Transcripts - Forever Dreaming

Previously on "Grey's Anatomy"...

- What if it wasn't ridiculous?
- What?

What if you try to cure Alzheimer's?

Should I anticipate

- any goodbye e-mails from you?
- I don't know.

Tessa's like Seattle royalty.

Man, I grew up on her stories.

TESSA: I do have another story to tell.

"Tessa and the Rising Sun".

I'm sorry. I can't.

NICK: You don't consider
me part of your life.

Of course you're part of my life.

You took the Boston job
without even talking to me.

I love cardio. But I love you more.

Guess I'm not sure that I respect that.

[THUNDER CRASHES, GLASS SHATTERS]

[CHILD SCREAMING]

♪ ♪

♪ I'm up, I'm here, I'm out the door ♪

MEREDITH: One of the greatest
frustrations surgeons have

are the unrealistic
expectations of our patients.

Whoa.

♪ Don't you wanna go with me ♪

Whoa!

Whoa! Whoa!

No!

No. No, no, no!

Whether they're acutely ill or
they've been sick for years...

No, no, no, no, no.

No, no.

Oh, my God. No.

... by the time they're
on the surgical table,

they're hoping for a miracle.

- Thanks for the ride.
- Get out.

- I'm late.
- So am I.

But often, surgery is just
the beginning of the healing,

rather than an end.

Because for weeks or months post-op,

people have to learn how to live

without the part of their
body we've just removed.

- SIMONE: You're late.
- MIKA: Not as late as you.

And that's not always easy
and it's never painless.

So, surgery is not
the happily ever after

our patients hope it will be.

Like everything else in life,
it's an evolution.

Now, remember what I said to you.

You're going to take these gifts

and go visit your old daycare teachers.

They're gonna be
very excited to see you.

Do you remember where you're going?

- Mom, I'm not a baby.
- Same, Mom.

Okay.

- AMELIA: Hey!
- MAGGIE: Look who's here!

Hi. Big last day.

Yeah, we're trying to forget

all that and act like everything

- is super normal.
- How are we doing?

- Not great.
- [CHUCKLES]

- How's the new place?
- AMELIA: It is great.

It is weird to live alone
when I don't have Scout,

but I feel very grown up.

- Do you have any surgeries I can watch today?
- Zola...

I might have a very excellent one

with Uncle Winston in O.R. two,
if your mom says it's okay.

Mom, please?

Okay, if anyone asks,
I don't know where you are.

Link! Hi. Hey.

Do you, uh...

- Do you have a busy schedule today?
- Actually, no.

I've carved out my whole day
to catch up on charting.

- I am buried in...
- I need you to pick up a cake by noon.

- This bakery's across town.
- It's for Meredith.

- Does she like faraway cake?
- It's her favorite.

It's the triple berry
with the buttercream.

I would do it myself,

but the baby that I delivered

two weeks ago with the malformed heart,

he's having heart surgery today,

and his parents are very
attached to me, and...

and... and you love me, so please help.

That is true.

- I do love you.
- Thank you.

[SIGHS, SNIFFS]

You're all rounding with
Doctors Ndugu and Pierce.

They are breaking new surgical ground,

and it is a privilege
that they have invited...

Sorry. My car broke down.

Had to get a ride with my sister.

Yeah, my car got towed
and it's also my house.

Do you know who else wasn't punctual?

Taryn Helm wasn't punctual,

despite being an excellent surgeon,

and now you can find her
throwing her life away

bartending across the street.

There's a surgeon bartending at Joe's?

Why?

Because she burnt out, that's why.

So, hydrate and sleep
and lean on your friends,

and take a break and
get a good therapist.

And be on time,

unless you want to wind up like Helm,

wasting your talents,

your family's investment,
and your futures.

Does she know you're throwing
shade behind her back?

[SCOFFS]

WOMAN OVER PA: Dr. Joseph to L&D.

Dr. Earl Joseph to L&D.

Meadow, Will.

Um, we're a teaching hospital,

and these are our first years.

Is it okay if they stay?

You can say no.

Uh, i-it should be okay.

Baby?

[BABY CRIES]

Dr. Kwan.

Arlo Fischer, delivered by
Dr. Wilson two weeks ago,

and diagnosed with
truncus arteriosus and VSD.

