wanted to welcome you

to the Stanway.

- Really good to have you here.

- It's changed a lot.

- Was any of this here when you were here?

- No, none of it.

- Are the Portakabins still here?

- No, they've all gone.

- Why'd you get rid of that? It's...

- They're Portakabins.

Well, look, I have named a room

after you both.

Do you remember me getting in contact

a few years back?

So, where we're going now...

I'll let you off, then.

No, I just really wanted

to see the Portakabins.

You know, 'cause I've kind of...

I've sort of...

I've sort of mythologised that

in my own memory, that place, you know.

We were given the key to it, weren't we?

- Yeah.

- We had a few...

There were a few nice things.

Like, they had a synthesiser.

Okay.

And, uh, yeah,

we used to go in there on our breaks

- and just do that.

- Yeah, there was a piano in there.

And also, it was quite dangerous

for me to go out at

- at lunchtime...

- Oh, was it?

'Cause I was always getting beaten up.

Oh, okay. Well, we don't have

much of that here anymore.

No, well, you had a lot back then.

- Yeah, all right.

- f*ck' hell.

No, no, I'm just saying, for us, it's...

- "The Albarn & Coxon Room."

- Yeah, this is it.

- This is what we've...

- Oh, that is... this is sweet.

- Well, for...

- Can I take a picture?

Yeah, come on,

we've got to have a photo taken.

Can someone take a little picture of that?

Oh, they've all got

huge pieces of equipment in their hands.

It looks like a serious school now.

I'm not saying it wasn't serious,

but it was... seriously odd.

You know,

my dad lives down the road here.

Behind... Behind the school...

And he's still in the same house

where he used to live? Wow.

He only had to walk up the road to school.

I had to cycle from Ford Street every day.

- Oh, really?

- And I'd do a paper round before that.

As soon as I put my bike in,

walked it by, I'd get beaten up.

Why did you

get beaten up so much?

'Cause everyone thought I was a c**t.

Tell me about the energy

of Colchester when you were growing up

- and what it felt like to be...

- Bit scary.

Lot of squaddies.

Lot of people who were, you know,

somewhat more Anglo-Saxon than myself.

But the music department was amazing.

And, you know, that's where we met.

And we did

all these amazing school productions.

Orpheus in the Underworld,

The Boyfriend...

Starring role in that one.

- Guys and Dolls.

- Who were you in Guys and Dolls?

I was Nathan Detroit.

All right, already

So, call a policeman...

Then we did West Side Story.

- I got a social disease!

- I was like, "Who is that kid?"

"He does not care."

- So, yeah, I did a lot of...

- Where did he get that confidence from?

- I was like, "Oh, my God."

- I loved it.

I absolutely loved it.

I mean, our first-ever gig together

was at an assembly.

- Now destroyed.

- Now destroyed.

The first-ever gig Graham and I did

was at 9:00 in the morning.

This song is called

"It May Be Our Best Chance Yet,"

a song about a child with no future.

We were called Real Lives.

- We played a song.

- We did a couple of songs,

but we did a gig

one evening there as well, didn't we?

And we made programmes and everything,

with drawings and...

I need to give 'em... I want to

give 'em some more stuff in here, though.

Just sort of, you know...

It's quite dry, isn't it?

You know what I mean?

Music rooms should be posters and...

They need to have

some, like, batik wall hangings.

- Yeah.

- Some paisley.

No, they need to have

some nice weed, like in a bowl,

which they can all kind of...

- Thank you very much.

- Thanks, mate.

- Appreciate it.

- Yeah, really nice to have met you.

Wake up straight

Caught out by the sun

On the first day of April...

Did you know that the tower there

was the base

of the legend of Humpty Dumpty?

Did you know that?

The Royalists occupied the town,

and when they came in,

they put a cannon up the top there,

which they nicknamed Humpty Dumpty

'cause it was a bit round.

Parliamentarians were over in the field

across there, Hilly Fields,

and they were coming up.

Of course, the Parliamentarians,

they actually got the cannon,

and it tumbled down.

And all the king's horses

and all the king's men

couldn't put Humpty together again.

And that is one of the legends

about Humpty Dumpty

here at Colchester Arts Centre.

My name's Nigel Hildreth.

I was the person who taught

Damon and Graham music.

So, I taught them at Stanway School.

They were fantastic students,

they were very musical.

And they had an electrifying effect

upon their audience.

You could see that stage presence.

Is the barrier going to go

in-between the PA?

It's part of

the rehearsal process, this.

We're not quite at Wembley,

as you can see.

I mean, it's going to be enough

just to get through it, really.

For us, I think we're really...

It's going to be odd

to have that thing with an audience again,

playing these songs,

because you do get,

you know, a hell of a lift

from just having an audience there.

And just the atmosphere

and the volume and all of that. So...

And there's one or two sing-alongs.

"Sing-along. The new record from Blur."

Ling-along-a-Blur.

Revisiting all their

'90s favourites

auto-tuned.

- Okay, gentlemen...

