01x04 - Too Close to the Sun
Posted: 03/28/24 07:08
Back then...
It was a different time,
so I think it was
a little easier to go to
and from a courthouse
and not worry about Twitter
that night or TMZ paparazzi's
being there.
On the day of sentencing
for Brian,
I get to the courthouse.
It was the most unbelievable
thing I'd ever seen.
His entire side of
the courtroom
was full.
Full.
There were definitely
some recognizable faces
on that side of the room.
And my side was...
me, my mom, and my brother.
Brian had been convicted,
but getting all of this support
from a lot of people
in the industry and...
Yeah, I was pretty shocked.
My mom got up.
She had a statement.
I wasn't going
to address Brian.
There was no reason to.
I addressed my statement
to everyone in the room.
I looked at all of them.
And I just said,
"How dare you?"
And I said,
"You will forever have
the memory of sitting in
this courtroom and defending
this person.
And I will forever have
the memory of the person
you're defending
violating me...
and doing unspeakable acts
and crimes.
And that's what
I'll remember."
In the end,
Brian pleads no contest
to two charges of
child sexual abuse.
And the judge sentences him
to 16 months in jail
and ordered him to register
as a sex offender.
But we wanted to understand
who in Hollywood
was supporting Brian
through this.
So we petitioned the court
to unseal
the letters of support
in this case.
Letters of support are meant
to influence the judge
during the sentencing.
In this case,
most of them are asking
the judge just to give
Brian probation.
These 41 letters
have been kept under seal
for two decades.
Some are from family,
some are from friends.
Dan Schneider does not write
a letter.
Top executives at Nickelodeon
do not write letters,
but some are
from Hollywood insiders.
You have the actor
James Marsden.
He writes in the letter,
James Marsden writes that he's
known Brian Peck for 14 years,
since Marsden himself
was a teenager.
Taran Killam also wrote
a letter of support.
He writes, "I've seen
the effects this situation
has had on Brian,
and I know for a fact that
he regrets any mistakes made."
Some other people who
wrote letters of support
include the famous sitcom dad,
Alan Thicke.
The X-Men producer,
Tom DeSanto.
Ron Melendez,
another very well-known actor.
Rider Strong wrote
a letter of support for Brian.
And Will Friedle from
Boy Meets World.
We don't know exactly what
these people were told about
Brian's crimes before
they wrote the letters.
And we don't know which of
these people, if any,
were in the courtroom
for Brian's sentencing.
But these letters show
how strong the support
for Brian Peck was with people
with industry connections.
Outside of these individuals,
there were over a dozen
other letter writers
who used similar language
to blame the victim,
saying that this
wouldn't have happened
unless Brian was tempted.
Joanna Kerns,
who met Brian when she was acting
on Growing Pains, wrote,
"I can only believe that
there must have been some
extreme situation or temptation
exerted upon him
to influence his actions."
Kimmy Robertson
is an actress.
She wrote,
This logic is just
victim-blaming.
When this minor suffered
at the hands of an adult
who was in a very senior,
almost parental position to them.
There are people who worked
with Brian and Drake
on The Amanda Show,
like the director,
Rich Correll,
and the stage manager,
Beth Correll.
Rich says that,
"it would be my pleasure
to work with him again."
In fact, Brian Peck does end up
working with the Corrells again
on the Disney Channel show,
Suite Life of Zack and Cody.
It shows that there are not
enough protections in place
to keep even convicted sexual
predators off of kids' TV shows.
In 2005,
there was another case.
Ezell Channel,
a worker at the Nickelodeon lot
in Burbank,
he brought a child to the lot,
a boy, and was convicted of
abusing that child on the lot.
He actually had prior
convictions as a sex offender,
and Nickelodeon
didn't catch it.
Jason Michael Handy,
Brian Peck,
and then Ezell Channel.
These are three predators
who worked at Nickelodeon,
all in a short amount of time.
Around this time,
Nickelodeon did expand its policy
around background checks
to include freelancers.
When you look at having
multiple child predators
who worked at Nickelodeon,
it raises some confusing questions
on who to hold accountable.
I don't think that
you can blame Schneider
for hiring Brian Peck
because he was not
a registered sex offender
when he hired him.
Drake very explicitly does not
blame Dan for any of this.
But it's clear that the system
needs to look at
if it is doing enough
to protect children.
Oh, that's not so bad.
-It's not so bad?
-No, it's all right.
After these arrests,
Nickelodeon only grows.
Hey. Thank you for being here.
Jamie, this way!
It was actually
my first time acting on TV,
so it's really fun for me.
The mid-2000s is somewhat of
a golden era for Nickelodeon.
There is a spate of
popular new shows.
Dan Schneider is helping launch
a new era of breakout stars.
Jamie Lynn Spears in Zoey 101.
-Zoey!
-Hi!
Hi!
Victoria Justice
in Victorious.
Just let me...
Ariana Grande,
who we now know
as a very famous pop star,
and Jeanette McCurdy in Sam and Cat.
I am really smart.
This is also the time that
Drake and Josh really takes off.
If you've got a tween
to a teen in the house,
then you know Drake and Josh.
People know you from
the Drake and Josh Show
on Nickelodeon,
hugely popular.
Nickelodeon is
making a lot of money,
and Dan Schneider is
becoming even more successful
and more powerful,
an even bigger name in his own right.
His shows are
cultural juggernauts,
especially iCarly starring
Miranda Cosgrove.
I'm Carly Shay,
and this is our very first webcast
of a little show
we call iCarly.
If you've got a child aged
nine to 12,
or even a daughter like mine
who's 14,
chances are she's watched
Nickelodeon's iCarly.
It is a ratings blockbuster.
And that's our show!
It hit at just a particular
cultural moment.
It was the early years of
the Internet.
iCarly is this Internet show.
It felt cutting edge
to teenagers who saw it.
This is pre-YouTube
generation.
So there was also
this component of real life
that I think hit people in a
way that his other shows didn't.
And because it did,
it just exploded.
At one point,
they did an episode
where Michelle Obama shows up
on it.
I'm on iCarly!
With the success of iCarly,
Dan is able to
consolidate power at
Nickelodeon in a whole new way.
And this is around the time
that the Disney Channel
starts truly competing
with Nickelodeon.
They had massive hits
like Hannah Montana
and The Suite Life
of Zack and Cody.
So as Nickelodeon is facing
all of this competition,
Dan is their answer.
It really launches Dan into
this whole new level of stardom.
