01x10 - Episode 10

[bunniefuu]

I'm so buzzed.

Are you?

I'm actually like borderline drunk.

- No way. - Yeah.

No wonder you came in here and woke me up.

[laughter]

I'm like, hey, what's going on?

I'm so curious to know what your secret is.

Wanna tell me?

Tell me.

I won't tell anyone, I promise.

Tell me.

You're not going to believe it.

Tell me.

[sigh]

[music playing]

Write a paper on it.

Look at that girl.

Why is she eating?

Lady, why is she eating food without a plate?

Karen, do you feel like cuddling tonight,

if we make at three-cuddlesome?

Would that be OK?

All three of us?

Where are we cuddling at?

Would that be weird?

On the floor?

We could cuddle on the floor.

Can I bring my mattress?

Yeah.

You want to sleep out here?

We could all fit in bed.

We could push two of our beds together.

Yeah, I'd cuddle.

Yeah, because you're--

I can't cuddle too much.

If you want to do that.

I would go into your room, but I don't want to be

intruding into the girls' room.

Not just yet.

I don't think it would matter.

If we pushed your bed and my bed together we could all three

fit on there and cuddle, and then it wouldn't be weird,

because it would be three.

And nobody would care that--

That's right, three is safe.

Would anybody care if he's in our room?

Would anybody care? No.

I'm worried about that.

[inaudible]

[laughter]

Wait, does Cassandra know what's going on here?

[inaudible]

You're all crazy.

Cassandra, you can sleep with me.

[inaudible]

[laughter]

Oh, I like this.

Cassandra, you can join us if you want.

Thank you very much.

I'm quite fine.

Interesting.

[music playing]

Cassandra tries to convince William to stop

manipulating the others.

I know that we're all in this house together,

but what you're trying to do is you're trying

to make people be like you are.

Not at all.

That's the way it looks to me.

You want everybody to be as outgoing and inquisitive

and as challenging as you.

Are they're not going to be that way because they're not from--

they're just not like that.

Their -day experience with you has

shown that you engage this man in conversation,

it's going to get uncomfortable.

And you cannot deny that.

You cannot deny that.

I think we should be here I think we are

here to challenge our fears.

I know, but that's you.

- Right. - That's you.

Right.

You can't force--

But I'm not forcing it, but I'm not

going to stray away from it.

I'm not going to say, because you can't do it,

I'm going to fall into what you do.

No, but you can find those people--

you can connect with those people who can do that.

But you also have to be able to relate

to people on another level, that doesn't

make them feel uncomfortable.

You can't always be the way you want to be.

I understand. I don't do that.

I ain't been chasing around for no conversation.

No, but like this thing you did last night when

you went in the living room.

I saw you, and I was like--

What did I do?

You came and you sat on the chair behind Karen.

And you know that was nothing but intimidation.

It was not necessary.

You don't intimidate me, but that's because I look like you.

No, but I'm not trying to intimidate her.

Yes you were.

Look, I mean, how intimidating you want to be

because of whatever reason--

get over it.

No, but you knew what you were doing,

and you know your body language is intimidating,

and you know you had that power and you

just need to channel it.

It's unfair for you to do that to people.

It is.

The fact that she drives me crazy, run around

like a chicken half the time.

I have to deal with that.

Yeah, but Mega, Karen keeps us eating,

and nine times out of she's helping

you because she's doing something

to keep the house going.

Well, I'm helping her to confront her fears,

whatever they may be.

Karen is years old.

She does not need you to help her confront her fears.

She has raised four children.

You know what I'm saying?

What I'm saying is this.

If these people are here, they're here for a reason.

So maybe if she can get over intimidation by me, which is--

you know what I mean, probably nowhere near this to her,

something she can pull out of herself

to empower her to walk back to them and demand some respect.

But Mega, you just gratuitously

seek to intimidate sometimes.

Man, I am hardly around that woman.

I mean, you know.

I don't know.

I don't understand you.

I've told you this.

I've told you this time and time again.

You have so much power, and sometimes

you just channel it, you just like let me see what I can do.

Let me see what I can stir up.

And I see the purpose in that.

I don't see the purpose in that, and I

think it's a shame because all this positive energy you got

goes in the wrong direction.

And then people end up disliking you when really

they should be following you.

You know what I'm saying?

Mmm, but they're not going to do that.

They could have.

Had you done things differently, they could have.

Now they won't.

You know what I'm saying?

Now they certainly won't.

I still think there's hope.

