Cosmic Sex (2015)

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You are mine, my dear.

You are only mine.

Whisper once into my ear.

You are only mine.

You are mine, my dear.

You are only mine.

Kripa!

I heard from Kripa's friends,

you know

that he often goes and sits

alone at the crematorium.

Is that so ?

Why do you think he does that ?

That is where he saw his mother

last.

May be thats why.

Why don't you spend

some more time with him ?

Whenever I spent time with him

I realized he's going through a

crisis.

Tell me honestly Sarah

did I cause his crisis?

Sudhangsu... Sudhangsu...

How does one avert

this Freudian replay of events ?

She is no longer alive.

Yet the two of you

continue to fight over her

memory!

What should I do then?

Sudhangshu, I dont know what to

say.

You have Sarah

but Kripa doesn't have mom.

Now if I try to be his mom

you two will start a competition

over me.

What's the matter Kripa?

Are you going out this late?

No, I heard the music and came

down.

Sit here.

Can I say something?

Yes. Of course, tell me.

What do you want to say?

I can't find the answer to some

questions.

Which questions?

I found a book on father's shelf

Bramacharya

Gandhi and his woman associates

written by Girija Kumar.

The book was quite fat.

I leafed through, read a little.

I feel quite confused after

reading it.

What is your confusion about?

Bapu and Brahmacharya.

I dont understand.

Gandhiji once wrote

to his disciple Prema Ben

that inspite of his strict

vow

of discipline and celibacy.

few drops of semen passed out

from him.

He was very disappointed.

My question is

what is the connection

between...

semen coming out and

Brahmacharya?

Brahmacharya means abstinence

staying away from sex.

I don't know anything more than

this.

If Brahmacharya means

staying away from sex

then why did Gandhiji

sleep naked with young women?

Why don't you talk

about all this with your father

?

I can't talk to him.

He feels intimidated even if I

look at him.

Ill makes you friends again.

Now tell me what were you saying

?

What Gandhiji did with

the young women, was it right?

What Gandhiji did or why he did

it

I know nothing about it.

Do you think his behavior

was appropriate ?

Kripa, hang on.

Let me read the book first.

Then we can talk on it.

whatever you will read...

I have already read

And then I'm asking you.

Kripa...

Are you sure you want

to talk to me about Gandhi?

Are you curious about

Gandhi or about sex?

Sarah, you are looking very

beautiful.

Will you please dance with me ?

Kripa...

Kripa...

Kripa...

You... I'll

What have you done?

You k*lled your father!

Can you please drop me home ?

Please!

Today, if you were not there

what would have happen to me?

I might have been

lying on the road all night.

Those animals hit me so hard

it's paining.

See.

What are you seeing?

I am Devi.

I am the top w here.

I didn't let those

motherf f my butt.

So they kicked me out of the

car.

So late at night

where are you going alone?

Were you looking

for someone like me?

I think you need to go to a

doctor.

I have my medicine at my home.

I'll give some to you too.

Why?

I can see you are in pain.

So you too.

What is this?

I k*lled my father

and run away from home.

I'm the w and you a k*ller!

What?

Wont you come upstairs with me?

Wont you like to feed me my

medicine?

He came in my dreams at night.

He came in my dreams at

night...

the one with the flute.

Krishna is in my heart

I chant his name.

Krishna is in my heart

I chant his name.

He said, 'Oh! My Radha!

Without you I am only half of myself'

'My flute calls you,

Come, run to the river bank to me'

He said, 'Oh! My Radha!

Without you I am only half of

myself'

'My flute calls you'

Now, I will take my medicine.

What?

Wont you feed me my medicine?

Oh God!

You have blood on your hand.

I too have blood on my hand.

Come on! Let's wash it.

Here, boy!

Come.

Come here!

Come! I'm telling you.

Oh! It is only on your hands.

Give!

How do you feel?

How do you feel, about me?

What are you thinking about?

Did you really commit m*rder?

I can't understand what happened



Do you want to run away?

Come! Let's run away together.

But where will you run away?

Instead... Come! Lets dance.

I'll make you sit on my rod

and then ring your bell.

You will sit on my lap

and lean against me.

Come my darling

ride my Hero cycle.

Come my darling

ride my Hero cycle.

I'll make you sit on my rod

and then ring your bell.

I'll make you sit on my rod

and then ring your bell.

