Transcripts - Forever Dreaming

- Hey!

- Hey!

- What's up?

- Hi!

- How's it goin'?

- It's good, it's good.

Here's the...

the place where

we're gonna do it.

Awesome, sounds good.

So, pretty much what we're

gonna do is we're gonna do,

uh...

I think when we

talked on the phone,

wanted to make it

pretty normal so you're

- comfortable...

- Yeah.

So probably 10 to 15

minutes of just, uh...

you know, however

you wanna... do it,

and then, uh...

pretty much I think what we're

gonna do is we're gonna try to

- lean you off the bed.

- Yeah.

I think, uh-- can you do a

handstand off this or...?

- Sure.

- You're able to do a

handstand off this,

or is it too high up,

- or are you--?

- I don't know if I totally

understand what that means

when you say "do a handstand."

Like, when I

finish inside you,

we're gonna, like,

vertical for, like,

15 minutes-- 10,

15 minutes-- just to...

so the sperm

stays inside you...

- Yeah, yeah, totally, totally.

- And then, you're

gonna fall out,

and then

you should orgasm.

Are you able to do it?

Like, maybe some

pillows on the floor,

- that on the floor or...

- Yeah.

If you want, I could put the

bed spring somewhere and then

just put this and

that on the floor.

- I don't know what's easier.

- Yeah, yeah, I think--

What do you think's better?

I'm not sure.

I think

that sounds fine.

Uh...

Okay, we'll just--

we'll figure it out.

- We'll play it by ear?

- We'll play it by ear.

All right, yeah, I

guess that's what we'll do!

So I guess we'll

get to it, then!

All right, so I guess

we'll start...

'cause I guess we're ready.

All right, let's get going.

Cool!

Um...

sorry, can I, like-- uh,

how was your drive down?

I need, like, a minute of

decompression first.

- Okay, all right.

How was the drive?

It was

good, it was good.

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It's amazing

to love someone so intensely

so instantly.

It's not like anything

I've ever experienced.

It's hard to describe;

it's like a warm wave sort of

coming over me.

When I ended up

meeting with Kyle...

And did you get to

eat some ice cream yesterday?

- Yeah.

- Yeah, that was fun...

The interaction

itself was super awkward.

Like a...

horrendous one night stand.

I

love you, honey.

But then, I

got to go on with my life.

I normally ask my recipients

some of these questions,

um, just to get a

better feel for-- for y'all.

You can obviously opt out

from any of these questions.

All right, so how long

have y'all been together?

Seven years.

Uh, what type of

employment fields do y'all

work in?

Um, I work as a telemetry

tech up at the hospital in

- Tuba City.

- Yeah.

For me, I'm a manager over

at Denny's in our hometown in

Tuba City.

I know the next

time I come through there...

- Exactly, yeah!

- Yeah.

Put some extra bacon on there.

Uh...

But, um, do y'all

have a specimen cup?

Oh, no.

We forgot to get that; that's

what I was gonna tell you.

It's okay, I can-- I can

message my fiance to tell

her to come.

I don't know if y'all are

okay meeting her briefly.

- Yeah, sure!

- Oh, that's fine, yeah!

I wanted to meet her.

- Here's my

fiance, Atasha.

- Hello!

Nice to

meet you, I'm Sheaia,

- and this is my wife, Sandee.

- Nice to meet you!

You're so pretty!

Oh! You're too kind.

How are you guys?

- We're good!

- We're doin' good.

Nervous, but...

- Oh.

- I could imagine, yeah.

- Yeah!

So, um, how

did y'all guys meet?

We met through [both] Zumba.

I was forced to

get married with a guy just

because of our

Navajo tradition,

and I wasted half

of my life with him.

She's the first lady

that's given me everything.

So how long have

you guys been together?

Too long.

- You're funny.

Um, we've been together,

what, three years in July?

- Yeah.

- So not very long, but...

- long enough.

- That's good!

- Wow.

- Yeah.

You guys have

any kids of your own?

Not together, no,

but he has kids.

We're most

definitely trying.

I get so busy, I have to

literally put her in my

schedule to make

sure that she gets a...

she-- not

necessarily a donation,

but we can make an

attempt to conceive.

I'm

just like you guys.

I'll text and be like,

"Um, do you have these dates

available?"

"Let's make this work."

- And also...

- Oh my gosh...

It's-- it's most definitely

something to laugh at,

but, like I say, each

month, when it don't happen,

it most definitely

is a heartbreaker,

you know?

So...

Well, good

luck to you guys too!

And we'll keep you

guys in our prayers.

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I look at

this as making a cake.

They have all

the other ingredients,

they're the one

that bakes the cake...

I just bring flour to the mix.

My pops got over...

25 kids?

I think my dad was more or

less addicted to pleasure.

We're doing it for

two different reasons.

I love helping people--

going out and helping

homeless people...

I donate blood,

donate blood plasma...

and six months after

I got out of prison,

I started sperm donating.

All right, all done.

Well, it's good seeing you.

- Alrighty, well,

we'll see you guys.

- Alrighty.

All right, see you.

It was

great meeting you guys!

- Thank you.

- All right.

Sushi tonight?

That sounds good.

All

right, let's do sushi.

Sperm banks

have a lot of issues--

a lot of issues.

It's like a money grab.

It's a party in there.

You know I'm working, right?

I am too.

Yeah, okay.

It's like

how you have malls.

The competition of

malls is online shopping.

We're just online donors.

That's all we're doing.

[electro

A lot of donors

just add "Donor" to their

last name;

it's kind of...

corny.

"Joe Donor," we

have "Brad Donor"...

I didn't wanna be

a "Steve Donor,"

so I just twisted it up

with a little German twist

and made it "Stefan."

I'm 65 years old.

Giving back is a huge

theme in my life now,

for some reason.