He's Dan Schneider,
a man with a gift,
the gift of knowing
what is funny to people of
a certain age, say,
What do you got going that
other folks aren't figuring out?
For one thing,
I am always trying to outdo
the last thing that I did.
Fred Wad.
Dan Schneider was always
really tech-savvy.
He loves technology.
And so when the web started
becoming popular,
he was one of the first people
out there, you know,
doing videos.
Oh, she almost sits, but she fakes
out the cameraman, which is me.
Posting videos on social media
and original stuff.
Some of these seem
pretty innocuous,
where it's Dan recording
the editing bay.
I'm in the editing
room of iCarly,
and we're working on
the next episode.
Okay, take one.
Or the writer's room.
Okay,
this is Dan Schneider.
I'm here with some of
the iCarly writers.
Hello, iCarly writers.
But in these videos,
you can really see the power play
between him and his cast.
It's a lot of him getting into
people's physical space,
and you can see palpable
discomfort on people's faces.
Trying to scare Jeanette.
There's one video
in particular where Dan
creeps behind Jeanette
It scares her.
My gosh,
that scared me so much.
But she can't say,
I didn't like that,
or she can't not have
a sense of humor about it,
and she can't not play
with it,
because she has to.
Oh.
You have to be nice,
because that's the only way
that you're gonna get through.
Whoo!
For Dan, it was about power
at that point.
And when you are someone
who wants more and more power,
eventually you're gonna fly
too close to the sun.
One, two, three!
The kid audience is definitely
my bread and butter.
I mean, that's what
I'm paid to do.
I'm paid to get kids
all the way from six to 14
glued to TV sets.
That's my goal.
That's the sweet spot.
By the late 2000s,
Dan had more control than
pretty much any showrunner
at Nickelodeon.
He had created his own
little fiefdom.
All right,
we're getting ready to fly.
But his style had
a little bit of edge in it.
It also really pushed
the boundaries of sexualizing
young girls.
It's so cold!
Wanna get slapped
with a sausage?
Sure.
There are jokes about
being slapped with a sausage.
There's a joke about
being on the wood.
I want to be on the wood.
What's the wood? I want to be on it.
You have actors shaking
weights in a way
that seems
very clearly sexual.
And these actors,
for the most part, are minors.
Another of Dan's shows,
Zoey 101,
is this high school
boarding school,
California experience.
I was 12 years old
when I started Zoey 101.
Ooh, cute boy to the left,
green shirt, backpack.
When I look back at it,
my character
was there for the boys.
Nicole was the archetype
of male gaze female,
where she was girly,
very short,
short skirts and pink.
Like kid eye candy.
How about this top?
You like this top?
It makes me look chesty.
We don't need to be
hyper-conservative of bodies,
but that didn't represent even
me as a girl at that age.
Definitely Dan
liked cute, pretty, flirty.
I worked in the wardrobe
department on Zoey 101.
I always thought that Dan
had a little bit of
an arrested development,
and he was like that boy that
wanted the cute girl
to like him.
I cannot believe I have two
book reports due in one month.
You put
these girls in bikinis
and bathing suits,
which is fine.
I think teenage girls should feel
free to wear whatever they'd like.
But when you are using
nubile sexuality
as a marketing tool,
that's where it gets sticky.
One of the most disturbing
memories that I have
would probably be
the backpack episode
with Jamie Lynn Spears.
You just bite the tip.
There are these goo pops,
and my character
can't get it open.
It's not coming out.
And it ends up...
squirting onto Jamie's face.
So the prop person comes onto
set with a syringe.
We all, like, stood behind
the camera to watch.
It lands on her face.
So first it was Dan roaring,
laughing,
and then everyone
kind of giggling.
We heard the boys saying,
"It's a shot."
And I had no idea...
what that meant.
Once I saw it again
as an adult
was when that memory
came back.
I was like, "Oh, oh, oh, oh."
Wasn't funny.
It still isn't funny to me,
to be honest.
It's just like, that's a kid.
And she was on set that day
and...
Sorry.
Just as a mom, like,
If my daughter was ever put in
the... It's gross.
Like, there's just...
It's appalling behavior on all
the adults' behalf that day.
In my mind,
a kids' show should be
exactly what it is,
a kids' show.
And sometimes there were
scenes where there was a prop
that was like...
What's he doing?
Hmm, that could be
a sexual innuendo.
Those are good ones.
Mmm.
Dan went overboard and just
zoomed in too often on the feet.
Wow, they're really soft.
Zoomed in too often on
the tongue licking things
or something that
just went too far.
Was anyone able to say
anything or is that like...
Oh, no, no.
This is, it's Dan's baby.
Dan was Nickelodeon's
golden boy.
And even if he and the network
were at odds,
he had the power to push back.
It was very hard to say
anything to him.
And his show, Victorious,
took this to a whole new level.
With that show,
there were online extras that
the network did not fully know
how to deal with.
Time for your nap, tomatoes.
In some of them,
you see Ariana putting tomatoes in a bra.
Check this out.
There are several
scenes with Ariana Grande
that are really I think
almost difficult to see
as anything but sexual
watching them now.
Mmm, I'm thirsty.
She's effectively massaging
a potato.
Come on, give up the juice.
That's a little...
shaped perhaps.
We're adults,
so we know what's going on,
but this is a show for kids.
So...
who is sexual innuendo for
on a kids show?
Help me up on this thing.
It's legal and there's nothing
actionable about it,
Just lift me.
...but there is a nebulousness
around it,
but it's morally murky.
At the end of the day,
I love it when the cast gets
sassy with me because I get
to write all the scripts
with some
very talented writers,
but I get to,
I can put them in
any horrible predicament
I choose.
You can touch their hair,
you can take a picture with them,
you can ask them
personal questions,
inappropriate ones,
whatever you want to do.
Dan, he behaved in a way
that was pretty concerning
and problematic,
especially when it comes to women,
and how he treated people
as a boss on set.
Something that was
always really uncomfortable
was walking onto set
and seeing who Dan
had talked into giving him
a massage.
It was almost always
a female and it was often one
from the wardrobe department.
It was humiliating.
I remember one time
sitting next to a colleague
and she got a text
from him saying,
"Come and massage me
on the set."
and she said, "My God,
doesn't he know I'm doing
two shows?
I'm so busy,"
and I could see that
she was distraught,
but she went anyway.
It definitely felt like
a form of sexual harassment.
There was always someone
massaging him.
That's, like, all I remember
was some person on set
massaging that guy.