You will sit on my lap

and lean against me.

Come my darling

ride my Hero cycle.

Oh Hero! Come lets dance.

I'll make you sit on my rod

and then ring your bell.

I'll make you sit on my rod

and then ring your bell.

You will sit on my lap

and lean against me.

Come my darling

ride my Hero cycle.

Come my darling

ride my Hero cycle.

Get lost. B!

Where did you find him?

What is his name?

Oh Mother!

He is a mere infant.

You fooled him into f

you...

and forgot to ask his name?

Hey!

Your nose is quite long.

Your d must be pretty long

too!

100%

Take this.

Do you know this place ?

It's a brothel.

People come here and pay to

f!

This house is mine.

And this w belongs to me

too.

What are you doing here?

Wear your clothes...

and go home.

Let me explain.

Get out w!

Open the door motherf!

Open.

Your mouth has become so dry,

Have you eaten anything?

What is your name?

Kripa.

Hey listen...

Your lips are really very

beautiful.

Will you give them to me?

I want to go.

Of course you will.

But give me your lips before you

go.

Please!

Kiss me at least once before you

go.

Wont you give me?

Kiss me...

Give me your lips.

No one can come in from the

outside.

No one can go out from the

inside.

Imagine, if this happens...

Imagine, if this happens...

You and I...

locked in a room...

and the key is lost.

You and I...

I have seen you before

at the cremation ground.

Do you go there often?

Mother!

Mother!

Mother!

Mother!

Mother!

Who are you?

- What do you want ?

- Ma

Please listen to me.

I am not mad.

Dont be afraid.

Tell me what's hapened?

Mother.

You are exactly my Mother.

When I saw you at the

banks of the river Ganga ...

my world turned.

Who are you?

My name is Kripa Sankar Ray.

My mother passed away one year

ago.

You remember your mother often?

Yes.

But...

last night I k*lled my father.

I ran away from home.

I met Devi on the road.

I went to Devi's house with her.

Another m*rder...

The whole night I've just been

k*lling...

and running.

And then I met you Ma.

Listen Kripa Shankar!

I am not your mother.

My name is Sadhana.

I am an ascetic.

Sadhana Mother.

Sadhana Mother.

Sadhana Mother!

Sadhana Mother!

Sadhana Mother, where have you

gone?

I'm calling you for so long.

Can't you hear me!

The tides rise in the woman

every month...

The tides rise in the woman

every month...

at the place where the three

holy rivers meet in the woman's body.

Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.

Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.

The three holy rivers in a

woman's body, Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.

When the rivers are

turbulent...

it is the play of these three

holy rivers.

One is black, One is white and

other red.

When you bathe in these holy

rivers...

you become like the Lord.

The three holy rivers in a

woman's body, Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.

Who knows the nature of woman?

The Lord knows a little.

One of them he keeps on

his head, one on his chest.

Women are of three kinds -

they express...

three different qualities of

love

The three holy rivers in a

woman's body, Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.

This time after death

I want to be reborn as a woman...

and immerse myself in the sea

of love.

I will learn from the holy

ascetics, the practice of love.

This time after death

I want to be reborn as a woman...

and immerse myself in the sea

of love.

I will learn from the holy

ascetics, the practice of love.

Sadhana Mother...

I have thought of a boy for you.

You know him.

He is a very devout boy.

Our Mansoor.

If you give your consent...

I will talk to him for your

marriage.

Marriage?

I dont want to marry Baba.

Why? Ma.

When I was eight years old...

you found me at the fair lost

and alone.

Since then you have given me

shelter.

Now if you again send

me back out into the world.

It will be very difficult for

me.

But Ma...

our ashram is for spiritual

practice...

in order to live here you

will have to learn all that.

And without a Master

you will not be able to learn.

Whatever you say, Baba!

Since your childhood,

you have been to so many

ashrams.

Do you have anyone in

mind that you want as your

Master?

You are everything I have Baba.

I have no one in my mind except

you.

You be my Master.

Oh!

So this is what you have in

mind.

You have already decided

everything on your own.

Baba!

Listen Ma!

Those of us who are in the

Fakiri tradition...

and practice Dehotathya...

believe that God is in the body.

You have grown up

listening to so many of our

songs.

All this is written in those

songs.

I understand a bit Baba.