[music playing]

Jordan's secret is becoming unbearable.

I feel like I'm turning into an emotional basket case.

I really, really want to make my parents proud of me,

and telling my parents that I was a stripper for two years

is like, it's like the biggest slap in the face.

I did it, though.

I did it because there's no way but I

want my parents to find out on national television

like everybody else.

And the reason why I'm crying is because my parents

totally accepted me.

They totally accepted me for who I was.

And it was just one of the most beautiful things in the world

that I've ever experienced.

Their primary concern was that I go on this show

and I have integrity, and I have integrity about who I am.

I don't even know if that's happens.

I don't know if that's--

the first week I was here I told some people that there's

a lot about me that people don't know,

and I guess it's kind of a compliment

that no one is guessing, oh, were you an exotic dancer?

They're all guessing, like, you must be an Olympic athlete,

you must be a concert pianist, you must be this--

you must be this amazing person and you're hiding it.

And I think it's really humorous.

But I am going to tell people this week.

[music playing]

Jordan calls a group meeting.

Thank you for attending my summit.

[laughter]

Well, there's two things.

First of all, I wanted to clear the air

about the whole nomination thing,

because I know that that's stressful for a lot of people.

I know that people are talking about it.

I would much rather someone say I voted for you, this is why,

take it or leave it.

And I--

I think you're setting yourself

up to be to be hurt more.

I really do.

No, because that's not who I am.

Look how you've reacted, though.

You reacted in anger again today.

I think you just need to relax and enjoy yourself,

I really do, because this could be fun.

A concern that I have is that when we bought into this thing,

into this Big Brother experience,

we bought into the possibility that we

were going to get nominated.

And I know you're going through something that's really hard.

But I think that you have a responsibility as a nominee

not to stress everybody out /.

It's just unfair for you to do that.

Does everybody here think I've been really high-stress /?

Lately, yes.

I do.

Yes.

Jordan, this is obviously still bothering you so badly.

Karen, there's something-- it's deeper than this.

It's a lot deeper than just the nomination.

The reason why I've been stressed out

is because before, you know, I've told everyone

that I'm writing a book, right?

And I've been secretive--

Curtis has been like, what is the book about?

The book is about the sex industry.

And no, I'm not an Olympic triathlete.

I'm not-- you know, I'm flattered that you guys thought

I was all these amazing things.

And no, I haven't been a prost*tute, but I was--

I mean, as crude as it sounds, I was a stripper for two years.

But I got involved in that industry when I was ,

and I didn't go into it thinking I'm going to write

this sociological treatise.

I didn't approach it like that.

I approached it as someone who was curious about the industry

and was in a really bad position as far as life management goes.

And I really needed to do something fast because I

had managed my life poorly.

And I was paranoid about telling anyone about it

because it's a totally stigmatized profession.

It has all of these stereotypes.

When people think of a stripper, they

think of a woman who's vacuous, a woman who

has no morals, who's loose, who's working

the prostitution circuit.

And I was paranoid.

And do you understand why I didn't just come out with that

the first couple of days?

You guys have any feedback?

I do.

I think one thing that we can all understand is reputation.

So I can't imagine how much these past few days

have sucked for you.

Sorry.

I can tell you this.

You're worried about how people's views would

change once they found out.

You know me personally.

My view has not changed at all.

Because remember the conversation me,

you, and Cassandra had, one of the first nights in the

kitchen, was about strippers.

I don't know how it came up.

But I gave you my view from the beginning.

I gave my view from the beginning.

My view is almost in sync with yours.

So I can just speak for myself and tell

you my view hasn't changed.

[music playing]

Brittany reveals that one of her best friends is a stripper.

She worked at the same place my friend did.

She knows who my friend is.

Oh sh*t.

How weird is that?

They make bank.

She would just make buttloads.

Well, the place where they worked

is the most expensive strip club in Minneapolis.

It's like the nicest.

You have to be upper class.

It's like the most expensive place to get in,

and it's addicting.

The waitresses wore nylons and then like dental floss

underwear and like these little tiny--

like, they were technically covered.

And she was always like, Brittany, you got to waitress,

you got to waitress.

And she's like, they're totally clothed, da da da,

and I would go in there and just like--

I cannot.

Because I was totally struggling,

you know, and I just couldn't do it.

And I was like.

I just can't.

I just can't.

Somebody offered me for my body, yeah, I'd sell it.

[laughter]

I couldn't.

We know, man.

I'd sell my body.

I'd do it for free.

