06x07 - Silence Speaks Volumes

[bunniefuu]

I just kept finding comfort in you.

-[Clay] We are a partnership, a team.
-Yeah.

That's why I love you, baby girl.
That's why I love you.

[pop music playing]

Amy, will you please make me
the happiest man alive

and spend the rest of your life with me
and marry me?

Yes. [laughs]

-I love you!
-Love you too.

You are my person.

The way you talk to me,
you understand what I need.

It's been a long time
since I've felt this way about someone,

but I love you, Chelsea.

-I love you. [chuckles]
-[gasps]

-[Jimmy] There's a love triangle.
-You talking about our love triangle?

I'm, like, falling for you.

-[laughs]
-[Jeramey] Laura's cool.

Sarah's really cool.

-[Kenneth] Sarah Ann.
-Yeah.

I think you are an amazing person.

-And I think, like, the world of you.
-Thank you.

But I did decide that my other date

is who I have to move forward with.

[Chelsea whispers]
Jimmy told me he loved me.

You told someone else
that you loved them yesterday.

When you see and realize
what you missed out on,

you are going to choke.

God bless you.

Trevor, I can't give you
all of me right now.

Are you giving it all to someone else?

[sniffles] Yes.

♪ Oh... ♪

[laughing] Oh, my God!

-Oh, my God!
-[grunts]

-[laughing] Black love.
-Black love, baby.

-Look at us.
-[laughs]

[laughs] You're so handsome.

[Jimmy] Chelsea's not necessarily
what I expected.

She definitely lied to me
on how she looks.

But I'm attracted to her personality
and the love she's given me.

And that's all that matters.

I love you for who you are.

I'm so freakin' happy.

♪ On fire... ♪

-Come here.
-Yeah.

It's so surreal
because, like, I found her.

-I do love you.
-Love you.

This could be the start of my dreams,

everything that I ever wanted.

She's taught me about,
what is it, "bean dip"?

-She told me you'd know what that means.
-Laura! [laughing]

Bean dip?

Not the bean dip!

-She told me to do that.
-She told you to do that? To who?

-You! And I'm like, what are you...
-That's so crazy!

-[Laura] Don't start sh*t.
-It was a joke!

I'm ready to go home.

[shouting]

-[Jimmy] I'm just impressed.
-

Thank you.

I wanna puke.

You said hurtful comments.
You made me feel uncomfy.

-Okay...
-So just take it.

-["Cross the Line" by Ty Magenta playing]
-[gasps] ♪ What if we jump? ♪

[gasps] ♪ What if we dive? ♪

♪ Stomach the drop ♪

♪ Just to feel alive ♪

♪ No faith ♪

♪ Just blind anticipation ♪

♪ Can't shake the feeling
That we're chasing ♪

♪ Don't wait... ♪

Are you mad at me?

No.

I wanna make sure
you know that I am very sorry and...

I love you.

And I don't ever wanna put you
in a position where you feel sad or hurt.

I love you. I'm here for you.

Love you too.

I just needed you
to hear me out when I feel sad.

Yeah.

I need you to say,
"Your feelings are valid. I hear you."

-I wouldn't just make them up.
-I do hear you. I'm...

I'm sorry I didn't, um...

-I had a hard day.
-I'm a little hardheaded. I know.

-You are.
-A little hardheaded.

You gotta work with me. Look.

-I love you.
-You gotta work with me.

-I love you with all of my heart.
-Are you down to work with me?

-Mm-hmm.
-I love you with all my heart too.

-I just put sunscreen on my face.
-Did you?

[laughing] You take sunblock?

This is sunblock. [laughing]

Please. Kinda.

[sniffs, laughs]

-[pop music playing]
-♪ Here's to love ♪

♪ Here's to love ♪

[Brittany] It was interesting
to see everybody.

-Johnny and Amy, they were solid.
-So in love.

Yeah, they were solid.

Then Jimmy and Chelsea,
they looked really sweet together.

-Yeah.
-They really did.

He said it's been, like,
literally almost perfect.

-Like, literally.
-Hmm.

-I know you saw me and AD talking.
-Oh, yeah.

She brought up,
like, the whole race thing.

-She brought up kids.
-Mm-hmm.

How will our kids perceive race?

-I appreciate, like, the questions.
-Mm-hmm.

Now, if they're
coming from a root of, like,

thinking that I'm unable to handle it...

-Mm-mmm.
-...I would view it differently.

But I would hope that it's coming
from good, pure intent of, like,

"I identify as a Black woman.
I'm coming to a Black man."

"I see that he is dating a white woman."

"I want to, like, make sure
that he's in the right headspace

of our Black excellence."

But, yeah, like, I just hope
people are being, like, intentful.

I didn't get ill intent.

-Good
-I did not.

Um, it was a very well-rounded...

-Good!
-...I think, conversation.

I know that it's such a challenge
for Black men with white women.

-Or any interracial couple.
-Mm-hmm.

'Cause I've always faced that.

Like, I have always ran into, like,

"Okay, you know, if you marry a Black man,
these are the things that you will face."

It is completely different,

rather than dating
someone of your own race

and that who, to the eye, looks like me.

But, like, y'all talking about it,
I mean, she is a Black woman.

And she can relate to you,

whereas, like,
I identify as a white woman.

The questions that AD
was asking me was very...

it gave me very much, like, true concern.

You know we're gonna face,
like, people's opinions.

Like, my female best friend

is probably gonna be very like,
"Ken, like, let's talk."

-My people, they love me hard, you know?
-[Brittany] Right.

So, like, they're... they're concerned
mostly always about how are...

who has my heart.

"Do you guys
understand the magnitude of this?"

Like, "Are y'all prepared for this?"

Like, my people are gonna be...

They're gonna love you
'cause you're a b*mb person.

-But they're gonna be...
-[Brittany] Gonna have those same...

Yeah, they're gonna
wanna know that I am good.

-And that we are good, you know?
-[Brittany] Right.

Do you think if, like, your family,
your friends are coming to you,

and they're like, "Are y'all good?"

Like, that's what you said.
You were like, "Are y'all good?"

What would make you
feel confident in "us being good"?

[inhales] Good question.

[exhales]

Like, what would identify "good" to you?

-I know that you're confident in this.
-Uh-huh.

And you don't have any, like...
you are used to, like, dating Black men.

[Brittany] Uh-huh.

-I can hear you say that to me.
-Right.

But when I'm able to see you, like,
in the world, like, that's the thing.

-Actions aligning with words.
-Mm-hmm.

Pretty good at that. [chuckles]

Pretty good at that.

-I know you.
-Right.

But my people are gonna wanna see you.