In our fakiri tradition it is

said that...

at the birth of creation the

subtle and formless manifest

itself.

I am the present form of that.

Because I have evolved from

there.

I can say that I was the

formless too.

But in the course of evolution

the subtle I has become gross.

And moved very far away...

and forgotten its own formless

subtle self.

Now by going reverse in the

creative act.

I can move up my gross

self closer to the subtle self.

I will be again be

reunited with the formless.

Do you understand Ma?

The one who is worshipping and

the one who is being

worshipped...

are both one and the same me.

That entity is formless...

and this one has form.

That is why man is at the

same time form and formless...

known and unknown.

On the path to the subtle self

the biggest obstacle is sexual desire.

Worldly people fall into

the trap of sexual desire...

and are never able to break free.

Baba, is it sexual desire that

prevents us from becoming our real selves?

Yes.

But then you cannot attain your

true self by running away from

sex.

Then how it is done Baba?

In our body amongst the six

senses...

the main one is sexual desire.

Sexual desire is the main force

for creation.

Because sexual desire is

energy...

it cannot be destroyed.

But it can be transformed.

You can through spiritual

practice...

transform your gross

sexual energy into abstract

love.

Only then will you be able

to reach your real formless

self.

The battle with lust is very

difficult Ma.

Dont ever forget...

from today you have joined this

battle too.

Ruhul baba are you home?

Mansoor has again brought fish.

Mansoor!

have lunch here today.

Ok.

By practicing the tradition of the

four moons, the lotus in my heart blooms

with the light that grows.

This is the time to be

at the feet of the Guru and pray.

Oh my innocent mind!

This is the time to be

at the feet of the Guru and pray.

By practicing the tradition of the

four moons, the lotus in my heart blooms

with the light that grows.

This is the time to be

at the feet of the Master and pray.

Oh my innocent mind!

This is the time to be

at the feet of the Master and pray.

The tradition of the four moons

comes from the family of the Prophet.

Learn this path, till you have

the time.

The tradition of the four moons

comes from the family of the Prophet.

Learn this path, till you have

the time.

Oh my innocent mind!

This is the time to be

at the feet of the Master and pray.

Oh! Father...

You have fallen in the trap of

desire.

Beware!

For the pleasure of your body...

don't fall pray to desire.

Sadhana Ma!

In our practice of the body...

the woman is the Master.

And the man is her disciple.

It is by holding your hand...

that I will be able to move up.

If you lose patience...

I will become directionless.

Do some breathing practice.

Take in the breath from your

left nostril...

and breath it out from the

right.

The most important aspect of our

Dehotathya is the breathing

practice.

Breathing techniques can help us

stop our body juices from

flowing out.

As our sexual juices come down

we can control its descent

with breathing techniques.

In the sexual act by

controlling the heat to the

body...

we can purify our juice and move

it upwards.

This is the skill that you have

to learn Ma.

Only then you can transform.

From the one who has sexual

desire to the one who is in the bliss of

eternal love.

Otherwise how will you meet

the eternal lover, the God inside

you?

It is you who are the

eternal lovers of the universe.

Will the Master allow

me to be at his feet

Day and night I make mistakes

Will the Master allow

me to be at his feet

through the pangs of birth

I came into this world

through the darkness of the womb.

Which I have now forgotten

after coming into this world.

Will the Master allow

me to be at his feet

I failed to recognise the worth

of my Master.

I could not understand his

practice.

I have to again

repeat the cycle of rebirths.

Will the Master allow

me to be at his feet.

One whose self is

immersed in the image of the Master

has no fear of death

One whose self is

immersed in the image of the

Master

has no fear of death.

Lalon says - Oh my mind!

Lalon says- Oh my mind!

Please help me to stay focussed.

Will the Master allow

me to be at his feet

Sadhana Ma please come here.

What's happened, Baba?

I have just received news

of my wife Amina's death.

As I am a Marfati fakir...

so the Shariat people have given

a fatwa...

that Amina has no place

in the villages burial ground.

They have also said that...

whoever tries to bury her

anywhere outside the village...

they too will be thrown out.

In this way they are

threatening the villagers.

This is what you get if you

become a fakir.

But, Baba!

But you always told me

Amina Mother had followed the

Shariat.

Then...

whats her fault?

Fault!

Her fault is she hasn't given

me Talaaq on the Moulavis

orders.

