Transcripts - Forever Dreaming

Previously on "Grey's Anatomy"...

Okay, Cindy Wright.

She fits the profile.

Arrest this woman for child trafficking!

BAILEY: Please escort Dr. DeLuca to my office.

What?

Me?!

What, you're just gonna let her go?

I did the job that needed to be done!

Andrew, you sound like your father.

This is Gemma.

- Uh, she's a friend.

- I can see that.

Something's wrong with me.

What's happening?

DELUCA: Cobalt poisoning would explain the dementia, the depression, hallucinations, tremors...

Everything.

Is your mind playing tricks on you again?

Did you stand by me while I was being fired?

I'm tired of telling you that I want more.

I hope you find someone who will give that to you.

Dr. Winston Ndugu.

I have had a crush on you since my first day of residency.

LINK: What do you think of the name Scout?

So cute.

[CHUCKLES]

- We're getting married.

- I want a life with you.

KORACICK: Are you really sure you want to close this door?

A voicemail from Dr. Altman.

I can't leave with you.

I am marrying Owen.

I'm so sorry, honey.

We'll reschedule.

Why are we rescheduling?

MEREDITH: I've heard that when tidal waves hit,

there are often people watching on shore.

They see the disaster coming, see the horizon disappearing.

They don't really see until it's too late.

There's a lecture we take in residency

that's meant to prepare us for such surprises.

It's called Disaster Ethics...

Where future surgeons imagine what they would do

when the unimaginable happens.

[GASPS]

But it's imperfect.

Because while it's good to plan for the worst,

you can't really know how you'll handle it

until you're smack dab in the middle of it,

under the wave, trying not to drown.

[CHEERS AND APPLAUSE]

Thank you!

- Yes!

- Thank you, all!

♪ ♪ I'll see you after the shift change.

You be careful out there.

You be careful in there.

We are doing everything right.

We are wearing masks.

We are wearing gloves.

We are slowing the spread.

I am good and my family is g...

Oh, please don't tell me you're experiencing symptoms.

I am absolutely not experiencing any symptoms.

I'm here to work.

I'm cobalt free, Miranda.

I've done my hip rehab.

I'm better than ever.

Just tell me where you want me, but don't say back home.

Well, everything's changed.

I mean, specialties no longer matter.

Surgeons check temperatures.

Attendings do scut.

It's a madhouse.

On fire.

Well, you better show me around.

Unless you're too busy.

You can send me off with a resident.

You know, I'd love to say hello to DeLuca.

[TAPE REWINDS]

DeLuca is no longer a resident.

So, Andrew's in the on-call room on .

He didn't even want to come in today, but I didn't think he should be alone, so...

Right.

Because you're so concerned about his well-being.

This is unbelievable.

What happened with DeLuca now?

He could barely get up after Richard's surgery.

It's the depression that always comes after the mania.

You knew this happens, b-but you pushed him anyways.

And you let her.

First stop for every employee.

A few questions.

And if your temperature's even a hair over degrees, you go back home.

No exceptions.

And once you're cleared...

Here, get in here...

You will change and be fitted with a new N .

Alright, let's move it.

[CELLPHONE RINGS]

WINSTON: How was the picnic?

It turned into a sleepover, actually.

[CHUCKLES]

On the laundry-room floor?

Yeah, Zola didn't want me to leave, and I-I was too tired to go back to the hotel room.

So she had a picnic on the kitchen floor, and I got takeout.

And we talked to each other through the closed door,

and then I made a bed out of some baby blankets I found in the dryer.

- You are such a good aunt.

- [CHUCKLES]

Yeah, my back is k*lling me, but it sure beats lying in my hotel-room bed

and watching terrifying statistics on the news and knowing that's not even half the story.

Yeah.

I tried explaining to my grandma how this is impacting Black folks more severely.

But all she wants to talk about is how sacrilegious it is to attend church on a computer.

[LAUGHS]

KINGSLEY: Dr. Ndugu, we have a dissection.

Uh, I gotta go, babe.

Love you.

[CELLPHONE BEEPS]

- Love you?

- Hm?

Were you eavesdropping on my call?

Not on purpose.

Sounds like things are going pretty well, though, if you're at "love you" already.

Well, we're not.

I'm not...

We're...

That's just...

That's just, like, a-a thing people say.

- By rote.

- Is it?

