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02x07 - The Third Polaroid

Posted: 03/20/22 09:45
by bunniefuu
[THEME MUSIC PLAYING]

[HANNAH] It's a giant f*cking universe.

[CLAY] It is a giant universe.

[HANNAH] Like, how are we supposed
to do anything significant?

Anything that means
anything? We're not even dots.

But, somehow, every day feels
like life or death, right?

Even though, at some level, it also
feels like nothing matters at all.

Or means anything.

And, like, in a real way, we're all
just accidents of birth, you know?

Like, it's just dumb luck that
we're not having this conversation

somewhere much worse than this basement.

Like, some shantytown in South
Asia, or the frozen north of Iceland,

or a burning desert in Africa.

But that's it.

We are exactly who we are,
in this moment, in this place,

and I think that matters.

Because without you, without
me, everything is different.

I don't know if anything
would be different without me.

I would be different.

Okay, if I do something, it affects you.

Makes you do something that
affects, I don't know, Alex Standall,

who affects Jessica Davis.

[CLAY] Who affects Justin Foley,
then Zach Dempsey, then Mrs. Bradley,

- and then Tony Padilla...
- [HANNAH] And on and on.

[CLAY] It's huge if you think about it.

[HANNAH] It's an infinite universe.

[CLAY] Infinity.

It's funny we have a
word for that concept,


but there's no way we can understand it.

- Maybe... love?
- Love?

Maybe love is how you
understand infinity.

When your love has no limit.
When it goes on forever.

Maybe that feels like infinity.

Yeah. Maybe.

[ALARM CLOCK RINGING]

[CLAY] Hey, Skye.

It's, uh... It's me again.

Clay. Calling you.

Nothing much new to report.
I go to court today.


To testify. For Hannah.

Still dealing with Justin.

This is weird.

You should have some pancakes.
They're f*cking amazing.

[MATT] I'll get you a plate.

Clay, your dad's going to
take you to court today.

[EXHALES] Great.

- I wish I could be there as well.
- Really no problem.

I've got this. And you've
got alt-Clay here, so...

But, I mean, things are actually great.

I'm glad to be going to court,

and I really think it's going
to be a good way to get closure.


Yeah, I'm really looking forward
to being done with all this.


_

I love you.

Call me. Bye.

[MRS. STANDALL] Alex,
honey? Wake up. Wake up.

- Alexander.
- What? What happened?

- Sorry, you were sleeping so soundly.
- [SIGHS]

Sorry, I was dreaming about running.

Happy birthday.

- Oh, wow.
- [LAUGHS]

Right. Thanks.

So I heard from Peter, and he
is driving down this afternoon

to be here in time for the party.

Oh.

Do we have to have a party?

But it's all booked, and
your father got his shift off.

Haven't you told your friends?

Well, yeah, I mean...

Plus, they got your e-vite
with the bunnies on it.

- You not feeling up to it?
- No, I am. I totally am.

Good. We'll have fun.

All right. Get yourself
up, do your stretches.

[GASPS] And I have a new hemp
milk to try. It's delicious.

[DOOR CLOSES]

[SIGHS]

You should come for a
morning run next time.

[CHUCKLES] I don't run
unless I'm being chased.

And even then, I don't run.

You ran pretty fast last night.

Yeah, uh... I'm sorry.

I got a text from Mrs.
Baker, and I had to go...

No excuses needed.

Look, I don't wanna tie you down.

And I don't want you to
think you owe me anything.

But I like you. A lot, I think.

- I'm done early tonight.
- Hmm.

No self-defense class.

- That's quite a group you got there.
- Yeah. Yeah, right?

The, uh, the guy with
no eye, what's his deal?

I don't know, really.

He got beat pretty bad a while back.

I think it was mugging or something.

He takes a few classes.

I think he's working through
the PTSD from the as*ault.

Seems pretty haunted by it.

Jesus.

- Does he remember much?
- Haven't spoken to him about it.

- There's lots of stories in that class.
- I bet.

Aren't we going the wrong
way for your first period?

Uh, I thought we'd
take the long way today.

- Why is Zach waiting for us?
- [CHUCKLES]

- And why is he smiling like that? What?
- [LAUGHS]

- Wait, is it your birthday?
- [JESSICA] Whoo!