On the contrary, she said in a

meeting of the Shariat people

that she does not have

any allegation against me.

Amina Ma said that in their

meeting?

Yes.

Yes Ma.

There was no other human like

Amina.

Then let's go there now.

Let's bury her somewhere else.

No.

No one will come with me.

I am punished for my faith.

I have to take the

responsibility

of my punishment alone.

I don't give anyone permission

to go there.

Else they will also be

victims of such punishments.

But Baba, where will you bury

her?

I took fakiri out of my own

volition.

But why should she be punished

for my faith?

I'll bring her from the village.

I'll bury her in front of our

ashram.

Baba...

your village is five miles from

here!

Sadhana Ma...

don't argue now on this now.

Go to the ashram and bring a

shovel and spade to keep under

the tree.

Tell everyone not be worried

about this.

Everyone should stay inside.

They must not come out to help

me.

I'll enter the ashram after

burying her alone.

Dear Noor...

Can you give me a cloth please?

One whose body has been

burnt fine by the Guru's touch

This body cannot be destroyed

by the soil

the earth does not have that

power

The body has already

been burnt and turned fine

Allah, made man from the earth

The Master made the man finer,

more true.

Now the energy flows only

upwards and never comes down

The Koran says there is no

death now

The body has already

been burnt and turned fine

One whose body has been

burnt fine by the Guru's touch

All beings other than mankind

their nature remains the same

as the Creator made them.

But man is different, such a creation

can't be seen anywhere in this world.

The body has already

been burnt and turned fine

One whose body has been

burnt fine by the Master's touch

By only doing good

deeds will one find God?

I don't think so.

Hassan has not yet been able to

fulfill his master Israel Shah's expectations.

The body has already

been burnt and turned fine

One whose body has been

burnt fine by the Master's touch

Mansoor!

Ruhul Baba's last wish was that

his face be turned towards Ma

Amina.

What are you saying Sadhana Ma?

He was a Muslim.

Many renowned Fakirs have been

buried

with their heads turned

towards the Kaba in the west.

It's impossible.

We can't go against traditional

rules.

Mansoor!

You tell them what

our Master's last wish was!

But, Sadhana Ma

Was our ailing Master in

his full senses when he said so?

I think we should follow

the time honoured tradition.

Mansoor and all

who are here, listen to me!

My Master was only a human being

for you.

but to me...

he was God.

He had taught me that human beings

are actually none other than God!

The poor and low caste people

like us...

have always been kicked around

and beaten in the name of

religion.

And insulted by people.

My Master's last wish was...

his burial should be a symbolic

protest against this religious

t*rture.

If anyone of you...

wish to bury my Master as per

his wishes...

please help me...

or else go away.

Sadhana Ma, forgive me!

Let us place his head as he

himself wanted in mother Amina's

direction.

Kripa Shankar Roy, age 18,

fathers name Dr Sudhangshu

Sekhar Roy.

fair complexioned, height 5ft 10

inches.

This person is missing from last

night.

If anyone has information

regarding the missing person, please

contact us at...

You were right.

I do look like your mother.

Ma.

I have nowhere to go.

Please keep me with you.

You say you have committed

m*rder.

You don't...

look like someone...

who could do such things.

Kripa in desparation you are

running away from your life.

Your mother gave you birth

and brought you into being.

I will give you another birth...

you will transform from

a being to a human being.

I will do what you say, Ma.

I can't take it anymore.

Don't worry, eat now.

After you finish eating

wash the dishes and come to my

room.

Why are you running away?

Why are you so silent ?

Say something.

No! I mean...

Let me go to the other room.

Look at me.

Come and sit beside me.

Do you...

feel sexual desire?

I know you feel desire.

Isnt that so?

Then why are you so far away?

Come close.

fulfill your desire and be

happy.

You are keeping your desire

suppressed.

Inside you feel desire.

On the outside

you show that you are cool...

what's the use?

What are you saying Ma!

This sexual desire which is

rising in you...

can you tell what is the source?

Source?

First you feel it in the mind...

then the body.

Your mind is your main

faculty...

without addressing

the problem in your mind.

If on the outside you pretend

all is well...

what is the use?

If I had been wearing clothes...

the feeling of sexual

desire could still have come.

Don't you masturbate?

Don't you have wet dreams?

Yes. It does happen Ma.