[laughter]

Because I'm an a*s--

And that's why it get so hard, and then you

don't leave because you're spending,

spend more because you make more,

and then you spend more because you make more.

And it's weird, because your self-esteem gets whittled

away because you're a stripper.

But when you're there, stripping, you have the power.

You're onstage.

They're all there to see you.

You know, you tell a guy, I want $ more, they give it to you.

Like the girl is in control while she's stripping.

And then when you're not stripping,

you're like this loser stripper, so you just

want to strip more and more and more, because you're like,

you know the guys in the audience are married

and they left their wives to come see you.

And, you know, they all want you, but you're

not letting them have you.

It's a big power trip, and a lot of them

have anorexia and bulimia and a lot of issues.

A lot of them spend a month to save up

to get their liposuction and their boobs

and the whole nine yards to make more money.

It's a bad circle.

[music playing]

So critique me.

You was going way overboard tonight.

You weren't listened to nothing that nobody

had to say, especially as it got closer to the end

of that conversation.

And you were jumping on everybody,

and didn't have the right 'tude.

And after a while you were not listening.

And you were repeating yourself, or when somebody was saying

something back to you exactly what you said,

you would claim that you didn't say it that way.

In your mind, you may have didn't mean it that way,

but that's the way it was coming out.

And it was never directed at me, so I was objective.

And you know I'm with you.

I was like, whoa, she just going through it right now,

'cause she is not hearing what the--

she is saying.

It was like, you know what, and the problem is this.

This is the problem.

You.

You weren't in on every conversation, though.

I was standing there.

Look, if I wasn't on your side, I'd

have been ripping your-- apart.

It's not about sides.

Do you know how many times--

like you're critiquing me, everything you're critiquing

is stuff you do.

That's completely different, when somebody calls you out

of your name, and you tell them I suggest that you

talk to me in a better manner.

That's [inaudible].

[laughter]

[music playing]

In celebration of the Tour de France,

the houseguests are called to the yard for their second

week-long challenge.

[interposing voices]

They have five minutes to decide what

percentage of their grocery allowance they want to wager.

You guys, it's a bike.

I'm so excited.

Read it.

You guys ready?

Go ahead, read it.

OK.

Le Tour de Big Brother.

Oh god.

To complete Le Tour de Big Brother,

the bike must be run a total of , miles

by the end of the day on Friday.

Easy. [interposing voices]

Oh my gosh, I'm so excited.

How many miles a day is , over five days?

It's going to be miles a day.

[interposing voices]

Quiet.

You guys, it's miles a day.

What do you guys want to do.

We can do on this, and we still won't get tired.

We can stay up all night like we normally do with this.

I'm with the Mega Man on that.

I think we should go .

[interposing voices]

I'd go .

Does everybody agree on %?

%, yes or no?

[interposing voices]

You guys up for or hours a day of being on the bike,

but it's not just screwing around on the bike.

What can you offer?

I could do two hours a day without a problem.

I can do miles a day.

Let's go for it.

I'm so excited.

I'm so excited.

[music playing]

Karen begins to see Curtis in a new light.

I liked him so much before I came in here,

but I see a different side of him here, and I don't like it.

He said something last night that--

he kind of was firm, and I appreciated that.

But most of the time I don't see that in hem.

He plays it.

I think what Josh is holding back is that probably--

and I could be totally wrong, but it's the second time

I felt it--

and he was maybe on the verge of sharing with us,

is that Josh may either be bi or g*y.

It seems sort of also consistent with him saying around two

months ago or in the last six months,

he's been coming to terms with him being him

or just being happy generally about life,

and see, that sort of seems consistent with some sort

of inner struggle.

It also seems consistent with what Brittany was talking

about, like, who would you hook up with people in the house,

and when Josh rephrased the question he

talked about any guy or any girl in the house,

but wouldn't answer.

It also seemed consistent with Josh saying,

you guys would be very surprised by my answer, things like that.

So it's just a hunch.

[music playing]

William explains why he is antagonizing

the other houseguests.

If, somehow, some way, that I could assist--

in some cases, unknowingly to them--

and make them think a little more difficult to the group,

since-- especially since--

up until this point, the group to me

has decided not to engage in human development with the time

that we have here.

Since they seem to be more focused on just the competition

and very surface and superficial things,

then, I figure if we're going to engage on that level,

then we can engage on that level and see who's the best

man or woman, who can survive.

By creating these obstacles for the others,

how does that benefit you?

I will say that a wise general would never reveal his plans

to any potential enemies.

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