How's Vic?

It's really nice of them to clap us in and out every day.

I...

[SIGHS]

I really appreciate that.

- Yeah.

- Yeah.

It really is.

It's nice.

[TAPE REWINDS]

JACKSON: [MIMICKING AIRPLANE ENGINE]

- [DOORBELL RINGS]

- Ooh, we have a visitor.

Who is here coming to visit us?

[SIGHS]

Hey, hey, hey, I'm...

- Oh, hey!

- Oh!

- Uh, what is...

- Oh!

No.

What is going on?

Hi.

No, no.

Um...

I thought...

We were texting and you said to come over with nothing on.

- I didn't mean right now.

- So you...

Okay.

Okay.

Um, sorry.

I'm sorry.

Hello?

- Hi.

- Come on...

No, no, you know what?

Actually.

No.

It's fine.

It's okay.

It's good.

It's not that...

cold out, actually,

- so I'm just...

I'm gonna go.

- Hey.

No, you don't need to leave.

No, I do.

I have to, okay?

This is...

This was good.

This was a mistake.

But this whole thing.

I'm not a...

I'm not a stepmom.

You're not a stepmom.

I'm just...

I'm a person who shows up at penthouses wearing puffy coats and nothing else, so...

Yeah.

Wow.

Okay.

Um, this was too much too soon.

Thank you.

Hi, Harriett, it was really nice...

Really nice to meet you after all this time.

Um, okay, bye.

Godspeed.

- Next.

- MAN: This happens when I eat nuts, but I didn't eat any nuts.

- Uh, I don't think.

- Those food labels are small.

- Here.

- [THERMOMETER BEEPS]

Okay, . .

So you are going to want to follow the purple line to the ER.

I don't want a Chinese doctor.

Oh, okay.

Then you're going to want to follow this green line to the parking lot, put your rude self back in your car and hope you don't go into anaphylactic shock.

I'll follow the purple line to the ER.

Perfect.

OMG.

Dr. Webber.

You look great.

Hearts.

Perez.

Next.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

Hey.

Can you please make sure this gets up to the Covid floor

- with Enna Ravera?

- Just leave it.

Uh, hey, Karen, uh, could I get an update for Ike Donerson?

He's a friend of a friend.

Happy to check on him for you, Dr. Hunt.

- Hope the kids are doing okay.

- Oh, thanks.

Um, my Mom's hands are full, but she's managing.

BAILEY: There's another tent for visitors 'cause none are allowed in the hospital unless accompanying a young child.

- Dr.

Webber?

- Ah, Hunt.

Altman.

I-I-Is it still Altman?

- Yeah, still Altman.

- Ah.

I hate to leave, but I-I-I got to get back.

Yeah, and II've got another...

- Uh.

- Alright, the less severe symptoms are sent home to self-quarantine.

The more severe are admitted.

The entire OR heard a recording of Altman and Koracick having sex...

- [SIGHS]

- ...or was that the cobalt talking?

- That was not the cobalt.

- Ooh!

[CHUCKLING]

Stop it.

Stop it.

- You're bad.

Stop it.

- Stop?

I came back just so I could ask the question.

[BOTH LAUGH]

- BAILEY: What is wrong...

- What?

BAILEY: The entire east wing is now a Covid ward.

We've converted whole floors into negative pressure rooms.

Severe patients go to this special Covid ICU.

So far we have enough ventilators.

Well, what about PPE for the staff?

We are reusing what we have, but we need more... a lot...

Wait.

- No, no, no, no.

- Well, someone's coding here.

Uh, and we have staff inside to deal with it.

Look, hospitals are losing too many of their own.

So no one goes through those doors without full PPE, which is in short supply.

Yes, it goes against everything we teach, but there are no emergencies in a pandemic.

Marvin Lindstrom. .

He was fine yesterday, became hypoxic an hour ago.

It's the fourth patient I've lost today, and they're all dying alone.

Welcome back, Richard.

♪ Hey, so, bed needs to go up for CT, okay?

- MAN: Still has pain in the chest?

- WOMAN: Yes.

[SIREN WAILS]

- Hughes, we're not taking...

- VIC: No, I know.

I know you're not taking any non-Covid cases, but you are taking this teenager with full thickness burns from head to toe from a car expl*si*n.

I intubated him on the scene.

