06x01 - Higher Love

[bunniefuu]

["Higher Love" by Kygo
and Whitney Houston playing]

♪ Bring higher love ♪

♪ Think about it ♪

♪ There must be a higher love ♪

♪ Down in the heart
Or hidden in the stars above ♪

♪ Without it, life is a wasted time ♪

♪ Look inside your heart
And I'll look inside mine... ♪

-Hello.
-Oh, my gosh. [chuckles]

Hi. [chuckles]

The dating scene is extremely shallow.

I've been ready to get married
for a long time.

-Hello?
-[man] Hey there.

I feel optimistic that my person is here.

-I wanna feel 100% chosen.
-Hey.

[woman] I want a man
that will embrace the experiment.

-And embrace who I am on the inside.
-[laughs]

[woman 2] I can see myself
falling in love.

♪ Oh-whoa! Bring me a higher love ♪

♪ Bring me a higher love ♪

♪ Oh! ♪

♪ Bring me a higher love ♪

♪ Where's that higher love
I keep thinking of? ♪

[man 2] I fell in love with somebody
that I've never seen before.

-[woman 3 shouts]
-[man 2] I truly believe love is blind.

[woman 4] We've done the emotional.
We have to connect on a physical level.

[woman] Is our love and our relationship
gonna be enough?

That is my biggest fear.

I want you to show me that you love me.
And you don't.

I had a moment today where I was like,
"Bro, am I really doing this?"

[woman 3] She DM'd him.

"If there's ever a chance
your mind is shifting in your choice..."

[man 3] The hardest thing
has been figuring out what to follow,

my heart or my head.

[woman 5] You signed up
knowing g*dd*mn well

that you would be dating


-[gasps]
-[woman 5] I did what I needed to do

for the reason that I came here,
which was to meet the love of my life.

And I'll be damned if somebody sits here,
and they can't come back to reality.

You f*cked her. I know you f*cked her.

[woman 6] I choose you.

You are what I want
for the rest of my life.

[man 4] My greatest accomplishment?

Finding you.

[man 5] All rise.

♪ Bring me a higher love ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Bring me a higher love ♪

♪ Oh, it's that higher love
I keep thinking of ♪

♪ Bring higher love, come on ♪

♪ Bring me a higher love ♪

♪ Bring higher love, love ♪

♪ A higher love ♪

♪ I keep thinking of ♪

♪ Bring me a higher love, oh ♪

♪ Bring me a higher love, oh! ♪

[dance music playing]

[scatting]

-This is a vibe.
-This is really cute.

Hello.

-[cheering]
-[Nick] Ladies.

Hi.

-Hello.
-What's up?

-Oh.
-Hey.

-Ooh.
-Wow.

Guys, grab a seat. Grab a seat.

-[Vanessa] It's about to go down.
-[all laughing]

Hello, I'm Vanessa Lachey.

And I'm Nick Lachey.

Welcome to Love Is Blind.

[cheering]

[man 6] Let's go.

I'm just curious. What made you
wanna come and be a part of Love Is Blind?

I've been looking for the same thing.

What I'm physically attracted to,

you know, just hasn't been fulfilling,
like, what I really need to fulfill.

[woman] I danced for sports teams,

and a lot of times a lot of guys will
really just judge me based off that alone.

Like, "Oh, she's a dancer.
She's a cheerleader."

I want something deeper.
Let the outside just be the cherry on top.

I'm a big guy, into fitness.

I feel like a lot of women judge me

before they get
to know my inner personality.

When they hear
that I'm 25 years old, it's like,

"Are you ready for this?" Yeah, I am.

I'm super nervous about

how some of the guys are gonna receive
the fact that I have a child.

-Her name's Autumn.
-[Vanessa] Autumn. And what's your name?

-Jessica. Sorry.
-[Vanessa] Jessica.

-[exhales, laughs]
-[woman 7] Oh. I told you.

[Jessica] I'm sorry.
I just love her so much. Like, I...

Do you think that's something
you're gonna wait to tell someone

or you're gonna come out of the gate,
"By the way, I have a kid"?

I want to give people the chance to,
like, get to know me individually first.

Because even though I'm a mother,

and it's the most important thing to me,
it doesn't define me.

I feel I'll just know
when the time is right to tell somebody.

She can't wait. Like, she's already
been googling, like, her dress.

I'm like, "Let me just go
and meet somebody first. Like, calm down."

[laughing]

Well, as you guys already know,
over the next ten days,

you all will have the opportunity
to fall in love

based solely on who you are on the inside.

[Vanessa] If you fall in love

and find somebody that you
wanna spend the rest of your life with,

you'll get engaged,
and then you meet your fiancé.

-For the very first time.
-[Nick laughs]

-When you slow-motion run across to him.
-Yep.

-[laughing]
-Not in these heels, girl.

[laughing]

And, guys, in just four weeks,
you'll be at your wedding.

[exhales]

And there you will have to make
the most important decision of your life.

Will you get married?

Or will you choose to walk away forever?

Is love truly blind?

It better be.

[laughing]

[both] The pods are now open.

[Nick] Good luck, guys.

-[Vanessa] Have fun.
-Go get 'em.

Oh, my God!

Let's go!

-Love you guys. Good luck.
-[woman 8] Here we go.

-[woman 9] Yes.
-[man 7] Let's go.

-Pods are open, baby.
-Whoo.

-[woman 10] Good luck.
-[Vanessa] Good luck.

-[man 8] Show 'em why you're here.
-[man 7] Pods are open.

What made you decide to come here?

[sighs] Well,
clearly my stellar dating skills.

[laughing]

If you had a warning label,
what would it say?

Uh, does not do laundry.

[laughs]

People never talk about marriage,
kids on the first date.

Yes, which I love.
I'm like, let's get to the nitty-gritty,

because I don't got time to waste.

Do you want any children?

I do. I kinda want
a little bit of a crazy house.

You might just like it here, then.

Like, are we talking like a bushel? Dozen?

A dozen? How many things
are going come out of my vag*na?

[laughing]

[Danielle] What are you looking for?

Best friend on paper,

but also huge sexual,
emotional attraction.

-[Danielle] Are you, like, a nympho?
-No, that's not what I mean. No, no, no.

♪ I want more... ♪

[chuckles] People judge me on my muscles,

my mullet.

They think I'm a low-IQ meathead.

Hello.

I'm doing Love Is Blind to see if people
can see my sense of humor and kind heart

before they see what I look like.

I'm a good-hearted person.
Good people deserve good things, right?

-Hi. What's your name?
-[woman 11] My name is Chelsea.

My dog's name is Chelsea.

No way.

And what is your name?

-My name is Trevor. Yeah.
-Trevor. My dog's name is Trevor too.

[laughing]

Trevor, I wanna know more about you.

Tell me five things that make you smile.

Dogs. Dogs make me smile.

Great answer.

A very sunny day.

Ooh!

Butterflies.

Stop!

[laughing] This is a weird answer,

but we're gonna go with a good love movie.

[Chelsea] Okay. Like what?

-The Notebook, duh.
-[Chelsea] Naturally.

Yeah. A Walk to Remember.

[Chelsea] Oh!

-Yeah.
-Wow!

What's one more?

A fresh cut lawn. [laughs]

I am done. [laughing]

[laughs] Jesus Christ.

I hate those answers, but I love 'em too.

What are your five?

[Chelsea] I love a sunset.

A good, cold Coors Light.

And add those together? Forget about it.

Wasn't that Gandhi that said that?

[laughing]

I don't know why I'm laughing
so much with you, but I, like...

I can picture you
behind there, like, with a huge grin.

[laughing]

I'm so ready to be married.
I'm so ready to find my person.

I've even tried
going to, like, Home Depot.

There might be a man there. [laughs]

Gosh dang it. [laughs]

-What precious men.
-[laughs]

I'm so used to going on a date with a guy,
and there being a TV behind me.

He's just watching the football game.
Like, come on, baby, come on.

Hello.