Dan was asking for this
incredibly inappropriate thing
for almost two decades.
He was asking people
at work to touch him.
Everyone knew it,
from New York to California.
So who would we go to?
Who could we possibly go to
to complain about this?
Nickelodeon could
have been there
to be a buffer more
than they were.
And I don't think the network
was ever close to doing that.
Why wouldn't anybody do anything?
Why didn't they stop him?
It felt like somebody
needed to rein him in,
and he wasn't reined in.
In 2014, we have
the Kids' Choice Awards.
This is Nickelodeon's big
night to celebrate their stars.
As far as award shows
or anything goes,
Nickelodeon always does it the
funnest, you know what I mean?
Nickelodeon is known for
being fun and messy and gross.
It's also the awards where
Dan is being celebrated.
I'm happy to be here
to honor Dan.
He's created so many
amazing shows.
Dan Schneider wins his
Lifetime Achievement Award.
He is surrounded by so many
different people from all his shows.
They're talking about
how great he is.
Thank you, Dan.
You're an inspiration!
Speaking about how key
he was to their careers.
You not only changed
all of our lives,
you changed Kids TV.
But there is one person
that does not show up.
And that is Jeanette McCurdy,
who was the co-star
on Sam and Cat.
People were just thinking,
"Oh, that's odd."
She's one of the primary
people on one of his shows.
She's been with
this guy forever.
Why is she not there?
Eight years later,
Jeanette McCurdy publishes
a memoir about her life
as a child star,
about the abuse that she suffered
at the hands of her mother.
But the memoir also answers a lot
of really complicated questions
about working as a child actor
and about Dan Schneider,
who she began working
with around age 13.
You pull back the curtain
on child stardom.
-It is not a pretty picture.
-Not as I see it, no.
In Jeanette's memoir,
she writes about
an unnamed
television show creator,
and a lot of people
have speculated that
that person is Dan Schneider.
She writes,
"I feel like The Creator
has two distinct sides.
One is generous and
over-the-top complimentary.
The other side
is mean-spirited,
controlling, and terrifying."
She's also talked in a podcast about
how this treatment felt abusive.
There was a very abusive
producer on that show,
and that would not
have gone well
if I tried to communicate
that to him.
"He'll call people idiots,
buffoons, stupid,
dumb, sloppy, careless,
and spineless.
The creator knows how to make
someone feel worthless."
Dan's treatment of people on
his shows was an open secret.
For the crew,
if you messed up,
even if it was
a minor mistake,
Dan would be someone who would
be willing to humiliate you
or fire you on the spot.
The description I got from
someone was that everything
that Dan Schneider did
is a DEFCON 10 event.
Dan Schneider was convinced
that everything that he did,
the, quote,
"Passion of the way he reacted
and the way that
he approached people,"
that's what made
this magic happen.
That's what made these shows
a success.
Culturally, we are still doing
the tortured genius routine.
So if a guy's
a total piece of ,
he must be so good at his job.
There's a lot of abuse
that happens.
I mean, even talking about it
now, my face gets hot.
You know,
he'd say things like,
"You would work at Yogurtland
if you didn't work for me."
And he would just scream.
Jeanette's experience gets
a lot worse on Sam and Cat.
And this is happening at the
same time Jeanette's mom dies.
She took less than
a week break from filming.
And her quick return is
something that people on set
told us that
they were disturbed by.
The situation got so stressful
on the set of Sam and Cat.
Nickelodeon launched
an internal investigation.
I learned that Dan is seen
as kind of contributing
to this toxic culture
that is happening
and that is really making
this show a difficult place
for many people to work.
After the investigation,
Dan Schneider
was no longer allowed to really
interact with the cast anymore.
Dan has always been such
a hands-on showrunner,
so for Dan, this is the biggest
punishment you can imagine.
When you look at the industry as a
whole, this never happens.
You would be hard-pressed
to find another show
where they're saying, "Look,
we don't trust the guy
running the show
to deal with people
in a humane way."
But they also don't want
to get rid of him.
He creates hits.
There's money to be made.
Dan Schneider can get away with
it because he's Dan Schneider.
And powerful people in
the entertainment space
will make allowances for
anybody who is successful.
Until something happens
that you cannot ignore.
In 2017, three years after Dan
is banned from working
directly with his own actors
on the set of Sam and Cat,
he's back on set at
Nickelodeon with two new shows,
Henry Danger and Game Shakers.
I booked you a massage
with the massage squad.
But around this time,
something has shifted
culturally around workplace
harassment and toxicity.
Millions of women
across the country
- using the hashtag MeToo.
- MeToo.
The MeToo phenomenon.
Several allegations
of sexual harassment
against Harvey Weinstein.
This morning,
Kevin Spacey,
- Undersire, - R.
- Kelly, Bill Cosby.
The MeToo movement
exploding overnight.
And the accusations
just keep coming.
I decided I'd had enough
when the MeToo movement
made it okay to talk about
hostile work environments.
I felt like I could
finally call up my union
and let them know that
there had been some stuff
going on that
it was inappropriate that
he asked for massages
from females weekly
if not daily
and this is not right.
Something has to be done.
The union representative said
I wasn't the only one
who had shown my shock
and displeasure that
this was allowed to go on.
And that they were looking
into it.
A lot of rumors
were circulating around
Dan Schneider,
and these really exploded online.
In 2017,
Nickelodeon launches yet
another investigation
into Dan Schneider.
It's not because they have
a smoking g*n,
it's because the Me Too
movement has helped us
sort of rethink and reevaluate
what we think is appropriate
and not appropriate
in the workplace.
And then my supervisor
actually called me
and told me that...
yeah, Dan wouldn't be
coming back.
For Dan to be ousted from
Nickelodeon is a huge shock.
He did not see this coming.
He issues a couple
statements, basically,
"Oh, you know,
I need some time off.
I'm just, you know,
I'm working on my life."
But behind the scenes.
Nickelodeon literally changes
the locks of this place
that he turned into an empire.
They gave him an amount
that was reported at the time
at about $7 million.
You know, it was just a really
quick, really sharp break.
This investigation
did not find any evidence of
inappropriate sexual behavior,
inappropriate relationships with children.
Jerry, I'm going to push--
But it did find evidence of
being abusive to others
in the workplace.
So to hear that he was gone
was a good thing.
It was a very good thing.
It was a happy day.
When everyone did come back,
it was a much happier workplace.
I remember reading
that Dan was no longer
going to be under contract at
Nickelodeon,
and I can remember
exactly where I was.