He's hypotensive and tachycardic and you are the best so you are taking him because if you send us away, he dies, and that makes you a m*rder*r.

- Okay.

- Okay.

Trauma .

You were right to bring him here.

Emergent surgeries only, so it's empty most of the time.

- Oh, how the mighty have fallen.

- [CELLPHONE DINGS, VIBRATES]

I try not to look at it.

Too sad.

Bailey, what the hell is that?

Oh, not that, her.

BAILEY: She's my new best friend.

She hates germs as much as I do.

Uh, see that UV light?

It can disinfect a room in minutes.

Hands-free.

[LAUGHS]

That's incredible.

I used to go see babies when I needed serotonin.

But they don't let visitors on the OB floor anymore.

So now I come see her.

She's sleek, beautiful, she hates germs.

- I love her.

- KORACICK: Uh, do my eyes deceive me?

Captain Cobalt, welcome back.

- Ugh.

- What, too soon?

No, in all seriousness, I'm so happy to see you on your feet again.

What's with the nine iron?

Oh, well, this way you won't get any closer than, uh, six feet from me.

You don't need a golf club for that, Tom.

Any word on the shipment?

Uh, relax, Bailey.

I said it's coming, it's coming.

What, you got N s and face shields?

Because there's pirates out there and hucksters.

[SIGHS]

Has Catherine been coming in?

- [CELLPHONE DINGS, VIBRATES]

- Sometimes.

- Uh, Richard, I've got a trauma.

- Oh, I'll come.

No, you go read the safety manuals and memorize the new protocols.

Can't let anything fall through the cracks.

Or anyone.

Can I help you?

A patient of your brother's would like to see him.

- No.

Absolutely not.

- It's Cindy Wright.

The girl he said was being trafficked.

It appears he was right.

S-She's here?

Is she okay?

She is here but I would not say she is okay.

No, Bailey, you need to stop doing this.

I-I wouldn't be here if it were anyone else.

But I think he's the only person in the world she trusts right now.

Oh, my...

[SIGHS]

[SIGHS]

[SIGHS]

You sure about this?

No.

♪ - Hey.

- CINDY: I'm so sorry.

I'm sorry I didn't listen, but I was scared.

You do not need to apologize for anything, okay?

I'm just glad you came back.

Walk me through what happened.

How did you get here?

I got sicker, and Opal said I was useless.

She dropped me off on the side of the interstate.

But I remembered the name of this place.

And you.

Chief, do you mind if I go in with her?

I'll throw on some lead.

Of course.

Isn't DeLuca...

I mean, people have been saying he...

Get the man a vest.

[RINGING]

- LEVI: Hi. - Schmitt.

Marvin Lindstrom just died.

[SIGHS]

No.

Please, no.

I tried calling his wife.

It rolled to voicemail.

- Are you with her? - She's here.

Her flip phone died, and we didn't have a charger.

She wanted to say goodbye to him.

Well, I wanted that, too, Schmitt.

There just wasn't time.

It happened so fast.

They were married years.

I held his hand while he died.

So if you can't deliver the news to her, just find someone who can.

- [CELLPHONE BEEPS]

- [SIGHS]

BAILEY: What do we have?

Engine blew when he was trying to cool it down.

It started a fire.

He's got extensive full-thickness burns.

- Let's hang some fluids.

- WOMAN: On it.

Kids decided to break quarantine, went out to a party.

A party?

Now?

Okay, I gotta call my kids and thr*aten them.

You want, uh, back up?

Want me to page Altman?

No, no, no, we're good.

He's hypotensive.

Arms are all charred.

This IV's blown.

I need access.

- Okay.

IO kit.

- Right away, Doctor.

Okay, here we go.

Order a trauma panel.

Let's get x-ray in here.

His sats are still dropping.

He's getting harder to bag.

These chest burns are preventing his lungs from expanding.

- [SIGHS]

Escharotomy.

Scalpel.

- Escharotomy.

Scalpel.

♪ JACKSON: Alright, we need to get this kid to an OR - and start debriding, ASAP.

- OWEN: Yeah, I already paged for help.

I need to stay down here.

There's other kids coming in from this fire.

- Alright, copy that.

- Hey, Hunt, I got your page.

And here's your help.

[TAPE REWINDS]

Everything okay?

- Yeah.

- Yeah.

Great.

Okay.

Let's get ready to move.