Being here, it's just nice
to not have the distraction

and just truly get to have
a conversation with someone.

My name is Chelsea.

-Chelsea. I'm Jimmy.
-How's it going?

-[Jimmy] I'm having so much fun now.
-Where are you from?

A small town in North Carolina
called Randleman.

-[Chelsea] Okay.
-You're not gonna know that.

I'm from LA. So, yeah,
I have no idea where that is. [chuckles]

Not a lot of people leave my hometown,
but I wanna explore.

I've made it a goal of mine to travel.

I've decided I wanna go
to every NFL, NBA and MLB stadium.

-Love it.
-[chuckles]

What did you say you do? Or...

[Jimmy] I'm in software sales.

I won't get too deep in the weeds.

-But I work remote.
-[laughs]

I'm looking for someone who works remote
so they can travel with me.

[Jimmy] Tell me about you.

I'm a flight attendant,
and I am an event planner.

I love that. That's awesome.

Yeah. I just hosted my first wedding.

So we're gonna take all your wedding
recommendations when we get married.

Yes, sir.

[both laugh]

Mine are just suggestions
and a couple songs.

I'm here for it. I'm so here for it.

I got the rest.

[both laugh]

Dating 15 people in one day
is something I never thought I would do,

but when you walk into the pods
and the energy,

and the excitement, it... it was...

I... I had chills. It was... it was awesome.

-This is the funnest thing ever.
-[man 9] I can barely keep up.

Let's go.

Hello.

I'm feeling excited that I've got
a wife on the other side. It's amazing.

-Who do I got?
-[Jessica] Your wife? I'm just kidding.

-Oh, my. Oh, my God.
-[Jessica] Maybe. My name's Jessica.

Jessica. I'm Jimmy.
What do you like to do?

I would consider myself a homebody.

Gotcha. I love trying new foods,
trying new restaurants.

Um, I like going to,
like, wine and cocktail bars...

[Jessica] Oh, that's my thing.

Like a nice, sexy vibe.

Dinner, have drinks, and then
be back in bed by 9:30. [chuckles]

-[Jessica] I live for that.
-How old are you? Am I able to ask?

-I'm 28. How old are you?
-[Jimmy] 28. I'm 27.

[Jessica] When is your birthday?

[Jimmy] I am a November baby. Scorpio.

-What are you?
-[Jessica] I'm a Capricorn.

Okay, we're compatible.

We are compatible.

I don't know that. I'd like to say we are.
I like your voice a lot.

Oh, I love hearing that 'cause I've never
been complimented on my voice ever.

People say I sound like
Fran Drescher when I laugh.

-So I'm, like...
-[laughs]

...really trying
to be ladylike about it today.

No, you're fine. Even if I say something
not funny, and you're laughing, I'm like,

"This girl loves me, and I love that, so..."

You'll know I love you
when I start giving you pity laughs.

-[Jimmy laughs]
-Honestly.

I feel good about you, by the way.

Honestly, I'm not trying
to get ahead of myself,

but, like, I feel really good about you.

Good. That's good to hear.
That's aggressive for me to say.

It's really hard
to say, like, "Oh, my wife is here."

-No, she is. Manifest it.
-[laughs]

[Jimmy] It sounds crazy to get married
that fast, but I'm very optimistic.

[Jessica] And this might be crazy
that I don't think it sounds crazy.

The thought of marriage in four weeks
really is not intimidating to me.

'Cause I truly and wholeheartedly believe

if something is meant to be,
it's meant to be.

-[Jimmy] Yeah.
-Look at us.

-Jimmy and Jessica. Sounds perfect.
-J squared.

I like your style,
and I like how forward you are.

-[Jessica laughs] Am I forward?
-No, no, like...

[Jessica] I think I just feel comfortable,
is what it is.

[both laugh]

Jimmy with the juice.
You've got the juice.

You know what I'm saying?

Like, some people just have that swag,
that, like, flavor about them.

I'm like bright red over here.

-[laughs] Are you?
-[Jimmy laughs]

-Bye, Jessica.
-[Jessica laughs] Bye.

I have a ten-year-old daughter.

I want her so badly to see me happy.

And for me right now, what that looks like

is marriage

and pursuing, like, finding a man,
finding a good husband.

Hello.

-What's your name?
-Matthew.

Matthew, hey. I'm Jessica.

I have questions written down,
and they're numbered one through 15.

-Okay.
-[Matthew] So you can pick a number.

Give me ten.

What is something
you think you excel at in relationships?

My loyalty and devotion to my partner.

What about you?

I was just gonna ask the questions.

I wasn't anticipating
getting the same one back. [chuckles]

Oh, my God.

Yep. Just a dude talking to the wall.

This experiment,
I didn't really know what to expect,

but I knew
it was gonna be incredibly hard.

You know, having conversations

about our emotions is probably
not somewhere where I would excel.

-Hello. What's your name?
-Matthew.

[Sarah Ann] Matthew, nice to meet you.

My name is Sarah Ann.

How's everything going today?

Uh, I don't know. You know,
we'll keep that close to the vest.

-Do you have anything to ask me?
-[Matthew] I have a list of 15.

-Pick a number. I'll ask a question.
-[Sarah Ann] Twelve.

What is one
of your current short-term goals?

Wanna meet the love of my life.

This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity

to actually meet someone
without them judging me

and me judging them,
and so naturally, like, I'm trying to be

kind and wholehearted
as I possibly can with someone, you know?

I think just from, like,
knowing that you're gonna be judged,

I definitely will say that
I can relate to those reservations 100%.

[Matthew] Oh, God.

[Sarah Ann] Um, you're gonna be judged
is always a little bit, you know, scary.

However, I think
also being in, like, everyday life,

people judge too, you know?

Are you there?

He's gone. Thank f*cking God.

Matt can kiss my ass.

[Matthew] Talking about love and stuff.

And sometimes I feel uncomfortable
even saying that word.

You pick the number
and then you get a question.

Number four, please.

This one's been requested a couple times.
Try to be something different?

♪ None of your business... ♪

Maybe first interactions
isn't my strong suit,

but, you know,
I would like to get better at it.

-[Amber] What do you do?
-I'm a wealth management advisor.

Hence, I got the spreadsheet.

Gimme another one of your questions.

Idea of a perfect weekend
with your partner.

Grab a coffee, go on a hike,

see a festival or something
I think would be fun.

Putting myself out there
is completely out of character for me.

-You have nice energy.
-[Amber] Thank you.

But if I can find my wife
from this experience,

then I guess
that's something I'm willing to do.

♪ You know what's up by the way I strut
You better give me what I want... ♪

Superman had a cold personality
to start off too.

♪ Gimme what I want ♪

[chuckles]

I'm Matthew.

Hey, Matthew, my name is AD.

What are you looking for?

-Man, right off the bat, eh?
-Yeah.

[Matthew chuckles]

I'm certainly not doing this
to become a C-list celebrity.

Well, that's good news.

-[Matthew] I'm king of first impressions.
-[chuckles]

You've made a lasting impression.

This is, like,
so awkward for my personality.

Like, I'm a small-town country boy,
population of 600 people.

Mm-hmm.

So typically you're riding dirt bikes
or four wheelers.

Showing emotion is weakness.

[chuckles] And being in a dating pod

is probably
the scariest environment possible.

But I'm here.

You are here.

So I think give me a little more time.

And I think maybe I can win you over
or maybe somebody else.

Is that something you wanna do?
Win me over?

I'm gonna try.

Oh. [chuckles]

-Okay. Well, I'm open to it.
-[chuckles]

-All right. Well, I appreciate that.
-Yeah.

[Matthew] Good start.
Better than the other ones.

[both laughing]

I just started seeing a therapist
four or five months ago.

Just 'cause I don't know. Everybody does.
I'm like, "All right, whatever."

[chuckles] Yeah.

-And I usually give her one-word answers.
-

Mm-hmm.

-And I told her what I was gonna do.
-

Mm-hmm.