-["Daylight" by Tina Parol playing]
♪ You can run from the storm ♪

♪ Or you can dance in the rain ♪

♪ I see that daylight ♪

♪ I see with new eyes ♪

[vocalizing]

♪ Daylight, daylight ♪

Whoo! Look at us!

-[Amy] Oh! Oh! Okay! Oh!
-There we go! Look at us now.

-She's like, "I need to go." [laughs]
-He wants to lead. He wants to lead.

I feel like they resemble
our relationship perfectly.

-[laughs] To be honest.
-I think so too. [chuckles]

♪ Daylight... ♪

[shouting]

♪ Daylight, daylight ♪

-How do you pronounce that?
-Bávaro.

Ooh! That was sexy!

-

Thank you.
-I love that.

-I love the red light too.
-I know.

-I do red light kisses, you know.
-The countdown.

[both] Mmm!

I love red light kisses, you know.

-Period.
-Period, right?

That's my thing. It's like, red light?
Come and kiss me, babe, you know?

Mmm!

[vocalizing]

♪ Daylight, daylight ♪

-♪ Chasin' the sunlight ♪
-♪ Daylight ♪

♪ Like it's the first time ♪

♪ Daylight ♪

[vocalizing]

Well, I think
I'm gonna leave my shoes here, actually.

Check. I like that idea.

After we got home last night
from the party, Jeramey was very cold.

He iced me out.
He didn't wanna talk about anything.

I had no idea what was going on.
I didn't know what had happened.

He just had no interest in talking
and slept on the sofa,

and I slept in the bed, and that was that.

-[Jeramey] Let's talk about last night.
-Well, let me first say this.

Last night was triggering for me

because of past relationships
I've been in.

Yeah.

Where it's like, I end up being, like,
embarrassed by my significant other

because of, like, something they do
or say or whatever.

So in the future, if I tell you a story

and I say jokingly go do something,
we have to...

-I didn't do it! [laughs]
-No, I know.

I never in a million years
would have thought

that you would have repeated
any of that to anyone else.

I looked like
the biggest assh*le in the world.

I went to bed angry.
I slept on the couch last night.

I refused to come back in the room 'cause
I was trying to mind my own business.

My judgement was, like, "Cool."

"You've made your bed this badly,
you might as well lay in it now."

Am I gonna be perfect?
No. I'm gonna f*ck up.

But if I f*ck up, I need to handle it
a hell of a lot better

than I handled it last night,
because you didn't deserve

the silent treatment
that you got last night.

-Yeah.
-I know that's not the way to handle sh*t.

And I knew that,
and I still did it, and it was wrong,

and all I can do is just fix it.

Okay. Fair enough.

So you like me still?

-So yeah.
-[both laugh]

-Good. Good.
-I do still like you.

But just so you fully understand,
like, where I'm coming from,

in the pods, I, like, communicated,

but in the real world,
I would have just been like, "Nope."

I probably...

Like, I remove myself from situations

to, like, protect myself, I guess.

You icing me out completely
when I had done nothing wrong or to you,

I had no choice but to think, like,

something I said or did
pissed you off, so then I got pissed off.

-And so then it just...
-You did nothing wrong. Like, that was me.

-Yeah.
-And I 100% own that.

If we're gonna get married,

then it's like
what happened last night is not it.

[hesitates] No, absolutely.

-Not to be dramatic...
-[laughs]

...but if someone had been like,

"Are you guys getting married?" I think
maybe yesterday, I would've said 100%.

-Today, I would maybe say, "I don't know."
-Yeah.

That's why I got so worried last night
and this morning,

'cause I was like,
"Well, I'm on my own. I'm on my own."

-You're not on your own.
-Which is a scary place to be in.

You're not on your own.

I looked at you while you were sleeping,
and I was like,

-"She's adorable."
-[laughs]

-Like, not just looks-wise...
-Okay, but that's not enough.

No, but no. Like, not just looks-wise.

The things you do, the mannerisms,
the way you act, the way we communicate.

I literally went back to the pods
and was like,

"We get along on every level."

-"There's a reason we're here."
-Yeah.

Why would I let that go away
over my dumbass ego last night

and, like, way of not handling
a situation the right way?

And then that's when I was like,
"No, that's not the way to do this."

Fair.

-I don't like that it happened. I'm sorry.
-Okay.

-I do love you. I want things to work out.
-I love you too.

I feel better.

-You feel better?
-Yeah. Communication.

I said it in the pods,
communication is everything.

[exhales] Where do you think
we stack up with the other couples

now that you've met everybody?

We're one of the top couples.

We're one of the top?
Who do you think is above us?

-Nobody. Nobody.
-Nobody? We're number one?

We communicate the best.

♪ Let's come together... ♪

Last night was a bad example.

♪ Lean in
And let's make love last forever ♪

♪ Let's come together ♪

Okay. Slow it down.

Slow it down, Julieta. [laughs]

Damn, Amy, look at you!

-You're a horse-riding pro.
-Slow, slow, slow.

-["Get This Feeling" by Biltmore playing]
-♪ Livin' your life... ♪

Ooh. Wait, wait up, wait up.

This is a memory
that I'll never forget, truly.

Like, my week is made.

-This made your week? Not the engagement?
-[Amy laughing]

No, the engagement was
obviously highlight of the year.

[Johnny] I'm hoping so.

[laughs]

♪ I get this feeling
And it's taking over ♪

♪ Something about it
Makes me lose my self-control ♪

♪ All of my senses
Keep on rising in tension, oh, no, no ♪

♪ I get this feeling
I get, get this feeling... ♪

[Johnny] Hey. Right by that little tree.

♪ Na na na, yeah! ♪

-Oh, my legs.
-I know.

My butt is just so frickin' sore
right now. Oh, my gosh.

We got some good horses.

We do. Julieta and Johnny.

-"Julieta." Pronounce it with a...
-Julieta?

-Julieta.
-Yeah.

-Julieta and Johnny.
-Mm-hmm.

-I'm gonna come back and have an accent.
-You are.

-You're slowly turning Dominican.
-I think I am.

-And I love all of you.
-Thank you.

I feel like my love for you
grows every day,

and that encompasses the mental,
the emotional and the physical.

Mm-hmm.

And I really do feel
that physical spark with you,

which I was worried for at first.
You never know how it's gonna go.

-No.
-How about you?

I think it's doing good. I really think
we connected a lot in the pods.

I mean, literally, I feel like I can't
keep my hands off you most of the time.

Same, same, same.

I love your eyes, especially in the sun.

Thank you. I do like your hair.

-You do? Thank you.
-Mm.

It looks natural. It looks
like that's the way it should be too.

It's hard to control sometimes. [laughs]

Just let it go free.

I'm grateful.

[laughs]

-Everything's perfect.
-Yeah.