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Reaching something on the top

shelf at the grocery store for

someone that can't

do it themselves?

f*ckin' love that.

I'll tell ya this: I've even

gone up and down the aisles at

Kroger looking for someone

that is not tall

enough to reach something,

kinda staking them out

to see if they might need me.

Shoo, look at the

size of that thing.

Sometimes, I replay

conversations with my

soon-to-be ex in my head, and

I'll just say, right out loud,

I'll say, "f*ck you!

Go f*ck yourself!"

She told me once...

"I really hate to divorce

you, because I'll never find

another man that can

do laundry like you."

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I'm

still donating.

In fact, I haven't been

donating for very long.

I just started

out six months ago,

and I'm happy to report

three pregnancies already!

I'm currently

28 and turning 29 in August,

and had a lung

transplant in 2019.

I also have Cystic Fibrosis,

so I wanna make sure that

you're not a carrier.

Regarding Cystic Fibrosis,

first, let me tell you how

sorry I am to read about your

diagnosis,

and how proud I am

of you for pushing forward

in spite of this

significant challenge.

You are a true

warrior in my book.

Logistically, what

does it look like when you

meet for

artificial insemination?

I don't charge

money for my sperm donations.

I do it for free.

For all the local donations,

the recipient has come to my

home, and I bring them

out a fully-loaded syringe.

Often, it's recommended that

the recipient have an orgasm

after insemination.

Obviously, I do not

participate in this aspect.

However,

if I was asked,

I certainly would be

available to assist.

Would you have any interest

in meeting socially with me,

say for coffee or

lunch sometime?

I would also

like to meet you in person.

So great

to get that reply,

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I'm really sorry.

Can I take a rain check?

Okay, never mind.

I'm going to get

myself to come.

I'm just going to

be super anxious.

I'll be the

tall bald guy wearing the

pink shirt.

You can do this, Rachel.

I believe in you.

Oh my God!

Here you go!

That's a good

five milliliters.

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music playing

She is

Gracie, contestant number 141!

Um, so this is face

and personality, right?

So I told you last night:

you gotta make the judges

wanna be your friend, right?

You're gonna draw 'em

in with your winks...

Mwah!

Mwah!

Should I throw on

a clean diaper?

His

diaper's not clean?!

Um...

nah, it's good.

Okay.

Face and personality.

You cannot--

Elaine, did you

test again today?

Yes, I did this morning.

It was lower than yesterday,

so yesterday was peak.

So let's

try again tonight.

Yeah, it said "Do the

deed" on my little app.

"Do the

deed" on your app?

I

didn't understand that.

Ahhh, boop!

- Oh, where did you go?!

Oh, Ari, you

forgot the onesie, dude!

The white onesie

goes on under that!

He looks cute without it, if

you wanna-- what do you think?

Uh, no, we're

gonna go with the shirt.

Okay, fine.

Hello!

- How you doin'?

- Hi!

Just calling to wish

a happy birthday to the

birthday twins.

It's a whole year and I didn't

even get to meet them yet,

so it's on my itinerary.

You keep saying that.

I think you still

owe me a grand for that

paternity test.

Let's go.

Uh-oh.

- Shh, shh.

You're

spilling the water?

It's gonna be a messy one.

Ugh!

- I have 123 children.

I've got a dozen women

pregnant right now,

one of them's having

twins, so that would be, like,

13 on the way.

I got another positive

pregnancy test today.

That's, um...

a baker's dozen

of women pregnant.

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I suspect by the time

this movie comes out,

I'm gonna be

hanging up my hat.

I'm already too old

to be jerking off in

public restrooms.

What does my mom's

heart rate test have to do

with having a baby?

Uh, yeah, that's

really, um, a test for...

for-- for ovulation.

It's, like, to test when

you could have a baby.

My mommy says that a swan

drops off the baby...

- Uh-huh.

- And then they go

to the doctor,

and then they put the baby

in your stomach to fully

fertilize the baby, and then--

and then you go to the doctor,

and they take the

baby out of you,

and you have a real baby.

You think you

came from a swan?

- Yeah!

- The bird?!

- Mm-hm.

- The bird dropped you?

Mm-hm.

Have you seen any other

birds dropping off kids?

They wear an

invisibility cloak...

Mm-hm, mm...

- So you don't see them.

- Uh-huh!

That's good.

If the bird is

dropping off the baby,

okay, then why am

I Emerson's dad?

Isn't the bird the dad?

- You know?

Are you

ready for the donation?

We are ready, yes!

Mom, you've

lied to me my whole life.

I've lied to

you your whole life?!

I may have let it slip

that that wasn't blood sugar.

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Here you go!

- Are you good?

- Wow, yeah!

All right, I'll

see ya in a little bit.

Bye!

I don't know

if I can even explain the

compulsion to be a mom.

Like my coworker

said the other day,

"I'm 71, still trying

to have that baby."

Number 104, this is Zion!

And I think it

never goes away, that feeling.

Number three

from the boys division,

we welcome to the stage...

- Emerson!

The joy that Ari

has brought me is a little

two year old, who

burps on purpose and farts

and eats his boogers.

How do you thank

someone for giving you that?

It has to be wonderful

to hear all the time,

"Oh, thank you, I can

never thank you enough!"

But I have no clue what

Ari's motivations are.

I don't know if, at this

point, he even knows.

Ho tried to catch me.

Ho tried to catch me slippin'.

Back up, ho!

Back up, ho!

Oh, shit!

Back up, ho!

Looks like I'm going

out to Globe today.

When?

Um...

not sure yet, I'm

still talking to them.

- So she's a single woman...

- Mm-hm.

She had lost her

husband two years ago--

he was k*lled

in a car accident.

She works, uh, in behavioral

health as a counselor, so...

So when did

she contact you,

right now or was it earlier?

About roughly an

hour, hour and a half ago.