- Play your music now!

When we go up, do I go on that way? Yeah.

Is the chemistry still there?

Apparently, that's not a given.

Have a great show, everyone.

It's a weird thing when you

go back to something that was so,

so well-documented.

People feel like that's what you are,

but it was so long ago.

Wow, what a sound!

Good evening.

Isn't it nice

to see everyone back together?

I'm leaving town to run away

Run into your twisted arms

No queues and there's no panic there

I'm just dangling my feet in the grass

My lack of natural lustre now

Seems to be losing me my friends

So, in the absence of a way of life

I'll repeat this again and again

And again

Hey, hey, come out tonight

Hey, hey, come out tonight

Popscene, all right

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah...

Popscene.

Whoo-whoo-whoo-whoo-whoo!

- What's that?

- Apple juice.

- Ooh, some champagne!

- That was, uh...

- And apritifs.

- That was bloody good.

- Champagne, sir.

- Oh, thank you.

- Chin-chin.

- No, thank you, I'm working.

I was surprised how natural that whole

thing felt, you know? I really was.

You don't get hit by a flying beer.

I hate it when they throw beer.

No, I love it.

I love it when they throw beer.

You got hit by a good one,

and then you did

some exotic stuff with a towel.

So, if you multiply that 400 to 80,000,

- I reckon it'll be okay.

- Just about, yeah.

What are they doing?

Are they sneaking in, getting...?

Are they sneaking in?

The whole thing was good.

I'm very happy with it.

Well done, everyone.

I know there's a lot more to go, but...

One day at a time, sweeties.

When I was very small,

the South Coast still had the vestiges

of an upper crust.

There still is

a Dorset Ladies Luncheon Club,

which my mum's a stalwart of.

But as cheap flights became available,

people were able to get

sunshine guaranteed.

And the bottom was really falling out

of the great British bucket.

I haven't spent much time, really,

playing this country

for a long, long, long time.

I always really enjoy it.

Modern Life is Rubbish

turned 30 last week, I think.

A lot of those older songs

they make more sense to me now.

Even though I wrote them,

they make more sense now,

the language I was using.

My kind of obsession back then,

which was, by some people,

seen as me being quite cruel to people,

about, like, media and absorption

and the sort of paralysing effects of it,

hypnotic effects of it.

I can see that there were some kind of

quite challenging stories

from all those songs.

I believe the role of the artist

is to somehow be... a mirror.

Post-Brexit... And I really do think

Brexit was a terrible mistake.

Post-that, I think there's an appetite

once more in the country

for something that pokes a bit of fun

at that right-wing, conservative aspect

of our society.

The UK seems to be

in some kind of, uh,

slow-motion collapse, at the moment,

at least the UK public services.

Much, much bigger kind of ways

of stealing from the poor

and giving to the rich

have been going on

over the past five years.

Why aren't we taking to the streets?

I don't understand,

it's like people have given up.

How bad do things have to get?

I would like to introduce

our first soloist of the afternoon.

It's a... um,

a good-looking young man.

Hello!

I used to play football

for the New Musical Express,

and, uh, our manager and centre-half

was a guy called Steve Sutherland,

who was the editor of NME.

And he said, "There's some young band

"who are interested in you

doing a bit of a record with 'em.

I said, "Oh, I don't know."

And he said, "No," he said,

"they're going to be big."

"Oh, all right, then."

I'd like to invite someone...

very unique onto this stage.

He's a unique human being.

Eastbourne!

Oi!

Confidence is a preference for

the habitual voyeur of what is known as

Parklife

Morning soup can be avoided if you take

a route straight through what is known as

Parklife

John's got brewer's droop,

he gets intimidated by the dirty pigeons

- They love a bit of him!

- Parklife

Who's that gut-lord marching?

Cut down on your porklife, mate,

get some exercise

All the people

So many people...

I never really ever thought

it would come into the British psyche.

I think Graham felt

it was a bit of a novelty song.

Parklife...

All the dustmen know me, and, uh,

I get "Parklife" shouted at me

all over the place.

Put my trousers on, have a cup of tea

And I think about leaving the house

Parklife...

Damon always said to me,

"Whenever you want to do a gig,

"you're welcome."

I enjoy their songs

and, you know, the social commentary.

...The knowledge there will always be

a bit of my heart devoted to it...

But I just look at this country.

Hopefully,

they can dig theirs elves out of a mess,

um, but it seems to me, you know

if poo was fertiliser, working-class

people wouldn't have an arse.

Parklife.

Arrivederci, Eastbourne!

After we came off on Friday,

we all felt absolutely exhilarated.

It's sort of like in a video game,

when you get the cloak of invincibility.

And there was all these kind of people

that I really admire and respect,

who were at the gig.

Just, like, completely overwhelmed

and overcome.

And I got really drunk,

and I woke up feeling ashamed.

Touring's just like

being on a roller-coaster.

You're on it, you know?

And it's kind of terrifying

and brilliant and scary.

And then you get off, and you're not sure

whether you never want to do it again

or whether you want to get

straight back on.