That's why Baba you are wasting

away...

destroying yourself...

with clothes on and also without

them.

How are you free?

Yes! Baba, you are a sl*ve to

your desires.

And in the race to fulfill these

desires...

there is so much hatred...

and bloodshed amongst humans.

Where will you run away from

here?

Ma! Please save me.

I am tired of running away.

If you wish to save yourself...

you will have to know

Dehotathyo.

What is that?

It is to engage in the sexual

act...

direct the sexual fluids...

in to the body rather

than outside, this game.

This is what we call

Brahmacharya.

You are talking like Mahatma

Gandhi.

He used to say that...

to understand non violence.

One should practice

Bhahmacharya.

What is that Brahmacharya?

Gandhiji used to sleep naked

with women.

Because he wanted to raise

himself...

up beyond sexual desire.

What was he doing

sleeping naked with women.

He had so much self control...

that he never got excited.

You have to give up

sex to became a Brahmachari.

Is that possible Baba?

There is a certain kind of

Brahmacharya which is recognized

by society.

By giving up women and

wealth and by wearing a loin

cloth...

that Brahmacharya has to be

protected.

But the practice of Brahmacharya

along with women is disliked by

them.

That is why they hate us.

You are talking of Mahatma

Gandhi.

Ok.

Did he learn from a Master?

And then practice Brahmacharya

with a woman in the sexual act?

How did he see woman?

That is the real essence.

You cannot be in

Brahmacharya by giving up woman.

We say that the

Womens energy flows inwards...

and the males energy outwards.

In the sexual act by acquiring

the ability from the female

energy...

to direct energy inwards

Brahmacharya can be learnt.

Kripa.

If you waste a drop of your

sexual juice...

then know that death has

occurred to you.

You k*lled your own self.

That is the beginning of your

violence.

I will sleep now.

I have to rise at dawn.

Sadhana Ma.

I am sleepy.

Are you feeling alright?

I have never felt better.

Can I go upstairs?

How many times should I tell

you...

not to fall in the trap of

desire.

Don't forget...

I am your Master.

Your Mother.

Imagine your body as a cooking

vessel...

In which sugarcane juice is

being heated.

With the heat the sugarcane

juice swells up...

It begins to overflow and

that's when the fire is reduced.

In this way by repeated

heating and lowering of

temperature...

the sugarcane juice is

condensed.

After this stage even with heating

the juice does not overflow

anymore.

This is how I am heating

the juice in your body.

Now it is coming down.

Kripa, keep looking into my

eyes...

or you will drown in desire.

your semen will drop out.

Oh! Ma

This is how I stop heating your

body...

and the flow of the juice

recedes.

If you worship the Mother

you will know about your Father

You asked me to meet you

if I loved you, and I did so.

this is the hidden truth we

learn.

If you worship the Mother

you will know about your Father

If we do not learn this secret

truth

we cannot know the mother

either.

The one upon whom Allah

has put the responsibility of the world

If you worship the Mother

you will know about your Father

If you worship the Mother

you will know about your Father

It is said that the woman

was made from the man's body

The female is the real nature

of the world

from whom we learn about

Creation

I have learnt from my Master...

there are three channels in the

body.

On the left is Ira.

On the right side is Pingala...

and at the centre is Sushumna.

All these three channels

converge at a point in the human

body.

at the door from where

life emerges, the vag*na.

This is what we call in our

songs...

the confluence of the three

rivers.

This Ira, Pingala, Sushumna are

the three holy rivers Ganga, Jamuna,and

Saraswati.

And this is where,

there is high tide.

Ira is the path of high tide...

to move up.

Pingala is the way of low

tide...

to come down.

During the sexual practice...

the man has to bring down his

juices...

through the Pingala channel...

and then take the juices

up through the Ira channel...

with regular practice...

at one time it is possible to

discard both these channels...

and through the Susunmna channel

at the centre take the body

juice upwards.

One who can do this...

he is the Ascetic.

During our menstruation, after

three days...

when the blood flow begins to

reduce...

due to the pull of the low

tide...

the creator descends down...

to the confluence of the three

rivers.

After long years of practice...

the Ascetic is able to see the

Creator...

whom we in our songs call the

formless one...

the one who is in our heart...

the simple one...

the one who steals our heart...

so many names we have for him.