Mm.

What's that "Mm" for?

'Cause we had plans.

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I don't have a

problem with what he's doing.

I think him donating

definitely makes him happy.

It's a way for people

to see who he truly is,

and not focus so

much on his past.

We all have the same desire:

we're all trying

to get pregnant,

trying to have a child.

But the recipients...

they come first.

You've got

about 15 minutes.

If you keep it at

body temperature,

it should be fine,

but eventually, they still

die outside the body,

so the sooner the better.

Best of luck!

Okay,

thank you so much!

Mission accomplished.

Let's go home now.

Yeah, I'm hungry.

Hi!

- How you been?

- Hello!

- Hi!

- Hi!

She's so cute!

She's like,

"Who's this mystery guy?"

- Not much of a mystery!

I like your bow!

We call you her

"DD," as in "donor dad."

DD?

That's

cute, I like that.

It's

already gone by so fast.

Yeah.

Oh, oh, oh, oh!

Stomp your

foot, stomp your foot!

I don't know if I can!

I don't know if I can, but

you have the moves, right?

Oh, you push me away?

Okay!

Oh! Oh! Oh!

No?

Come on, you was doin' it!

Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh!

Oh! Oh! Oh!

Hey Bill, comma,

guess where I am,

question mark.

I'm here at the

ultrasound place in Nashville,

getting ready to go in and see

my baby for the first time,

comma, hahahahaha,

exclamation point.

I wonder if she'll

look like me, period.

I'll let you

know later, period.

We're ready

for you; you can come on back.

Donating

sperm makes me feel good.

Maybe it makes me feel

wanted and-- and needed.

Worth something

to somebody else.

"If it doesn't work,

I'll see ya next month!"

Almost like

seeing my therapists.

Hey, so... how

would you feel about me coming

tonight and staying at your

house until I have to leave

for Nashville around 10PM?

I would probably

sleep after inseminating,

so it's not like you

would have to entertain me

or anything.

It's a great plan!

I would never feel like

I need to entertain you.

You seem pretty chill to me.

You learned that I'm

not an ax m*rder*r,

and hopefully

comfortable now in my home.

Just talking and getting to

know each other better is

wonderful.

Great, see you soon!

- Hey, there!

- Hey!

- How's it going?

- Good!

Happy Sunday!

- Nice to see you!

- Long time no see!

- Nice and warm.

- It's been a while!

Come on in!

- How's it going?

- Good.

Oh! You don't have any

furniture in your living room.

No, but

I'm working on it.

Come on in!

Sit!

Okay, I'll follow you.

Age

before beauty, right?

Hi,

how can I help?

List of

celebrity older fathers.

Here's a

summary from Parents,

"13 Celebrity Dads Who

Had Children After 50":

Jeff Goldblum, 62;

Mick Jagger, 73...

- Seventy-f*ckin'-three!

Ronnie Wood, 68...

It's the

gift of maturity.

Yeah!

I can agree with

that, definitely!

Some of the

donors that, you know,

you see

what they post,

- I mean, they're just boys.

- Yeah.

I'm a man.

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In society,

there's this idea of

who deserves to be a

mom and who doesn't.

Do I deserve to be a mom?

I have medical

professionals who are saying,

"This really

isn't recommended."

I could die if I

make this choice.

I have determined it is

important enough for me to

take that risk.

What's

the plan if you...

have a baby,

and then the baby's here

but you're not anymore?

In

the perfect world,

I would have a group of

people lined up to...

help me raise

this baby, and then,

if I was to pass away,

continue to raise this baby.

That's something

that I'm, like,

trying to figure out now.

If I was to have a

child and then die,

are you gonna feel

guilty about that?

- Are you gonna feel...

- No.

- I will feel sad...

- Mm-hm.

But I won't feel guilty.

Remember? We did this

when we were adding and

subtracting binomial numbers.

This is the

binomial sequence,

so it's one of

those sequences.

It's a geometric sequence

with a common ratio of two,

and everything keeps

on doubling, right?

You wanna pick another

number, one through 30?

15?

15?

Now, this is a

question on the exam,

but it may not be

question number 15,

because you know I'm

scrambling it and alternating,

but it's gonna be a question.

What are the chances of having

your first five children be

all boys?

Remember, we're adding

the two numbers above it,

so two plus one is

three, one, four,

six, four, one,

and then, finally,

we'll do one,

five, ten, ten,

five, one.

So what would be the

probability of having your

first five

children be all boys?

It'd be one over 32.

Now, I have more

girls than boys,

but my first

five were all boys.

But, of course, I had the

twin girls born this week.

Do you know how

child support works?

No.

Well, let's say

I'm gonna make $100,000,

and then a woman sues

me for child support.

They will get 17

percent of my salary.

So let's say...

five women sued, and

that is gonna give us what?

- 39,389.

That's almost by

the poverty line.

39,000 wha?

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I've been

married so many times.

Every time I get married,

I send them the marriage

certificate.

What, you marry

all these ladies?

Eh, sometimes, but they're

all fraudulent marriages.

My last marriage

was in Uganda.

This woman from Singapore,

she gets money from the

Singaporean government,

but only if she's married--

they don't respect

her lesbian marriage.

I said, "That's ridiculous;

we'll just get married in

Uganda."

You're an embarrassment.

We could agree on that.

- Oh!

Do you remember Brier?

I hear somebody needed

some papers notarized!

- Hey, how are you?

- Good to see you!

- How's everything?

- Great to see you.

It's okay, I

don't need a kiss.

You're getting one

anyway, you're so beautiful.

How could I leave you out?

The truth is I know almost

nothing about Ari's life.

It's totally...

I don't know--

where do you sleep at night?

Yeah, right.

Last night, I

slept in Boynton,

then the night before that...

No, but,

like, during the year!

Where did I sleep

the night before that?