[Matthew] Go on this experiment.

-Should have seen her face.
-[laughing]

[Matthew] She's like, "You?"

It's so funny that, you're, like,
a country boy from a town of 600 people,

because I am a city girl
from Boston, Massachusetts.

I've never been on a farm or in dirt.

So it's like we're almost like opposites,

but I feel like you are a great guy.

Well, I appreciate that.

'Cause I did.
I had a great time in here.

The beginning was a little strange,
but when you started talking,

I was like, "Okay, let's go for it."

[both laughing]

I feel like I talked a lot.

You did. Congratulations.

It feels uncomfortable.

Welcome to the party. [laughing]

We're all uncomfortable.

-You finally arrived.
-I think you're extremely sweet.

[laughs]

Something about you, Matthew.

I feel like you're gonna shock me.

-[pop music playing]
-♪ You make me wanna love crazy... ♪

[Matthew] Well,
I'll likely ask you for another date.

[laughs]

-[Matthew] I'll cross my fingers.
-

Okay.

-[laughs]
-[Matthew] All right.

-See ya.
-

Bye.

What the f*ck...

♪ Your heart is on a tightrope... ♪

[laughs] ...is going on?

I'm 32, so a lot of people
have a lot to say

about how I should date,
who I should date, even my mom.

[sighs] Goodness.

They're like, "Maybe you should
stop dating these players

and these athletes and these ballers."

I don't really give the nice guy a try.

If I see a red flag, I'm like, "Oh, well,
I'll just paint my nails red to match."

But I really want something real.

Hello.

[man 10] Hello. Hello. What's your name?

My name is Amber, but I go by AD.

-AD? All Day. All Day.
-

-What's your name?
-My name is Clay.

-[laughs] All Day.
-All Day and Clay. I love that.

Was it dating apps you were doing before?

Dating apps.
It was just not working for me.

[Clay] I'm more of a FaceTime,
let's talk on the phone.

You wanna pillow talk.

[Clay] We're gonna pillow talk,
'cause end of the day, like,

I put my radio tone on,
and let's kind of vibe out.

Let me hear that. Hold on.

[clears throat] Welcome, ladies.

This is Smooth 107.1...

...coming to you on a smooth line
of Love Is Blind.

Here we go. Let's go, AD.

-What?
-[Clay] Let's go, AD.

[both laughing]

-Hey, Clay.
-[Clay] Yes.

-How old are you?
-[Clay] I'm 30.

-What about yourself?
-I'm 32.

When I first turned 30, I was trying
to hold on to 29 for as long as possible.

Oh, gosh, why?

[Clay] I just don't wanna age, you know.

It's only up from here, Clay.

[Clay] I was thinking about getting a cat.

-What do you think?
-Absolutely not.

I'm terrified of cats.

-You're terrified of cats?
-

Terrified.

[Clay] I like the fact that cats,
you don't need to show love all the time.

-

That's a problem for me.
-You need love all the time?

-[laughs]
-

I will bring it to your attention.

If I'm like, "Hey,
you haven't given me a kiss all day."

-[Clay] Oh, you gotta have your kiss?
-I got to.

[Clay] Got to. I love it.
I wish I could kiss you right now.

-

Oh.
-[Clay chuckles]

Yeah.

Well, that just...
sorry, that took me for a little loop.

I like to get a little sensual.
I'm a touchy guy.

Okay, touchy guy.
I like to receive touches.

[Clay] Of course.
You gotta have a little flame.

So are you, like, ready
for, like, a long-term commitment?

I believe I am.

I think I'm ready for that next stage
of, like, settling down.

-I love that.
-It's up for the taking.

Yes.

I don't know why I'm smiling
just, like, sitting here talking to you.

You know, AD,
I was actually doubting myself.

-Like, "Who's gonna love my personality?"
-Stop.

[Clay] "If they don't see me, how am I
gonna really capture your attention?"

So I mean, it's really...

Your words of affirmation
has been very helpful for me,

'cause I was actually kind of doubting
myself through this process, you know.

That's so relatable.

But I'm glad
I was able to do that for you.

Look at us.

♪ Let me introduce... ♪

[both laugh]

♪ Myself ♪

Clay. [chuckles]

[Clay] Jimmy, man.

[laughing]

-[Jimmy] Day one. That was fun.
-[Clay] That was fun.

It's good talking to girls. [laughing]

-Yeah, absolutely.
-[laughing]

Keep it going.

-[shouting]
-[laughing]

It was so much fun. So much fun.

-[man 11] Whoo!
-[man 12] Let's go.

How was it, fellas?

Whoo!

Chelsea was dope as hell.

-Chelsea might be my number one.
-[Deion] Amy...

You know what's crazy?

Like, Chelsea is also the name of my dog.

[Chelsea] I was most excited about Trevor.

He was nice.

-And we, like, just laughed and laughed.
-Yeah, yeah.

-Which I want, you know?
-Yeah.

-He had really good energy.
-Yeah, he did.

-[Chelsea] And then, um...
-[Jimmy, I feel like...

[Chelsea] He was cool.

You were having a great day.
Loving that smile on your face.

Yeah, dude, I'm happy.

[Jessica] Jimmy is giving...

What I felt when I talked to him
was literally, like, electric.

Oh, did your vag*na pulse?

-Maybe.
-[Ashley laughs]

-You know who I was so surprised by?
-[woman 3] Hmm?

Clay.

I was like, "Yeah, my name's AD."
He's like, "Oh, AD? All Day?"

"Is that it what stands for? All Day?"

And I'm like, "Okay.
Energy. It stands for something."

[Trevor] Dude, we gotta get
into Matthew's brain.

We gotta make that m*therf*cker talk.

-[Johnny] What's with that?
-[Trevor] Doesn't he talk?

He's just... He's his own world, man.

-Matthew. I feel like, I, like...
-[chattering]

-[Danielle] Hold on. Hold on.
-[Ashley] Wait, wait, wait, wait.

-Shh!
-[Danielle] You like Matt?

He was like a hard rock.

And then, like, I started talking to him,
and he, like, opened up,

and then he's like,
"I would love to talk to you again."

-Oh!
-

I swear to you.

-[Ashley] Who, Matt?
-Yeah.

-I'm excited to see where this goes.
-We're gonna find out.

Cheers to an amazing first day.

Cheers to hopefully
finding our husband here.

-Cheers!
-[cheering]

[woman 12] Whoo!

[Johnny] Fellas, fellas, cheers.

To finding love and making memories.

Let's go!

[men cheering]

[Clay] Cheers!

[dance music playing]

♪ Yes, I came through
And yes, I pulled up... ♪

Okay. Bacon's ready.

What do you think the boys
are cooking themselves for breakfast?

-[woman 3] The boys are down bad.
-Probably not cooking.

If they are,
there's one person cooking for everyone.

[Amy] You know who I bet it is.
It's Vince.

'Cause the eggs are just wrapped up.

I don't think
this is all gonna fit in that bowl.

It all looks so nice
I don't even know what to do.

Those delts were tighter
than you expected, aren't they?

That's 'cause you
walk around like this all day.

-I don't do it on purpose.
-Hey, guys.

-[Matthew laughs]
-I'm Matt.

-I'm done with potential.
-I'm done with potential. I need it now.

Like, we're at the age,
where potential should be there.

A man should be fully potensh'd.

I just get so excited about love.

-They're such good women. Like, damn!
-[Jimmy] Yeah, yeah.

[Sunni] Bye, cuties.
Have fun. Be yourself.

[Johnny] We are finding
the loves of our lives.

-[Deion] Let's get it!
-[Johnny] Whoo!

-Who am I talking to?
-[chuckles] This is Amy.

[Johnny] I'm Johnny.

I knew it.
I knew it. I knew it. Oh, my God.

I was gonna guess,
but I didn't want to be wrong.

[Johnny] I feel
I know so much about you, Amy.

-[Amy] Yeah, no, same here.
-Which is the wildest thing.