But you can't actually remember

what it's like

until you're actually doing it.

How's it feel for you guys,

being back in Wolves?

Oh, I mean, I'm just kind of

slightly overwhelmed by the

by the grey peas,

and their effect on my

on my bowels.

What is it, Stu, that we ate?

It's just very low-grade peas.

- Grey peas and bacon.

- Grey peas and bacon.

- Grey peas and bacon.

- Grey peas and bacon.

Do you need anything?

I've got paracetamol, ibuprofen...

- I've had an IV drip today.

- Have you? Already?

- Yeah.

- Crikey.

I've found, during rehearsals,

there's just a bit of spikiness.

It's real life, innit?

And they've had a lot of it.

We've all had a lot of real life.

And I think, you know,

the more you go through,

the more you've got to be accepting

of everyone's sh*t.

You understand it.

So, I think that's,

you know, a big part of it.

Was it JB's, the first gig?

I think it was, wasn't it?

JB's was the first gig we saw Blur.

I remember,

it was the beginning of summer,

and I'd just got my exam results

from college,

and I got 2% in my French Language.

The examiner had written,

"Is the candidate lucid?"

And I thought

I'd kind of burnt my bridges there.

And, uh, we just landed it.

It was just, like, epic,

you know what I mean?

It was a stage invasion.

That was the first time

we were going to a completely new place

with just the four of us, and letting rip,

and we blew the doors off.

We didn't know back then

- how long it would go on.

- Exactly.

Here we are, 30 years later...

None the wiser.

It's a bit like

drawing up from a well.

And I've never really understood

that about age, really, until now.

That, actually

when it gets to sort of decades,

it's like, actually,

that was quite a while ago.

In a lot of ways,

you're drawing you then back up,

and it's, like, a bit odd sometimes.

Well, you know, just got to go for it,

haven't you, really?

Knock 'em dead, mate.

Good luck, good luck, good luck.

Well, the album's called

The Ballad of Darren, okay?

I'd like to bring onstage Darren.

It's six o'clock on the dot,

and I'm halfway home

I feel foul-mouthed

as I stand and wait for the Underground

And a nervous disposition

doesn't agree with this

I need something to remind me

that there's something else

You need a holiday somewhere in the sun

With all the people who are waiting

There never seems to be one

Say something, say something else...

Say something, say something else...

Say something, say something...

Say something, say something else.

f*ck off!

It's all right, it's all

right. It's okay, just...

I wish we were on a tour bus.

I don't know why we're not on a tour bus.

I've never, ever done this. I haven't...

Drive around individually in cars,

doesn't make any sense to me.

Oh, I'd happily

never get on another tour bus.

Just not knowing where the...

ever knowing where the toilet is.

Newcastle city centre's

basically a street party every weekend.

Got stuck into the Jgerbombs,

posted a lot of stupid stuff on socials

that I shouldn't have done.

The missus is cross with me.

Uh, I've been ordered

to come home and wash up.

So, I'll be leaving...

I'll be leaving after the show tonight.

What is actually really scary

is pitching up to a sound check

with an excruciating hangover.

I mean, it's not like, you know,

being a coal miner, but it's, um

the travel is

is tiring.

30 years ago, they said,

"modern life is rubbish."

How would you describe

the current feeling of the world?

- It is rubbish.

- It's still rubbish.

Modern life is still rubbish.

It doesn't feel very optimistic.

I'm always interested

in new fans.

I'm like this sort of weird storyteller.

I go on, and I can completely inhabit

the characters of those songs.

But for something

that we haven't done for so long,

they kind of have a totally different

relationship with them, obviously.

When I feel sad,

I just went into the mood

and I need something to soothe me,

and Blur has, like,

become my first choice.

There's, like, a deep depression inside.

But then they use, like,

a very enthusiastic way

- to express it.

- True.

And I feel like

it's the most beautiful thing ever.

Ours is a brotherhood

that has been sustained

by our musical relationship.

It's a long time, so it's a very, uh

precious one.

We're happy to see each other

and get on that stage together.

You know, and then we're happy

to go our separate ways.

I mean, that's... that's where we're at.

We're not quite as patient

as we were.

And our idiosyncrasies

have sort of amplified somewhat.

But I think, at the same time,

we have more humility, maybe,

a bit more gratitude.

It's just bloody hard.

People are just really hard work.

How much do you want to be in the band?

That's the thing.

What are you willing to sacrifice

to be in the band?

Are you willing to subsume your ego

for the sake of the whole?

I think it's like

any sort of family.

Individuals in the family come in and out,

some are closer to you,

and you have to balance your own needs

at any given moment in the day

with whoever you're prioritising

at that moment in time.

It's like a

marriage, isn't it, really?

You can be right, or you can be happy.

When everybody's doing something

you know is doomed to fail,

do you bite your lip and just go with it,

or not?

I never know

how any of them are feeling.

You know,

we're not very good at communicating.

I mean,

I don't think blokes do spend much time

asking each other

if they're all right, do they?