He's been listed for
a transplant for heart failure,

and he was placed on ECMO a week ago.

Arlo's deterioration is
sending him into organ failure.

We got a call from UNOS last
night that there is a match,

but the procurement team reported

that the donor heart muscle is weak

and not suitable for transplantation.

WINSTON: But Dr. Pierce and I believe

that we can still make use of the heart

if we transplant only
the two major arteries.

So, it's a partial heart transplant?

Has that ever been done before?

No, this will be the first.

MEADOW: [SNIFFLES] I don't understand.

Why can't we just wait on another heart?

Meadow, it could take months
to find another match.

Arlo cannot stay on ECMO for that long.

Baby, she's saying partial
is better than nothing.

We know this is frightening,
but if this works,

these valves will grow with him
for the rest of his life,

and he won't need a heart transplant

or any other additional surgeries.

If this works. What if it doesn't work?

He dies? My baby dies?

We're gonna give you
some time to think about it.

We really do believe that this is

Arlo's best option at this point.

[CRYING]

- Can you...
- JO: I can stay.

Yes, Of course.

- Thank you, Doctor.
- Yeah.

♪ ♪

[KNOCK ON DOOR]

Come in.

- Hey.
- Hi.

[DOOR CLOSES]

- Heard it's your last day.
- It is.

Thanks for coming.

I went by the house.

It's nice to see it's still standing.

There's a giant hole
where the attic used to be.

They've spent the last two weeks
stabilizing the place,

but everything still reeks of smoke.

- It's...
- How are the kids?

Zola's excited to start
at her new school.

I think Bailey and Ellis
are sad to leave.

I called, you know?

I know.

This has been a lot.

A fire, living in a hotel, moving.

No, I know it's been a lot,
but what... what was your plan?

You were just gonna leave
and not call me back?

And you're gonna move across the country

without a conversation?

I-I-I-I don't get that. I don't.

I didn't know what to say.

I moved here to be with you.

Yes, I took a job, but I moved here

to be with you.

You didn't say it back.

I didn't say what back?

You s... [SIGHS]

What?

I said, "I love you".

You were standing exactly in that spot

where you are right now.

I said, "I love you".

You didn't say it back.

You had just taken a job at my hospital.

I thought... I had hoped

that we were gonna pick it up

right where we left off.

But you seemed to want to take it slow.

So, it did not occur to me

to confer with you about me moving.

Okay, so wait, wait, wait,
wait, wait, whoa.

This... So, this is on me?

This whole thing, it's my fault?

That is not what I just said.

I-I didn't do and say
exactly what you thought

I should do and say
on exactly your timeline,

so this whole mess is my fault.

- That's what you're saying?
- That is not what I said.

No, no. Nope.

- I can't.
- [DOOR OPENS]

I can't.

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

So essentially, we will
take out the truncus

and the malformed artery,

replace it with the donor
aorta and pulmonary trunk,

and then use their walls
to close the VSD.

So it's like gutting
the inside of a house

without disturbing the frames.

Can you not use the word
"gutting" when talking

about a tiny baby heart?

Mm, cosign.

I don't like the verbiage,
but it is a pretty apt metaphor.

Do we get to scrub in?

There will only be room
for one of you at the table.

We are operating on a heart
the size of a strawberry.

The vessels are half a centimeter wide.

My hands are the smallest!

You will not be stitching.
You will be observing.

But whoever does the best
vascular anastomosis

in the skills lab wins the spot.

Dr. Kwan.

Yeah?

Uh, don't do your finger
agility exercises

in front of the patients, alright?

Oh, it's a technique I use to disengage

from the emotionality.

To stay neutral.

Y-You know, when... when the mother

started crying, I was...

It's smart. You just can't
let them see it, Kwan.

Understood.

[SIGHS]

[DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]

TEDDY: Richard!

Just curious how it's going.

The search for the new chief.

It was easy a few years ago

- when we were at the top of our game.
- Right.

But we've got a lot
of interesting applicants

we're sorting through, yeah.

I mean, Grey-Sloan is not an easy place

- just to step right into.
- [CHUCKLES]

It's got its own history,
its... its own quirks,

its own personality.

- Well, that it does.
- [CHUCKLES]

Yeah. I mean, it... it wouldn't
be the... the worst idea

to look closer to home.

Someone who's been here,

who... who understands our history,

the issues, and... and our past
and our needs.