It didn't surprise me.
They should have fired him
a long time ago.
Dan is no longer at
Nickelodeon,
and he hasn't made a new TV
show in a number of years.
In 2021, he told
The New York Times, kind of,
I'm ready to reemerge
in children's television.
I mean, I don't see how
he comes back from it.
I'm sure he wants to,
but I don't see how it happens.
Let's please collectively
not let another Dan happen.
Like, he cannot happen again.
Like, this is not a joke.
A lot of his shows
are still on the air,
and they're still
really popular.
But those kids who grew up
on Dan Schneider's sets
and in
the entertainment industry
are adults now,
and they are reexamining
the world that
they grew up in.
Towards the end of season two
of Zoey 101...
I wasn't happy.
I actually could not show up
to set anymore without crying.
A lot of my self-worth
was deeply damaged
from that set experience.
Me as a person was, like,
altered for life.
Being let go from
The Amanda Show
really broke my confidence
big time.
That was a very young lesson
to learn in my career,
is that everyone
is replaceable.
And it sent me down
a really dark path.
I had to really, like,
pick myself back up
and keep it moving in
an industry
that showed me very early on that
it has no love for me at all.
Being a child star
hurt me mentally
and somewhat physically.
The alcoholism that
I've dealt with,
I believe, is a direct
connection to the feelings that
I have after leaving
the industry
and not being able to maintain
the success that I had.
After All That,
I was burned out,
and I was excited for
the next chapter.
I was excited
to maybe try college,
being normal a little bit.
But, you know, not everybody
gets to be normal afterwards
because you don't know
what that looks like.
When I was on All That,
it was a sweet experience,
but the bittersweet,
the bitter side of the
bitter sweet
was pretty bitter.
There's a dark underbelly
to child stardom.
Children are just a dollar
sign when they show up on set.
Nobody's taking anyone's
mental health serious,
and that's completely
unfortunate.
I struggled with
self-esteem issues.
I struggled with
beauty standards.
'Cause I didn't feel accepted.
There you go.
It was a toxic environment
and seeing how the show
just kept on rolling and these
people who were criminals
were disappeared,
it made me quite cynical
about the reality of
power dynamics and it made me
trust people less.
Drake, can you look right at this
way, please?
Right after Drake and
Josh, I was signed,
and then I released
my second album.
I made some really
cool movies,
but I would have stints
of sobriety,
and then I would...
You know,
the pressure would be too much,
and...
all of these demons
that I had, um...
were very difficult to...
to work through.
And so I think a lot of
my self-destructive behavior
would always just be
a temporary fix,
and it would always creep
back up.
I went through this bankruptcy
and lost my house, and...
I mean,
it was absolutely devastating.
Hey, what's up, Glenn?
-Cory, can we get a picture, please?
-Glenn, can we get a sign?
We can go on and on and on
of child actors
or child entertainers
who had cameras
watching every single
downfall.
-Brittany. -Hello?
Did you have fun in there, Brittany?
Lindsay, do you have anything
to say to Brittany?
Look at what happens to these
kids when they're spat out.
They end up quite sick.
They have issues
with addiction.
Eddie.
How are you?
Aaron Carter.
One of those days,
Aaron, you know?
Amanda Bynes,
arrested, hauled out of
her midtown
Manhattan apartment.
Arrested,
allegedly smoking marijuana.
You just wonder,
how low is the bottom?
When I think of Amanda,
it's like so painful.
She was hospitalized for
a mental health evaluation.
Because we are talking about
a very talented young woman.
Someone who had the entire
world at her fingertips.
Amanda Bynes is a very
prototypical child star story.
As she entered adulthood,
it seemed like
she was struggling with
the transition.
She had a lot
of public mental health issues
that tabloids covered.
She ended up in
a conservatorship
with her parents,
and that was very recently overturned.
Child stars' relationships
with their families often
are starting from a place of
discontent,
and then they get worse.
They don't have childhoods
like kids are supposed
to have.
- And look up.
- Okay, ready.
There was definitely
a slow decline
in my mental health
and sobriety.
I mean, DUIs,
um, behaviors that
were happening
because I was...
I... I was lost.
Nickelodeon's Drake Bell
is arrested in California,
accused of driving
under the influence.
Former Nickelodeon star
Drake Bell was convicted
and sentenced for
child endangerment.
Drake Bell
pled guilty to charges related
to inappropriate text messages
he sent to a minor,
but he was not charged
for doing anything physical.
He was sentenced to
two years of probation
and 200 hours of
community service.
I took responsibility
for that.
You know,
I did what was asked of me.
But the media grabbed ahold
of so much misinformation,
and it absolutely
destroyed me.
And I started to spin out
of control.
Actor Drake Bell
has been reported missing.
Police say they are deeply
concerned for his well-being.
If I had continued down
that path, that...
could very likely...
be the end of my story.
I was at rock bottom.
And so I checked
into treatment.
And I got to go through
a lot of trauma therapy,
a lot of grief therapy,
and be surrounded by
people who,
for the first time
in a long time...
...wanted to just
see me get better.
For child actors,
if you're not protected,
it'll turn into chaos.
There's gotta be more support
in terms of counseling,
mental health,
wellness checks.
Kids are still at risk.
The law does not cover
everyone operating on a set
because that's an environment
where either a studio teacher
or a parent is legally
required to be within
sight or sound of the kid
at all times.
That's just not enough.
Someone who has a criminal
record as a child sex offender
can find their way into
this position,
that loophole in the law
should be closed.
Most people actually
financially reward
these industries without knowing
what's actually happening,
you know, behind the scenes.
It unfortunately takes
the people that witnessed it
and experienced it to speak up
to really change it.
My hope is that with
every voice that comes out,
something changes.
Maybe today's the day.
I don't know.
When people ask me,
am I going to put my kids into acting,
I literally have zero,
zero thought
before my no.
I'm often asked the question,
"You grew up in the business
and is this a good place
for kids? And...
and, you know, it's such a,
a hard question to answer
because I wanted nothing more
in life,
but to get on stage.
There is so much
in this industry
that you have
to be cautious of,
but...
would I want the experiences
that I've had,
the good experiences that
I've had, ripped away from me?
I don't know what
the answer is
and I don't have the power
to do it,
but I would love to be able
to create an environment where
we're not so vulnerable
and susceptible to...
outside dangers.
It's just,
it's really hard going back
over these old memories.
Oh, well, you know what?
There's better days
ahead of us.
Yeah,
I keep hearing that.