I mean, it's like, you know,

"Are you all right?"

That means, like,

"Are you pissed off with me?"

Or, you know, "Are you blitzed?"

There was a point in Devon when Damon,

I thought he was laughing,

singing along with the songs.

He was crying.

You know, I completely misread it.

It is the music and the job

that kind of locks us all together.

You know,

the fact that we haven't always got on,

you know,

that's one of the chemistry points

that has led to us

being able to make the music we do.

I'm absolutely convinced of it.

So, no matter how tired we are,

or how annoying anyone's being,

it just

there's something very healing

about creating a beautiful noise.

And I never know

if it'll be the last

time I hear that noise.

And it's really nice to hear it again.

It's a very late show,

this one, starting at 2:00 in the morning.

Which isn't actually late for Spain,

but it is obviously late for me.

I'm quite relieved that we've, uh,

we've all arrived relatively unscathed.

What happens

between now and stage time?

- No bloody idea.

- Nothing.

Just void.

You go through the days

in a sort of semi-sleep mode.

Battery preserve

till you have to summon up the energy.

Well, yeah, because every bit of energy,

it depletes quick during the gig.

So, you need a good bank of it,

so you can do what you need to do.

"No Other Way," Goldie on capo two

with the neck pick-up.

"Popscene," Preston.

"Tracy Jacks" is Ray.

"Chemical World" is back to Preston

I f*cked up

I'm not the first to do it...

We're all different types

of people.

So, when we're away,

it's not like the four of us

like the Beatles in A Hard Day's Night.

You know,

we're all kind of doing different things.

We're quite sheltered.

We don't really have to be out among it.

You know, historically,

it's been a lot of to do with anxiety,

why I won't go out in the streets.

That even stops me going for a swim

in the swimming pool sometimes as well.

It's the sort of thing that,

"Oh, no, I won't today."

I think it's because

I've got these tiny swimming trunks.

Maybe that's why it is.

I got home from Newcastle,

there was a massive party

going on at my house.

All the kids had all their friends over.

So, I got involved in a...

"Rasputin" dance competition,

and, uh, didn't get to bed till late,

and then I got here, and New Order,

my favourite band,

whole reason I started playing the bass,

they're here, and they want

to go out for dinner, and, oh, my God.

You know, I remember this now.

You know, the...

Just exhausting, but there's just always

a really good reason not to go to bed.

It's easy to confuse touring with

going on a massive, self-indulgent binge

of sex and drugs and rock and roll.

I think when we went

into the studio to make the record,

nobody kind of really knew,

I mean, is this going to work or not?

But it did, straight away.

I mean, the only thing

that could really jeopardise this now,

other than physical injury and death,

is... Graham drinking.

That would be really bad.

Dave drinking would be even worse.

Um, me drinking's bad enough, trust me.

When a show goes really well,

It's nice to have

a big night out afterwards.

And then, I woke up in Denmark

with absolutely no idea

of how I'd got there.

Last thing I knew, I was in Holland.

Why did he bring that up?

Because, you know,

I have to tell you why it upset me.

No, I don't want to, because

then that just becomes clickbait.

I famously said,

when I was promoting my book,

that I sprazzed a million quid on booze

and drugs, and my kids now, you know,

they're asking me about that,

and I have to kind of justify it.

On one level,

it was very entertaining.

But at the same time, you know,

I was concerned for him,

to be honest with you.

Joking apart, I was a little bit concerned.

You've got a gaping hole in your head

I'd let the birds nest there instead...

Booze is probably...

It's certainly a big contributing factor

in why Blur stopped being a,

you know, a full-time job.

What happened

towards the end of the '90s is

it always felt like I was

the petulant brat, or treated that way,

and everybody else was really grown-up

and wanted to be professional,

but I was the only one who was ruining it.

It was quite dangerous time,

wasn't it, really?

I think we live in an era

that is somehow a reaction to that.

There's a big sort of

reality check that goes on.

All the artifice falls away, you know,

and you're left with just you, you know.

That's where I arrived with drinking.

"Do I really want to

carry on down this path?"

I thought, "No, I don't."

It takes practice to

to let go of something that was

your absolute identity for a while

and then practice being you

without all of that protection.

I'd let the birds nest there...

I think the reasonable response

to getting all that kind of

fame and attention

is to go bat-sh*t crazy.

You know, success will mess you up

far more than failure.

It's hard to cope with it,

and what are you supposed to do after

you come off stage at Wembley Stadium?

The way I look at it,

at different times, there were

different people doing different things.

That's it. Could change again.

It's just... humans coexisting, isn't it?

When we were younger,

you need to resolve it there and then,

whereas now,

you realise it didn't need resolving,

we just needed to all disperse, you know?

It's just, well, at what point

does that space become distance?

I have this on my knee, and, uh

the specialist I went to see

after I f*cked it in Chile

said that I would no longer be able to

perform in the way I used to,

and that was the end of that,

and I had to come to terms with that.