The first three days of our

menstrual cycle...

is the dark phase or no moon...

and the creator descending down

is...

the appearance of the moon.

Kripa.

Please come back home.

Dont misunderstand me.

Wherever you are, come back

home.

Look...

I am ok.

Kripa, I haven t forgotten you

for a moment.

That night.

Your face and the pain in my

body.

I cant tell you what is going

through my mind and my heart.

Look, Ive kept your

precious locket so carefully.

Ill return it to you.

Please come back, darling.

Come back.

Kripa!

I saw on television that

my father and Jonaki are alive.

Did you really believe...

you had really m*rder*d them?

I was afraid Ma.

My father is asking me to go

back to him.

How can I leave you

and go back to him?

What do you want to do now?

I want to leave this city and go

away Ma.

Until I finish learning from

you.

I don t wish to

go anywere near that world.

Then where do you want to go?

Can we not go and stay

at Ruhul Baba's ashram Ma?

It's been a long time since I

left that place.

Does it still exist?

All right.

let's go there.

You look familiar.

Where have I seen you before?

On TV.

Hello...

Hello.

Father, its me, Kripa.

Kripa!

Where are you?

I am happy where I am.

You...

You immediately come home!

Ive changed completely Father.

We'll talk about it later

you come home right now.

It won t be possible for us to

meet now.

Ill phone you from time to

time.

You forget about that night

Kripa.

That was an accident.

I'm absolutely fine now.

I feel relieved after

hearing your voice Father.

You come back Kripa

everything will be fine.

Father, you wont be able to

accept me...

the way I am now.

What are you saying?

Please come to me at least once.

All right.

Come tomorrow night

at 8 pm to the Ladies Park.

Park!

Why at the park? You come home.

No, not at home.

Come to the park.

Come alone.

This is between you, me and my

mother.

My God! Kripa...

you are with

your dead mother!

Father! She's a living person.

She has given birth to me again.

What are you saying, Kripa!

What am I seeing?

What you are seeing...

is the truth Father.

No!

Kripa!

Father!

Father!

Dont be afraid.

Father listen!

Father!

Father!

Kripa!

- Do you remember me?

- Jonaki!

You again!

Yes.

Have you seen my father?

Yes, I saw him.

I have come to take you to him.

Who are you?

Who are you?

Open the locket.

What?

She is my mother.

Mother!

I won't leave mother

and go to fathers house.

Fine, then come with your

mother to my house.

I want to leave this city and go

away Jonaki.

Don't try to stop me.

Like the other night

dont try to use force...

or else there could be another

accident.

May be this time I'll get hurt.

May be that's what you want?

No, Kripa.

I don't want that.

Do you know...

that night I fell down and broke

my bones.

I bled so much.

Even then I had your locket in

my hand.

This locket saved me.

I knew it for sure

that I would meet you some

day...

and I will put back this

locket around your neck.

I have fallen in love with you,

Kripa.

How can I live without you?

Come with me, just once.

Mother!

Please come with us.

We'll all live together.

Kripa!

Leave my mother!

Kripa!

Leave my mother!

Jonaki! You are being obstinate

again.

Why have you touched my mother?

Release her at once!

Okay!

I release your mother!

But having found you.

I don't want to lose you again.

You are the Krishna of my

dreams.

Lord Krishna has said in the

Bhagawat Gita...

that he appears in every

age to rescue the saints...

to destroy evil and to

establish the Hindu religion...

Lord Krishna has said that he

appears in every age to protect

religion.

Please don't throw bricks on us

we are here to protect the Hindu

religion!

Please do not attack us!

Please be peaceful.

Please do not attack us!

Please do not attack us!

Please be peaceful.

Kripa!

Why are you running after him?

He will not go to you.

Why not?

Ma, you are a woman!

There is a woman inside me too.

I too have feelings of love and

affection.

Can't you understand? I love

him.

Is love only physical?

Is it not something from within?

What you call love is it not

lust?

Why is there so much violence in

your love?

Kripa!

Ma!

Ma... Ma!

Sadhana Ma!

Khokon! What have you done?

Ma! This is not what I wanted.

I did not want this.

Forgive me, Kripa!

Forgive me.

Push harder...!

Ma!

Ma!

Ma!

Which way do I go, Ma!

Ma!

Which way is Ruhul Baba's ashram

Ma?

Ira!

Pingala!

Sushumna!