Yeah, well,
keep listening to it.
It was a different time,
so I think it was
a little easier to go to
and from a courthouse
and not worry about Twitter
that night or TMZ paparazzi's
being there.
On the day of sentencing
for Brian,
I get to the courthouse.
It was the most unbelievable
thing I'd ever seen.
His entire side of
the courtroom
was full.
Full.
There were definitely
some recognizable faces
on that side of the room.
And my side was...
me, my mom, and my brother.
Brian had been convicted,
but getting all of this support
from a lot of people
in the industry and...
Yeah, I was pretty shocked.
My mom got up.
She had a statement.
I wasn't going
to address Brian.
There was no reason to.
I addressed my statement
to everyone in the room.
I looked at all of them.
And I just said,
"How dare you?"
And I said,
"You will forever have
the memory of sitting in
this courtroom and defending
this person.
And I will forever have
the memory of the person
you're defending
violating me...
and doing unspeakable acts
and crimes.
And that's what
I'll remember."
In the end,
Brian pleads no contest
to two charges of
child sexual abuse.
And the judge sentences him
to 16 months in jail
and ordered him to register
as a sex offender.
But we wanted to understand
who in Hollywood
was supporting Brian
through this.
So we petitioned the court
to unseal
the letters of support
in this case.
Letters of support are meant
to influence the judge
during the sentencing.
In this case,
most of them are asking
the judge just to give
Brian probation.
These 41 letters
have been kept under seal
for two decades.
Some are from family,
some are from friends.
Dan Schneider does not write
a letter.
Top executives at Nickelodeon
do not write letters,
but some are
from Hollywood insiders.
You have the actor
James Marsden.
He writes in the letter,
James Marsden writes that he's
known Brian Peck for 14 years,
since Marsden himself
was a teenager.
Taran Killam also wrote
a letter of support.
He writes, "I've seen
the effects this situation
has had on Brian,
and I know for a fact that
he regrets any mistakes made."
Some other people who
wrote letters of support
include the famous sitcom dad,
Alan Thicke.
The X-Men producer,
Tom DeSanto.
Ron Melendez,
another very well-known actor.
Rider Strong wrote
a letter of support for Brian.
And Will Friedle from
Boy Meets World.
We don't know exactly what
these people were told about
Brian's crimes before
they wrote the letters.
And we don't know which of
these people, if any,
were in the courtroom
for Brian's sentencing.
But these letters show
how strong the support
for Brian Peck was with people
with industry connections.
Outside of these individuals,
there were over a dozen
other letter writers
who used similar language
to blame the victim,
saying that this
wouldn't have happened
unless Brian was tempted.
Joanna Kerns,
who met Brian when she was acting
on Growing Pains, wrote,
"I can only believe that
there must have been some
extreme situation or temptation
exerted upon him
to influence his actions."
Kimmy Robertson
is an actress.
She wrote,
This logic is just
victim-blaming.
When this minor suffered
at the hands of an adult
who was in a very senior,
almost parental position to them.
There are people who worked
with Brian and Drake
on The Amanda Show,
like the director,
Rich Correll,
and the stage manager,
Beth Correll.
Rich says that,
"it would be my pleasure
to work with him again."
In fact, Brian Peck does end up
working with the Corrells again
on the Disney Channel show,
Suite Life of Zack and Cody.
It shows that there are not
enough protections in place
to keep even convicted sexual
predators off of kids' TV shows.
In 2005,
there was another case.
Ezell Channel,
a worker at the Nickelodeon lot
in Burbank,
he brought a child to the lot,
a boy, and was convicted of
abusing that child on the lot.
He actually had prior
convictions as a sex offender,
and Nickelodeon
didn't catch it.
Jason Michael Handy,
Brian Peck,
and then Ezell Channel.
These are three predators
who worked at Nickelodeon,
all in a short amount of time.
Around this time,
Nickelodeon did expand its policy
around background checks
to include freelancers.
When you look at having
multiple child predators
who worked at Nickelodeon,
it raises some confusing questions
on who to hold accountable.
I don't think that
you can blame Schneider
for hiring Brian Peck
because he was not
a registered sex offender
when he hired him.
Drake very explicitly does not
blame Dan for any of this.
But it's clear that the system
needs to look at
if it is doing enough
to protect children.
Oh, that's not so bad.
-It's not so bad?
-No, it's all right.
After these arrests,
Nickelodeon only grows.
Hey. Thank you for being here.
Jamie, this way!
It was actually
my first time acting on TV,
so it's really fun for me.
The mid-2000s is somewhat of
a golden era for Nickelodeon.
There is a spate of
popular new shows.
Dan Schneider is helping launch
a new era of breakout stars.
Jamie Lynn Spears in Zoey 101.
-Zoey!
-Hi!
Hi!
Victoria Justice
in Victorious.
Just let me...
Ariana Grande,
who we now know
as a very famous pop star,
and Jeanette McCurdy in Sam and Cat.
I am really smart.
This is also the time that
Drake and Josh really takes off.
If you've got a tween
to a teen in the house,
then you know Drake and Josh.
People know you from
the Drake and Josh Show
on Nickelodeon,
hugely popular.
Nickelodeon is
making a lot of money,
and Dan Schneider is
becoming even more successful
and more powerful,
an even bigger name in his own right.
His shows are
cultural juggernauts,
especially iCarly starring
Miranda Cosgrove.
I'm Carly Shay,
and this is our very first webcast
of a little show
we call iCarly.
If you've got a child aged
nine to 12,
or even a daughter like mine
who's 14,
chances are she's watched
Nickelodeon's iCarly.
It is a ratings blockbuster.
And that's our show!
It hit at just a particular
cultural moment.
It was the early years of
the Internet.
iCarly is this Internet show.
It felt cutting edge
to teenagers who saw it.
This is pre-YouTube
generation.
So there was also
this component of real life
that I think hit people in a
way that his other shows didn't.
And because it did,
it just exploded.
At one point,
they did an episode
where Michelle Obama shows up
on it.
I'm on iCarly!
With the success of iCarly,
Dan is able to
consolidate power at
Nickelodeon in a whole new way.
And this is around the time
that the Disney Channel
starts truly competing
with Nickelodeon.
They had massive hits
like Hannah Montana
and The Suite Life
of Zack and Cody.
So as Nickelodeon is facing
all of this competition,
Dan is their answer.
It really launches Dan into
this whole new level of stardom.