This set's good to go.

I think you have,

like, four sets in here?

Could you explain what you're

doing with all these papers?

Well, I'm actually notarizing

the paperwork for these

passports, right?

Correct?

Correct, these are

children that were born out of

- the country...

- Out of the country.

And they

wanna be US citizens.

I'm

gonna run out of ink.

- Yeah.

You

liked that one, huh?

She didn't like that one.

So I'm curious:

you don't think any

of this is God's will?

There's a reason

this happening.

If you're a God believer--

I think you

make your own choices.

Okay,

but what choices?

I mean--

He could've made better

choices, that's for sure.

So there's no destiny?

It's all about choices?

Yeah! You could

choose good or bad.

No matter what,

you're looking at this as bad?

Yeah.

You cannot see one

positive thing out of this?

No, it's not normal!

120 kids?!

- It's crazy!

- 130.

What,

King David had that!

King Solomon-- they had

plenty of kids, right?!

Yup.

- King Ari!

- Yeah.

If you would have

kept it to all Jewish...

maybe I could

have understood it.

Okay, what about

the Jewish kids?

Would you be open to

meeting some of them?

Nobody wants to be involved!

That's your

joy in life

is that people should be

involved with your kids.

Nobody wants to be

involved with your kids.

Get that through

your head, Ari.

Mm.

You made mistakes,

you ruined your life,

and that's your problem!

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Hey, I am here.

I'm excited

about this process.

Um, I got the soft

cup, have the syringe.

Um, [chuckling] and

yeah, uh, hopefully,

uh, we get a

first-round success.

Uh, just gimme a call back.

Yeah, um...

would have been just

good to let me know,

hey, you're not

gonna come and all.

Um, I am a human, I do

have a life outside of this,

but, um...

Yeah, well, hopefully it's

nothing medical and you're in

good health.

Uh, hopefully I'll be

able to help you next month.

Uh, have a good one!

You know I'm just wining

and dining you up for later,

right?

Dinner now, desert later.

I don't know, we can

probably get desert here too,

- but...

Oh, man...

Gotta put me in the

books like two months ahead.

Got you down, coach.

Put me in, coach!

Lately, I've been

trying to make more time,

understanding that you're

getting to that 30 mark.

I think I can always

go back to school,

but I can't

always become a mom.

I'm not a spring

chicken anymore, Tyree.

Hey Alexa,

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I'm pregnant!

Breathe!

We're gonna have a baby.

I'm having a baby!

I need

to call my mom!

Ooh!

Yes!

I did it, I did it, I did it!

So me and my

fiance have been trying to

have a baby for two years now,

and we just got the great news

today: she's five

weeks and two days.

I feel like ever

since I was a little girl,

I wanted to

have a family--

have a husband and kids.

I think we would be

great parents together.

Hi, Rachel,

and happy hump day.

How are things with you?

I just saw David Lynch's

Mulholland Drive this weekend.

It was Naomi

Watts' breakout role.

Fascinating movie.

I've actually

never seen that movie.

It's been on my list

of movies to watch.

Movie night?

Let's do it, sweetie.

I have a pretty

nice home theater setup.

5.1 Dolby surround sound.

It would be a

pleasure to entertain you.

Yes,

definitely movie night.

I haven't had a person

to watch movies with in a

long time.

Also, I'm curious

as to why you identify as "bi"

when you have only

been with one man.

I find the whole

thing interesting,

yet confusing.

I would love to pick

your brain about what

characteristics and vibe

it would take to move your

valence of attraction

toward the male end of the

spectrum again.

Look at the dog!

Who is that?!

Is that a new voice?

Look at your

little speckled paws!

Do you like classical music?

Yeah.

Do you

wanna go see the KSO?

It's an all-Mozart program.

I was gonna buy one

ticket, but I could get two.

Not like a date or anything.

Sure.

Don't hurt yourself.

I'm not

gonna hurt myself!

It's, like, nylon!

Just like that!

Oh my goodness!

It's okay, buddy!

Goodnight.

Have you

ever done this before?

I don't know.

Have you?

I

want to with you.

Wow, this is a feast!

So do you like

the vodka sauce or no?

Yeah, it's delicious!

Mm!

We have ketchup?

Ew!

Why?!

- Mm?

- Mm-hm.

Just to upset you.

We do, but

you're disgusting!

Aiden, what are

you doin', babe?

You have your iPad?

You gotta excuse

me one second,

my son's gonna--

well, our son

is probably making

a mess somewhere.

Excuse me for one second.

Aiden, babe, you

can't do this, babe.

No, no, no, babe,

babe, babe, babe...

Babe, you can't.

- Out, now.

- Aiden, yoohoo!

Come out, come out,

wherever you are!

He was in the bathroom

playing with the cat's litter.

- Ooh.

- Mm-hm.

You gotta

wash your hands.

- We're gonna take a bath too.

- No!

- Yes.

- Nooo!

- Aiden, babe...

- No!

Yes.

Nooo!

- Yes.

- Nooo!

Is he not listening?

Of course

he's not listening.

Do you want me to

discipline him?

- No.

- No, I don't want it.

You cannot

touch the litter!

That's where the

cat goes poopy!

Stop touching the

litter and peepee!

Welcome to life

with a toddler!

Oh, Ari, you wouldn't know.

He's so funny!

- Wash your hands.

Aiden, babe,

don't be a little wuss!

Come on, you gotta

wash your hands, babe.

You're fine.

Yeah, it's been too

long since I've been out here.

Yeah, it's been

since, like, April or May.

Did I tell you?

Me and Aiden were at a play

place and he started calling

- other men "Daddy!"

- Oh...

- That was fun!

- Isn't that funny?

Calling all the men

"Daddy" 'cause he gets it

from daycare.

- He sees other people--

- Oh, the other dads are

picking up the

kid from daycare?