But, um, I can jump again on it now

and it doesn't...

I mean, maybe tomorrow

I won't be able to walk, but...

It's the, uh, holistic power of, uh

musical commune.

It's the best cure for anything, really.

I was doing an interview,

and I was saying how,

when we were making the album,

it was like those times

when you play tennis

and it feels like

the tennis racquet is huge,

and every shot goes in,

every shot is brilliant.

Then, about two days later,

I was playing tennis.

Oh, God!

I need an operation,

but, obviously, I can't have

an operation... while we're on tour.

What was he doing?

He bent over to pick up a tennis ball?

He was playing tennis, was he?

In Surrey?

Rock 'n' roll.

He just can't help himself, can he?

He's totally rock 'n' roll.

The doctor said

mine wasn't the least rock' n' roll one

he'd seen that week.

The person before was a lady

who'd been making a cup of tea

and turned to reach for the sugar bowl

and did the same thing.

So, she won the least rock 'n' roll

knee injury of the week.

Fortunately, I was spared.

Hopefully,

he's getting his feet up and, um...

Getting some rest.

That's not what I was going to say.

But, yeah, getting some rest.

Get some rest, yeah.

It's been a month

since we last caught up, Damon.

What's been going on?

Yes, 'cause you completely abandoned us.

You know, the whole point

of charting something

is that you take it

from the beginning to the end.

Don't have, like,

a f*cking sabbatical in the middle.

It's your moment, you know what I mean?

You're playing Wembley,

and the fact that Dave was

is... you know, he's struggling,

and that's just not nice.

The last thing I read

before I went to sleep

was that, you know,

France is burning again.

You know, the gilets jaunes are off,

aren't they?

Setting everything on fire.

It's... It's not great.

And then the phone rang on

Saturday morning, and it was Blur's PR.

She said, "Just so you know,

we're cancelling the show in France."

She's like,

"Well, the reason is Dave's knee."

Everything is massively impeded.

You know, there are three of us

with bad knees now in the band.

I was feeling a bit left out.

So, it's just really Alex,

then we've got the set.

So, I'm going round there

with a sledgehammer later.

You can tell him that.

And how has it been

as an experience, the past month as well?

Everyone's kind of finding their...

finding their way.

Graham's been playing gigs

with his other band as well,

and he's got a kid.

You know, he's keeping it together...

I mean, it's just... it's amazing, really,

the metamorphosis of Graham Coxon.

I feel like

we're getting on really well.

I feel close to everybody,

and Damon, you know,

closer than I have done for years,

in a way.

Well, the thing is, nothing

is that important to fall out about,

or to have great big arguments about.

So, there's absolutely no point,

and I think we see that.

And if there are harsh words,

the thing is, is to be quick to apologise

and get it out.

And that's it.

It's amazing doing Wembley now.

I really hope that my family and my

what few friends I have

just really have an excellent time...

And, um, give me

a lot of praise afterwards.

'Cause that's all I do it for, the praise.

That's it, no, I hope I flippin' make

the rest of the band proud.

I hope I do it for 'em.

That's it, really.

Not much point in doing it otherwise.

Morning, Mr Coxon. You all right?

- Morning, guys.

- Hiya.

- Hiya.

- Hi.

When somebody asks me afterwards,

"How did it feel to play Wembley Stadium?"

I want to be able to

come up with an answer.

It'd be good to be relaxed enough

to have some feelings while I'm on stage,

other than anxiety.

Where's my coffee?!

- Hi, Michael.

- Hello, Damon, I must give you a hug.

- How's it going?

- Thanks for having us.

- Hi!

- Hi!

Oh, my God. So...

Ooh! I wasn't even...

I wasn't paying attention, then.

Why have we got punnets of tomatoes?

- 'Cause they're from Alex's garden.

- Oh, wonderful!

Mm, umami.

Was up till 3:30, up at 7:00.

But, you know, I've had a

coccyx massage

and a vibrating bowl put on my back,

so I'm feeling pretty good.

It's not the size, is it, really?

It's the story

that you kind of feel it could tell

if the gods are with us, you know?

I mean, that's the way I look at it.

You know, I feel like

I've got a big performance to deliver.

- Here we are.

- This is so weird.

This is so weird.

This place is...

Flippin' heck. Big.

How are you, Damon?

Very excited?

Yeah.

Suppose I've got to do it.

Hit after hit led Blur

to the biggest venues around the world.

Girls who want boys

who like boys to be girls

Who do boys like they're girls...

But somehow,

the iconic one on home soil eluded them.

This weekend, they can tick

Wembley Stadium off their list.

It's amazing for Graham and me

to sit here...

having started off in a little

humble Portakabin in Colchester, Essex,

at the age of 12 and 13, and to be here.

I've only been here really for football,

watching Chelsea.

And I did play here once,

years and years ago,

in a charity game against Scotland.

Did score the winning goal.

He shoots, he scores!

Goooooooooal!

Ooh, that looks like it hurt.