- What?
- What?

[ZACH, JESSICA LAUGH]

- You guys got a banner made?
- It was a group project.

I made the design, Clay ordered
it online, and Zach put it up.

Wow, that's...

[CHUCKLES] ...that's really,
really nice, you guys.

[BRYCE] Aw.

Happy birthday, buddy.

Oh, sweet banner.

Is your mom bringing cupcakes?

I hope she brings enough
for the whole class.

Maybe you'll get a new
cane this year too, huh?

[CHUCKLING] Yeah.

And some new friends.

[ALEX] f*ck you!

You f*cking r*pist!

Dude, shit like that
doesn't do anybody any good.

Yeah? Well, it felt good to me.

Maybe if you'd stop
defending him all the time.

- When have I ever defended him?
- Every day.

Every day you hang around him
and play baseball with him,

you choose his side.

Jess, tell him.

Why would you do that?

Shit. I'm so sorry.

- I mean...
- Jess.

Don't.

Come on, didn't you see the red light?

- It means you're not...
- Hey.

Uh, hi.

- Sorry.
- No, uh, you're... No big deal.

I know what the red
light means. [CHUCKLES]

So, um, last night was really fun.

We should, maybe, do it again sometime.

We should clean vomit
off your brother's boots?

We should hang out.
Maybe not in the bathroom.

So, hang out in your yard?

Or another building. Restaurant.
Movie theater, perhaps?

- Do you mean, like a...
- I mean, like a date.

It's an early stage in the mating
ritual of h*m* sapiens.

We agree to go somewhere together.

I obsess over what to wear

and then you obsess over if you
should pay or if we're splitting it.

We show up, it either goes
great or it goes terrible,

and then we decide if we wanna
put ourselves through it again.

What sadistic person
invented this ritual?

[MACKENZIE CHUCKLES]

Every person.

- So, you wanna?
- Um...

Yes. I... I really do.

She was faithful.

She was kind to me and cared
about what happened to me.

She never gossiped, or
told lies about people.

And what sorts of things
did you do together?

We had some classes together,
we ate lunch together sometimes,

and we worked together at the Crestmont.

And we talked, a lot.

- What did you talk about?
- We talked about...

about books and shows
and songs and eclipses

and zombies and bike helmets and...

and I guess our... our hopes and dreams.

[HANNAH] Helmet.

Helmet. Helmet.

If you don't help build this tower,
you don't get to knock it down.

I... I just need to finish this chapter.

Do you really have homework?
School's over in, like, two days.

All we do in my classes is
watch Stand and Deliver.

I wanna get the summer
reading done before I, um,

leave for my grandparents'

for the summer.

Wait, what?

My parents think it's
good for a "growing boy"

to spend time in the country. [SCOFFS]

We don't exactly live
in a thriving metropolis.

Ten minutes at my grandparents',
and you would disagree. [CHUCKLES]

What am I supposed to do
all summer without you?

- Wait, you're... you're gonna miss me?
- Of course.

You're the only friend I have left.

Come on, that's not true.

Will you write me,
like, old-school letters?

Yeah. I mean, can I write them
on the computer and print them?

You may not. And no postcards.

I want handwritten missives filled
with your deepest, darkest secrets.

Are you gonna write me back?

"Dear Helmet,

today, someone smeared
feces on the bathroom wall,

and I got to clean it up.

But there was an expired box of Milk Duds

that I got to take home for free."

Those are your deepest
and darkest secrets?

Write me, and you'll find out.

- Whoa!
- [LAUGHS]

I never wrote her.

I just...

Summer gets away from
you, and stuff happens.

And I guess I didn't really think
that she'd be thinking of me.

I mean, I didn't think
I was that important.

And you always think that... you
think that you'll have plenty of time.

[WHIMPERS]

I'm sorry.

- What the hell?
- Whatever happened to

"What happens in The Clubhouse
stays in The Clubhouse"?

Not in here. Jesus.

- What the f*ck is your problem?
- Somebody's blackmailing me.

If my dad sees that, I'm dead.

f*ck.

Look, you need to
help me shut this down.

- I need to?
- You owe me.

I don't owe anybody anything, Marcus.

I got a lot of eyes
on me right now, okay?