[SIGHS]

You hear this, uh, kid was out partying with friends?

I don't know what the hell these kids are thinking.

Yeah, well, people do stupid things.

- [KNOCK ON DOOR]

- Hey.

Hey.

I'm, uh, about to be done here if you need the room.

No, actually, I was looking for you.

I need a favor.

Cool.

Consult?

Yeah, kind of.

Um...

[CHUCKLES]

Actually, no, not...

Not like a consult.

Um...

S...

- Sex.

- What's that?

Sex.

I need sex.

I need a sex favor.

A sexual favor.

[CLEARS THROAT]

I...

W-What?

I need a bridge over the river of the husband who abandoned me.

A short bridge.

No, like a...

Like a one-night bridge.

I-I can't tell if you're being serious.

Are you...

Look, I don't know how to be single or feel single again.

I just...

I-I don't know how to cross over the bridge over into the land of Not a Sad Sack.

Of Not a...

The land of Not a Sad Sack?

- Okay.

- Okay, I-I need to have sex, Jackson.

With someone that I trust to be safe and... and just not m*rder me in my sleep.

And I need a bridge, so I'm asking.

I am truly asking for a favor.

A sexy favor.

Okay, and you...

And you can say no if you feel used or objectified or whatever, but I hope that you just feel flattered because I'm mostly saying that you're a human male that I kind of trust.

Okay.

Like, okay okay?

I mean, it's not exactly a hardship, Jo.

Oh, my God.

Okay.

Um...

tonight?

- Sure.

Yeah.

- Okay.

- My...

My place?

- Okay.

Yes!

Thank you.

Thank you.

You're the best.

- Thanks.

- Okay.

Yo!

- Okay.

- Okay, Jo.

Dora, hi, it's Dr. Grey calling.

I...

I'm okay, thank you for asking.

Dora, I-I'm so sorry to tell you, but your father...

His condition got much worse last night.

So, um, I'm afraid if...

If you do want to come and say goodbye, then...

Then you should come soon.

Now.

Okay.

Okay, uh, just call me when you're here, and I'll make the arrangements.

Okay.

I'm...

I'm so...

I'm so sorry.

Okay.

[SIGHS]

[CELLPHONE CLICKS, BUTTONS CLICKING]

[TEXT CHIMES]

♪

DELUCA: You're doing great, Cindy.

Almost done, okay?

I'm not Cindy.

My name is Erin Banks.

I'm from Scottsdale, Arizona.

This photographer followed me on Snapchat.

He said that he had a modeling agency and that I was beautiful.

He wanted to meet, but my parents said no.

My sister said it was sketchy.

But I snuck out to meet him.

That was two years ago.

Two years?

So she was fourteen.

- Helm...

- [PAPER TEARS]

Take this.

Call the police immediately.

Say to them what she just said.

Her family needs to know their little girl is still alive.

Go, go.

[SIGHS]

Lord, help us.

ERIN: My parents tried to warn me,

but I'm so dumb.

I'm so stupid.

Hey, hey, stop that.

Okay, listen to me.

None of this is your fault, okay?

None of it.

It's Opal, and people like her.

It's their fault.

And we got you.

And they're never going to hurt you ever again, okay?

Opal said that if I ran, she'd k*ll me, and if I told anyone, she'd find my sister and take her, too.

♪

- [SIREN WAILS]

- Soak it in, kids.

Bask in the glory of the PPE mother lode.

It's beautiful.

It came?

It actually came!

- [BOTH LAUGH]

- I forgot what good news feels like.

- Altman, can I help you?

- Uh, yeah.

I mean, our nurses are using rubber bands to hold on their masks.

Can't we help you open these?

Or were you planning to sell them on the black market?

[LAUGHS]

Oh, my God, were you?

No, no, I just...

We...

We need, uh, a system.

Yeah, okay, well, you know, we open these, we take the masks, and run around the hospital like Santa Claus on Christmas.

That's the system.

Fine, fine, but you two stand guard in case someone sneaks in from another hospital.

- Are you serious?

- This stuff is paper gold, Tseng.

So now you're the best-educated security guard this side of the Mississippi.

I got booties!

Booties.

Booties.

Good.

Booties are good.

Yeah.

Okay, but we also need masks.

Yeah, well, we also need...

booties.

You ordered masks, right?

And gloves and shields?

- Of course I did.

I...