I want to approach it

just like any other show,

but, of course, there's all these extra

bits they're throwing in for Wembley,

which is kind of making it

slightly more stressful.

"So, what are you wearing?

You know, what footwear?"

And, you know,

"We're including this in the performance.

"You know, this element on stage

and that element."

That's hard!

Keep going, sweetie.

I imagine Dave

is just really hoping

that he's going to be absolutely match fit.

I'm hoping that he's not feeling too

anxious about how he's going to perform.

I know we all get

a little bit anxious about things.

I came down

to the kitchen yesterday,

and Beatrix, my 13-year-old,

was singing "The Narcissist,"

she didn't know I was there.

And she was, like, completely in it,

and just like,

"Oh, my God, we've connected."

My heart stopped.

'Cause, trust me,

your children are your harshest critics.

You can't... You can't make them like it.

That was a wonderful thing.

Music is... strong magic.

When this is all over,

I'm gonna have a nervous breakdown.

Does anyone want a drink?

Ginger tea?

Ooh, I might bite some ginger.

Yeah, do you know what we'll do...

Oh, my God, you're so hardcore.

I remember you drinking a bottle

of Tabasco at a sound check in America.

- Yeah, I used to do that.

- Why?

You had hiccups

for about three hours.

- I peel my ginger.

- Oh, my word.

Dave, what's happening over there?

I'm having mechanised

automated treatment on my knee.

Wow, who gave you that?

That and juice.

Oh, God.

I think there's something more interesting

happening over there.

The last time I was at Wembley

was playing in a charity football match,

and now I find myself

being Blur's fluffers.

And we're in that sort of zone

of not knowing what's going on

but loving the fact that we're here.

We still do not know

why Blur asked us to DJ.

So, tonight, after-show ice baths.

Tomorrow night, Britpop bat-sh*t bender.

Hard stop, Tuesday midday.

Sleep.

Then we get on a bus to France.

I got to have a haircut,

and then I'm going to have a massage,

then I'm going to have a sleep.

Oh, no, I'm going to eat,

then I'm going to have a sleep,

and then it will be show time.

I mean,

I'll get up to watch Jockstrap, but...

Yeah, I gotta go, gotta think about that

I gotta go, gotta think about that

I gotta go, gotta think about that

I gotta go, gotta think about that...

Frontline, out on the streets

Frontline, out on the streets...

Music brings people together.

I mean, look at all these people here,

you know?

I thought modern life was rubbish

about 60 years ago!

Should've grown up at the time I grew up,

it was also rubbish, r*cist and sexist.

What motivates me?

Half the world is still bloody

r*cist and sexist and all the other ists.

'Cause all that old rubbish

that we thought that we had

managed to kind of push down,

push under the carpet,

just tell those people to shut up,

has all come back out,

just vomited back out

with all the Trumps and the Johnsons,

and all the rest, and I'm sick of that,

and while I've got breath in my body,

I will do what I do.

I just had to run past security to get in.

- What happened?

- No-one greeted me.

I'm dropped off out there,

the security man's,

"Where's your wristband?"

- "I ain't got one." He's like, "Oi, oi."

- Oh, Graham.

- It's absolutely obscene.

- It is obscene.

I'm used to obsequiant toadying.

What you doing? Pumping your knee

with a sort of electronic...

Blood transfusion.

Always have one before I go on stage.

Like Keith Richards.

Doesn't he just scoop his brain out,

plop it in another body?

Ten, nine,

eight, seven, six,

five, four, three, two, one.

I think that's enough of that.

Ah!

Lovely!

Waking up at 6am on a cool warm morning

Opening the windows

and breathing in petrol

An amateur band rehearse

in a nearby yard

Watching the telly

and thinking about your holidays

That's entertainment

That's entertainment...

Did you

lose control in there, Damon?

Yeah, I...

It's what happens to me.

When I submerge in freezing water,

I... I immediately ej*cul*te.

- Oh!

- That's not what I was...

f*ck off!

They were going to swing by at 7:30,

so if you want to start getting changed,

maybe in the next 10, 15.

It's an hour before.

Sleaford Mods are on now. Come on,

let's go round the side of the stage.

Sleaford?

See a bit of that, that'll be good.

Go, go, go,

go, go, go, go, go, go!

...Going on about it in the morning to me

I'm losing in the head,

and I've gone too far

Force ten from Navarone

is a shot fired hard

'Cause we never aimed it

In the box of isolation

Jason, why does the darkness elope?

I mean, the environment's changed

over the years.

We like the bigger venues now,

don't we, a bit?

Yeah.

We've become wankers,

if that's what you mean.

A lot of people in our game

who are doing alright, but, um,

generally, it's hopeless, yeah.

Politically, it's a mess.

Either side is

is not really giving

any people that really need help

any hope, are they?

They've got the "cryro," uh

genic baths in there.

- Super cold.

- Oh, yeah? What does that do?

It's like cocaine.

- Oh, is it?

- Oh, is it?

Honestly, it is. The same buzz.

How can I help you

feel better about you?