I can't get involved
in some stripper shit.

- You're already involved. You were there.
- I'm not in the video.

Are you f*cking kidding me?

After what I did for you in
court, you can't return the favor?

A favor's only a favor
if someone asks for it.

And I didn't ask you to
drag my name into this shit.

That's on you.

[SCHOOL BELL RINGS]

Clay, you've testified today
that Hannah was a victim

of a culture of
bullying at Liberty High.

But isn't it true that you are
also a part of that culture?

No, I don't think I am.

Isn't it true that you took pictures
of Tyler Down through his window

that you then circulated around
the school via social media?

- Yes, but...
- [DENNIS] Objection, Your Honor.

Beyond the scope of the direct.

Your Honor, he's already testified
to the nature of bullying at Liberty.

[JUDGE] I'll allow it.

[SONYA] Clay, isn't it true that
you were suspended from school

for possession of marijuana?

- It wasn't mine. I was set up.
- I see.

And at any point subsequent
to that suspension,

did you attempt to buy more marijuana?

- Yes, but I was...
- And isn't it true that your vandalism

caused thousands of dollars of
damage to Zach Dempsey's car?

I was angry at him. I...
I paid for the damage.

What did you do when you were
angry at Courtney Crimsen?

I just took her to Hannah's grave.

And isn't it true that you accused her

of being responsible for Hannah's death?

She is responsible. All of
those kids are responsible.

Are you responsible, Clay? Are
you responsible for Hannah's death?

Yes, I am. I let her down.

But there are kids who did a lot
worse, kids who you let skate,

who did things you won't even talk about.

And adults at Liberty don't...

[SONYA] Request to strike
that as non-responsive.

[JUDGE] So ordered. The
jury will ignore that answer.

Clay, you've testified that
you were Hannah's friend

but never her boyfriend.

- Is that correct?
- Yes.

And you said that you kissed once.

- Is that correct?
- Yes.

Did you ever spend a night together?

You mean, have... have sex? No.

No. I mean, spend a night together,

evening, night, into the next morning.

Clay, did you and Hannah
ever spend a night together?

Yes.

And did you do dr*gs together?

Yes.

- [MUSIC PLAYING]
- [STUDENTS CHEERING]

Go, Tigers!

- Hey! Go, Tigers!
- Yeah!

Hey! Go, Tigers!

[AIR HORN BLARES]

Hey! Go, Tigers!

Hey! Go, Tigers!

[CHEERING]

[CHLOE] Let's give it up
for our varsity baseball team!

[STUDENT] Go, Tigers!

- [STUDENT] Oh, look at him.
- [AUDIENCE] Aww.

Hey, how about a hand for our
new cheer captain, Chlöe Rice?

[CHEERING]

So sweet.

And now, for our emcee
of today's assembly,

Marcus Cole!

- [CHEERING]
- [MUSIC PLAYING]

That's right.

That's right. I, uh...
dressed for the occasion.

Who's impressed?

[CHEERING]

He turned it into a
f*cking publicity stunt.

He's got this whole
f*cking school brainwashed.

We have to do something else,
man. Okay? Something bigger.

What did you have in mind?

I'm sorry, Dad.

For what, kiddo? For telling the truth?

For not telling you...

stuff.

And what did you say?

I didn't... I didn't
know what to say. I...

You know there's nothing you could do,

nothing that would stop your
mother and me from loving you.

You heard Hannah say
this, and you did nothing?

I didn't think she meant it like that.

Why is it kids don't tell
their parents anything, ever?

Is it shame?

Or fear?

It can't be fear of punishment. No
one's punished for anything anymore.

Are you afraid we won't understand?

More like afraid you'd
understand too well.

So you're protecting your secrets?

We were all still recovering...

From dr*gs. And that
explains why you did nothing?

Or we're protecting you.

Look, I have to get to school.

Let's welcome this
year's varsity track team!

- [STUDENTS CHEERING]
- [MUSIC PLAYING]

[CLAY] Hey, Skye. Me again.
Court was not great.


They found out about this
thing Hannah said one time,


and they blew it way out of proportion.

But now I can't stop thinking
about the morning she said it


and the night we spent before.

[JEFF] Hey, Jensen.

Don't you have a class to get to?