- These are all booties.

By the thousands.

Booties, more booties.

They're here, somewhere.

♪ I keep distance to everyone I see ♪

They're here some...

♪ Is it me or you? ♪

♪ But something makin' me feel brand-new ♪

Damn it!

Oh, my God!

Koracick!

[GRUNTING]

[ECHOING]

Tom!

[CRYING]

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

JACKSON: He's still tachycardic.

His body's so stressed from the burns.

God, it's so hot in here.

It has to be.

I mean, the burns mean his body can't regulate temperature, so we got to crank the whole room way up.

I know that.

I wasn't saying you didn't, Jo.

Okay, then why even say it?

You said it was hot.

I said why.

Okay?

I thought we were just stating facts.

[DOORBELL RINGS]

Hey.

I, uh, I drank some in the elevator to, like, make it less weird.

Oh!

Wine!

JACKSON: Yeah, which is now embarrassing because I realize that I kind of set this up as a date, and it's definitely not a date.

I mean, I didn't bother wearing pants, but it's really sweet.

Whoa!

[LAUGHING]

Oh, my God, is that your date food?

- That is not...

- Oh, my God, Jackson.

No girl wants to take their clothes off after eating cheese and cured meat.

Thanks for coming over and openly mocking me.

This is...

It's totally acceptable date food.

Wait.

Is that Kenny G?

[GASPS]

Do you only have romantic soft pillow sex?

That's not...

It's on, like, a shuffle.

Mm.

Mm.

I hate you.

Gimme that.

[GASPS]

Wow.

What now?

No, I just realized I've never dated a rich guy before.

I mean, doctors have money, but you're, like, collect-art rich.

Wow, that would weird me out.

Well, it's a good thing that we're not dating then, isn't it?

Right.

You're just a bridge.

I'm just a bridge.

Are you sure this is what you want?

Mm-hmm.

[CRYING]

Are you...

Oh, oh, okay.

We c...

We should stop.

No, no, no, I'm okay.

Let's keep going.

- I don't think...

Jo...

- I'm okay.

I'm okay.

It's okay.

We should...

[CRYING]

No, no, I really - I really want to have sex with you.

I really do.

Please, let's keep going.

Okay, listen, it's okay.

I think we can...

We can try another time.

I'm sorry.

- Sit down.

- I'm sorry.

I'll get you some water.

[CRYING]

I'm so sorry.

No, you have nothing to be sorry about.

Don't worry about it.

[CRYING]

They said they wanted to talk to my boss.

Then tell them you're the boss next time.

- Really?

- Hello.

I'm Dr.

Miranda Bailey.

STEVE: Uh, uh, Kayden Lee is our son.

He was in a fire.

Kayden is only .

We should be allowed to be in there.

I know this is a scary situation.

I'm a parent.

Believe me, I understand your frustration.

But you have my word as chief that all of your children are receiving the best possible care.

But we just need you to bear with us a little while longer.

Excuse me.

Uh, Aaron Morris.

Any word on Frankie?

Uh, which one is Frankie?

He's immunocompromised.

He got a kidney donation for polycystic kidney disease just two months ago.

He's high risk for Covid.

- Then why was he at a party?

- Schmitt.

- Frankie Morris.

- Yes.

Uh, he must still be en route.

I'll look into it myself.

Tell Kayden he's not alone.

Mom and Dad are here.

I cannot do this, Steve.

I need to be with him.

He's our baby.

[CRYING]

BAILEY: We still haven't heard anything from her family?

TARYN: Her family still live in Arizona, sister goes to school in Portland.

I'm not sure if missing persons was able to reach them.

Well, find out.

I don't want her waking up alone in an empty ICU!

Go on!

Bailey, if this is too much for you, I can take over.

I betrayed her once.

I'm not doing that again.

I looked her in the eye and told DeLuca to send her home.

With a monster.

Well, you assessed the situation as best you could.

And you were distracted because DeLuca was...

DeLuca...

I don't know what we're gonna do with DeLuca.

[SIGHS]

I mean, I-I know what he's feeling.

At least in part.

I know what it feels like to want help but be afraid of it at the same time.

Richard Webber all but put the pills in my mouth.

I had given up, but he never did.

Well, maybe that's what we need to do.

Just not give up.

Tissue grasper.

Frankie... Morris.

His father was notified he was being brought here from the fire.