And they're going

"Daddy! Daddy!"

- Uh-huh!

- Yeah.

Ari,

where's my child, Ari?

Go check on my child!

Please make sure he's

not in the bathroom!

Aww, no, no!

No, no, no, no.

- Eww, stinky, stinky!

- Aiden, come on, babe!

I just gave you a bath!

That's where they poop!

You can't touch

the cat litter.

Aiden, come on.

I gotta put him to bed.

I can't--

Yeah, yeah,

let's put him to bed.

- Shh.

Aiden, babe, we're

going to bed, babe.

Come on.

- It's time for bed.

- Shh.

Good night.

- Put your head down.

- Come on.

Okay, Aiden, it's

time for bed, babe.

- Let's go, it's time for bed.

All right.

Come on, lay down, babe.

curious pensive music

Are you excited to

see your dad today?

Uh-huh.

When was the last

time you saw Dad?

I don't know.

Miami, maybe?

Are you gonna do a

dance routine for Daddy?

Show me.

How about this?

Ooh!

- Ooh, that's nice!

- Hey!

- Hey!

Are you excited

to see Daddy too?

What car do you think

he's gonna drive this time?

'Cause every time he comes,

he's got a different car.

Hey!

Hey, Daddy, yay!

- Hungry!

- Look, it's Daddy!

I have 138 children,

and if I spent a

week with each of them,

then I'd only get to

see them every few years.

I have two, three

birthdays a week;

I should be there

for their birthday!

That's untenable.

You could only be in so

many places at one time.

I'm gonna take a

little nap, all right?

A nap?

He has a long-- ahh!

I

keep on doing that.

mellow curious music

You know, all my

siblings own their own homes.

I'm the only one

who's basically homeless,

- you know?

- You're still not homeless.

I don't believe

you're homeless.

Of course

I'm not homeless.

I have homes in 20 states.

Back in New York, you

don't have your place there?

I sleep with

random kids every night.

I'd rather not spend the money

on rent and use it to be able

to, uh, go visit more kids.

This was the picture

that your mom sent me

when you were born.

It says "Daddy's

little princess."

Hey, hey, hey!

- What the heck?!

Ow.

Are you getting this?

I think every

time I hit a buffet,

I'm eating 'til I'm in pain.

I eat 'til I could

chew but can't swallow.

That's when I

know I have to stop.

I think that's

probably my life--

the life that

I made for myself.

Like, right now, if

you meet a woman that you

- like, would you stop?

- Yeah, of course!

I'm gonna stop without

a woman telling me to

- stop!

- When, Ari?

You keep saying that, but...

you've been

saying it for years!

It'll be like

a phased retirement.

Like, if somebody

wanted a sibling,

I'm not gonna say no.

People think it's like an

addiction that I can't stop.

Is it an addiction?

- I mean--

- I think it is.

I think you really just wanna

see how many kids you're

gonna produce.

curious music

Yoohoo!

Speedy delivery!

An addict will

never know they're addicted.

I don't have an

addictive personality.

- What is it?

- I'm not addicted to alcohol,

I'm not addicted to dr*gs,

I'm not addicted to anything!

People have their own

addictions, though!

I think an addiction

has to be something bad.

An addiction is

just something you wanna keep

doing.

What do you get out of it?

Listen, there's

all different ways to measure

wealth.

My bank account would

tell me I'm poor, but...

if you measure

wealth in love and joy...

I'm richer than Elon Musk.

sparse curious music

- Hi!

- How you doin'?

Hi, Tyree,

I'm Maritza.

Very nice to meet you.

- Tyree, nice to meet you.

- Nice to meet you.

Come on in.

- I got my wife Sarah here.

- Hello!

- How you doing?

- Hi! I'm Sarah.

- Tyree.

- Nice to meet you.

Nice to meet you.

I don't

know what happened.

One day, I

was pregnant;

the next day, I wasn't.

I mean, you

are aware that it wasn't your

fault, right?

I know that's

what you say, Mom,

but just-- I feel

differently about it.

I feel like I just, like...

I had one job.

If your body

can't do its job...

because that's the

way you were born,

you don't have any

control over that.

You know, I'm

sure there's a way,

I just-- you just

have to be open...

to try to figure it out.

Right in here.

- Thank you.

- Yup.

And then we'll

just be-- be waiting!

- All right, thank you!

- Yup!

He is

going through it with me,

but...

like, not in the same way.

tender pensive music

You know how I feel.

I-- I don't like

the relationship.

I think that you're building

on an unsolid foundation.

You're in a place where

you don't have a network,

a support system.

Is this the life that

you intended to live?

I don't think

we enjoy inflicting pain on

one another.

I do think it's part of

our relationship, though.

No, so it was already

offered to you as a

contracted employee.

Okay, have you tried

using a different browser?

So if you go to

the left far side,

see where it says "Taxes?"

Mm-hm, I think that's--

yeah, that's gonna be,

you know-- gonna

solve all our issues.

Oh, you're too kind.

Alrighty, have a nice day.

There's no way

he could fully understand.

Tyree has four children

from other relationships.

That's just gonna

have to be enough...

if I can't have a child.

It is

very complicated.

I told you, just-- just tell

him that you've met somebody!

I don't wanna lie!

Because then I have

to keep up that lie,

and then I feel guilty.

I legitimately enjoy

spending time with him,

I'm just not at all, like,

interested in a romantic

relationship.

You gotta cut that out,

stop staying there so long,

stop watching movies...

I feel bad because it does

sound like I'm coming across

as someone who's...

interested in, you know,

preparing dates together,

when really, I'm like...

"I actually like movies!

Like, let's just hang

out and watch movies!"

And to him, he's, like...

perceiving it as probably

me being interested in, like,

dating!

I don't know...

You can't just,

like, be friendly with someone

without them being

like, "Oh, yeah!