I feel like everything's great.
And I think that's what makes me nervous.

I mean, we're bound
to go through some hurdles.

-Yeah, that's what I'm very nervous about.
-[laughs] I'm like, "Where's it gonna go?"

I kind of want that initial,
like, first fight to see how it goes down.

See, like, what kind of things are said.

I'm not saying I wanna fight
with you right now, but like,

I do want to get into one of the big ones
to see what it's like and what it is.

Yeah, it's gonna happen.

-You keep talking. You're manifesting it.
-Yeah, I know. I know!

It's gonna be bad too,
and I feel really bad about it.

That is one of the things I feel like
we need to know before we get married.

-Yeah.
-[Johnny] What it's gonna be like.

[laughs] Yeah, and it's gonna be
when we live together.

-Oh, I know.
-I just know it. [laughs]

-Oh, God. [laughs]
-"Amy, why is the cap off the toothpaste?"

"Johnny, why didn't you flush the toilet?"

Oh, God, you better flush the toilet.

-[Johnny laughing]
-I love you, but...

-[pop music playing]
-♪ You make it easy to love ♪

♪ You make it easy to love ♪

♪ You make it easy to love ♪

I'm so glad you're getting
to experience the ocean.

I feel so happy.

I do too.

-Oh, that would have been fun. Dolphins.
-[Brittany] Look at all the birds!

Ever swam with dolphins?
We should've did that.

Shut up!

-[Kenneth] Ever swam with dolphins before?
-[shouts] Look, look, look! No.

-[Kenneth] You never have? I have.
-No! You have?

[Kenneth] In the Bahamas, yeah.

It's lit. It's an amazing experience.
And the dolphin I had, his name was Ken.

Shut up.

I fell in love with dolphins
because of that.

You got me talking now.
Literally, I loved it so much.

Can I have dolphins
on, um, aisle two, please?

All the time?

I had a dolphin keychain.
Like, that's how much I loved it.

I threw it away now,
but I was in love with them.

And they're so nice and, like, just...

They give you dolphin kisses on the nose?

Yeah, I did it. I did the whole...
I got a picture of it, literally.

It was crazy.

♪ I dare you to love ♪

♪ Let the fire ignite ♪

♪ To open your heart to what's inside ♪

♪ I dare you to love ♪

♪ Love ♪

[Brittany] Um...

I am very... like, do you see
how I'm, like, always...

Do you appreciate... do you like that?
What is your view on physical touch?

-I love it.
-Now that we are physically together?

-I love it. I love it.
-Tell me more.

Like, you... [chuckles]

-Lingo. Combined lingo.
-[chuckles]

Um, physical touch to me,
it's a way you affirm someone.

-Yeah.
-Like, it's peace and security.

-Good. Good.
-You touch me, it makes me feel good.

I'm very... I have always been,
like, someone...

That is a way that I show my love,

and, like, just having, like,
my hand on you is something that I like.

That's what I want though.
I'm gonna end up always touching you.

I'm gonna always touch you. Hard not to.

I think... I think that you do
a very good job of, like, remaining, like...

-I don't think that you touch me like...
-You don't think I overwhelm?

-You don't feel overwhelmed?
-No, no.

Like, sometimes I'm like,
you can touch me more.

Yeah.

[Brittany chuckles]

[clears throat]

Hold on. Pick your arm up
just a little bit more.

Up, up, up, up, up. [chuckles]

I really did not...
I really did not know that,

like, you really love,
like, physical touch.

-Like, seriously.
-Yeah, I do. [laughs]

-I really be thinking I be smothering you.
-You don't smother me.

And that's crazy, like...

You do not smother me at all
in your physical touch.

-That's good to know.
-Like, I kinda at one point...

[Kenneth] Mm-hmm.

I did think, I was like,
"I don't really know if he's into me."

-Oh, really?
-Yeah.

'Cause I was like,
"He, like, is not very affectionate."

Hmm. Wow. I never heard that before.

-[laughs]
-That's crazy.

Does that make you feel better though?

Does that make you feel like,

"Oh, my God, like, I'm not smothering her.
Like, I don't have to question it?"

Hmm. It just gives me, like, more insight.

-Yeah.
-I won't say better.

-It just gives me more insight about you.
-Yeah.

Yeah. It's new.
Like, that's definitely new.

I've never... I've always heard
I'm overly affectionate, so...

I mean, I definitely think someone
could be, like, overly affectionate,

but I don't necessarily foresee
you being overly affectionate,

just because you are
such, like, a gentle giant.

-Mm-hmm.
-And you're so respectful, um...

Like, I don't think that...

Just me personally,
I would never be like, "Oh, my gosh."

-Yeah.
-Like, you know?

Yeah.

Your hands are so big.

[pop music playing]

♪ Little did I know ♪

♪ Underneath the stars ♪

♪ Lying next to you... ♪

[Kenneth] This breeze feels good.

♪ Is where you'd break my heart ♪

♪ Oh-oh-oh! ♪

♪ Little did I know, oh-oh-oh! ♪

♪ Little did I know, oh-oh-oh-oh! ♪

-I'm ready to eat.
-Yes, yes.

-I want some soup. Feeling shrimp.
-[laughs] Yeah.

You know?

Let me see this ring again. Ooh.

I like that bling.

-

Yeah?
-That bling go crazy with your nails.

-[laughs]
-Oh, man, this is beautiful, babe.

I know.

[Clay] Yeah. I love being around water.

Are you a beach girl?

-I love the beach. I love the ocean.
-[Clay] Really?

I love the sound of it,
like, everything about it.

It blew my mind.
You told me Boston has a lot of beaches.

Cape Cod, Martha's Vineyard
and everything, like...

-Martha's Vineyard's by the water?
-Yeah!

Really? My mom goes there all the time.

I just never ever wanted
to go to Massachusetts.

I mean, that's where we grew up.

And you just decided to stay
when you danced for the Patriots?

-Yeah. Two Super Bowls.
-You were there when they was winning.

You was there with all the big dogs.
Gronk, all them dudes.

[sniffles]

-We're gonna be a great couple. Iconic.
-Yeah.

Yeah. I'm excited
to, like, walk around the city with you.

-And show you off, my fiancé.
-Yeah. "My fiancé."

Yeah, yeah. First thing you're gonna do
when you get back to Charlotte?

Call my sister, my nieces, my nephews.

They're gonna be like, "What the hell?"

-Mm-hmm
-

In the best way.

My dad's getting ready
to move into a house in Atlanta,

so he'll stop by in Charlotte.

My dad is a very suave man, Guyanese man.

-He's gonna love you.
-

Really?

-I'm gonna meet him?
-[Clay] Of course. Of course.