Altman, I think you're onto something.

T-There's no extra pay involved,

but there's lots of free pastries

and we could use your expertise.

I-I'm sorry, there's no extra pay?

No, the search committee is voluntary.

But we'd love to have you.

We're meeting in the second
floor conference room

from : to : on Monday.

Okay, got it. Thank you.

I will...

- join.
- Great.

- Yeah. [CHUCKLES]
- Thank you.

Okay.

Meadow, I got a page.
Is everything okay?

I can't do it.

I-I can't kiss him goodbye

for what might be forever.

She wants to wait.

W-We want to wait for a whole heart.

An infant donor heart
could take up to six months

to find a match.

But we got this one.

This one was a match
and it came in days.

- But it was damaged.
- I know.

But we could get another match

in the next couple of days.

It could happen.

I know that it's hard,
and I know that it's scary,

but Dr. Pierce is as good as it gets

and she is not a risk taker.

She doesn't do experimental surgeries

for practice or for glory.

She is suggesting this
because she believes

that she can save Arlo's life.

I don't know how to
love my son this much

and send him in
for an experimental surgery

that might k*ll him.

I-I can't do it.

[CRYING] If he dies in that surgery,

I won't ever be okay again.

Tell Dr. Pierce thank you, but no.

The surgery is off.

♪ ♪

[CRIES]

♪ ♪

- Ow! Damn it.
- [GLASSES CLATTER]

You know what?

Screw this.

- What? Should I go after her?
- BLUE: Shh.

Some of us are trying to win.

I hate this stitch.

Oh, you have to kinda twirl
your wrist like, um...

Here.

Right.

Yeah.

[CELLPHONE BUZZES]

- Oh, no.
- It's Tessa Hobbes.

Who?

I have no idea.

[TWEEZERS CLATTER]

Done.

- Tessa.
- What happened?

I'm so sorry.

She came in with severe abdominal pain.

She's a bit hypotensive. Take her to CT.

I-I picked up my groceries.

Tessa, we said no heavy
lifting, three months.

It was just a grocery bag,

and I was feeling so great.

And then there was this sharp pain,

like something tore.

And then she drove herself here.

Wh... You drove yourself?

Well, in retrospect, I can see

that might have been a bad idea.

Tessa, which area hurts exactly?

All of it. The entire abdomen hurts.

Here... touch right there.

- Ow!
- She's tachycardic.

We should take her straight to the O.R.

No, her blood pressure's holding.

Get her to CT first
and then call the O.R.

to be on standby.

Skip the line. I'll call ahead.

I really think we should just take her

- straight to the O.R.
- Go! I'll call Marsh.

Someone page Chief Grey!

♪ Hey, love ♪

- Are you Dr. Hellum?
- Who's asking?

Mika Yasuda, first year
surgical resident.

It's Helm, and I'm no longer a doctor.

Cool, 'cause I'm barely a doctor

and I'm desperate for a win.

Could you possibly teach me

how to do a perfect
microvascular anastomosis?

There's a contest and if I win
I get to scrub in

on a partial heart transplant
on a newborn.

A partial heart transplant
doesn't exist.

I know, but it is about to,
and I-I need this.

I need a win because I, uh...

I don't have anywhere to sleep tonight,

and Seattle is outrageously expensive,

and being a surgical
resident is exhausting...

- [CHUCKLES]
- ... to the point of nearly impossible,

and I just really need to give
myself a reason to keep caring.

And if Blue wins,
I cannot take the gloating.

- Blue?
- Like the ribbon.

And this is a nickname he perpetuates.

Wow. That is arrogant.

Right?

bucks.

My house was towed this morning,
so I don't have bucks.

But if I win this contest,

I will barback for you
on Friday night for free.

You've been a barback?

No, but I've been a cater waiter

and I'm excellent at chopping limes.

♪ ♪

Give me it.

♪ ♪

♪ I love you far ♪

♪ You know I'm never right ♪

I was treating myself
to champagne and fruit salad

because that's what I was craving,

and I had plenty to celebrate.

Now, okay, wait, wait.

[SHAKILY] And then the groceries came.

They left them on the front stoop.

It didn't even o-occur to me

not to bend over and pick them up.

It's routine.

It's muscle memory.