If you can go, I guess, anywhere
and do anything, what would it be?

When it comes to traveling,
my number one spot is Japan.

Kyoto is supposed to be amazing.

It just gives the energy of what
it would have been like long, long ago.

I wouldn't say I'm, like, huge into anime,
but I do like anime.

Really?

When you watch these movies,
or, like, Studio Ghibli films,

that's what I picture.
It's like I picture Kyoto.

I did binge almost all of Naruto.

I tried to prepare for Japan
by watching all of Naruto with my brother.

Oh, man, it's good.

Japan has been on my bucket list
for a long time now.

It's actually very weird.
I have not left the country yet.

I'm kind of similar though, because I...

The only places I've really gone to
have been with my parents.

So I've been to Spain because
my mom's family is actually from Spain.

-Okay.
-[Amy] She was born in Puerto Rico.

-Mm.
-But her family is from Barcelona.

-She's basically catalana.
-Amy, I love your accent.

-Oh, thank you.
-[Johnny] Made my heart melt.

-Stop!
-[both laugh]

[Johnny] Sorry. Sorry.
I'm, you know... it's okay. It's okay.

[both laugh]

I grew up in New Jersey.
I am a very big family person.

It is my parents. They're still together.

My older sister, myself,
my younger sister and little brother.

We lived in a very small, like, household.

I think I was still in bunk beds till
maybe, like, freshman year of high school.

So it was definitely... We were close.

All four of us shared the same bathroom.

We had two doing makeup on the sink.

We had one in the shower
and one on the toilet.

And we all listened to my older sister's
computer 'cause she played music for us.

And that was one of my favorite memories
of, like, the house I grew up in.

I don't remember much of my childhood,
but I am originally from Puerto Rico.

I moved here when I was five.

It was, like, hard to, you know, adjust,
and I didn't know the language.

I didn't have a lot of friends,
and I was an only child.

And I know that I was depressed.

Johnny, when I tell you
that my parents or my dad

would literally beg people
at church to come to my birthday party...

-[gasps] That's heartbreaking.
-[Amy] It was...

He tells me that to this day,
and, like, he can't hold back his tears.

-That's rough.
-[Amy] Yeah, no, it was rough.

Then my mom had my brother
when I was seven.

I call him my "wish upon a star"
because one day I was out,

and I looked up at the sky,

and I was like, "God, please."

Like, "I wish that you could
please give me a little brother."

"Um, I don't want a sister because
I know that she'll steal my clothes."

[both laugh]

[Amy] Literally, that same night,
we get to the apartment we were living.

My mom comes running out of the bathroom
screaming she's pregnant.

Turns out it's a boy.

[laughs]

[Amy] And my brother's my person.

Listen, again, life's a journey.

And at the end of the day,

at end of the storm, there was a rainbow.

I have done a lot of self-growth
and healing,

and I just feel like I'm ready
for that next step, for sure.

[Johnny] That's kind of my mindset
with this too.

Like, I'm definitely
not a finished product yet.

-[Amy] Mm-hmm.
-I like the person I'm becoming.

You're at a really good spot, Johnny.

Thank you. I appreciate that, Amy.
I appreciate that a lot.

This is the perfect experiment for me
because I always wanted somebody

to know my heart and my soul
before anything else.

I don't need somebody.

-But everybody wants love.
-I like that a lot.

["Ev'ry Heartbeat"
by Sarah Bonsignore playing]

♪ Forever changed ♪

I have felt judged for who I was,
I mean, my whole life.

Ever since I came here,
I felt like I was an outlier.

I felt like I didn't fit in.

So I want to make sure
that I'm with somebody

that will love me for who I am
on the inside and the outside.

I would love, obviously,
a man to call me beautiful

and give me physical affirmations,

but that's gonna go away one day.

And I want them to still,
when I'm 90, and I'm wrinkly,

and I don't look the same like I do now,
I still want them...

[voice breaks] ...to see
the beauty in my soul

and how that reflects on the outside.

Sorry.

It's been so hard finding that.

[sniffles]

And I haven't lost hope.

I'm still hopeful. [sniffles]

♪ In a heartbeat ♪

♪ You're my heartbeat
And I can breathe deep ♪

♪ When you're with me ♪

-[Clay laughs] All Day? What's up, girl?
-All Day. [laughs]

AD, what does actually the A stand for?
I should probably know that, right?

-The A stands for "Amber."
-[Clay] Amber. Nice.

The D stands for "Desiree."

-"Desiree." That's good to know.
-

Yeah.

-That's me.
-[Clay] My first name is "Clayton."

-Clayton.
-Yes, but everyone always calls me "Clay."

All Day and Clay.

They call me "O-Clay."

-

O-Clay? O-Clay. O-Clay.
-O-Clay.

-[both laugh]
-[Clay] O-Clay.

I'm so relaxed right now.

[Clay] This blanket is nice. Comfortable.

I would love to snuggle
with you with this, right?

I'll cuddle with you.

Look at us getting flirty at night.

-You wanna flirt?
-[Clay] Let's flirt.

Go ahead, you start.

Mm. All Day. AD been on my mind all day.

-Okay. Okay.
-[Clay] You know what I'm saying? Okay.

AD been on my mind all day. O-Clay.

[laughing] O-Clay!

[Clay laughs]

Look at you.

-I like your flirting voice too.
-Thank you.

Don't... don't do that. [laughing]

-

Thank you, Clay.
-Ooh!

-Thank you. I love it.
-

-[Clay laughs]
-You're fun.

[Clay] Same. Same.

I liked that from you from day one.
You know what I'm saying?

I think with relationships,
it's a balance.

You gotta have fun with it.

Gotta be flirty. We could get serious.

-I wanna be your best friend.
-So you're ready to laugh with me forever?

-'Cause I'mma keep it coming.
-[Clay] Oh, okay, okay.

-Look at you making me blush.
-[both chuckle]

I think Clay is a ladies' man,

but I'm still so curious.

[laughs]

-[pop music playing]
-♪ Brighter ♪

-♪ It's gonna get ♪
-♪ Righter... ♪

[woman 13 squeals]

[Matthew] Hello.

-

Hello.
-This is Matthew.

Hey, Matthew, it's AD.

[Matthew] Oh, what a pleasant surprise.

I also have a connection with Matthew.

I'm happy it's you.

I will admit I've been looking forward
to talking to you all day.

Oh.

He's kind of like a pistachio.

He's got, like, a hard shell,
and if you can, like, cr*ck it,

you get, like, something,
like, really nice on the inside.

Me, like, allowing him
to come out of his cocoon

on his own, like, natural way,

he's, like, flourishing,
like, before my eyes.

I'm, like, randomly thinking about you.

No, seriously, I'm like, "I hope whoever's
talking to Matthew's being f*cking nice."

[both laugh]

-

Be nice.
-Why?

Because. I don't know.
I'm just... now I'm like...

-You being a little protective?
-

Yeah.

-[Matthew] Yeah?
-Yeah.

[both laugh]

I've only been in here one minute,

you're trying to make me
blush again? [chuckles]

I have a random question.

What is your favorite music genre?

-Oh, no. Here's the deal-breaker.
-

-sh*t. We had such a good run.
-

Uh, I mean, I like rock music.

I also listen
to just instrument-only music,

which you may be surprised to hear.

No, I'm not.

I feel like you're not a man
that needs many words. [laughs]

-[both laugh]
-So I'm not shocked about that.

-What about you?
-I like hip-hop, R&B.

I actually do like,
like, classic '80s rock.

A little Twisted Sister?

-

Is that weird?
-[chuckles] It's not weird.

I'm just envisioning
you there dancing like a goofball.

-Do you dance?
-I do dance.

Do you have rhythm?

-More than you would expect.
-

I don't expect a lot,
so that's more than enough.

Now, I used to get in a lot of dance-offs.

-Wow.
-I got in a dance-off with this guy.

And he was k*lling it.
And I'm like, "Oh, crap, I can't lose."