-You'll meet my mom and my dad. Yep.
-Okay.

-Cool. I'm so happy. I ain't gonna lie.
-Really?

-

Hmm!
-[Clay laughs]

Thank you! Gracias.

Gracias. [chuckles]

-[Clay] Ooh, plantain.
-

Mm-hmm.

-What are we cheers-ing to, baby?
-To us.

-To eternity. Let's go, baby. To eternity.
-To eternity?

Okay.

Let's go, AD.

My gosh, some protein in my system.

-[laughing]
-The soup is first priority.

-Mmm! Yeah.
-Good?

-Looks really good.
-[Clay] Yeah.

-It's good?
-Locked in.

[slurping]

[chuckles]

[slurps]

Mmm! Mm-mm-mm! [snorts]

[chuckles]

[laughing] I'm sorry.

I'm glad you're loving it.
I'm glad you're loving it.

-I'm good now.
-

Yeah?

I kinda wanna just observe the water.

[pop music playing]

[exhales]

What are you thinking?

Like, I try to stay present
in the moment of everything,

and I'm really enjoying my time.
I guess, uh...

I don't know. I really don't wanna
let you down. I just feel that...

-

Is that what you're thinking?
-Yeah.

You're gonna let me down?

Not that I'm going to let you down.
I just don't want to.

'Cause it is a date that's coming up.
You know what I'm saying?

And, um, I know how much
this means to you and all that stuff,

and I wanna be that guy,
and I'm, like, trying my hardest.

It's just, you know,
sometimes I get in my head, you know?

What is, like, the biggest roadblock?

-Or, like, the biggest thing?
-[Clay] It's not even a roadblock.

I'm loving everything we got going on.
With this trajectory, we're good.

Just, uh...

What just happened?

Nothing, nothing. I'm good.

I'm just... I'm just thinking, babe.
I'm not... I'm good.

-Like, I'm good.
-Okay.

We're good. Like,
it's just thinking about everything.

And it's just, like,
things coming at you at once.

It's just how the human brain works,
like, you know.

-It's just, it's a lot.
-That was just such a crazy switch up.

To turn it around and look at me and say,
"I feel like I'm gonna let you down."

-No, I said I don't wanna let you down.
-Right, well, okay.

-It's different, like...
-Okay. It just came out of nowhere.

It did. I mean...

Like, I don't want
to come at you and talk fear.

And like,
"I don't wanna do this with you,"

or anything like that, like, 'cause I do.

Like, I really wanna be here for you.

I want this to work.

It's just, it is in the back of my mind
of the marriage thing.

And it's just something
that I just struggle with,

with my... my parents, my family,

and just like how divorce,
how it really just tears up the household.

That's big to me, you know.

I have real feelings for you,

but it's just a lot that is just
going on in my mind. Yeah.

-["Say It" by Ella playing]
-♪ You took the music out of my melody ♪

♪ The words out of my mouth... ♪

It's not like, "Oh, man,
I'm not gonna marry you

at the end of this,
like, whole situation."

That's none of that.

I could definitely
see you as my wife, like, 100%.

Like, it's just...
I'm, like... I'm just in thought, like...

♪ And nobody knows ♪

♪ What's wrong till we have to face it... ♪

♪ Say it, let it out... ♪

I just wanna believe.

♪ Tell me why
You've been here holding on to ♪

♪ What I should have known ♪

♪ Save me time ♪

♪ Don't drag me through it... ♪

♪ I just don't wanna be unsure ♪

♪ Was I not enough? ♪

-[pop music playing]
-♪ La-la-la ♪

♪ La-la, la-la-la-la ♪

♪ I ain't got no time to worry... ♪

[Brittany] Something I appreciate
about this man.

[chuckles] He's OCD, just like me.

[laughs]

It's actually really fantastic.

All his stuff is very neat.

Gold star. Gold star.

♪ I believe, I believe, I believe
That you're the one, yeah ♪

♪ 'Cause love hits harder in love... ♪

[Johnny] The beautiful Amy.
Look at her. Look at her.

I did think about
how marriage would look like,

this morning when we woke up.

And it was nice. Like,
it was, like, a good feeling behind it.

Ooh, these little tarts
were so frickin' good last night.

Oh, my...

Look at that little sh*t. Mm!

[Amy] You didn't share with me.

[Johnny] You didn't want one,
'cause Mrs. "I Flossed."

-[both laugh]
-It's just still surreal to me.

Like, it's the wildest thing,
but it's, like, one of the best things.

♪ Every kiss hits harder ♪

♪ And I know that it's love ♪

-My breath can be vicious in the morning.
-[laughs] Oh, my gosh. Not vicious.

It can be vicious in the morning,
so I definitely,

uh, know my responsibility

of going to the sink
and brushing my teeth before I speak.

Appreciate it.

-[pop music playing]
-♪ I just wanna love ya... ♪

[Jeramey] Look at you,
looking all stunning today.

-You like my casual wear?
-[Jeramey] Back up a bit.

Let's see it.
Let's see it. Give it a spin.

Oh, I like that ring
in the sunshine though.

-Whoo! Girl!
-[laughing]

♪ I just wanna love ya ♪

-Beach day. Beach day.
-[laughing]

How do you feel?

-We good. We living. We are.
-[Chelsea laughs]

We out here livin'! L-I-V-I-N, baby!

[both laughing]

-Delete it!
-[laughing]

[pop music playing]

He's a mess.

♪ Yeah, I'm up with the sun
Yeah, we only live once ♪

♪ Wanna do all the things
That I ain't done, like, yeah ♪

♪ Got the bum-ba-da-bum
Mix it up with a little fun ♪

[Jimmy] Let's go!

[Laura] Amy!

-[Jimmy] Come here, baby!
-[Johnny] There he is! How's it going?

[chattering]

-Good to see you.
-I wanna play cornhole later.

-I do too!
-[Laura] Me too!

I wanna stuff my face. [laughs]

-Go eat with me.
-[Amy] I'm down.

-[pop music playing]
-[singing in Spanish]

[laughing]

-You scared me!
-Get me out of this!

I'm not a part of this!

-About to get litty-titty out here.
-I know. I'm excited.

I ain't above you. I ain't below you,
but I'm right here with you.

-I like that one!
-[Kenneth exclaims]

[Jimmy] What a trip so far.

When I tell you,
we are at a whole different level.

-[Laura] Oh, good!
-

Good!

-It is...
-Are y'all having sex?

-[hesitates] We... we tussled.
-[Laura] We are too.

[shouting]

[laughing]

Wait, you too?

[shouts]

-

Girl, we are engaged women.
-We are! You know what? I will tell you...

Grown, engaged women.

It took a challenge for us to really,
like, pull it in and be like, "Damn."