Dr. Griffith, the ring
around your necklace...

are you engaged?

I-I was. I was engaged.

Now I'm not.

Heartbreak is the worst.

It is.

If I die today, I might
even miss heartbreak.

Please try not to die today.

Yeah, I'll do my best.

Oh, wait. I need my purse.

- Right now?
- Yes, where is it?

Uh, it's downstairs with your clothes.

I can get it after we're done here.

Okay.

MEREDITH: Hey, what happened?

Schmitt said her abdomen
is distended and she's tachy.

She's getting more hypotensive.

Okay, well, you two
need to go book an O.R.

I don't care if you have to
kick someone out to do it.

Tessa takes priority.

[SIGHS] I don't get it.

She did this for groceries?

Well, I don't think she
did it on purpose, Nick.

I think she probably lives alone
and is set in her ways,

and I'm sure it's a lot for her
to change and ask for help.

Hello?

We're here, Tessa.
Please stay very still.

I'm afraid. This is all wrong.

I-I don't want to die.

[BREATHES SHAKILY]

I still have something to say.

Tessa, you're not going anywhere today.

We've got you.

She's bleeding out.

We're gonna need some help in here.

We're gonna need blood in the O.R.

Tessa, we're gonna take you upstairs.

AMELIA: So on a scale of one to better?

We're better. I think.
I think we're better.

But you're not sure?

I am sure that we are both excited

about this partial heart
transplant on an infant,

which is a stroke-of-genius idea

that we came up with together.

And that is because in the
O.R., we're good together.

In our chosen field of study,
we are so good.

Are you rehearsing a speech you plan on

- giving him later?
- Maybe a little.

So the two of you haven't
really spoken since the fire.

Oh, we said some things.

We needed a cooling-off period.

It's best that we haven't
talked about it.

A-And, you know, we'll talk again soon.

As soon as we change medical history.

I have bad news.

Oh, no. The baby?

No, he's stable.

But his mom's too scared.

She wants to call it off.

I can't talk her into it.
That would be unethical.

But you think she's got this one wrong?

Without this surgery,
the baby has days to live.

She had a -hour labor and
she did it without any meds.

- Meaning?
- She's a warrior.

She's strong in her convictions,

and she seems sure of what she wants.

Let me talk to her.

You can't.

I'm not her doctor.

Let me talk to her.

WILL: You're a neurosurgeon,
so do you think Arlo needs...

- No, no, no.
- No.

No, I'm not here as one
of Arlo's doctors.

I'm sorry, but if you're here
to try to talk me into...

I'm here because I had a baby

who only lived for minutes.

He had a condition called anencephaly,

which is when the baby's brain
does not develop typically,

and, uh, we discovered it
when I was months pregnant.

We didn't know.

We didn't know until he was born

that there was anything wrong.

I gave birth to Christopher

knowing that he would be an organ donor,

uh, because there was
nothing that we could do.

There was no surgery that we could try.

And, um, I think about
him a lot these days

because he has a brother
now, named Scout,

and as Scout grows up,

I cannot help but think about

who Christopher would have been.

And, um...

what I do know is [SIGHS]

if there had been a chance

that Christopher could have lived,

if there had been any hope,

if there had been any surgery

and it meant that he might live...

I would take the shot.

[ALARM BEEPING]

♪ ♪

I knew it.

I knew we should have taken
her straight to the O.R.

We needed the CT to see
if we could operate...

My gut doesn't lie.

And I should have fought for it.

We should have brought
her straight here.

Yeah, I'm number one.

Ew, someone likes himself.

No, my sample is literally number one.

But yes, I intend to win.

What is that face? Is that good?

It is if you want to go home early.

I knew I shouldn't have
practiced on bananas.

What about fruit says
"baby veins" to you?

This is all good work.

Number one's sutures
are particularly precise.

But with perfect alignment and tension,

the winner is number three.

That's me!

Guess we gotta call you Red today, huh?

[SNIFFLES] Hm.

[SIRENS WAILING]

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

Scalpel.

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

I thought you would win.

Your stitches are typically excellent.

I know.

Better than Yasuda's.

I tanked the contest

- because babies scare the crap out of me.
- [CHUCKLES]

Didn't want to be
anywhere near that table.

Why are you scared of babies?

Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

You gotta tell me. Come on.

Okay, but you owe me one.

Owe you what?