- Don't you guys?
- No, man. We just won State.

They don't make us go to school anymore.

Yeah, you wish.

I'm wondering why after
such an excellent pep rally,

it seems like your pep
has not been rallied.

[CHUCKLES]

- I'm not a pep sort, I guess.
- Okay.

I didn't see you sit next to Hannah.

I never sit next to Hannah.

You always try to.

[CHUCKLES]

Not lately.

Remember that poem that
everyone was talking about?

Everyone was talking about
a poem? How is that possible?

Who talks about poems?

[STAMMERS] I... Anyway...

I made fun of it.

And I didn't know it was hers, and...

Man, if you and Hannah's
relationship were a novel,

a major theme would be "mistakes."

Thank you.

We'll figure this out.

The last time I took your advice,
she ran out on me at the dance.

No, no, no, no, that
wasn't my fault, all right?

If I recall correctly,

it was your nerves and uptight
nature that just ruined everything.

Look, you both are just
too hung up on shit.

We'll work on this.

I don't have an uptight nature.

[BOTH CHUCKLE]

You know what? We're gonna
have a gathering this weekend.

Me, you, Hannah, my girl, Leah,
and some friends. I'll text you.

- I don't really do parties.
- Oh, you'll do this one.

See you Saturday, Jensen.

We're taking State this
year. And it's for him.

He was what a teammate should be. Loyal.

- Yeah, he always had your back.
- Never had to wonder about that.

And he looked out for people.

Always took care of his
guys, no questions asked.

- Yeah.
- Right.

[CLAY] I just keep thinking... did I miss

something huge, like I did with you?

What are you doing here?

I stayed to watch them
hang Jeff's jersey.

Yeah, me, too.

How'd it go, in court?

Not well.

- I'm sorry.
- They asked me about the party at Jeff's.

Before summer, last year.

Oh, shit. How'd they know about that?

God, no, Clay. I would never.

I swear.

Someone must've brought it up
at their deposition. Maybe Leah.

It doesn't matter now.

Was there anything
in your text messages?

No. Why?

Well, 'cause the other night, your
mom, she was asking me about a text.

She said it was for a
case she was working on.

Look, anyways, I'm sure it's
not as bad as you think it is.

It's worse.

[REGISTER CLICKS]

[CLAY] And, like, what
other signs have I missed?


- [MAN] Call if you have questions.
- [DEPUTY STANDALL] Got it.

- Good seeing you.
- Thanks, man.

Let's go, bud.

You good?

Oh, hey, there he is.

- Tyler, good to see you.
- Good to see you too, sir.

- Hey.
- Hey.

Baker dr*gs. This is a
little out of your way, yeah?

Yeah. Uh, they carry some stuff
that the WalPlex doesn't, so...

Uh, so we're gonna see
you at the party tonight?

Oh, I... I didn't know, so...

I thought that you
invited all your friends.

Yeah, well, Jessica was supposed to...

It's at the Epicenter
tonight. Come if you can.

Alex would love to have you there.

- I don't know. I don't wanna...
- [ALEX] You should come.

- Really. You should.
- Yeah?

[BOTH] Yeah.

- Okay. Yeah, I'll be there.
- [DEPUTY STANDALL] Good.

- Good to see you.
- Yeah, you, too.

- Right on.
- Later.

Later.

Don't they do any f*cking
maintenance at this place?

- [ANDY] Olivia.
- Seriously.

With what we pay for this plot?

I'll speak to them on the way out.

They promised weekly maintenance.

- They can't even cut the f*cking grass.
- Liv.

Liv.

[SIGHS]

This day, Andy...

I don't... I'm not even sure
how well that kid knew Hannah.

He knew her well.

I think he was in love with her.

He's a good kid.

Yeah, who encouraged her
to do some bad things.

One. One thing, and it wasn't...

it wasn't that bad.

Nothing that you and...

you and I didn't do in high school.

But what she said to
him the next morning...

I've said to myself over the years.

Was it my fault, Andy? Did I...?

Was she sick? Did I
give something to her?

- God, no.
- The women in my family...

Stop, Liv. Just stop.
Our Hannah was very happy.

She was kind, intelligent, beautiful,
and she was very, very happy.

That's our Hannah.

[OLIVIA SOBS]

We were happy, weren't we?