They want me" kind thing.

Especially when the premise

of our relationship is like,

"Oh, hey, I'm gonna

come over to your house.

Can you give me

your semen in a cup?"

We both have to do

sexual things separately.

The process

of conceiving a child is

vulnerable and intimate.

It can be very easy to have

confusion about what that

looks like.

I didn't wanna be

leading you on;

I think that's...

not fair to anyone.

And I value-- I also

value our relationship.

No, I've

never felt that,

being led on.

Okay.

The fantasty about any kind

of relationship is just that:

a fantasy.

You know, I can...

just focus on what

we're here together for.

You know, we have a

mission to accomplish.

Just stay focused on that.

mellow curious music

She's a nice girl.

She's pretty,

she's attractive,

I'm attracted to her.

She doesn't feel the

same way, end of story.

It's not gonna happen.

It's not going to be,

so I need to just...

move on from that.

It's fine!

The age difference

is a f*ckin' joke!

I don't feel rejected,

I don't objectively see it

as any kind of rejection--

it's not!

You know, nothing's changed

about our relationship,

you know, as donor and

recipient and good friends.

Give her a f*ckin' sperm

donation and then go swipe

my card stack on Hinge.

- Hello! Finally!

- Hey, Gabby!

- How are you?

- Yeah, nice to meet you!

Nice to meet you too!

- How are you doin'?

- Good, and you?

Good!

Nice... hat.

- You like it?

- I like it.

I thought

you would like it.

I brought it

special, just for you.

Thank you.

- Baby dust.

- Baby dust.

Thank you so much.

Thinkin' about

smokin' some meat.

You down?

Maybe a little

brisket, little turkey.

I'm down

for some turkey.

- Down for some turkey.

So, um...

a situation

popped up, and uh...

Uh-oh.

Something I didn't think

was gonna happen, bro:

um, me getting

a donor child--

like, custody.

Like, somebody

said, "You have no choice?"

Kinda; the

child's in the system.

And, uh...

When you say

"in the system,"

what does that mean?

The child got

taken from the mother.

Oh, snap.

You gotta figure,

like, me and Atash

been trying to have kids

- together...

- Mm-hm.

And this happened.

I think I want the child, but

I think she wants the child

more.

It will most

definitely anchor her...

- Mm-hm.

- And, uh...

I guess only time will tell.

Nice.

Let's get back to work

on this car, homes.

Yeah, I'm about to

go get my scan tool.

Recording in progress.

Let's go ahead

and call Italeigh Miller,

22-1-0-0-6-7 C-J-D-L.

- I'm Mia, foster mom.

- Okay!

This is my wife, Chrissy.

That's Italeigh.

Hi!

Hi, sweetie!

She just woke up from a nap.

And if

anybody else is on Zoom,

if this isn't your case, can

you just turn off your camera

until we call your case?

Tyree Kelly,

father of Italeigh.

Okay!

Department, you may proceed.

Yes, Your Honor.

We are recommending

the goal of reunification

for Italeigh.

Mr. Kelly has

submitted to a DNA test,

and it does indicate

that he is Italeigh's father.

All right, are you

seeking to place, um,

Italeigh with the father?

- Yes, Your Honor, yes.

- Yeah, okay,

I will, um-- yeah, I will

sign an order of paternity.

All right, so,

congratulations, sir.

Thank you.

Okay, September 19th.

I'll see ya then!

f*ck.

gentle curious music

Need a beer after that one.

I f*ckin' hate court.

I know this isn't, like,

a reality that me and you

talked about--

you know, getting

a donor child.

But...

what am I supposed to do, let

the little girl stay in the

system?

No, you're

doing the right thing,

but I know it's tough.

You were in a

similar situation

in the system as well and...

I just think

they're gonna, uh...

obviously do a background

check and stuff like that,

and most likely, my

past is gonna show.

Yeah.

I don't know.

I'm kinda worried

about that, but I'm like,

granted, it's 10 years ago.

That's why they

call it your "past."

I know, like, people, when

they all sit around and--

and see the charge,

they're like "Oh, shit!

Child endangerment!

That's terrible!"

But, realistically, they

don't know the situation was

self-defense.

The only thing they're

gonna see is me attacking

my teen stepson.

The whole situation is bad.

It'll all work out.

Hopefully.

Just gotta

trust the process.

It's hard to

trust the process.

The process is what

got me into this.

You're a good person.

You have to believe in that.

Not what

strangers think of you,

but what your

children think of you.

And I know for a fact

they think the world of you.

Babe, I'm really lucky

to have you by my side.

Me too.

[electronic chime.

Your body does all

this f*cked up shit so you get

excited.

And then you start

tricking your mind,

you start...

looking at it long enough and

crossing your eyes and tearing

apart the pregnancy

test to look for

that second little line.

You know how many pregnancy

tests I've torn apart

thinking, "There's

something there?"

Just hoping...

and convincing myself,

and taking pictures,

and putting different filters

on the pictures to pick on

something-- pick up on

something that the other

picture didn't get.

And this is why I

don't get my hopes up.

[whispering] Why can't

there just be a second line?

Should you

get another donor?

Uh, do what?

Should you get another donor?

- I don't think so.

- I've heard some

people, you know,

they try and try and

try with the same donor,

his sperm is good,

her egg's good,

everything's fine, fine, fine,

but it's just not working.

And then, the next cycle,

they try somebody else,

and bam, she's pregnant.

I think that's

usually a coincidence.

I wanna jump in the pool.

I feel guilty; I wanna

make things right with Mommy.

What's her prognosis, anyway?

- How is she doing?

- I think it's good.

She's getting good news?

- That's promising.

- Her-- her...

markers are

down, which is good.

Well, I have a

theory that, uh,

stress and trauma is

what causes cancer.

Well, I think it does.