Whatever I decide.

Fine.

When I was , my dad
took me into the backyard

where my mom had just
given birth to my brother

in a kiddie pool.

[INHALES DEEPLY]

Now, you've done an OB rotation.

You're acquainted with all
the blood and placenta

and the literal horror movie
that is human child birth.

And I'm sure it's all very
beautiful in its own way,

but I was .

And before I could fully
process what I was seeing,

my dad handed me a pair of scissors

and told me to cut the umbilical cord.

Wait, you were ?

Yeah.

[STIFLED LAUGHTER]

What, you think this is funny?

This is trauma.

This is... This is crystal-loving,

weed-smoking, latter-day
hippie-style trauma.

- [LAUGHTER]
- ZOLA: Shh!

Sorry to shush you, but my aunt

is making history right now,

and I think we should
all be paying attention.

♪ ♪

♪ I've had my heart get swallowed ♪

[MONITOR ALARM]

♪ And dragged down to the deep ♪

♪ But I made it to tomorrow ♪

♪ So I believe ♪

♪ After all these years of trying ♪

♪ Weighing on these tired bones ♪

♪ If there's something
I'll take with me ♪

[FLATLINE]

Starting compressions.

[FLATLINE]

♪ Let it be hope ♪

Come on, Tessa.

♪ Yeah, let it be hope ♪

♪ Yeah, let it be ♪

♪ Let it be hope ♪

♪ Let it be ♪

Come on, Tessa. Fight.

NICK: Mer.

Meredith, let Griffith take over.

♪ After all these years of trying ♪

♪ Weighing on these tired bones ♪

♪ If there's something
I'll take with me ♪

♪ Mm-mmm ♪

♪ Let it be hope ♪

♪ Yeah, let it be hope ♪

♪ Yeah, let it be ♪

♪ Let it be hope ♪

♪ Yeah, let it be ♪

♪ Yeah, let it be hope ♪

MEREDITH: Griffith, it's time to stop.

♪ Let it be hope ♪

[EXHALES DEEPLY]

♪ Let it be hope ♪

[FLATLINE]

SIMONE: Oh, God.

[FLATLINE]

Oh, my God. No. [SNIFFLES]

♪ Let it be hope ♪

Time of death : .

Chief Grey, I'd like to close her up.

I'd like to pay her that respect.

- Can I help?
- Yeah.

[DOOR OPENS]

[EXHALES DEEPLY]

That was so incredibly stupid.

That did not have to end that way.

I hate this day.

I hate everything about this day.

Me, too.

I-I'm a... I-I'm a transplant surgeon.

I-I wait. I'm trained to wait.

I attach, I perfuse,
I wait for the organ to take.

For it not to be rejected.

For it to pink up. For blood to flow.

Because that's how humans respond.

They're not machines
with an on/off switch.

[SIGHS]

And I'm a grown woman with a big life

and a big career and three kids.

And this move is what my daughter needs.

I want you in my life
if you want to be in my life.

But if I have to choose,
I'm going to pick me.

I pick my kids, and I
pick what's best for us.

And I am not going
to beg you to love me.

[SIGHS]

[DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]

[EXHALES DEEPLY]

[SIREN WAILS IN DISTANCE]

I'm sorry I was emotional earlier.

Be sorry when you stop
feeling the losses.

This was my last surgery here.

I thought for sure I was
going out on a high.

I know that sounds shallow.

No, it's devastating, on every level.

How's your grandmother?

Awful. It's awful.

She exclusively calls me
by my mother's name now,

which I can handle.
I didn't know my mother.

But my sister, she remembers my mother,

she remembers that I k*lled her.

She was when it happened and...

she's never forgiven me for it.

And every time my grandmother calls me

by my mother's name, she hates me more,

and I don't know why I'm
telling you this, Chief Grey.

Well, because you know I know.

And I don't work here anymore,

so you can call me Meredith.

I have Tessa's book, Meredith.

- What?
- She wrote her last book.

She saved it on a thumb drive,

and she brought it here to the hospital,

which means after she felt her pain,

the first thing she did

is go to her computer and save her book.

♪ ♪

She wanted me to give it
to her publisher in Boston,

and, um, I know you're...
you're going there today.

♪ Your color's fading ♪

♪ 'Cause I kept you waiting ♪

♪ It's a wild, wild world ♪

I'm so happy she got
to write her last story.