We were happy.

Andy...

Andy...

Should we go have some dinner?

These are kinda cute.

- They're all right.
- I need more yoga pants.

I mean, how many pairs of yoga
pants does one person need?

- I mean, do you even do yoga?
- I do, I...

- All right. Shut up.
- [LAUGHS]

How long have you been together?

Uh, it'll be five months next Thursday.

Damn. Has it been that long already?

Wow, okay. Don't act so excited now.

- Uh...
- [LAUGHS]

See, that's her way of saying,
"I can't get enough of you, baby."

Wow. You guys are adorable.
And by that, I mean disgusting.

[CHUCKLES]

I'll let you guys do your thing.

- All right. Thanks.
- All right.

So is he, like, in college, or...?

[NINA] Uh, junior college.

But he's transferring to Berkeley
for fall semester. Pre-law.

- Shit. He's kind of amazing.
- I know, right?

But, I mean, hey, I deserve amazing.

So do you, by the way.

Whenever you're ready
to get back out there.

[BRYCE] Shh. Shh. Don't worry about it.

- Just having fun.
- What are you doing? Please!

Don't worry about it.

- Just having fun.
- What are you doing? Please!

[GASPS]

[JESSICA] Please. No.

[PANTING]

[SOBBING]

[ALARM BEEPING]

Jessica! Hey. Hey. What's...

You need to pay for that.

Uh, no, here, it was an accident.
I'm sorry. She's not buying it.

Jess. Hey.

- [JESSICA] I'm sorry. [PANTING]
- [ALARM STOPS]

It's okay. It's okay.

Are you okay?

Yeah, must have been
a trigger or something.

Security tag triggered the
alarm. It's no big deal.

Are you sure you're okay?

Um, babe, can you get us
some gelato, actually? Please?

- Good idea.
- Thank you so much.

- My treat.
- Thanks.

He knows how we know each other, right?

Uh, well, yeah. School.

I don't let what
happened to me define me.

So why should I tell him
when it's not who I am?

Yeah, yeah, that makes sense.

- [OLIVIA] Haven't been here in a while.
- It didn't feel right at first.

How's the store?

Uh, yeah, I was able to
find some new distributors

for a lot of the items so
we could compete, price-wise.

Cosmetics, for one, so...

- That's great.
- Yeah.

And the new pharmacist?

He's good.

He's young, so he knows the medicine
part, but not the people part.

What about you? How's WalPlex?

- Getting used to it.
- Yeah.

I realized that I
liked being my own boss,

or letting you be the boss.

- I don't know the right way to say this.
- Just say it, Andy.

We need to finalize things, Liv.

We can't stay in limbo forever.

This is about the divorce?

I don't wanna wait till after the trial.

We need to move on.

- You wanna marry her.
- No. I want...

I wanna close a door that
I can never go back through.

Yes.

I see.

[CLAY] Hey, Skye. It's me. Again.

Listen, I don't know
if you get news there.


Uh, you might hear about...

about stuff I did that came out in court.

It's kind of bad.

Good.

- Hungry?
- Uh, sure. Why not?

Are you out of your mind? No.

Dude, listen.

- You know my body's a temple, right?
- I don't think about your body.

What I mean is you
know how healthy I am.

- You're an athlete.
- Yeah, and a damn good one.

But on the rare occasion,
when I want a deep,

lovely night with my lady,
we'll do a little love drug.

I've read that that
shit can fry your brain,

like, first time you try it.

And riding your bike without
a helmet can k*ll you.

But which one's gonna help you let loose

and help you get past your shit
with Hannah and into each other?

- Hmm?
- This is peer pressure.

No, no. I don't wanna pressure you.

You put too much pressure on yourself.

I mean... that's the whole point.

You agonize over every decision.

I do not.

Are you sure?

I mean, we don't know where
these dr*gs come from,

or even what dr*gs they are.

The way you say "dr*gs" makes you
sound like a Republican senator.

I'm just saying, we don't...

we don't have to do this.

You know, we can go hang
out somewhere else, or...

Sure. I mean, if you want to. But...

aren't you curious?

[ALEX] I'm telling you, Clay.

It's a very good idea for you.

Water?

Guys, what if we just ate a
bunch of sugar and caffeine?