So I did a split.

-Matthew.
-[Matthew] And I tore my hamstring.

-Matthew! Did you win?
-[laughing]

No.

Oh, my God. [laughing]

Do you wanna know
an irrational fear of mine?

Is that birds will peck my brain out.

-Really?
-

Yeah.

Like, att*ck me
and peck my brain out from the top.

Wow.

[laughs]

[Matthew] The visuals I have for you,
just dancing around to '80s rock music,

listening to Twisted Sister as birds
fly around in your cubicle over there.

I'm sorry
to paint that crazy picture.

That's what I got,
and I have no idea what you look like.

I suck at this, dating.

But I just was trying
to, like, think of how to tell you

that, like, you make me nervous
but comfortable at the same time.

Oh, my gosh. I think you just
found the perfect way to say it.

What I'm saying to you,
I'm not saying to anybody else.

-Well, that's reassuring.
-With you, it feels different to me.

-It does, and I 100% feel that.
-Okay.

I get, like,
so coy when I come talk to you.

Weird.

[Matthew] Yeah, it is weird.

Still trying to figure out how a city girl
ends up liking a country boy?

Yeah. Oh, my gosh.

Yes.

[laughing]

-[pop music playing]
-[vocalizing]

♪ I'll be reaching new heights ♪

♪ I'll be reaching new heights ♪

-[woman 2] Who's your number one?
-[Jessica] I don't wanna say.

-Let it live.
-[Jessica] It's Jimmy.

Ooh!

You care, and that's okay.

-I do. I like him.
-[woman 2] You do.

-[woman 2] Okay.
-Okay. Now go get your man.

I'm really enjoying
my relationship with Jimmy.

Like, the cute, like, excitement
that we have for each other,

and how giddy we get when we, like,

realize it's the other one
on the other side.

And he's very easy to talk to.

I feel very disarmed around him.
Like, I feel like I can let loose.

I feel like the chili sauce in the middle,
it's, like, safe.

[Jimmy] Okay.

That's f*cking hot, Jess.

Oh, my God.
Oh, my God. Oh, my God. [laughs]

It's really hot.

Are you okay?

-That's really hot for me.
-Damn.

-It's good?
-[Jimmy] That's...

-Oh, my God. There's two more hotter.
-[coughs]

[Jimmy] I have to blow my nose.

-[exhales]
-[Jessica laughs]

Okay, blow your nose.

[Jimmy] I blow my nose loud.

This is never gonna work.

-Jess, do not break up with me.
-[Jessica laughs]

That is like...
Okay, have we talked about pet peeves?

I blow my nose like a stressed-out dad.

[Jessica] Do you want me to cover my ears?

No, I'm gonna have to experience this
at some point. Just do it.

[honks]

[laughing]

Oh, my God. Is this a joke?

I'm dead serious.

I don't think that you're doing it right.

[both laugh]

[Jessica] Jimmy is someone
that I could see myself with.

It's familiar.

[woman 2] Have you spoken
to your daughter?

Oof. No, I haven't talked to her.

-Yeah. That's tough.
-It's fine. Ooh. Not me getting emotional.

-Have you talked about her in the pods?
-I haven't.

Because that's not something
I just toss out there.

[Jessica] I know. I'm such a mom.

-[Amber] You're a hot mom.
-[Jessica] That's right. Don't forget it.

[exhales] Today's the day
I know I have to tell Jimmy.

I realize, like, we can't move forward.

There are certain conversations
we can't have until...

I can tell him that I have a child.

Hello.

[Jimmy] What's going on?

-[gasps] My husband.
-[laughs]

Wait, oh, my God.
Ooh, I just said that out loud.

-[laughs]
-[Jessica] Ooh.

I'm sorry. I did not mean
to say that out loud. Oh, my God.

-It's okay. I liked it. You know what?
-Whew.

I knew when I first walked in here,

the first time,

um, I knew that there was
a connection, like, so quick.

-Like, crippling.
-[Jimmy] Immediately.

-It sounds crazy, right? But...
-[Jessica] Yeah.

...I, like, felt it.
And then you told me you felt it.

And I was like, "Oh, I have nothing
to be scared about here."

Truthfully, I...

What I'm looking for here
is someone that is accepting of my family,

'cause, like, I had, you know,
insecurities growing up

that prevented me
from dating certain women

that I felt that, like, weren't
accepting towards, like, how I grew up,

or, you know, how my family is
or how they go about things.

My family is great people.

There's nothing negative.

It's just, like, there was
definitely a time in my life

to where I was,
like, really insecure about

not having as much
as some of my friends in school.

I think I can empathize a lot more
than you could probably ever imagine.

There's a lot of things about my childhood

that I feel like people may be
hesitant to be, like, accepting of.

So I totally get that,
but, like, you should take pride

in whatever you've been through

and whatever has, like,
led you to where you are now.

Because you are...

Like, I feel like some
of the physical response I have to you

is because I can feel
that you are such a good person.

I get that from you as well, and I, like,

wholeheartedly believe that
you're one of the most accepting people.

[Jessica] There are so many conversations
I wanna have with you.

There are so many things
I wanna know about you.

I think the most important parts of me

I've had the hardest time sharing
with you, 'cause I'm, like, so terrified

about, like, how you're gonna receive it.

Sounds like a secret.

When I think of "secretive," I think
of something that has, like, a negative...

I don't know. It's not anything like that.

I have a ten-year-old daughter.

I'm not just gonna coast over that.

Like, I'm delivering that
like it's not a big thing.

Me addressing that with you
and telling you, like,

that's the most important part of my life.

You know, there's certain conversations
we can't have

without you knowing that first.

How come we didn't talk
about that earlier?

It's not something
I'm just gonna, like, lead with,

because I want people to, like,
get to know me as an individual first.

And, like,
establish a relationship with me,

even though I'm so proud of it.

It's my greatest accomplishment. It's...

I wanna talk about it,

but, you know,
we haven't talked about, like,

"When do you wanna have children?"

or, like, "How many kids
do you wanna have?"

'Cause that's a good conversation starter

for me to be like,
"Okay, well, yeah, like,

I kind of already
have a head start on that."

"I have a child
from a previous relationship."

[Jimmy] Yeah.

I... I totally get it.

I wouldn't want you
to throw that at me first thing.

By the way, I'm not, um...

That's not a deal-breaker for me,
and I don't think, like...

I don't know. It's just like I feel like
I've gotten to know you so much.

And, you know, I like you a lot.

And I'd like to...

I'd like to just hear more about it.

What's her name?

-Her name is Autumn, like the season.
-[Jimmy] Mm-hmm.

And she's, I mean,
the most important part of my life, so...

-[Jimmy] She's your best friend.
-She is my best friend.

I appreciate you sharing that, um...

That... that's incredible.

Can I ask, like...

-She's ten years old?
-[Jessica] Mm-hmm.

Um, is that like...

Was that someone
that you were just dating?

Is that someone that you were married to?
I gotta ask.

So her dad and I
actually met in elementary school.

Um, and we kind of just grew up together.

We were always friends.
I moved around a lot.

Like, elementary, middle and high school.

-Mm-hmm.
-[Jessica] And we were always friends.

He was kind of, like,
my constant, my home base.

And then my senior year of high school,
I got pregnant.

It wasn't one of those things
where I was, like, sleeping around.

-No, I got you. I don't suspect that.
-[Jessica] I know, but, like, still.

We were never married.

We broke up
probably a year after she was born.

-[Jimmy] Mm-hmm.
-Which was fine. Like, we co-parent great.

He's still part of her life.

-He's a great father.
-[Jimmy] That's good. That's great.

It is great. Very blessed, very fortunate.

-So, yeah, no, I was never married.
-Mm-hmm.

Never been married.

-I wanna be.
-[Jimmy chuckles] Yeah.

I have feelings for you.

And I knew the first time I talked to you
that you were here for the right reasons.

And that...

Um, I mean, it's just...
it's another piece of who you are.