-Oh, yeah.
-Good!

[Chelsea] 'Cause it's just the way
he handles conflict

and the way he, like, handled me.

[Jimmy grunts]

[Chelsea] Okay. I was gonna say,
"You look great, baby," but...

-

But then he did...
-[laughing]

God bless...

-It... it took a minute, but, like...
-Yeah, yeah, yeah.

-Yeah.
-...it was needed to hold off.

-Yeah.
-Yeah.

-But...
-Now the floodgates are open.

-They were open and received and giving...
-Period!

-They were taken.
-

Period! Give and take!

-Period, exactly!
-Rockin' that floodgate ourselves!

-[pop music playing]
-[singing in Spanish]

I have to tell you...

Oh, God! Tell me what.

Chelsea made me feel
so awkward the other day,

and I appreciate you,
you know, just talking to me, and like,

I felt bad about that, but I know
you know what I'm talking about.

-But that helped Chelsea and I.
-Yeah, I do.

I'm glad that you talking about my ass...

[laughing] ...helped you and Chelsea
get to the next level.

I'm glad that that was
a turning point in your relationship.

[singing in Spanish]

How you doing?

I'm good.

That cold water
dripping on my balls is interesting.

-Oh, sorry.
-[laughing] Went straight down my pants.

-Sorry, not sorry.
-Ah! No, no.

-I just know I'm happy.
-I love you.

[Amy] I love you too.

Seeing you and Amy
at the party the other night...

-Mm-hmm.
-...and y'all were always so cute...

I'm like, the sexual chemistry
between you guys is palpable.

It is hilarious.

[Johnny] It is really nice.

I could just tell Johnny and Amy
are already knocking boots for sure.

-We're taking it slow.
-You're taking it slow?

We're taking it slow.

'Cause, like, she's not on birth control.

-Mm-hmm.
-And, like, I want kids.

-Yeah.
-But not right now.

-I'm not ready right now.
-Yeah, yeah.

'Cause you wanted to wait
until there's full financial stability.

Absolutely. Financial stability.

Be able to do what I wanna do.
Take trips, us two together.

Don't worry about anyone else.

When she's like,
"I'm not on birth control,"

it's like, oh, well, like, literally,
if any small thing happens, like,

we could have, like, a little Amy
or little John Jr. or something like that.

And, like, it'd be amazing,
but, like, I can't have that right now.

I just always thought that, like, everyone
was on birth control. Like, that's it.

Because all my... no, 100%.
Like, I was so ignorant on that too.

'Cause every girl I dated was complaining
about birth control, about this, that.

Yeah, well, it's hormones.
You're dumping hormones in your body.

They've always said,
like, oh, they "complain" about it,

because it's, like, hormones
that change up your entire chemistry.

So I'm like, "Oh, you're on it. Bet."

That conversation's done,
like, out of the way.

And then it's like, "Oh."

"Oh! Oh!" Like, it makes you
really think about things.

You wanna have more conversations.

Don't know Amy's reason
for not being on it.

-But some women just can't, you know?
-It messes them up so much, yeah.

-It is a big thing.
-It seems like you think things through.

-Yeah. So...
-You know.

-I'm just obsessed with you guys.
-Well, thank you.

-["Feels Like Love" playing]
-♪ Say hey! Love, love, love... ♪

-[Jimmy] Is that taquitos?
-[Jeramey] Yeah.

♪ Say hey! ♪

Mmm!

♪ Say love, love, love ♪

♪ Feels like lovemaking
Know we gotta do this ♪

♪ Uh-huh! ♪

[Jeramey] I wanna throw this out there
about the "bean dip" thing.

-I apologize. We'll move past it.
-[laughs] Oh, my God. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Not my intent,

and I was kicking myself in the ass
to the point where I almost left.

-Oh, my God.
-I was so upset with that.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. But I'm okay.

Okay, I just wanted to throw that
out there, 'cause I was, like, sick.

-I know.
-I get in my feelings on stuff like that.

I know. I know.

-How's things going with you and Clay?
-We're trying to get aligned, honestly.

So the things I've noticed with Clay,
and you've probably seen it at this point.

-He's very introspective.
-Yep, yep.

I have noticed that when he gets
a little bit quieter,

let him have his space.

My gosh, I keep getting that!

-He hasn't said anything about you.
-Yeah, no, no, no, I get it.

There was a couple times
where we'd be talking in the hallway

before we go into the pods,
you'd just see him...

He would go
from bouncing around, being Clay,

to, like, kind of just,
like, locking down.

Okay, so it's not just me.

-No, no, no, no.
-Oh, my God, that gives me so much relief!

He would literally be standing there.
I'm standing here. I would look at him.

I'd go to say something,
and if he was in that zone...

Oh, my God!
That just lifted a weight off my shoulder.

Yeah, so I think it comes down
to, like, that zone you just go into.

-Where you get in your head.
-Focus, yep.

Tone out everything around you
and just this is what I'm working with.

-Wow! Thank you for that. I needed that.
-Yeah, good.

-That was a confidence boost for me.
-Good.

He has done nothing but talk
very highly of you the whole time.

Thank you.

-["All I Want Is You" playing]
-♪ All I want is you, all I want ♪

♪ All I want... ♪

It feels great to know
that she loves me, and I love her.

He communicates so well.

God bless.
God bless you, baby! I love you!

[laughing]

-

Aww!
-Look at you guys. So cute.

[Jimmy] Oh, my God, she's such a babe.

[laughing]

-Oh! God, you scared the sh*t out of me.
-[laughing]

Aww! Oh, that was cute.

-That was adorable!
-He's cute. [laughs]

♪ Take me somewhere far away from you ♪

♪ From here... ♪

Oh, my God.

♪ All I want is you, all I want ♪

-AD.
-[Kenneth] AD out here k*lling 'em.

[Clay] Come on. You're pissin' on my sh*t.

-They better. They better.
-[Clay laughs]

-You okay?
-I'm good.

-I love this, man.
-Good conversation is like...

It's like there's been a vibe, you know.
How you been?

-I'm good.
-Look at this! Yo, turn me on!

♪ All I want is you, all I ♪

[Jeramey] I love Johnny.

-He's like a ball of energy. I love it.
-He is!

I don't know. I just love how we can be,
like, super playful and, like, kiddish

to, like, having deep, vulnerable,

real, transparent talks where we're,
like, super honest with one another.

-Yeah.
-We're like magnets to each other.

But I mean, like, I'm a little scared
of what's to come next,

just because as much as I'm excited
to go back to the real world...

-Yeah.
-...I've never lived with a guy before.

-It's gonna an adjustment.
-So that is going to be an adjustment.