♪ And you're a wild, wild girl ♪

Chief Grey? Meredith?

♪ Our sun's still shining ♪

- ♪ But it seems half the size ♪
- I'm sorry.

♪ And it's a wild, wild world ♪

My mentor once told me you worry

when you stop feeling the losses.

- ♪ Before my time runs out ♪
- [SIGHS] Let's go inside.

♪ What if I run away to Mars? ♪

♪ Would you find me in the stars? ♪

The heart is completely
pumping on its own.

♪ ♪

♪ Would you miss me in the end? ♪

It worked?

- So far, yeah.
- So far, it worked, yeah.

♪ If I run out of oxygen ♪

♪ When I run away ♪

Amelia, thank you.

♪ To Mars ♪

[EXHALES DEEPLY]

Echo looks great. VSD is closed.

Outflow from the new arteries
looks good.

It sure feels like we
saved that baby's life.

[CHUCKLES]

[SIGHS]

Are you taking in the miracle?

That is exactly what I'm doing.

That was beyond my wildest imagination

of what my day would be.

And not just this day, which was awful

because my house-van got towed
with my whole life in it.

That was beyond my wildest imagination

of what any day of my life could be.

The way that you saved
that tiny baby heart.

I will never forget it.

Did you say house-van?

Yeah, you sleep in a van?

Oh, well, I can't afford
to get it out of impound,

so not tonight.

Anyway, thank you.

♪ Mars ♪

♪ Would you find me in the stars? ♪

Aunt Amy, how did you do it?

How did I do what?

How did you stop caring
what other people think?

My mom, your sisters,
they talk about you like...

like... like you don't
give a flying crap

what anybody else thinks

and, like, they're
a little jealous of that.

And I want to know how you did it.

Because I wanted to fight
for a patient today.

My gut told me everything
she needed and I didn't do it

because I was worried about
what other people would think.

I-I was worried about
getting in trouble.

You want to know the truth?

The truth is I care deeply
what other people think.

And then I do what
I think is right anyway.

But I learned that the hard way.

I had to live a lot of life

before I became the kind of person

I like and respect.

My patient died today.

I should have fought.

The good news is...

you let that pain soak in...

... next time, you will fight.

♪ ♪

Did you ever find a place to live, Shep?

Uh, yeah, I found a youth hostel
with a roach problem.

And please don't call me Shep.

Then don't call me Aunt Amy.

[SIREN WAILS IN DISTANCE]

Is that it?

Straight from the oven
from the faraway bakery.

You are truly, madly, deeply the best.

Wow, it's so much bigger
than I thought it would be.

I know. It barely fit in my car.

Wait, what do you mean bigger?

Did you check it?

I gave them your name,
they gave me a cake.

[LAUGHS]

Well, there's no time to take it back.

What do we do?

♪ ♪

[CORK POPS]

♪ ♪

Oh, hey.

♪ ♪

Oh. [CLEARS THROAT]

- Top of my class.
- What?

I was top of my class at
an East Coast boarding school

where my classmates
were doing designer dr*gs

and cheating their way
to a passing grade.

I was top of my class.

And I didn't even drink in high school.

Well, this is sparkling cider.

Then I was second
in my class in undergrad,

but that's because I had
a brutal case of mono

my junior year, which
took me out for weeks,

but in med school, I was
back up to number one.

And I completed my
cardiothoracic fellowship

at the Mayo Clinic before coming here

and training Cristina Yang
as a heart surgeon.

I have an inarguable pedigree
and I find it insulting

that you invite me to sit
on a panel to choose a chief

without stopping to consider
offering me the job.

Teddy, this hospital just
came out of a shutdown.

Dr. Bailey and Dr. Grey
both quit the job

that you're talking about,

and their pedigree
is quite similar to yours.

I didn't consider you for the job

because it is a flailing program

with a huge amount of stress.

But by all means, if you want it,

it's yours.

- Really?
- Is that a yes?

Can I think about it?

What is going on here?

Oh, crap. She's here. Surprise!

ALL: Surprise!

Aw, Come on, people.
You can do better than this.

Okay, ready?

ALL: Surprise!

[CHUCKLES]

Well, this is very thoughtful.

And ridiculous because
I'm only going to Boston,

and you know I'll probably
be here next week.