-I mean, we're a package deal.
-[Jimmy chuckles] Yeah.

-We are.
-[Jimmy] Yeah, I know.

I like talking to you a lot.

I do too.

-[pop music playing]
-♪ What do I do... ♪

Finding out that Jess has
a daughter at home, it's a lot to take in.

So I've gotta really think things through
and figure out what I want.

But what I do know is
that we definitely have a connection.

♪ With all of these feelings
This is new ♪

-Chelsea.
-Hey.

[Jimmy] What's going on?

At the same time, I also, like,

have a really good connection
with Chelsea.

And I wanna continue
to get to know her and talk to her.

The fact that I can see myself
proposing to somebody here,

it's crazy.

♪ This is new ♪

[Chelsea] Your biggest achievement.

[Jimmy] Going to college. I...

Like, that sounds so small,

but I was first-generation
college student, both sides of the family.

That's huge.

Yeah. It's a big part of who I am.

And, like, a lot of people do it,
but I'm really proud that I did it.

My parents didn't really support me going.

They thought I was gonna
waste all my money...

-[Chelsea] Yeah.
-...and not do anything with it.

You know what?
They're... they're really proud of me now.

That's a great accomplishment.

I didn't go to school.

I have done trade school
after trade school.

I'm a yoga instructor.

I went to beauty school as well.

I just never
felt the need to go to college.

I was the only one

in my flight attendant training
who didn't go to college.

I bet you you're the best damn one
over there too.

You know, that's really sweet of you.

[both laugh]

[chuckles] I do have something
to just kind of lay out there.

Oh, boy.

[Chelsea] It's pretty important, but...

And it could be a red flag,
but it's a part of my journey of my life.

Okay.

I got married.

When I was very young.

How young?

I was 18.
He was my high school sweetheart.

We were married for almost five years,
but it was just not my person.

[Jimmy splutters] I mean...

-It doesn't scare me.
-Well, good.

I heard bigger news today that scared me

a little bit more. [laughs]

About me or just in general?

-[Jimmy] Other people.
-Oh.

Sorry to bring up other people.

I just have had
a lot dumped on me today. [chuckles]

[Chelsea] I am so sorry.

-Like, are you good? 'Cause I'm...
-[Jimmy] I'm good. I'm good. I'm good.

It's... it's a good thing that you told me.

And I'm not judging you for that.

Um, and... I'm just trying
to figure out how to change the subject.

[chuckles] 'Cause I don't wanna lead you
in the wrong direction

if I, like, I wanna collect my thoughts.

-You know?
-Mm-hmm.

[Jimmy] Is that okay?

[Chelsea sighs]

Yeah, that's okay. [sobs]

-[sniffles] Sorry, I'm just emotional.
-[Jimmy] Chelsea.

Oh, God. [laughs, sniffles]

I think I'm just emotional
'cause... [sniffles]

...it's kind of hard for me to...

I don't know.
I was nervous to tell you that. [sniffles]

[Jimmy] I don't want you to think,
like, anything negative of it.

It's just I don't wanna lead anybody
in the wrong direction.

'Cause I tend
to catch feelings pretty fast.

[Chelsea] Yeah, I do too.

You're not gonna like everyone.
That's okay.

[Chelsea laughs. sniffles]

That's the exact opposite
of what I'm trying to tell you right now.

-["Better by Now" by Josh Tobias playing]
-♪ And these voices... ♪

[sniffles]

♪ They both weigh me... ♪

[Chelsea shudders]

♪ Weigh me down ♪

[Chelsea continues shuddering]

[sniffles]

[sniffles]

f*ck.

-[women chattering]
-[Chelsea sniffles]

What happened?

-I don't know.
-What...

[Chelsea] I told him I was divorced,
and it was like...

-[woman 3] His reaction was super weird?
-[Chelsea splutters] I don't even know.

[Danette] sh*t.

[Chelsea squeals, sniffles]

[exhales]

♪ From the rain ♪

♪ Tell me I'm worth more than my pain ♪

♪ Thought I'd be somebody new ♪

♪ This time around ♪

♪ Or at least be better by now ♪

[Chelsea] I was excited
to have fun time with you today.

[Trevor] Aww.

I feel like every time
is fun time with us.

[Chelsea] That's very true.

-Is that a bad thing?
-No. [blows raspberries]

[laughs]

That's, like, the main thing
that other people lack in life.

[Chelsea] That's very true.

[Trevor] Yes, if you take me
to, like, a family member's funeral,

I am going to be 100% serious
and, like, support you.

-[Chelsea] Yeah.
-And be there.

But, like, life...
those are small moments in life

that don't take up
a vast majority of time.

That's very true.

-[Trevor] Like, I want fun first.
-Me too.

Ooh! Look at, like,
the box thing with the question mark.

-[Trevor] Mm-hmm.
-Let's do that.

"Have you ever told someone 'I love you'
but didn't mean it? If so, why?"

[Chelsea] Mm.

[exhales]

I have told my three serious relationships
that I have loved them,

but I don't think it was really
what I was feeling, if that makes sense.

Yeah. No, my answer is exactly the same.

Like, when you're in high school
and you tell them you love them.

-[Chelsea] Yeah. Right.
-You have nothing to base it off of.

So in that moment,
it definitely is love to you.

But then, like, you meet someone

who is a little more serious
with the relationship further on,

and you're like,
"Whoa, this is what love is."

The last girl I was with,

I would've put money
that we'd get married.

We talked about it all the time.

What kind of stopped you from proposing?

Uh, I would say I need to be 1,000% sure.

And if there's anything I question,

even though this person
might match, like, 98% of the way,

like, I'm waiting for the 100.

Have you been, like,
close to getting married?

Well, I was married.

Oh. Well...

So you would say that was "close"?

-[both chuckle]
-Wait, I told you that, right?

-[Trevor] I don't know if you did.
-Wait.

[Trevor] I think you might have told that
the first minutes into us ever meeting.

-Okay, so let's revisit for a second.
-Let's revisit that.

-[Trevor] How long were you married for?
-I was married...

I got married very young.
And I was married for five years.

-We did not talk about this.
-Oh, my gosh. Yeah.

I loved being married.

I loved my partner.

At least I thought I did,
'cause I was very young.

-Like you said, you don't really know.
-Yeah.

But I don't necessarily think
it was true, true love.

It was just two kids who were
getting out of their parents' house.

But we had an awesome relationship,
and we just...

we just grew apart, and it was fine.

And I wish nothing but the best for him.

[Trevor] Okay.

That's good.
That's good you don't have any animosity.

That doesn't, like,
faze me whatsoever. [chuckles]

[chuckles] That's good.

I've gotten a few reactions
this go-around,

so it's been kind of wild.

Dude, people want like...

like, a fairy-tale life where, like...

oh, their wife has
never even kissed someone else.

-Like, that's not life.
-[Chelsea] Mm-hmm.

-[Trevor chuckles] You know, like...
-Yeah.

[Trevor] At this age,
it's very hard to find someone

who hasn't either been married
or, like, really close to being married.

Yeah, totally.

I feel like it would be kind of
not weird, but like...

It would be a red flag if they never
had a serious relationship to this point.

[Chelsea] Yeah, I totally agree.

I know you're clearly here
for the same reason I am,

but, like, are you really, like, ready for

something that crazy serious?

With you? Yes.

-You should have seen my face. [laughing]
-Aww.

You were the first person
where I was like, "You know what?"

"That wouldn't be such a weird idea."

[pop music playing]

And now it's like
that might be a good idea.

[Chelsea laughs]

[laughs]

[chuckles]

Whoo!

♪ I wanna be, I wanna be here ♪

I'm actually putting
some thought into this.

-You better appreciate this. [laughs]
-[Johnny] Really?

I have to say, so I thought of one.

-[Amy] Oh, boy.
-It was very not deep.

Um, but I think it's still pretty good.

Okay, I'm ready.