-I am concerned about my dad meeting him.
-Why?

-My dad wasn't supportive of this process.
-Really?

I feel like, in my culture, it's just,
you do things in a very traditional way.

For my dad, it's gonna be hard to accept
that I will be getting married in a month

to somebody that I just met
a couple weeks ago.

But it's like he doesn't understand
the process that I went through either.

So it might be intense, but...

How are you and Laura?

How's everything in, like,
terms of, like, physicality and like...

-Okay, good. That's all I need. [laughs]
-We're good.

-Great!
-[Jeramey] No.

So she and I, from, like,
very early on in the pods,

were, like, each other's
number one and two.

-Like, the whole time.
-Yes. Mm-hmm.

[Jeramey] Mentally, I knew she would be
someone who could put me in my spot.

-She will.
-Yeah.

And the one thing
that concerned me with Sarah was, uh,

every time we talked, we had a blast.

We were able to talk
about deep conversations, the future.

Things like that.
But, like, there was never a point

of where, like, the seriousness kind of,
like, kicked in more than the fun.

I was like, if things ever hit the fan,
how are we gonna handle that?

Exactly.

With Laura, she and I were like,
"This is how we're gonna handle this."

"This is what a difficult conversation's
gonna look like." I was like, "Oh, cool."

We know that if there's
a disagreement, we'll handle it,

and we'll be good.
You know, we had one the other night.

I do wanna meet Sarah.

'Cause the night we broke up,
she asked me,

she's like, "Is there something
I could have done differently?"

I was like, "I don't have
an answer for you."

The emotional was so strong,
the mental connection...

It came down to just the fun thing.

-Yeah, yeah.
-I want her to know that.

Just because, like, I would still
be friends with her outside of this.

-I'mma just...
-[Jeramey] Yeah.

-["Yeah You Got Me" playing]
-♪ What we got is just enough ♪

♪ Baby, lean into the rush... ♪

[humming]

♪ Don't let the fear take hold of us ♪

♪ What we got is just enough ♪

♪ Got me, got me, you, you got me ♪

♪ You, you got me ♪

♪ You, you got me ♪

♪ Got me, got me, got me ♪

-[Jimmy] You look good right there.
-[laughing]

[continues laughing]

We should probably
start packing, honestly.

No! [laughs]

-Oh, that's perfect.
-It's a little guy.

I had such a good time this week.

-And...
-Me too.

[Jimmy] We had...
I can't even say we had ups and downs.

-We had one down.
-[Chelsea] Mm-hmm.

And a lot of ups.

-And it was an incredible time.
-Mm-hmm.

What was your favorite part?

[laughs] Don't tell me
your least favorite.

[Jimmy laughs] I'll tell you
my least favorite part was...

-[laughs] I don't know how to word this.
-Oh, God, I'm scared.

My least favorite part
was eating the food on the beach today.

-The taquitos were really good.
-[laughing]

I was trying to eat all the taquitos
before anybody else saw them,

and I was five taquitos deep
and just absolutely...

-Five? Those were huge!
-[Jimmy] I was smacking 'em.

I was eating them so fast and hard,
I bit the sh*t out of my lip.

Yeah. [laughing]

You gotta be easy on the kisses,
'cause, uh...

That's your least favorite
of the whole trip?

Yeah, I was, like, walking back after
we left the beach, like, spitting blood.

-It was that bad?
-[laughing] Yeah!

Ugh!

-[laughing]
-Your least favorite? Not arguing?

-No, the argument was good for us.
-That's true. That's very true.

-But you know what my favorite part was?
-What?

The first time
I got to whip you around in a vehicle.

-Wow, that's romantic.
-[Jimmy] Buggies.

The buggies was so friggin' fun.

Riding to the beach,
riding through the jungle with you.

Mm-hmm. You wanna know
what my favorite part was?

-[Jimmy] What's your favorite part?
-This morning.

When you woke up and you were so sweet.

-I'm sweet every morning.
-[Chelsea] But you were extra sweet.

It made me... really happy.

Yeah.

What are you, um,
nervous about going back to Charlotte?

Yeah, it's... I don't think
we'll have any issues.

You have zero concerns, like, at all?

After technically living with you
for a while,

yeah, we mesh really well,
even being together

and dealing with each other

when we're happy,
sad, pissed off, hungry...

-Sleepy.
-Sleepy. We'll get along just fine.

We'll get along?
Baby, we're getting married.

I hope we get along just fine.

[laughing]

You look so good in this lighting.

[laughs] You do too.

[wolf whistles]

Give me a kiss.

-I love you.
-I love you too. We're getting married.

Right. Totally getting married.

♪ ...all night ♪

♪ And isn't it wonderful? ♪

♪ You and I ♪

♪ The world looks so beautiful ♪

What's your biggest
pet peeve with me so far?

-[laughs]
-Biggest pet peeve so far. Let's hear it.

What's the one thing you're just like,
"God damn, I hate when Johnny does this"?

[Amy] Um...

There's not, like,
one thing you've done that, I'm like...

-[Johnny] It's many things?
-Yeah.

-No.
-[laughing]

-No, quite the opposite.
-Mm.

-Hey, babe, guess what.
-What?

-Chicken butt.
-Aww. [laughing]

You say that at least once a day.
That's my pet peeve right there.

-Chicken butt?
-[laughing]

-[Johnny] I'm gonna miss this place a lot.
-I know. I'm gonna miss it too.

This has been paradise.

-We're gonna have to come back.
-We are. A lot.

Feeling this comfort level this soon

makes me feel like
I've been with you for a long time.

-Yeah, it's not just...
-I feel like I've been with you for years.

[Johnny] Mm-hmm.

But I feel like
one of my biggest lessons that I've had

from relationships in the past,
mainly my first relationship,

was that I feel like
I overshared a lot with my parents,

and I feel they were
very involved in my relationship.

-I completely learned that that's a no-go.
-Yep.

But I do have that fear

that, like, they'll try
to involve themselves.

-Especially my dad.
-[Johnny] Mm. Mm.

I don't think he understands
this process at all,

because it's not traditional by any means.

And I feel like they care too much,
and they're super overprotective,

which I get, to an extent.

In the past, I was very easily influenced.

And that also caused a lot of tensions
within my relationships.

[Johnny] Hmm.

So I'd like to think that...

[sighs] ...I'm not as influenced,

but it's hard not to get influenced

when you're about to take
such a huge leap in four weeks.

It is. 'Cause I want my parents' input.
I want my siblings' input.

-Exactly.
-I want everyone's input too.

-Like, if I don't have... I want that.
-Mm-hmm.

-[Johnny] Regardless of what they say.
-Yeah.

It's my decision, like, for it,
but, like, I just wanna hear them out.