How can I help you

do what it is that you

Always hoped you could set out to prove?

'Cause that's what I do,

that's what I'm put here to do

Isn't it, isn't it you?

Wasn't it you, though?

Want me eternally youthful,

never grow old

I'll always be wet,

I'll always be up for it

Politely sit, but I

don't know sh*t, do I?

I don't know sh*t...

- We're... What?

- 17 minutes.

So, we don't want to go

too early to stage, right? So...

- Yeah.

- Let's go.

Be fashionably late.

- Fashionably late.

- Not late. We've got a curfew issue.

And then he's on, that's it.

Before I go forever

Be sure

Of what you say

So, he paints a pretty picture

And he tells you that he needs you

And he covers you with flowers...

Right, lads,

two minutes to go. Two minutes to go.

Well...

this is it.

Wembley!

This is obviously a very special moment,

and, you know, you're all

more than f*cking custodians

of what we're going to give them,

so go out there and just enjoy yourselves.

- 100%.

- And to you, Dames.

Ten seconds, guys,

we've got to clear the ramp.

Lydia, you got my earies?

Moments before that pep talk

or that huddle,

I was like, "Oh, my God, I need a wee."

And I was trying to tell people that,

and no-one was listening to me.

I don't know whether I do, I just...

Do you need the loo? Do you not?

You go up the ramp,

you know, slowly

you know, with all the people

going about their business,

and then that...

Suddenly, it's this big venue.

And I was like, "Where's the nearest loo?"

So, I just went backstage there.

Are we all good?

Everyone happy?

How long have we

got until we gotta go on?

There was a half-empty tin

of Diet Coke...

...so, I just had to go in that.

I think it was one of the road crew's,

I hope they didn't go back and finish it.

Quite a lot of people.

A mile-long queue

of people going in.

- f*ck' hell.

- You nervous?

- I am.

- I'm not, at all.

Are you not? Are you Zen?

No, I'm just dead.

I don't allow it to get to me,

'cause I accept

if my voice can't sing all those songs,

then that's just the way it is.

But, you know, if I was really neurotic

about things like that,

then, yeah, I would be sh1tting myself.

We were at college

when we did "Sing."

You know, we wrote that

in Damon's mum's studio,

and now, 35 years, there's going to be

80,000 people singing and crying.

There's a million upsides.

You know, credibility for my kids.

But actually, the brotherhood of

those c**ts

who I've known since I was 19,

and the music is its own greatest reward.

It really, really is.

- Shall we go?

- Yeah, let's go.

Good evening, Wembley.

Come on!

I want to see you bounce!

A fervid image of another world

Is nothing in particular now

And imitation comes naturally

But I never really stopped to think how

And everyone is a clever clone

A chrome-covered clone am I

So, in the absence of a way of life

I'll repeat this again and again

and again

Hey, hey, come out tonight

Popscene, oh

Oh! Oh! Oh!

Let's do this!

Hey, hey, come out tonight

Hey, hey, come out tonight

Popscene, all right

Hey, hey, come out tonight

Hey, hey, come out tonight

Popscene.

All those dirty words

They make us look so dumb

Been drinking far too much

And neither of us mean what we say

Well, you and I

We just collapsed in love

And it looks like we might have made it

Yes, it looks like we've made it

to the end.

Stop that, stop that.

Obviously,

there's something vaguely hilarious

about old men

throwing themselves around the stage.

It's a bit ridiculous, right?

You made us this way. It's your fault!

I want to see every f*ck

in this f*cking stadium

bounce to this song.

Woo-hoo! When I feel heavy metal

- Woo-hoo!

- And I'm pins and I'm needles

- Woo-hoo!

- Well, I lie and I'm easy

All of the time,

but I'm never sure why I need you

Pleased to meet you...

I got my head done

When I was young...

It's not my problem

It's not my problem

- Woo-hoo!

- When I feel heavy metal

- Woo-hoo!

- And I'm pins and I'm needles

- Woo-hoo!

- Well, I lie and I'm easy

All of the time,

but I'm never sure why I need you

Pleased to meet you...

Music is

something we've been doing

from the dawn of our species.

And, in fact,

it is just a sort of complete abandonment

of the self and the ego in that moment,

and you're just one of the many billions

of atoms in that space.

It's a way of expressing emotion

to somebody else

that bypasses

the rational senses of the brain.

The whole audience and band

kind of merging together

into one 148,000-legged beast.

That has been just extraordinary

and quite overwhelming.

It's the journey

and the hunger for the sublime.

That is the essence of performance,

is when you become

a vessel for everybody.

Now, we really do

have a treat for you now.

This is a very London moment.

I'd like to invite

the London Community Gospel Choir.

Yeah.

Tender is the night

Lying by your side

Tender is the touch

Of someone that you love too much

Tender is the day

The demons go away

Lord, I need to find

Someone who can heal my mind...

Come on, come on, come on

Get through it

Come on, come on, come on... Woo!

- Love's the greatest thing...

- f*ck me!