- That's a certain kind of high, right?
- Seriously, do not worry.

All right. Here you go.

Three first-timers,

three veterans.

We got you guys.

Totally.

This is so peer pressure.
Like, at its worst.

[VIDEO MACHINE BEEPING]

Uh, so tell me the truth.
How's he doing, guys?

- He's good.
- Yeah?

His balance is getting
better and so is his strength.

I mean, he's still working
on his memory, but...

But he's doing great.

[DEPUTY STANDALL] You only need one

hand to whoop your old man at Skee-Ball.

- [PETER] Hey.
- Yep.

You should've challenged me
at Dance Dance Revolution.

It's my birthday. You're
supposed to laugh at my jokes.

[MRS. STANDALL] All right. Wings.

Yeah.

- Fries. And curly fries.
- All right.

- Burgers will come up when they're ready.
- Thanks, Mom.

Thank you.

You got all your game cards?

Yeah. Yeah, thank you, Mrs. Standall.

[ZACH] Hey. Jess.

- Hey, hey, hey.
- Yeah?

He can go. He's good.

Hey.

I won this for you just
to say sorry about today.

You didn't have to do that.

Yeah, well, if I hadn't won
it, I'd just be saying sorry,

and I thought maybe
the cuteness would help.

Look, we don't need to talk about it.

[JESSICA] Hey.

[MRS. STANDALL] Hi, sweetie. How are you?

[DEPUTY STANDALL] Great to see you.

[JESSICA] Hi. How are you?

- [ALL LAUGHING]
- I just think it's complicated.

See, the thing is to be in the group,

but not about the group,
you know what I mean?

- No. What do you mean?
- All right. Take Alex.

[LAUGHS] You're friends
with Justin Foley.

[LAUGHS] Which is, like, whatever.

And he says you're a good guy. He
doesn't say that about most people.

He doesn't. It's 'cause he's a d*ck.

[LAUGHTER]

I just feel, like, tremendous
positivity for everyone right now.

Mmm. Exactly.

In fact, I think it's
time that a few of us

actually slip off for a while.

- Sound good?
- Totally.

- Wait. Wait, no. Wait. Where are you...?
- [JEFF, LEAH LAUGH]

[JEFF] Enjoy your night.

It's already a great night.

I agree. [CHUCKLES]

It's like... It's like everything
is what it is, but, like, more.

- Like, touching... touching things.
- I know.

[GASPING]

[ARCADE GAME NOISES CONTINUE]

For someone who hates parties,
I go to a lot of parties.

Yeah.

And it never ends well.

Nope.

[SIGHS]

What is he doing here?

- No, Alex told me to come.
- Tyler, he was just being nice.

He doesn't want you here.

I wanna talk to Alex. Okay,
look, I brought him something.

What? "Oh, happy birthday, Alex.
Here's a photo book of you in a coma"?

He told you about that?

Get out. Now.

Wait. Where is Tyler going?

- Don't worry. We got rid of him.
- No, I told him to come.

Alex, look, I know he visited
you a lot in the hospital,

- but he's a f*cking pervert.
- After what he did to Hannah...

[CLAY] What he did? Seriously?

At least Tyler tried
to help Hannah in court.

That's more than you can say, Zach.

You helped turn her into Hannah the sl*t.

- At least we didn't do dr*gs.
- You guys, come on.

You come on. You didn't help either.

- I tried.
- From what you said today in court,

you hurt her more than any of us.

- They took that out of context.
- [ALEX] So you didn't let her down?

How are you any different than us?

What are you thinking about?

What are you thinking about?

Come on, tell me. What
are you thinking about?

- I... I don't know.
- [UPBEAT GUITAR SONG PLAYING]

You're not saying.

I have...

so many thoughts.

Give me one.

[GROANING]

[CHUCKLES]

Infinity.

It's an infinity ceiling?

No. It totally is. Look at it.

Infinity.

It's funny how we have
a word for that concept,

but there's no way we can understand it.

Maybe love.

Love?

Maybe love is how you
understand infinity.

When your love has no limits,
when it goes on forever.

Maybe that feels like infinity.

Huh.

Yeah, maybe.

How are you feeling?

[CHUCKLES] I feel f*cking great.