If I don't get my dad's blessing...

I don't know if I can move forward.

-[pop music playing]
-♪ We're chasing down our ghosts ♪

[vocalizing]

♪ We're chasing down our ghosts ♪

♪ We're chasing down our ghosts ♪

-["Wake Up and Find" by Airbear playing]
-♪ Wake up and find you all in my head ♪

♪ Don't know if I am losing my mind... ♪

[Kenneth] Good morning.

Morning! [laughs]

Going back to the city. I'm excited.

-Do you think we're gonna be running late?
-We are.

Um, but it's okay.
We're gonna make it there still.

♪ Figured that I should go and see you ♪

[Amy] Excited to be
going back to Charlotte.

I don't wanna leave.

[laughs] We are in paradise,
but now back to reality we go.

-Catch us in Charlotte.
-Catch us in Charlotte.

[Jeramey] I usually wear a hoodie
when I'm flying.

-Do you want me to wear a Henley?
-[Laura] Yeah, wear a Henley.

You've made me suffer
through two Hawaiian shirts now.

[Jeramey] How excited are you
to actually move in with me?

Or are you terrified?

[Laura] No, I'm excited to see if you're
actually as tidy as you say you are.

But you're not worried
about how hyper I am?

[both laugh]

-[Jeramey] Yeah, there it is.
-I am worried about that.

-[pop music playing]
-♪ Daydreams... ♪

I can't forget this.

[Clay] Yes!

-Oh, right?
-

"Bride to be."

[Clay] Yes!

Time will tell if I'm bride-to-be
or bride-to-be-not.

[both laugh]

"Bride-to-be-not."

-Bride-to-be-not!
-[Clay] It's crazy.

♪ Hey, things are changing... ♪

Five couples fell in love
and got engaged sight unseen.

We're leaving! Say bye to our room.

[Jimmy] Bye, room.

-Let's go.
-[Chelsea] Let's go, baby. Let's go.

Charlotte, here we come.

-♪ Best time of our lives ♪
-♪ Whoa-oh-oh! ♪

-♪ Yeah, we're just getting started ♪
-♪ Whoa-oh-oh! ♪

-♪ Ooh! ♪
-♪ Come on, get ready for it ♪

-♪ This could be the best time ♪
-♪ Whoa-oh-oh! ♪

♪ This could be the best time
Of our lives... ♪

Welcome to beautiful
Charlotte, North Carolina.

♪ Going good, so good
This was meant to be ♪

Our couples are returning home
from the Dominican Republic.

And now they'll face the most
intense phase of this experiment.

Living together in the real world.

[Brittany] We're home!

We made it.

Oh, man.

[laughs]

[Jeramey] Give it a tug.

They now have their devices back,
and they're gonna move in together.

-

Welcome home! [laughs]
-[Clay] Oh, wow!

-[pop music playing]
-♪ This love we got... ♪

-[shutter clicks]
-[both chuckle]

-[shouts]
-Let's go.

-Let's go.
-[Brittany] I love it!

Will age, looks, race, family
or financial circumstances matter?

[Laura shouts]

How will they integrate
their lives, their careers, their homes?

[Jimmy] I wore about 25% of this,
including some dirty underwear.

-Should I wash everything?
-Yes.

What do you think about these?

[laughing]

It started with love,
a real emotional connection,

but in three shorts weeks,
our couples will be at the altar,

and they'll have to make the most
important decision of their lives.

[Johnny] The little llama!

This is giving me,
like, visions of the future.

-It is.
-With kids.

Will they prove that love is blind?

♪ This is the right time
This love we got ♪

♪ Is once in a lifetime ♪

[Jeramey] So I can fit
all my stuff right here.

-Uh, great. That's great for me.
-And then you can have the rest.

-Okay. Excellent. [laughs]
-Yeah. I can put all my stuff here.

-Compromise. Thank you.
-Yeah! Mm-hmm. [laughs]

Thank you. [laughing]

Sweet.

[Laura] I'm excited to live with Jeramey.

The most exciting thing will
just be to, like, wake up with each other,

and go to sleep with each other

and, like, snuggle in bed,
and, like, watch movies.

I feel good.

I'm not, like, nervous or scared about
the "commitment" in a few weeks at all.

But if Jeramey's messy,
we will not get married. [laughs]

We will not. I will say no at the altar.

Okay, what could I do
that would, like, drive you nuts?

-Leave dishes in the sink at night.
-Okay.

-I'll freak.
-Okay.

What can I do that you'd just be like...

-I have a lot.
-..."I don't think so"? Mine are easy.

When you shave your face,
leaving your hair in the sink.

-Absolutely not.
-Okay.

Leaving, like, food, like half-eaten food
around and not, like, throwing it away.

[Jeramey] Okay.

Leaving the house
with the TV and the lights on.

-I don't do that either.
-Spitting.

Spit all the way in the sink,

not just, like, spit near the sink
so it's all over the glass.

That's disgusting. I'm sorry.

So basically what you're saying is,
"Don't act like a barn animal."

-Yeah. Act like an adult.
-Good. Yeah, I like that.

[laughs]

I don't think things
could be any better between Laura and I.

Like, the banter's there,
but we can get serious with each other.

This really is a whole new chapter.

-[laughing]
-Like, everything.

-It's a whole new chapter.
-[exclaims]

-You excited? I'm super excited.
-Yeah.

I've never felt like this
with anybody before.

Like, I think I've loved people before,

but I don't think I've truly ever been
in love with somebody before.

And I think that's what this
is supposed to feel like.

We got, what, a month?

-Before we's getting married and stuff?
-Yeah.

-[Jeramey] I'm... I'm so excited.
-[sniffles]

-Excited to be here with you.
-Me too, boo.

Me too.

Ooh! You have a cute face.

I love that girl.

-[Laura splutters, shouts]
-[cork pops]

-Why do you... why don't you just open it?
-sh*t!

♪ We're gonna make it last ♪

[laughing]

♪ We're gonna make it last ♪

I'm feeling like tonight
could be, like, a chicken night.

Do you want me to cook tonight,
or we want to get food tonight?

It's the first night in the crib.
You gotta cook. You gotta...

-Oh, so you're gonna make me cook?
-[Kenneth] Yeah!

I can't enjoy the first night?

We gonna enjoy the food together.
You feel me?

[Brittany] Yeah. I'm gonna start
with bathroom stuff first.

-Is that okay?
-[Kenneth] Yeah, babe, do your thing.

[Brittany] I'm gonna do left side
of the sink.

[Kenneth] Yeah, babe, that's cool.

It's crazy to realize
that Brittany and I are in a new place,

to have the experience of, like,

"How do we operate
when we move into a home?"

Brittany got to work immediately.