For God's sake, Grey, will
you just let us toast you?

[LAUGHTER]

- To Meredith Grey!
- [CHEERING]

♪ Been swimming through shadows ♪

You know, once upon a time...

♪ Moonrise ♪

... you were the bane of my existence.

But, no, you grew up to become

one of my greatest points of pride.

I'm...

♪ We keep run, run, running
from the cold ♪

To... Wa...

♪ Keep my eyes wide open ♪

Okay, go. Go.

Dr. Grey, what Dr. Bailey
is trying to say is...

this place won't be
the same without you.

♪ On my, my way ♪

♪ On my, my way ♪

♪ Oh, you gotta keep on
feeding that fire ♪

♪ Oh, you gotta keep on
dancing through the night ♪

♪ Hey, let it fall ♪

To Meredith Grey.

Hey. Hear, hear.

[CHEERING]

♪ Hey ♪

- Mom.
- Yes?

- It was amazing.
- Was it?

Aunt Maggie was amazing.

Of course she's amazing.

I think I might want to change

from neuro to cardio.

Will you be mad?

I will absolutely not be mad.

[LAUGHTER]

- Did you talk to Nick?
- I did.

We have a plane to catch.

Should we go?

♪ Chasing the light ♪

[GIGGLES]

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

[EXHALES DEEPLY]

Dr. Marsh.

[CLEARS THROAT] Helm.

Hey.

What are you doing behind a bar?

Living my best life.

What are you doing at the bar?

Uh, yeah, well, it was
a bit of a rough day,

so I decided to call it early.

Actually, can I have
a whiskey rocks, please?

- Thank you.
- I don't get it.

Isn't Dr. Grey leaving today?

Isn't her party, like, right now?

- Yeah.
- Oh, my God.

You are such an idiot.

[CHUCKLES] Wow.

[SIGHS] I don't work there anymore,

so I'm just gonna tell you the truth

instead of pretending to respect

your awful decision making.

She's Meredith Grey.

She's impossible, and she's perfect,

and she's brilliant, and she cares.

And she can be mean sometimes,
but only when she needs to be,

and she can be selfish sometimes

because she has earned that right.

And for some stupid reason
she's into men

so she never fell in love with me,

but she fell in love with you.

And you're here?

How stupid are you?

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

[MAGGIE SIGHS]

He's still going strong.

I am in awe.

It really is a miracle.

- Yes.
- Yeah.

It is... It's a miracle
of science, Winston.

Specifically, it's a miracle
of cardiothoracic surgery.

We did a thing that no one
else has done today,

and... and we saved that baby's life.

And if it worked like I think it did,

this miracle of science is going to save

- thousands of babies' lives.
- [CHUCKLES]

That has to make you see
that you can't just change

your field of study at this
stage of your career.

You told me that you
didn't respect my choice...

you said you didn't respect me.

- I didn't say that.
- And then there was a fire.

You know, it was a lot.

I gave you time, and I gave you space,

but for two weeks now, I've been waiting

for an apology that hasn't come.

And now you're doubling down?

You're... There's no apology coming

because you meant what you said?

I think you'll reconsider...

Yeah, changing my job
to protect my marriage.

It's not a job.

It's not a job.

It is a gift.

Alright.

And just like that
the feeling is mutual.

What feeling?

You told Kwan that
his strategy to disengage

emotionally from his patients was smart.

What feeling?

All this time, I don't...
I don't know how I missed it.

Winston, what feeling?

The disrespect.

You're cold.

And I don't respect it.

♪ ♪

Bailey, w-w-where's Meredith?

She's one of a kind.

That's what I was trying to say.
She's one of a kind.

A firecracker.

- Yeah.
- Any words at all, really.

Look, she's, uh,
on her way to the airport.

But look, there's cake if you need some.

You look like you need some.

♪ ♪

Well, fine. More for me.

WOMAN OVER PA: This is the final
boarding call for Flight .

Any remaining passengers,

please proceed to the gate at this time.

♪ ♪

♪ Hold steady ♪

♪ This heaviness ♪

♪ Will break ♪

Come on, come on, come on.

♪ Through the ground ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Take cover ♪

♪ What's underneath ♪

Oh, come on.

[SIGHS] Oh, my God.

♪ Will find a way out ♪

Alright.