He's Dan Schneider,
a man with a gift,
the gift of knowing
what is funny to people of
a certain age, say,
What do you got going that
other folks aren't figuring out?
For one thing,
I am always trying to outdo
the last thing that I did.
Fred Wad.
Dan Schneider was always
really tech-savvy.
He loves technology.
And so when the web started
becoming popular,
he was one of the first people
out there, you know,
doing videos.
Oh, she almost sits, but she fakes
out the cameraman, which is me.
Posting videos on social media
and original stuff.
Some of these seem
pretty innocuous,
where it's Dan recording
the editing bay.
I'm in the editing
room of iCarly,
and we're working on
the next episode.
Okay, take one.
Or the writer's room.
Okay,
this is Dan Schneider.
I'm here with some of
the iCarly writers.
Hello, iCarly writers.
But in these videos,
you can really see the power play
between him and his cast.
It's a lot of him getting into
people's physical space,
and you can see palpable
discomfort on people's faces.
Trying to scare Jeanette.
There's one video
in particular where Dan
creeps behind Jeanette
It scares her.
My gosh,
that scared me so much.
But she can't say,
I didn't like that,
or she can't not have
a sense of humor about it,
and she can't not play
with it,
because she has to.
Oh.
You have to be nice,
because that's the only way
that you're gonna get through.
Whoo!
For Dan, it was about power
at that point.
And when you are someone
who wants more and more power,
eventually you're gonna fly
too close to the sun.
One, two, three!
The kid audience is definitely
my bread and butter.
I mean, that's what
I'm paid to do.
I'm paid to get kids
all the way from six to 14
glued to TV sets.
That's my goal.
That's the sweet spot.
By the late 2000s,
Dan had more control than
pretty much any showrunner
at Nickelodeon.
He had created his own
little fiefdom.
All right,
we're getting ready to fly.
But his style had
a little bit of edge in it.
It also really pushed
the boundaries of sexualizing
young girls.
It's so cold!
Wanna get slapped
with a sausage?
Sure.
There are jokes about
being slapped with a sausage.
There's a joke about
being on the wood.
I want to be on the wood.
What's the wood? I want to be on it.
You have actors shaking
weights in a way
that seems
very clearly sexual.
And these actors,
for the most part, are minors.
Another of Dan's shows,
Zoey 101,
is this high school
boarding school,
California experience.
I was 12 years old
when I started Zoey 101.
Ooh, cute boy to the left,
green shirt, backpack.
When I look back at it,
my character
was there for the boys.
Nicole was the archetype
of male gaze female,
where she was girly,
very short,
short skirts and pink.
Like kid eye candy.
How about this top?
You like this top?
It makes me look chesty.
We don't need to be
hyper-conservative of bodies,
but that didn't represent even
me as a girl at that age.
Definitely Dan
liked cute, pretty, flirty.
I worked in the wardrobe
department on Zoey 101.
I always thought that Dan
had a little bit of
an arrested development,
and he was like that boy that
wanted the cute girl
to like him.
I cannot believe I have two
book reports due in one month.
You put
these girls in bikinis
and bathing suits,
which is fine.
I think teenage girls should feel
free to wear whatever they'd like.
But when you are using
nubile sexuality
as a marketing tool,
that's where it gets sticky.
One of the most disturbing
memories that I have
would probably be
the backpack episode
with Jamie Lynn Spears.
You just bite the tip.
There are these goo pops,
and my character
can't get it open.
It's not coming out.
And it ends up...
squirting onto Jamie's face.
So the prop person comes onto
set with a syringe.
We all, like, stood behind
the camera to watch.
It lands on her face.
So first it was Dan roaring,
laughing,
and then everyone
kind of giggling.
We heard the boys saying,
"It's a shot."
And I had no idea...
what that meant.
Once I saw it again
as an adult
was when that memory
came back.
I was like, "Oh, oh, oh, oh."
Wasn't funny.
It still isn't funny to me,
to be honest.
It's just like, that's a kid.
And she was on set that day
and...
Sorry.
Just as a mom, like,
If my daughter was ever put in
the... It's gross.
Like, there's just...
It's appalling behavior on all
the adults' behalf that day.
In my mind,
a kids' show should be
exactly what it is,
a kids' show.
And sometimes there were
scenes where there was a prop
that was like...
What's he doing?
Hmm, that could be
a sexual innuendo.
Those are good ones.
Mmm.
Dan went overboard and just
zoomed in too often on the feet.
Wow, they're really soft.
Zoomed in too often on
the tongue licking things
or something that
just went too far.
Was anyone able to say
anything or is that like...
Oh, no, no.
This is, it's Dan's baby.
Dan was Nickelodeon's
golden boy.
And even if he and the network
were at odds,
he had the power to push back.
It was very hard to say
anything to him.
And his show, Victorious,
took this to a whole new level.
With that show,
there were online extras that
the network did not fully know
how to deal with.
Time for your nap, tomatoes.
In some of them,
you see Ariana putting tomatoes in a bra.
Check this out.
There are several
scenes with Ariana Grande
that are really I think
almost difficult to see
as anything but sexual
watching them now.
Mmm, I'm thirsty.
She's effectively massaging
a potato.
Come on, give up the juice.
That's a little...
shaped perhaps.
We're adults,
so we know what's going on,
but this is a show for kids.
So...
who is sexual innuendo for
on a kids show?
Help me up on this thing.
It's legal and there's nothing
actionable about it,
Just lift me.
...but there is a nebulousness
around it,
but it's morally murky.
At the end of the day,
I love it when the cast gets
sassy with me because I get
to write all the scripts
with some
very talented writers,
but I get to,
I can put them in
any horrible predicament
I choose.
You can touch their hair,
you can take a picture with them,
you can ask them
personal questions,
inappropriate ones,
whatever you want to do.
Dan, he behaved in a way
that was pretty concerning
and problematic,
especially when it comes to women,
and how he treated people
as a boss on set.
Something that was
always really uncomfortable
was walking onto set
and seeing who Dan
had talked into giving him
a massage.
It was almost always
a female and it was often one
from the wardrobe department.
It was humiliating.
I remember one time
sitting next to a colleague
and she got a text
from him saying,
"Come and massage me
on the set."
and she said, "My God,
doesn't he know I'm doing
two shows?
I'm so busy,"
and I could see that
she was distraught,
but she went anyway.
It definitely felt like
a form of sexual harassment.
There was always someone
massaging him.
That's, like, all I remember
was some person on set
massaging that guy.
Dan was asking for this
incredibly inappropriate thing
for almost two decades.