I find my situation

has been different on this tour

than it's been

for any getting-together with Blur.

And it's to do with a lot of things,

you know, in my personal life

and the Blur album and doing the shows.

But it's, like, we are having a good time.

And maybe it's to do with a certain amount

of gratitude or acceptance

of who we are

and feeling lucky to be able to do this.

Yeah, we do try and earn it,

and we don't think

we can just have that for nothing.

But I think, really, we are free.

We're at our freest when we're on stage.

Oh, my

Oh, my baby

Oh, my baby

Oh, why?

Oh, my...

What I've realised

is that, you know,

Blur's something I can

never, ever walk away from.

You know,

even if I had an absolute hissy-fit,

threw my toys out the pram,

it would still say on my grave,

"Alex from Blur,

"and cheese."

I remember a couple of years ago,

I thought, you know,

"When is the first time in the day

"that I think of either Blur

or one of the people in Blur?"

And I was sitting in the bath

this morning, looking at my toes,

thinking about the boys, just thinking,

"Yeah, nice."

You know, it's just really

really

spiritually

good to just feel

at peace with each other.

Love's the greatest thing

That we have...

I'm waiting for that feeling...

Long-term relationships

are bloody hard work.

There's no way round that,

and being in a band is just the same.

But if you put effort in

over a long period of time,

you can really achieve great things.

I'm more confident now

than I was at the start of the year

that this isn't the end of something,

but the start of something.

Oh, my goodness.

I hope you've had a good night tonight.

I've had a good night.

I really have. Thank you so much.

Honestly, dream come true.

This is the next century

Where the universal's free

You can find it anywhere

Yes, the future's been sold

Every night, we're gone

And to karaoke songs

How we like to sing along

Though the words are wrong

It really, really, really could happen

Yes, it really, really,

really could happen

When the days,

they seem to fall through you

Well, just let them go

Yes, it really, really,

really could happen

It really, really, really could happen

When the days,

they seem to fall through you

Well, just let them go...

It's all up to you now.

Thank you so much.

Unfortunately for me,

it doesn't get better than that.

You know you used to get

those competitions

where the band would

come and play in your living room?

That was the experience

of Wembley, really.

Felt like we were playing

in London's living room.

We've got some champagne for you, sir.

Friendly for Dave.

Damon wrote an e-mail

on Monday morning,

like, one of three he's ever written me,

going, "That was the best show

I've ever done."

I think there was a kind of

unselfconscious glee in the house.

And, yeah, it did feel like there was

no-one watching, in a strange way.

We were just

really, really, really enjoying ourselves.

It was so great.

I loved every minute of it, it was great.

I really did, I'm so proud.

The ending made me feel

really sort of teary.

It made me feel happy.

It made me feel a bit more valued.

I know I don't really care

what people think,

but when they're saying they love me

or they love Blur, and this and that,

you can't help but feel

kind of good about that.

I love you, man.

Some people need to be affirmed

once and it will last them a lifetime,

but some of us need it again and again

and again and are a pain in the arse.

So, it's kind of nice

to be told things like that.

In my grand tradition of being

always down on everything

that was...

It's as good as it gets, really.

Good as it gets.

I wrote the songs

kind of intuitively feeling that something,

you know, heavy about to happen.

And, you know, the first part,

I was on my own completely.

And then the second part of it,

I had my brothers, essentially, back.

You know, we all have

hugely, like,

involving and complicated lives,

and we're so lucky

that we get to spend this time together,

just the four of us.

And that's... that's the beauty of it.

Do I want to repeat it next year? No.

- Why not?

- Because why would I?

I've already had

an amazing year doing Blur. Fantastic.

And that's it, really.

I mean, I'm not saying

that's it, it, it, it, it,

although it may be.

It will manifest itself again if

it's wanted.

It felt like, for some reason,

it was wanted

at this moment in time.

Oh!

We've all been through a lot.

So, to be able to do something

that carries a whole new energy,

I'm not saying I have dreams anymore,

but if I did,

maybe how I would dream it to be.

Beware

Of his promise

Believe

What I say

Before I go forever

Be sure of what you say

So, he paints a pretty picture

And he tells you that he needs you

And he covers you with flowers

And he always keeps you dreamin'

If he always keeps you dreamin'

You won't have a lonely hour

If a day could last forever

You might like your ivory tower

But the night begins

to turn your head around

And you know you're gonna lose

more than you found

Yes, the night begins

to turn your head around

Beware

Of his promise

Believe

What I say

Before I go forever

Be sure of what you say

For the words may come too easy

If you don't believe I'm leavin'

And goodbye may come too quickly

If you really think he loves you

If you really think he loves you

You would give your love so sweetly

If the day could last forever

You would fall in love completely

But the night begins

to turn your head around

And you know you're gonna lose

more than you found

Yes, the night begins

to turn your head around

And the night begins

to turn your head around

And you know you're gonna lose

more than you found

Yes, the night begins

to turn your head around

And you know you're gonna lose

more than you found

Yes, the night begins

to turn your head around.