"Let me start unpacking. What side do
you want? You want this side or that?"

Maybe you can use the other bathroom
to get ready in the morning.

Mm-hmm. Oh, so now she don't
wanna share our bathroom with me.

Well, you wake up earlier than I do.

That's what we doing?

[Brittany] Come fit
in this bathroom with me at the same time.

[laughs] Right.

[sighs]

Missed this so much. I missed my device.

It is nice to completely
just have no distractions,

to live in the moment
without having your phone.

The other fold to that is
I'm excited to have my phone back.

Um, I get to talk to my friends.
I miss my family.

But as a principal, like, I had to
make sure that my school was still afloat.

Um, so getting
my device back was... was helpful.

-Is the bed comfy?
-Yeah, it's smooth.

-Oh, it's memory foam.
-[exhales]

Okay, good.

Don't look at your phone too much.

-I gotta get my life together.
-[Brittany laughs]

Gotta get it together.

Are you gonna unpack with me?

Yeah, I'm trying
to, uh, finish responding to these emails.

You know, I got
that presentation on Monday,

so I'm trying to send this real quick.

So the hustle never stops?

My hip just popped.

Do you have a preference on left or right?

[Kenneth] I'm pretty set.

-Um...
-[Brittany] You are?

-[Kenneth] I'mma go chill downstairs.
-Okay.

-["Losing Game" by Maella playing]
-♪ Were we just a losing game? ♪

♪ Tell me, do you feel the same? ♪

♪ Take your ring
'Cause I can take the blame ♪

♪ Spinning in circles ♪

♪ Spinning in circles ♪

♪ Playing on your words ♪

♪ Playing on your words ♪

♪ I'm drowning ♪

[Clay] See if the couch is comfortable.

I gotta be on a couch
that naturally I just fall asleep.

I know. Let's see if we can spoon.
I'm gonna go on the inside.

-You go on the inside?
-Yeah, yeah.

You gotta make way,
'cause I could get comfortable.

-[sighs]
-I like the TV and everything.

-Yeah, this... this could work.
-Yes.

[both] Mm!

-I love this. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
-This could definitely work for me.

-Yeah.
-[Clay] You liking that?

It works. Yeah.

Yeah, but no, I do like it.
I do like this.

-Yeah? Yeah?
-Yeah, it's nice. It's nice.

-I might... [exhales]
-[scoffs]

No? That's not a vibe?
Us watching TV, me like this?

Yeah, I'm so comfortable like this.

-Yeah?
-No, absolutely not.

Honestly, as long as you're
in the bed with me, I'm good, you know?

I'm good, so...

That was cute. [chuckles]

Get to talk to your sister?

-I did. She brightened up my whole day.
-Mm-hmm.

-Yeah. Mm-hmm.
-And I talked to my niece.

-I actually talked to my other sister.
-Really?

Talked to my mom.

-Wow! Wow! How did that go?
-Mm-hmm. Everything went good.

They feeling pumped?

[exhales]

-Or were they like... [shouts]
-They wanna meet you.

-Okay, okay. I'm excited to meet them.
-Yeah.

I told my parents about you as well,
you know.

My mom is definitely like, "Oh, my God!"
She loves your name.

Yep, yeah, she's like,
"Amber Desiree, I can't wait to meet her."

She was super nice, and my sister.
My dad was like, "Hold. What's going on?"

-My dad was kind of surprised and stuff.
-Yeah.

But I think once he meets you,
he's gonna be all for it.

-

Good.
-Yeah.

He might be flirting with you.
I gotta watch my dad, you know.

-Oh, gosh.
-[both laugh]

So f*cking cute.

Thank you, babe.

I'm telling you, like,
I'm so grateful for, like, my friends,

and the conversation we had.
I really can't wait for you to meet them.

They were really excited.

-I just kind of shared the experience.
-Yeah.

A lot of people were shocked,
the fact that I told them I cried.

They sensed that, um,

that I changed in the sense
of, like, me being aware of my emotions.

-The way I did grow up with my father.
-Yeah.

And, like, how I seen,
like, cheating as a regular thing.

-Yeah.
-And, uh...

My dad's a suave guy,
always been good with women.

-And it was like a... ding!
-

Mm-hmm.

You know, like, the fact that
my mom and dad were like best friends.

-But my dad still...
-Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

You know, unfortunately,
like, he was still cheating, you know?

Infidelity was a thing.

And, like, my dad would take me
with him to some of his infidelity trips.

And then...

You know, it was just tough, like,
I didn't even realize I never told my mom.

I keep that inside,
like, still to this day.

Like, my mom doesn't even know some
of the trips that I went on with my dad.

-I love my dad. My dad was a great father.
-For sure.

I don't want anything, like,
taken away from him being a father,

'cause he supported me
in everything we did.

It's just that I've never seen my dad
just stay with, like...

-

Yeah, yeah, yeah.
-He was with my mom for 25 years.

Once the divorce came, never seen him
just, like, single, always had a girl.

I've never seen a Black relationship
that... where the man is faithful.

I'm not even blaming my dad.

Like, I'm talking about, like,
all Black men that's been in my life.

Even, like, celebrities,
like, the Will Smiths,

you know, all the celebrities,
like the Diddys and stuff like that.

Those are Black men I like to look at,

and it's like,
you always hear they have other women.

So, to me, the concept of one girl...

Yeah.

I'm always having a fear of, like,
"Can I just be with one person?"

I take it serious with marriage.

And even with me loving you,
like, everything.

It's just that marriage part is just...
it's... it's like an unknown thing for me.

I do wanna do marriage.

I do wanna go through some type
of therapy with you and talk it out.

And the fact that we've had our hurdles,

and you know,
we went through conflict and turbulence.

-And we've been able to navigate it.
-Yeah.

[Clay] Even when it was
a little rocky, how we just know that,

you know, you're my person
that I could come to for comfort.

You've been awesome to me,
and me being with you,

and, like, the person I've become...

I'm so grateful for the pod moment,

and, like, you helping me
become a better person.

-Yeah.
-With you, you know, it's incredible.

I really feel like for me and you,
this is gonna be our best moment.

-Yeah.
-I proposed to you for a reason.

'Cause I do love you.

-But there is demons that I fight with.
-Yeah.

I'm tired of, now,
just being afraid of that fear.

I want love.
I wanna be married. I want that.

-[pop music playing]
-♪ I'm tired of being tied up ♪

♪ So untie me ♪

♪ Come untie me ♪

♪ Made my mind up ♪

♪ But I'm still stuck ♪

♪ So untie me ♪

♪ Come untie me ♪

♪ Tie me up ♪

♪ Side by side
Under these covers, covers ♪

♪ I'm tired ♪