Frankie Morris.

He's not here yet.

[SIGHS]

What did they do?

Stop for frozen yogurt on the way?

We're not even supposed to be open to trauma.

You think he was turned away?

I'll try to find out.

Uh, uh, Bailey.

Uh, ah.

Um, I was thinking.

I saw some nurses wiping down their masks with bleach.

Now, I know that can't be good, so what I was wondering was can I...

You went through the whole stack of safety precautions?

I-I-I...

What was I say...

You committed all of those protocols to memory?

Look, this is no longer the hospital that you left.

And if you're going to insist on being here, then you are going to need to know how we operate now.

So when I tell you to read the safety protocol, I mean read the damn safety protocol!

WOMAN: Dr. Madigan to the Covid floor.

Dr. Madigan to the Covid floor.

[CELLPHONE RINGS]

[SIGHS]

- [CELLPHONE CLICKS]


- Hey.

Yeah, so when I said goodbye earlier, something kinda slipped out.

Hmm.

You're gonna need to be more specific.

Oh, you mean when you dropped a "love you" on me and then jumped off our call?



- Right, okay, so you heard.

- [CHUCKLES]

Yeah, so, um, s-so, yeah, I wasn't really saying that to you.

That was to my colleague Kingsley.

It's this little initiative we started at my hospital.

It's kind of like a morale boost,

so that the whole staff feels valued.

Oh, yeah, that makes way more sense than you saying it to me because that would be...

Ridiculous, yeah, I know.

And maybe scare you away.

For real, though.

Did I freak you out?

Weirdly only a little.

Okay, good.

Because if I lost the one place in the world where I actually manage to feel good during this mess,

- I think I'd be done for.

- Me, too.

And somehow you just made it more romantic than saying "love."

- See how I do?

- Hm.

Talk later?

If we're still alive.

[CELLPHONE BEEPS]

[CHUCKLES]

Excuse me.

We have more signs in this place than Times Square, and they're very clear.

The few visitors we have right now have to be accompanied by a hospital employee.

So either you have been misplaced or you're not supposed to be here.

My son is in here.

Kayden Lee.

I know it's against the rules for me to be here, but he was burned.

He was burned so badly that he needs surgery.

He just turned , and I...

And I...

And I know that means that he's an adult, that he drives a car and he's dating someone, and he does his own laundry because we wanted to make sure of that before college.

But he still has the same smile that he had when he was a baby, and he still says "I love you" before leaving the house, and he won't shut the door unless I say "I love you" back.

So he needs me.

He needs to hear my voice and he'll know that I love him and that everything is going to be okay.

I know what it's like to worry about someone so much you think it'll break you.

- Come with me.

- Oh, thank you.

Thank you.

What is this?

Andrew, the people in this room love you, respect you, and care about you, and they want you to know that.

[SCOFFS]

This is...

No, no, humor us, please, please.

CARINA: A-A-Andrea, the day you were born, Nonna was babysitting me.

And...

And, uh, when she told me I had a baby brother, I-I-I ran outside and I splashed around in the puddles of rain and...

And shouted at the sky because I was so happy.

I, um...

You...

You will always be my baby brother.

And I know you're hurting right now.

I know that.

But you don't have to be.

There is help for you.

All of us want to help you.

DeLuca, even if you hadn't saved my life, I'd be here.

I've seen class after class come through this program.

I've done it enough to know when someone has something special.

Don't throw this away.

MEREDITH: What seems like a weakness is actually a strength...

If you get help.

Because you care so deeply.

You fight so hard for your patients, for the people you love.

That's not illness.

That's you.

You...

You know I live with obsessive compulsive disorder.

But I take medication.

I get therapy, and I stay on top of it.

And, no, it is not always easy for me.

Look, you're not alone.

You have an illness, but there's no shame in that.

- No shame?

- No.

That's a joke, right?

Why do you think it's a joke?

To say there's no shame?

My whole life, I've had one goal.

One thing that would mean I did okay.

Don't end up like my Dad.

I wanted it more than being a surgeon.

One thing.

And I just...

I failed.

No, you're not like him.

I don't care what you think, okay?

I don't care about Bailey's OCD.

I don't care about saving Richard's life.

I would give up every life I have ever saved if I could just not feel like this.

I'd give up knowing you!

[CRYING]

God!

[CRYING]

Hey.