And what stress does Mommy

have in her life except maybe

the stress that I caused her?

Well, anyway, if

it makes you feel better,

her numbers are good.

Her numbers are

good, and, what,

she's doing surgery next?

Yeah, three chemos.

She seems to be in

such good spirits, you know?

She-- yeah, she's happy.

- I think she's happy, yeah.

- Mm-hm.

I think-- I don't know.

Ay yay yay...

Passover's really

a holiday of redemption.

I don't know how

much time I have left

to reconcile with my mom.

I'll be in Hungary this

week; I have twins there.

I'm gonna meet them

for the first time.

So of course I'll feel bad I'm

not spending Passover with my

family, but...

So I'm trying to

understand this:

you wanna go out,

fertilize, make babies...

on potentially

the last Passover

your mother's here.

The woman I'm

helping in Israel?

She has no kids.

I could make this

woman's dreams come true.

You can make this woman's

dream come true in June when

she's fertile!

building curious music

Lemme tell you

something, Ari:

I lost my mother.

My biological mother

threw me away twice.

Now you're asking me

to abandon my children

to go be with my mother!

Here, say hi to my mom.

Can you see her?

I'm not telling

you to abandon anybody;

you're gonna see them!

I'm telling you

from my life:

you don't want one

minute of regret.

Redemption, bro!

Oh, going good.

What'd I miss?

So where do the eligible

bachelorettes hang out?

Is that the Richmond pool?

- Am I at the right pool?

- You've met them all.

- Oh, I've met them all?

- Oh. [chuckles] Ah...

- Where do you live?

I feel bad I'm missing

Pesach with the family,

- you know?

- Right, that's gonna be fun,

and then I have

surgery after Pesach.

It's hard!

I always have to make a

decision of who do I spend

time with-- do I go visit

my kids or do I go visit

my parents?

It would be nice if I

was able to combine them,

so that it would

make it easier,

just with time management.

If you wanna come,

you're always invited,

I always love you, but I'm not

interested in your extran--

your strange family.

I know it's very hurtful

to you because you love

everybody's kids.

It's not the same;

you're not a real father.

A father is somebody who stays

up nights and then worries

about the kid

when they're sick.

- How old are you, 48?

- 47.

47, excuse me.

You said you were

gonna be married by 40.

- I said 40s!

- Well, that ship has sailed.

- I'm still 40s!

Yeah, I'm not so

sure about that.

Well, if you wanna

have a kid of your own,

you better hurry up.

You got married at 19, right?

No regrets.

No regrets

getting married young?

You should have

gotten married at 19;

you wouldn't have

had all your problems.

Some people

are like sheep;

you know, they just do

what the other one does.

Not so terrible,

you know,

to make yourself

part of the group!

I wish you would

have a normal life.

To have a Jewish lifestyle,

there's something to be said

for it.

You don't know

what you're missing.

I'm sorry I

took a little longer!

It's okay.

Hopefully we get

some good news in two weeks!

Do you know

what we're gonna do today?

- No, what are we?

So we're

gonna go see Italeigh.

She'll love you.

All you gotta do

is play with her,

make her smile and laugh.

- I can probably do that.

- Yeah.

I'm going to be

the best big sister to her.

You're already the

best big sister.

You're

the best stepmom.

- Thanks.

- Also, you're my best friend,

so...

You're

my best friend!

You're my best friend!

You're my favorite.

- Don't tell anybody.

- Thank you!

- You're welcome!

You're my favorite stepmom!

Oh my God!

Actually,

you're one of my favorite

people.

You're irreplaceable.

- Mm...

- You are.

Yeah.

Ah, be careful

where you're going!

Jocelyn.

Why you acting like that?

You acting out?

Come on, baby.

- Okay.

We're gonna go over there!

Italeigh!

Come on, you

gotta hold my hand.

Come on.

I know.

Jocelyn!

Come here!

Jocelyn.

I'm serious.

What's going on?

Grab another one!

Throw it harder!

Good job, high five!

Yay!

How can I make

things better, then?

Jocelyn!

Stop walking away.

Stop it.

Talk to me!

Come on!

You

wanna go for a walk?

Tyree, come here!

I sympathize with Jocelyn,

but she's the bigger sister.

The attention

needs to be shared,

and you can't put all the

responsibility onto me.

It's not that I'm

tired of this or anything,

it's just that

we're a partnership,

but it's feeling like

I'm taking on, already,

sole of the responsibility.

Okay, I'm sorry.

Jocelyn!

Can you tell me what's going

on so I can make it better?

It's okay if

you're feeling sad!

Did you know I have

a younger brother?

My dad went off,

and he got married,

and he had another child.

And it was hard; it was hard

seeing him with my brother!

But I don't want

that to be for you!

I wanna make the summertime

a happy time for you.

But we have to talk about

our feelings, unfortunately.

And trust me, I don't like

talking about my feelings

either.

You wanna go to

Universal Studios tomorrow,

ride some rides?

Are you gonna get on

all the scary rides?

'Cause I'm not.

Stand over there and take

one with actually you smiling.

You ready?

Smile!

- Look how cute you look!

- Whoa!

Do you see it?

Look.

- Okay.

- I know!

quirky curious music

Yeah, hello?

Are you still coming?

You can't ma-- you...

Wait a minute,

you can't make it?

Chickenpox?!

I saw him two days

ago; he looked fine!

Emerson!

- Hey, how are you!

- How are you doing?

Thanks so much for coming.

- Thanks--

Oh, thank you for

coming to my party!

I'm so happy; I was

waiting for you to come!

And these bouncy castles are

for you if you wanna jump.

All right, nice.

Aw, I'm sorry.

I'm not giving you

enough attention?

I'm gonna play with

you all day today,

but I need to go to the

bathroom for a minute,

and then I'm gonna, uh,

come play with you more,

okay?