So it starts off... [hums blues melody]

-[Amy] Oh, God.
-♪ Her name is Amy ♪

♪ And she's really cool ♪
[hums blues melody]

♪ When all the guys see her
They sit and drool ♪

-[hums blues melody] ♪ She's really cool ♪
-[laughs]

♪ When she sees the other guys
They all drool ♪

♪ She's a... a bad mamacita ♪

-[laughs]
-[Johnny] ♪ I really wanna meet her ♪

♪ I really wanna see her ♪

♪ After this pod time ♪

♪ I, uh, um... ♪

-f*ck was the next verse? [grunting]
-[laughs]

Oh, no, stage fright. Oh, my God!

[laughing]

In the pods, we're really able
to do everything and anything,

even though, like, there's the moments
that we need to be serious

and make sure that our values align.

It's incredibly important
for me to have fun with my partner.

With Johnny,
I feel like he can get really deep,

but also be fun and light-hearted.

-I give that a nine.
-Let's go.

He makes me laugh,
and that's a beautiful thing.

[laughs]

-[pop music playing]
-♪ Taking our time ♪

♪ Ain't got no stress ♪

Oh, sh*t.

-What?
-I ripped my pants.

-No, you didn't. [laughs]
-Yes.

[laughs]

-I love that.
-[laughing]

♪ We're having fun, I got all the love... ♪

-[Sunni] Put your hands in the air.
-Hands in the air.

-[Sunni] Touch your toes.
-Touch my toes.

Turn five times. [chuckles]

[Ben] Turn five times?

-Oh, God. I'm dizzy.
-Are you doing this stuff?

-[laughs]
-[Ben] Oh, my God.

♪ You won't believe it ♪

Where I feel most sexy
is in my business attire.

Nice shirt, couple buttons down,
some chest hair flow.

-Let 'em know I got some taco meat up top.
-[laughing]

[Nolan] You know, do the hair
and get myself together.

Hang on. Hang on.
I gotta go back really quick.

Did you refer to chest hair as taco meat?

-Yeah, a little taco meat up top.
-[laughing]

-[Nolan] Yeah.
-[laughing]

[pop music playing]

-[woman 3] Have fun.
-[woman 14] You too.

[woman 3] Thanks.

-

What you been up to?
-Just talking to my man.

Mm-hmm. My man. My man.

My mans.

-

Yeah. Yeah.
-Yeah.

-

It's been good for me.
-[Amber] It's been good.

-Really good.
-I love that for us.

-Thank you.
-Yeah.

All the girls are,
like, so sweet, like, so supportive.

But, I mean, the lounge has switched up!

We are no longer, like,
Chatty Catties in there anymore.

We're like, "Yeah, this person..."

We're so elusive.

"I'm gonna tell you,
but, like, don't tell anybody."

Like, we are keeping our men tight.

[Amber] No, like, literally, today...

I made a man cry.

-You made a man cry?
-[Amber] Mm-hmm.

It was actually really sweet.

[laughing] These next two are gonna be
very telling for me, in the best way.

[Amber] Oh, my God.

Is it who I think?

I don't know who you think.

-[Amber] Hmm.
-I don't know who you think.

♪ But I'm willing
To risk it all for you... ♪

[Clay] I'm really happy that you chose
to do this night date with me.

Yeah. I know there's competition.

You know, my dad is one of the most
smoothest and suave guys I know.

-Mm-hmm.
-[Clay] I looked up to my dad.

I've always felt like as a man, like,

I should probably emulate
who you look up to the most, you know?

My ego is very huge.

Like, and it's been a pro.

-And it's also been a con for me.
-Mm-hmm.

And naturally, I am a smooth guy,
but the suaveness,

like, the chill, the coolness,

it's, like, a little bit
of a security blanket.

You know, I've always felt like
I could get women,

but there's been
a lot of women that I loved.

I've never felt like I was chose
by the one, like, that I wanted.

I guess maybe the way I come off,

maybe I don't provide
that sense of security emotionally.

-Mm-hmm.
-[Clay] Maybe it's not as comforting.

And the thing is, AD, this experience
has definitely been an eye-opener for me.

-I don't have the physical to lean on.
-Mm.

Even if I'm talking about
financial stability,

like, I'm not taking you on a date for you
to see my money and the things I got.

Like, all I got is the conversation
and building with you.

I really appreciate the fact
that you came and told me,

like, "Yo, Clay,
I wanna get to know you better."

Like, that's really validation for me
that I need to hear.

-'Cause I don't hear that often.
-

Yeah.

[Clay] Somebody like me is just like,

the way to get to my heart
is if I could trust you.

-So. Yeah.
-Yeah.

[sighs] Clay.

Clay. Clay. Clay.

-I feel like I understand you.
-Mm-hmm.

And I feel like as a man of your caliber,

which I assume that you have caliber
because you tell me so.

[Clay laughs]

To, like,
be that vulnerable and be like,

"Look, this is where I came from."

"This is what I know,
but I want different,"

is, like, honorable.

Yeah.

I appreciate that.

I wanna get to know you more
and take it to the next level, you know?

Yeah, that's making me really happy.

[Clay] I just feel like my worst fear

is, like, we fall in love.
We have this beautiful connection.

It's like, you know,
we do the reveal, and it's like,

"Oh, wow. Like, we never
really talked about physical."

And like, that is important to me.

Like, love is blind.
Like, I get it. Trust me. I get it.

I just wanna have
that reveal door and, like,

you know, be super turned on
by my wife, you know?

In what way
do you wanna talk about appearance

in an experiment
where we're not talking about appearance?

I just have to be attracted to you.

Do you have, like, a specific thing
that you're hoping comes through that door

or are you open to, like, a beauty
that maybe you've never explored?

Naturally, I would say, I've kind of
leaned towards more, like, petite.

My favorite attribute
is, like, lips, butt and all that stuff.

That sounds, like,
so shallow and all that,

but, like, hearing
what your best attributes are,

if I'mma propose,
that's something I need to know.

Regardless of the emotional connection.

-Regardless of the emotional connection.
-Yeah.

You know what, bro? What do you mean,
tell you what I look like?

Like, I do have, like, a very basic name,
and, like, super soft voice.

I could be literally anything.

And, like, somebody trying to guess
exactly what I look like

is a turn-off for me,

because that's not what we're here for.

I personally don't want
to sell myself based off, like,

um, my physical attributes.

That, to me, defeats the purpose.

And I understand
if that's not gonna work for you.

And then I understand that you personally,
as the man that you are,

looks, you know, are everything.

-Not everything, but it's a big part of...
-[chuckles]

-It's a lot.
-[Clay] Yeah.

-And I'm not mad. Yeah.
-[Clay] Yeah.

-[clicks tongue] Aww.
-I'm not mad.

No matter what it looks like
to the outside world or to me,

like, Clay is gonna show up as Clay.

And, like, he gives me the option
to accept it or reject it.

But, like, Clay is extremely
hung up on appearance.

And it does bother me
because I have so much more to offer.

I should have took my ass... home.

-[pop music playing]
-♪ Every day back on my feet ♪

♪ Closer to who I wanna be ♪

I'm battling with what to sacrifice
and what to compromise on.

Thanks, girl.

Like, should I just tell him
what I look like and get it over with?

But I don't wanna tell it,
and I'm not gonna tell it.

I want someone to want me
for who I am on the inside.

This is Matthew.

This is AD.

-[Matthew] Really?
-Really.

-Were you up late last night dating?
-Um, yeah.

-[Matthew] How'd it go?
-It was long.

[Matthew] I'm sure that you have
connections with other guys

'cause you're just amazing.

-[chuckles]
-[Matthew] So I'm not surprised.

A little jealous,
but, you know, I understand.

Yeah.

[Matthew] You want the guy that's gonna be
the center of attention at parties?

It probably isn't gonna be me.
There's a lot of people that do that.

-A lot of women are attracted to it.
-Right.

[Matthew] But long-term,

I think guys like me win more.