He was asking people
at work to touch him.
Everyone knew it,
from New York to California.
So who would we go to?
Who could we possibly go to
to complain about this?
Nickelodeon could
have been there
to be a buffer more
than they were.
And I don't think the network
was ever close to doing that.
Why wouldn't anybody do anything?
Why didn't they stop him?
It felt like somebody
needed to rein him in,
and he wasn't reined in.
In 2014, we have
the Kids' Choice Awards.
This is Nickelodeon's big
night to celebrate their stars.
As far as award shows
or anything goes,
Nickelodeon always does it the
funnest, you know what I mean?
Nickelodeon is known for
being fun and messy and gross.
It's also the awards where
Dan is being celebrated.
I'm happy to be here
to honor Dan.
He's created so many
amazing shows.
Dan Schneider wins his
Lifetime Achievement Award.
He is surrounded by so many
different people from all his shows.
They're talking about
how great he is.
Thank you, Dan.
You're an inspiration!
Speaking about how key
he was to their careers.
You not only changed
all of our lives,
you changed Kids TV.
But there is one person
that does not show up.
And that is Jeanette McCurdy,
who was the co-star
on Sam and Cat.
People were just thinking,
"Oh, that's odd."
She's one of the primary
people on one of his shows.
She's been with
this guy forever.
Why is she not there?
Eight years later,
Jeanette McCurdy publishes
a memoir about her life
as a child star,
about the abuse that she suffered
at the hands of her mother.
But the memoir also answers a lot
of really complicated questions
about working as a child actor
and about Dan Schneider,
who she began working
with around age 13.
You pull back the curtain
on child stardom.
-It is not a pretty picture.
-Not as I see it, no.
In Jeanette's memoir,
she writes about
an unnamed
television show creator,
and a lot of people
have speculated that
that person is Dan Schneider.
She writes,
"I feel like The Creator
has two distinct sides.
One is generous and
over-the-top complimentary.
The other side
is mean-spirited,
controlling, and terrifying."
She's also talked in a podcast about
how this treatment felt abusive.
There was a very abusive
producer on that show,
and that would not
have gone well
if I tried to communicate
that to him.
"He'll call people idiots,
buffoons, stupid,
dumb, sloppy, careless,
and spineless.
The creator knows how to make
someone feel worthless."
Dan's treatment of people on
his shows was an open secret.
For the crew,
if you messed up,
even if it was
a minor mistake,
Dan would be someone who would
be willing to humiliate you
or fire you on the spot.
The description I got from
someone was that everything
that Dan Schneider did
is a DEFCON 10 event.
Dan Schneider was convinced
that everything that he did,
the, quote,
"Passion of the way he reacted
and the way that
he approached people,"
that's what made
this magic happen.
That's what made these shows
a success.
Culturally, we are still doing
the tortured genius routine.
So if a guy's
a total piece of ,
he must be so good at his job.
There's a lot of abuse
that happens.
I mean, even talking about it
now, my face gets hot.
You know,
he'd say things like,
"You would work at Yogurtland
if you didn't work for me."
And he would just scream.
Jeanette's experience gets
a lot worse on Sam and Cat.
And this is happening at the
same time Jeanette's mom dies.
She took less than
a week break from filming.
And her quick return is
something that people on set
told us that
they were disturbed by.
The situation got so stressful
on the set of Sam and Cat.
Nickelodeon launched
an internal investigation.
I learned that Dan is seen
as kind of contributing
to this toxic culture
that is happening
and that is really making
this show a difficult place
for many people to work.
After the investigation,
Dan Schneider
was no longer allowed to really
interact with the cast anymore.
Dan has always been such
a hands-on showrunner,
so for Dan, this is the biggest
punishment you can imagine.
When you look at the industry as a
whole, this never happens.
You would be hard-pressed
to find another show
where they're saying, "Look,
we don't trust the guy
running the show
to deal with people
in a humane way."
But they also don't want
to get rid of him.
He creates hits.
There's money to be made.
Dan Schneider can get away with
it because he's Dan Schneider.
And powerful people in
the entertainment space
will make allowances for
anybody who is successful.
Until something happens
that you cannot ignore.
In 2017, three years after Dan
is banned from working
directly with his own actors
on the set of Sam and Cat,
he's back on set at
Nickelodeon with two new shows,
Henry Danger and Game Shakers.
I booked you a massage
with the massage squad.
But around this time,
something has shifted
culturally around workplace
harassment and toxicity.
Millions of women
across the country
- using the hashtag MeToo.
- MeToo.
The MeToo phenomenon.
Several allegations
of sexual harassment
against Harvey Weinstein.
This morning,
Kevin Spacey,
- Undersire, - R.
- Kelly, Bill Cosby.
The MeToo movement
exploding overnight.
And the accusations
just keep coming.
I decided I'd had enough
when the MeToo movement
made it okay to talk about
hostile work environments.
I felt like I could
finally call up my union
and let them know that
there had been some stuff
going on that
it was inappropriate that
he asked for massages
from females weekly
if not daily
and this is not right.
Something has to be done.
The union representative said
I wasn't the only one
who had shown my shock
and displeasure that
this was allowed to go on.
And that they were looking
into it.
A lot of rumors
were circulating around
Dan Schneider,
and these really exploded online.
In 2017,
Nickelodeon launches yet
another investigation
into Dan Schneider.
It's not because they have
a smoking g*n,
it's because the Me Too
movement has helped us
sort of rethink and reevaluate
what we think is appropriate
and not appropriate
in the workplace.
And then my supervisor
actually called me
and told me that...
yeah, Dan wouldn't be
coming back.
For Dan to be ousted from
Nickelodeon is a huge shock.
He did not see this coming.
He issues a couple
statements, basically,
"Oh, you know,
I need some time off.
I'm just, you know,
I'm working on my life."
But behind the scenes.
Nickelodeon literally changes
the locks of this place
that he turned into an empire.
They gave him an amount
that was reported at the time
at about $7 million.
You know, it was just a really
quick, really sharp break.
This investigation
did not find any evidence of
inappropriate sexual behavior,
inappropriate relationships with children.
Jerry, I'm going to push--
But it did find evidence of
being abusive to others
in the workplace.
So to hear that he was gone
was a good thing.
It was a very good thing.
It was a happy day.
When everyone did come back,
it was a much happier workplace.
I remember reading
that Dan was no longer
going to be under contract at
Nickelodeon,
and I can remember
exactly where I was.
It didn't surprise me.