[BOTH LAUGH]

At this moment, I am
not afraid of anything.

- I am fearless.
- Yeah.

I feel...

peaceful.

- But it's just the drug, right?
- Is it?

Didn't these feelings have
to be somewhere inside of us

for the drug to find them?

I'm not sure that's how it works.

Do you believe we have a soul?

I don't know. I hope so.

If you could see the future,
would you wanna see the future?

No.

- You answered that fast.
- [CHUCKLES] Well...

Like, can I change the future?

Because if I can see it
and I know what's coming,

and there's nothing I can do
about it, then it's just anxiety.

You can always change the future.

So you don't believe in destiny?

I do. I just believe it can change.

This is the saddest birthday party ever.

[CELL PHONE RINGING, VIBRATING]

Shit. Uh, I gotta take this.

Hey, Mom. Yeah, no, I'm
just out with the guys.

I'll be home soon.
Yeah. No, I know, I know.

[SIGHS]

Okay. Yeah, I'm on my way. Bye.

"The guys"?

You're out with the guys?

I just told her I'd
go home and watch May.

Home from what?

Why'd you lie about where you are?

I wasn't sure...

Of course you should
lie to her and everybody

'cause that's better than
admitting you're my friend?

- She knows you're my friend.
- Bryce know where you are?

- Come on, man.
- f*ck you, Zach.

- Okay.
- Go home.

Yeah, I should. Um...

Thank you guys for having me.

[DEPUTY STANDALL] You don't have to go.

I'm gonna go play some games.

All right, you guys, truth
now. What the hell's going on?

He's not all right.

Uh... [CLEARS THROAT]

I think he does pretty well, most days.

Bullshit. You said he made progress.

He hasn't made any since
the day I saw him last.

- A month ago.
- [MRS. STANDALL] He's trying.

Oh, he's really trying.

Oh, shit.

[LOUD GAME g*nf*re]

Hey, buddy.

- What are you doing?
- Just playing a game, Dad.

Okay, maybe this isn't the
right game to be playing now.

Why not? I'm really good at it.

Let's play another
round of Skee-Ball...

- No, Dad, f*ck that.
- Alex.

[GAME g*nf*re ECHOES]

- Give me this thing. That's enough.
- f*ck, no.

f*ck, no!

- All right, buddy, I'm sorry. Come here.
- f*cking let me go!

I'm broken, okay?

I'm f*cking broken.

That's how it's gonna be. Why
don't you just live with it?

- Alex, you're not broken.
- How the f*ck would you know?

I've seen you twice since
I got out of the hospital.

- I had school.
- I had f*cking school, too!

And I had friends.

Now I don't have anything,

except all of you standing
around feeling sorry for me,

not f*cking knowing what to say.

Maybe it would've been
better if it'd worked.

Put the b*llet through my brain

- the way it was supposed to go?
- Stop.

Wouldn't that be better?

You could get on with
your stupid f*cking lives.

f*ck you, Alex. Okay?
Shut up. Just shut up.

- Jess.
- No.

Listen to me, you assh*le.

How could you do what you did?

After Hannah, I needed you.

You were the only one I
could trust, who understood

what I was going through, and you
were gonna f*cking leave me behind?

- That's messed up, Alex. It's messed up.
- I'm sorry.

Everybody here loves you.

And you just don't care?

I do care. I care. I'm sorry.

[DEPUTY STANDALL] It's okay, it's okay.

It's okay.

[LAPTOP RINGING]

[SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC PLAYING ON TV]

- Hey.
- Hey.

- How was the party?
- Stupid party, stupid people.

[LAUGHS]

Sounds right.

Why are you sitting in the dark?

I'm introducing my old man to
the wizarding world of
Harry Potter.

- Seriously?
- Seriously.

He's the last person in the world that

doesn't know what his Patronus is.

- f*cking muggles.
- Right?

Hey.

Pay attention here.

You're gonna need to know
that for the sixth movie.


Hey, so, uh...

I wanna do Zach next.

Okay. Again?

Yeah. He's just a f*cking
assh*le who needs to be checked.

- Cool.
- Yeah. So I have this whole idea for him.

- So I'm thinking...
- Ty, you know I'm down for whatever,

but I got to make sure my
dad doesn't fall asleep.