Hey.

I know I'm not okay.

I just don't know what to do.

Okay.

You listen to the people that know what to do and let them help you, Andrea.

Th-That's it.

♪ It's there in your eyes ♪

♪ The way this world ♪

♪ Has held us down ♪

All we're asking you to do is fight as hard for yourself as you do for everybody else.

♪ We're on our own ♪

♪ At least for now ♪

♪ Just ♪

♪ Surviving, surviving ♪

♪ And nothing else ♪

- Okay.

- Okay.

Okay.

Perez.

It's Grey.

Get someone to cover your shift so you can walk Dora up so she can say goodbye.

Yep, that's it.

Walk her up so she can say goodbye.

- Thank you.

- [CELLPHONE CLICKS]

♪ The room in a spin ♪

♪ I hear the howling of the wind ♪

♪ And the pounding of the rain ♪

♪ And I'd give everything to dream again ♪

♪ There must be more than ♪

♪ Surviving, surviving ♪

♪ Surviving, surviving ♪

- ♪ And nothing else ♪

- [CRYING]

♪ Surviving, surviving ♪

♪ Surviving, surviving ♪

♪ Surviving, surviving ♪

♪ And nothing else ♪

I'll clean all this up.

♪ I'd give everything to dream again ♪

♪ Ohhh ♪

I'll clean... that up.

[SIGHS]

Hey.

Where have you been?

I-I was at home.

If you're not here and you don't answer your phone, then no one knows where you are and nobody knows that you're okay.

I turned the ringer off and I crashed the second I got home, okay?

The therapist says that if I don't sleep, the mania can creep back in.

Who died?

Everyone.

Marvin Lindstrom, Doris Sanchez, Tom Richardson.

You treated him.

Yeah, the retired choir director.

He.. He loved fishing.

[SIGHS]

And I'm sorry I wasn't here, Mer.

You're okay?

Yeah, I'm...

I'm okay.

I'm glad you're okay.

Make sure people know where you are.

[JOANNA JONES' "FREEDOM" PLAYS]

[ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]

So, Dr.

Grey and I were able to repair Erin's hernia, but there was a great deal of inflammation in her abdomen.

So we are giving her a course of IV antibiotics.

You're going to have to say all this again for my parents when they get here.

I still can't believe any of this.

We...

We looked for her forever.

[SNIFFLES]

We looked for her everywhere.

♪ Those winds of change ♪

Well, we can't stress enough how much she's been through.

She's going to need years of support and therapy.

Of course, whatever she needs.

I'm not sure I'm gonna let her out of my sight ag...

[GASPS]

♪ It feels like freedom ♪

Abby?

I'm here, Erin.

I'm here.

Oh, my God.

♪ Storm clouds are breakin' ♪

♪ Storm clouds are breakin', oh, yeah ♪

[CRYING]

I'm so sorry.

♪ My worries, they are fadin' ♪

- I'm so sorry.

- [CRYING]

It's not your fault.

It's not your fault.

It's not your fault.

♪ And oh Oh, freedom ♪

♪ Oh, yeah ♪

♪ Freedom ♪

♪ It feels like freedom ♪

♪ Oh, freedom ♪

♪ And my sisters and brothers ♪

♪ Sisters and brothers ♪

Kayden.

- ♪ Oh, yeah ♪ - [CRIES]

♪ I see 'em comin' together, ooh ♪

♪ Comin' together, ooh ♪

♪ And, oh ♪

♪ I'm ready now to move on ♪

What the hell are you doing?

You know that's not allowed.

If Bailey asks, I'll tell her that I didn't get to that part of the manual.

♪ The sun is comin' up again ♪

Can you give her a couple minutes?

[SIGHS]

Mama's here.

Can you hear me?

I'm here, and I love you.

I love you, too.

♪ I know ♪

♪ It feels like freedom ♪

Richard.

O-O-Okay, I know it's just a start, but...

If you haven't gotten through the new protocols, then I'm not interested.

You are not my mother, and you are not my teacher.

You are my colleague and you are my friend...

And I am your boss.

I am your boss and it is my job to...

Well, don't tell me what your job is.

I taught you your job.

I taught you your whole damn job.

And now suddenly you don't want to let me do mine?

I brought you down here for some good news, but you're convinced that I'm...

I'm incompetent and infirm, and you won't even hear it.