Zola, you can sit here.

Guys, we're gonna sit here.

Go right in there.

♪ Living in the lost ♪

[SIGHS]

[SIGHS] I'm never gonna make it.

♪ Falling through the motions
like a sinking stone ♪

Okay.

♪ Living in the lost ♪

♪ Living in the lost ♪

♪ Seeking out the silence,
but you're never alone ♪

♪ Living in the lost ♪

♪ Living in the lost ♪

Who wants to read the new
[SINGSONG VOICE] Tessa book?

Oh, Zola, I know these are
a little young for you,

but this is the last one ever.

ELLIS: That's the book?

- [CELLPHONE BUZZES]
- Yes, I got an advanced copy.

Hold on, guys.

Hi. We're on the plane.

I love you.

I fell in love with you
the first day I met you.

I fell in love with you
the second day I met you.

And I have loved you
every minute of every day

that I have known you.

Meredith?

Um, I...

Meredith?

- I can't quite hear you.
- Meredith?

We're about to take off,

so I'll call you when we get settled.

Meredith...

- Meredi...
- [BEEP]

♪ ♪

"I've flown rockets and slayed dragons,

I've saved lives and
I've had my life saved.

I've been through broken
bones and a broken home

and the death of people I love,
but I'm still here".

[ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]

"I never chose the safety
of what was known

when there was the possibility
of more to be discovered".

Hey.

Hey.

Could I stay at your place tonight?

♪ ♪

"I've had adventures that
most people only dream about".

♪ Nocturnal ♪

"And I've had losses
that I still dream about".

♪ When the days and the nights
blend into one ♪

"And if there's one thing I've learned

in all my adventures, it's
that there's no such thing

as a life lived happily ever after.

Unless the happily means
simply that we're still alive.

That the sun is rising on another day.

Because with every sunrise

comes the possibility of happiness

and also the possibility of heartache".

- [CHUCKLES]
- Uh, what are you doing here?

Grey gave me a key.

She said there's a hole in the attic,

but if I don't mind overseeing
the repairs, I can stay here.

"And sometimes it's all
rolled up together".

Yeah, my Aunt Amelia
told me the same thing.

[CHUCKLES]

"I came to understand
as a very young child

that when the imagination is limitless,

life's possibilities are endless".

When I got kicked out of my residency,

it also ended my relationship.

Had my dream job, was
planning my dream life,

and then I didn't, and I wasn't.

"But I learned that the hard way".

It's not that I don't feel things.

It's that I don't want to put

you through any kind of rebound.

♪ Keep reaching and seeing if
I can just break my way out ♪

[CHUCKLES]

I-I mean,

I could be down for a rebound.

[CHUCKLES] Did you really just say that?

[BOTH CHUCKLE]

Um, okay, w-what I'm saying is,

you know, as long as
we call it what it is,

then no harm, no foul, right?

Apparently we live together

so that's a really, uh...

[CHUCKLES]

... terrible idea.

Yeah.

♪ Oh ♪

[EXHALES DEEPLY]

[CHUCKLES]

♪ Nocturnal ♪

"I learned it through yearning
and frustration

and ache and longing

and sometimes desperation
for a life different

from the one I was living".

♪ Turned purple ♪

♪ All the air that I had gone
from my lungs ♪

♪ Eyes are closing,
head spinning round ♪

"I learned to stretch my imagination

and spread my wings,

and to allow for all
the options life had to offer".

♪ ♪

♪ Oh ♪

"Not only the ones
I could see with my eyes.

I stretch for the ones
I could feel with my heart".

♪ Lost or found, who am I now? ♪

Wow.

This is amazing.

♪ Before I hit the ground ♪

- [DOOR CLOSES]
- ♪ Lost or found ♪

♪ Who am I now? ♪

What are you doing here?

What are you doing here?

Uh, Dr. Pierce gave me a key.

She said I could stay

if I fix up the hole in the attic.

- Same.
- Same.

"As long as the sun rises
on your life..."

Then I guess we should have
brought sleeping bags.

"... there will be new dragons to slay".

So, who wants pizza?

[CHUCKLES]

"So the end of my story is not
any kind of ever after.

Because I'm still alive.

I'm still here.

And the sun still rises on my life".

♪ Break my way out ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Oh ♪

[SIGHS]

♪ ♪