They should have fired him
a long time ago.
Dan is no longer at
Nickelodeon,
and he hasn't made a new TV
show in a number of years.
In 2021, he told
The New York Times, kind of,
I'm ready to reemerge
in children's television.
I mean, I don't see how
he comes back from it.
I'm sure he wants to,
but I don't see how it happens.
Let's please collectively
not let another Dan happen.
Like, he cannot happen again.
Like, this is not a joke.
A lot of his shows
are still on the air,
and they're still
really popular.
But those kids who grew up
on Dan Schneider's sets
and in
the entertainment industry
are adults now,
and they are reexamining
the world that
they grew up in.
Towards the end of season two
of Zoey 101...
I wasn't happy.
I actually could not show up
to set anymore without crying.
A lot of my self-worth
was deeply damaged
from that set experience.
Me as a person was, like,
altered for life.
Being let go from
The Amanda Show
really broke my confidence
big time.
That was a very young lesson
to learn in my career,
is that everyone
is replaceable.
And it sent me down
a really dark path.
I had to really, like,
pick myself back up
and keep it moving in
an industry
that showed me very early on that
it has no love for me at all.
Being a child star
hurt me mentally
and somewhat physically.
The alcoholism that
I've dealt with,
I believe, is a direct
connection to the feelings that
I have after leaving
the industry
and not being able to maintain
the success that I had.
After All That,
I was burned out,
and I was excited for
the next chapter.
I was excited
to maybe try college,
being normal a little bit.
But, you know, not everybody
gets to be normal afterwards
because you don't know
what that looks like.
When I was on All That,
it was a sweet experience,
but the bittersweet,
the bitter side of the
bitter sweet
was pretty bitter.
There's a dark underbelly
to child stardom.
Children are just a dollar
sign when they show up on set.
Nobody's taking anyone's
mental health serious,
and that's completely
unfortunate.
I struggled with
self-esteem issues.
I struggled with
beauty standards.
'Cause I didn't feel accepted.
There you go.
It was a toxic environment
and seeing how the show
just kept on rolling and these
people who were criminals
were disappeared,
it made me quite cynical
about the reality of
power dynamics and it made me
trust people less.
Drake, can you look right at this
way, please?
Right after Drake and
Josh, I was signed,
and then I released
my second album.
I made some really
cool movies,
but I would have stints
of sobriety,
and then I would...
You know,
the pressure would be too much,
and...
all of these demons
that I had, um...
were very difficult to...
to work through.
And so I think a lot of
my self-destructive behavior
would always just be
a temporary fix,
and it would always creep
back up.
I went through this bankruptcy
and lost my house, and...
I mean,
it was absolutely devastating.
Hey, what's up, Glenn?
-Cory, can we get a picture, please?
-Glenn, can we get a sign?
We can go on and on and on
of child actors
or child entertainers
who had cameras
watching every single
downfall.
-Brittany. -Hello?
Did you have fun in there, Brittany?
Lindsay, do you have anything
to say to Brittany?
Look at what happens to these
kids when they're spat out.
They end up quite sick.
They have issues
with addiction.
Eddie.
How are you?
Aaron Carter.
One of those days,
Aaron, you know?
Amanda Bynes,
arrested, hauled out of
her midtown
Manhattan apartment.
Arrested,
allegedly smoking marijuana.
You just wonder,
how low is the bottom?
When I think of Amanda,
it's like so painful.
She was hospitalized for
a mental health evaluation.
Because we are talking about
a very talented young woman.
Someone who had the entire
world at her fingertips.
Amanda Bynes is a very
prototypical child star story.
As she entered adulthood,
it seemed like
she was struggling with
the transition.
She had a lot
of public mental health issues
that tabloids covered.
She ended up in
a conservatorship
with her parents,
and that was very recently overturned.
Child stars' relationships
with their families often
are starting from a place of
discontent,
and then they get worse.
They don't have childhoods
like kids are supposed
to have.
- And look up.
- Okay, ready.
There was definitely
a slow decline
in my mental health
and sobriety.
I mean, DUIs,
um, behaviors that
were happening
because I was...
I... I was lost.
Nickelodeon's Drake Bell
is arrested in California,
accused of driving
under the influence.
Former Nickelodeon star
Drake Bell was convicted
and sentenced for
child endangerment.
Drake Bell
pled guilty to charges related
to inappropriate text messages
he sent to a minor,
but he was not charged
for doing anything physical.
He was sentenced to
two years of probation
and 200 hours of
community service.
I took responsibility
for that.
You know,
I did what was asked of me.
But the media grabbed ahold
of so much misinformation,
and it absolutely
destroyed me.
And I started to spin out
of control.
Actor Drake Bell
has been reported missing.
Police say they are deeply
concerned for his well-being.
If I had continued down
that path, that...
could very likely...
be the end of my story.
I was at rock bottom.
And so I checked
into treatment.
And I got to go through
a lot of trauma therapy,
a lot of grief therapy,
and be surrounded by
people who,
for the first time
in a long time...
...wanted to just
see me get better.
For child actors,
if you're not protected,
it'll turn into chaos.
There's gotta be more support
in terms of counseling,
mental health,
wellness checks.
Kids are still at risk.
The law does not cover
everyone operating on a set
because that's an environment
where either a studio teacher
or a parent is legally
required to be within
sight or sound of the kid
at all times.
That's just not enough.
Someone who has a criminal
record as a child sex offender
can find their way into
this position,
that loophole in the law
should be closed.
Most people actually
financially reward
these industries without knowing
what's actually happening,
you know, behind the scenes.
It unfortunately takes
the people that witnessed it
and experienced it to speak up
to really change it.
My hope is that with
every voice that comes out,
something changes.
Maybe today's the day.
I don't know.
When people ask me,
am I going to put my kids into acting,
I literally have zero,
zero thought
before my no.
I'm often asked the question,
"You grew up in the business
and is this a good place
for kids? And...
and, you know, it's such a,
a hard question to answer
because I wanted nothing more
in life,
but to get on stage.
There is so much
in this industry
that you have
to be cautious of,
but...
would I want the experiences
that I've had,
the good experiences that
I've had, ripped away from me?
I don't know what
the answer is
and I don't have the power
to do it,
but I would love to be able
to create an environment where
we're not so vulnerable
and susceptible to...
outside dangers.
It's just,
it's really hard going back
over these old memories.
Oh, well, you know what?
There's better days
ahead of us.
Yeah,
I keep hearing that.
Yeah, well,
keep listening to it.