I mean, I'll just tell you, I've been
thinking about you, like, all the time.

-

Really?
-Yeah.

Oh, my gosh.

That's kind of crazy
'cause I've been thinking about you too.

-Are you just saying that?
-

No.

I'm not the type
to just say anything, really.

[Matthew] I appreciate that.

To me, yesterday... [clears throat]

...with you,

like, something happened.

Like, I... I don't know if it's ever
happened for me like that before.

-Something like what?
-Like a deep connection.

You're funny.

You're quick-witted.

I just sense
you're just incredibly caring.

I could just
feel you being protective of me.

And over the course of time,
I'm just becoming very protective of you.

[gasps]

It just feels different.

-I feel really connected to you.
-Okay.

For sure.

There's a large part of me that thinks

that there's really
only two outcomes from this.

Yeah?

-[Matthew] That's either with you or not.
-Oh!

[Matthew] Should I have started off
with jokes instead of going deep?

-[laughing]
-

No. I am...

I'm, like, so happy.

[chuckling] I don't know what to say.

I feel the only reason
I'm here is for you.

Oh, my gosh. [chuckles]

Wow. [sighs]

You're making my day.

You are making my entire day.

-[Matthew sighs]
-

Wow.

[chuckles] I was
not expecting this at all.

[Matthew] Really?

Yeah. So it's like,
I'm not being silent 'cause I'm not happy.

I'm just, like... I'm so shocked.

[Matthew] Why?

Just to feel, like,
this validation means a lot today.

I just was waiting
for this moment, I guess.

So, thank you for that.

-[Matthew] You want me to tell jokes now?
-[both laughing]

I'm just, like, really happy.

'Cause I feel the same way.

-I wish I could see you.
-

Wish you could see me too.

[Matthew] I'll just
give you the biggest hug.

Oh, my gosh.

I could use that right now.
You have no idea. [chuckles]

I hope you know that when I'm saying this,

you know, I'm not embellishing.

I'm trying to be as honest as I can.

But... what is my greatest accomplishment?

-Finding you.
-[gasps]

-Okay.
-[Matthew] Too much?

No, it's just getting hot in here.

[Matthew] After our date, I'm like, "Oh."

-I wanted to call my mom and tell her.
-

Like, "Oh, I finally found her."

Matthew.

-What?
-

Are you serious?

I'm dead serious.

It's funny, when I...

when we sit here and no one's talking...

...I'm still comfortable.

Yeah. Same.

I'm just, like, imagining you
just, like, laid out on the couch,

and I'm just, like,
laying on your chest right now.

-That'd be nice.
-

Yeah.

[Matthew] Like, "Why am I so lucky?"

Yeah.

-You are lucky.
-[Matthew] I feel it right now.

I'm just happy that

I saw what I saw on day one,
and it's brought me to this moment.

I mean, what do you even think
about the engagement part of this?

I think it's cute.

[Matthew] 'Cause I don't
really take it lightly.

I'm glad you don't,
'cause I don't either.

What's your dad think?

-

My dad?
-Yeah.

He actually
passed away last September.

-Oh, my goodness. I'm sorry.
-It's okay.

So I don't think
he's thinking much. [laughing]

-[Matthew groans]
-Sorry.

[chuckles] Jeez.

[laughing] I'm sorry.

We weren't that close.

[Matthew] I asked you about your dad
'cause I really don't know

if I could propose
to somebody without asking permission.

Oh, that is really, really thoughtful.

But I guess that roadblock is not there.

I just was hoping
that I would find a man that's ready.

Like, right now.

-This minute? Because you just found one.
-

This second.

[Matthew] I would've
asked you 15 minutes ago.

-[laughing]
-[Matthew chuckles] Was that too ready?

I needed it right now,
not 15 minutes ago. [laughing]

I think I have enough personality
that I could keep you entertained

for about 42 years.

-

Oh. That's all I need. Really.
-Yeah, I'll totally be dead before that.

-

No, you won't.
-Hmm.

I'm gonna keep you alive
as long as I can.

-[Matthew] You deserve a lot.
-[laughing] Oh, my gosh.

I do have one very important question.

How important is, like,
ethnicity and race to you,

like, when you're
thinking about your wife?

[exhales]

Not important at all.

-Oh, okay.
-[Matthew] What?

No, that's great news.

-[Matthew] Why?
-[laughing] You just never know.

-What?
-

Nothing.

You never know
if people want something super specific.

It doesn't matter to me.

I mean, that's why I'm here, isn't it?

You're a wise man.

-I meant it.
-

I believe you.

[Matthew] Doesn't it feel awkward
having other conversations?

-You feel that way?
-

Yeah. It's pointless at this point.

I don't wanna go on any more dates.

Listen, we have five more days.

Oh, my goodness.

You give me the word.
If you wanna leave, I'll leave with you.

For real?

-[Matthew] Yeah, I would.
-Oh, my gosh. Where are we gonna go?

[Matthew] I'll take you
to the top of the mountain and propose.

You just say,
"Matthew, let's get the hell out of here."

-And I will run around this room.
-[laughing]

[Matthew] I'll find my way back to you...

-[sighs, laughs]
-[Matthew] ...get your blankie.

[Matthew chuckles] I'll wrap you up in it,

and I'll just carry you out of here.

I don't wanna leave,
but that was really cute.

-[Matthew] Okay.
-You're just the cutest.

Are you gonna tell anybody
about what I said to you today?

Hmm. I'm gonna just, like, simmer in it.

-[laughs]
-

Just gonna enjoy my moment.

'Cause I don't know, I just, um...

I just am loving this moment,
and I just want it to be mine and ours.

This has been amazing.

-[pop music playing]
-♪ Dear friend, I'm in love with you ♪

♪ I am hypnotized... ♪

I'm all smitten over here.

Well, everything I said was true.

-And that was hard for me to do.
-

I know.

-And I'm so grateful. I know.
-I was about to have a panic att*ck.

I'm, like, really hopeful,
really, really optimistic

about this with you.

[vocalizing]

There's nothing
that we can't conquer after this

because this is insane.

[Matthew] Yes, it is.

♪ You'll be Mars, I'll be Venus ♪

♪ We can chase all the stars ♪

♪ And see where they lead ♪

I think Matthew is the sweetest,

kindest, most genuine soul here.

We don't see men like him often.

Matthew has no idea what I look like,

the color of my skin or my body type.

I'm assuming Matthew is white.

I just...

I'm okay with that, surprisingly.

I've never dated a white man,
but I'm okay with it.

[chuckles] I mean,
people are people, and it's so beautiful.

[laughing] He's so cute,
and I've never seen him.

He's so cute.

♪ There's no space in between us ♪

♪ Take my hand and we'll leave

♪ 'Cause we are the dreamers ♪

♪ We are the dreamers ♪

-[Amber] Had a good date.
-

Who'd you have?

Matthew.

He talked about, like, asking my dad.

And if he can't do that, we can leave.

I was like,
"I'm fine with that. I'll leave too."

And I just thought it was, like, crazy.

[laughing] Which is good.

I mean, it was a great date.

Words are nice, right?
But, like, I need action.

He did talk about action, he was like,

"Do you need to draw me a map
so I could come get you?"

And I was like...

-And I'll come get you.
-[laughing]

♪ How many times does it take
Till I learn? ♪

♪ Smoke to the ash
And you're gonna get b*rned ♪

♪ b*rned ♪

It's just getting stranger and stranger
as the f*cking minutes go by.

Yeah, it's literally wild.

I don't wanna get excited.
You know what I mean?

-Yeah.
-We'll see.

We shall see.

[pop music playing]

♪ It's your turn ♪

♪ Oh! ♪

♪ Come take me down, down, down ♪

♪ Drag me to hell right now ♪

♪ I want it bad ♪

♪ Come love me mad ♪

♪ Until the flame burns out ♪

♪ Come take me down ♪

♪ Come take me down ♪

♪ Come take me down ♪

♪ Come take me down ♪