He's, like, . They tend
to do that during movies.


Hey.

Just tell me the plan. I'll be there.

Yeah, fine. Later.

[SIGHS]

_

[SONYA] Clay, isn't it true
that you heard Hannah say


that she wanted her life to be over?

And isn't it true that you did nothing?

You did nothing to help her.

If he had been honest
with us about the dr*gs...

Did you know they were gonna ask?

No, of course not. I
removed myself, Matt.

If I were to interfere with a witness...

A witness? He's your son.

If I were to interfere in
any way, I would be fired.

I could be disbarred, Matt.

Our boy did dr*gs, we didn't know.

He hid a homeless boy for
a week, we didn't know.

I mean, what the f*ck, Lainie?

- [LAINIE] Trying to help a friend in need.
- Our son is in need.

Yes, Matt, I'm aware.

[CLAY] I can't stop thinking about
it, Skye. They destroyed me.


Ask me why she was depressed.

Why she was destroyed.
Ask me who did that to her.

- [SONYA] No further questions.
- [JUDGE] Jury will disregard.

Witness, stand down.

[CLAY] But did I deserve it?

[ALEX] Who ordered the cinnamon rolls?

If I put that in my mouth,
I will literally puke.

- Are we, like, all in bad moods?
- [SHERI] I am.

I just don't even have
the energy to care.

[JEFF] No, we're just
coming down. It's normal.

- What's the point, right?
- Yeah, exactly.

No, but, like, really,
what's the point of anything?

That's just the Molly talking.

Her name's Hannah.

You've gotta handle the lows
if you wanna chase the highs.

Come on, drink some water. Don't
let your mind go to that dark place.

Do you ever think, "I can't do
it anymore"? Like, "I wanna die"?

Yep. Every single minute.

Like everything's black?

[JEFF] Guys, get through this.
Okay? Get through this moment.

And it'll all be clear.

[CLAY] Skye, she said it and I heard it.

I couldn't help her then, and
I couldn't help her today.


I've got to be able to
do something to help.


People need to know the whole story.

Hey.

That's great. [SCOFFS]
That's just perfect.

Clay, honey.

Come on, lover. Give me a
little. I had a shitty day.

Yeah, I know. I heard Alex
had one of his outbursts.

Well, the kid's sick.

I feel bad for him.
Now forget about that.

Babe, I thought we were
watching a movie tonight.

- I've seen it.
- But you chose it.

Yeah, so I don't have
to pay close attention.

I'd rather pay attention to you.

[CHUCKLES]

- Ow. Careful.
- Yeah.

[SIGHS]

Is that better?

- Babe, what is up with you tonight?
- Just the usual. Being into you.

[BRYCE GRUNTS]

Babe, what... what about the movie?

f*ck the movie.

[GRUNTING]

[SIGHS]

Look...

- You're good, yeah?
- [PANTING]

- Yeah.
- And you want to, right?

Right.

- [SIGHS]
- [BRYCE GRUNTING]

[GASPING]

[GRUNTING]

[WHIMPERS, GASPS]

- [KNOCKING ON DOOR]
- [LAINIE] Clay?

You can keep up the silent
treatment as long as you have to.

I understand.

But Justin will need
your support tomorrow.

And on Monday, okay?

[SIGHS] You're reading the comments.

Don't ever read the comments.

The shit that people say,

about you, about me.

They don't know the whole story.

- Don't do this.
- I'm doing it for you.

- I'm trying to make things right.
- You know it won't.

[SIGHS] What else can I do?

You can help Jessica and Justin.
You can figure out those pictures.

I don't care about the f*cking pictures.

I care about the truth. I care about you.

Then don't do it. You
know I don't want you to.

Well, maybe you don't get a say anymore.

People did terrible things to you
and they're getting away with it.

- You left those tapes for a reason.
- What reason?

To make people face what
they did and admit it

and understand how f*cked up it was.

Do you think I wanted revenge?

I don't know what you wanted,
because you left a huge f*cking mess.

I'm the only one interested
in cleaning it up.

It wasn't revenge.

I had to tell my own story.

I wanted people to know what happened

so maybe it wouldn't happen again.

- Exactly. So everyone should hear it.
- No, not like this.

You don't get to decide.

You left.


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