Guys, I'll be back

in a few minutes!

Where are

you going, bro?

Uh, I got someone

ovulating in the next room.

I'm gonna make a donation.

Entertain the

kids for a minute.

I would lock the door.

Whoa!

I think I'm gonna need

something to hold onto!

Oh!

Whoa!

These kids are rough!

I'm gettin' beat up by kids!

- Here you go.

- All right.

Okay.

mellow curious music

Sure.

All right,

now we got a party!

It's very funny.

I know Ari since we're kids.

I saw this whole journey.

I wanna say, Ari,

happy birthday.

May you have Mazel,

Hatzlachah with Brachos,

with Simchas, with

Nachas, and 120 years...

- You're the best!

- With the

families and children.

Thank you.

Ari!

Look at the

beauty you've brought.

You have more kids than

I could ever imagine,

and you're a better

father than I'll ever be.

You gotta keep goin', soldier.

And good job for

everything you've done,

because these

kids are amazing.

And I love you, Ari.

There is no retirement.

We had a understanding

that you were gonna donate to

me today; that's why I said,

you know, "Make sure--"

That was a miscommunication,

because, uh, you said you were

coming, but you didn't say

that you tested positive.

I just donated so

recently, so wanna try later?

What's the

likelihood of, you know...?

Well, I'm saying there'll

just be a little less,

- that's all, you know?

- Yeah.

And then we could either try

later tonight or maybe in the

morning, come by

for breakfast.

I really prefer to do it

as many times as possible,

you know, to

increase the chances.

Yeah, I know, but

it's only been a few hours,

so I figure it'd be nice to

give me a little bit of time

to replenish.

Otherwise, it's a

little extra work.

But if we try now, we could

also try in the morning as

- well, you know.

- You know,

I feel bad because I think...

I think of some of

those months I missed,

- if we would have tried...

- I could've been pregnant.

You could've had your

baby here at this party.

Yeah, well...

We would have a one

year old right now...

- Mm.

- If we didn't miscarry.

All right.

It make take me a

couple of minutes,

so don't judge me.

Just wait here,

I'll be right back.

Let me see if I can get away.

Oh, lickity-split!

I'm gonna take

care of it quick!

- But, uh...

- No!

- Stand here!

- I'll be right back!

I'll be right back.

Gimme five minutes!

Hey, there!

- Hey, how you doin'?

- Toby!

- Is this for Skylar?

- Hey, there!

- Yes, you must be Skylar!

- Okay.

- Welcome, welcome!

- Thank you!

Oh my God, that's so crazy.

'Cause, like, no

one really likes him.

No, his-- so, okay,

well, here's the tea.

mellow synthpop playing

So, how long

have you been bald?

How long what, Tommy?

How long have you been bald?

I mean, have you

always been bald,

or do you shave it to...?

- Is this for Rachel?

- It sure is!

- Okay, that's me.

- Welcome!

Thanks.

I have a good friend

that has the same name,

Rachel.

Oh, yeah?

Yeah, she lives in Nashville.

How long have

you known her for?

Oh, about a year.

She has some

medical issues, so...

I haven't seen

her in a while.

But I might go to

see her tomorrow.

- Oh, yeah?

- And I'm

looking forward to that.

You're gonna

like our friend Steve.

- No.

Hi, doggy!

Stop.

Stop.

Hey.

- This looks pretty cozy.

- He's a friend!

Wow, the little guy's gotten

big since the last time I

saw him.

- How are you doing?

- Good.

Do you wanna...

shake my hand or touch me?

- Good to meet you.

Can you recap to me,

'cause I'm just curious,

'cause I can't ever

remember stuff but...

you have how many babies

now that have been born?

Five.

And then do you have

anyone expecting right now?

Two more.

Two more expecting!

Oh my

gosh, this is so cool!

That's awesome.

This is the one

from my house that you always

admire, and so I

wanted you to have it.

Something to

brighten your spirits.

Um...

what do the doctors say?

Are you going to improve?

Are you gonna stay the same?

I got out of the

hospital on Saturday,

and then, I mean, my doctor

has told me that things are

gonna start to get

difficult, which I can...

definitely already feel.

There's a big

potential for death,

and no one wants to die alone.

I just wanna have

someone that I love...

holding my hand, just

to be present with me.

I'll hold your hand...

if you let me.

You know you're in

trouble when you...

when you double your age

and you don't see yourself as

probably still being around.

Then you think about it more.

So...

- Yeah.

- But...

You know, during this process,

I've enjoyed hearing about

your continued success, and

these babies that are just so

beautiful that look like you.

But

there's the heartbreak too,

you know?

Yeah.

For, like,

years, I've been like,

"This is what I want so bad."

And I felt so

good for the

eight, nine months

that we tried this.

I thought we could

make a pretty baby...

if it worked out.

We would

have made a pretty baby.

I think there's multiple...

alternate universes, and

in one of those universes,

we have a child...

living.

tender curious music

Don't you think

this is a little too soon?

It's best

to be prepared!

Like, why do we have

a fire extinguisher?

Just in case a fire happens.

You gotta come

around more often, man.

He be asking for you a lot.

I know you got a bunch

of kids.

Yeah, kids

definitely keep you young.

One or the other:

they're gonna keep you young

or they'll make you old.

Slap me nine!

Right on time!

Slap me eight!

You're too late!

Love ya!

"This is the

Day" by The The

Well, you didn't

wake this morning

'Cause you didn't go to bed

You were

watching the whites

Of your eyes turn red

The calendar

on your wall

Was ticking

The days off

You've been reading

some old letters

You smile and think

how much you've changed

All the money

in the world

Couldn't buy

back those days

You pull back

the curtains

And the sun

burns into your eyes

This is the day

Your life will

surely change

This is the day

When things

fall into place

This is the day

When things

fall into place