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

What good news?

Your staff is reusing PPE, and cleaning them with bacterial wipes...

- Yeah.

- ...which deteriorates the mask.

[SIGHS]

Now they don't have to.

You're welcome.

Oh, my God.

[SIGHS]

It's genius.

[LAUGHS]

- You're genius.

- I know.

I'm not sure how you forgot.

[SCOFFS]

I did not.

And it's not about your ability, Richard.

It's about your vulnerability.

You know you are high risk for Covid right now.

Look, you have already given more of yourself to this hospital than anyone ever could.

And you have overcome, you have suffered, and you are why this hospital is as good as it is today.

Y-You're why I am as good as I am today.

And you, Richard, have earned the right to stay home, to stay safe, and to rest.

This thing, it's...

[SIGHS]

It's...

It's...

It's only going to get worse.

Every relationship I've ever had has failed.

Except this one.

And this place.

I will find no peace...

No peace...

If I have to leave it.

[VOICE BREAKING]

You...

are going to give me a second heart attack, you know that?

- Bailey...

- [SIGHS]

...you know I got to tell you that this place couldn't ask for a better chief.

I'm in awe.

Even though I taught you most of it.

You know...

♪ [MONITOR BEEPING]

JO: Hey.

Hey.

How's he doing?

- Well, he's stable.

- Okay.

I think his visit from his mom helped.

Right.

I'd like to apologize to you if that'll help.

I mean, I'm not exactly sure what I did to make you so angry, but...

Angry?

I'm - No, I'm not angry.

I...

I was just hot.

Jackson.

[SIGHS]

I am mortified.

All the time, every minute that I'm around you.

I... cried into your mouth.

I mean, I'm...

I'm pretty sure that I snotted in your mouth.

And I-I...

You were trying to do me a favor - and I just...

I...

- It was a favor you weren't ready for.

- I really wasn't.

- It's fine.

You...

Look, you've been through hell, okay?

You were doing your best.

You're still doing your best.

And we are, um, friends.

So if you can get over the mortification and stop treating me like crap, I figure we're all good.

Can we just pretend it never happened?

Done.

Okay.

Alright.

I saw Kayden.

It's bad.

[VOICE BREAKING]

He was so bandaged that I couldn't see his face.

- One second, okay.

Hi, um, Mr.

Morris.

- Yes?

Hey, your son Frankie was taken to Seattle Presbyterian because we're a Covid center...

Oh, my God.

No, they are understaffed, so they turned away his ambulance.

- Are you kidding me?

- I've been in touch with my husband, who is a first responder.

They're bringing him back here.

He is stable, right?

He should be here momentarily.

Oh, my God.

- Okay.

Thank you.

- Okay?

- Oh, God.

- [SIGHS]

Okay.

Hey, Mr. Bronson said his wife was here, but I can't find her.

Can you just let her know that his O.R.I.F. went fine?

I hope you're doing okay.

Because I'm not.

I hit this morning.

times I've had to tell someone that their loved one has died.

That's times as much as I've had to do since I started here.

And it's making me wonder how much longer I can keep doing this because is a... big number.

And I'm afraid of getting to a place where it's not so big.

And I know that we're not together, but you're still a person that I care about and...

I don't know.

I-I-I thought that you might want to know how I'm doing.

Which is terrible.

And I really hope that you're okay.

I'm fine.

AARON: No, Conor said Kayden started the fire.

Oh, so it's...

It's his fault?

They shouldn't have even been out there, but they felt sorry for Frankie.

Wait a minute.

You think that this is Frankie's fault?

Posting all the time about how sad he is he can't be with his friends.

He missed a year of school when he was sick.

Of course he wanted to see his friends.

And, hey, I don't need a lecture from Mr. Lakehouse here, okay?

BAILEY: Okay, everyone, let's just settle.

We all follow each other on Instagram.

Did you really think we weren't gonna see you grilling every night with half the neighborhood?

And no one in masks!

You know, kids learn by example.

Well, Kayden's example is a selfish moron.

- [PEOPLE GASP]

- Stop, both of you!

- Steve, stop!

Cut it out right now!

- Schmitt, call security!

MEREDITH: Disaster has a tendency to melt away everything else in life.

Selfish son of a b*tch!

Steve!

So if you want to know who you'll be in a disaster,

- ask yourself...

- Security!

...who am I now?